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suddenrundown · 11 months

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me reading one salt sea: oh my god connor go away

connor: *fucking dies*

me: oh no im--that’s not what i meant

#ok hot take: connor didnt deserve to die and he also didnt deserve the weight of ''important character dying''#he isn't important To Me like genuinely i tried so hard to care about connor but i never did. possibly because he has no personality #beyond ''was in love with toby and still is''#and then he dies and toby's sad and im ike ok well.....moving on now #i feel very uncharitable about this but i cant help it sorryyyyyyyy #lol the ludaig really told toby ''he isn't worth your tears'' and im like SHE IS SO RIGHT THO HE REALLY ISN'T #ALSO DID CONNOR REALLY HAVE TO DIE TO MAKE WAY FOR TYBALT TIME AS IF HE WASN #'T THE MOST OBVIOUS CHOICE OF LOVE INTEREST THE ENTIRE GOD DAMN TIME HELLO?#I HAVE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS #it sucks actually like thanks i hate it #in the meantime toby and tybalt have kissed twice (i think? maybe 3 idk) both of which were initiated without toby consenting or whatever #which i think is because author ma'am wants tybalt to be a bad boy but he actually isn't?? and he's such a gentleman in every other regard #what the hell is up with that mcguire? it sucks! it sucks #like its fine its played off as hot or whatever and she's into it because she's in love with him and has been since book 2 but it sucks #and this is the hill im willing to die on

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youtappedout · 2 months

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oh they are going to HELL

#hate hate hate fans like this #anyone who's watched him from NXT to this should be well aware how much he's been underutilized for YEARS goddamn #the tag team win + the bloodline was definitely the most over and push he got so he's just actually riding the high now #cos let's be honest he was really fucking amazing in it. funniest even. brought so much good unseriousness with 'em #and these unwashed fuckers have the gall to be so upset with him like they didn't chant or laugh with sami? gtfo honestly #i am mad on a friday morning. thanks twitter iwc u suck #sami zayn #cr: Wrestle Features on X

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allthoseotherworlds · 4 months

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It's honestly pretty frustrating sometimes how I feel like so many people say they love Martha, but mostly what I actually see people saying about Martha is how much she probably does/should hate the Doctor for not returning her crush, or sometimes how much people hate Blink/Family of Blood/Last of the Time Lords because they were hard for her.

And like, the former of those is frustrating because a) Nobody is obligated to return someone's romantic feelings, b) Being oblivious to someone having a crush on you might suck for the other person but is not actually a moral failing and c) Martha was sad about it but like. She didn't leave because she was furious at the Doctor for not returning her crush? She left because she knew her crush wasn't reciprocated and wasn't going to be, but couldn't get over it on her end while travelling with the Doctor. And also because the past year had been pretty traumatizing for everyone, including her and also the Doctor and also everyone else who was on that ship thing.

Anyways

I just wanted to talk for a bit about the things I like about Martha, or that are interesting, that are unrelated to those points above.

I think she's the first companion in New Who to join Unit, and I think still the only one to be a medical doctor with a strong scientific backing. Which is cool!

I think it's interesting that in the first episode she appears in, her family is shown to be kind of messy and kind of frustrating, and it feels like that's something she's a little glad to be getting away from for a bit when she travels with the Doctor (though it's not the reason she travels with them). And then, at the end of the season when her family is in danger she prioritizes their wellbeing enough to snap at the Doctor about it. If I remember correctly their phones were tapped or something and it wound up making things a bit worse, but I appreciate the nuances of her relationship with them and how important they are to her despite the messiness.

Despite all the ado made about her crush on the Doctor, I really loved how she really seemed to get the point of travelling with the Doctor. I think that she nailed both the joy and excitement of the unknown, and the compassion and sense of care that motivates the Doctor's travels, and which I think is vital to all of my favourite companions.

It also contrasts in interesting ways with how her personality shifts after she stops travelling with the Doctor - she still cares about people's wellbeing and seems to value the things she learned while travelling, but working with Unit and Torchwood does make her more military, and then of course doing freelance alien fighting (? or something?) in the End of Time.

I think Martha and the Doctor are an interesting duo because they contrast each other in interesting ways. They're both compassionate, hopeful but practical, and good at what they do, but they reflect those qualities in ways that almost, but don't quite, fit together nicely. They don't conflict, really, but they're not quite sustainable either.

They work well together and care about each other, but they're too similar in some ways and too different in others to ever quite see eye to eye, which is why they end up going in different directions. And I think that's not anyone's fault, or indicative of any deep flaws in either of them. Or even really a tragedy, because Martha seems to be doing new and interesting things every time we see her, with plenty of options available and a decent rapport with the Doctor whenever they show up.

Anyway this got way longer than I meant it to. Tldr: There are so many more interesting things to say about Martha than just "She must hate the Doctor". Here are some of them.

#Also I didn't have room here but. I understand hating the family of blood stuff but. John Smith is not the Doctor. That's the whole point #John Smith is absolutely rude to Martha and I dislike him as a person. But he is also not the Doctor #And I absolutely do not believe that the Doctor handpicked the persona and went “Yeah. Making him rude and racist and like guns”#I think they just got out the chameleon arch and said #“Here's the time and location that gives us the best shot at avoiding the family of blood. Give me and Martha random identities. Thanks”#That said it's actually not an episode I particularly like so I don't know why I'm rambling about it here #I get anxious about things where characters are Not Themselves and being rude and mean in ways they aren't #And also found the ending a little Too Much personally #Anyways I'm just monologuing now #Doctor Who #Doctor Who Meta #Martha Jones #I am talking #I am just some guy (gender neutral)#This post brought to you by another person joking about how Martha is so strong for putting up with the Doctor because of the crush stuff #And me as an aromantic not enjoying the implication that I am something to put up with and that the most interesting thing anyone can say #about a dynamic between two people is how much it sucks that one of them didn't know the other had a crush and 'led them on'#or whatever. But just ranting about that again didn't feel constructive so I tried to say more interesting things instead

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straawberries · 6 months

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hi happy halloween im out of food again

please commission me or donate

ive pretty much given up on being able to afford moving out so just being able to afford to live until i get kicked out would be nice

c*sh*pp (does this actually need to be censored?) is delilahswagga, p*yp*l is @delilahkill

not asking for a lot here even a few people donating a few dolalrs or getting 2 dollar commissions would help me a lot

#working on a new comm sheet ill reblog with it later #not eating regularly is like the biggest thing that makes my depression worse and it fucking sucks #thanks god for making the biggest thing that makes me happy the one thing i cant get regularly #meow #i hate e begging i feel like such a fucking loser right now. god #gotta love that autism!!!!!!!!!!#my dad keeps intentionally buying shit he knows i cant fucking eat without meltdowns #just because he thinks 'more food in pantry for longer = better' regardless of means #ive started just throwing away the fucking disgusting cans of soup in the hopes that he'll go to the store and buy something else #but every time he goes to the store he just buys me like #a bag of chips #and everything else is for him #if i touch the fucking meat he'll kill me and he buys like several hundred dollars of meat every month for his stupid smoker #he has bought 4 smokers in the last year but cant fucking stomach the thought of giving me some money for groceries #like expensive smokers #i know hes fucking lying when he says hes too poor to get me the shit that im actually able to comfortably eat at the cost of a few dollars #wow i am ranting hard in these tags. sorry #saved for later #<- so i can reblog this later if i need to

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chillbean3210 · 3 months

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Hello! This is heart anon.

I really like your art, even if you might think it doesn’t look like much. I can see the improvement!

Make sure to take care of yourself. Drink water and all that.

Thanks for reading,

-❤️anon

Omg, thank you so much heart Anon!! I really appreciate the kind words!

Sorry for the late reply, I didn’t see this until I got home from school and took a break from work

It makes me so happy to hear that you like my art! I haven’t been having the time to finish some artwork of mine (that I really wanna post here but can’t because school sucks :,D) so it makes me really happy to hear that!

I also appreciate you saying that I’m improving. Sometimes I don’t feel like I am, so it warms my heart to hear that! I always love it whenever people like my art! 🩷🩷

I promise I’m taking care of myself and drinking lots of water (from the cup named after my boy Stanley hehe)

#thanks for the ask!#ask answered #ask response #you’re seriously so sweet!#I’m so happy to hear these kind words!#they really mean a lot to me!#this actually inspired me to continue working on my art!#as soon as I’m done with my dumb homework #I’m continuing to work on my lotf artwork!#thanks again anon!#you’re honestly so awesome!#I actually wanted to draw a response to this!#but like I said #school sucks and it hates me lol #maybe if I have the time I will 👀

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starlooove · 2 months

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I think what bothers me about ppl being surprised at removing the misogyny or making aang be responsible from the start instead of running away is that this is literally fandom trends representing themselves. Like when characters have to grow y’all run to downplay what they have to grow from! STICK WITH ME FANDOM SHIFT this is what bothers me so much about fanon Harley Quinn. Like if Harley never enjoyed or felt free or whatever with joker why are you calling her post relationship arc a redemption? Even back to heroics if bruce was never an asshole or close minded or ham fisted when it came to his kids where do you think the other identities started? What do you think their relationship is growing from? Like it’s so boring lmao

#And then you’ll create negativity that never existed as long as it keeps everything normal #no bruce was never suspicious of his precious baby Jason 🥺#dick hated him with a passion tho!#like ok. get off Twitter.#get off ao3.#pls and thank you #And the Harley one makes me sick bc I adore Harleys redemption especially as a character MADE for joker breaking out and becoming her own #but then y’all are like ‘well she was never BAD! she was manipulated and brainwashed the whole time! and never contributed to anything #significant!’#what is the redemption y’all are speaking of?#THIS IS ZUKOS FAULT #sorry I’m not getting into my opinion on his entire redemption #but like. he was the prime example of perfect victim #and that’s not BAD or whatever I think the progression of his arc was great #I just think y’all overstate ‘redemption’#but not even Zuko Iroh! the way y’all collectively forgot or ignored that he SUCKED!#sorry I swear I ranted to my brother about this for an hour this morning actually #but I forgot every name I pulled #but in conclusion this redemption that’s not rlly redemption cause my fave was never bad thing is soooo #IK i shit on tim but Jason Stans step forward please #I was gonna say Damian but the reason I’m not is bc god forbid y’all actually let him redeem himself #like he feels so much guilt and remorse and y’all are like ‘the haughty princeling wanted poor wittle Drake DEAD at every turn’#also he was ten #and yknow what I think bothers a lot of ppl #that even through the remorse he acknowledges that he was a child and doesn’t allow for the adults in his life to just skate by while he #wallows. which is what I’m sure so many of y’all would prefer to see as per ao3 #but no Damian does actually demand accountability from everyone involved including but not limited to himself!#but also I do adore his redemption arc bc yeah he did do that shit and it sucked #however I will never discuss it with fandom ppl who can barely name two of his friends that aren’t Jon. maybe they’ll know Colin and maya i #if they’re really about it…

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caffeinatedopossum · 3 months

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I suffer from feeling unloved despite being surrounded by people who love me loudly and only having been told by one person (internet stranger) that they hate me in the last 3 years

#only being hated by one person who doesnt even know me is. pretty lucky considering i suck #'trust me if you knew me you would hate me more' lol #just be glad you have a block button my guy #my irl friends are not so fortunate /j #they have to love me to put up with my bs this long. genuinely dont doubt most people's love anymore #until i doubt reality which happens frequently unfortunately #actually most of the people who didnt love me didnt say they hated me. they were just unkind to md #and i havent had a single person other than a handful of internet strangers be unkind to me since i was a kid #and even then the hater to supporter ratio is like 1 to 300. not even kidding i counted once #which is pretty incredible tbh #want to thank people for loving me and apologize for being loved by them at the same time ;-;#whyyy

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floralovebot · 8 months

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Ok I’m sorry if you’ve already answered this before but I saw some of your older posts talking about your headcanons regarding Helia’s Dynamic with Miele as well as Flora’s dynamic with Saladin and they were just so wholesome! I’m just a sucker for wholesome (future) in-law dynamics. So anyway, it made me wonder if you had any thoughts or headcanons on Helia’s dynamic/relationship with Flora’s parents, Rhodos and Alyssa. Its already a crime that we don’t get to see Flora’s family that much in canon (not to mention her parents don’t get introduced until season 6/7 of all things). Its an even bigger crime that we get practically zero interactions between Helia and Flora’s parents in canon (from what I remember). Like at least between him and Miele, we get a little something in the comics, but NOTHING with Rhodos and Alyssa! So yeah, I’d like to hear your thoughts

AHHHHHHHHHH OBSESSED

i have mentioned this before (teehee)! but it's not suuuper fleshed out so i'm taking advantage of your ask to talk about helia more ajdgkdag

you're so right it's an Absolute Crime that we didn't get to see her parents till the later seasons (and we don't even know if they're what rainbow/iginio originally intended her parents to be like either), but i actually really like her parents! rhodos being So Goofy and making a bunch of puns?? AMAZING also fully obsessed with both flora and her mother having strangling vines that grab everyone like we really see where flora gets it from aldhgjlg

anyway, with how friendly they both are, i think they would fully adore helia! especially since flora probably talks about him a lot or at the very least doesn't hide that she's in a relationship, i think they would end up knowing a lot more about him than he realizes ajhdgl i definitely don't think it would take till s7 for them to properly meet though! i can see flora officially introducing him near the end of s3 or sometime in s5 (considering the earth gap year)!

but Anyway, headcanons!!

rhodos and alyssa are absolutely devasted that helia has next to zero knowledge about plants and plant care, so rhodos takes it upon himself to teach helia every single time he visits

rhodos is also very excited to say every single pun/joke about plants he knows since he figures helia hasn't heard them yet (helia: takes one step outside - rhodos: well, I can't WHEAT to see you again ;;;;))

in ep6 it shows them taking care of the magiwolves and since i also hc that helia has some good medical knowledge, i like to think that he'd be able to impress them with that! i can see them comparing notes and maybe even asking for help with other animals!

in the comics, they mention that flora and helia played together when they were kids and i hc that it was actually alyssa who remembered him and told them!

rhodos is way too friendly and cheerfully tells helia that he can call him dad if he wants to. helia's too nervous to tell him he thinks that's weird as hell ajdgl

helia still calls them mr. rhodos and mrs. alyssa decades after meeting them aladhg

i mentioned in the miele post that she would eventually ask to know when he's going on missions, and i think after a couple years (probably around s7 time), rhodos and alyssa would also ask for that information. timmy helps him make a little timetable that he can just fill out and they can access whenever

i think i mentioned it in the first post but they absolutely try to subtly drop hints that they're okay with florelia getting married aldghl (they're not subtle At All but they're trying okay alhdgl)

helia would definitely be a little awkward and nervous around them at first, even more so after experiencing how nice they are to him. i can see him feeling like he doesn't deserve it or like he needs to earn their respect. that would last for a couple of years but eventually he would have a moment where it just kind of clicks that they literally don't care what he does as long as he treats flora with respect and love.

after that, he would randomly get a lot more comfortable with them and they get excited because they think it means florelia are getting married or something ajdhgl

#rhodos says what in carnation unironically actually #its literally canon flora told me #ajhdglhdag #but yeah overall they would love him #especially after seeing how happy he makes flora and how much miele likes him too #its a SHAME we dont have canon information on his immediate family #like saladin is cool and all but please where are his parents i need to know #unfort in true helia brain fashion i think his parents suck ass #and flora and her famil would hate them #(still be cordial but definitely hate them)#teehee #ajdhgladgh #i mean tbf i Can see him with a good family too but childhood trauma is just so much juicier ajhdgl #answered #mine.headcanons #THANK YOU for sending this!! do you have any thoughts about his relationship with them!!#or with miele! i love the big brother vibes he has with her :') its so sweet :')#im so glad that he has a good relationship with miele at least #considering so many wi.nx couples have bad or really awkward relationships with their in laws #its nice to see florelia being happy in florelia land at least ajkdhg

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babyfairy · 8 months

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i hate that i can’t even ride the high from my concert because my life is so consistently depressing and hellish lmao 🙃 it’s depressing to come back down to reality after such a good day. like it really makes me realize how joyless my life has become. everything just blurs together

#and i’m just tired of like everything around me feeling like it’s drifting away and becoming more unreachable #like i never even get to finish a conversation with half of my friends because they just forget to respond to me #thank god for sushi and asant consistently replying even when they’re busy lmao #no one else even bothers to really check in now unless i’m in like ACTIVE crisis it really sucks #not even in like a ‘i need people to hear me vent’ way #i just don’t feel important to the majority of the people in my life. at all #or maybe it’s just i feel like i care about and prioritize them a lot more than they do me #like? i had more coworkers text me on my birthday than actual friends #and i fucking hate my birthday so i get it to some degree #but it just hurts my feelings? idk? i feel like such an afterthought all the time to people. like a ghost #and i feel like i’m not interesting or good enough to keep anyone around or hold their attention #my own brother didn’t even wish me a happy birthday. at all lol #are my expectations just too high?#it’s just lonely. i wish i didn’t feel so alone

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luonnonvalinnat · 1 year

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Heyy I got polls now B)

#everything else about the new tumblr update sucks thanks i hate it #not saying I'd do this anytime soon but I'm curious #also will I actually listen to this and not just end up doing what I feel like doing?#cough cough well-#also one would most likely end up being longer than the other but oh well goodnight

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armoralor · 6 months

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my favourite irony of the current shipping discussion is the folks who allege WolfWren enjoyers sent “threats” to people who enjoy cishet ships (I have asked for ANY examples or usernames of anyone doing this multiple times), have also been calling for Filoni to suffer & die if he doesn’t make their ship canon. but don’t forget, it’s definitely the sapphics and queers who like WolfWren that are the problem

#queer nbs & women get harassed for MONTHS by sabezra stans: [complete silence & all the major sabezra blogs still interact with those folks]#wolfwren gets a little love from the cast: “UMMM ACTUALLY THIS SHIP WAR IS SO TOXIC NOW AND THE WOLFWRENS ARE THE PEOPLE THREATENING OTHERS #are there wolfwren fans that suck? probably. & if you would like us to do something about it please give us examples and show us who #so we can make sure we aren’t supporting ANYONE sending threats and hate.#I’ve even seen wolfwren shippers giving sabezra shippers advice on blocking IPs + turning on stronger privacy settings #but where the fuck were Sabezra shippers when other Sabezra stans were talking about rape + murder + abuse in queer peoples posts?#I have about more than 20 examples of disgusting vile HATE (actual hate & not “haha RIP this ship) that I’ve been directly sent #multiple wolfwren fic writers have had to turn off their comments on fics because of homophobic hate #artists have been getting dumb shitty homophobic comments on their wolfwren art with “gay garbage!!! Sabezra of life!!!”#and I’m not seeing anyone calling out sabezras as a whole for being bad toxic people (which no one should because they aren’t)#do you understand & feel the hypocrisy now?#I have no doubt there are “mean” WolfWren fans that are saying silly shit like “hahah we won” and “our ship is better”#and yeah! That’s mean. HOWEVER it is not fucking harassment or the same as “fuck this LGBT shit”#and it’s wrong that queer sabezra stans are being harassed too- there is way too much biphobia & homophobia in this whole fucking fandom #but let’s not act like being called homophobic is the same as suffering under homophobia #and let’s not forget that queer people are capable of being homophobic themselves by perpetuating harm #thank you for coming to my TEDtalk #text

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mspaint-flower · 7 months

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It's not rlly a question i just wanna tell you i love u and i hadn't heard of you before! Ur vibes are immaculate <3

HKJSHKGHDSKGHEHGKJEHJKGHJKEHEG????????🥹🥹🥹 WAHHGHGHGHGKHJHJG THANK YOU SO MUCH ANON,..,..,,.THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY THANK YOU 😭😭💥 EXPLODES

#asks #INSTANTLY MADE MY DAY BETTER #school sucked ass i hate the teachers so much #actually i think i'll rant about that in my sideblog #BUT YEAG....THANK YOU SO MUCH AHFKJGEHKJDGHKEJHGKJEHG 🥹#it means the world to me like FR YALL GONNA MAKE ME CRY /POS 😭

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chillbean3210 · 3 months

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Hey guys! Just making this post because I’ve been noticing that I haven’t been able to make as much artwork as I planned and I wanted to apologize

I’m really sorry for the lack in posts relating to art. I know I said in the past that I would and I wasn’t able to keep up with that promise. Believe me when I say I wanna post more, it’s just that school has really been a pain

I’ve been getting a heavy amount of work recently which unfortunately doesn’t leave me a lot of time to draw. I have this whole mini lotf comic that I wanna finish and ideas that I wanna draw for you guys but can’t due to school :,(

So my plan is to try to focus on school (using whatever free time I get to draw) and when February Break starts, I’ll get back to the drawing grind! I’ll try to finish my art when I can, I promise <3

Thanks to those of you who have been patient with me. I’m really sorry about the lack of art, really I am. School just really hates me as of late and doesn’t like it when I’m not working

When February break starts however, expect more drawings to be posted! 🩷🩷

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blueskittlesart · 1 year

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please do write an essay about wanderer one day i would love to read it <3

i love you. he is so <3 (essay under the cut because im crazy)

scara/wanderer/whatever you want to call him is so interesting to me because like. out of the train wreck that was inazuma, he managed to be one of the only well-written characters. and he wasn't even on the playable roster for that nation. incredible. why was inazuma so bad

in a way, his character actually functions to draw attention to a lot of the problems i personally have with the way ei/raiden and inazuma are written, namely that ei sucks and never sees a single consequence for her actions or even like. tries to fix her mistakes in any tangible way. Scaramouche was her prototype puppet, meant to be a test run for the eventual figurehead for inazuma which would run on unchangeable ideals while ei fucked off to her mind palace forever. he was not actually used for this purpose because ei saw him CRY and decided he wasn't fit to rule a country, and instead of like... idk doing anything RATIONAL with him she was just like ok. i'll let him sleep forever i guess. surely he will not wake up and resent me for this and turn evil. anyway. obviously he wakes up and realizes why mama ei abandoned him. he of course does not take this well. he internalizes the idea that his emotions made him weak and useless from. basically the moment of his conception. his emotional response is the reason he wass essentially abandoned by his mother. (to be fair, it's unclear if ei was aware that he retained consciousness, but still. throwing him out like trash because he had EMOTIONS was fucked up). this sets the stage for the way his mental state deteriorates over the course of the next couple hundred years.

so the poor kid has been abandoned by his mother for feeling things. bad start. but another important piece of this story is that, as per ei's original design for a puppet figurehead of inazuma, scara was essentially built to house her gnosis (essentially the heart of an archon.) since he never actually got used for that purpose, though, he feels as though he is missing a fundamental part of himself. as he wanders inazuma, he feels that lack of a heart harder and harder as he attempts to connect to humans and finds that he can't quite connect with them. (this is what i think of as his 'trying to be human' era) He struggles with the idea of mortality--specifically, a child that he befriends dies prematurely, and scara can't help but view it as a betrayal--"how could he break his promise and leave me behind?" he becomes acutely aware of the fact that he is not quite human and not quite god, but something in between--something that lacks the ability to feel like a human but was too emotional to fulfil its purpose as a god.

mortality and emotional response, to scara, become signs of weakness. he was discarded due to his emotionalness. his human friends' mortality took them from him. he grows to despise and reject both, which kickstarts his 'trying to be a god era,' which is how we've seen him in-game thus far. the thing is, he doesn't REALLY want to be a god. he wants to be loved. he wants validation and respect and family--everything that was taken away from him when ei threw him out, and when his human friends abandoned him. he tried it one way, tried playing pretend as a human, and only found more pain and suffering, so he decides to swing hard in the other direction, developing a superiority complex as a cover-up for his insane abandonment issues. No one can hurt a god. no one can abandon a god. no one can call a god weak. a god doesn't need friends or family or love because a god is all-powerful. he is convinced that if only he can attain true godhood--a gnosis, the item he was created to house, he will FINALLY be happy. and he decides that it doesn't matter how many people he has to hurt to do it.

(btw, throughout this entire time, ei has been in her mind palace being a deadbeat mom and deliberately ignoring the havoc her son is wreaking on the nation SHE IS SUPPOSED TO BE RUNNING. he even sends a message of introduction to the raiden shogun at some point ("tell her my name is kunikuzushi") which i can only assume was meant to make it back to ei and maybe get her to CARE A LITTLE BIT ABOUT THE KID SHE BROKE but she either never recieved it because the raiden shogun sucks equally as hard as she does or she heard it and didn't care. ughhhh.)

anyway. obviously this little insane attempt at attaining godhood does not end well for scara. i cant rewatch that sumeru archon quest cutscene without losing all brain function but you know what i mean. he fucks up. his hubris is his downfall. his attempt to bury his emotions and his humanity in order to ascend to godhood give him far too much confidence, and he loses the battle. nahida takes the gnosis and then fucking immediately gives it back to dottore because she sucks. scara's final attempt at finding some sort of place for himself in the world fails spectacularly and leaves him mentally and physically destroyed.

and in 3.3 he is going to wake up and keep going. and i am so so so so excited. i want to know how he heals. I want to see him reconcile with his humanity and his emotions AND with his origins in godhood, and i think having nahida and the traveler help him do that is gonna be so good if they do it right. i LOVE that they're allowing him to still retain a lot of that selfishness and smugness and attitude that makes him compelling as a villain, while ALSO seemingly letting him reconnect with his humanity and become better. i do still hope he gets to beat the shit out of ei tho

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flufflecat · 12 days

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Really not feelin it this week. Tag rant incoming

#it's just been a slew of horrible things this week and idk how to handle any of it #we had to take my childhood cat to the vet on Monday bc she's very sick and very skinny #and we thought we'd have to put her down #I'm so thankful bc she still has a bit of time and really all I want is for her to be comfortable again before she dies #but shes in such bad shape #and I hate seeing her like that. I found her when she was just a few weeks old #and now she's 15 and she just got old out of nowhere #and I'm not gonna be able to see her anymore soon #I'm going to a funeral Saturday for one of my aunts #I wasn't close to her since I was a kid but my family more or less abandoned her #and now she's dead and I never went to see her when she was alone #and today my other aunt died. and I was close to her.#I haven't seen her in years either though bc of more family drama.#and I never visited her either. idek if she was alone or if she had people.#I should have visited her when we found out she was sick but I just didn't #idk what to do. it's all just piling up #I feel worse rn than I have in years #and more bad things just keep happening #I was excited this week bc I got some work done on my college application #but now my motivation is just gone #I just wanna sleep and wake up and find out that my aunt is actually alive and someone just got it wrong somehow #but I can't fall asleep and that won't happen so waking up won't even be worth that #I would call off work tomorrow but I don't wanna be alone and my coworkers are the only people I know in town #at least they're all nice people #this all sucks so fucking bad #personal #negative

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skhardwarevers1 · 5 months

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sorry for saying I was going to do things and even starting them and then disappearing from this website entirely for three days. It will happen again

#Nothing new. Tbf I’ve done this a lot #I would say I’m focusing more on school and my personal writing but that’s more of a fucking lie than full truth #I genuinely have felt sick to my stomach posting here for whatever reason #Guilt shame anxiety paranoia etc etc you get the point. I feel like shit with no valid reason as to why #So for now I’m going to stop doing the thing that makes me overly emotionally sick to the point I have actual physical reactions????#Yeah that’s the logical course of action. Might post small personal anecdotes and doodles and such to give off the vague energy that Im fin #But beyond that I quite literally can’t. I sat down and thought about writing this post and immediately broke down #I don’t know why I feel guilty over having inconsistent motivation for putting up shitty writing on a website for strangers to see #But I do and k think the only good way to get past that is this. Gotta stop acting Impulsively it’s ruining my fucking life man #There’s only one other thing that I’ll thank Eloise for #and it’s for getting me off of tumblr long enough to realize that I desperately need to get help #This is fucked I fucking hate it. I might be online if k can bare the possibility that people can see this #Namely people I’ve grown attached to in concept #Idfc at this point. it doesn’t change much about how things have been going for the past year #Vent #S.K explains that things never really got better they would just suck less for short periods of time

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