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#im barely even Doing anything besides working. my apartment is in horrible shape rn.
orcelito
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9 months
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Honestly hate how hard it is to start writing again when you've gone too long without it. Like for fuck's sake man Why's shit gotta be like this
#speculation nation
#daydreaming of the early discacc days when i wrote 70k words in 3 weeks. those were the days...
#im just... so tired and wrung out and everything is so fucking hard
#im barely even Doing anything besides working. my apartment is in horrible shape rn.
#what is it about grief that makes life so hard to live man. you lose a cornerstone to your life and suddenly everything is in shambles
#and i know he wouldnt have wanted this for me. for me to be Barely functioning bc my brain has been so bad in response
#im alive im going to work im feeding myself and showering every day
#but i havent been doing the dishes i havent taken out the trash theres Stuff all over my floors and cat messes i havent cleaned
#and i dont have the energy for any of it. i get home i eat and then i climb into bed. rinse and repeat.
#im just... tired. im so very tired.
#i keep wanting to turn to my hobbies to cope with things but it's so fucking hard to stick to
#constantly oscillating between manic moods where i think i can finally start moving on (but i dont have the focus to do writing)
#and depressive moods where Good Fuckin Luck doing anything besides laying in bed
#if you couldnt tell im in the second boat right now. in bed as we speak. and so i shall remain until it's time to go to work
#at least ive been going to the woods almost every chance i get. it hasnt given me the power to write but it's been good for me i think
#get out of the apartment. experience nature. pick up a snail. you know how it goes.
#i kinda feel bad for entering a fandom and trying to dig out a place for myself and Kind Of succeeding
#i have a good handful of followers. people who wanna see more of my analysis and fanfic
#but i havent posted anything significant in like a month bc i have belonged to the void. all month.
#losing family will do that to a person i guess. doesnt stop me from being frustrated though.
#negative/
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