#jesus no i am not starting again

[chloeseyeliner]

no one:

my traitorous brain: hey, girl, remember when a few months ago you were at the university "green space" sitting with the only two people who can endure you with these two girls from class and you just started a fifteen-minute long rant (with kind of well-grounded arguments supporting it) about how edvin ryding is one of the best actors of our generation and how his portrayal of anxiety and panic attacks in young royals specifically is so to the point and realistic, and how he really cares about his characters because, for example, he really got to know wilhelm before every season to understand where he is right now and all, and how you are so glad you got to meet him through this show back in july 2021 and you are looking forward to seeing what the future holds as regards his career because he is just that admirable? oh, me too. by the way, that means you suck. have a good night, girlie!

#i've tried to reduce my rants around people irl (people i know well ofc i don't even talk to the others lol) since then lol #let's say that being a person with (mild) social anxiety yet a person who loves to rant on about films books shows politics etc #is kind of a lethal combination #lmao #anyway #i stand by it now #i'll stand by it forever #edvin is wonderful #(as all the other actors in young royals are!! but this specific rant was about him) #young royals #edvin ryding #oh and speaking of yr-related rants #i once started one (i don'r remember how long it was lol) about how simon is not a villain #like the minority of the fandom portrays him to be #because simon is traumatised by various situations in his life and he is trying so hard to take care of his family #despite being a literal teenager #and- #jesus no i am not starting again #lol #too many tags #too many feelings

[lucabyte]

siffrin doodles to.... capture some excess emotion??? Man. If Start Again got its hooks in me this bad I'm frankly terrified as to what ISAT will do

#literally havent drawn fanart of anything in over a year i am kind of taken aback at how much this little hatman has me in their grasp #in case that wasnt a clear enough hint i am thoroughly reccomending start again: a prologue to everyone reading this. play it right now. #and ms insertdisc5 if youre reading this: jesus fucking christ. what a job well done. im in awe #in stars and time #isat #isat siffrin #sasasap #start again start again start again #start again: a prologue #fanart #doodlebyte

[rickybaby]

F1 Nation Podcast: Christian Horner on Ricciardo's Return

The ball started rolling in a hotel room in Mexico, last year. I had an appointment with Daniel, where it became clear that his options for 2023 were limited. He looked broken." "So I said, 'Why don't you come back to Red Bull for a year?' So that he could help us with simulator work, and tire tests, in order to regain his passion. It was clear that he didn't enjoy it anymore. To be honest, in recent years I haven't seen the Ricciardo who was once at Red Bull. That's how it started."

The Mexican GP was exactly a week after COTA, which was also a week after this interview:

"When you think it can't get worst, it does. I don't know how I'm continuing to continue, because painful is an understatement"

#i haven't been well since someone pointed this out on twitter #first of all fuck mclaren z*k br*wn will never see another win in his career and may they never repay the debt they have on the mtc #i think it was at this particular moment it became clear how exhausted he was and to think he was going mad thinking he'd lost it #and then meeting christian the week after and starting to realise he could go back to redbull #where simon is #where people who know him are #where he could maybe find himself again #thinking about likely larks' scholarship on daniel as judas and christian as jesus - #i would have never believed that you could have left me #i never left you i do love you please take my hands #I AM K-WORDING MYSELF #daniel ricciardo

[catgirlcrisis]

its actually so crazy how the writing team was like “lets make grief and loss important themes for alisaie as a character” so in BCOB she learns about making peace with her grandfather’s death to live life on her own terms, for her own sake. she goes out herself to explore eorzea. and then emery dies while shes powerless to do anything about it. and then she almost dies believing that urianger was going to betray her and the scions. and then she watches the same tower her brother was supposed to be in get bombed not knowing if he escaped in time. and then she watches the people she loves be picked off one by one, physically present but spiritually gone, while being powerless to help them. and then she loses contact with alphinaud (again) not knowing if he’s okay. if he’s safe. and then the next time she sees him immediately its his limp body being carried by a stranger. and then she begs the warrior of light to not leave her alone. and then she watches tesleen die powerless to do anything about it. and then she watches the warrior of light nearly succumb to becoming a sin-eater, risking dooming not only the fate of the first, but the source. and then she finds the cold bodies of licinia and her sister, ultimately more victims of their despair than anything else, people who she’d been trying to help. and then s

#why do they keep DOING THIS TO HER #does anyone else obsessively think about this or am i just fucking crazy #her begging the wol to not leave her alone and then later on in ew again going to the wol and being like #'so hey things are crazy right now but please dont do some stupid self-sacrifice thing' #like basically 'dont kill yourself. stay alive please' #i just think a lot about how like #not in an infantilizing way #but the twins start the story at 16 #and are like 17-18 throughout the end #id say shb/ew #and its like. Wow you guys really are going through it huh #to be fair im also the same age learning that this is just what being 16-17-18 is like #but . jesus #NOT TO UNDERMINE ALPHINAUD EITHER #its just crazy how both of the twins are like #so committed to their goals and their ideals #and they keep being like kicked down #and in alisaies case shes like No fuck off I love everyone #and alphinaud is also like beat with the trauma stick 26787422 times #but is like 'that sucked but i still believe the world has a lot of good in it' #like FUCK YES LITTLE GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! SCREAMS #ffxiv #endwalker spoilers #shadowbringers spoilers #idk what else to spoiler tag uhm #stormblood spoilers #in case anyone needs that. i guess

[catofoldstones]

“They’re making the dance about Alicent and Rhaenyra when it’s supposed to be between Aegon and Rhaenyra!!!!!” buddy, the source material is called the Princess and the Queen, and you won’t like who the princess or the queen is, but one point at a time

#anti dumbfucks #alicent hightower #house of the dragon #hotd #hotd season 2 #hotd s2 #so late to the party but here i am #started reading fire and blood again #which inspired this latent thought #the way they twisted this into ‘pitting two women against each other’ #literacy in general died a thousand deaths #and then they complain about ‘fandom misogynists’ #buddy YOU’RE removing a woman from her pivotal role and giving it to a man #jesus fucking christ #also jaehaerys’ chapters are impossible to go through #he will get me and my shotgun one #day #fire and blood

[moonsidesong]

i've been steadily losing followers on instagram since i started object posting and that's. Fine im basically only still there to keep contact with a few old irls and mutuals but losing a couple followers per post isn't as funny as that one time in jan2023 where i posted one picture of tissues burner and lost like 30 followers in one go

#record was also there but it's funnier to say it was his fault #also the only way the algorithm would ever like me again is if i started doing reels which i am Not going. to do #have you ever seen a comment section on reels it's like they only attract the worst people #is that what tiktok is like ALL the time? jesus #brifdi

[idonthaveacontract]

image I love. don't have anything interesting to say about it

#I'm working on making a pete thing so I'm just browsing through my pete collections... #I kind of wish I had catalogued more simple images of people w/o captions back in the day bc idk when I will actually thoroughly rewatch #also my organization went all the way off the rails since I started posting again last year I just deleted like 1000 screenshots because #they weren't titled or sorted or anything they were just in the system Screenshot folder and I didn't think I would ever refer to them agai #what the fuck am I talking about jesus christ #trudy's pantyhose are very obvious here

[quietwingsinthesky]

there’s a progression in there, somewhere, of even going from ‘the master might kill me any day now :(‘ to ‘the master is going to kill me :) she’s not going to let someone else do it after all this time’

#i wouldn’t call it hubris exactly. more like this pretty secure surity that that’s how they’re going to die. #and to them that makes sense. they chose this. they keep choosing it after the doctor offers them a way out. #because this is. they understand this. and they feel safe in the reprieve before their death. #how do you control death? choose who kills you. the last defense of a prey animal. #something something dark mirror to clara’s ‘i am owed’ speech for even is if this ever. doesn’t work out the way they thought it would. #clara tried to threaten the doctor so that he’d reverse death for her. even would turn on the master if she tried to spare them. #i am owed better. i am owed the death you promised… i am owed the knowledge that you don’t care enough to save me… you know. something like #that. #even is. kind of. meant to mirror the doctor’s companions at the time. they are a martha who can’t leave him. they are a donna who has to #remember and never speak about everything they know. they are clara if during deep breath clara reached back and truly didn’t expect. truly #hoped. that no one would take her hand. because if they can be certain it will happen they can know never to reach again. #jesus christ. go to therapy boy. you have so many trust issues. #but that’s why they’re Like That with the master because at the end of the day. who is easier to rely on? the guy who comes in to put out #fires but only sometimes. or the guy who. really really fucking likes starting fires. #better to get burned hoping someone is coming or get burned knowing that’s what would happen. and even. chooses the latter. #AND ALL OF THIS. for me to say thats why i cant actually let the master ever kill them. #i think she needs to do something worse to even. i think she needs to abandon them. #and that will either set them free to go have healthy normal relationships or. lets be honest much more likely. completely fucking break #them. which would be fun :) for me. #dw oc

[priestfrommidnightmass]

“All they were—all they ever had been— was a pair of sunflowers who each believed the other was the sun.”

#i haven’t stopped thinking abt this book. i will likely never stop thinking abt this book #i feel SICK. god #i might start crying thinking abt them again. jesus christ #PAULLL 😭😭😭 JULIAN😭😭😭 #ok yeah i am i’m crying now #i have so many words and yet no words #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i already want to just pick it up and start it from the beginning but that is NOT a good idea #these violent delights #datvd

[lesbiansanemi]

Gay trans men be normal about women challenge. Especially trans women and lesbians

#why are they so misogynistic. like why. lol. lmao even. it's infuriatingly hysterical #and not just misogyny in general #the TRANSMISOGYNY?????? #lord. god. dear fucking jesus it's goddamn horrendous #also genuinely one of THE MOST lesbophobic groups of ppl i have ever had the displeasure of interacting with #the disdain for women hidden behind 'well i'm not a woman nor attracted to them uwu it's okay to talk about how awful and gross and terribl #they all are. also i will accuse all of them for being either transphobic or a misandrist or both if they confront me about this' #'because i am trans and a minority group so therefore i can never be wrong uwu' #insane behavior #the way so many of them view afab nonbinary ppl as Women Lite because if you're not a binary trans man who wants to pass as cis perfectly #you are irrelevant and can have no opinions on trans topics or experience transphobia or identify it #crazyyyyyyyyyyyy #don't even get me started on the 'transandrophobia truthers' just admit you can't handle trans women being the main topic of conversation f #for once. not even in discussions over their fucking oppression #and don't even get me started on the internalized shit. like not just the misogyny but honestly this weird brand of transphobia #and homophobia too. it's fucking wild #once again. lol. lmao even. #sorry i saw some stupid shit this morning (and it's been building for a while) and I want to bitch. i'm tired. i'm so fucking tired #it's such a trend i have seen in this group of ppl #OBVIOUSLY i know they are not all like this but GODDAMN a lot of them are #and any time someone tries to point out any issues with the community they're just accused of being a bigot. whatever x-phobia is convenien #to cry at the time #okay i'll shut up now #kaz rambles

[clairles]

What I need to learn is to not wanting closure.

To learn how to deal with your best friend ghosting you and not waiting every minute every day for him to write.

To just deal with people leaving without a word

#I'm just so tired #jesus #i am going to start using this forsaken page to vent #because i again am at the point of not wanting to share with friends my issues #personal #i dont know how to deal with him just leaving #without any word

[foreverethereal123]

Hskskdkzjrkfjskjfkdjfkdjfkfkfkfjsmdk!

Okay I have been admiring this one privately for a while but it NEEDS to be out there because LOOK. AT. THIS. BEAUTY.

I was incredibly lucky to win @bayleedrawsx's giveaway and I requested something for my OH babies and I am OBSESSED with the way it came out😭😭😭😭😭

LOOK. AT. THIS.

I AM DKSKFKSKFKKSKFKRJFKXMGKDMFK!

Thank you so so so much, Baylee for this amazing piece and for letting me have this opportunity even when I was so indecisive dkjdkdkdk sorry about that lol CONGRATULATIONS on your milestone!!! You deserve that and so much more!! 💕💕💕💕

#Choices #choices fanart #open heart #open heart fanart #ethan ramsey #ethan x mc #Jesus fucking Christ #I am fighting for my life here with these tags #I don't know what to add anymore😭 #My respect for you guys who have to add tags with fanfics has 📈📈 #I'M TRYING😭 #legs spread open #<- lol this came up when I was tagging oph and honestly not wrong about my relationship with Ethan🤷🏻‍♀️ #Yeah i think I'm done here I'm just going to start talking shit now #ANYWAY #THANK YOU AGAIN BAYLEE!!!!!!!

[aflockofravens]

I have watched the Jujutsu Kaisen anime twice since the beginning of the month, and I just finished the entire manga that I started on Sunday morning.

This is fine. I'm fine. It's fine.

#JJK #jujutsu kaisen #satosugu #gojo satoru #geto suguru #I'm a fucking mess #i am distraught #the Shibuya arc DESTROYED me #i have cried three times over the death of a fictional character #“you've got it from here” #iykyk #UGLY SOBBING #i have so many feelings about the parallels in this story #god i just wanna give them all a hug so bad #bring on the fix-it fics because jesus christ I'm a wreck #might have to start writing again because I need them to all be okay again #thinky thoughts

[doctorweebmd]

look i think the thing people forget is that My Hero Academia is not a typical shounen. Its purposeful. Its well written. Horikoshi does not DO throw away plot-lines. He doesn't ignore plot holes. Over the past 10 years he has proven, time and time and TIME again that this is an incredibly thought out, narrative-driven brilliant story that has taken popular tropes and preconceptions and turned them on their head.

Have a little faith.

#imagine you're in a horikoshi dick-riding competition and you're up against me #but seriously. with the most recent few chapters i'm continuing to be in AWE of what he's revealing and how he's executing it #so many shounens are like: i'm gonna put my guy in a situation! #haha now i'll put him in another situation! forget about what happened in the last arc that don't matter #the ONLY other shounen i can think of that stands anywhere near this in terms of writing is FMA #look ok drag me over the coals i DO NOT CARE #its truly the king series of 'not original idea but fucking stellar execution' #look and i'm not even gonna TALK about the art (jesus fucking christ. horikoshi.) #or the character creation (how did you make us give a shit about a 30+-character ensemble cast? people here are starting WARS over them) #or the WORLD BUILDING THAT IS SO SUBTLE BUT SO POWERFUL #rewatching season 6 (again) in preparation for season 7 #and obviously. i am biased. but. dude. #i trust horikoshi with my life #whatever choice he makes on how to end this is right #because LOOK at what he's built over the past 10 years #...dont worry about the posts i just worked 3 night shifts in a row on an amount of sleep some might call #uhhhh. bad #so. don't worry about it. its the delirium #i love you my hero academia

[skullzy20]

I am not exaggerating when I say I live with one of the worst cishet men I've ever met in my life and its horrible

Pretty big vent incoming in tags, just a warning. Feel free to scroll past /gen

#sorry i. need to vent #he is genuinely one of the most ignorant; stubborn; and absolutely manchild of a man I've ever seen #I'm not fucking lying when I say he gets pissy and shouts and complains about EVERYTHING #and I don't mean just occasional shouting and getting loud #whenever he's upset. its /loud/. very loud #first time in my 5 years of knowing him I had enough and snapped back at him because he was yelling at me- #-bc I supposedly do absolutely nothing around the house and I take horrible care of myself and dont care about anything #at least in regards to the house #and complains about why I'm deciding not to go to college and that he got a job at 15 while he's literally #in his mid 40's #so. #like. #I told him I'm still 18 and I dont want him to boss around my entire fucking life but he brought up the excuse again of- #-him doing all the shit I SHOULD be doing by his words when he was 15 #first of all. like. to get things straight; we are not related at all not even in the slightest #he's my mothers bf; I don't know why he gets so pissy at me about MY life of all things #like Jesus Christ shut up challenge impossible #yeah I had a fun (/s) moment earlier where I went to clean my dish and he started to snap at me about how I- #-walk past the dishes every day while they're piled up and I should do them. meanwhile. they're literally not mine. ever #I get it yeah but. whatever. he kept going onn and on and on and got even more upset with me literally not saying or doing anything to- #-provoke him more #Ig he just doesn't know that!! wow!! I do actually care about my life and future!!!! #and that getting a job is not that easy or the same as it was 30+ fucking years ago!! wow!! who would've guessed!!!! #Like genuinely i am literally trying to get a job rn and shit and have been stressing horribly about it for literal YEARS #but yeah ignore that I guess ok sure buddy #god sorry i.. really hate him. a lot #I dont like to hate on people really; esp if im accustomed to them. but him. he. no <3 #I will say I hate him w my full chest #vent #negative post

[hella1975]

i don’t think my mum appreciates my bargain hunting

#JUNE IS ACTUALLY COMING TOGETHER IM BITING MY FUCKIGN FIST #like not to deep it but seeing the hours and hours u clocked from ur MINIMUM WAGE waitressing job finally pay off #is actually so emotional like i suffered more than jesus working the holiday season #and I’ll have to work reading week and easter despite exams again #but it’s actually starting to be WORTH IT #like america on its own is the first big thing I’ve ever saved for #but doing newcastle AND london in the DAYS leading up to it? to say sam fender and harry styles in concert? #*see #like that is so spenny I don’t DO shit like this but i AM bc I worked hard and will continue to do so #v proud and excited <3 #also if u don’t know the context of these texts #when me boom and hannah went to london together we got a dirt cheap Airbnb by CROYDEN #and the police got called on someone else staying there 😭 we literally locked our door and were trying not to make any noise lmfaoo #and my londoner dad was just like ‘wahey that’s the big smoke for you 💪🏼🍺🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿’ when I told him like ZERO fucks given #rwbt 2.0 #<- not rlly but oh well #more like the pres for rwbt 2.0