#im just not in the mood to do anything right now and i dont want to give a lackluster response because of that

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[kirexa]

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#i spend so much time looking at this post making screen feeling like i want to vent but i dont know how. i feel like itd be a bother #i hate feeling like that #i hate everything #ive been logged out because every notification unintentionally just makes me feel bad. what if i respond wrong? #im just not in the mood to do anything right now and i dont want to give a lackluster response because of that #but then i forget #and i never respond #....a lot of the time when i post just the invisible character its because i eanted to vent but i couldnt get my words right #but discarding the post felt like i was ignoring my feelings so i just put that. to silently say something #even if its nothing. #the tags are nice #it feels like im whispering here #its less scary #its too loud in the body #even if it still reads the same #it feels quieter here #i love you guys #m tired #vent

[todayisafridaynight]

grabbing the ichi plush by the neck and death gripping it like 'good things are to come its all going to be ok good things are to come' like its a lucky amulet

#snap chats #i didnt even pre order the ichi plush but spiritually i did. good luck charm. #anyway rant time look away from here. Im At My Limit <- i say this every week #I DONT EVEN KNOW WHATS WRONG <- lying. my moms home #i just feel terrible again. i feel so awful i gave myself a headache from being upset #do you know how upset you have to be to give yourself a headache just sitting and thinking #that happened when i was taking a spanish test once but i think i was just so stupid my brain actually started to hurt trying to think #i also remember being sad as hell that day tho so....... maybe it was both #everyday it feels like im sad thats so fucked up and theres nothing i can do about it #ALSO IT'S RAINING AGAIN rain never promises anything good unless you're a plant #im working but i should have this done in. idk a few hours #and then its the weekend right.... there's no limitations for sadness though brother doesn't run on a schedule #unless we're talking about seasonal depression but we know what i mean #ew im supposed to go to that con tomorrow i dont even know if i want to go anymore #i just don't want to do anything anymore ig is the vibe #idk i have a journal to whine bout all this in ╮(╯-╰)╭ squeezing ichi plush is a mood tho so im still posting #maybe if i play a lil y7 ill remember theres good things to wake up for.. #also i gave myself another headache OWOWOWOW STOP when will it end #wait let me be sad again because my dad said we'd hang out today or tomorrow #but i just know that's not happening and now im even more sad WEHHH no one loves me etc etc die #sometimes you just need a melodramatic teenager moment i think we're all due that right like once a month #ok i have to stop my head really hurts ☠️☠️☠️

[melto]

something just like snapped in the back of my head like i Need to go like curl up in my room for like 5 days and play video games and not speak to like anyone

#^ guy who is not out of a depressive ep like he thought he sorta was #dont even like particularly feel the old urge of the anxiety/need to hurt my relationships like i used to..i just feel like shit. #short list of people i think i could handle like really speaking to rn but ultimately. i just want to be somewhere safe and easy #even if that feeling is like making me feel sorta suicidal still. #just dont have it in me to like figure out how to act normal right now. something i have to do around most people and nearly everyone #i intreact with irl right now #not healthy. Ofc naturally i know this. and i can push through it. im just not excited about it. #the exhaustion to like contain myself is greater than my lonliness even though that is rather large #and i would like to get this out of my system before like. the semester starts next week. which i know i cant like control but whatever #this is all sooooo stupid. i need to be alone but i need compaionship of someone i trust. #it feels like there is glue in my mouth and i can barely speak to people im not close with bc of how exhausted and anxious i am #man. thearpy is like. going to really . idk. probably not help my mood. bc it has been hard for me to word what has been happening to me #and im always so scared of saying something that will get me hosptizaled again. Even when it shouldnt. bc im not going to do anything. #but i am scared and tired simply. and while so much has gotten better and ive gotten so much better there are some things that i just. #cant seem to figure out how to fix or ask for help. whatever. Guy who is stupid and helpless and will have to just get over it at some poin #sry i just feel like shit. i should probably just eat something i havent been eating much. and then i will probably feel a bit better #news with isaac

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[orcelito]

Honestly hate how hard it is to start writing again when you've gone too long without it. Like for fuck's sake man Why's shit gotta be like this

#speculation nation #daydreaming of the early discacc days when i wrote 70k words in 3 weeks. those were the days... #im just... so tired and wrung out and everything is so fucking hard #im barely even Doing anything besides working. my apartment is in horrible shape rn. #what is it about grief that makes life so hard to live man. you lose a cornerstone to your life and suddenly everything is in shambles #and i know he wouldnt have wanted this for me. for me to be Barely functioning bc my brain has been so bad in response #im alive im going to work im feeding myself and showering every day #but i havent been doing the dishes i havent taken out the trash theres Stuff all over my floors and cat messes i havent cleaned #and i dont have the energy for any of it. i get home i eat and then i climb into bed. rinse and repeat. #im just... tired. im so very tired. #i keep wanting to turn to my hobbies to cope with things but it's so fucking hard to stick to #constantly oscillating between manic moods where i think i can finally start moving on (but i dont have the focus to do writing) #and depressive moods where Good Fuckin Luck doing anything besides laying in bed #if you couldnt tell im in the second boat right now. in bed as we speak. and so i shall remain until it's time to go to work #at least ive been going to the woods almost every chance i get. it hasnt given me the power to write but it's been good for me i think #get out of the apartment. experience nature. pick up a snail. you know how it goes. #i kinda feel bad for entering a fandom and trying to dig out a place for myself and Kind Of succeeding #i have a good handful of followers. people who wanna see more of my analysis and fanfic #but i havent posted anything significant in like a month bc i have belonged to the void. all month. #losing family will do that to a person i guess. doesnt stop me from being frustrated though. #negative/

[orbdotexe]

Yknow what... have got to flesh out the Exile timeline. Send me ideas or questions about specific events, maybe?

#I dont. have any thoughts. about Shadowkeep. even though i really need to #bc i dont think we have Anything on that period right now? #orb rambles #or if you just have a question or idea about. Anything here. go ahead! #im hoping to get my brain in the mood to answer things so I can Do things #uh. i cannot guarantee they get answered right now but! i will try! #ETERNAL I AM DOING THAT ASK ABOUT CAYDE AND WOLF MEETING i just want stuff to write about Exile after I finish it-

[n0ct0urn1quet]

@raiden-metal-gear-rising sorry this is a gaypos for u but it mite be more of just a rant because i am fuming (not rly i am just frustrated bc . u know why <3)

#im sur u read my previous posts abt uhhh my mom goign to visit my brother bc shes on vacation rn right . shes off til next sunday i think #but uh. yeah thats not happening bc guess what!! she cant afford it!!! because wow who wuldve thought that having to pay twice as much #money for bills + groceries would make u poorer than u already are!!!!! we are struggling!!!!!!! #and what has robynne done? nothing but PARTIALLY pay for grocieries. emphasis on *partially* #idk man its just insane. even if mom wasnt rly thinking about coming to see u we still cant bc we cannot afford it at all....... #i even said if i need to get a job i will and then added 'bceause im more willing to get one than she is' n she just looked at me #and idk man its just frustrraing . pls moeve out of ur place soon so i can leave and move in with u KAJSKLBKKLJG #i dont mean to say that to like rush u or anything u can do whatever u awant at Whatever pace u want i donot minde . it is oke #i just !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! h #i have a very strong feeling im gonna be moving out before she does............................ #just saying #sorey i kno this is supposed 2 be positive bc is gaypos but . i am not in a good mood i want 2 scream and throw things i think #i just want my house back!!!! im tired!!!!!! im so fucking tired man!!!!!! i m going insane!!!!!!!! #and now i just feel horrible bc rob knows i talk shit about her in vc and i just feel like i cannot talk out loud at all rn bc what if shes #fuckin eavesdropping!!! thats another thing did she just overhear me or like completely listen in on our conversation #bc if she listened in on us then thats fucked and i hope she fucks off #but if she just overheard us then idk man guess ill just have to close my door and keep it closed all the time which is something i donot #want to do !! #i dont like having my door closewd bc 1. it gets humid and 2. kitty does not like it and also 3. i just like having it open #but i feel like i cant have it open anymore bceause what if shes listening to just everything i say now!!!!!! i feel unsafe!!!!!! #get me out of here bestie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #sory im just . H!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im going insane ill rb this with happier thoughts in a second i just #oh i am so mad . so mad

[indycar-series]

rant in the tags

#tw depression #i feel like i do this song and dance every two months or so #but im once again at the point that im considering admitting myself to a mental hospital #i literally can't take care of myself and i have no energy or motivation to do so #the house is a mess and my roommate is basically the only one doing anything around here #except for taking care of her cat. i do that. #and i raced this weekend with my friends and i felt so useless the whole time #like he was airborne in turn 3 at irp and when we got the car back in our pit box i basically just couldn't do anything #like yeah there were already 3 people examining the car #i felt like i was more in the way tho than anything #i just stood there holding the deformed tire and trying to figure out what was going on #and sure it was my first time really doing anything racing wise but still i should have been able to do more #i dont have an appointment with my therapist for another three weeks and i don't want to text her this late at night #and while my parents know my mental state is super fragile right now my mom didn't help #she just showed me this church sermon about how i should be proud to be me #like 1. why would you show me that 2. why did you show me that when i told you i was going back to ohio right then #and my dad stressed me out yesterday after i was already in a pissy mood after the brickyard but he bought me lunch bc he felt bad #i feel like mental health wise he's the only one i can talk to but i don't want him to call me right now #and he's been trying hard to keep me out of a mental hospital #even once i came clean and told him what a piss poor job i've been doing at taking care of myself #so i dont know what will happen if i tell him this time #on top of all this im dealing with some serious body dysmorphia that came up after my therapist asked if i was considering top surgery #like yes but only slightly #and now i'm having a full blown identity crisis #so yay... fun times for me i guess #i honestly should probably text my dad instead of venting but i also don't want him to drop everything and come out here #that would make me feel 100 times worse at the moment #i dont even feel anything at this point #just numb. tired. exhausted. drained. #enough ranting for now i think

[milkweedman]

torn between starting a new playthru of stardew valley using one of those mods that slows down game tick speed (i used it before on one of my old laptops, it totally changes the way you play the game bc it gives you time to do Everything and talk to Everyone and check All The Paths. and makes energy management and thus cooking an actual constant part of the game) OR sewing an 8 panel skirt. i already got the measurements i need and took the sewing crate out but now im wondering if i actually should spend the next 4 hours sitting on the floor hunched over.

#on the other hand i really want a skirt though #kind of has to be heavily pieced bc i just dont have that much fabric in general. and i have a vague idea of what im going for #i have some kinda shitty cotton with a sunflower print and then also some solid color fabric quarters that Might be big enough #but mostly i have a fair amount of this nice white cotton with a ton of white embroidery that i wanna use for this #and i really want a skirt right now. and the goodwill had stuff that looked nice but was ALL polyester. which there is no way in hell #i am wearing polyester ANYTHING for any reason. bc the texture is so bad and i cant stand it. #i dont really remember where i was going with this. i also have bread rising and need to make a soup later... #considering the level of Brain Is Not Here its probably better not to start the skirt. also everything hurts so thats a problem as well #but i am in a sewing mood !!!!!! augh. #i could clean off the kitchen table and work there but my sister's got HER work stuff all over it. hrrm #well. we'll see. #i could also do a patchwork skirt (and definitely want to) but thats way more sewing.possibly too much ? but also maybe like easier ? #in terms of math. you just sut squares and sew em right ? #hm. #sewing

[two-tired]

furgot to post yesterday. worked on the collage ive been stuck on, its almost finished just needs to be painted. and speaking of, i did a painting that was inspired by my Spotify playlist. (news flash i hate painting because i can't. i suck ass at painting and i always end up frustrated and typing this sucks because í have paint all over my fingers)

#ive been missing days left and right #but the collage is fur yesterday #and i hate that collage #it isnt cohesive and feels like one i would throw together #and its not meant to because its a birthday card #its all sentimental and shit #and dont get me started on the painting #every time #i get this beautiful idea for a painting and im in the whole mood #and then im faced with the fact that i cant paint #at all #just skies #because half blended gradients are the only thing i know how to do #and stars #but anything else? no #which makes me frustrated because i always have a cibe i want the painting to have and it doesnt #because im not good at painting #so im not having a particularly good time right now but i cant just stick to what i know #i have to fail to succeed and all that #art #collage #mixed media #traditional art #painting #acrylic #landscape painting #day 5 of doing art fur howefur long i can keep it up

[straawberries]

gonna make another post since that usually helps with reach

teehee poll for reach. please read the rest of this if you can

HI IM DELILAH AND IVE GOT LESS THAN 4 MONTHS BEFORE IM HOMELESS WITH NO OPTIONS FOR PLACES TO LIVE

heeyyy its me delilah. im an autistic plural trans girl with ptsd, and im living in an abusive household with my adoptive "father" that absolutely hates me. in less than 4 months, i am going to be kicked out, and i am trying to raise the money i need to survive this event.

ive been trying, pretty much every chance i get, to get a job, but i think because of this shitty small town in texas, everyone already knows who i am and nobody wants to hire me. this means i have to rely on stuff like this.

by JUNE 1ST 2024, i need to make enough money to move out, or else... well, i dont really know what will happen to me (other than vague "homelessness"), but im really scared that it wont end well.

on top of that im rarely being fed enough which is seriously fucking with my mood and making me feel like shit, so im having to balance saving and eating which.. with the money im currently getting, is not very sustainable. other than a few people giving a lot (who i am eternally thankful for and if youre able to do this i would basically do anything for you) im basically getting zero donations.

i get that this kind of stuff is annoying and maybe a bit slow, but just taking a few seconds, maybe a minute or two at most, to give me a small amount of money, would be a hell of a lot more helpful than doing nothing.

C*SH*PP - @delilahswagga

P*YP*L - @delilahkill

plenty of people use stuff like this to scam, so heres some info about me if you doubt that this is true. (copy pasted from previous post)

i have a really big love for performing, i fell in love with theatre years ago and performed the addams family musical as fester about a month ago as my biggest role on stage yet, and right now im in the process of getting ready for antigone as teiresius. i love music, and its one of my life goals to learn as many instruments as possible, and currently i own quite a few, though my favorites are my two ukuleles and my super cool electric guitar. i have 8 partners at the moment, and i have a very big desire to one day live with as many of them as i can. i pride myself on being the best partner i can be, and its been my goal to make all my partner's lives better (and i think ive been doing a good job at it :3)

i love cats an extreme amount, ive never had a cat myself (because my dad is insane and hates cats and tries to hit cats with his truck) but being around cats makes me super happy and always makes my anxieties go away, even when im having an anxiety attack or a panic attack. i really hope i can get a few cats one day, and i want to give them all silly food names :) my fursona is kind of a reflection of that, her name is bagel. some cat names ive thought of are mochi, chili, Supreme Pizza, or maybe french fry :)

im not sure if ill be able to achieve any of my goals if i dont get the financial support i need. ive been.. really close to giving up recently, but i dont want to have to do that, so im going to fight like this for as long as i can.

#undertale #pixel art #performing art #trans #autistic #actually autistic #urgent #help needed #please boost #mutual aid

[kirexa]

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#i dont know what i fucking want to do right now im so tired why am i scrolling tumblr why am i doing this shit i was having a good day #and then i just wasnt why the hell does this happen i want to fucking. i dont want to kms. i know i dont and i wouldnt. but im just really #really tired of being happy and then just not being happy for no reason #i feel like i dont do enough and it fucking exhausts me anyways. fuck. fuck #sorry sorry im just. gonna go. i dont know what im going to do right now but scrolling Tumblr isnt helping anything its just making it worse #at least it feels like i feel a bit better after typing this #ive just felt a bad mood creeping up for the past hour or so and just ignored it and its hitting me full force i hate this #k vent

[angeltrapz]

hm :)

#dad making fun of me in front of everyone: we only tease the ones we love :) #fuck off. #connor.vtxt #i was in a great mood & now i want to cry <3 excellent. #ive TOLD HIM that its not funny. it isnt. but who fucking cares what i think right? #im sorry my options are to keep my mouth shut or vent here. guess which ones easier since i cant say anything at home. #its not that my mom doesnt care. its that we cant do anything abt it since he cant take responsibility for anything #& takes any sort of comment like 'hey that hurt my feelings can you not say that?' as a personal attack. a guilt trip always ensues. #i know i post abt this a lot. its an every day occurrence. i do feel i have to apologize for inundating my followers w. this shit tho #so. i am again sorry for how often i post abt it #and my vent tag is connor.vtxt if any1 wants to blacklist #also just generally hate that he accuses my mom of moving things whenever he loses them #and! guess where the thing he lost was! in the same drawer he claimed it wasnt! #i have memory problems too but i dont blame my mother for every single thing i cant find

[kittykatinabag]

I think the thing that pisses me off most about my graduate university is that since I am an international student, in order to take this program I can only take it as a full time option.

For a normal, neurotypical person this isn't a problem. But I am not a normal neurotypical person, I am a very mentally ill person (probably more so than I let on to be) who's been absolutely broken by the last 6 or so years of existence and currently cannot handle a full course load without spiralling into depressive episodes and anxiety attacks.

But I can't take this program part time. Because then I can't stay in the country. It's such a fucked situation. Honestly it's probably discriminatory too, but I highly doubt the neoliberal state even recognizes disability brought on by mental illness even if their own documents acknowledge it.

Society in general will be all like "uwu it's okay to not be okay!" until the moment you say that you're not able to produce like an average person and then suddenly you're on a performance improvement plan or you quit your job because the thought of working like you used to makes you horribly nauseous and suicidal. But I might be projecting a bit here.

Long story short I'm not having a good time working on my final assignments right now and I don't think even if I ask for extensions it will help anything.

#late night ramblings #also therapy is kind of scratching at old wounds right now so im in such a mood this past week with the extra stress #on top of end of the year stress #i had to skip out on co-studying with my classmates because i dont think i could have taken the anxiety theyre putting off #like the times we were having coffee/tea earlier in the year and talking about presentations i could feel the anxiety radiating #and like i also havent done anything for this final project because ive been fighting my demons and the wifi #so it would be kind of pointless to go and hear their comments about my situation #i cant even break down fully because im sharing an apartment and when i break down i get kinda loud and cry a lot #and i dont want to disturb the others or have them be all worried #i know if i can just get all the emotions out of me i can robot my way through the inital roadblocks #but since i cant fully break down its pretty much useless. #so all the stress just tenses up in my body even though the body is already slightly tensed from the small space here #like how the single bed is relegated to a corner so i cant stretch out fully #and the shower is so small that all i can do is turn around in it and every time i bend down my skin touches the freezing tiles #so my muscles and joints are slightly wrecked right now and will be for quite a long while #im not even going to get into exisitential stresses like money and purpose but those are there too

[grimtaleslb]

I want to draw i want to draw i want to draw so bad but i want it to be good right now without the hard work part i want to draw

#i should sleep #its early #washes up gets ready for bed lays down gets up #gets phone puts on alarm i do have to get up earlier than normal puts phone down lays down #its still early oh i forgot the lights gets up walks turns off light walks lays down gets up its still ealry i can #oh i wanna see mio again gets up get laptop turns on search search where didni save it oh found it plays #all of sea side stranger it feels good i really like this movie its the 2nd movie i watched today i was watching httyd ealier thats alot of #movies in a day good movie scrolls scrolls no sound just looking eyes are almost burning i should sleep scroll scroll flip flip i almost #wanna listen to music but no sound no wow time has passed its no longer early its getting late #turns off laptop puts laptop back lays down gets up is my bathroom door still open #oh no its just still wet from the shower oh but that was a bit ago wasnt it i forgot to turn on the ventilator oh but noise #no noise door close walk lay down grabs phone but i dont wanna read anything i have lots to read but im only reading one thing really #its good but not the mood i wanna sleep to right now i should sleep its almost late oh but watching it makes me wanna draw again i miss #drawing i can put aside time to draw but i have that time put aside for something else already exclaim exclaim despair solemn thinks stops #if i really wanted to i would have dosent that mean anything i oh oh i miss mio the eng dub was nice #Im so over this exclaim dumbass dot calm calm its okay its cool grabs phone when did i #drop it turns off web app for reading opens internet scroll scroll i should write maybe thats tire me out i dont know how to write #i have urges but oh i never thought about it rotates character i think i like a black sig who is like #my perception of mio i think this is because they both have black hair and are cute to me rotates i oh im thinking of #little big brother with black sig but theyre grown up i call it delinquent au its nice but bad but they work thru it oh #also mr ufo au but i cant think of whats after they find out spins i should sl draw something #Oh ive been thinking of space lately i could draw siruis or canopis or not heavy rain nova or #oh its #more late than i thought lays down closes phone gets up gets phone double checks alarms okay now #will put down phone and will lay down and will close eyes and will lay until sleep takes will will will sleep will #hope hope despair solemn but do i have to i dont want to will will #eveyone should sleep at a time and not think to hard dont think to hardnsleep sleep put down turn off turn on doub triple check alarm then #put down and sleep