#life on its own terms

[harmonyhealinghub]

Trust the Timing of Your Life: Embrace the Journey

Shaina Tranquilino

November 25, 2023

Life is a series of unpredictable events, and sometimes it feels like everything is moving faster than we can handle. In these moments, it's easy to doubt ourselves, question our decisions, and wonder if we are on the right path. However, amidst all this chaos, there is one powerful notion that can provide solace and peace - trusting the timing of your life.

Embracing Life's Unique Rhythm:

From birth to death, each person has their own unique journey filled with highs and lows, triumphs and setbacks. It's essential to understand that every experience we encounter moulds us into who we are meant to become. Sometimes things may not happen as quickly or smoothly as we desire them to, but it's crucial to remember that timing plays an integral role in shaping our lives.

1. Patience breeds resilience: Patience is a virtue often tested when life doesn't go according to plan. Instead of succumbing to frustration or self-doubt during periods of delay or difficulty, trust that these experiences are opportunities for growth. Each challenge you face builds resilience within you, preparing you for future endeavours.

2. Lessons hidden in detours: The unexpected twists and turns in life might lead us down paths different from what we envisioned. These detours often present valuable lessons and unforeseen opportunities that would have remained undiscovered had everything gone according to plan. Trusting the timing means embracing these detours as part of the greater tapestry of your life.

3. Acceptance of divine intervention: Sometimes things don't work out because there is something better waiting for us just around the corner. Trusting the timing allows us to believe in divine intervention – a force guiding us towards our true purpose and ultimate fulfillment. When doors close unexpectedly, have faith that new possibilities will emerge at exactly the right moment.

4. Celebrating personal growth: The timing of life often aligns with our personal growth and development. We may not always be ready for the opportunities we desire, but trust that when we have grown enough to handle them, they will manifest in our lives. Embrace the journey of self-improvement and acknowledge that your dreams and aspirations are gradually becoming attainable.

5. Enjoying the present moment: By trusting the timing of your life, you learn to appreciate the beauty in each present moment rather than constantly yearning for what lies ahead. Recognize that rushing through life only diminishes its richness. Find joy in the process, celebrate small victories, and savour every experience along the way.

Trusting the timing of your life is an act of surrender—a release of control over future outcomes. It allows you to embrace uncertainty, knowing that everything happens for a reason and at precisely the right time. By cultivating patience, accepting detours as valuable lessons, recognizing divine intervention, celebrating personal growth, and enjoying the present moment, you can navigate life's uncertainties with grace and peace.

Remember: Trusting the timing of your life means embracing both its challenges and triumphs because it is through this unique rhythm that you discover who you truly are and find fulfillment on your journey towards self-actualization.  

#trust the timing #embrace the journey #timing is everything #patience is key #divine timing #life on its own terms #surrender to the universe #believe in fate #have faith in timing #let go and let life #timing your success #trust the process #opportunities in time

[corvidcall]

None Of You Know What Haiku Are

I'm going to preface this by saying that i am not an expert in ANY form of poetry, just an enthusiast. Also, this post is... really long. Too long? Definitely too long. Whoops! I love poetry.

If you ask most English-speaking people (or haiku-bot) what a haiku is, they would probably say that it's a form of poetry that has 3 lines, with 5, and then 7, and then 5 syllables in them. That's certainly what I was taught in school when we did our scant poetry unit, but since... idk elementary school when I learned that, I've learned that that's actually a pretty inaccurate definition of haiku. And I think that inaccurate definition is a big part of why most people (myself included until relatively recently!) think that haiku are kind of... dumb? unimpressive? simple and boring? I mean, if you can just put any words with the right number of syllables into 3 lines, what makes it special?

Well, let me get into why the 5-7-5 understanding of haiku is wrong, and also what makes haiku so special (with examples)!

First of all, Japanese doesn't have syllables! There's a few different names for what phonetic units actually make up the language- In Japanese, they're called "On" (音), which translates to "sound", although English-language linguists often call it a "mora" (μ), which (quoting from Wikipedia here) "is a basic timing unit in the phonology of some spoken languages, equal to or shorter than a syllable." (x) "Oh" is one syllable, and also one mora, whereas "Oi" has one syllable, but two moras. "Ba" has one mora, "Baa" has two moras, etc. In English, we would say that a haiku is made up of three lines, with 5-7-5 syllables in them, 17 syllables total. In Japanese, that would be 17 sounds.

For an example of the difference, the word "haiku", in English, has 2 syllables (hai-ku), but in Japanese, はいく has 3 sounds (ha-i-ku). "Christmas" has 2 syllables, but in Japanese, "クリスマス" (ku-ri-su-ma-su) is 5 sounds! that's a while line on its own! Sometimes the syllables are the same as the sounds ("sushi" is two syllables, and すし is two sounds), but sometimes they're very different.

In addition, words in Japanese are frequently longer than their English equivalents. For example, the word "cuckoo" in Japanese is "ほととぎす" (hototogisu).

Now, I'm sure you're all very impressed at how I can use an English to Japanese dictionary (thank you, my mother is proud), but what does any of this matter? So two languages are different. How does that impact our understanding of haiku?

Well, if you think about the fact that Japanese words are frequently longer than English words, AND that Japanese counts sounds and not syllables, you can see how, "based purely on a 17-syllable counting method, a poet writing in English could easily slip in enough words for two haiku in Japanese” (quote from Grit, Grace, and Gold: Haiku Celebrating the Sports of Summer by Kit Pancoast Nagamura). If you're writing a poem using 17 English syllables, you are writing significantly more content than is in an authentic Japanese haiku.

(Also not all Japanese haiku are 17 sounds at all. It's really more of a guideline.)

Focusing on the 5-7-5 form leads to ignoring other strategies/common conventions of haiku, which personally, I think are more interesting! Two of the big ones are kigo, a season word, and kireji, a cutting word.

Kigo are words/phrases/images associated with a particular season, like snow for winter, or cherry blossoms for spring. In Japan, they actually publish reference books of kigo called saijiki, which is basically like a dictionary or almanac of kigo, describing the meaning, providing a list of related words, and some haiku that use that kigo. Using a a particular kigo both grounds the haiku in a particular time, but also alludes to other haiku that have used the same one.

Kireji is a thing that doesn't easily translate to English, but it's almost like a spoken piece of punctuation, separating the haiku into two parts/images that resonate with and add depth to each other. Some examples of kireji would be "ya", "keri", and "kana." Here's kireji in action in one of the most famous haiku:

古池や　蛙飛び込む　水の音 (Furu ike ya　kawazu tobikomu　mizu no oto) (The old pond — A frog jumps in The sound of the water.)

You can see the kireji at the end of the first line- 古池や literally translates to "old pond ya". The "ya" doesn't have linguistic meaning, but it denotes the separation between the two focuses of the haiku. First, we are picturing a pond. It's old, mature. The water is still. And then there's a frog! It's spring and he's fresh and new to the world! He jumps into the pond and goes "splash"! Wowie! When I say "cutting word", instead of say, a knife cutting, I like to imagine a film cut. The camera shows the pond, and then it cuts to the frog who jumps in.

English doesn't really have a version of this, at least not one that's spoken, but in English language haiku, people will frequently use a dash or an ellipses to fill the same role.

Format aside, there are also some conventions of the actual content, too. They frequently focus on nature, and are generally use direct language without metaphor. They use concrete images without judgement or analysis, inviting the reader to step into their shoes and imagine how they'd feel in the situation. It's not about describing how you feel, so much as it's about describing what made you feel.

Now, let's put it all together, looking at a haiku written Yosa Buson around 1760 (translated by Harold G. Henderson)

The piercing chill I feel: my dead wife's comb, in our bedroom, under my heel

We've got our kigo with "the piercing chill." We read that, and we imagine it's probably winter. It's cold, and the kind of cold wind that cuts through you. There's our kireji- this translation uses a colon to differentiate our two images: the piercing chill, and the poet stepping on his dead wife's comb. There's no descriptions of what the poet is feeling, but you can imagine stepping into his shoes. You can imagine the pain he's experiencing in that moment on your own.

"But tumblr user corvidcall!" I hear you say, "All the examples you've used so far are Japanese haiku that have been translated! Are you implying that it's impossible for a good haiku to be written in English?" NO!!!!! I love English haiku! Here's a good example, which won first place in the 2000 Henderson haiku contest, sponsored by the Haiku Society of America:

meteor shower . . . a gentle wave wets our sandals

When you read this one, can you imagine being in the poet's place? Do you feel the surprise as the tide comes in? Do you feel the summer-ness of the moment? Haiku are about describing things with the senses, and how you take in the world around you. In a way, it's like the poet is only setting a scene, which you inhabit and fill with meaning based on your own experiences. You and I are imagining different beaches, different waves, different people that make up the "our" it mentioned.

"Do I HAVE to include all these things when I write haiku? If I include all these things, does that mean my haiku will be good?" I mean, I don't know. What colors make up a good painting? What scenes make up a good play? It's a creative medium, and nobody can really tell you you can't experiment with form. Certainly not me! But I think it's important to know what the conventions of the form are, so you can appreciate good examples of it, and so you can know what you're actually experimenting with. And I mean... I'm not the poetry cops. But if you're not interested in engaging with the actual conventions and limitations of the form, then why are you even using that form?

I'll leave you with one more English language haiku, which is probably my favorite haiku ever. It was written by Tom Bierovic, and won first place at the 2021 Haiku Society of America Haiku Awards

a year at most . . . we pretend to watch the hummingbirds

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Further reading:

Forms in English Haiku by Keiko Imaoka Haiku: A Whole Lot More Than 5-7-5 by Jack How to Write a Bad Haiku by KrisL Haiku Are Not a Joke: A Plea from a Poet Who Has Had It Up to Here by Sandra Simpson Haiku Checklist by Katherine Raine

#poetry #haiku #writing #literature #anime life #long post #i want to apologize but i had to get something off my chest #and the thing was. i love haiku #and when i see posts on here about haiku. i get so angy. #well ok i really get more disappointed bc nobody is really engaging with the form on its own terms #anyway i hope you enjoy some of my favorite haiku because theyre in there!!!!! #i didnt really get into the history of haiku. and i also did not get into why i got really into it #but i will say that i was really inspired by Jacob Geller's video A Thousand Ways of Seeing a Forest #which is a lot about translation #(which i mean. as an interpreter AND a poetry-enjoyer. really appealed to me lol)

[yellowocaballero]

So fucking glad to see someone talk about SSS Class revival hunter 😭 I lived it so much and I feel like no one ever mentions it against more popular titles like ORV or even The Lout of the counts family, so I'm so glad to come here and see your amazing takes :>

Thank you for the ask which lets me talk about SSSCRH (the version I read was titled 'Suicide Hunter', which tbh I like more - no beating around the bush).

It's hard to draw an accurate comparison since I'm going off just the webtoon for SSSCRH, while I'm going off both the webtoon and the webnovel for ORV. And I love ORV, ORV is my media blorbo right now, it hydraulic presses my brain, I am writing ORV fanfic - it's, like, funner to enjoy. But SSSRH is just better. In the vast majority of ways it is is better. It's better than the holy trinity by a wide margin. TW talk of suicide obviously.

I can't believe I'm saying this but you need a basic understanding of Buddhism in order to understand SSSCRH. It's not about Gongja's suicides - he doesn't suicide from depression or lack of self-esteem. SSSCRH is about suffering in the Buddhist sense - dukkha. I don't want to make this an essay, so I might reblog this with more information, but extremely shortly:

The Four Noble Truths of Buddhism is the truth of suffering, the truth of the cause of suffering, the truth of the end of suffering, and the truth of the path that leads to the end of suffering. You've heard that Buddhists say 'life is suffering'. To put it one way that doesn't require defining a lot of words: the cause of suffering is experiencing the world as we percieve it instead of how it truly is. Suffering isn't just being miserable and in pain, and life isn't suffering because life sucks and global warming exists and people voted for Trump. Life is suffering because we can experience beautiful and joyful moments in this world, but we do not exist in the moment of that happiness or place our ego/'self' between us and that happiness. Living in that moment, accepting the moment as it is unconditionally, is freedom from suffering. The Buddha tries to free people from suffering through teaching Buddhism.

"What does this have to do with the webnovel and manwha about a guy murdering himself thousands of times" it has everything to do with it. Because SSSCRH is about suffering, and it is about using suffering as a tool in order to experience a world unfiltered by ego and break down the artificial boundaries between human beings. Suffering in SSSCRH is not a bad thing. Gongja has the unique capability to (reincarnate.) experience a person's suffering in unity with them, which dissolves the delusion of separation between people and puts us in touch with the reality of oneness.

The Murim arc was fucking insane because Gongja pulls a Big Bodhisattva Move and walks through the suffering of the world in order to achieve full understanding of the human experience. He takes all of the suffering of the world into himself and is liberated. You can tell it's Buddhist because death was not presented as a bad thing - death was an aspect of a happy ending for the Heavenly Demon lady, because she was finishing her life according to her own joy, and because her teachings were passed on she did not truly die.

But the purpose of embracing suffering is to discover the ability to fully embrace life, and that's where Heavenly Demon's teachings were incomplete - as the ghost dude said, Gongja hasn't even experienced his own full life and the infinite capability for his own happiness. You can only feel the depths of sadness when you've felt the depths of happiness. Sadness deserves its place in the world and it can strengthen you, but so does happiness.

Gongja is attention-seeking, envious, and unbelievably petty. When he drills down into his own desires and why he wants the things he wants, you see that he has a very strong sense of justice and right and wrong - he realizes he doesn't want to be famous, he wants to be acknowledged, but on an even deeper level he is desperate for love and to be loved. Everything he does is to experience love, and as such he learns to love others. His love for the Flamey Asshole was purely parasocial and ego-filled, with no concern for who he was as a human. Throughout the manwha, he grows to care for people as they truly are and pierce through any delusions or misleading outward appearances. He has released all attachment to life and death, and as such does not fear death, and as such has taken a step on the road towards becoming a Boddhisatva who frees others from the cycle of samsara, and as a result has learned sick sword techniques and is sooo good at beating people up.

I think the only other thing I want to mention here because otherwise this is an essay: in almost every time loop/regression story, only the final regression matters. In stories with dungeon monsters and NPCs, only the humans matter. The regressor exists in a space where there are no consequences for their actions, so they act terribly and do whatever because none of it matters. In Groundhog Day Bill Murray acts like an asshole because he can. That's not the case here. Everything Gongja does matters. The NPCs are fake, but Gongja never treats them as anything less than real people who deserve life. Once he understands a person's life he never treats them as unimportant. No loop is thrown away and no person or life is disregarded. His choices matter, the way he treats others matters, and Gongja never treats anybody as if they don't matter except for himself.

That was not short. There is a lot more. The female characters are so good and so rich. From a craft perspective it is excellently paced and has a wonderful sense of set-up/payoff and balances tone and maintains a lot of momentum, which is really hard in a time loop story. You have to do a few very specific things to write OP characters well and SSSCRH does it very well. There's more to say from a craft perspective and it's hard to judge accurately from a webtoon but it's good. I was so strangely struck the entire time about how sincere and genuine it was, how it said what it said with no trace of irony of confusion, and I think that's what stuck with me the most.

TL;DR: SSS Class Revival Hunter is good for a lot of very normal reasons, such as excellent pacing and set-up/pay off and characters, but it's also so sincerely and genuinely Buddhist that it blew my tits clean off.

#sss class revival hunter #kim gongja #ssscrh #I s2g I rewrite these like three times to be as short as possible #I just knew I had to define some terms because if I say 'it's about suffering' and leave it at that #people aren't going to fully get it #its not intuitive from a western perspective #It's really hard to get the full meaning of SSSCRH if you have no familiarity with Buddhism #bc suffering (and delusion and nothingness and oneness) mean diff things in buddhism than in english #theres other buddhist stuff like responsibility to the whole and the community but this was long enough already #the few ppl talking about it have good takes but I think ppl miss how #kgj isnt depressed and he doesnt kill himself from self-sacrifice #he's not kdj or cale #he only truly commits suicide (throws his life away) once which was from part percieved worthlessness of his own life #and big part EXTREME FUCKING PETTINESS NEXT LVL PETTINESS INSANE PETTINESS #every other time he kills himself is from his EXTREME goal oriented behavior #as usual there seems to be a dialogue with the rest of its genre #specifically the extreme egocentrism and selfishness of its genre and other OP protags #(which cale has a hilarious relationship w/) #(ur doing amazing honey i know this upsets you) #my asks #and theres also a conversation with buddhism itself anyway #i love orv but this is so much better on so many levels and its being slept on smh #nobody is going to read this its way too long but you know. its not ABOUT you.

[aroacettorney]

do not let caseys sunshiness distract you from the fact that she is just as much emotionally constipated as ludger.

#academy's undercover professor spoilers #academy's undercover professor #casey selmore #the fact that casey has never told anyone including betty and terinna about delica/memory storming events is so wild to me #like girlie why r u suffering from all that by urself #ppl hating on casey for having negative EQ but that only reflects how much emotional support she usually gets from others #case in point: marias selmore #wouldnt surprise me if casey has never trusted to emotionally open up to anyone ever again when its her own family treating her like that #in her entire life casey is close to only 4 ppl but they are either: #1) her sister who historically sucks #2) bestie no. 1 who is almost always swarmed with work #3) bestie no. 2 who once again gave her trust and abandonment issues #4) bestie no. 3 who is not even a human but an automaton also learning how to deal with her own emotions #not to mention to maintain her reputation as a renowned detective she must have been neglecting her own emotional needs #casey selmore my beloved just because you dont look at it doesnt mean it is not there #casey tryna brush off her emotions after the memory storming and seek to solve the problem logically like a thinker she is but #she didnt realise that she was just delaying the inevitable and so the basara arc hit her like a truck + left her bedridden for a month 💀 #caseys apologies to ludger only really solved the problem on logical terms #but there is never any emotional closure between them bc they are both painfully emotionally constipated so back to suffering we go 💀💀💀 #lesson learnt from ludgercasey angst galore: stop trying to solve emotional problems with logics

[hearts4juzi]

I love how i have pointless headcanons about gregorys transness because his whole ggy era got twisted around to me thinking about how hes trans and how that might connect with his time glitchtrapped especially since he was referred to with fem terms (in other languages but shhhhh let me have this) and how his recovery period of taking back his life could include reclaiming his gender and hitting that "tboy enough to fuck with gender without being scared of being misgendered" type thing and thats why i find any headcanons of him wearing skirts/makeup/nailpolish or other traditionally feminine things so so so special

#like i think a lot about him being a stranger in his own body #he acts like himself and talks like himself but sometimes just isnt himself #and the way the therapists use fem terms and the discomfort that could bring #but he cant do much because its not him #and he end up not remembering a good chunk of his life #everything has been taken from him #but even before that #he had to cut his own hair and everything and he still didnt get to keep his own fucking name because someone else stood in his place #and pretended to be him #but its not him #and idk how this truly connects to transness but i resonated with it #and i think in his goal to truly heal from everything #it include a massive fuck yo to that rabbit and society #he'll wear skirts and makeup and do what he wants because nobody controls him. not a rabbit and certainly not societys perception of gender #does this make sense #i think abt trans gregory a lot its canon to me #tzu rambles

[maledepravityarchive]

bro you know whats fucked up... their epic gnc lesbian swag is literally being erased rn. and its just another man doing all of the cool shit again. like thats fucked up. theyre literally erasing women.

#like... do you know how badly i would have wanted to hear about a WOMAN who did those things as a kid #how badly i would have wanted to hear that women were never ok with their assigned roles #and broke out of them and did what they wanted all throughout history #and that women werent inherently meek and mild and feminine. and that they could have lives on their own terms #and i would have known that if women in the past did it then i could do it too #like fuck this shit. everytime a woman does cool shit it is always erased #terf safe #terfs do interact #gender critical #radblr #terfblr #i know this doesnt really qualify as part of a 'male depravity archive' but i wanted to put this SOMEWHERE. #i feel like im not putting this into words very well but i feel very strongly about this #bc my whole life ive always wanted to hear about women with that kind of swag and that kind of life #and its so fucking unfair #non-MDA posts

[aropride]

i really dont understand studying at all like genuinely i don't know what it is . i know about "taking notes" and "reading the textbook" and that's it . quizlet doesn't do shit for me because i don't know what to. do. with the cards. look at them ? am i supposed to just look at them . No one bothered teaching me actual skills bc i got good grades when i was 8 and now i am so hopelessly lost . why did no one think to teach me this for when stuff got harder than four plus three

#text #ive never understood flashcards . like what to do with them. how is that any more different or helpful than just like... writing a list on #paper of vocab terms or whatever #and like conceptually i know 'learning' is like. not only committing things to memory but also being able to engage with it which #is why teachers loveeeee group discussions and essays. but like. you read the text and then you go to class and Discuss but how do you #Learn what the text is saying like how do you . put it in your brain and udnerstand and remember it . #i think im missing something very simple because everyone else in the world seems to understand this fine #like where does the part where you go oh! i understand this and can explain it in my own words. Happen #how do u force it to happen if its not something ur autistic about #Like the only example i can think of rn of this is when i hyperfixated on hpa axis dysregulation + trauma a couple weeks ago #so i was learning stuff about it for Fun and not for school so no comprehension tests or notes or anything #and basically i'd just put on a webinar while i sorted seaglass or worked on sewing or whaever #and i can explain the concept fine. ur brain controls ur body so if it gets too scared ur body loses its shit basically. #but i dont remember most of the words. i still can barely define neurotransmitter #i can apply this to my own life but i confuse the hippocampus and the frontal lobe and the amygdala etc #and i couldnt point out any of them on a diagram #i dont get it . like i know a lot and simultaneously nothing at all abt it #how am i supposedto be remembering words and numbers AND understanding the concepts AND im supposed to do that between #reading the book and engaging in thoughtful conversation with my peers i dont understand

[brother-emperors]

I see your dog-coded Agrippa and Cassius, but what about Crassus ? Kind of like feral dog coded

for me, Crassus skips the dog coding allegations on account of no one being able to put a leash on him, and there's no person he seems to be singularly devoted to in a way that dictates his actions

Dating The Praetorship of Marcus Licinius Crassus, Martin Stone

like, there's Sulla, but Crassus also did a lot of that of his own accord, and Sulla shut the door on him politically so Crassus climbed in through a window and worked a different aspect of Roman society-politics with magnificent skill. he ALSO skips the dog allegations because if anyone is bringing someone to heel, it's Crassus doing it to other people. there isn't a specific person that Crassus' actions can be dedicated to in a way that makes me think of a dog the way Agrippa's actions for Octavian do.

I also don't think he's feral! what he is: really fucking ruthless, or has the potential for ruthlessness, which isn't the same thing to me as being feral. and being ruthless is not uncommon for Late Republic politics

Lucullus: A Life, Arthur Keavney

but its that pivot point between being firm, ruthless, and likeable that makes him interesting. he's actually. he's--

okay, so in my mind, he's Machiavelli Prince coded. there are only two Romans I have ever made a compare and contrast analysis using Machiavelli's Il Principe, one is Augustus, the other is Crassus. and for once my connect the dots of thematic tomfoolery has something I can cite, someone ELSE has also made a comparison to Augustus

Dating The Praetorship of Marcus Licinius Crassus, Martin Stone

#anyone here watch devil judge. crassus is like. more yo-han coded to me. in terms of themes and ruthlessness #you try to put him down at your own risk. with crassus tho its like. no roman could do it so ofc he had to meet his end outside of rome #...on the other hand. i respect yo-han and what he's doing as a whole. you guys ever watch yakuza films? crassus would fit in #SO well as a character in a yakuza film. or a 90s HK gangster narrative #if this was a filipino drama i'd want jake cuenca to play him #i also dont know if i'd call cassius dog coded. he really only comes to heel for brutus during the last few years of their shared lives #he is definitively gladiator coded to brutus' statesman tho #i dont often look at characters/figures and go 'oh. dog for sure.' but when i do its like. oh wow okay guys #like octavius wanting to die with crassus? not dog coded. that's just. devoted. devotion. that's love. that's grief. loyalty. #there's no greater love than to lay down one's life for a friend. there's no greater devotion than to die with your general #ask tag

[isdalinarhot]

theres like. something sinister about the 10th stormlight book that makes normal young healthy people who have no reason to think theyll be dead in 25 years start second guessing themselves and get weird and contemplate-y about their own mortality. like ive seen posts from multiple mutuals who are like. in their early 20s. that are like I Have This Irrational Feeling That I'll Die Before The Tenth Stormlight Book Comes Out. cursed book for real

#my relationship with my own mortality is probably Not Normal For My Age due to having dealt with suicidality since i was like 14 #but like in terms of life events that make you consider the far future its like 1. having a baby and thinking about that baby bein an adult #2. thinking about stormlight 10 #someone needs to do a psychological study on this #luke.txt #ask to tag #greatest hits

[ubike-official]

cant wait to be on tumblr to live blog when im like 31 and finally decide to give romance a go and have my own little yuri rendition of cherry magic (no virgin telepathy tho) for the remaining 20 mutuals that haven't left here either. def looking forward to that

#I'm not really like weird abt the fact I haven't really done anything in that sphere. and its funny bc i usually like tell ppl when romance #and all that comes up and ppl are always like 'ur joking' and its always like no dead serious but they just kinda accept it bc i do not giv #them the room to be qeird abt it which is nice bc like. idk i refuse to feel bad or weird abt my own boundaries. ive gone thru enough damag #and trauma to recognize that I do not form relationships or be vulnerable with anyone. and thats not great and like to improve in that real #but 100% at my speed. on My terms. society be damned. #also the avoidant attachment style is sooo there. idk i just think its embarassing to be in love. i want sooo badly to feel the full #weight of love in my life. but the parasites. the parasites want me to isolate yk #but yea! anyways bed time soon its sunday

[quarks-pussy]

Mirror Kira is something that can actually be so personal

#in a number of ways tbh like defo in a gay way and in terms of clone fucker rights and in terms of evil girlbossing etc etc but most of all #most of the mirror characters (to me) feel like au versions of the prime characters and obviously they ARE but they're still very much atta #attached to the prime characters y'know what i mean? like maybe not everyone but most mirror characters do feel like they basically are wha #the prime characters could've been if their lives had been different and like it's not completely out of the question for mirror kira but s #she still feels so... herself. like she's not defined by prime kira on any level. most mirror characters feel very defined by their prime c #counterparts and mirror kira... she's different. she is literally herself and no similarities will change that. she does not exist as an ex #extension of prime kira she is her own separate character. mirror kira could literally exist in the prime universe without even having to b #connected to prime kira by anything other than name and face. file off her serial numbers and you're golden & have a new and extremely comp #compelling villain. she is separate she's herself and nobody else. all the other mirror characters feel like twisted versions of the prime #characters who took a different path at some point. if there's any way to apply this to mirror kira that point would be her birth. like she #genuinely feels like they took a look at the circumstances on bajor in the mirror verse and thought about how a bajoran might grow up there #and THEN they made that bajoran kira. like i'm not saying she's nothing like prime kira but she just feels so much more developed tbh as if #they genuinely wrote out her whole life rather than just its present state y'know. it's great! i adore her #anyway #mirror kira nerys #mirrorverse #star trek deep space nine #ds9 #yes most of the meat of this post is in the tags lmao idek why #original posts fresh from quark's pussy

[ladysophiebeckett]

i actually think more ysblf truthers should watch lfmb. i know it's harrowing because of the sitcom style but at the end of the day they are sisters and their success is intricately tied together forever.

and katya fm not born beautiful is their lovable distant russian cousin.

#ive talked a lot about how televisa squeezed the life out of lfmb but so did rcn #they had betty toons and little kids acting out some of the scenes and the pinzon house is a museum #the church she got married in a tourist attraction #that has nothing to do with rcn i just think its neat #and then the spin off of course #but im harder on lfmb bc i was there to see it happen #but that doesn't discredit its value #there are a lot of good things in lfmb just like there are annoying things #nbb is a faithful adaptation fm what i saw (bc i skimmed and havent made time to finish properly) #but it still does its own thing in terms of the country its from #all the other adaptations are children left behind #lfmb #ysblf

[toast-of-eden]

Thanks to yet another orv-related existential crisis I’m thinking about what it means to love life unconditionally. Again.

How eventually everything gets sick and dies and no matter how much love surrounds you, you will too.

And even when faced with this infinity filled with nothing, even when you’re on your knees with the absolute wind knocked out of you, you can choose to have an unconditional love for the story being told.

I’m stuck on the choice. And unconditional love is a choice. You choose whether to hold reverence for the stories, and you can’t be happy unless you do. Sometimes all I want to do is change the story, but that’s not how things work. With the passage of time, I and everything around me will get sick and die regardless of how much I want them to stay as they are.

#orv has literally sparked my journey to loving life on its own terms #you can’t control the passage of time nor can you control how things will change #but you control your narrative #you choose to love the story #you choose unconditional love #orv meta #orv #post by toast

[starryluminary]

Lord if I could watch Saiki K for the first time again

#I want saiki k to be new again #but everything’s all done and I’m not complaining about that! #I’m glad it ended well and on its own terms #but I want the rush and the joy of seeing something new with saiki k #rrRRAAGGHH SAIKI #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki k #Starry speaks

[gazelessmenagerie]

That man needs to see a therapist. Worried about him.

He doesn't need a damned therapist. He is a perfectly functioning warrior from a bygone race and does not have anything weighing on him nor does he have any lingering effects from certain... Ordeals he will not and never will disclose.

#|| Tag: Answered #polterxgheist #|| Gazing over the Abyss of Stars { Broly } #( -FUCKING CRIES- ) #( GOOD LUCK DRAGGING HIS STUBBORN ASS TO ONE. or finding one that specializes in his.. unique life afldsjg ) #( therapy? what therapy. sounds like a weak minded earth custom and he is absolutely above it bc Saiyan pride said so ) #( never mind the trauma and after effects he suffers. he just needs to survive it like he always had before ) #( no its not him denying anything. he's just so strong that it overflows and he can't control it once it reaches a certain threshold. ) #( weaklings like earth can't understand it so shut up and leave him alone. he'll deal with it on his own terms. ) #( no this is not a coping mechanism for being isolated and alone for much of his life. ) #( alfsjdljg okay i need to stop. its a goddamn list )

[defendglobe]

also does anyone else who was rlly into pmmm back in the day remember seeing the hot take "kyoko sacrificing herself was pointless" a lot??

because that always drove me insane. does symbolism mean nothing to you?

#its clearly about her not wanting sayaka to die alone. #but i also always thought part of it was kyoko being done with life. and choosing to die on her own terms rather than becoming a witch #and doing one last act of heroism (that sayaka made her believe in again) before the end #pmmm posting