#its so fuckin unfair

[liverpool-enjoyer]

i wanna be a pretty girl so bad

#its so fuckin unfair #all my friends plus EVERY SINGLE NURSING MAJOR IN MY SCHOOL are so pretty i dont hold a candle to them on my best day #i dont mean this in a funny way #i mean it in a its two am n im crying cause i saw a picture of a pretty girl kinda way #pretty girls make me so irrationally angry #i genuinely honest to gosh feel like my ugliness is like a limb #like its a tangible physical object i can feel on my face thatll never go away #n i swear to you guys im not like those fuckass girls on tiktok w shiny hair clear skin n button noses who complain abt being ugly #im ACTUALLY CONVENTIONALLY ugly

[wierdfanficwriter]

Its so unfair that i cant just throw my clothes on like a tiktok transition. WHAT DO YOU MEAN I HAVE TO MANUALLY PUT IT ON??? FUCK YOU!

#its so fuckin unfair

[crowned-ladybug]

I wanted to draw my own take on ART-as-a-presence-in-the-feed but struggled with what path to take for A While bc all I had was that I was adamant about a winding, serpentine body, too large to take in at once and So Good at piling upon your shoulders with weight that's either overwhelming or comforting, take your pick

And then I brought in the hexagons and everything just worked

(They let me give it a face without an actual face, make for a good shorthand to show that it's talking/present in potential future art, and as a bonus serve as an homage to JWST bc hey, science!)

Partially brought to you by a whole lot of listening to Satellite by Starset

#ive hit the 'i just wanna stop looking at it' phase tho so here. take it #digital art #fanart #murderbot #the murderbot diaries #asshole research transport #character design #somehow this is what taught me how to make custom brushes in krita (it was for the face hexagons) #okay i am fuckin Tired but im still reeling from Network Effect and i care these two dipshits so much #i picked orange for ART to contrast Murderbots blue #but unfortunately also bc its been stuck in my brain as orange-aligned from the moment it appeared #bc my first impression was 'oh youre like simaris but not fuckin infuriating' #which is a Very unfair comparison btw bc i cant fuckin stand simaris but i love ART dearly #also a million other reasons but yeah. sorry bud you got assigned orange at introduction #at some point during the desing process it also had a whole bunch of hands since its controlling so many things at once with ease #but i had no way to make that look good and keep with the original vision of 'annoying long weighted blanket'

[jonathanssweatercollection]

you still resent nancy and jonathan for getting together???? for “hurting steve’s feelings”??? despite the fact that he verbally supported their relationship like 2 hours after seeing them together. this from a season that released 6 fucking years ago. a season prior to him saying that he was NOT in love with nancy anymore. do you want me to call shawn levy and tell him of your dilemma. bestie do you need to rewatch the source material

#ppl will use ANY excuse to hate nancy and jonathan to prop steve* up #their flanderised ‘pwecious little babygirl’ steve who is a delicate little flower who’s still butthurt over his high school breakup #albeit s4 did completely surrender to this bs characterisation bc the duffers don’t know how to write a storyline for steve that doesn’t #involve him being a lovestruck loser nowadays. SAD #get me in that writers room i could give him something good thats not egregiously repetitive #funny that the post that sparked this was an ANTI MURRAY FANFIC?????? in 2023. bc him suggesting jon+nancy should be together was unfair to #fuckin STEVE?????? #1) murray is literally a jokey funnyguy character. he’s a little guy it’s his birthday he makes risotto studies martial arts is a conspiracy #theorist who daydrinks and snores on airplanes. he’s SO unserious #if u want to hate on him thats fine good for u whatever but do it for. normal reasons. like encouraging teenagers to drink and have sex in #his bunker. like he was not normal for that i get it i used to kinda dislike him for that too but like. its literally not meant 2 be #that big of a deal. nothing matters there’s no point the show hasn’t been genuinely good for six years nothing matters go outside go to bed #anyways. happy 3 AM everyone im going to sleep love and what have you on planet earth #stranger things #nancy wheeler #steve harrington #jonathan byers #mine

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

drawing human wally is killing me slowly. aka reminding me why i rarely draw people

#ITS SO DIFFICULT AND FOR WHAT #ill fuckin do it tho. for him. this once #im putting him in a fruity ass pose and for what #limp wrist mf.... #i look at him and then i look at actual wally and my brain explodes #How Is This The Same Man #absolutely unprompted #i mean im vaguely happy with how its coming out #mostly about the front view one.... #but its taking Forever #drawing normal (puppet) wally takes like.... a couple minutes tops??? #ive been drawing the same human wally face for twenty minutes or more #ugh. symmetry... and human features... why do we need noses and facial structure its so unfair #dont even get me STARTED on drawing five fingers per hand again #im so attuned to the puppet life that anything more than four looks and feels wrong

[soldier-poet-king]

Stop talking down to me just because I'm young challenge!!!!

I'm friendly and accommodating and shrug everything off with a self effacing smile and a laugh because it's polite, and I need to be liked in the workplace, and it keeps me from screaming about how stupid and disorganized a lot of this shit is and from being extremely critical of my superiors (which is everyone else in the office), NOT because I'm stupid and don't know how things are supposed to be

#the duality of fran #like i dont think its necessarily on purpose #but its SO fuckin annoying #yes i am young in this workplace #im not fuckin stupid thi #tho* #think of the user she says. yeah obvs i understand basic uxd. BETTER THAN YOU DO #i was simply clarifying smthn bc everything here is done stupid and ass backwards #so its literally the least logical not intuitive #excuse me for being like. hey is this how this is organized #bc i think its stupid!!!! so my options are to ask nicely or say hey this is a piece of shit system #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH #im being a little unfair perhaps #but litcherally. im not stupid ok. im young that doesnt mean idk how offices function #maam..maam. the only area i need more experience is my actual profession #i understand basic workplace habits. BETTER THAN MOST OF THE CLOWNS HERE #whine whine whine

[suitetarts]

egads the consequences of my actions have caught up with me and i am now in a love quadrangle with a sad vampire, a mall goth, and a fiery cinnamon roll. i think its time for gale to explode

#you're telling me i couldn't flirt with them forever and now i have to CHOOSE? #its gonna be astarion but this is just so unfair #karlach is just so fuckin cute i can't do this to her #and shadowheart is a snuggly sweetie pie #bg3 romance

[chaosinstigator]

not to be a hater or anything but every time I see the orange cars do well I am filled with rage

#anti mclaren #anti zak brown #belgian gp 2023 #f1 #formula 1 #qualifying #I DONT CARE IF ITS HAPPENING TO OSCAR IT SHOULDVE BEEN DANIEL YOU HEAR ME #mclaren deserves nothing more than to be bottom that’s fucking it clearly they’ve breached costcap bc who cares when you’re zak fuckin brown #I really thought I’d be over this by now especially since Danny is back but nope the better those oranges do the more angry I feel bc it’s #it’s just so fucking unfair #joey watches f1 #I need to put myself in a time out

[descendantofthesparrow]

FUCK hes so pretty

#s'cuse me while i fawn over...22 yo? 21? year old thomas #in 2017 he was 22 #so this is 21 year old thomas #so let me fawn over a past version of a dude who was then my now age #GODS HES SO FUCKIN GPRETTY #ITS UNFAIR

[widevibratobitch]

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#vent post vent post lalalala #i wanted to post some pictures from my weekend trip with my friends before its too late but then i saw my fucking face and now i wanna kms #like oh my god. oh my god this is really truly the face im stuck with forever and ever and ever till the day im fuckin rotting in the groun #incredible how unfair life can be lmao (<- girl who is having such incredibly superficial stupid fucking problems but is otherwise #quite privileged but of course that will never be fucking enough for her because she's soooooo fckn stupid and selfish and annoyinggg lol) #i dont know why im so obsessed with it now #like i genuinely remember KNOWING that im kinda ugly (and fat) in high school and being like 'so what lol idc' #so WHY is it such an issue now????? #idk. i just kinda wish i was dead every time i look at my face and realise there's nothing i can do to change it #i can dress in ways that will cover my ugly ass shapeless body. maybe i can even go back to my ed properly this time #and lose some weight. for a time. before i gain back twice as much and the circle begins anew lol #but my face is not gonna change no matter what i do lmao unless i fucking scrape it off with a grater or smash my head into pieces #and like. even if i do get that rhinoplasty (its not gonna change my faceshape anyway. nothing i can do to fix THAT fuckin atrocity) #every time ill look in the mirror i will only be reminded that its fake. and that my natural face was disgusting enough it had to be cut up #to be fixed somewhat. #i just wish i had ONE. just ONE nice thing about my body. literally just one its not even funny lol #and its so fucked up when you look at my mom who was so insanely fucking beautiful when she was my age. like. i cant blame her #cause how could she have known that the genes she'll pass on will not result in anything good lol but also i feel like such a failure #like its not really my fault i got the genes i got. but yknow. #anyway im tired of always being the ugliest person in any group im hanging out with. my cousins? check. my hometown friends? check. #my uni friends? my GOD check (how ARE they all so pretty and skinny??? insane). #god i wish i were dead. like fr fr. im not actively suicidal since i cant bring myself to *do* shit anyway. but i just wish i never existed

[aahsoka]

xo kitty is like a cheesy teen netflix show but calling it a show for koreaboos is kinda dumb like the main character is a white/asian girl trying to reconnect w her heritage + the author (a korean american woman) is a writer and showrunner ……… i just dont think it makes sense to call someone who is writing about their own culture and an exploration of it. even in the diaspora. a “koreaboo”

#sorry i saw a video ……. #jordan talks #granted the actress is actually half chinese #but the creator ! is korean !!!!! #yes its a little kdrama-y because kdramas are fun. shut up . lmfao #I also initially thought it was like that until i realized it was a spin off of talbilb…… #then it was like oh theres a whole new perspective here #yes its very wattpad. very tropey. did u fucking watch to all the boys ??? hello ?? #u dont have to like it i think its just unfair to label it ‘koreaboo’ #perhaps it appeals to koreaboos but so do fuckin kdramas …… #u cant avoid the koreaboos if ur making a show about korea

[pristine-starlight]

Struggling so much to remember what the fuck i did read during elementary school, especially in lower grades

I remember what my sister read?? And also a bunch of individual books i read around that time Probably

But aside from that idk. 80s scifi? Pulpy paperbacks about legionaires?? That second one sounds especially bad but i Specifically remember being in 5th grade and trying to cope with being made to watch fuckin Fatelessness by reading Rejtő under the desk

#kata's chatter #if i said the magic schoolbus books thatd be unfair i think bc like #it was the Show that shaped my childhood on a major level #the books we had bc of it and they werent. the best #they were alright and i did love them they just v clearly werent translated by the same team #which made for some odd bits #anyway realising that the grand majority of stuff i read/got read by parents as a kid was hungarian #so this really says nothing to anyone but me #also before anyone takes things the wrong way: #the problem with fatelessness was that i was fuckin 12 and its a graphic movie about concentration camps

[snekdood]

i fundamentally think what causes the most problems in the world is dualistic thinking (us vs them, good vs evil, light vs dark, etc) and i think a lot of that dualistic/black and white thinking came from christianity (technically it came from zoroastrianism and then christianity took it a mile further) hence why i often blame christianity for a lot of the worlds problems, it all always seems to stem back to it, where people under christian influence think themselves to be the Good Guys and The Light and from there it just snowballs down until you have people committing genocide against those who "Taint Their Goodness" somehow, likely for just existing and being different or disagreeing with the christians' beliefs, "good vs evil" becomes less of a guideline on how to treat others and is instead interpreted too literally and thus people are labeled entirely good or evil instead of just their actions. same goes for "light vs dark", which, i probably dont need to go into how christians have used that ideology to fuck up the world in a million ways. "darkness" is no longer a metaphor for evil, instead it is once again taken too literally and thus anything thats "dark", whether that be the night, people, animals, clothing, etc. becomes "evil", rather than it being simply being symbolic of "being in the dark". this is where i think anti theists get messed up, they wanna paint all religions as bad but truly i think its only the ones that push duality so hard that end up being harmful, not to mention duality is an ideology someone can have who's not religious. it's all about lacking the ability to see yourself in another person, of putting yourself in their shoes, a lack of seeing them as part of the same whole that you are, that their existence contributes something to the world just as yours does. idk .-.

#i get it- i grew up in the same cultural christian society you did my friend. i get how much b/w thinking has fucked you up #and i get how you might think erasing all religion is the solution. but its not. not even all christians believe in this dualistic thinking #its unique to a lot of american christianity (i say american bc thats what im experienced with but im sure western* in general applies #i just dk. all ik is europe is infected by christianity too so im sure its not great over there really either esp since thats... kinda wher #american christianity was originated from....) and it fucks up our society in so many ways but thats not the fault of ALL religions clearly #no other religion pushes dualistic thinking the way christianity does. none that ive seen. #so many dharmic religions are the opposite of this and try to get you to see the world as a part of you and you as a part of it #so its pretty unfair to treat all religion the same #judaism doesnt even see satan as this horribad person the way christianity paints him and instead hes a 'servant of god' #which makes way more sense to me anyways?? when i was a kid second guessing christianity that always puzzled me- #how christians hate a guy who 'punishes sinners' in spite of many of them actively acting like agents of god to do the same fuckin thing #but then still somehow see satan as bad and think of themselves as so entirely different 😒 whatever ya need to tell yourself martha #antitheism cringe

[chisungie]

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#omg do u ever do smn. and it gets posted publicly AND YOU HATE IT. #and you actively avoid it but then you actually go back and give it a chance and it actually. isnt as bad as u rmr. #me with the tenshiprojectM yt uploads im in ALKSDJ #like SURE i fucked up and didnt do my nazuna voice properly (sobs sorry nazuna ily) but it wasnt wronnnngggg...? #like my sweet sweet white song part wasnt WRONG.. but its not nazuna. and i struggled w that shit for so long ASKDLJS it came out cute tho #and Aisle Be With You. i was having mic problems so i settled with whatever in a rush. #And it also turned out very not Nazuna sounding.. But like its not wrong? #mic quality differences making me cringe tho #eW THE MIC QUALITY IN JOYFUL BOX. I THINK I WAS SICK WHILE RECORDING TOO EWWW #... but AGAIN. its not WRONG..... >< #aw my duet w aria and fallin love = its wonderland isnt on youtube :( only twt.. #tbh thankfully my groupmates r really thorough ALSKDJ if im wrong they say so asap LMAO #and thank them for that fr fr bc this shit always gets posted on yt </3 #44597 #OMG FUCKIN TMI BUT I RMR THE FIRST RECORDING. EVERYONE ELSE GOT TO ACT CUTE. BUT THEY TOLD ME NOT TO LMAOO #BC I COULD ONLY GET THE “NAZUNA SOUND” OUT OF MY VOICE IF I SANG LOW NORMALLY. LMAOOOOO #it was so unfair </3 so now i sound uncute in every recording when we are a CUTE GROUP. THE OTHER 3 R SOOOO CUTE. #MATSURIYO EMAKI. I REDID THAT SHIT LIKE 4 TIMES BC I KEPT FUCKING UP SOMETHING UP. DIFF THING EVERY REDO. SO ANNOYINGGGG #it was my last line i think. so annoying it kept sounding cute or flat i just fucking gave up #oUGHGH AND FUCKING NOIR NEIGE... BANGER LINEUP. what the FUCK was i doing there! #KUUKI AND BASIL CENTERS? HOLY SHIT? TALENTED AS FUCK NATTO AND ASTE? #i fuckin love natto btw and lowkey got like. singing crush on basil and kuuki hoooooly fuck #I DIDNT EVEN KNOW IT WAS THEM UNTIL THE VID WENT UP #i was just like “ayo that guy sounds good who tf is that (doesnt recognize his user)” BASIL. IT WAS BASIL. #so uPSET I DIDNT REALIZE. I RECORDED WHILE SICK AND USING THE SHITTY MIC. bc i just had like 1 line and i had another noir neige to record #sobs

[chorus-communities]

eughhh system shit ramble

#i am so done with this shit. eden is lovely and all but at this point the fuckin identoty crisis confusion hell is affecting #me badly thru cocon its not even funny anymore its distressing and i dislike it. #headspace appearance can change we can find him a new quirk and hes already testing a list of names. idk. #i feel awful this is selfish this is my ' what if we sound cringe to Actual kinnies/systems/etc' anxiety #projected onto this poor fucker who doesnt even know who he is or why i cant look at him without cringing a bi #its unfair as fuck its. he wants to keep his quirk it means a lot to him and im tryna explain that its ok around #certain people we r close to or friends. but not in the public servers and not infront of certain people #not in places where we can get made fun of #i feel like shit abt this because he cares abt it so much but also its like the last thing to change and then bam. new alter. cant even #tell that hes a fictive. nd thatd b better fr my mental health too #i hate hyperfixating on actual specific characters and people this is why it NEVER ends well fucking kill me already and hand #hosting to someone else #cecil.vent

[suitetarts]

so astarion x durge. amirite

#i keep seeing the posts and discussions about the writers “canonizing” the pairing and being unapologetic about them getting more content #i dont want to get into it but here i am. getting into it #after stressing myself out in previous fandom spaces i vastly prefer to be ignored and yell into a void about characters i'm obsessed with #but as someone who fucking adores astarion x durge and has 200+ hours in two different playthroughs with this pairing I FEEL SO GUILTY #astarion's romance and storyline is literally the golden child being lovingly swung around the pool #while the other companions are in various stages of drowning #some more than others. cough. wyll and karlach #it fuckin sucks that other characters and pairings weren't given the time and care that astarion x durge got #its supremely unfair and shitty to the other characters that they get so much less #im grateful to larian for making my game of the year but damn. the other companions were done so fucking dirty #obviously bg3 is not a game with strictly defined canon and anyone who says that is being so fucking weird #each player's particular story is true to them and different to everyone else #that said... astarion x durge is my “true story” though and i hope no one thinks less of me as i talk about them constantly #okay ive said my piece and now i'll hopefully feel less bad about being a nasty little vampire-loving durge #astarion x durge