#last one is one of my fav gifs i've ever done actually

[bizarrelittlemew]

ofmd x tumblr

#ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd tumblr text posts #tumblr screenshots #ofmd crack #ofmd gifs #our flag means death #ofmd x tumblr #forgot i had this in the drafts lmao #last one is one of my fav gifs i've ever done actually

[teenandbeyond]

could i request a part 3 of your yautja x reader series ! its such a good read ive been catching myself going back and rereading it all over again !

Yautja x Fem. Reader Pt.3

Decided to kill two birds with one stone for the last of the three shots.

I wanted to sate your thirst, dark fic readers since y'all been asking for a while (even though I'm not the best with this style, nor is it my usual type).

Edit: Low-key had to rewrite this before it turned into some 50 Shades of Grey shit...I got...invested (which says a lot considering I'm not deep into the Predator fandom.) Then I got sleepy, so I didn't double word check :) Edit 2: If y'all ever want to request the prince again, I can do it outside of the series...probably, it depends.

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Little Princess (Predator)

Warning(s): Smut content, breeding, jealous Yautja, squirting, size difference, long asf (Might be the longest I've done for Yautja?), fingering, noncon details, possible triggers, exhibition (being watched), whipped Yautja (couldn't help but add a pinch of fluff for the last one)

The prince Ta'yto seems to have taken quite the liking to you, you've become his little Princess to breed...

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You briskly walked through the halls of the palace, not wanting to be late.

Ta’yto didn’t appreciate when you were late, last time you were punished for it, forced to sit on his lap throughout an entire meeting, how embarrassing.

The thing was, this place was a labyrinth and with the language barrier, you wouldn’t have been able to ask for directions. You had to solely depend on your memory.

Peeking down one way, your gaze flicked over the long walkway, “Here? No there isn’t a candelabra there…”

Which only left the walk way to your left a few feet ahead, you stalked ahead.

Just as you made the turn, you bumped into a solid chest, the firmness making you collapse to the ground, all the jewelry you wore ringing in the hall.

“Owww…” you rub at your forehead, squinting your eyes and craning your head up to see who you bumped into.

It was a Yautja male, not the prince you belonged to, Ta’yto had longer hair and he was wider, this one was slim.

“Sorry—Um…You don’t speak English, right, that’s pointless, [Name],” you muttered to yourself.

You stumble to stand up and straighten yourself due to the slim fit and flowiness of your dress.

A few clicks was all you got in response.

You gave a polite smile, “I should get going—”

He titled your chin up with a finger, seeming to observe you, arm pausing in its movement as he took sight of your blooded symbol.

“Ah…I should get going…”

As you moved to leave he grabbed your arm, easily stopping you, he began to trail his other hand from your chin to your hip.

“Let me go. This isn’t a good idea—”

You were cut off by a growl that felt like it shook the palace.

The predator touching you turned around to kneel to who was in front of him, which meant one thing…

The prince was here to collect you.

His footsteps must have been light before, they were heavy like thunder now.

He stopped in front of him, gesturing for him to stand and when he did stand…

You actually realized how tall Ta’yto was compared to someone other than you, he was at least a whole head taller than the predator in front of him. Having to lean down to be face-to-face—since at the moment his mask-thingy was off (you didn’t know what it was called).

There were a few exchanges of clicks, before Ta’yto decided to toss him away at the wall that connected to the entry of the other hallway.

You had to blink a few times to process that he tossed a fully-grown predator—you assumed anyway—with ease.

Then his head slowly turned to you.

You raised your hands in surrender, “I didn’t—ah! Put me down!”

He had simply tossed you over his shoulder, resting his hand comfortably on your ass as he turned to leave to his quarters like he usually did.

You see, after the fifth time with you, he decided you would officially be his mate. You were his favorite, so you had the privilege of sharing his quarters with him. He--despite kidnapping you and everything-- gave you luxury you didn’t expect, elegant dresses and jewelry from distant planets—learning you regularly needed food and water, made sure you were provided with some, and anything else you could need.

The only things that irked him, was one, despite all these things you still fought—admittedly at times he enjoyed it—it was still no less irking. Then, the fact that you never used the power you had as his top mate to decline the young and impulsive predators who tried to sneak and use you for themselves, knowing that you were taken. He had marked you with his clan mark—damn it, his name for goodness sakes.

Ta’yto found it quite adorable when you muttered angrily in English, thinking he didn’t understand a single word. Sometimes you had a colorful array of names to call him, both in irritation and in pleasure.

“The throne room?” you wondered as you noticed the familiar doors close.

After the short trek up steps, he set you down, only long enough to plop into the sturdy throne and set you on his lap. He sighed, gripping your thigh through the dress.

“I…he didn’t do anything really…” you tried to assure.

At this point, you didn’t necessarily hate him anymore, but you didn’t like him much either.

It was kind of hard to when one minute you’re fighting to the death together only for you to get betrayed and get brutally handled by him.

But he did, he touched what didn’t belong to him.

All he had to say was that ‘She was so tempting. I’m sorry, Prince Ta’yto. I won’t do it again…’

Ta’yto spread his legs, yours following along, before you could even react his rough hand slid under your dress.

“What are you—” your breath hitched as his nails gently grazed against your inner thigh, so close to the warmth between them.

It had been a while since he hand his hand there, after the first time, he’d just preferred to get straight to it.

You whimpered as playful fingers trailed up, his finger moving over the bare, pink, flesh with calculated strokes.

You clenched your thighs to stop it, “Not—Not—”

He simply grunted and spread them open again with his free hand that had been on the armrest.

You bit your bottom lip, trying to contain the thin amount of dignity you still had, you wouldn’t let him win that easily.

Trying to ignore how much more sensitive your body had become each time he had his way with you.

But you couldn’t stop the drawn-out gasp that left your lips when he finally slid in two of his fingers, providing you with a little relief after the immediate tension he created inside you.

But what you hated, was that your body was excited, because you knew two wouldn’t be enough to prepare for him, he’d have to give you more.

You stiffened when the door opened, the advisor or whatever he was had walked in, but after taking in the situation, he gave a few clicks and turned to leave.

But Ta’yto’s voice stopped him, he said something you didn’t understand, which they nodded to before leaving.

You didn’t have time to wonder what that was about because then he was moving again.

Your brows scrunched as you tried to focus, his guard is lowered, you could possibly attack him. He may be stronger than you, but move quick enough, you could immobilize him.

Your eyes flicked over to the sharpened spike on one of the sides of his foot rest. Thinking of all possible scenarios for a few minutes. But you would have to bend and reach for it, that would be too much time.

“I—can you stop for a second…I…I’m too sensitive…” you attempted.

Not that it worked, of course.

Then the door opened again, it was the Predator from before in chains.

You could feel Ta’yto chuckle behind you, before speaking to the Predator in their language.

“You know. The thing about tempting things, they aren’t attainable to scum like you…The reason I brought you here, is to remind you what’s mine and that you can’t have her. You aren’t permitted to speak or leave until I tell you. Think about this the next time you decide to touch what doesn’t belong to you.”

He turned his attention back to you who had turned your head in embarrassment and closed your legs, even though the scum couldn’t see underneath the dress.

He spread your legs again, giving his hand access to move, “This is mine. Only I can touch it like this, you could only ever dream…”

He quickly switched from a tame pace to a rough rhythmic one, making you gasp and let your head fall into his chest.

“Didn’t you touch her here?” he gripped your chin that had been touched before, forcing you to look at the chained Predator, as he added another finger, “Well, I’m reclaiming it.”

This should’ve still been embarrassing to you, but it so, so, erotic, so…so strangely powerful all you could do was tighten around his fingers.

You gripped his arm tight, “Please, it’s too much, not—not yet—hah…”

You found your hips moving to meet his fingers, desperate for the soon coming release.

“And every other place your slimy hands touched her... She doesn’t smell like me as strongly anymore…that needs to change.”

Your nails dug into his bicep, not that he felt it much.

He likes that his research on female humans and what brings pleasure was put to good use with you.

Speaking of…should he try that new thing he learned about yesterday? Well, since he has an audience, he might as well give a show.

In the same motion he tore off your dress, your places were switched, your bare body sitting on the throne while he stood, towering over you, before kneeling down.

Which confused you, considering he was the royal one and you were not.

But you were totally clueless to the fact that this Yautja was so addicted he had no problem doing so at any time.

With another quick move, he gripped your legs and tugged you forward, it was so sudden, you had to grab the armrests to steady yourself.

“What…what are you..?”

His face was way too close to your nether regions, you could feel his breath, which made you twitch each time.

What was he going to—your eyes widened as you felt a wet muscle brush against you.

What was going on? Was he—? Where did he learn this?

You yelped as the few cautious licks of a forked tongue became ravenous, he gripped your thighs hard as his tongue teased you.

“Ohhhh,” you sighed out, biting your lip to keep quiet.

But that’s not what he wanted, so he slid in the hard muscle.

You gripped the armrests for your life, barely able to hold eye contact with him as he devoured you like a starved man. And the mandibles brushing against your skin made it worse.

You tossed your head back, a desperate moan leaping from your throat, the feeling too good, tears bubble up to your waterline, “Please don’t—Not that—Not there—Please!”

But he doesn’t pause, he just gets impossibly more aggressive.

He wants the tears to fall, that’s what always happens before you break. He wants you to break.

He adds his fingers into the equation again, the minute he does, you’re gripping his head like a lifeline.

The closer you get, the louder you get, which he likes. He likes when that composure you try so hard to keep disappears. Shatters before his very eyes. He keeps his eyes on you, wanting to see the moment when it happens.

And it does, but not in the way he was expecting, your chest hiccups as the tears finally fall and you shake your head, almost like you want to refuse the feeling, but you don’t, not really, he knows that.

“No, no, no, I can’t…no…”

And your hips jerk, you’re no longer able to control them and a water-like substance escapes from you. He quickly gets over the surprise and happily excepts it. This is new and you show no signs of being in pain, more than the usual anyway, so he succeeded, right?

Then your crying is of embarrassment, you hadn’t done that before.

But he doesn’t allow you to wallow in it for long.

Your breath is ragged as your legs shake, but you know he never shows mercy on you.

Definitely not today since he’s showing off how beautiful you are and how well you take him, that he’s got something no one but him can have. No one.

The second thing different about today, he rubs a thumb against your thigh, as if saying good job or good girl.

He doesn’t stay there too long, ready to cleanse his mate of the scum that dared touch her completely.

You whine as he finally sheds off his loincloth, you’re way too sensitive to take him now.

And he knows you’re sensitive. He knows you’re sensitive as he lifts you by your shaky legs to place you on his lap again as he sits on his throne. He knows you’re sensitive as he rubs you against his erection as you face away from him. He knows your sensitive as he moves one hand to the hip that was touched.

But he knows you can handle it, his little pet always handles it.

“Ahhm! Fuck!”

He growls as you suck him in, your body molded into the form his wanted. Now your body so greedily accepts him as compared to before. He fits so perfect, like your body conformed to his shape. You really are just for him.

“She fits me perfectly. So, you see—ngh—you could never satisfy her anyway, you peasant.”

You barely have time to settle before he’s pounding away.

“Sense—sensetiv—!”

Haven’t you learned by now that he doesn’t really care?

You’re just his little pet—

Well, Ta’yto supposed that wasn’t true anymore.

You were more than a pet—although you were still a pet, his little pet—

You were more than that…his true mate—no…his princess.

Maybe he should marry you.

Would that be strange? He might be looked at weirdly since it wasn’t a thing for his race.

But if he got to pound into this every day, this hot, tight, warm—

Anyway, you were the best mate he’s had…you were fit for royalty both figuratively and literally you fit him into you like he was meant to fill you whenever.

Speaking of filling, you’d look absolutely ravishing with a little bump, at this point he genuinely wanted it.

He’d have to do his best to be gentle no matter how arousing the sight would be. He wouldn’t be able to not fuck you, so at the very least he’d just be gentle and still be able to feel you around him like a vice as you held his child.

The thought of impregnating you gave him a whole new burst of energy.

His little princess having his little baby.

Maybe more than one, how many babies could a human have without dying?

He wanted that many.

“Too much—Too-too much! Please, I—I can’t” you sobbed turning your head into his side.

Little princess, don’t you know your tears only spur him on? He likes when you cry.

He grips the inside of your knee a little more, ramming into you. Wanting to unsure he fills you with strong seed, strong enough to give him children.

You spasm around him as you release again, the feeling so intense it’s hard to stay conscious as you settle.

But his pace barely slows, despite the tightness, and only speeds up again once you finish.

You beg, “Please…I'm done...I...”

Your head collapses onto his chest as darkness takes over you.

And he doesn’t stop, no, not until he spills every drop into you.

"The thing is princess, I decide when you're done."

And a month later he got what he wanted, a cute little bump, his little princess.

And oh, how he wished he could ravish you how he wanted…but he’d have to wait for that.

#yautja thirst #yautja x reader #yautja x human #yautja smut #yautja #the predator #yautja prince #predator x reader #predator smut #predator x human #predator #smut #predator dark fic #yautja dark fic #dark fantasies

[inventedfangirling]

BEST of BL's in 2023 [Thai edition]

(more accurately my favourites from 2023, so that i have something to show for the 100s of hours i spent watching them lmao)

I Feel You Linger In The Air - Head & Shoulders above (almost) every single piece of queer media i've ever watched. Khun Yai and Jom will be forever icons. That drunk poem confession will NEVER be topped. Also LESBIANS AHHHHHH also the way the show explored intimacy AHHH just end meeee

2. Moonlight Chicken - Aof strikes again. Gave me Uncle Jim, Heart, Li Ming and my baby boy Gaipa- the music, the cinematography, the writing, the found fckin family - i will recommend it to EVERY one on the planet if i could.

3. Be My Favourite- I did not expect to enjoy this show as much as i did. I loved what they were tryna say. I LOVED the queer undertones in EVERYTHING. if not for the asexual erasure and Not being an absolute asshole this would have been quite the perfect show. And man is Gawin so darn sculpted perfection, LOOK AT THAT FACE, how to not admire!? Also Pearmai my beloved. AND THAT POEM in episode 11 ARGHHH

4. Bed Friend - I know this was a polarizing series in a lot of ways and I agree to some of the complaints raised BUTTTTTT NET MY FRENZ NET! How am i supposed to not melt into a complete puddle watching King pretend to not be absolutely in love with Uea, and treating him like the babygirl he is, when he looks like THAT. I'm but a mere mortal.

5. La Pluie - I kinda liked the show and disliked it in equal amounts. Saengtai annoyed me quite a LOT towards the end BUT his brother Sangtien - Suar Kritsanaphong had me in the palm of his hand. Him and his kiss with Lomfon is etched firmly in my brain. It HAD to be on this list.

6. Only Friends - Gawd. The Promise. The Promise of it all. Thats what maddens me THE MOST. There was just SO MUCH that they could have done. Even if they stuck with a lot of their similar choices i would have still put it higher up on the list if they hadn't undone all the good work they did in the final episode. I couldnt even bring myself to rewatch anything from this one cos of how disappointingly it ended. That being said - FirstKhao KILLED it as usual, i CANNOT wait for their next one, BOSTON deserved better and my MVP- Mark Pakin AHHH i NEED him on EVERY SHOW EVER but also in ways concerning to me GAWD WHAT A TALENT AND WHAT A FACE.

7. Laws of Attraction - Charn you guys. Charn and his utterly deranged expressions and his even more deranged ex. And ofc everything else the show offered. The drama. The mystery. The family. The romance. THE LESBIANS!!!!? Few things not to love. Especially the finale with all the domestic husbanding going on. Precious af.

8. Hidden Agenda - Far too much nonsensical plotlessness going on here for this to claim this position BUT i'm just a girl watching Joong swoon over his man and losing it in the corridor and proceeding to do that myself cos man he's so damn good in these kinda scenes. I think he'd be good in more serious ones too but I would much prefer it if it was with somebody who could offer more than Dunk (no shade he very cute himself)

POTENTIAL FAVS

The following is a list of shows i loved/liked it a LOT but still watching/running so I can't fully judge

(in no particular order except the first one cos who am i to put an aof show not at the top of any list)

Last Twilight [BEST THING EVER I AM WHOLLY AND IRRETRIEVABLY IN LOVE IM GONNA REWATCH IT LIKE ITS MY JOB PLS I NEED IT TO STICK THE LANDING SO BAD]

Love in Translation - episode 4 what a beauty, one of my fav episodes of any BL in 2023 ever- just LOVED the whole fake date thing - it was EVERYTHING

Wedding Plan - Leads are cute. Lesbians are cuter. Made me laugh. Also CUTENESS hello

Night Dream - Who doesn't love a long unrequited but actually totally requited love story?

The Sign - nothing i can ever say is gonna be enough to encompass just how mind-blowing this series is from concept to execution to CGI to costumes to the gorgeous leads with fckin electric chemistry AND the PINING and the will they won't they arhhhh- TOP TIER STUFF

Cooking Crush - i went into this with minimal expectations, the trailer didnt do much for me BUT oh my gawd i had SO MUCH FUN with each episode, i laughed SO much and i am very much looking forward to the rest of it

Cherry Magic - TayNew back again together. Karan and his gorgeous existence. Loved the og. The trope where one believes they are hard to love & someone who loves them like it’s breathing- its literally made for this show and i am SUPER excited where it goes. PLS PLS PLS let them keep the aroace character aroace PLEASE!?!?!?

#2023 bl wrapped #thai bl wrapped #i feel you linger in the air #moonlight chicken #be my favorite #bed friend #la pluie #laws of attraction #hidden agenda #only friends #last twilight #love in translation #cooking crush #the sign #cherry magic thai #night dream #wedding plan #if i missed any i'd be devastated okay byeee #thai bl

[halfmoth-halfman]

y'all know what time it is! it's monthly fic rec time!!!

i decided to move this to the first so i wouldn't miss any fics that might be posted on the last day of each month!!

& a small, kinda sad update:

usually this is where i'd link to my fic-recs blog, but i hit the character limit on my filter page where i have my recs organized and when i made a new page it saved over the first one.

all of my filters and recs on that page are now gone and have to be manually re-done. you can still find my recs by scrolling through the blog, but the filter page is going to be under construction until i can get everything fixed and re-added!!

Alex Keller

❀ click click boom - @writeforfandoms

i don't see a lot of alex fics, so this was already a fav as soon as i saw it, but then i read it and ???? hello???? this was so good??? the characterization of alex alone was amazing, and the rest was like the cherry on top!!

❀ convallaria majalis - @nightingale-ghost-writer

19.2k words of absolute perfection. a fic i have been looking forward to and now that it's out, i just can't get enough of it! did i have to take breaks while reading so i could twirl my hair and kick my feet? yes. was it worth every second? yes.

Arthur Morgan

❀ the fire in your eyes || part VII: horseshoe overlook iii | part VIII: horseshoe overlook iv | part IX: horseshoe overlook v - @cowboydisaster

if there's one character i love more than anything in the world, it's arthur morgan and this series has only made my love for him that much stronger. so beautifully written, i couldn't stop reading-the whole time with a smile on my face. the entire bar scene in part vii??? i was crying with laughter. this is def one of my fav series i've ever read and i am on the edge of my seat waiting for more!

Carlos Oliveira

❀ the way we let it stay - @uselsshuman

this is a fair warning right now that most of the resident evil fics on this list are going to be from em. she has single-handedly ignited my hyperfixation for RE and all of her fics are incredible. including this one!

❀ old wounds new loves - @uselsshuman

i love little cute domestic fics, and carlos is so real for not liking cereal. “Waking up and eating a bowl of cold soggy food? No, thank you.” i feel that on such a spiritual level. also protective!carlos is just the best!!

Javier Peña

❀ arepas - @mvtthewmurdvck

i know i already went feral over this fic, but i'm going to do it again because i love this fic so goddamn much!! this fic is incredible, the way everything feels so natural between javi and reader, the teasing, the friends to lovers trope, everything about this is just so beautiful!!

❀ a broken sight - @mvtthewmurdvck

i don't understand how you can write a character so perfectly. i will never not be amazed by the way you write javi. and the angst??? ugh "He’s here. Like you needed him to be." don't mind the noise that's just me sobbing in the corner.

❀ the dreams we made - @mvtthewmurdvck

there's nothing like a good ol' helping of jo angst. this hurt in all the right ways, completely ripped my heart out and shattered it only to put all the pieces back together again and fill the cracks in with gold.

❀ nowhere to run || file room + accusations | sunshine yellow | a new day - @mvtthewmurdvck

the series that got me into narcos, i actually started watching the show just so i could read the perfection that is this series!! am i potentially spoiling things for myself a little bit? yes, but it's absolutely worth it because this series has me by the throat.

Joel Miller

❀ want. - @mvtthewmurdvck

literal poetry best described by this gif:

John "Soap" MacTavish

❀ none lacking sins - @halcyone-of-the-sea

listen, i like soap. he's not my fav, but he's a really good character. this fic though? it's moved soap up to my top five favorite characters. this made me want to read nothing but soap. i must've read this a dozen times, i was immediately sent into a soap hyperfixation. every aspect of this fic is just amazing. stunning. perfect.

❀ the hanging tree - @writeforfandoms

had me on the edge of my damn seat trying to figure out what was going. the worry and the tension built up so wonderfully i was dying to know what was about to happen and omg i was not disappointed. and the way jen writes soap is just *chef's kiss*

❀ i will wait - @mvtthewmurdvck

this fic had me realize how much i crave soft!soap and just fluff with soap in general. the tender moments warm my heart up something fierce and make me all giddy. like waking up to the perfect sunrise.

John Price

❀ puppy love || one | two | three | four - @writeforfandoms

puppies and price? what more could someone ask for? these two are so cute together and with the added cuteness of the puppies (and gaz lol) it's just an overload of cuteness in the best possible way!

❀ scratches in the surface - @halcyone-of-the-sea

was not expecting a part two to one of my favorite price fics, but damn if this wasn't a fantastic surprise. the angst is top-tier here and as much as it hurt, i couldn't stop reading and will probably read it again a million more times.

❀ neon medusa || part 1: static in the airways | part 2: warning signs - @yeyinde

CYBERPUNK!AU????? WITH PRICE????? WRITTEN BY YEYINDE???? SIGN ME TF UP!!! i am feral, consumed by how excited i am for this series and how utterly fantastic it's been so far. i will never get tired of lev's fics, and how gorgeous her writing is.

❀ untitled - @lunarvicar

okay this was adorable. the way price drops everything to get to her apartment, immediately ready to protect her is just sooo perfect. and her being freaked out by ghost adventures?? asdasljlsjd relatable.

❀ untitled - @yeyinde

i live for domestic bliss, and this fic just scratched that itch so well. there's something so comforting and homey about this fic, just the quiet intimacy between price and reader, the cute back and forth, this line: “Gaz said I looked like an Edwardian lord—” an absolute comfort fic if i've ever read one.

❀ comforts of home - @halcyone-of-the-sea

this fic had me weak, literally struggling to read cause i was too busy looking like this at my phone

❀ barking dog - @yeyinde

jealous!price is not something i see often, but damn if i don't want to see more of it after reading this. i am obsessed with the way lev writes price, how real and natural and captivating he is in her fics.

❀ wicked pyre - @yeyinde

you can't just give me dragon!price and expect me not to love it. i am so feral for monster!au's and this is saldkjaslda i can't be normal after reading this, i am feral, so enraptured by this fic and the entire concept of dragon!price.

❀ origami boats - @halcyone-of-the-sea

a sequel to the best price fic of all time???? say less. this fic was in my top three before i even started reading, i just knew it was going to be good. well, it wasn't just good, it was great. stunning. heart-breaking in a way that gives you the best kind of hurt.

Kyle "Gaz" Garrick

❀ high hopes - @writeforfandoms

gaz my sweet mans. as one of my favorite characters, i tend to be picky with my gaz fics, but this fic right here? loved it. adored it. read it six times with a bigger smile on my face each time.

❀ cult of vagabonds || prologue | landless gull | snail & thrush - @halcyone-of-the-sea

not only is this a gaz series, but it's one written by halcyone who can never write a bad fic. this is immaculate. i can't even describe how much i love this series so far and how much i can't wait to see where it goes!

❀ boom - @sleepiexx

ok but like this was so good?? the tension, the desperation, the way gaz was so ready to die with her. i'm shook. and that ending???? i’m giggling, i’m blushing, i’m re-reading this fic a million more times.

Leon Kennedy

❀ leon kennedy masterlist - @uselsshuman

i'm gonna be real here for a second, this entire section was 99% made up of em's leon fics. i couldn't choose which ones to add, which ones were my favorite, because i loved them all. so i'm just putting a link to her leon masterlist, because every single one of those fics deserves to be seen and read and given all of the love that they deserve.

❀ enough || one | two | three | final - @uhlunaro

i have one word for this series: wow. just wow. i have never been more thankful to find a series after it was already done because i would've gone crazy waiting to see what happened next! which part was my favorite? all of them. every single one. the hurt, the dialogue, just the way leon is written. i'm speechless.

Simon "Ghost" Riley

❀ exit row || exit row, part iii | exit row, part iv- @lunarvicar

the phrase "post-dick flashback" will live rent free in my head until the day i die, i was wheezing. i'm convinced there isn't a character nat can't make me love, because her portrayal of ghost here?? 🔥🔥🔥

❀ happiness || diamond ring | fearless | - @lethalchiralium

more of my favorite family man!simon series!!!!!! yesssss!!!!! i swear with every new addition, i just love this series more and more. i am so stressed reading it, but i love every second of it.

❀ the effect you have - @mvtthewmurdvck

screaming, crying, throwing up. how do you do it, jo? how do manage to make me hurt and heal my heart so beautifully in every single fic? how dare you, but also thank you so much.

❀ the captain || part 6 | part 7 | thunder - @as-is-above-so-below

omg i can't. y'all can't just keep giving a+ quality family man!ghost fics and expect me to be normal. you can't just give me cute shit like:

“Gaz frug.”

and not expect me to be like:

also, i am absolutely in love with freyja. the way her relationship is written with ghost and the kids is so lovely and has me kicking my feet and twirling my hair.

❀ ghost at the beginning of your relationship - @angelltheninth

cute. adorable. sweet. i love me some good fluff and even more so soft!ghost and this was the perfect combination of both of them! and simon having "guard dog energy" is so funny and so correct.

❀ ménage || refuge | resolution - @lilywastaken

my new go-to for simon fics. the relationship between simon and reader and between simon and the 141 are both so great. and oh my god that wild ride of emotions i went during part five had me stressed tf out i couldn't stop reading! such a great and fun series.

❀ making progress - @constantcrisis19

"dragged into the CoD fandom kicking and screaming" and still delivering an absolutely amazing fic. the teasing, the small talk, the faint smile?? incredible. the entire conversation about powerful music?? fantastic.

#moth fic recs #fave fics #monthly fic recs

[snek-eyes]

just binged all ur meta content on ao3 (so well-written and well-thought) and i think i have an addition to the two Job parts: u said crowley is gloomy and acts cold and distant, tries testing aziraphale's trust in him etc but. hear me out. in the end of the minisode when the angels arrive at Job and Sitis', we see the true actual crowley, all goofy midwife/cobbler and way more himself again and i believe it's because as u said he isn't just as alone anymore. aziraphale has done the right thing and on top of that he saw crowley and trusted him and crowley was a little less alone. and that change of demeanour from all you've - rightfully - stated in the first two parts of analysis melts a little to show the actual crowley, the kinda goofy one. he would've done the right thing and saved the kids and the goats anyways, of course, but for the first time he didn't have to do it alone. he had help, and even someone who trusted and saw him. he's tentative with it but definitely a little happier. maybe he found a little something to - carefully, hesitantly, briefly - believe in after losing faith in god. maybe there's still goodness to be found. maybe even in an angel.

Anonymous asked: Ello ello ello! Since youre my fav meta writer on here, I figured I might ask: I've seen people say Crowley was mean laughing about Aziraphale in the Job minosode when he thought he was a demon now, and in the last episode when Azi told him about using his halo. Do you see it that way, too? I always thought the latter one was surprised and kinda proud. And in the Job minisode, when Crowley noticed Azi was truly upset, he immediately stopped laughing and started comforting him. I don't think Crowley ever meant it in a mean way when he laughed about Azi, and I think it's part of Azi's charm for Crowley is how lovably clumsy he is. Crowley is oftentimes amused by Azi but in a loving, not condescending way. Thoughts? 🤔 Have a good day/evening! ❤

Hey you guys! ❤ I wanted to answer these two messages together, because I think there are some good dots to connect. Both times, Crowley is feeling abnormally good about the situation he's in, and then Aziraphale says something completely off the wall, and Crowley is like "😂 WHAT did you just say?? 💕" I really don't think either time he means to be condescending.

In general, Crowley is delighted by Aziraphale because he keeps doing surprising things. Crowley thinks humans are great because they keep coming up with wacky things demons could never expect, and he likes Aziraphale in large part because that wacky angel keeps doing things like insisting Good is Good and Bad is Bad and then giving away his sword and lying to angels and declaring war on hell.

Keep in mind that during Job, they're still getting to know each other. Crowley in that scene is trying to make Aziraphale feel better, but he also doesn't know what works yet. He's never actually had a friend before.

By contrast, I think the problem in the halo scene is that they know each other too well, or at least they think they do, to the point Crowley's making assumptions.

(This may have ballooned into an analysis of both scenes, but I promise we include the laughing thing. Stick with me!)

I think Crowley is kind of giddy by the end of Job. Overall, things have really just taken a turn for him. You're right, this is the first time he's feeling like he's not completely alone anymore. To a degree he absolutely did not expect! Not only did Aziraphale, in private, trust him beyond being a demon, try food, almost admit he doesn't trust God... but in front of the other angels, Aziraphale backs up Crowley's Bildad ploy. And that was Aziraphale's decision to do so, when Crowley first runs into room, it really doesn't seem like he's counting on Aziraphale to help him out at all. He just throws himself in front of Sitis and starts improvising, and it's the other angels he's looking at.

Anon 1, I like your idea that this is a more real Crowley peeking through here. Compare how he acts as Bildad in this scene to how he acts in S1 when he's tricking Hastur into the phone.

Crowley is a theater kid loves when he's taking charge of a situation and spinning people around on his own terms, and here Aziraphale gives him everything he needs to keep the angels fooled.

One part that's kind of funny and also pretty telling is when Job starts blowing it, Crowley decides this is a fantastic time to not be standing in the Angels' direct line of sight anymore! and goes to hover casually next to the other exit instead.

And Anon1, here's where I'm going to quote you because this made something click for me:

he would've done the right thing and saved the kids and the goats anyways, of course, but for the first time he didn't have to do it alone. he had help, and even someone who trusted and saw him. he's tentative with it but definitely a little happier. maybe he found a little something to - carefully, hesitantly, briefly - believe in after losing faith in god. maybe there's still goodness to be found. maybe even in an angel.

Crowley might not believe in Good and Bad, but he does believe in right and wrong. Crowley started this whole thing pissed off, alone, seemingly the only one operating under none of heaven's illusions about whose fault this is. This is God's fault, heaven might not want blood on their hands but that's where Crowley knows it belongs.

So when Aziraphale comes through for Crowley several times in a row, culminating in him breaking form with the other angels to lie and save those kids, I think yeah, it gives Crowley faith in Aziraphale. This angel might be coated in all heaven's brainwashing, but when it comes down to it, he knows what right and wrong is, and more importantly, he'll do something about it. Aziraphale is the angel. Put a pin in that.

So after everything's over, Crowley goes to find Aziraphale, looking to work out their new arrangement. Not the Arrangement yet, but to get a feel for how things are going to be between the two of them now that this has happened. Probably wanting to check this didn't all scare him off too badly. And uh, it turns out it kind of did, the angel is full on weeping by the sea over here. But he doesn't regret what he did! This is salvageable.

So here Crowley comes, trying to balance Aziraphale out by playing it cool. He really wants this to work.

The first time I heard him say this it knocked the wind out of me. This is Crowley returning the trust the Aziraphale showed him in that barn, and doubling down on it infinitely. Crowley sits down and looks away and makes himself as non-threatening as possible, and he tells this angel, I have no intention of ever being a danger to you as a demon. He's presenting it in a way that is begging the angel not to make a big deal of it, but it is huge.

(This is also, in my mind, where 'angel' becomes a pet name.)

[I realize this has gotten a little far afield but I wanted some groundwork first, and look we're here now!!]

(Also before I get to be funny, can I point out that for "I'm like you now" below, they're occupying the same part of the screen? rad.)

SO, right as Crowley's really settled into this whole 'no, really, you're an angel, you're like THE angel,' thing, and he's tensed up because he just dropped his undemonic bombshell part 2, 'I never killed the goats and now I don't want to drag you to hell...' How is the angel going to react?

Well, here comes Aziraphale, insisting "No, you have to!" okay why, because I'm a demon, are we doing that? "Because no no look, I'M a demon, really!!"

and. Look, Crowley tries, give the guy some credit.

HE IS TRYING NOT TO LAUGH. BUT THEN JUST. LOOK AT AZIRAPHALE. HE IS THE CUTEST MOST PATHETIC (affectionate) THING EARTH HAS EVER SEEN.

Crowley just had what started as the absolute worst day at work, that turned around beyond his wildest dreams, and then he's hit in the face with the most ridiculous, sweetest thing he's ever heard. TELL ME YOU WOULDN'T BREAK WHEN YOU'RE ALREADY RIDING HIGH AND THIS FLUFFY LITTLE BUNNY RABBIT LOOKED YOU IN THE EYE AND INSISTED "BUT I'M A DEMON." YOU LOOK AT ME AND YOU TELL ME YOU'D HOLD IT TOGETHER ANY BETTER.

And Crowley apologizes twice while laughing! Once during his first laugh, even. He knows he's being a dick, but he's got the giggles. It's just so absurd to him, it's like he doesn't know what to do but try to explain what he's seeing. Which is uhh, not the right move, Aziraphale is not ready to laugh about this. But hey, they're learning each other.

And then. in the rest of this scene I think we see Crowley adjusting his expectations in real time. This isn't going to be fully as great as he was hoping, but it can still be good.

They make a point of showing him sighing, then looking small and alone.

I remember someone pointing out (especially in retrospect) how sad a line "Then nothing has to change" is. And I'm thinking now this is Crowley settling them into what's going to be their status quo going forward, in an effort to make Aziraphale comfortable.

(This was about Crowley laughing, how did we get sad. Dammit, Job minisode. MOVING ON.)

You blew up your halo?

OKAY SO. It's a similar giddy situation in 2.06 at the end of Crowley's little field trip to heaven. He's been so stressed all week about the danger they've been in, but now? Look at all he's getting away with!

He's a dorky James Bond, his heaven outfit's even got the tactical turtleneck. He LOVES feeling like he's gotten one over on heaven (his stupid disguise is such a beautifully petty insult), and he's found a huge break in the Gabriel case. He finally got to DO something that wasn't just being trapped in the bookshop or his car. This is peak chaos demon enrichment.

He might not have all the answers yet, but he's got the pieces they'll need. It's starting to feel like they'll be able to solve this all soon and get back to their lives. The only thing now is whatever new trouble Aziraphale's gotten himself into. So Anthony J(ames Bond) Crowley comes swooping back in and…

Angel you absolute madlad, that's fucking fantastic!

From Crowley's perspective, Aziraphale's done what Crowley just did: Got one over on hell like he did on heaven. On the scale of everything Crowley's been worrying about, this is barely anything, he can talk them out of this! They're going to be fiiine! And okay, Aziraphale's being a little glareful about it, but not any more than he was when Crowley was teasing him over his out-of-date music opinions. This is just how they are!

Except. Except with everything that happened, it's not exactly like that right now for Aziraphale. He looks tired, he's maybe embarrassed/ashamed it got this far, AND. He's been worried sick all night, where have you been???

Remember, while Crowley's been worrying about what Heaven will do to Aziraphale, Aziraphale's been freaked out about the threat hell poses to Crowley. And the last time he saw Crowley, he was walking into a crowd of demons and promising Aziraphale he'd come back. And then he didn't.

And now Aziraphale's pissed hell off even further.

And here comes Crowley! Waltzing back into the bookshop, completely fine, with a bunch of angels in tow (?!?!), aaand the first thing he does is tease Aziraphale.

Yeah, Aziraphale is just not in the mood. I think normally, this wouldn't be much of a problem. We don't always react perfectly, sometimes we're just trying to annoy the people we love a little and misstep into actually hurting them, because we mean to say one thing and it lands as another. When my loved ones do that to me, I know them well enough to know they'd be mortified if they realized they were actually hurting my feelings, and that alone soothes the sting most of the time. When it doesn't, that's a thing we can deal with.

Same thing with Crowley here, he doesn't mean anything by it! He's just trying to tease Aziraphale a bit, not laugh at him. He loves him, he respects him, he finds what he's doing charming! What he's trying to communicate that isn't coming across is: 'You're absolutely not a demon, don't even worry' and 'I'm proud of you.'

Someday, Aziraphale will do something wildly unpredictable and Crowley will get to be delighted and laugh freely about it, and Aziraphale will get be annoyed but in a way that's warm underneath, because he knows he's loved and they're not in danger anymore. Let's look forward to that.

#vee replies #Anon and on and on #Thank you both for the kind messages! I really appreciate it #tumbl stop messing up my formatting augh #good omens meta #a companion to owls #job flashback #good omens 2

[ruelin024]

*apppears in your askbox like the absolute gremlin i am* mmm a few questions heuehhuehehue fav sans? fav ship (if oyu have one, that includes self insert)? and will you ever do ditys and if so, how long do you think?

😖You've been in my inbox for 5+ days, since for some reason, as simple as the questions are, I couldn't seem to pinpoint my favorites.

Like if you asked me my favorite anime, book, etc. My head goes whoosh then my damn brain turns into a smooth mofo.

Sorry if the reply is too long, I dunno if I went off topic, I probably did?

I love a lot of things… Yes. I would make a list… but then I wouldn’t stop. If I had to settle for one Sans, it’d be OG Classic. The Origin, The Legend, The #1 Tumblr Sexyman, Sans the Skeleton. The other top fav Sans at the top of my list would be Fell, Horror, Lust, and Nightmare, and it goes on.

But to tell yah the truth I am more of a Papyrus Simp, I realize this sometimes whenever I come across any type of OG or AU Papyrus art. It’s a hard choice. My mind and body goes to Sans, but in a way my affection is with both, but mostly Papyrus. I don't know if that makes sense, it feels like two-timing. I should draw more of Papyrus, even out the simping scales. \(￣︶￣*\)

I just love drawings Sans a lot tbh. q(≧▽≦q)

In terms of ships? (I heard the topic of shipping can be complicated or an issue) ... So. Hmm. from what I've self-evaluated to myself. I don't really have a favorite... :D I think? Cause most of the time I choose to neither like nor dislike because love and hate are too strong of an emotion for me to deal with. Disliking things makes me feel tired and I can only handle so much fangirling/boying before my feral emotional levels exceed my capacity to remain conscious. With the amount of words I’ve said so far, I am proving I am a walking contradiction.

Anyway, I'm a welcome all-type of person, I'm neutral as long as no harm is being done. Meaning I am the type to also dabble in a ton of things. (゜-゜) (´◑ω◐`)

(Either I am what I say I am🤔, or I just haven't known/met the wrong people enough in my life to feel the need/want to make a whole DNI list 😅.)

The first ship I drew was y/n x sans au and I have drawn Error and Blue together for a cute ditys. I've been meaning to attempt drawing more ships, but not at the moment.

One insert ship I'm into at this time, that I can recall at the top of my head is an artist called @/mothiepixie (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) 😆💖

Also! I actually made it to 100 followers last month! I wanted to make a dtiys on such an occasion, but someone did a wrist twist move on me and now I can't exert my fingers or wrist that much, so I'm doing doodles or working on past WIP I've already started on ever so slowly.

I haven't gotten the chance to figure out what I’d draw exactly for a dtiys. If I were to make one now, it’d be at least 2-4 months to maybe a whole year in duration, depends.

Would I make prizes? I'd probably give everyone who participated a simple drawn prize for my first DTIYS (maybe☜(ﾟヮﾟ☜)), then for the next DTIYSs I would do top 3 or 4-5 five winners. 

Welp, tis my answer you absolute gremlin, handing me the most complicated question which I indeed sure overcomplicated and being in the back of my head for the past few days. 🤣👌💕 Thank you! 😂

#answered #thank you for the ask! #i talk too much #sorry for the late reply #hopefully you've got yer answers :D #hopefully this makes sense

[mayahawkins]

no one asked me to list my fav blogs but i’m just gonna make my own end of year follow forever bc i wanna rant abt my talented friends, beloved mutuals, and just people i follow that i have never spoken to but who are such a joy to see on my dash. so, without further ado, maddy’s 2022 follow forever:

@strangeswift abby strangeswift, my beloved. you were the first person i talked to in this fandom and i’m so glad u were bc u are the sweetest most kind person ever. you are so supportive of all your friends and mutuals and u make me wanna be a more outwardly loving and supportive person fr. i remember when u wrote that lil ficlet based on my text post and i’m p sure i almost cried bc i felt so special that someone had been inspired by something i had said to write smth so wonderful. you’re an incredible writer and i am always so excited anytime you post any of your writing. i can’t wait to read more of your fics and am so patiently waiting for MilevenVision (as much as i may bug u for crumbs). i’m so glad to call you a friend <3

@elekinetic ella ella, bonded in shared discord trauma so ur never getting rid of me. i feel so honoured to call you a friend bc you are one of the best people i know. you are so smart and level-headed and loyal as hell to your friends. you are also so kind and you're so deliberate with what you say and how you say it. you defs intimidated me the first few times we talked but now im like oh ya ella, my amazing talented friend ella. your scripts give me so much life. and not just your st ones but your original ones as well. can't wait to one day see "ella elekinetic hexagirl" in movie credits (bc obviously ur last name is ur url). and your OCs?? i have never once become obsessed with someone's OCs the way i can't stop thinking abt yours. that's what you've done to me. you are so incredibly talented and ily <3

@andiwriteordie ANNDDIIIIII ILY FR <3 u are so insanely talented and kind and wonderful. i’m so happy we started talking recently bc u have truly brightened the last few weeks of the year. u got me back into watching merlin so thank u for the pain u will surely cause me as i rewatch this show i haven’t seen in almost a decade. ur fics were some of the first that i read in the byler fandom and that means u will always hold a special place in my heart. i remember the first time i read your let's hear it for the boys series and i was just like omg i'm obsessed with this. i have absolutely adored every single one i’ve read (even though i’m a lil behind on them rn oops but i will catch up) and can’t wait to see what else you write. your atla!au (and the newly brainstormed merlin!au) live in my head rent free and i can’t wait to read them if you write them.

@nnilkyway my fellow emo will truther <3 yvie i love you dearly. you are so incredibly talented i could scream abt ur artwork literally for days. your fanworks and your original art and your doodles are all beautiful and stunning. the day we started talking and you sent me the lil doodle you did of emo will byers i think i actually cried at how much i loved it and that it had come from our conversation about it. i saved it onto my camera roll so i can come back to it easier that's how much i love it. you are also one of the funniest people on here, your tags almost always have me rolling. i can't wait to see what beautiful art you draw in the new year.

@finalgirlbyers sierra lovqbrl madcleradin finalgirlbyers!!!! i know we haven’t talked much but i love seeing u on my dash and u always have the best takes and theories and just posts in general. i know i've said that literally multiple times to you but it cannot be overstated how correct you always are. one of my fav people to follow on here.

people i don't talk to but whose presence is a joy to have on my dash:

@astrobei an absolutely incredible writer that wrote some of my fav fics. one of the best will fics, not all the prayers, that truly is just so unbelievably amazing. like the care that you can just tell went into that fic is just incredible. Some absolutely incredible lines that will punch you right in the gut in the best way possible.

@blueeandyellowmakesgreen jade! one of the coolest people, has some of the most amazing art over on @azuries, like it's actually so amazing and people need to go look at it and reblog it now immediately

@mlchaelwheeler an absolute joy to follow. so many good posts and im fr rooting for mike with a sword in s5 just for her

@elmaxed their fics were some of the first i read in the byler fandom and i absolutely fell in love with them. they hold such a dear place in my heart. also one of the sweetest people fr, one of the first to compliment my gifs and so they are forever in my mind for that <3

@smoosnoom omg their fics!!! are!!!! incredible!!!! so many wonderful fics, i was just looking through my bookmarks and i swear half of them are theirs. the one about mike's will voice has my whole heart.

@wiseatom another lovely fic writer, and one who titles her fics with taylor swift lyrics bc she Gets It!!! also one of the sweetest people in the fandom, always seems to be supporting other people.

@kidovna one of the most talented artists in this fandom oh my GOD. i cannot praise her and her art enough idk how what else to even say besides amazing incredible talented showstopping

@byeler wrote one of my all time fav fics, Heavy Hopes, with my beloved trope, oblivious jealous mike, which is truly *chef's kiss*. such a good writer like it cannot be overstated

@ice-sculptures a truly amazing gifmaker. gifs so many little byler moments that are so precious that i've definitely missed when watching the show.

@william-byers an absolutely incredible gif maker. taylor swift and stranger things together on one blog, what more could you want?

@padme-amidala makes some of the most beautiful gifs ever oh my goodness, her gifs are part of what inspired me to start making gifs and to challenge my gifmaking. i hope to one day be as good as she is.

@robiinbuckley also makes some of the most beautiful gifs, literally in awe of her gifs. also inspired my gifmaking journey and has inspired me to challenge myself when it comes to gifmaking.

#personal #follow forever #blog recs

[radiant-reid]

Ahh congratulations!!

Um my current favorite song is 911 by Ellise but I'm scared of the one shot that will come out of that so I'm gonna give you a different one.

Uhhhhh lemme think

Okay Gorgeous by Taylor Swift 🥰🥰

A/n: OMG OMG OMG Taylor Swift <3 again, she's probably my fav singer ever. Still don't feel like I've done this song justice.

Paring: Spencer Reid x Y/n (post entropy)

Genre: Fluff

CW: Alcohol consumption/ A couple of swear words

WC: 1.7k

It was normal for the BAU to go out for drinks after a case. Especially one as stressful as making sure Spencer didn't get murdered by the sociopathic unsub that was Cat Adams.

The abnormal was Y/n's excessive drinking. Usually, everyone was relatively reserved, only getting lightly buzzed to avoid a hangover. However, the effects of Cat Adam's flirting with Spencer had pushed Y/n to get hammered.

She was ordering two drinks for herself at the bar, to throw one back before taking the other with her back to the group. Still, being drunk didn't make her discrete, and they all knew what she was up to.

It was drink number 5 to everyone else and 8 to her when she sat back down at the table next to JJ.

"Ohh, Y/n, do your Spencer impression." JJ insisted, clearly quite drunk as well.

Y/n made sure Spencer wasn't there before standing up, proudly getting ready to mock her co-worker. She cleared her throat, getting into character with everyone's attention on her. "Did you know..." She started, voice deeper than normal but high enough it mimicked Spencer's. "Actually, blah blah blah... Aichmophobia... Dermatitis herpetiformis... violent crimes increased 3.9 % on last year's rates." She continued before bursting into giggles.

No one else could hold it together, all of them laughing while they clapped for her.

Y/n took a bow before sitting down.

Only a few minutes later, Spencer came back, taking a seat right next to Y/n.

Just like how the Earth orbits the Sun because of the pull of the Sun's gravitational field, Y/n was drawn to Spencer.

He was an overpowering gravitational field, effortlessly attracting her to him. If she wanted to, she didn't think she'd be able to stop it. From the smell of his cologne to his air of confidence, she was more intoxicated by him than by the copious amount of alcohol in her system.

She definitely didn't expect his hot breath to be on her ear before he spoke. "You're little stunt back there was cute." It was surprisingly arousing and made an involuntary shiver run down her spine. Her cheeks had already heated up as she fought to compose herself.

Finally, she spoke, "Sorry, I didn't mean it to be offensive," still not trusting herself to look at him. It was enough to imagine how gorgeous he looked.

Spencer shook his head. 'Don't worry, I don't mind." He told her. His tone always remained so suave and cool.

Now she felt like she wasn't being told off. But, she didn't want to carry on the conversation, so she nodded and went back to chatting loudly across the table to Penelope.

Y/n made a point of not talking to him again, ignoring him to talk to her other friends.

Spencer immediately noticed, and he found it adorable, but he wanted to stir things up. Who could blame him? It had been a hard day, and messing with a co-worker could help.

Only minutes after Y/n came back with her next drink, Spencer saw his opportunity. Her hand was resting on the seat next to her thigh. It didn't take much for him to touch his pinky to hers, watching for a reaction.

Spencer got one. Y/n tensed, mid-conversation with Morgan. Thankfully, he didn't notice. Still, Spencer could see the blush on her cheeks, despite how dark it was. He also noticed the way she stuttered slightly.

Taking it a step further, he held it, threading his fingers through hers. No one, even JJ who was right next to Y/n, noticed.

Y/n's tensing went unnoticed as well. Spencer figured everyone else was far too drunk.

While Y/n desperately wanted another drink, she didn't move. Not wanting Spencer to think he made the wrong move. The crush she had on his pretty face was dangerous.

"I'm going to go outside for a minute." She decided after 10 minutes of Spencer holding her hand. She glanced around at the group, minus Spencer, before leaving.

Spencer fumbled for an excuse to go after her, something about needing the bathroom.

He found her just outside the neon sign of the bar. It illuminated her face with a pink glow.

"Are you alright?" Spencer asked, causing her to turn around and briefly glace at him before averting her eyes to the sidewalk.

Y/n nodded. "Yeah. What were you up to in there?" She asked, trying not to come off as mad.

Spencer just shrugged. "Just thought it would be funny." He figured.

Y/n didn't want to believe he'd done something so intimate as a joke. "What is your issue?" She frustratingly asked.

"I think you're the one with a problem. Why do you hate me, Y/l/n?" He asked, tipping his head to the side.

Y/n shook her head. "I don't hate you." She huffed out.

"Look at me then." He directed.

As soon as she lifted her head up, she knew she'd lost whatever game they were playing. He was closer than she'd expected, making it more difficult to ignore his perfect facial features.

So, she let her eyes roam. From his surprisingly pink, slightly chapped lips, to the light growth of facial hair he had, all the way to his chiseled cheekbones. She had admired him a thousand times, but he was more handsome than ever right now.

"My eyes, Y/n," Spencer instructed gently. Hesitantly, with her heart beating rapidly, Y/n met his gaze. Those honey brown eyes had been the center of countless dreams. They were big, almost puppy-dog-like yet deep-set.

She was completely lost in the endless pools of warmth that they held.

"Wanna walk somewhere?" Spencer offered, not at all deterred by the unnatural amount of eye contact. It felt right to him.

Y/n nodded, not trusting any words to come out that weren't, 'You're gorgeous.'

They strolled to a nearby park. Spencer slowed his steps to ensure he was right next to her. Y/n snuck glances up at him, like usual.

He took a seat first, on a park bench. It was completely deserted and illuminated by the one small lamppost. Y/n sat next to him, less worried about looking at him.

"Today was kind of crazy." He mentioned, his old awkwardness creeping back in.

Y/n giggled at him. "'Crazy' is one word for it." She nodded. "Were you freaking out at all?" She wondered.

Spencer shrugged. "Not really. It was more extreme than what we deal with every day, but I trust you guys."

Y/n nodded. "I know I'm probably not to ask this." She couldn't help herself, though. "Do you think she's pretty?"

Spencer scrunched his eyebrows, looking extremely concerned about what she was asking. "You mean the psychopath that is Cat Adams?" He questioned like Y/n was crazy.

"Sociopath, I think." Y/n counted. "She seemed to genuinely care about her dad."

Spencer was still frowning. "Still, she's a murderer."

"Avoiding the question means you do." Y/n hummed. The jealous she was feeling, however absurd, was spilling out.

Spencer's face went blank as he shook his head. "Do I hear jealously?"

Fuck. Y/n was screwed. Especially after the blush she could feel heating up her cheeks. She tried to cover it up by shaking her head. "No." Her tone was uneven and squeaky.

Even if he wasn't a profiler, it was obvious. "Is that why you seem to not like me? You have a crush on me, and this whole evening you've been jealous." He accused, looking proud of himself.

"I don't have a crush on you." Y/n shot back. Technically, she just thought he was the most gorgeous person to even exist. That's not a full-blown crush.

Or that's what she tried to tell herself. "Okay then, how do you feel about me?" He urged.

Now she was screwed. She couldn't even stop the words before they came out. "I think you're gorgeous. And every time I look at your stupid, pretty face, I'm so annoyed that you can make me feel like this."

There it was. The truth. Once it was out, the seconds seemed to dawdle by agonizingly slowly.

"I mean, you could have just told me." Spencer finally spoke, a huge smirk plastered on his face thanks to the ego boost he'd just had.

Y/n was done with him, quickly standing up. "You're such a dick." Still, she couldn't help her complete gravitational attraction.

Spencer grabbed her hand before she could move, standing up himself. He didn't waste a second anchoring a hand to her hips, another splaying against her cheek as he leaned in to attach their lips.

It took Y/n a good few seconds to react, so overcome by shock. When she did, she was kissing him back, hands moving to his unimaginably soft cheeks. She didn't know what emotion she was feeling, but she didn't feel it was important.

There was so much passion and energy as they desperately tried to deepen it. It was like all the stars had finally aligned.

Unfortunately, they eventually had to break away. Still, they held each other's faces, lips almost touching.

"I meant, you could have told me because I feel the same way." Spencer clarified his earlier statement.

Y/n audibly gasped, not believing him one bit. Apparently, it wasn't unrequited love. At his confession, she couldn't help but kiss him again.

"Want to come back to mine?" She offered shyly, still lost in his eyes.

Spencer nodded. "How drunk are you?" He remembered all the shots she'd downed.

Y/n shook her head. "I sobered up with the fresh air, promise." She assured him. "I can walk in a straight line." She let go of him to demonstrate.

It was a surprise to both of them that she managed to not break her ankle.

"See, I handle my liquor much better than you." She joked, remembering the time Spencer had gotten wasted off 4 shots.

He rolled his eyes. "You're unbelievable." He told her, walking over so they were impossibly close again.

"You unbelievably gorgeous," Y/n replied, grinning goofily up at him.

Spencer didn't have a reply besides planting his lips back on hers.

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[tswaney17]

so I maybe found IDBTWY (i hope i put the letters in the right order my brain is so slow HAHAHAHA) on ao3 and binged all of it (+ the prequels) last night and WOW😩🥵🤩🥰!! It was beyond amazing! You are an incredible writer and the whole story was so engaging and well balanced (the angst:fluff ratio 😤👌🥵) and I COULD NOT STOP READING PLEASE IT WAS SO GOOD??? This should not be allowed I am not okay and how dare you release something THIS GOOD😩🥰!!!! You are SO TALENTED I love this story sm please I can’t believe you’re letting us read this for free TYSM☺️💛. Something about Elriel AUs just hits different and this one >>>>?? NEXT LEVEL! I loved it so much please I just wanna reread immediately but I will wait until I have enough time to reread here and give you the praise and appreciation and hype that you deserve because this story is INCREDIBLE. Truly. I AM OFFICIALLY A (n even bigger) TSWANEY17 STAN😌😌💛💛!! Because I remember you def also wrote Across the Hallway which is ✨burned into my head✨ because I’ve read it so many times I’m not even sorry😌😌😌. Definitely my comfort story too, everything about it is so warm🥰🥰 (except for that very smutty chapter😈)!!! As you can tell I’m definitely not the writer here🤣. But I hope I managed to convey at least a little bit of my gratitude and appreciation for you and your writing🥰🥰. You’re amazing and I think IDBTWY has dethroned and replaced Across the Hallway as my fav Elriel fic because I am HOOKED😌😩😭!! TYSM for writing it and I’m so glad I found it💛💛💛

P.S. No pressure at all, but I was just wondering if you had a schedule for updates? Just so I remember when to pop back but all good if not🥰)

P.P.S. I was already convinced the story was CHEFS KISS TOP NOTCH but then you made Cassian and Elain sing Exile🥺🥺. A Taylor Swift stan and your name is Taylor too I am crying!!🥰🥰🥰🥰

Oh my god...

This is... I just... 🥺🥺🥺

I have no words for how incredibly wonderful it felt to read this. I'm totally not going to be able to express myself well enough for you to understand how much my heart swelled to get this.

LITERAL TEARS IN MY EYES!!! 😭😭

I feel like I say this all the time, but I never expected to get the kind of reaction I have over this fic. Here I was, just a random newbie to the writing world (at least for public consumption), and to get the amount of amazing and responsive feedback I've gotten has just been astronomical to me. You are the reason I push myself to continue and improve my writing. I seriously cannot say thank you enough, but truly, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Across the Hallway was my first baby. It was this random idea that I just needed to get out and when I look back on it (knowing that it needs A TON of edits), I can't help but smile at how far I've come. IDBTWY has been an absolute joy to write (yes, even when everyone yells at me to just make them kiss and to stop hurting them 😈).

I can't say I blame you for letting IDBTWY dethrone ATH, because, in my heart, it has too. I don't usually give myself kudos or talk about things I've done that make me proud, but this fic is one of the proudest things I've ever accomplished (-ish, since it's not done yet).

As for a schedule, I tend to post every other week - but I'm not always successful. Life gets busy, ya-know? For notifications, you can always subscribe to my fic blog (I only reblog snippets and actual fics, nothing else so it's not obnoxious), @tswaney17fics. Or you can subscribe to my ao3 account as well. Those will probably be the best options for keeping up with my posts.

I am a HUGE TSwift fan! I had the idea of Elain and Cash singing Exile together for months before that part came out. It just hit me as Elriel, especially in this fic. But more ironically, my last name also begins with "Sw", so we're almost the same person… 😬 (A girl can dream right??)

Anyways, this answer has become ridiculously long, so to summarize, THANK YOU x1000000000000000000! It truly meant everything to read this. 💙💚💜

#ask #this is seriously the nicest ask #like i am going to cry about this for the next year

[cellsshapedlikestars]

Hello, it's me again!

You are chosen to be in The Bachelor/rette, who is your Bachelor(ette) and who are the other girls? Or people, you can be diverse! Also... Do you win?

I've actually discussed this with my friend before - no, I don't think I would win. I'm not the kind of person who jumps to an engagement that quick (nor am I that interested in marriage), and I'm like the least publically affectionate person ever, so I would definitely be out night one (or go on Paradise, which I'm all for).

As for who my Bachelor/ette would be?? I would choose Nick Viall, because he gives zero shits anymore and has no respect for the franchise and he's hilarious. Also Mike Johnson. Mike was ROBBED of Bachelor, I will fight anyone and everyone about this. I have tweeted exactly 3 times in the last 5 years, all of them about the Bachelor, one of those to complain that they didn't pick Mike.

Like... UGH. LOOK AT HIM.

(go follow Mike on insta)

Noooo instead they chose fucking PETER. Anyway, I'm done ranting.

(I'm also weirdly obsessed with Michael Garofola who I don't think was ever close to being Bachelor. I don't understand my love of him, he's just adorable.)

If I were on a Bachelorette season... I'm way less judgy of the women so I think its harder to choose my absolute fav.

Bachelorette seasons I'd go on: Tayshia, Katie's doing great so far, Rachel, I'm really looking forward to Michelle (I liked Hannah and Jojo fine but I would want to date neither if that makes sense. I don't know if I'd actually date Tayshia, I think she's fairly conservative/religious? But she's so fucking pretty and I don't actually *know* if the religious thing is true. And she seems really nice and fun). I didn't watch Kaitlyn's season, but she also seems fun af

Bach Nation women I love who would be other contestants: Demi, Serena P, Lily from the NZ Bachelor, Ashley Spivey, Bibiana, Alexis, Corinne for the drama... There are so many and I'm absolutely forgetting a bunch. Like I'm blanking right now. But honestly most of the Bach girls I think I'd be ok with, barring a few.

Bach guys to be other contestants: Tre, Andrew, Catboy from the current season. Ivan from Tayshia's. Derek Peth maybe? I think I just love him solely for the scene of him softly crying in the limo to Don't Cry for Me Argentina after he was eliminated. Wills & Wells. Jordan for fun. Courtney from the Australian Bachelorette. Again, I'm blanking on other guys that I loved and would love to hang out with.

Anyway, this is too long of an answer but I feel like you all should know by now that I can and will talk about the Bachelor FOREVER

#ask #bachelor #reality tv

[letterstothemidnightsociety]

Alright, so if you've been following along with me, Supernatural season 3 starts out on a trio of episodes that are Really Fun, slides into some episodes that are Pretty OK, then takes a real nose dive into Bummersville. Hoo boy guys, I really hope that this season picks up. I mean, it won’t, but I can still dream. 2021 was maybe not the year to start watching this season. Fair warning.

The next three episodes for this season are just, like, real downers. First we get “Fresh Blood,” which, aside from the terrible title, starts out on a high note. Gordon (gross) somehow manages to catch up with Bela (HOW??) and threatens her if she doesn’t hand over the Winchesters. Bela, in all of her class and grace, won’t give them up because she has a high price point and Gordon is really lowballing her here. Just like, yes, ok, please stay forever, you’re amazing and I love you. And what a scene this is! You have two characters, one with a strict moral code (albeit one that allows for violence and winning at all costs) and the other with almost NO moral code, but an allegiance that can be bought with the best price and it’s such a fun back and forth until Gordon pulls out a gun. And then she pulls out her phone and just has Dean on speed dial and that’s maybe my fav part. Bela has run into the Winchesters twice and they maybe legit hate her but she’s very much like, oh yeah, my BFF’s the Winchesters, I love those idiots!

I love that we come back to this moment later in the episode when Bela, like, three days later, is like, Oh! I guess I should warn the Winchesters that some crazy guy is after them! She’s just so casual about it you kind of get the feeling that, even though technically Gordon was threatening her life, she doesn’t view him as A Threat. She gives the Winchesters a heads up just to be like oh yeah, you might want to watch out for this mild inconvenience, and she seems legit shocked when Dean freaks out. There’s this moment that plays across her face like, oh shit, did I...did I fuck up? And it adds a nice bit of depth to her character. She’s seems honestly worried, both for the lives of the Winchesters but also that Dean won’t like her anymore and that is just a charming bit of A C T I N G!

I am gonna miss her SO MUCH when she dies at the end of this season. WHY did we CANCEL HER???

But despite the fun beginning, this episode is about monsters and how people become monsters and how other people are probably the reason. Because our main baddie is a vampire who hunts to...well, listen if we look at the facts that he lays out in his monologue, it’s a little more tragic - he’s trying to replace the daughters that he lost hundreds of years ago, cool motive, still murder. In practice though, he goes around turning hot blonde coeds into vampires and then ?????? Who knows. I’d like to believe that this was a problem with the CW executives or maybe casting/directing and not with the writing, but it’s SPN and you really can’t be sure with anything. The fact is, this is a CW show from the early 2000’s and a lot of their extras are cast to type. And that’s maybe me exhibiting some girl-on-girl crime, but there are other episodes that did a much less blatantly gross job casting their extras/Very Special Guest Stars.

Anyway, the POINT of this guy is that he’s a monster because someone killed his daughter and he’s just been trying to fill that grief hole inside of him for centuries. This is not unlike Gordon, who ALSO has been trying to fill a grief hole that he’s had for decades, except he’s not killing people and resurrecting them as blood suckers, he’s just killing them. And then, when the Vamp decides to turn Gordon it’s a real sweet moment of comeuppance for like, a HOT second and then you’re like, awww dude, ya done f’ed up. That was a bad idea. You’ve made a HUGE mistake.

More importantly, our Vampire In Question finally runs into the Winchesters and get’s to say things like “I was desperate! You ever felt desperate? I've lost everyone I ever loved. I'm staring down eternity alone. Can you think of a worse hell?” and also “I just ... I didn't care anymore. Do you know what it's like when you just don't give a damn? It's like ... it's like being dead already.” and Dean’s v. much like, THIS IS TOO REAL ROY.

Sam may ALSO be feeling Too Real feelings because he is DONE dicking around with Gordon and honestly yes, I like this, this is good Sam development. It’s nice to know that Sam has a breaking point. And I admit I’m of two minds about this moment because 1) I love the idea of Dark!Sam this season and that maybe Sam’s decision to actually kill Gordon is just one step in that process but 2) I ALSO love the idea of Sam Lite finally having a breaking point and Gordon is IT. I don’t know which theory I like more in this scenario, but they are both good theories.

I think as much as this episode wants to draw parallels between the monsters and Dean (thank you artful editors), you can’t look at the “I’ve lost everyone I ever loved,” line and not think of Sam? Cuz he’s got one (1) person left in his life that hasn’t died horribly, so how desperate is he about to get through the end of this season? I’ve definitely been watching this season with eyes on all the ominous Dean foreshadowing, but the Sam foreshadowing is also there, just buried under the heavy weight of a thousand smulders and suicidal levels of denial.

And also, FUCK the tag on this episode! Guys, it is CUTE but it is also HORRIBLE. Dean starts teaching Sam how to fix the Impala and at first it’s all, “Oh! Adorable Brothers Being Brothers!” and I loved it but then I almost immediately hated it because you realize this is about making sure Sam can get along without him once he’s gone and Dean just accepts his own death with such casual ease that it’s just...INFURIATING!

This scene was rude and I HATE IT!

Cut to - “A Very Supernatural Christmas” Special!

Guys, I was so excited when I got to this episode. THIS is Classic Supernatural Shenanigans. Plus, you know a Holiday Special is the ultimate sign that this show has Made It, right? Or it could be a sign that they’re selling out, who knows, but I think we can say that at this point in the series, SPN is established enough to start having fun with their fans. That’s what this says to me. BUT THEN what we get is like...oh boy.

First - like, I’mma beat this horse to death, but what is WRONG with this FAMILY? John Winchester very quickly devolved into the sort of father that forgot about every single holiday and did not ever, even a little bit, make up for it. It’s not a surprise, but it kind of wrecked me seeing a flashback where Baby Dean is just so attached to a father who can’t be bothered to actually care for his children. I know he’s not in this episode because Jeffrey Dean Morgan was tied up in other projects, but the fact that John doesn’t show up at the end to button the flashbacks with a But then he DID show up for Christmas! just makes this plot line that more gutting. And despite Dean’s hero worship of their father, this is maybe the Christmas where Baby Sam stops believing in his own father. The only bright side to this is that it continues to enforce the fact that Bobby should have sued John for custody. Bobby should maybe STILL Sue for custody so that Dean at least would feel like someone wants him for once in his life, damnit.

And then we wrap this episode up with the Best Worst Christmas of all, because we see Sam start to...also?? accept that Dean is about to die? Cuz that’s what this episode is really about - Dean’s Last Christmas. And everything about that makes me ~ u p s e t ~.

So Sam decides to put his curmudgeonly grinchy attitude aside in order to make it a special day for Dean and ugh. UGH. UGHGHGHG. Season three is the worst guys, and I can’t believe I didn’t realize that until right this second now.

So let’s wrap this up with "Malleus Maleficarum", honestly an episode that is mostly forgettable until we get to, like, the last five minutes. Sure, witches and curses and selling your soul, woohoo whatever.

But then we get some real Ruby centric reveals and like, WHAT is happening?? First off, the scene where Ruby and Tammy have a moment is a real Moment. There is some baggage and tension here and it is heavy. And then Tammy drops the mic when she reveals that Ruby used to be human.

THEN, Ruby legit saves their asses by killing Tammy with a fancy magic knife. Ok, Dean does the actual killing, but Ruby brought the fancy magic knife. So between the hot and heavy tension with “Tammy” and her repeated attempts to keep the Winchesters alive, we’re left wondering what IS Ruby’s deal? I personally wonder how much of the show’s mythology the show actually has figured out at this point? Because interviews with Kripke definitely walk the line between “Oh we definitely have this whole thing worked out,” and “yeah, we’re sort of finding things as we go along,” which is maybe why it’s able to last as long as it does. More on that later.

Of course the big kicker is the final scene between Ruby and Dean. Dean is almost on board with Ruby at this point in the season, and much like his scene with the demon in “Sin City”, they share a kind of vulnerable moment together where Ruby admits that, yeah, she was human once and yeah, Hell will destroy you, body and soul, and yeah Dean’s worst fear will probably come true - he will become the thing he hunts, no ifs, ands or buts about it. And Dean knows that Ruby knows that Dean knows that there’s no way to save Dean from his fate, but they both agree that they can’t take Sam’s last ounce of hope away from him because, for both of them, Sam is their hope. Ruby and Dean both see the war happening around them and they know that with Dean gone, Sam’s maybe the last guy holding back the tide to save all humanity.

Which, honestly? Bull shit. Do you know how many hunters are out there? Neither do I, but this season seems to indicate that there are a LOT. We have barely scratched the surface on the hunter community and it’s a damn shame that they are all weirdo loners because there is a war going on. You know what works great in a war? An ARMY. Buncha mentally unstable, martyr-complex ijits who can’t put their differences aside for one damn MINUTE so that maybe, JUST maybe, the could actually defeat the evil they’ve spent their entire lives dedicated to fighting. And if Ruby and Dean wanted to help Sam, what they should probably do is get him plugged in to that community. I do believe that of all they backasswards, self-obsessed, painfully anti-social crazies out there, the Winchesters are THE WORST.

Listen tho, this was like, a solid scene between these two. Just a lot of work goin' into this and it paid off.

Anyway, back to the mythology for a hot second - This sort of loosey-goosey stumbling into your own world building is probably another one of those things that you’ll only really get in a show with this many episodes per season? It’s that room to play and experiment and just make stuff up as you go along. I think the slow drip method of releasing episodes ALSO helps in this scenario because you’re able to see what fans are reacting to in almost-real time. When viewers are binging episodes, I think you're less likely to see what specifically they’re reacting to and more wholistically they’re reacting to. And that’s not to say you won’t see those specific things that they like/love eventually, but by the time you get there, your season’s been produced in its entirety and you’ll have to bear that in mind for (hopefully) next season. But with SPN, they were writing and producing the show at the same time that some of the episodes were airing. That’s why they were able to make decisions on the fly, based on what fans responded to. And definitely by this point in the show, there was a sizeable and vocal fan base that made their feelings VERY well-known. We’re only in season three, but they’ve already had a number of con appearances and a pretty active online presence. That kind of feedback has got to be helpful, from a writing perspective, but it also allows for things like characters getting cut because nobody liked them for some dumb reason. BUT, if you’re fighting to stay on the air for 100 episodes or longer, responding to fan reactions is what’s gonna do it and that’s a fact.

#Supernatural #Supernatural rewatch #SPN #Sam Winchester #Dean Winchester #Bela Talbot #Gordon Walker #Ruby #SPN Season 3 #Fresh Blood #A Very Supernatural Christmas #malleus maleficarum #It's gonna lighten up on the next three episodes #I promise #I hope #Don't watch this season if you're still feeling 2020 #Is my personal opinion

[blueeyedheizer]

always - castor

WARNINGS: sickness i guess? 

A/N: this is quite short [~800 words] but I really wanted to write something for Castor since he became one of my fav dean characters. Also...this is sad but not as sad as his actual storyline 😗

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"He's a liar!" Castor screamed out as he tried to get out of your grip, only to get his body pulled back down against yours. M.K took a step back, startled by his sudden outburst. "I know what you are." his voice cracked as he spoke, betraying the pain he'd been trying to hide. "The Widow told me."

Your arms were firmly wrapped around his body, your grip tightening as he tried to push you away. Knowing you wouldn't let go so easily, he eventually stopped fighting and let his body collapse against yours with a choked sob.

"M.K, just go, please." you begged.

Not wanting to cause any more trouble, M.K nodded before leaving the room silently, giving you and Castor one last glance.

"It's okay." you continued as you placed your hand on Castor's forehead before running it through his hair in an attempt to calm him down. "He's gone. It's just you and me." Your other hand started rubbing his arm and you leaned your head on top of his, struggling to fight back your own tears. "I'm right here." Castor's head rested on your shoulder, and he sniffled softly as you started humming a soft tune that you believed was from the old world, rocking his body back and forth in your arms. Castor squeezed his eyes shut as more tears formed in them and dripped down his cheeks. He started sobbing silently, his arm moving to wrap around your waist in a desperate attempt to keep himself grounded, his chest rising and falling in choked breaths.

He eventually started relaxing at the sound of your voice and managed to get his breathing a bit more under control, his tears beginning to run dry. Your hand was still tangled in his hair, gently playing with it.

"I'm sorry." he muttered. "I don't know what came over me."

"I know. It's okay Cas. You need to rest, your body needs to heal." you whispered pulling back a little, but Castor shook his head. You furrowed your eyebrows in confusion and Castor's eyes met yours. Your heart ached at the sight of him; the veins on his neck and cheeks were getting darker, his eyelashes were wet and sticking together, his face was puffy and his eyes were red, the spark that once lived inside them being long gone. You let the tears spill from the corner of your eyes when you felt his skin burn under the palm of your hand.

"I'm dying, Y/N."

"No. Don't say that." a tiny, strangled sob tore from your throat. "Remember what you told me when we were kids? you said we'd walk through the gates of Azra together. You said you'd hold my hand and we'd be the first ones to step on its sacred ground."

A small smile formed on Castor's pale lips at the memory of awe on your face the very first time you had heard of Azra, of your little squeals of joy when he convinced Pilgrim to let the both of you be the first to ever step on its ground.

"I know you don't believe in Azra anymore, Y/N." he reached out to place his hand on your cheek, stroking it softly. You chewed at your bottom lip, closing your eyes for a moment. You had lost faith in finding Azra a long time ago, but you'd never showed it nor told anyone. You couldn't. You knew how Pilgrim was. He would have killed you as soon as he found out.

"Let me heal you, Cas. Please." you begged, sliding your hand from his hair to his cheek, cupping it softly. A single tear dropped from your cheek, hitting his own. "I can't lose you."

"And I don't want you to risk your life for me, Y/N." he answered, his eyes softly fluttering shut.

Your Gift allowed you to heal people, but you'd never been properly trained to use it. If done in the wrong way, it could get your body drained from all its strength or worse, kill you.

"But I've done it before. I've healed your scars before, let me help you."

"This isn't just a scar, love...you know it." his voice was getting weaker with each word.

You looked down as more tears fell from your eyes. Closing them, you shook your head and moved your hand back onto his forehead, feeling the skin burning hot under your fingertips, more than before.

"Then get some rest, Castor." You insisted as you brushed the messy hair from his face before leaning down to press a lingering kiss to his forehead.

"Will you stay with me?" he asked softly, and you nodded, offering him a small comforting smile. Pulling him closer, you pressed his head against your chest and held him tenderly to yourself.

"Always."

Shortly after, you could feel Castor's chest rise and fall slowly as he breathed softly into your chest. You breathed out a shaky sigh and stared down at the poor boy in your arms, making a silent promise to always be there for him and protect him, no matter what the cost might be.

#blueeyeddean