#and then i conftonted my partner about how he broke his promise to call me 3 days in a row

[tittyinfinity]

Depression/PTSD recovery is wild because you could be doing greater than you've ever been in your life but then one small thing happens that reminds you of "that time" and suddenly all of the past emotions flood back into you and you feel like you're back to being the kid who's crying and shaking in the corner wondering if the people closest to you would be so much happier without you

#im being accused of faking my disabilities again and having them used against me #my mom hasnt talked to me for 2 days because of a shower chair being in the wrong spot #and said i use my adhd as an excuse to be stupid #and then i conftonted my partner about how he broke his promise to call me 3 days in a row #and he was drunk and saying things about how i cant understand how exhausted he is working 12 hr days (valid) #but then started calling me privileged for ''being able to sit at home all day and do nothing'' #(he knows that im only stuck in bed on my bad days and that i definitely do not do ''nothing'') #so i asked him to call me back the next day(sunday) when he was sober. he never called me so i had to call him. he was drunk #so i got mad that he couldn't even stay sober for a COUPLE OF HOURS to talk to me #when hes sober hes super understanding and will take my feelings into consideration immediately #but he kept taking me confronting him as an insult and started calling me names like lazy and a crybaby #and this is the person who has always treated me perfect otherwise and does everything he can to make me feel better #and his personality COMPLETELY SWITCHED and he sounded exactly like my abusive exes #i sent him recordings of the call and he sent me 2 messages saying hes sorrh and hes gonna work on his drinking and was gonna call yesterday #then i didnt hear from him again and while he was ignoring my calls he made a post on fb (that he never uses) that he wasn't going to be #talking to anyone for a while because im the only person who cares about him #and i commented and was like hello??? im that one person and you're actively ignoring me?? and he deleted the post???? #he didnt even send a message saying he wouldnt be able to call me #he never answered but when i called him today while he was at work he just responded ''cant talk im at work'' and i was like yeah ik but #im trying to get your attention because you wont tell me whats going on #and begged him to call me after work #hes acting like a completely different person now and i have a strong feeling that it's because at the place he works at in texas #they're made to work all day in a 110° warehouse #and with his insomnia and having to be at work between 3-5am he's barely sleeping while doing all of this #so im hoping his behavior is just a symptom of heat exhaustion and lack of sleep #because this isnt like him at all #im begging and begging for his attention and affection the same way i did with my abusive exes and my mom #i dont know what's going on