#it was exactly wrong for my adhd

[kaijutegu]

I was dissociating in a HomeGoods earlier and the only thing that could snap me out of it was him... Thomouse Jefferson...

#turns out I hate HomeGoods #it was exactly wrong for my adhd #too much to look at! too many sounds! so many textures and they were all bad!

[aroaceleovaldez]

HoO is so funny to me when you actually think about the ages of all the characters. Octavian is 18. Percy and Annabeth are 16, almost 17. Reyna is presumably 16. Frank just turned 16, Jason’s about to turn 16. Leo and Piper are like 15. Hazel’s like 14 and a half, and Nico is 13.

The Death Sibs are both the youngest and oldest on the Argo II. Octavian is a college freshman getting into petty drama with a bunch of high schoolers. He gets told to shut up at one point by a random 8th grader. Everyone is scared of the 8th grader. We Sent A 13 Year Old To Superhell and he came back weirder, Just Like Middle School. TLH was just three high school sophomores being sent to do a task and it going Exactly Like You’d Expect. Percy’s the only demigod on the ship who can legally drive (though Reyna gets her drivers license at some point before TOA). What Is Happening.

#pjo #hoo #heroes of olympus #riordanverse #my second favorite thing related to this is like every time Hazel references someone's age especially in SoN it's just. blatantly incorrect. #she goes into very specific detail about how she's 14. detailing like exactly how many months it had been since her birthday #and when she died and when she was brought back. just like ''okay. im 14 and a half. got that? good.'' #''anyways here's Frank. he's 3 years older than me'' like literal next chapter. we are told Frank is not 3 years older than her. #Hazel: Here's my older brother! [Nico is younger than her in literally every way feasible] #ive just decided Hazel is an unreliable narrator who is just really bad at guessing/remembering how old people are #which like. adhd mood. forgetting how old everybody is. #and she has the bonus excuse of saying her sense of time is skewed from being a ghost for so long #but it's just so funny every time she's just. with the upmost confidence. blatantly the wrong answer. #i want a scene of Hazel looking at Percy and just going ''hm. I bet he's like 20.'' and then learns he's 16 #and she's just [surprised pikachu] #also we know it isn't an error that she's 14 cause in TOA she's like ''oh yeah im learning to drive!'' #so she's 15 by then #it is however an error that *Nico* is said to be 14 in hoo cause he's 12 in TLO and 14 in TOA #but we know in HoO the reason that error was made was cause Rick hadn't figured out Nico's birthday yet #and he was flipping it between January or March #so he just forgot how old Nico is for a series and then we went back to normal

[abstractlesbian]

Find someone slightly annoying but in really small harmless ways so I decide none of the behaviours are worth bringing up with them → realizing: hey, Im also annoying! solidarity! → realizing we have a lot in common and starting to bond → finding out other people find this person annoying and are vocal about it behind their back → finding out this person has ADHD like me that's (at least one reason) why we have all these traits in common → fear.

#trying to be as vague as possible even tho this is someone I know offline and no one involved follows me online #on one level I get it that relying someone who is forgetful and does things slower/differently than you can be frustrating #but like its a medical condition. and u dont need to know someones medical info to have some empathy instead of assuming malice/incompetence #i just found out they have adhd today but day one i was able to go 'wow i did not like the way they handled that but i dont think they were #being hurtful/careless we just handle this task differently. rhey didnt do anything wrong and i can let this go and adjust my expectations' #not to say im perfect and never ableist towards others. my first reaction to seeing traits i dislike in myself (from my disabilities) #in others is often to get annoyed and needing to adjust my thinking #i get annoyed with myself when I cant focus / cant be coherent or concise / cant finish tasks quickly etc #→ get annoyed sometimes when I see others doing that → realize thats not fair to them → realize thats not fair to myself #→ assume good intentions and find ways to communicate/collaborate better with them → get along better and maybe make a new friend! #sorry i am rambling #idk its scary seeing someone being disliked for adhd symptoms/traits that im mostly doing a good job of managing/hiding in this #social environment so far and knowing that could happen to me in the future #but im also like ready to have this persons back #me 🤝 them: prioritizing the wrong tasks and overexplaining things and struglging to get our points across #and not noticing when we talk too loud and forgetting tasks halfway thru etc #not to be that guy but : without love it canmot be seen!!!! #lifes so much better if u just assume ppl arent doing things a certain way to be annoying + let go of / adapt to the thing that are annoying #but not harmful #thats not exactly what without love it cant be seen means but thats one of the ways i apply it in life #just like dont assume malice. assume u dont have all the info. approach ppl/situations with empathy. #or youll make yourself more miserable needlessly #again like only for shit that's not harmful obv #i need to shut up and go to bed

[seaglassdinosaur]

The way Percy talks about himself in the show though, having ADHD and dyslexia, saying he knows that something is wrong with his brain, it’s heartbreaking.

Because stepping aside from the magic and monsters, this is a kid who’s internalized the ableist messages and bullying that’s been directed at him. He believes that having ADHD and dyslexia means that something is broken in his head. Not that his experience is natural, another one of the many different ways that people go through the world, but that his difficulties mean his brain is broken, and by extension, he is innately wrong.

It’s this out loud recognition of the struggling quiet part of someone with a learning disability, who can’t figure out what is going on with themself. They don’t know why they are the way they are, they don’t know how to manage it, and they certainly haven’t accepted it as a part of them, trying to fit into the expectations of a neurotypical society. All they know is that according to everyone else, they’re ‘wrong’. So they must just be ‘wrong’.

#everyone thank sally jackson because she comes in w an alternate understanding #a change in Percy’s narrative which has been shaped by the ableist society #she tells him ‘there’s nothing wrong with you you are great the way you are you are exactly the way you’re meant to be’ #‘even if it doesn’t make sense to you you are the way you’re meant to be.’ #and she gets him somewhere where there are tons of people just like Percy. changing the narrative and outlook his has #at camp percy is able to step away from the NT society and how they view his ADHD/dyslexia #as a fault and error #and he’s able to see ‘oh this actually is just a normal variation of the human experience’ #anyway I just want to continue to shout out sally jackson as a great mom for never being upset w Percy for his struggles #but always supporting him through them #comforting him as he needed and being a great parent #Sally ily #pjo #pjo tv show #pjo tv series #pjo tv adaptation #my post #(I also say all this as someone w adhd #who now loves the way I am. but also. still gets frustrated when I can’t work the way I want to #Percy internalizing the message that something is wrong. that he’s dumb or bad. it hurts Me. #and I want nothing but the best for him.)

[chartreuxcatz]

bad (?) news: if you like and relate to croissant cookie you 100% have autism or adhd or both

You, uh. You got me there!

#Meow? #Hah! #Isnt there a link between adhd and genetics..? #cuz my mom has it and is always going ‘in case you’re wondering what adhd is like haha’ #And then when i go ‘hey ma i have some symptoms im starting to wonder if Im autistic’ #she says ‘Pshh I think everyone’s a little spectrum-y. Maybe you have some symptoms but you understand sarcasm so…’ #the first person to suggest that i might be autistic was the counselor i saw for my anxiety when i was 13 #Like lmao #’sure she has obsessions that last years and struggles to talk to people and make friends and has a crippling fear of doing something wrong #‘And hates surprises and change and refuses to throw out her baby blankets and needs to know exactly what to expect when entering new place #‘And gets stuck when something unexpected happens… But she’s funny and does well in school.’ #Hm #I’m starting to wonder… #once my mom was playing music in the kitchen. It was really loud to me. Like. Painfully so. #Was it not as loud to her?

[vaugarde]

i know i didnt really show it in my lb partly bc it got kinda personal for me halfway in and i started forgetting to actually record my thoughts but isat might have like. actually meaningfully changed my life??

#idk what exactly is up with me but it kinda made me realize and start seeking help for my dissociative episodes #idk if thats exactly whats wrong yet and im not going to put a direct name on things til i can find a new therapist and doctor but ive talke #talked with family and theyve also agree that something happened mentally thats been affecting my memory and processing skills #like. more than the adhd usually does #dl

[invisibleoctopus]

the conversation is still haunting my brain even though i know that fucking psychiatrist clearly didnt know shit about add/adhd beyond little boys who cant sit still or pay attention in school bc he was apparently under the impression that its always easy to spot and gets diagnosed in grade school

me literally asking him if he knew the difference in presentation in afab vs amab ppl or how afab ppl get diagnosed later or misdiagnosed. telling him about how emotional dysregulation is a symptom (and one of my biggest ones) and how its been like that my entire life and him saying "oh thats just the anxiety and bipolar."

the biggest thing sticking in my head is how my mom mentioned when i started having trouble with high school in my teen years and how i was diagnosed with depression and autism during that time and he was talking about how adhd didnt fit because "it doesnt start when ur fifteen"

well neither does autism but thats when i got THAT diagnosed. almost like the symptoms can go unnoticed for an extended period of time especially if theyre internalized like with me and how i had literally JUST been talking about how adhd is underdiagnosed and late diagnosed for AFAB ppl but he just wants to be part of the reason why afab ppl dont get diagnosed (which i started to tell him but i attempted to restrain myself

#le p2iigh #this in contrast to a therapist i had who was CONVINCED i had adhd and brought it up unprompted #(but that never went anywhere because i guess he expected me to tell the psychiatrist myself to be more assertive) #(but he DIDNT FUCKING TELL ME THAT but like. im autistic. i have to be told that.) #and another therapist who had the more reasonable view of 'its possible but it'd be hard to know which symptom is from what thing' #this fucking guy. so dismissive. not even open to ruling shit out. always thinks he knows exactly why i have the problems i have #im ALMOST glad my mom put me on the spot by STARTING by saying i have adhd which is just. not the approach. #because then she got to see how this guy treats me and no matter what i say im always wrong

[salmon404]

Is there any captioning (official or fan) of the Iron Lung teaser trailer? As someone who’s hard of hearing/has auditory processing it’s really hard for me to understand the last couple of lines

#markiplier #iron lung movie #markiplier movie #markiplier iron lung #tbh idk what exactly my hearing issue is because I haven’t gotten a hearing test since elementary school #but there’s definitely something wrong #I for sure have auditory processing issues due to ADHD and some bad tinnitus (for my age) #but I don’t actually know if I’m hard of hearing or not #part of it could genuinely come down to being raised in a hoh household and being more used to very loud volumes #so quiet or muffled things are just harder to hear and understand due to not being used them? #idk I wanna get a hearing test if I can cause being hoh runs in the family and I have bonus auditory processing shit #so I wouldn’t be surprised if I need hearing aids

[akorah]

I sorted the laundry. Like, all of the laundry.

I've only done laundry once since coming home at the end of July, so I've been down to my last clean shirt for like 4 days. I don't want to leave the house because it's an unpleasant experience for me and the people around me.

I don't particularly like my clothes, but I know that I have clothes I do like. Somewhere. My mom's response to a dirty space is packing everything into a box to sort through later, so I've been doing that for years. I have boxes that haven't been touched since 2010, and piles of papers that have been around even longer.

So tonight I decided to dig through the boxes--all of the boxes--and find every item of clothing I own. Stuff hanging in the closet, marked as garage sale, or packed in a drawer was ignored, but everything else went into piles: t-shirt material, stretchy nylon/spandex material, undergarments/socks, hoodies (So. Many.), jeans, and towels. And then I decided what I need tomorrow: t-shirt, underwear, jeans. So those piles got sorted into what I like to wear and what I keep wearing because I'm out of clothes I like.

The stuff for tomorrow is all going in one load of laundry and that's fine. I wash it on normal with cold water and dry it on delicate. This has been my method for years since discovering it stopped my hoodies from pilling as fast. It works for me.

And tomorrow I'm going to have clothes I like again, and it feels amazing.

All of the boxes that I emptied, by the way, have been evicted. I'm not going to trick myself into thinking that system works for me anymore.

#when my psychiatrist kept arguing that i had adhd he wasn't exactly wrong #you would not believe the amount of relief i have seeing everything i need to tackle out in the open #instead of in totes or cardboard boxes or garbage bags waiting to be remembered #personal thoughts #also i found my favorite watch that went missing like 3 years ago #turns out it went into the 'everything at my desk has to move since there's a pandemic on' box

[masochismustango]

Okay, it may sound a bit weird, but still…

For some reason I see Zigzag as ADHD or neurodivergent in general.

I came to that conclusion when I realized something - he doesn’t always get, when he’s being laughed at and he just doesn’t always get the sarcastic tone.

Like... He didn’t realize what was wrong, when King Nod and One Eye started laughing at his plans, he got it only when they told him about their rejections themselves. In case of his attitude to Yumyum he answers with the same sarcasm to her sarcastic tone, ‘cause they just don’t like each other and Zigzag was kinda prepared to such a negative talk with her.

I suppose so, ‘cause I can not always understand the sarcastic tone too. Especially when I’m not prepared for the far negative stuff. It can be also so, ‘cause he’s up to many things, but he’s not always able to do them correctly. Does he get distracted that way then?

He also speaks a lot to himself, so do I pretty often. Even when my mouth is shut, so I mumble then.

#marie tells things #the thief and the cobbler #zigzag #zigzag the grand vizier #I may be wrong but this is what I’ve noticed and his behavior is kinda similar to mine at some point #I’m also unsure about my ADHD symptoms - I’m talking about them ‘cause I was diagnosed with ADHD in my childhood #but I’m also unsure about such a diagnosis ‘cause no one exactly knows what’s actually wrong with me lol

[tittyinfinity]

Depression/PTSD recovery is wild because you could be doing greater than you've ever been in your life but then one small thing happens that reminds you of "that time" and suddenly all of the past emotions flood back into you and you feel like you're back to being the kid who's crying and shaking in the corner wondering if the people closest to you would be so much happier without you

#im being accused of faking my disabilities again and having them used against me #my mom hasnt talked to me for 2 days because of a shower chair being in the wrong spot #and said i use my adhd as an excuse to be stupid #and then i conftonted my partner about how he broke his promise to call me 3 days in a row #and he was drunk and saying things about how i cant understand how exhausted he is working 12 hr days (valid) #but then started calling me privileged for ''being able to sit at home all day and do nothing'' #(he knows that im only stuck in bed on my bad days and that i definitely do not do ''nothing'') #so i asked him to call me back the next day(sunday) when he was sober. he never called me so i had to call him. he was drunk #so i got mad that he couldn't even stay sober for a COUPLE OF HOURS to talk to me #when hes sober hes super understanding and will take my feelings into consideration immediately #but he kept taking me confronting him as an insult and started calling me names like lazy and a crybaby #and this is the person who has always treated me perfect otherwise and does everything he can to make me feel better #and his personality COMPLETELY SWITCHED and he sounded exactly like my abusive exes #i sent him recordings of the call and he sent me 2 messages saying hes sorrh and hes gonna work on his drinking and was gonna call yesterday #then i didnt hear from him again and while he was ignoring my calls he made a post on fb (that he never uses) that he wasn't going to be #talking to anyone for a while because im the only person who cares about him #and i commented and was like hello??? im that one person and you're actively ignoring me?? and he deleted the post???? #he didnt even send a message saying he wouldnt be able to call me #he never answered but when i called him today while he was at work he just responded ''cant talk im at work'' and i was like yeah ik but #im trying to get your attention because you wont tell me whats going on #and begged him to call me after work #hes acting like a completely different person now and i have a strong feeling that it's because at the place he works at in texas #they're made to work all day in a 110° warehouse #and with his insomnia and having to be at work between 3-5am he's barely sleeping while doing all of this #so im hoping his behavior is just a symptom of heat exhaustion and lack of sleep #because this isnt like him at all #im begging and begging for his attention and affection the same way i did with my abusive exes and my mom #i dont know what's going on

[orcelito]

thought about the fact tht getting mental health help means talking about my #Problems again

ugh

#speculation nation #negative/ #like i dont have trouble talking about this stuff in an informal setting bc im like. not self conscious about it exactly #assuming i'm talking to ppl who r understanding #but even then i curate it. i always curate it. i never tell anyone just how ugly my thoughts can get #though if youve read my writing you probably have a Pretty good idea (akechi pov) the kinds of ways i think about things #i dont share that for common life stuff bc it's just. it always makes people uncomfortable. and i dont want them to worry about me #when people worry about me it makes Me uncomfortable. like there's something wrong with me. #like the very makeup of my brain is worthy of making people worried #bc that's the thing. this is intrinsic. it's never going to stop completely. there are parts to it that i dont even Want to stop #but people will always be worried. sooo scared for me and the sanctity of my shitty flesh prison #therapy shit is that but worse. because they Will pry about it #every time i see that lil questionnaire with 'have you had thoughts about suicide' and 'have you harmed yourself' im just like #might as well lock me up Boys cause this one's goin on my record! again. and again and again and again #im not even going for this shit. i dont have depression im depressed cause my life sucks & im stressed all the time #but they always see the bad and assume it's because of the Chemical Imbalances bc no Whole Person would EVER want to hurt themselves! #i can be perfectly happy and content with my life and still have these urges. it's not a depression thing. it's just a me thing. #i want help for my constant fatigue. my probable adhd that's been kicking my ass my entire academic career #im not fucking anxious. i'm not fucking depressed. i'm stressed and struggling to do fucking Anything because everything is always Too Much #but i just know they'll focus on those lil markers by the self harm/suicide shit because they Always Fucking Do #i'm not a suicide risk. ive long passed that stage. thoughts may float by sometimes but i'm never going to act on them #not unless things in my life go very Very wrong. aka there's no longer anyone who cares about me level of wrong. #so long as there's at least one person who cares about me then I'm going to keep on living. i'm not a suicide risk. #... anyways i looked into the mental health shit at my school again and im gonna have to call to set up an appointment i guess. ugh. #aka that's not happening tonight. not with the way i'm feeling rn. #suicide ment/ #self harm ment/ #lolololol sorry for being so blatant on main today but i'm having a Shit day

[actuallylorelaigilmore]

you know it’s been a bad psychiatric appt when you have to follow it up with a best friend debriefing to rant out your feelings. and you know what’s peak invalidating to hear from a mental health professional after you describe your current symptoms and experience with a new medication? ‘that doesn’t make any sense.’ followed by a lecture about why i can’t possibly be having the reaction to the meds that I AM LITERALLY HAVING AND JUST EXPLAINED

#actuallylukedanes #i have the best best friend #thrilled to not have to rant all the specifics here because my god this doctor has never been helpful beyond prescribing anyway #and i only get useful help there if i carefully approach knowing exactly what i need and edit my truth accordingly #but this visit was much much worse because it was just a list of ways she told me my brain can't be reacting that it has for years #AND as a bonus! there's still no adderall available so i'm still on a replacement adhd med #BUT that med is now also missing from the system like they couldn't fill it so i guess maybe now my backup is also facing a shortage #...this is a very bad trend going in the wrong direction when my backup adhd med wasn't being as helpful as adderall anyway #life stuff #mental health

[anxiously-going]

Is anyone else afraid of trying ADHD life hacks for fear they won't work and you'll discover you're brain is even more out of sorts than you could have ever imagined or is that just me?

#screaming into the void #the avoidance is so unbelievably high #'try this adhd friendly life hack to make chores more manageable' #okay but if doesnt work what do i do then? what do i do when things that are supposed to help nd brains dont work for my nd brain? #im terrified of things that should be helpful not working because it somehow means there's something more wrong with my brain #it doesnt help that i know there is more to my brain's functionality that adhd/autism whichever it is #but its so frustrating that i have a hard time getting myself to do chores and even basic cleaning because #i dont want to find out im more broken than i thought #i already know its true to an extent i already know i have something of a trauma response to cleaning #but that coupled with things that are supposed to make life easier and better not working and not helping is terrifying #it makes me feel hopeless #time and time again ive been told im wasting my time #its to a point where im terrified to try to do anything but intentionally waste my time because at least then i didnt really lose anything #at least then i didnt really screw anything up because i was doing exactly what i intended to do and i cant be told i was doing something #wrong that way

[meeep-merr]

I finally completed the damn workshop i had to do because of my academic suspension. Godamn that was hard. But also easy. I hate this brain

#personal #and that why i have an adhd appointment in may #in order to determine what exactly is wrong and develop methods to move around the stupid ass obstacles my wOnDeRfUl brain keeps putting up

[bigcryptiddies]

I’m always grateful for people who post the non quirky parts of things like adhd because even though I do relate a lot to posts that make funny haha jokes about it sometimes the imposter syndrome sets in and I need to be reminded that no this is an issue you are very much dealing with girl you are straight up not having a good time

#txt #saw a ‘uninfluenced adhd’ tiktok where they talked about how often they lose things #IMPORTANT things like medication that cannot be replaced or skipped for a significant period of time #how their partner needs to keep an eye out for them because they’ll leave things like their phone places out in public #and I think about how I’ve left my phone in public bathrooms or on restaurant tables multiple times in the past #or how if I’m doing laundry and I immediately can’t find it afterwards I genuinely have to check to make sure it didn’t fall in with the #clothes and is now going through the spin cycle #and how I’ll forget my meds at home or at my uncles when I’m going back and forth #like I genuinely can’t stand people who won’t just let you make little jokey jokes about things you’re suffering through #but that doesn’t mean I don’t sometimes have to remind myself I’m not faking it to be Quirky™️ #like regardless of not knowing exactly what I have and being primarily self diagnosed there is very much Something Wrong