#its important I'm telling you

[yourhighness6]

I feel like people who dislike Zuko miss how important his character is, especially to IRL abuse victims. The journey from scared, angry, isolated and abused to confident, calm, loved and accepted while being handled almost perfectly in the context of his abuse is so underrated even while being hailed as one of the best redemption arcs of all time.

#this goes for toph too #I think that he just gets more hate from certain fans #and also his journey is a little more apparent with the redemption arc #anyway both are wonderful characters and I cannot stand the new wave of victim blaming in the fandom #anyone participating in victim blaming on any capacity can actually go fuck themselves #atla #avatar the last airbender #zuko #toph beifong #its important I'm telling you

[dykeblade]

Take a shot everytime i make fun of c!Wilbur for literally anything. Love his pathetic ass ❤️

^ twinsduo

#my art #technoblade #wilbur soot #philza #sbi incorrect quotes #YOU CAN'T TELL ME THIS ISN'T THE TECHNO/WILBUR/PHIL DYNAMIC ITS SO IMPORTANT #LIKE???? #i love your withers technoblade #i'm dying of blood loss technoblade #speaking of which #blood cw #for every half-decent post i make i have to make an equally stupid shitpost #dreamsmp #mcyt #goodbye everybody ill see you next week

[moghedien]

ONCE AGAIN REMINDING YALL THAT DOM AND SUB ARE NOT SYNONYMS FOR TOP AND BOTTOM

TOP/BOTTOM ARE POSITIONS AND JUST DESCRIBE WHO GETS PENETRATED/DOES THE PENETRATING

DOM/SUB ARE TERMS INHERENTLY ASSOCIATED WITH KINK. IF YOU ARE A SUB OR DOM YOU ARE PARTICIPATING IN KINK AND YOU CAN ACTUALLY BE A SUBMISSIVE TOP OR A DOMINANT BOTTOM

STOP CALLING CHARACTERS DOMS AND SUBS WHEN YOU REALLY MEAN TOP AND BOTTOM

#ITS IN ALL CAPS BECAUSE I'M YELLING #like listen sometimes its funny and ok to use the words interchangebly #but like you gotta understand those are not actually interchangeable words #and using them interchangebly outside of jokes or contexts where they are interchangeable just continues to confuse people #like there are younger people online who call themselves subs when they really mean bottom #and you gotta understand why its important to make that distinction #when they could be unknowingly telling potential partners they're into kink when they might not be #and best case scenario that's misleading to their potential partners even if unintentionally so

[starflungwaddledee]

it's the day before my birthday, and my girlfriend surprised me with an outing to a local bird aviary/botanic gardens in the mountains!!!

this was an absolute delight for me, known bird enjoyer, and i got to have many cute and phenomenal birds perched on my head (which i loved and plushie magolor 'tolerated', on account of it being my birthday). i even got to see a nicobar pigeon, which i had never seen in person before!

they also surprised me with an early birthday present to use at the incredible mountain-top picnic spread my gf planned (😭😭) of this extraordinarily cute kirby themed liquid-glitter cup!!

and of course, in true starflung fashion i injured myself twice

once, not three minutes into the outing when my umbrella (which i only require because i'm allergic to both the sun and sunscreen) bit me, and my gf had to run to reception to get me a bandaid. later, when i just totally fkn stacked it on some loose gravel on a slope and i got the umbrella back by slamming it into the ground, along with my knees and one palm. but not the other palm, which was holding plushie magolor, who touched neither gravel nor dirt and never will while i still breathe!

#i am so accident prone and also stupidly fragile in every way. but i'm fine and i found both of these incidents hilarious! #i feel it is important that everybody know that my mum (who has dementia but recognises plushie magolor) asked “is that magolor” when- #she saw meta knight on the cup. i said “no that's meta knight” and she replied “oh i should have known. he's not as cute as magolor.” #and magolor's ego grew THREE TIMES that day let me tell you #the cup is also extremely important as a gift actually. i recently accidentally smashed a childhood glitter cup i've had my whole life #i adored it to bits; comfort item; it had toucans on it. i was quite devastated when it broke #but it's been impossible to replace (despite my gf's best efforts) and we knew no substitute would really hit the same. #but THIS is similar enough yet different enough and so *perfect* in its own right that it really... fills the spot. #my gf is phenomenal at gifts and surprises. truly she is unfathomable. i am so spoiled 🥺 #7inch plushie magolor return to dreamland #he does have other bows btw!! he's been dressing up for halloween and christmas and such but this is his Party Bow! #starflungs personal tag

[mo-ok]

TokuxSpring Day Five

🐂 favourite animal themed suit 🐂

#tokuspring #gingaman #these are all shots of bullblack so technically this ISNT about hyuuga 😌😌😌 #but ngl i AM unreasonably in love with this suit #the theming and visuals are perfect #the cape the horns the asymmetrical holster the slutty waste the zigzags to tie him back into the team #what if the bull and the matador were one? what if their spirits were so entwined you couldnt tell where one ended and the other began? #a combined beast and warrior but whOS THE BEAST AND WHOS THE WARRIOR SOMEONE PLEASE TALK TO ME ABOUT GINGAMAN #also: in a season that lives and dies by its swords - bullriot being able to shift between blade and gun is so perfect it makes me sick #its the ONLY gun in the gingaman arsenal and the only other recurring gun i can think of is sambash's pistol like... #do you understand the importance of this damn gun-sword i'm gonna throw up

[frootbyethefoot]

persona 4 COULD have been a groundbreaking game in late 2000's early 2010's. it could have been a " mainstream " (mainstream in moderately sized quotes!) game that showed complex, flawed queer people as the main characters. but it doesn't. it heavily implies its characters are queer, changes its mind, and then produces some of the most homophobic and transphobic writing you've seen in a long time. persona 4 wants to make something beautiful so bad but it feels like its too afraid to actually do anything and ends up going back to its old homophobic/transphobic tropes.

#you can tell i was thinking about yosuke can't you #YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND IT COULD HAVE BEEN AMAZING!!! IT COULD'VE BEEN REALLY GREAT!!! #don't get me wrong i think persona 4 still has its importance its a fantastic game with amazing writing when its not being bad! #but it could have been better if they just committed to it #or at the very least left out a lot of its homophobia #i know i sound like i'm exaggerating but i mean it when i say persona 4 is a really gay game #sorry persona 4 rant over i'm normal :-) #persona 4 #p4 #p4g #I CORRECTED MY SPELLING MISTAKE #it was late when i wrote this :(

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 736: The night of the training camp

Pag 1

2: Who is it? Someone is there....

3: …. rain

At the training camp.....

4: An umbrella....

Pag 2

1: Yo, Onoda

3: …. Te

…. ah..... Te

Pag 3

1: Teshima-san!!

Have you been well?

It's been a while, we haven't seen each other since my graduation

Pag 4

1: Waa- Teshi- Teshima-san! Di you come here on puropose to see ho-how things are going!?

Have you- have you been woll too, Teshima-san!?

Yeah, as usual – woll? (haha)

2: So-sorry this is so sudden and I'm so surprised! Co-come in!!

You do seem very surprised

3: You can put your shoes here, and your umbrealla here

Yeah, I know. I've had the training camp here for three years, too, after all

4: Ahh... but, it started to rain so suddenly

Good thing I had a spare umbrella in the car

5: Sorry I came here so suddenly

Pag 5

1: I thought you guys would have “prepared” if I had contacted you beforehand

2: Training camp is busy, you can't waste even one minute of these four days. I know how busy you are

When a senpai comes in the middle of that, it makes you waste too much time

3: … Teshima-san

4: Bu.... but, it's not a waste

Uhm- ah- we really owe you so much, Teshima-san! 5: And alos, at last year's Inter High.... uhm

6: I think we could win thanks to you, Teshima-san!!

Pag 6

1: Thank you

When you say it with such earnest eyes, I'm happy to think you really mean it

2: No no, I mean, it's true!! On the mountain during the first day... and of course the mountain stage on the third day...

Ahh, I did win that

Yeah well, it's beacause of that....

3: Ah- uhm, dammit I forgot to offer you some tea.... is the tea from the vending machine okay?

Ehi ehi, it's okay. You choose

Huh!?

4: I came all the way here, let me be your senpai

Pag 7

2: Teshima.... san

3: Than-

4: yo-

Waa- Onoda!!

5: My- my bad

So- sorry, this kind of things....

You're really not good at them... I forgot....

Pag 8

1: I see, so Danchiku.... and Sugimoto, too....

2: Yes

3: Well, you have no choice but to watch over them

Yes

6: That's what I intend to do!!

Pag 9

1: You got the “face of a third year”, Onoda

You change like that, when others count on you as a “third year”, your face....

2: Taking good care of the others isn't the only role of a third year

Sometimes, turning them down, or turning your back to them is also important

Just like Makishima-san once did

3: with you

6: Even so, you chased Makishima-san's back and admired him

Pag 10

1: Kohai watch their senpai's back and grow!!

2: If you slack off, they slack off

3: If you work hard, they imitate you

Pag 11

1: If you smile, they smile

2: Who's that guy, teh

He's talking with senpai.... here in the back

How can I know!!

But, he's smirking and has long hair, he's suspicious

4: Earlier, you said that last year's Inter High was thanks to me- what about this year's Inter High?

Thanks to whom will they work hard this year?

6: You

Pag 12

1: This time, it's your turn to become the object of their admiration

Pag 13

1: Onoda

3: That's what brings Sohoku together!!

4: That guy his Onoda-san!!

Do you think we should go there and help him, teh!?

No, wait, now he's stroking his neck!?

5: Honestly, choosing the members is hard

You trouble yourself, pace around, and still you'll have no answer

Ah-

6: But the important thing isn't how it was decided but “who you decided”

Pag 14

1: If you find the answer to “who” after worrying about it a lot, everyone will accept it and move forward

2: …. Teshima-san....

3: Uhm... how did you know that that's what I was worrying about....

I'm the former captain, am I not? Also, it's written on your face

Ah-

4: He wants to strangle him ike that!? That guy with shaggy hair!!

Ahh- this is bad, teh, we have to protect Back-gate-slope-san!!

5: Let's go!! Don't hesitate, Rokudai!!

Yeah, teh....!!

6: Eh!?

Huh?

Pag 15

2: Huh!?

Senpai, let's get away

3: Who are you!? Back-gate-slope-sa.... What do you want to do to Onoda-san!!

Pag 16

5: In the confusion I called him by his real name, “Onoda-san”, teh!! Sorry!!

6: Unathorized people shouldn't be able to enter, it's reserved!!

Right!! Shaggy-hair!!

Rokudai-kun!? Kinaka-kun!?

7:  N-no, you two got it wrong-

8: Onoda....

Pag 17

1: You're really protecting your team members with all your strength

2: Eh-

3: Since you're protecting them, they're protecting you, too

4: What's your name

Yessir, my name is Rokudai Renta- no wait, that's not right!!

5: Huh

6: Since I'm protecting them.... with all my strength.....!!

Pag 18

2: Rokudai, if

Huh!? What

If you clear this training camp and get chosen as a member for the Inter High

Huh!?

3:  Protect Onoda like this with all your strength

Pag 19

1: Huh

…. yes

2: Idiot, Rokudai, don't let your guard down just because of those sweet words!!

Ah!! That's right, teh!!

I'll introduce you: this is Teshima Junta-san

You have some goos first years!

He graduated last year and is now an university student, but

3: He's the former Sohoku captain

4: Cap....

I was nominated captain by Teshima-san

5: ta....in?

Pag 20

1: We- we- we're so sorry!!

It's nothing

2: We did that, teh....!!

To- to such an important senpai!!

3: Ah.... uh... thank you for your work!! What brings such an important senpai like you here?

He came to encourage us

4: Ah also, I brought

6: some new pedals for Onoda!!

#yowamushi pedal #yowapeda #yowamushi pedal manga #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal spoilers #yowamushi pedal translations #ride 736 #THIS IS THE BEST CHAPTER EVER OH MY GOD ASDSDHFJKADSGJDGF #I'M!!!! ASDDFHSDGFK I SWEAR IVE BEEN YELLING SINCE YESTERDAY WHEN I FIRST READ IT #THANK YOU WATANABE FOR MY LIFE AND MY HAPPINESS #first: Junta my boy my love IVE MISSED HIM SO MUCH i needed him back so bad and this chapter healed me okay #the way he says right away something that diminishes his important and onoda is ready to tell him that NO YOURE IMPORTANT ITS #ITS NOT A WASTE OF TIME DEDICATING TIME TO YOU WE LOVE YOU TESHIMA-SAN YOURE AMAZING #yes onoda you tell him #i love how junta appears just right when onoda needs him and i love that we finally have junta giving him advice as captain #and the whole talk he gives onoda is so :') #i love the kind of team sohoku is #the whole ' you have to turn your back to your kohai sometimes so they can follow your back' is so ;^; #junta my wise boy #and then AND THEN #KINAKA AND ROKUDAI MY DUMB IDIOT SPECIAL BABIES DSAGHFKHGasf #how is it that the first thing they think about is that junta wants to harm onoda saAFSDAFSD like WHY #they're so RIDICULOUS #the way the jump up and rokudai puts himself between onoda and junta #and theyre both ready to fight for onoda #PLEASE THAT THE MOST WHOLESOME THING EVER AND ALSO THE MOST RIDICULOUS I LOVE THEM SO MUCH #onoda is so mortified lmap #and junta is just like 'yeah clearly youre doing well they love you and would die for you'LMAO #also at this point roku-chan IH member confirmed #(i mean it was obvious already for me but at this point is sure af)

[mhaynoot]

problems i think a lot of readers (especially young ones) have is taking things at face value, especially if a character is saying it or explaining it - like don't trust them fucks!! and don't trust the narrator either! treat every word like a mystery, a crime scene from the unreliable witness and you're the detective; discover the unwritten, find the innucuous lies and the partial truth, and analyse what isn't spoken.

#ha rants #literature class is important #it is equally important to note what is said and what is not said #and especially who said it compared to who did not #if a character does say something do their actions also follow? #so many people praise certain characters for saying a bunch of good principles but when you analyse their actual actions #you realise its just nonsense #i'm a little mad at n*mj and l*xc okay #and how the fandom eats them up and places a label of righteousness at their feat #when no??????????? #n*mj was one of several sect leaders who led the seige okay #and you're telling me he nor the others DIDN'T see how it was like a bunch of non-cultivators #the weak and the old???? #yeah #right #okay #for sureeee #(this was edited tags at because i was informed that l*xc was not there and it was l*qr who was there 29.04.24) #(still doesn't mean he didn't passive let it happen and the consequences thereafter)

[kimchokejin]

✨Stuck at the airport tag game frenzy brought to you by spirit airlines✨

I already got here an extra hour early and now my flight is delayed an hour so I've got some time to kill lol

Game #1: your color + your bias

I was tagged by @jiminsproof and @blueside-hobi to play this. Thanks guys, your posts looked beautiful ❤️

Ummm I know these colors don't match at all but in my defense I was identified as beige. You really can't expect me to have an eye for color or layout or anything really 🤷 also that is not even beige? Wtf is analogue? I hate this

Game #2: on repeat

I was tagged by @blueside-hobi to play this 💕

Sorry for the repeats I didn't feel like typing everything out lol

Game #3: Receiptify

Tagged by @blueside-hobi and @hopeinthebox to play this!

Umm I will tag @chocolatnoir @joon-rkive @cheekyquokka @courtthisdisaster @senor-hoberto if any of these games appeal to you! And anyone reading this who wants to share!

#tag: i'm it! #jiminsproof #blueside-hobi #hopeinthebox #chocolatnoir #joon-rkive #cheekyquokka #courtthisdisaster #senor-hoberto #im actually tagging people! being friendly: 1 rejection sensitivity: 0 #'i'm not bitter about my flight delay' she lied #i love how this quiz tells me i make people feel comfortable. 12 unrelated questions and they already know im a type 9 #also claiming serendipity mv jimin for the beige personalities #i just gotta explain my bad doggyztyle because it's literally just. this guy took a line from the chainsmokers shenseea song and looped it #it goes fast and slow and fast and slow. it's not even an important line from the song. but its addictive! better than the entire song #superglue. if you listened to a rocket to the moon 15 years ago you'll get it #and my new years resolution is to get someone to love teamarr's last album. if anyone wanted to help with that #i claim no responsibilities for any formatting issues. my phone is a senior in android years it simply does not care anymore

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

every night i wake up and say "this is the night i respond to my friends' messages" and every morning i say "i swear i'll do it when i wake up"

#repeat repeat repeat until you get stuck on that cycle of guilt and forgetfulness and guilt and stress and guilt and Oops Forgot Again and- #see this is why i'm really bad at making/keeping friends!!! #bc i meet someone and then they text me and then i Never Reply #bc i wait too long dithering on how to answer or i forget to open it and then its Been too Long #biting myself so so hard #mentally. not physically. im not into that. ....probably #hmmm apologies for Venting On Main im just feeling this intensely before i turn in #yet another day of telling myself ill do something important and another day of not doing it #absolutely unprompted #unfortunately i also tend to do this with asks/replies and it kills me inside every time #not as much as accidentally ghosting people i care about but Wowzah #i simply cannot escape this mental block when it comes to anything #i still have to reply to my grandpa's responding father's day text. its been a week. #wailing howling clawing my way into the cold dark earth etc

[firstroseofspring]

i didn't want to leave a wall of text on that muse post by @marxistgnome but i love it so much and this is going to be so rushed but i could go on and on and on about b'elanna and storytelling and narratives. this got really long and so under the cut it goes

it all really ties into that post i once saw about this consistency with b'elanna episodes where they reveal more about her as a person through her interior life- her thoughts and dreams and visions... what she does when she's alone. and muse really gives us this close up look at the way she sees things and what she cares about through kelis - the stories she tells him and the way she interacts with him- because he gives this good intimate portait of the world as b'elanna sees it- as she's described it to him (almost makes you wonder what she was considering there- whether she thought she should tell someone their stories because they're stuck in another quadrant and might not make it home, or if she thought she wasn't going to get off that planet and might not make it back to voyager)

and of course he's crafting a play so there's room for his own creativity but b'elanna tells him their story really well and she cares about it and you can tell. she cares a lot.

we get another really good look at this in barge of the dead like famously- and it's so consistent in that episode too because she's on the barge and she recognizes kortar from the stories her mom told her as a child and he directly acknowledges that. he says she believes in grethor and in him and she believes because her mother told her the story after she nearly drowned in the sea of gatan. remember prophecy? she's recounting the whole heroic battle with the borg to the klingon generation ship that think baby miral is their savior and the whole scene is framed like (at least it felt this way to me) that for all she says about not being familiar with klingon culture in any respect, the way she interacts with storytelling especially reveals the depth of her understanding of it- shes telling the story and she's telling it really well according to klingon custom and the first thing the visiting klingons do after she tells it is compliment that ability. and its sooo much.

when her and harry are going back and forth at the end of muse and she just goes harry have you ever inspired somebody? when he asks why she even cares so much about the ending of kelis' play. there's just like this klingon belief about living a life that's worthy of being shared with others- like when in day of honor the hologram is evaluating whether she's spent her year honorably and asks her what she's done with her life that's worth celebrating and she can't answer and he tells her that she's giving him excuses. and the direct parallel that could be drawn about how she feels about that with the janeway vision in barge of the dead where she's being condemned and the whole reason is that she's done nothing worthy of glory- 'nothing worthy of song and story.' my goodness

even when she convinces janeway to let her go back to the barge- janeway says it's not real, that she won't let her risk her life for something that she only thinks she experienced- but b'elanna tells her it doesn't even matter if she thinks it was real- that it was real to her and she cares about what her mother thinks of her and she doesn't want her to die thinking badly of her.

we see this with worf, of course the angle we're given is honor and truth and duty- but how you're remembered and talked about is important, even from generation to generation- disgrace in his family is disgrace for him. when they accuse his father of being a traitor at khitomer, it's important to him that his father be remembered as he was - truthfully, honorably, as someone to remember well (even the titles and names they give themselves being little retellings of their lives and the members of their family- on memory alpha worf isn't just worf, he's worf, son of mogh, of the human family rozhenko, mate to k'ehleyr, father to alexander, husband of jadzia, bane of the house of duras, slayer of gowron etc etc.)

((sidenote but b'elanna never in her life introduces herself as b'elanna daughter of miral always as b'elanna torres but on the barge of the dead kortar calls her miral's daughter immediately. and if she's partially from this culture where naming and titles are so important in that respect and b'elanna thinks her mother is. not what she wants to be known by not what she wants to be identified as it's soo relevant to what she calls herself. roxann dawson said that b'elanna wanted to be 'human and perfect' like her father and so she's not ' b'elanna daughter of miral' anymore because she doesn't want miral to be a part of her story, how she's remembered. so it's belanna torres.))

anyway this same- dedication to truth we get from worf and his father's memory we see even with b'elanna in 'remember' where she gets those telepathic dreams/visions from the alien woman about what really happened with that group of people they oppressed. the crew discover that the dreams are starting to affect her health- and so they offer to suppress them, take them away and b'elanna just refuses. because how else will she know what happens to them? who's going to tell their story? and she shares that story once she has it with anybody who will listen because its worth telling.

i'm going a little crazy but klingons and writing and literature and song and stories and living memory its all so. it's ridiculously important culturally. and how that translates back to b'elanna is so fascinating

#this could even extend to her time in the maquis but thats so much and i dont have a good enough grasp of the maquis to tell it #as well as i'd like to. #i could even talk about. what she says- whats revealed about her through her dialogue vs whats said about her. <-a narrative #and those posts going around lately about how softhearted she is despite whats said about her #klingons and story.... everything important getting a retelling and recorded and passed down and set to music and told in theatres #even if its exaggerated its important that its being told. worf loves klingon opera b'elanna never sings a song once in seven seasons #b'elanna 'sometimes i'm little more than hearsay a story told back to me that doesn't make any sense' torres #trek #sidenote also being disgraced / the discommendation stuff from tng #where they turn their backs to the dishonored person and shun them and refuse to talk to them ... with the whole living memory... its like #you're dead and it's not acknowledged and your life dies with you- nobody to tell your story unless as a warning

[pyrriax]

6, 12, 30 for the writing asks ^_^

6. What’s the last line you wrote?

Shaking its head in what seems like disbelief before meeting his eyes again, almost like it wants to say something before it makes a noise like a growl, "oh, you're one of those seraphs, aren't you. A star-eater. No wonder you act like you've lost your mind."

(ignore that that's a couple sentences, the Thought is important)

12. Do you outline your fics?  If yes, how detailed are your outlines?  How far do you stray from them?

Oh yes! I outline my fics thoroughly. Though, I do allowed myself to deviate as much from the outline as I feel like when things go off the rails. Some snippets of planning from a couple fics & concepts:

My outlines are very... One for one. With some exceptions. I tend to basically write a very brief version of the fic and try to get the feelings and words right before I actually write it. This is... Also why it can and will take me a month to write a oneshot. I try to get things Right.

30. How much do you edit your fics?  Do you edit as you write or wait until you finish the first draft?

So! I edit them a bit? I edit while I work, but often I don't really touch anything I've already written unless it's something longer that might be taking a few months to get through. I think the fic I've edited the most is the prologue of Artificial Stars, which was originally a quickly written 2k oneshot into about 5k of actually decent fic.

Usually I don't edit to make something shorter/more concise, since I tend to only come up with more ways to bridge concepts when I go back to it. Also to be fair... There's usually no difference between first draft and final product. I cannot be asked to edit my fics after I write them, I just release them to the birds and pray for the best. (Unless I actually decide to show it to my beta reader in full instead of just sharing snippets as I... usually do.)

Conclusion: Rarely, those thangs are being given to the world as-is unless something is horrifically wrong with them

#ask a ghost #asker: solxr-planet #ask game #i get a little silly sometimes but also uhhhHH!! welcome to several things i havent posted about before #grey notes is an oc thing that will never be finished but i still have the line-by-line dialogue between two characters that is. #kind of how i plan dialogue? at least how i outline it. #i'm super picky with it and i plan stuff so much that you can usually tell pretty quickly when something isn't planned #ALSO! #scene titles! #nobody sees them ever but theyre there for me and me alone #usually theyre song lyrics or something i think is important to the concept but also other times theyre just kind of silly #“all the candy you can eat” is a song title from one of my favorite albums. #honestly i think this is the first time i've shared anything of my writing that is even remotely roshambo-centric #i am still learning how i want to write & characterize him so its a bit funky #haunted bookshelf #purely for the random stuff that's in there #also! i started breaking things up into scenes rather than just chapters and it helped a hell of a lot with my process #since it's easier to divide when there's a lot potentially happening in a chapter of something #or even just in a oneshot #my process is. definitely made for the way i write. i don't think i would ever recommend anybody do what i do with my fics #also yes i could actually just edit my plans and call that a fic because really that is the effort i put into them. #theoretically you could call my outline my first draft because really that is the way that it is

[clipso]

ok while I really want to draw komodo and dragon going at it at some point (and I WILL once I get through my current art block) it is so important how convoluted they would be about having sex. they havent admitted to themselves they're into each other BUT if you're getting drunk or high or asleep and your best buds been kinda pent up lately well theres no reason why he shouldn't be able to use a free hole yk?? and I mean they're ALREADY doing the pain demon shit it only makes sense to leave fun little cuts and scars on each other. you know for their demon lord. both of them know they're gay and are open about it they're just freaks who dont know how to talk about anything and so they jump through the weirdest hoops to do freak shit with each other

#tpof #dragon tpof #komodo tpof #and BOTH OF THEM ARE EQUALLY FREAKS ABOUT IT. THIS IS ESSENTIAL #I see some of you komodo dragon fans saying jace just goes along with whatever mike wants and I'm sorry but you're SO wrong #they're just slightly different flavors of fucked up but they are both so fucked and egg each other on its very important #jace is NOT THE LEVEL HEADED ONE just because he was telling mike to slow down #he just wants to drag out the pain he wants to SAVOR it. mike just gets over excited. jace likes to take his time and relish in it #neither of them are level headed or they wouldnt be here dhgfshfjfgds

[pennyserenade]

i understand people’s beef with javier peña fanfic but at the same time i do not. i understand your grief with him being a real actual person but my counter argument to that is that in narcos he is so fictionalized as to not even be the same man. many of the events that took place in narcos he was never there for and never even did. the javier peña we see is a concoction, made up of many different people and stories, and the creators of narcos have said as much. pedro didn’t even wear the same clothes as that javier peña bc it just didn’t feel right to him as an actor. i also understand your grief with feeling as those javier peña fanfic sometimes derives too much from the source material. i agree that the war on drugs is an incredibly important topic that deserves to be treated with the respect it deserves. real people died and real people continue to die. its beyond serious actually. i understand if you’re frustrated and you feel like this fandom doesn’t talk enough about it, because we don’t. i only wish instead of griping about fanfic that doesn’t make it outside the bounds of this fandom most the time, you’d channel that energy into actually studying and learning about this war on drugs. it goes back so far and it’s so engrained in our societies as to create prejudices against mexicans and african americans and other people of color and immigrants, and yet here we are, talking about the erroneousness of writing javier peña smut. 

#misc. #i shouldn't have to tell anyone abt my own personal experiences with the war on drugs bc its no one's business #but just in case you think i'm for some reason not qualified to speak on it: i am. my father very much got deported bc of it #and my sister suffers from drug addiction #and my grandpa got deported bc of it #if i want to write a little javier peña fanfic i will #but i'm also never gonna stop talking abt the importance of talking abt that war #and learning abt it

[coquelicoq]

crying laughing @ this edition of le fantôme de l'opéra that my dad got me for christmas it's just. i don't know how to describe it. every page is a scan of a page of the 1926 edition, with like 1-2 inches of margin around it??? and the letters are so small and the scan is not of very great quality so it's kind of hard to see the words?? interspersed with scans of pictures but some of them are upside down??? there's one page where the scan didn't really work in the upper left corner so it's just totally black???

the back of the book says

Le présent ouvrage s'inscrit dans une politique de conservation patrimoniale des ouvrages de la littérature Française mise en place avec la BNF. HACHETTE LIVRE et la BNF proposent ainsi un catalogue de titres indisponibles, la BNF ayant numérisé ces œuvres et HACHETTE LIVRE les imprimant à la demande.

(my rough translation: This publication is in line with a policy instituted in conjunction with the BNF (National Library of France) for the conservation of important works of French literature. In service of this goal, Hachette Livre and the BNF are offering a catalogue of unavailable titles digitized by the BNF which Hachette Livre will print upon request.)

so like this is on purpose but i have so many questions. first of all why the margins. okay i guess that is my most important question. why not just make the book correspond to the size of the pages in the original? or, if the size of the book is fixed, you could at least size up the images to use as much of that wasted space as possible, no?

i want to say how ridiculous this is and how there's no market for it but there clearly is one because i asked my dad to get it for me! i'm the market!! i told him to buy this edition because it was the only french-language print edition i could find to buy in the us for less than $50 (outside of amazon because fuck amazon). but like, why is that the case? the full text of this book, in plain text which could easily and legibly be printed, is available for free on the internet. why isn't there some publisher who's just printing that out and binding it? seems easier to do than printing scans. not to mention a lot easier to read!!

(to see what i'm talking about, go to the hachette BNF webpage for this book and click on feuilleter to download a sample of the pages in PDF)

#is there like. some copyright reason??? i'm really baffled by this #i get needing to scan the pictures but the text??? #even if you wanted to preserve the page numbers and so forth i'm sure you could make that happen... #just print it in the same font with the same page size as the original. right??? i feel like i'm losing my mind here #it's just. this is an extremely famous work of literature and a manipulable printable plain text version is available for free #on the internet. why is no one printing that??? or why is everyone charging so much money for it??? #books #french #my posts #oftentimes when i'm trying to order a work of classic french lit from my local bookstore #the hachette bnf version comes up in the search results. and sometimes it's the only version that does #i've always avoided buying one though because i could tell there was something off about them. the covers look very... #idk. unprofessional? not unprofessional but clearly they are not important. no one is trying to make them appealing #so i was like. not at all confident that they would be any good. but i finally decided to get one because there were no other options #and lo and behold i open it up. and it's this. i guess i was right to judge this book by its cover #gonna try to read this now because i certainly won't be able to read it when i'm old and my near eyesight is bad lol #my near eyesight is already getting worse so i better get cracking

[orchideae]

In today's episode of 'Sae, do you (...)': the topic of Ningguang and Yelan, and I thought that I should note my opinion more clearly outside of my rules as it's very important information for my portrayal: I do not ship Ningguang and Yelan romantically.

Honestly, while this is of course my own opinion, I don't find that there's anything to really substantiate a romantic interest between the two. For starters, I don't think that Ning, as interesting of a character as she is with a past that might just be similar in its 'rise' to Yelan's (we're left with very little information on the latter's childhood), ticks the right kind of boxes for her, though to be fair: not many do. Yelan craves a specific sort of thrill in her life, I mean she lives it at the roll of a dice because she is, on some level, bored, and craves the unexpected, the unusual, the 'surprise', and Ningguang's life nor personality seem to play into that. Beyond it, Yelan would need a kinship within this very specific 'loneliness' that I talk about too often and I think that Ning is not one who quite meshes into that in the right way.

Second, despite their long-standing history that even predates their mutual involvement with the Qixing, there seems to be a certain professional distance between the two that I'm quite fond of that is shown in brief event cutscenes, and also Yelan's vision story, that I find inherently intriguing. Perhaps this distance plays more into Yelan's character of not investing too heavily, or rather not too easily, into social dynamics than it does Ning's (I'm not one to weigh in on her character), but it seems evident to me that there's also that semblance of professionalism that creates a line that takes away the possibility of growing closer on an emotional level. And whether that's a mutual decision or not is not up to me to judge, but I think it's one that's made rather clearly from Yelan's side. On top of that, Yelan is Yelan and it's my personal belief that shipping her is rather difficult.

Now I'm also inherently of the opinion (unpopular, I know, I apologize) that dynamics aren't always more interesting when written in romantic settings, and I don't think it's a benefit for all of them to veer into a romantic nature. And in my opinion (and most importantly: in my depiction and understanding of Yelan's character), I think that having Ning and Yelan cross the line from professionalism into something inherently more rooted in romanticism, would be a detriment to their dynamic. Because honestly, I think the fact that Ningguang being one of two people (other being Uncle Tian) to know Yelan best, without ever crossing that line, is too good. I would simply, well, just prefer to keep that not only platonic, but professional, but of course not excluding it of Yelan's quips, and the occasional 'confidant' element.

/rambles in tags because I feel like I have more to say that I shouldn't flood the post with.

#[ psa. ] seeing isn't always believing. and if you can't trust your eyes; you certainly can't trust rumors. #[ also; and this is where you'll learn more about my 'single-ship' self-- i love the concept of ningguang and beidou. ] #[ and i wouldn't want to take away from that dynamic /in my own head/. it's not about what others do/see/view. but about my own head. ] #[ if i did ship it-- it'd counter that dynamic and i don't like that (again: in my own brain). ] #[ i'm an odd rper in that sense; but i almost have difficulty straying from this... single verse concept. ] #[ in my head i tie specific characters to other specific characters after a lot of thought and i don't commit to those thoughts easily. ] #[ but then i construct this entire huge narrative in my head that's almost like its own book. ] #[ and so i can't easily 'copy' that multiple times for multiple ships. does that make sense? ] #[ but /because/ i do that-- i heavily scrutinize dynamics across the board and it's where a lot of my enjoyment as a writer comes from. ] #[ these analyses of specific characters and dynamics. why are they the way that they are? ] #[ it's psychology. i love it. it's not just saying 'i love finding out what makes characters tick' but it's actively really going... ] #[ 'yeah okay i could ship these-- but is there basis for it and /why/ and /in what capacity/ and specifically: /would they decide to/? ] #[ sometimes i tell myself that i'm not made for rp'ing because i'm too analytical meshed in with too much emotion. ] #[ because i get too invested. ] #[ but i just-- i don't know. i wanted to kind of explain why pointing stuff like this out is important to me and my portrayal. ] #[ especially for yelan who has such a... god; it's almost an unhealthy headspace. you can't mesh that with just anyone. ] #[ the person has to /really get it/ and understand it almost on this level that isn't logical for most humans. because it's unusual. ] #[ but it's important that it's understood /by another human being/. ] #[ and i also think some people genuinely don't mesh in /that/ way. some can mesh perfectly platonically in my head and then... ] #[ not at all romantically. but when /my head/ has decided that this is how it is-- i respect when people disagree; i do. ] #[ i will never say that my opinions are the be all end all for other yelans or even yelan's character in specific. ] #[ as much as i like to think i analyze-- /i could be wrong/. ] #[ but all in all; i do respect if people disagree. but there's just certain opinions i have for my own portrayal that i need to note. ] #[ but also-- a little explanation as to why i'm single-ship more often than not. i wish i could budge how my brain works. but alas. ] #[ /sips coffee past midnight. ] #[ it's been a day. it really has been a day; i need to make my own serotonin tomorrow. i miss writing. ]