#it could be but i gave other good reasons. what im saying is that regardless of the reason

[uten4]

Gordeau has a reluctance to use his claw unless necessary. There's basis in the story for it being a pride or fairness thing-- he loves fighting, but he dislikes group-fighting. He finds it embarrassing and awkward to look like someone who would need to rely on someone else's strength to win battles. Similarly, the claw requires no physical strength to use, has the magical effect of paralyzing his opponent, and he can just stand far away and activate it. He doesn't want to do that; he wants a fair fight!

BUT HERE'S THE OTHER THING.

His "claw" doesn't look like quite like a claw. Most popular human-looking male characters who have claws have them as a metal appendage (like Wolverine for example) or if they're nails they at least look clearly animal-like due to a fur texture or something around them.

But Gordeau just has a normal hand, with very long, purple nails. He basically has a manicure.

This builds on his character trait of having a patriarchal masculinity complex. I haven't posted about this properly yet but in the original Japanese, Gordeau has several instances of accusing men of being gay for him and acting annoyed about it, even though it's obvious (to us at least) that they're not gay and he simply wants to assert his own masculinity and straightness. That's probably the most obvious sign of his toxic masculinity, but I'm sure you could find other ones even in the English.

For instance, the fact that he's so fixated on his perceived weakness that allowed Roger to be killed by someone else, and the fact that even though he knows Wagner didn't do anything wrong, he needs to find her and beat her up anyway, just to feel like he's strong and managed to do something, anything. His reaction to emotional turmoil and self-dissatisfaction isn't to think it over carefully and act on it logically, and it certainly isn't to work on himself in a holistic way. It's to go beat the shit out of the girl who upstaged him.

SO to have such a feminine-looking weapon which he's always hiding in his pocket... It's a representation of his masculinity complex that is BAKED INTO HIS CHARACTER DESIGN! It would help him a whole lot to sometimes not do these things the hypermasculine way (avoiding the pretty purple fingernails), but he can't let himself do that. And as a result it disadvantages him in battles, just like it disadvantages him and those around him in his everyday life to not be able to focus his energy inwards (rather than toxically blaming others and internally hating himself for not being strong enough to kill his friend), and to not be able to tell his friends straight-up that he cares about them (rather than being "masculinely" stoic and letting Hilda become a Re-birth).

A little hint of "femininity" is this man's most powerful weapon, but only when he gives it a chance.

#i'm not saying that femininity is the main reason he hides the claw #it could be but i gave other good reasons. what im saying is that regardless of the reason #the fact that it IS feminine and he treats it that way is thematically SO SO SO SO SO GOOD #op #unib #under night in birth #also dw chaos isnt one of the guys gordeau derisively accuses of being gay. he only does that to men he /isnt/ attracted to. #gordeau

[aezuria]

Hi! could you do a daughter of hadez! reader x leo valdez headcannons or one shot? Like the reader is really gloomy and Leo is the only one that gets her to smile (like nico and will oops)

*ੈ✎ turn that frown upside down!

content: leo valdez x daughter of hades! reader

╰┈▸ warnings: canon divergent probably, a few cuss words

librarian's annotations: so i was stuck between making that daughter of hades fic with jason angsty or this one, guess which one i did ! (he can never be not tragic im sorry) anyways SO SOOOO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG I HOPE U LIKE IT

you were not the most joyous person; at least that's what it looked like to other people.

like, did anyone ever see you smile?

(probably nico, but that's about it)

well, leo valdez took that as a challenge

a pretty girl like you with a perpetual frown on her face? he'd turn that frown upside down!

(or so he hoped)

you picked at your food, sitting alone at the hades table once again; nico sneaking off to who knows where doing gods know what

leo took his chance and approached you, not caring about the assigned seating rule

i mean, he couldn't just let you sit there all alone!

"hey there," leo slid onto the bench in front of you, his elbow on the desk as he tried to act all suave.

who is this bumbling fool? you looked up from your food, an ever present glare in your eyes.

yikes, leo thought, laughing awkwardly. "you looked a little lonely, so i wanted to keep you company. is that alright?"

normally (as normal for an abnormal situation like this) you'd tell them to go fuck right off. but maybe you were in a miss-your-brother mood, or maybe you were just hungry and not thinking straight.

regardless, you gave him a shrug and took a bite out of your food. that wasn't a complete no.

scandalous gasps echoed through the pavilion. leo had already gotten their attention when he broke the rule, but you letting him stay? now that was absolutely unbelievable!

you turned your sharp gaze around the hall, wondering what the sudden rise in chatter was about. (they all took it as a sign to shut up because no one wanted to see the daughter of death mad)

your unbothered ass kept on eating because it was hitting especially hard today like-

"so..." leo trailed off, fingers tapping against the table as he tried to come up with something quickly. "who's your godly parent? mine's hephaestus, i found that out like, yesterday."

"hades," you answered shortly. you thought it would be obvious with your whole vibe, but maybe to a newcomer it wasn't. and you were a bit glad it wasn't, because no one bothered to talk to you once they found out.

"oh! yeah that should've been obvious, huh?" leo laughed sheepishly.

you nodded, the mostly one-sided conversation extending for a painstakingly long time.

"y/n!" leo waved eagerly once he caught sight of you leaving your cabin.

you startled, about to look over your shoulder to see who he was waving at as if he didn't just yell out your name. you put up your hand in a weak attempt at saying hello. you were about to go and start walking again when he ran towards you calling, "wait!"

you stopped short and turned back around to see him sprinting towards you. (guess all that running away was good for something)

he put his hands on his knees dramatically and gasped for breath. (maybe not?) leo straightened up, a bright grin on his face. "where are ya going? can i come with?"

you were off to go brood in the woods or something; not much of a two-person job. but for some reason, you couldn’t say no to his cheerful smile.

”sure.” you turned and went to walking again.

he scampered after you excitedly. “great! so what are we doing? do you wanna see this cool bunker i found? look at this bracelet i made! do you want it? i can make another so we match!”

you were a little overwhelmed with the amount of topic changes that happened in a matter of seconds. it was like a conversation with him made up for all the social interaction you deprived yourself of. it was quite endearing, if you were being honest. (maybe you didn't want to be all mysterious and nonchalant anymore! was that so bad?)

principle was principle after all.

"we can go to your bunker if you want," you said after he finally gave you a chance to speak. it's not like what you were about to do was any more interesting.

you didn't know how it was possible, but he smiled even wider. "really!? great! it's this way!" he took your hand and ran in the direction he pointed.

(and if your heart skipped a beat as he did so? well, that was for your information only)

"you like?" leo swung the door open and swooped an arm out proudly. "i'm still cleaning it up so it's a little messy, but there's so much cool stuff here! i don't know why nyssa didn't tell me about this. also! look at this dragon i found! his name's festus!"

he ran over to an astoundingly large bronze dragon. to say you were impressed would be an understatement.

"whoa."

"i know right!?"

"why do you always have a frown on your face?" leo asked one day. his hands itching to tug the corners of your mouth upward.

what? "i'm not frowning. this is my normal face." your face knitted in confusion.

he blew out a sigh, shaking his head in response. "seriously?"

"why would i be joking?" you deadpanned. but maybe that was also your normal voice.

"so like, everyone thinks you're mad at them when you're really just looking at them?"

"wait, people think i'm mad at them?"

"..."

"leo?"

"..obviously, i was not about to just sit there and take that, like it would so not fit my super cool, super funny, super hot and manly vibe-" he cut himself off once he heard a giggle to his right. he looked over to see you, a soft smile on your face.

he thinks he could've died a happy man right then and there. did he, leonidas valdez, just manage to make you smile? and not just that, but laugh? his life goal was complete. zeus could strike him down right there and he'd welcome elysium with open arms.

but of course, he just had to play it cool and not act like he was totally head over heels.

"did i hear a laugh from you?" leo smirked and nudged your shoulder. "y/n, do you think i'm funny? i mean, who wouldn't, right? i'm just hilarious!" he teased.

"shut up," you hid your smile behind your hand as you tried to wipe it off.

"aww!" leo drew you in for a hug, completely forgetting his "play it cool" attitude. he felt you stiffen in his arms, and he immediately let go and scooted back. "i'm so sorry! i don't know why i did that! did i make you uncomfortable? sorry!"

seeing his flustered expression brought yet another smile to your face. (or maybe it was just him in general) "i was just surprised. i liked it, leo."

fuck. if he looked at your precious face a second longer, he'd have to confess his undying love for you right then and there. and there was a lot he had to say.

but actions did speak louder than words. "can i kiss you?"

"yeah."

gods be damned, that boy could kiss.

#*ੈ✎ stories #leo valdez #leo valdez x reader #hoo #heroes of olympus #hoo x reader #heroes of olympus x reader #pjo #pjo x reader #percy jackson and the olympians x reader #percy jackon and the olympians

[writing-blog-iguess]

Online Matchup

Summery: Y/n thought it would be fun signing up on dating sites, just for shits and giggles. Who knew that was one of the best decisions they made, especially when they're having too much fun talking to a certain Jason Todd.

warning: swearing, unedited I think, mentions of cancer, fluff, lots of back and forth teasing

word count: 3072

a/n: I promised myself I'd post a fic today, though it's not the one I wanted, I hope you enjoy regardless.

ao3 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5

Inspired by this:

September 19

You matched with Jason Todd, say hello!

Y/N So, when you say you're looking for a partner in crime Do you mean, like, rob a bank and fight batman? Or like, cozy up on the couch with the fireplace going while it's raining while we try to finish the books we bought? Cuz, I can do the second one I dont think i could fight batman or any of his kids Or even what to, you know? They’re kind of scary …. well maybe one of them i would fight I say fight but its wont be Oh man, I am so sorry about this. This is not how i wanted to tell you that i am a rambler I’m just gonna see myself out Goodday

Jason Ngl this made me laugh So who would you fight but not really?

Y/N You can’t honestly be interested in who I would fight? No way

Jason Way you seemed interesting and i want to get to know you

Y/N … okay but you need to answer my question first

Jason: Lol fair. And it would be the second one. I too wouldn’t fight batman but for different reasons

Y/N: So you're a fighter?

Jason Nope This isn’t how it works

y/n: Fine but remember, you asked for this

Jason: Okay but it’s not like you have a plan on fighting all the batmans kids so i think im safe

y/n: …….

Jason: Oh shit you do?!

y/n: I plead the fifth

Jason: You just got a little more interesting

y/n: I’m going home

Jason: Damn and here i thought i’d finally found the love of my life

y/n: No, nope Don’t say that The more you talk to me, you’ll find the real me and then want nothing to do with me

Jason: Let me be the judge of that We matched for a reason and i want to find out Don’t you?

Y/n: Aren’t you a charmer Okay fine. 20 questions?

Jason: Sure but after you tell what you would do in a fight with the batfam

y/n: I was hoping you would drop this, damn Alright, you get the honour of telling me who you want to know 

Jason: Nightwing

Y/N: Really? Okay. well first i was thinking of just flirting my way out, but he looks like he’d flirt back and i’m not the best at it to begin with, so I’d just get all flustered Bro’s an acrobat, i aint running from him. I aint running from all of them if i’m being honest. Nah for nightwing, he strikes me as a dork in some way. I’ll talk my way out of it. And if there’s something i’m good at, it’s talking.

Jason: So your plan is to talk circles around him?

Y/N: Yes Once i figure out what type of dork he is, imma talk until he gets confused and then i’ll run away Bro won’t see it coming

Jason: I should tell my brother He’s a huge nightwing fan

y/n: Nooooooooooo No one needs to know i don’t need other people to know how weird i am Especially your family I don't want my first meeting to be ‘hey, you’re that chick that’ll talk nightwing to confusion. Man that was a great laugh’

Jason: You think this will go that far?

Y/N: Honestly? No But i have hope You?

Jason: Ya Anyways, red robin?

Y/N: You skipped red hood

Jason: Saving him for last

Y/N: Fair Hes smart, can’t really talk myself out of that one nor would I flirt He is too young and not my type So i use his weakness

Jason: There’s no way you know that

Y/N: No but I know the dude doesn’t have a regular sleep schedule.

Jason: How do you know that?

Y/N: Back when I worked at a coffee shop, I took his order a few times and watched him down his coffee while it was still hot I asked him once, why? Dude said, and i kid you not ‘sleep is for the week and coffee is god’ Ngl, i laughed and gave him a free coffee just for making my day

Jason: Shit day?

Y/N: Ugh you had no idea. I had two tests that day and a term paper due but i couldn’t get it printed in time so that was late Didn’t help i woke up on the couch, and my body didn’t like that

Jason: You in school?

Y/n: Ya, only two years in but i want it to end

Jason: Not a fan?

Y/N: Eh When did we start playing 20 questions?

Jason: Right, we we suppose to play after you finished your hypotheticals

Y/N: Curses Me and my big mouth Who’s next?

Jason: We’re still on RR

Y/N: Blah right I’ll just bride him with coffee and make a run for it

Jason: The fact that that could actually work is scary Are you sure you’re not a villain?

Y/N: Nope just an engineering student who could fight god with enough coffee and no sleep Honestly, RR’s my spirit animal

Jason: Robin

Y/N: Are you nuts? I’d turn myself in and then some ain’t no way i’m coming up with a plan for him He scares me

Jason: Why?

Y/N: I watched him fight a few times The dude has enough skill and rage to fight the justice league if need be I bet he could kill too He looks like it

Jason: Okay you're not wrong But if you had to come up with a plan, what would it be?

Y/N: Cannot believe you’re making me do this Fine Little dude may have a hard exterior, but years of reading and knowing people like him, he has a soft spot and use that against him

Jason: Do you know what that is?

Y/N: … I am going to die If robin finds this, I am dying by either embarrassment or by his hands

Jason: Come on, you gotta tell me I’m at the edge of my seat here

Y/N: Fine, but if i’m going down I’m taking you with me

Jason: But we’ve only just met

Y/N: Maybe so, but I actually like you But i’m starting to doubt

Jason: Aw come on, little bird

Y/N: Damnit I happened to be walking home and watched him sit in an alley playing with cats Must have been a slow night, he was there for hours

Jason: It was the little bird wasn’t it?

Y/N: So who’s next? Spoiler? Batgirl? The signal? Red hood? Oracle? Well, I wouldn’t fight Oracle, I don’t know who they are but I know they would win so I’m going to stay clear of them No, you know what? I can tell you my answer for all three of them I’d bribe them with cookies or something. Idk if they would take it but that’s my plan. Just straight up bribery. Who could resist cookies?

Jason: That’s your answer to everything huh?

Y/n: Yup

Jason: Even with RH?

Y/n: … He’s different

Jason: How so?

Y/N: Mm, okay but your not allowed to judge Or laugh

Jason: Should I be scared?

Y/N: Depends Anyways, i have a crush on him So I would shoot my shot and if i get turned down then at least I tried

Jason: You have a crush on Red Hood? Out of everyone there is, why him?

Y/N: You’re judging! You said you wouldn’t

Jason: I didn’t say shit Now tell me why him?

Y/N: Hell if I know But have you seen him?

Jason: I have but you don’t even see his face

Y/N: That just adds to the mystic that is Red Hood I just know he’s got a good looking face underneath the mask

Jason: You really are something else

Y/N: Sorry I’m a big fan of RH And I guess I like the thought of a mystery So if you want to end this now, I understand

Jason: Who said anything about ending this?

Y/N: Don’t know, a lot of people who seem interested in me kind of leave after they find out Either they don’t want to compete with a crush that I know have zero chance at or they just don’t like red hood and being with a fan isn’t something they want

Jason: They’re stupid I ain’t leaving for that And who knows, maybe you can shoot your shot one day

Y/N: HA That’s not going to happen I freeze up when I’m near someone I like I’d probably stutter and say something embarrassing and run away No thank you

Jason: Thought it out huh

Y/N: You have no idea Anyways, 20 questions?

Jason: I did promise You can ask a couple?

Y/N: Favourite colour?

Jason: Really? After what I did to you, your going to ask something simple

Y/N: Answer the question Jason

Jason: Green

Y/N: Thank you Favourite food?

Jason: What’s with the easy questions? Give me some hard hitting personal ones

Y/N: I will in time Now, answers please

Jason: Chili dogs

Y/N: Those things are gross

Jason: Hey, they are the pinnacle of street food You just have to find the right places

Y/N: Mmkay, if you say so

Jason: Alright, gonna have to take you to one of my favourite places

Y/N: That right?

Jason: Only way to convince you Where do you go to school?

Y/N: Looking forward to it Gotham University, you?

Jason: Not yet, but trying to Kind of hard when you were declared dead for a while

Y/N: Fucking what?! Gonna need that story

Jason: Nope, gotta reach at least level 10 in friendship to unlock it

YN: Damnit

Jason: Sorry little bird

Y/N: You didn’t need to say it so casually tho Who just mentions, ‘yeah i’ve been declared dead but haven’t done anything’ into a conversation And not elaborate on it This is bullshit, sir

Jason: It has happened to people

Y/N: Yeah, but they tell people why You just Dropped a bomb like that and say, not yet Whatever, i’ll drop it

Jason: You sure? Sounds like it’ll bother you until you get the story

Y/N: Yes I’m sure Yes it will bother me But like I said, I like you and I don’t want to be pushy I’m not a pushy person

Jason: Awe does someone have a wittle crush

Y/N: No You got nothing on RH

Jason: Now that just hurts, little bird

Y/N: Don’t you have a question you need to ask?

Jason: Are you flustered? I feel like you’re flustered

Y/N: Amazing weather we’re having Despite the rain and all

Jason: Alright, I’ll stop with the teasing For now Born in Gotham?

Y/N: No I am from Metropolis, moved here for school

Jason: Any other reason?

Y/N: Yeah, Superman kept destroying my apartment building I’ve moved three times and somehow, he always finds the building I’m living in Minute I graduated high school, I moved

Jason: But why Gotham?

Y/N: Gotham intrigues me

Jason: You’re so weird

Y/N: Thank you Since you’re not in school, what do you do?

Jason: Mechanic Didn’t really want my dad’s help so I’m finding my way in life

Y/N: Not a great relationship?

Jason: You can say that So, engineering huh?

Y/N: Yup I love building and taking things apart Have since I was little

Jason: Gonna change the world?

Y/N: Imma try but can’t really do that while working at luthor corp

Jason: Please tell me your joking

Y/N: Ah, not a fan I see Can’t blame you but I am not It was one of the first places I’ve applied to and hear back right away I accepted before getting my other interviews

Jason: jumped the gun a bit 

Y/N: Yeah I did. I wished I didn’t but oh well I’ll find something better if this doesn’t work out

Jason: Why don’t you quit now?

Y/N: I am a broke college student who needs money If I quit now, I’m not sure if I find someone to take me Plus the hours working there are helping my schooling, so it’s kinda late to switch jobs

Jason: Can’t believe I’m saying this but try wanye enterprise I hear they’re good to work for

Y/n: I plan too eventually But at the moment, this is fine The hours I have now works with my school hours

Jason: How’s working there anyways?

Y/N: Not too bad I guess I’m allowed to work on my own projects as long as I work on the assigned ones The people are nice and all but it could be better

Jason: But you don’t like it there?

Y/N: I don’t like Lex Luthor and what he represents I guess

Jason: So you believe that he’s trying to take down superman?

Y/N: I’ve seen one of their fights Nothing to believe

Jason: Must of been some fight

Y/N: Mm So What did you mean, I can’t believe I’m saying this?

Jason: You can’t be weird about it

Y/N: Oh? I am intrigued

Jason: You’re making it weird

Y/N: I am not It’s not like I said you have a crush on Bruce Wayne or something That would have been weird

Jason: Is this how you felt when I teased you?

Y/N: Paybacks a bitch isn’t it?

Jason: I hate you

Y/N: Okay

Jason: I do

Y/N: You’re deflecting

Jason: Oh my god Fine He’s my dad, well adoptive dad

Y/N: Cool

Jason: That’s it? You’re not going to fawn over him being my dad? Ask me questions about what he’s like? Ask if the tabloids are true?

Y/N: Nope Tbh, I don’t care for Bruce Like, I applaud him for what he’s trying to do for Gotham and all But, seeing him on every magazine everywhere I go gets a bit tiring He’s just another dude that people are obsessed with Who cares if he’s rich Besides, I’m talking to you aren’t I? Who cares about Bruce Wayne I wanna know Jason Todd

Jason: You know? I think I may actually be in love 

Y/N: Stooooooop You can’t say things like that

Jason Why? Cuz you get flustered so easily?

Y/N And if I do?

Jason Gotta say it’s my favourite past time

Y/N So, the reason you don’t have a great relationship with Bruce Does it have anything to do with you being dead or something?

Jason Wow WOW I cannot believe you We go from what's your favourites to hard hitting questions huh? I see how it is

Y/N I told you they were coming

Jason I just didn’t think you’d use it as a deflection tactic

Y/N Yeah I want to say sorry But I’m not I’m sure you would use anything to get attention from yourself

Jason Can’t do positive attention

Y/N Eh

Jason I hear you And yes it is part of the reason why me and Bruce are not in good terms

Y/N Mm, I’m sure he’s trying

Jason In his own Bruce way yeah

Y/N Are you?

Jason I like to believe I am Why the interest?

Y/N I don’t know Maybe it’s the fact that my relationship with my dad isn’t the best

Jason You’re dad’s not Bruce Wayne’s too?

Y/N HA Then I would not be talking to you in this fashion

Jason That is true So then what?

Y/N My mom says we are too similar to each other Got the same attitude and all I believe it Growing up, it was all your useless and you’ll amount to nothing Or he’ll ignore me, and I’d prefer that over the degrading Only time he’d show his affection was if he was drunk

Jason Wow Sorry 

Y/N Yeah It’s gotten better since I moved out Now it’s there, and I’m still processing 

Jason Processing what?

Y/N Mm It’s a pretty heavy topic to get into with someone you just met

Jason Can’t be worse than me being dead for months

Y/N Months?! How many?

Jason Oh damn You are a lot easier to talk with then who I normally socialize with

Y/N I shall take that as a complement

Jason As you should And no, I will not be elaborating 

Y/N Alright fair But I will get the story

Jason Mm, I’m sure you will So? Gonna answer my question

Y/N Last year he was diagnosed with cancer Not sure what it is, but it already spread

Jason How long did the doctors give him?

Y/N He didn’t want to know Can’t blame him for 

Jason Sorry about that

Y/N Yeah

Jason You don’t sound to hurt about it

Y/N Like I said, still processing it so I don’t know how to feel With the childhood I had, I don’t know how too But I know when it comes down to it, my emotions will hit me like a truck when the day comes

Jason Well, soak up as much time as you can before you have any regrets

Y/N Trying to He is just making it impossible Whoo boy! That was a lot of emotion for one night I think I’m going to eat some ice cream and binge watch my favourite show

Jason Sounds fun, wish I could join but I promised my brothers with help

Y/N How many do you have?

Jason Do you read anything about the Wayne family?

Y/N Nope What I know about him is what is whispered between my classes and work and even then I don’t listen to them

Jason Really committed on not caring about him, huh Four brothers and three sisters

Y/N Big family

Jason Bruce likes to adopt

Y/N I can tell Anyways, have fun tonight

Jason I’ll try Would you be interested in talking some more?

Y/N I would love to

#jason todd x reader #jason todd #jason todd gn!reader #batman imagine #my writing #this was purely for my entertainment #but enjoy #online match up

[luvyeni]

DLMLU; LEE FELIX

pairings. toxic!felix x lovesick!reader

wc. 821

warnings. gaslighting, cheating, mentions of sex, THIS IS FICTION PLEASE RUNAWAY IF SOMEONE TREATS YOU LIKE THIS

authors note. based on the song dlmlu by stray kids, i've been thinking about making something since it came out. THANK YOU FOR 1K FOLLOWERS 🎉! i can't believe i gained so many in such a short time, thank you for reading my works <3!

with that gaze of yours, full of hurt

"you're home?" you sat on the couch in the apartment that you shared with your boyfriend, who was currently walking through the door, looking like he clearly out doing the same thing he always did, this time he barely hid it. "you smell like whoever she is this time."

he sighed, tossing his keys to the side, rubbing his temples. "don't start this okay, you don't know what you're talking about."

you stood up, scoffing. "really, do you normally go out smelling like— what is it this time? cherries and vanilla." your voice cracking as you began to tear up.

"you, promised."

"i'm sorry." you laughed, that's you could do, it was comical really. "sorry, you're sorry, if you were sorry you'd fucking stop, you wouldn't leave me here for days on days without a call or text." you yelled.

"you're making this a big deal, she didn't mean anything." he yelled back, tugging at his hair in frustration. "please just listen."

"you said it didn't mean anything the last time, or the last time or the fucking time before that, how many times is it not gonna mean anything felix, how many!"

he saw the hurt in your eyes.

please, run away before i end up breaking you

he knew you were right, he was wrong to keep doing this to you , hurting you like this.

you and felix met when you both moved to korea years ago, you both were new to the country, so you had a lot in common, so you relied on each other, being away from your familes you leaned on each other for everything.

your friendship quickly turned into a full blown relationship, and next thing you know you two are in love and moving in with each other.

you two lived happily , you going to school and him recording music with a few other people he met here in korea, that's when it all went to shit, when his band began to get known in the under ground scene...

the different girls that would throw themselves at him, at first he rejected them, he had you, he didn't need anyone else. but good one night, and a few drinks later, he was crawling out of some girls bed, ready to beg for forgiveness.

you forgave him, heartbroken but you still took him back, and he promised not to do it again.

then came another, and another and another, and you took him back each and everytime, and felix realized something— there was reason why you kept taking him back.

you didn't have anyone else, you only had him, you didn't want to live without him, you truly did love him. of course, he did love you back don't get him wrong, but something about how you'd still look at him with heart eyes, packing him his lunches every morning, coming to his concert when you could— you did everything for him regardless of what he did... felix loved that power more, he was addicted to it.

don't let me love you, don't let me love you

"babe, im sorry she didn't mean anything i swear." he was being truthful, he couldn't even remember the girls name, it started with a b or something.

"it was a mistake, you have to believe, i was drunk and it just happened." he gave you those same doe eyes, the ones that made you fall for his charms every single time. "i love you, you know that." he cupped your face.

"you keep breaking my heart." you whispered, tears falling from your face. "it won't happen again, i swear." he wiped the tears. "you just have to trust me."

you wanted to say no, you did, but you really did love felix, and you knew he still loved you, or at least you wanted to hold on to the hope that he did.

"fine, one more chance, im giving you one more chance, felix you better not fuck it up." he smiled, kissing you. "thank you baby."

"i really promise this time will be different."

escape before the pain fills you up

he knew it wasn't gonna be that last time, but that didn't stop him from whispering empty promises in your ear as he thrusted into you, telling you how he's gonna stop while he kissed your neck, soaking up all your precious moans.

this happens everytime, you yell, he plays his games and you forgive him, and you have make up sex, knowing it will only be a week or two before you're right back at were you started, you sitting on the couch watching him walk in the apartment.

he knows he's know good for you. he knows he should let you go find someone who will treats you right, but he can't help but keep you on his life.

he needs you as much as you need him.

don't let me love you

©️LUVYENI

#kpop x reader #kpop angst #stray kids angst #skz angst #skz x reader #stray kids x reader #lee felix angst #felix angst #felix imagines #felix x reader #stray kids imagines #stray kids scenarios #skz imagines #skz headcanons #skz scenarios #felix scenarios #lee felix scenarios #lee felix smut #felix hard hours #felix smut

[butchbenrey]

listen to me. ive already talked about how ptsd haver gordie would struggle to be around the science team, but think about darnold. okay?

(this turned out longer than i thought it would so im sparing you the experience of scrolling past it. true darnold pepper heads will read on. i know this to be true)

think about her. she was like, one of the only people who ever really Helped rather than hindered gordie during canon, and she did it completely of her own goodwill. the bit of time where everyone met darnold was a distinct respite from the chaos of the rest of black mesa. at least, it was as calm as it could get with the whole crew there fucking around. and darnold, while eccentric and silly, is undeniably the most emotionally intelligent person gordie met that whole time. and she had some self-preservation instinct, causing her to stay behind, which i would say makes darnold way better for gordie to be around than any of the other characters. because darnold knows and understands to some extent what happened, she was there after all, but she's not so intimately connected to the events that it would make gordie uncomfortable.

i think darnolds narrative function as a respite in canon could carry over to post-canon stuff too... i think darnold is someone gordie could confide in and actually get some reasonable responses from. i know a lot of people put tommy in the role of like. designated gordie therapist post-canon but i really can't see that. tommy just does not share the same outwardly friendly and curious demeanor that darnold does, at least not to me. and i can't imagine him really giving a shit about anything gordie says 😭. sorry. but darnold is different to me! i can imagine a frazzled and traumatized gordie going through old work emails trying to find a way to contact darnold again, looking for closure she'll never get. i can imagine her contacting darnold, anxious out of her mind, but finding that, when they do eventually meet up for coffee and darnold does some wacky shit to her own drink for funsies, she can roll with this. this is nice, to her. i think she can be a lesbo about it to be quite honest with you.

i have this scene in my head of like. somebody— probably coomer— throwing some kind of party and of course gordie feels obligated to come despite knowing in her heart its a terrible idea. and of course, she ends up spending much of the party standing awkwardly in a corner trying not to freak the fuck out and jumping out of her skin when coomer gives her a friendly (hard as fuck) punch on the arm. darnold has been spending the whole party rummaging around the bar and making all kinds of beautiful and fucked up cocktails, and when she notices gordie shes like "dear god that poor thing." so she makes a special little drink just for her, approaches gordie, and offers it to her, saying: "you seem a little glum. this should cheer you up!" and gordie breaks down sobbing on the floor because its so nice and shes so overwhelmed and nobody has shown her that kind of kindness and generosity in so long.

darnold also internally freaks out a little bit, scared she fucked something up, but she reasons that regardless of why gordie's crying, it's probably a good idea to take her outside and away from all the lights and sounds. so she does; she helps gordie up, escorts her out to the porch, sits her down. and they talk. gordie apologizes profusely for ruining the party and being weird and whatever and darnold earnestly replies that she was only there for the drinks anyways, she doesn't quite care for parties in the first place. gordie chugs the cute lil drink darnold gave her, and its good, and she tells darnold as much. darnold is very thankful that its so dark out because she is so so so flustered and she hopes gordie can't tell. gordie leans on her, though darnold is well over a foot shorter than gordie, so really it's functionally gordie resting her head on top of darnold's.

gordie is very much a lightweight and she gets more drunk from that one little glass than someone whos like 6'2" should, so darnold offers to drive her home to her apartment. gordie agrees, and she's even more handsy with people when she's drunk, so she's all holding onto darnold for support and rubbing her thumbs into her shirt and getting distracted. it is not good for darnolds composure in the slightest but she is trying so very hard to be normal about it. they make it back to gordie's apartment.

as they make it inside, gordie, drunk on both alcohol and the overwhelming feeling of being cared for for the first time in ages, tries to kiss darnold. darnold is a hopeless romantic to me. she wants to accept so bad but she's responsible, so she laughs it off and tells gordie they should get her to bed. gordie agrees and within minutes she's out like a light.

darnold stays the night, hopeful for the morning.

#barking #welcome to my twisted mind. #hlvrai #freenold #hlvrai orange soda #gordie freewoman #gordon feetman #darnold pepper

[skaldish]

hey, I recently had to interact with an evangelical family member on thanksgiving (as in, I calmly listened and explained "my views and values differ from yours, but I appreciate you sharing your world view with me" while I was aggressively proselytized at for well over an hour; even by evangelical standards, this family member is aggressive about pushing his beliefs onto others).

I was raised atheist and don't usually have an issue with this; I don't believe in hell or divine punishment, but things he said keep popping into my head (like being called "the definition of being lost" for saying im agnostic— which is a half truth but he wouldn't be receptive to a full explanation). I'm tacking this down to a combination of evangelical thought poison and my anxiety disorder related habit of ruminating (which thankfully I'm working with a therapist on now).

I know you're passionate about the subject of cult thought and the likes and just wanted to know if you had any advice or thoughts re: getting cult thinking that doesn't align with your views or values to kindly edit your headspace.

hope you're well 💚

Apologetics. It's something every Evangelical learns, and it's a form of mind-control. They engage nonbelievers in religious debate and use it to covertly indoctrinate them.

Evangelicals spend years learning how to counter every argument, direct conversations towards specific points, compromise our mental reasoning through various means, and inject their logic into the vulnerable mind, which then festers on its own.

Apologetics is a masterstroke of manipulation, and one of the very few things I consider evil.

My best friend is ex-Evangelical and well-versed in Apologetics. A while back, they gave me an example of how it works (with my consent of course).

Now, I'm extremely good at entertaining ideas without adopting them. It's a skill I deliberately and constantly wield, almost subconsciously at this point.

There's no way I could do it. The more you think it over, the deeper it digs into your brain. All an Evangelical has to do is feed you enough information and your own thoughts will do the work from there.

My friend wasn't even simulating an actual instance of proselytizing; they framed things within the context of, "This is what they'd say." And yet I could literally feel my mind tunnel at the logic, burrowing its way deeper every time I thought, "But what if...?"

I did throw it, though. The way I shook it off was Occam's Razor: "Simpler explanations are more likely to be correct."

Evangelical philosophy is too complex to be statistically probable compared to other frameworks. It even compensates for this by portraying itself as the only safe bet in a high-stakes game. But the reason we find it so compelling is because it makes us fear for our survival. It's the same fear we get when we hear rustling in the bushes when there's a predator around...only this time the tiger is something we can't know. Regardless, our lizard-brains will always take a false positive over a false negative in those situations, and will try to do so if it succumbs to the existential dread. This evil, perfect storm is what drives people to convert.

I've seen many forms of mental manipulation, but Apologetics is a weapon unlike any other.

So here's my advice to you and everyone else:

When it comes to the Evangelical debate game, the only winning move is not to play.

Do everything you can do avoid the topic of religion in conversation, and make a concentrated effort to give it as little breathing room as possible. Bring up a different topic. Say "no thanks" and move on. Ask questions about secular things. Ignore the religious content peppered within statements. Be cordial, but never ever let up on that boundary.

I don't know your relative, but I do know Evangelicals never respond well when denied a platform. They may try to persuade, provoke, trick, or guilt you into giving it to them, so be prepared to hold your ground if you have to interact with them. If all else fails, excuse yourself from the conversation.

Remember: It's not rude to hold a boundary. Don't let anyone convince you that it is.

#answered #tw religious trauma #description of how apologetics works

[uvienova]

Life Series as Birds

I had the oddest sudden fixation to do some “light” bird research and determine that if each member of the Life Series was depicted as an avian, what bird would they depict. (may become a thread of changes)

So Grian is almost unanimously depicted as a Parrot, more specifically a Scarlet Macaw due to Season 7 “Pesky Bird”. As well as the birds sassy additude.

Same as Grian, possibly even more, Jimmy is commonly depicted as a Canary due to the Canary in a Coal Mine.

For Mumbo, I felt like the Northern Cardinal would be a nice fit due to its vibrant red and black coloring. Cardinals are also symbols of loyalty and devotion, rather fitting for someone who tends to be loyal to his allies. Cardinals are also often associated with passed loved ones visiting relatives in the form of Cardinals, which would fit seeing as Mumbo is usually one of the first out of the series.

Tango was actually the last one I chose, due to this, and an attempt to give each member a different bird, it was difficult. After some further research, I decided on the Whistling Kite for the reason that it's nicknamed one of Australia's "Firebirds" for their use of fire to catch prey.

Believe it or not, Impulse was actually the member who inspired it. Out of curiosity, I looked up Arizona's national bird and the Cactus Wren popped up and I could envision Impulse as a Cactus Wren with the browns and golden yellow with a nice touch of white.

As evident above, my first idea was looking up national birds. Despite being a small bird, The shade of grey that Canada’s national bird, the Grey Jay, has is similar to Etho’s minecraft skin hair color. Grey Jay's are also seen as a good omen, similarly to how people seem to gravitate towards Etho almost like hes a good omen or a good luck charm.

No matter all the birds I looked into, my brain kept saying Skizz for a Blue Jay. Blue Jays are associated with joy, happiness, along with some mischief, however, I would like to confess that I have yet to watch Skizz's pov of any of the seasons so i'm not as familiar with his personality as i am the others so if this choice seems uncharacteristic I apologize, but just imagine fanon Skizz with dashing sky blue wings.

Originally I was going to put Lizzie as a hummingbird because they are pollinators, small, and adorable. However, hummingbirds are green and im a sucker from “Small” Smallishbeans Joel. Not to mention how hummingbirds can sometimes be hostile with one another alot like how Joel tends to targets everyone regardless of who it is.

For Lizzie I decided a parakeet was a good choice for Lizzie because they're small, cute, and colorful. Parakeets are also very social and affectionate birds with lots of personality alot like how Lizzie is.

Parakeet was originally what I chose for Scott, but then I learned about Kenya’s national bird, the gorgeous Lilac-Breasted Roller which is perfect for Scott as it reminds me of his Empires Chromia outfit and all the beautiful things he creates. I mean LOOK AT IT!

For BigB, I decided to bestow him with my states bird, the Eastern Bluebird. Bluebirds represent joy, happiness, and luck. The Blue and orangish brown coat reminds me of Big B’s color palette of a blue sweater with a brown cookie on it. 

Cleo has high Great Horned Owl vibes and you can’t convince me otherwise. Symbols of protection and not tolerating deception. GH Owls are also super intimidating in their size and appearance, fitting for the cutthroat Cleo.

During all of this, I almost gave up on the opportunity for Martyn as a Woodpecker. No need for further explanation, but I'll give you the symbolism: Optimism, new opportunities, and creativity which matches Martyn. (Edit: IVE JUST BEEN INFORMED THAT THE WOODPECKER IS ALSO ASSOCIATED WITH MARS SO YAH)

Ironically enough, I decided Gem would make a good Barn Owl, their white coat and owls being a figure of wisdom reminded me of Gem's Empires Season 1 as well as her enjoyment of birch. Barn Owls are also good hunters to it fits her like a glove

I wouldn't give up the opportunity to choose a hawk for Mr. GoodTimesWithScar.The Hawk I chose is the Cooper's Hawk. But really I chose a random Washington state hawk that I thought suited Scar.

For our favorite crazy Aussie, only Australia's national bird will do. I believe the Emu suits Pearl well because one, its national bird, and two, Emus are one of the dorkiest kinds of birds and have a lot of personality (and thievery skills). 

For Ren, I almost went with the Peacock, but couldn't invision Ren as a Peacock, so instead of going the Royalty Route, I went the pun route. Ren…….as a Wren. A Musician Wren, Fitting for the Theater Nerd of the Life Series, no take backs.

For Bdubs, I went with the Orchard Oriole, A small bird that builds with, you guessed it, MOSS!

I might add on or talk about members as other birds and yah

#life series #trafficbir #life series smp #im going bird crazy

[martellspear]

I havent seen you post much about arianne but since you seem to be positive to all martells im asking you since I havent seen much about it elsewere either. I absolutely love arianne and daemons relationship especially the twow prewiew scene where he asks her not to go to storms end, do you have thoughts about it or can i talk about it in your asks because I have no one to talk to about this and im loosing my mind over it.

Hi, anon! You’re more than welcome to talk about them in my asks and I’d be more than happy to read your thoughts. Also, with the Martells, I’m on the “everything they’ve done wrong was trying to do something right” spectrum 😁.

Anyway, let’s talk about Arianne “I always loved his smile” Martell and Daemon “My face is yours. Do what you will” Sand.

Warning: it’s a long post.

I seem to enjoy relationships that we know little about, so they caught my attention immediately. They have #history and I don’t believe that what happened is buried lifeless, quite the opposite. Arianne is constantly thinking of their past and how much it still lingers within her, with them. I see “what if?” and “in another life” as a big part of their dynamic and it drives me insane!! They’d be great together and yet Daemon can’t be more than a paramour.

“The rest of the party kept a more sedate pace. The princess found herself riding beside Ser Daemon, remembering other rides when they were younger, rides that often ended in embraces. When she found herself stealing glances at him, tall and gallant in the saddle, Arianne reminded herself that she was heir to Dorne, and him no more than her shield.

The thing is: Daemon still has feelings for her, feelings that have been there for quite some time. She’s the firstborn daughter and heir to Dorne and he, a bastard, asked for her hand for marriage. He’s either insane – which we know is not the case – or he truly thought it was worth the risk; it’s Westeros, Doran could be less tolerant of that as some other lords might have been. We see that the offer to share a bed with her causes a different reaction from what I believe she was expecting; I think he knew that laying with her again would bring to the surface the same feelings he was trying to make go away.

Arianne gave him her most seductive smile. “We might share a bed together.” Ser Daemon’s face was stone. “Have you forgotten, princess? I am bastard born.” He took her hand in his. “If I am unworthy of this hand, how can I be worthy of your cunt?”

AND THEN we have one of the scenes that get me giggling kicking my feet twirling my hair squealing:

She snatched her hand away. “You deserve a slap for that.” “My face is yours. Do what you will.”

Another thing we know about them is that, regardless of the damage their relationship suffered in the past, they still care for each other. Daemon is honest with her in a way one wouldn’t be unless there’s some level of trust; she’s a royal, she’s the woman he can’t have. He must protect her, it's literally the reason he’s there, he could simply agree and oblige to what she says, but he doesn’t. Instead, he helps her see things as they are without undermining her. And Arianne is aware of that, she seeks his opinions.

Her father had confided in Ser Daemon when he chose him as his daughter’s shield; with him at least she could speak freely.

 I would also like to mention how they, apparently, seek each other, that old familiar pilar, crafted together, that one leans on.

Arianne exchanged a look with Daemon Sand.

They are comfortable with each other; Daemon wouldn’t say half the things he does otherwise.

“Be gentle with her, my lady,” Arianne said. “I remember when I was her age. My father despaired of me, I’m sure.” “I can attest to that.” Ser Daemon took a sip of wine and said.

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“I never knew how wild she was till now,” Arianne complained to Daemon Sand, afterward. “Why would my father inflict her on me?” “Vengeance?” the knight suggested, with a smile.

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If the gods were good, by now Obara Sand had treed him in his mountain fastness and put an end to him. She said as much to Daemon Sand that first night, as they made camp. "Be careful what you pray for, princess," he replied. "Darkstar could put an end to Lady Obara just as easily."

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”I would sooner it were Quentyn who’d returned”.  “Or so you say,” said Daemon Sand.

This last one specifically didn’t mean much to mean until I reread it: he understands the Quentyn situation in a way most don’t or can’t. They grew closer during the time Arianne found out about the letter, Daemon probably became some sort of confident to her. They were close friends, there’s no soil more perfect for love to grow, and so he goes and asks to marry her. Which obviously he can’t and that leads to a permanent mark on their relationship and that “I hate loving you but without that I wouldn’t be me” atmosphere they have. 

I love how she ricochets between “Thankfully, Daemon is here <3” to “I want him gone!!” (and it’s in that “I cannot look at you any longer, there’s too much – too much history, too much of you in me; my heart is betraying my gracelessly betraying my heart” way).

“I like the dragon.” She wanted to slap the smile off his face. Or kiss it off, perhaps. The man was as smug as he was comely. Of all the knights in Dorne, why did my father chose this one to be my shield? He knows our history.

 X

Her father had confided in Ser Daemon when he chose him as his daughter’s shield; with him at least she could speak freely.

Furthermore, let’s talk about how Daemon was DEMANDING the Sand Snakes to be released, imagine: a bastard demanding something of the ruling prince. He isn’t one to conceal his thoughts – see that he also doesn’t drink to Tommen. There’s more than duty to Arianne as a princess; he’s his own person and I adore this dynamic, Arianne does drink to Tommen, he could have done the same just to please her. He’s her sworn sword, he’ll die for her if needed, but he is not following her blindly, despite his feelings, we see that in the TWOW chapters. He chooses her. Daemon respects her as a person and this is one of the very few relationships in which we see that happening in ASOIAF.

Arianne is idealistic, she has her own beliefs and is still learning that they aren’t the standard – and to cope with that -, she believed she could defy social structures directly and one of the reasons I love her character is her development, she is learning and she’s aware of that. Daemon beckons her to look at other angles. It comes from a place of support and admiration; he knows what Arianne is capable of achieving. Arianne is in the process of learning how to measure her decisions, to think harder, and analyze the situation she’s in; she’s the spectrum between Doran and Oberyn.

“Who will defend Ghost Hill if these strangers land upon our shores? Should I call my men home?"  "Your men are needed where they are, my lady," Daemon Sand assured her. Arianne was quick to nod.

In the scene where they discuss Storm’s End, I couldn’t see just a sworn sword fulfilling his duty, he wants her safe. Arianne, not only the Prince of Dorne. That scene is so endearing to me, they’re talking as equals; it’s the situation I’ve talked about before of their balance: Arianne’s idealism paired up with the scars from the failed plan and its consequences and Daemon showing different angles. We also see the “at least she could speak freely” in practice.

That night when she told Ser Daemon what Chain had said, the Bastard of Godsgrace seemed as perplexed as she was. “Storm’s End was still held by men loyal to Lord Stannis when last I heard. You would think Connington might do better to make common cause with another rebel, rather than making war upon him too.”

“Stannis is too far away to be of help to him,” Arianne mused. “Capturing a few minor castles whilst their lords and garrisons are off at distant wars, that’s one thing, but if Lord Connington and his pet dragon can somehow take one of the great strongholds of the realm…” “…the realm would have to take them seriously,” Ser Daemon finished. “And some of those who do not love the Lannisters might well come flocking to their banners.

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“And that is why you should not put yourself at risk.” Daemon Sand went to one knee. “Send me to Storm’s End in your stead. Then if the griffin’s plans should go awry and Mace Tyrell takes the castle back, I will be just another landless knight who swore his sword to this pretender in hopes of gain and glory.” […]  “It is brave for you to seek to shield me, ser. I thank you for that.” She took his hands and drew him back to his feet. “But my father entrusted this task to me, not you. Come the morrow, I sail to beard the dragon in its den.”

I think he’ll end up going with her and I can’t wait to see more of their relationship. In the caves, he was the one that made her keep going. Daemon helps her find in herself to push limits and go further; Arianne gives him purpose in a way I don’t think he’s even aware of yet. They’re somewhat complicated, given the history and the social distance, but no one else could fill the space the other left. They don’t need each other, but it’s much better when they’re in each other’s lives; I believe they have a kind of bond you can’t break and pretend it never existed.

Thanks for asking my thoughts, it was fun rereading her chapters and going into deeper thought about their relationship <3

#asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #arianne martell #daemon sand #arianne x daemon #house martell #chatterbox nia

[idontwantotsayimgodbut]

Hello!! I absolutely loved Anon's idea about the cheating AU is it alright if I ask for a part 2 of it? Thank you!

forgive me

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Lucifer x gn!reader

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regardless of how much you absolutely loved the Devildom and how it had become your home, you also couldnt stand being here anymore. After all, why would you stay in the place where your lover cheated on you when you could leave ? So, you teleported yourself back to the human world, hoping things maybe you could get your old life back.

it was late when you arrived in the human world. The time on your phone read 2 am the morning, and there seemed to nothing for miles. You had no phone service, so it’s not like you could call anyone and even if you could would you be able to say the words out loud? That Lucifer cheated on you? Realizing there wasn’t much you could do you decided walk down the road, hoping to maybe find a gas station or a motel of some sort.

Lucifer kept the goodbye letter you gave him clutched in his hands as he immediately opened a portal to the human world to look for you. He may have betrayed you but he knew you and more importantly, he loved you. What happened while he was drunk was something he knew he’d never forgive himself for, but the truth is that ever since you came into his life without you there was nothing for him.

He saw you wandering the road as he teleported himself to you as he focused on to you. And that’s when he saw you, walking on the side of the road in the middle of the night, clutching a back in your arm. You looked miserable, and he knew he was the reason why. He swiftly ran up to you.

You heard footsteps behind you so you turned around to see who it was, and when your eyes finally made out the figure in the dark night, you were shocked.“Lucif-“. he cut you off as finally got a good look at the man who broke your heart. “No y/n wait-“. You weren’t having any of it. “No, YOU wait. You cheated on me. you slept with someone else. you don’t get to interrupt me. you never even loved me.” you spat at him and tears ran down your eyes.

“I’m sorry y/n”, you heard his voice crack before he continued. “ and I know nothing I say will make what I did okay, but I hope you know I love you. What I did was beyond stupid. Please y/n, please don’t leave me.

He was on his knees begging for your forgiveness. The Avatar of Pride, was begging for your forgiveness.

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a/n : hiiii ik this isn’t that great. It’s also rushed because im tired and a little upset over something. I’m sorry if it isn’t that good but I’ll try to do better with other promote and I might redo this one. regardless thank you so much for requesting, my asks are open ! have a great day guys .

#obey me smut #obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me luficer #angst and comfort #obey me angst #obey me fluff

[muzzledrum]

"take me slow" PRT 4

Copia x reader

warnings: obsessed manipulative Terzo, toxic Copia moment, fight, no fluff

terzo gives copia some advice and it takes a turn. yeah im sorry in advance its an ugly chapter.

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Terzo walked down the hallways, a grin threatening to break on his face. He wouldn’t tell Copia her name and what she was. But that didn't mean he couldn’t raise hell in other ways. He was happy to play the friendly helper in their relationship, however happier to help her more. He straightened his vest and twisted on his toes as he turned to papa’s bedroom doors, all too giddy to pour his poison in Copia’s mind. He pushed his grin down into the pit of his mind, carefully selecting what face would alleviate the stress from papa, when he decided he took a deep breath and knocked on the door. Copia’s head came into view, his paint complimenting his furrowed brows as he opened the door, a stoic calm as he looked down at Terzo. Terzo made a mental note that his confidence had definitely risen since last they talked, making things a little more challenging. He gave a refreshing smile and spoke in italian

“Papa! How are you my dear friend? Hopefully I didn’t keep you waiting”

Copia stepped back and gestured his hand, letting Terzo walk inside as he replied chipperly 

“Patience is perfect for us Papa’s! Always good to see a familiar face in these times. Come sit”

The two men sat down, a cup of coffee and hot chocolate waited at his desk, Copia always had a terrible sweet tooth. Terzo scooted his seat closer before leaning back crossing one leg over his knee. 

“So what’s troubling you? How can I help you today Papa” he sighed and played with his ring as he picked the coffee cup up to his mouth.

“I could use your advice. From what I understand, you were em….close? With Y/N, correct?” He folded his arms on the desk and leaned forward. “Of course we don’t have to talk about it. She isn’t keen on sharing many details and in truth it's not my business regardless of my position of power”

 Terzo rolled his shoulders lightly and cleared his throat. “Oh I’m a giver you know I won’t say no to Papa, speak away. Everythings on the table within reason.” copia stayed silent for a moment so terzo quipped out “including the bedroom activities perhaps?” He raised his eyebrow and sipped his coffee. Copia choked on his cocoa and cleared his throat. “Oh, the sort if you don't mind” Copia mumbled out quietly, taking a deep breath he asked. “Has she always struggled being intimate? I find myself wondering if I am doing her wrong. I needed to learn from you” Terzo smiled, carefully selecting his lie as he pursed his lips and shook his head confused. 

“No, she never had a problem with me. I will admit it did take a long time for her to openly be intimate, usually hiding behind…comments?” He studied Copias face and saw what he needed, a slight reaction shown through his eyes at her making the comments. So she was being all bark no bite Terzo thought.

 “But she, eh, opened up? Right?” he listened softly

“Yes, within a year she was open, both heart and legs if you will” he flashed a toothy smile enjoying his game. Copia’s shoulders slumped for a moment before leaning back in his chair and placing his clean shoes on his desk. “Everything else if our relationship is fine, but it's this one thing that she struggles with. Though, I haven’t confronted her about it.” he raised his hand before continuing

 “Which I will. But she seems almost afraid? As silly as it seems. As you know she's damn near close to sister Imperator in confidence and self assurance.”

“Quite the opposite, Papa. She is afraid. It’s not my place to tell you but she has some rather…unfavorable secrets and a past. I know it doesn’t haunt her. But what does is that it will repeat. That she will hurt you. She means well I'm sure but she hides it because she’s afraid of herself.” Copia paused for a moment and nodded. “She is hiding, you’re right. The other night she hid under the paperwork you gave her after the class she taught. She could have done it another day I’m sure” the last of his sentences drifted off into a mumble as Terzo gave him a confused look and feigning sympathy. “I never gave her paperwork papa, I and others haven't since you returned. We agreed to let her be for some time.” Copia looked up, studying Terzo's face before confusion consumed him. “You must have forgotten, she told me she was given last minute work”

Terzo clicked his tongue “no we shared a nice walk after her work, the moon was nice so we took some time to catch up. You know I would never forget things like that Papa” he clasped his hands and set them on his knee, lazily bobbing his foot. Copia glared at his gloves for a moment. “I see….you’re excused Terzo. I have some tasks to attend to” he stared at his glove, his voice leaking venom at this revelation made to him.

“Of course Papa, I didn't mean to upset you. Please always call me when you need some advice, I’ll come running if I can. Really” he stood up and set his coffee cup on the table, just as he turned his face a glimmer showed in his white eyes as a wolfish smile pulled the corner of his lip. Copia only nodded in acknowledgement as Terzo slipped out the door in silence.

Copia gazed down on Terzo’s cup still sitting on his desk. He picked it up lightly and twirled it around in his hand over and over. He was lost in thoughts as his insecurities ate at him, his thoughts brewing a storm. “She lied? Why? Why me? What were they talking about? She didn’t have dinner with me last night. ``Her heart and legs, if you will’ ” most importantly, at the forefront of his mind “what is she hiding from me?” his thoughts echoed in the dark empty room, his gaze hardened as an irrational anger consumed him. The sound of crushed glass assaulted his ears, when he looked down the cup was shattered. The last of the coffee poured onto the floor as splinters of glass laid bare on his desk, mocking him. Blood dripped from his hand as it pooled in his hands. Anger grew as he swiped his cup off the table and yelled in anguish, he grabbed his hair and took shuddering breaths. “I am Papa, I am Lucifer's chosen shepard, I am Papa I’m not hopeless” He found comfort in his power in the moment as his head hung to the floor. He looked over to the room and saw the shredded letter still laying where she left it. He grabbed the tape off his desk and walked over to the mess.

She approached the door tired and annoyed, her arm full of books from the library. When she opened the door she was confused. The room was pitch black, the curtains drawn tightly. At the end of the room there was a dark silhouette of Copia sitting back in the chair. The air felt both dead, but electric as she spoke. “Copia? What the hell are you doing? Brooding like a vampire?” he didn’t respond, only tilting his head back over the chair to face her and smiled. The face intoxicated with power, collected anger and an utter cold. It made her shiver.

“Hello, my love. You're home late again. Terzo tossing his work onto you now?” he said out loud flatly. “No, not Terzo. I had to study up on some things for another class I'm teaching on thursday '' she attempted a smile, hoping he would be happy about the news. He didn’t acknowledge what she said, he simply held up the now taped up letter between his  index fingers, only half of the letter intact. ”Have a nice brunch with him?” he replied coldly, she walked over to his desk and set the books down before she put her hands on her hips, anxiety twisting her stomach. “No, as a matter of fact I didn’t. What has gotten into you?” “your love?” He raised an eyebrow and stood turning to face her, his hand lingering on the chair and his other raising the letter. “Doesn’t seem like the wording I’d use for a chew out over papers” his white eye glowed in the dark of the room. 

“What did he tell you?” she asked in a warning tone. 

“Enough. He was very informative. So….why did you ever leave him?” He swung the other chair out and pointed for her to sit. She stood defiantly. “What is wrong with you? You have never acted this way, what did he tell you?”

“That he never gave you paperwork last night. That you had a nice get together again. Normally I wouldn’t give a rat's ass. But you’re hiding from me. Has your Papa not been honest with you? Am I losing my love?” 

“We had an argument, that’s why I was upset! Copia are you hearing yourself?” she yelled.

“You’re ignoring the letter,” he said quietly and coldly.

“What am I supposed to say copia? That's why I shredded it. I was upset when he called me that” she waved her hand exasperated “Terzo is a different man when it comes to me-” she was cut off by his glare, his breath heaved as he stared at her.

 “What is that supposed to mean?” his voice dripping with venom

“It’s complicated” she whispered

“Start talking”

“I can’t” when she looked back up she saw tears dripping down his face, his fists clenched over the letter as he looked around, everywhere but her. His face contorted as he controlled his tears. He fought to keep his voice steady as he glared up at her in angry tears “what are you hiding? What did I do wrong?” she looked at the ground and shook her head.

"I can’t look at you right now. I need to think, we’ll talk again later” he turned his back to her. “ You're kicking me out?? Copia this is-” his voice boomed in the room, rattling the walls “get out!” and immediately. regret, hurt and fear hit him. He never raised his voice. What was wrong with him he thought, he had forgotten who he was talking to. His lover, his sun in the cosmos. Now she was in tears, her nose twisted as she tried to force words out. He reached out “I- I’m sorry amore please I didn’t mean it” he was too late, in the dark of the room her figure simply vanished, one moment his eyes were fixated on hers, the next she blurred into the dark. “Amore? Amore please come here I didn’t mean it I’m sorry” he rushed to the curtains and shoved them open. She was nowhere in sight.

It was a downpour outside, Terzo sat by his fireplace and smiled. Considering it to be the heavens succumbing to his dark infernal lord below. Out of the corner he saw a shadow step out of the darkest corner of his room. What he was welcomed with was a tear stricken Y/N, he rushed over to her shushing her softly asking what had happened, a selfish pang of joy hit his heart as she came to him. “He screamed at me” her voice breaking into sobs as she held her face. Terzo wrapped his arms around her, shushing her softly as he buried his head into her hair, petting her hair softly. Deep in his heart he was branding a wicked smile as she sobbed in his arms for the rest of the night.

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hey so I felt the need to come down here, I'm having a lot of fun with this and im on a fucking roll. I'm open to suggestions and request I want to work on stories that aren't conventional y/n's, the next story will be about a diabetic because thats something I always wanted for myself, if you want some representation feel free to let me know and I can whip a story out. hopefully the next chapter will get lighter and happier no promised

#ghost bc #cardinal copia #papa emeritus iii #ghost band #ghost

[jackiietaylor]

unpopular stranger things opinions/hot takes 👀

omg thanks for sending this and giving me a reason to share my opinions 👀 this got really long because i have a lot to say apparently

first of all, i genuinely love and enjoy this show and that seems to be an unpopular opinion recently? like i was shocked when i logged on after watching volume 2 and everyone on my dash hated it because i loved it. and i love all the other seasons, too. yeah obviously there’s some parts i don’t like and things i would change but overall i still think it’s really good. but yeah mandatory “i do actually really like the show” before i start complaining about some things

s1 > s4 > s3 > s2

i don’t understand the obsession with character death. not as in i don’t understand why people don’t want characters to die but i don’t understand the constant need to talk about how characters are “definitely” going to die. no main character has been killed off throughout the whole show and yet pre-s4 no one would shut up about characters dying. also after the reaction to eddies death i think the duffers are gonna be too scared to kill anyone off lol

on the other hand, killing el off/not giving her a happy ending would be the single greatest mistake the show could make

el’s side plot in s2 is one of the highlights of the show for me. the lost sister will probably forever be my favorite episode of the show. ive never understood the hate it gets. im really hoping that kali comes back in s5 and helps fight vecna

el is the only Main character. there are obviously many other characters that are leads but she is ultimately the main character. the entire show revolves around her and her plot(s).

nancy has some of the best development in the entire show. ive seen so many people say she has no development outside of the love triangle and i find that so surprising because she’s changed soo much. her entire journey to wanting to be a reporter directly stems from her not being listened to and her desire to do something about barbs death. everything about her current character stems from that specific moment and we’ve seen throughout the seasons how that’s progressed and shaped her into and i think because of that development, she’s pretty much the only character with a defined ending (career as a journalist)

mike has done like one thing wrong in the entire show and im so unbelievably tired of people acting like he’s the villain. he’s a 14 year old who doesn’t know how to perfectly express himself sometimes. people need to leave him alone

steve & robin and el & max have the two best friendships on the entire show and anyone who says otherwise is wrong

hopper should’ve stayed dead. his death was perfectly written in s3 and reviving him brought nothing to the plot. it wasn’t even explained how he survived, he was just there. it wasn’t well thought out or well written, and overall it just wasnt necessary. they ruined what was ultimately a beautiful send off (the speech to end s3) for a cheap plot twist that had no payoff.

(also i don’t like hopper because he gave brenner el’s location in s1, fully intending that he would kidnap her again. it’s unforgivable regardless of what his reasoning was and i hate that it was never brought up ever again)

going off of that, the entire russia plot is the worst written part of the whole show. it could be scrapped entirely from s4 and the season would lose nothing

stranger things is blatantly obvious about what ships are gonna end up together at the end of the show

jancy is just a truly terrible ship all around. jonathan hiding in a bush to take pictures of nancy through a window while she was taking her clothes off is soo unbelievably creepy and unforgivable, and it’s terrible that it was just dropped with no consequences whatsoever for him. he doesn’t even actually apologize! he says he shouldnt have taken the picture, but when she asks him why he took it in the next episode he says it was just a nice picture and then starts lecturing her about how she’s gonna end up miserable like her mom?? they should’ve never got together after all that. and then there’s all the bullshit in s3 when he undermined the misogyny she was facing at work and didn’t believe her at all which just further proves that they shouldn’t be together! and then she forgot he existed for most of s4 anyway

i want nancy to end the show single so bad

robin/vickie sucks lol. stranger things is probably the only show that has me rooting against the lesbian character ending up in a relationship. vickie is sooo boring and has absolutely no personality! even suzie’s random family members got personalities in s4! im tired of being told to accept the bare minimum just because a show is adding a random throwaway gay character. vickie serves no purpose in the plot and id rather not waste the extremely limited time left in the show developing robins relationship with a complete nobody when her friendships with pre-existing characters should be the focus. also every single one of their scenes featured steve in some capacity which was very annoying

steve and nancy actually have such an interesting dynamic as characters but specifically as exes. personally, i do not think they should get back together, but i think what makes them interesting is why they shouldn’t be together. obviously their first breakup is because of their different reactions to barbs death. their relationship was never going to make it past that. barb died because nancy brought her to steves house, she died AT steves house, and died while nancy was alone with steve. there was never any coming from back that, not while nancy hadn’t processed her grief and especially not when steve was trying to convince her to forget about it and go to a party. but they’ve both grown as people since then, and they’re still not going to work. steve wants a big family, nancy is career-oriented to the point that she will do anything to succeed as a journalist. nancy doesn’t want the suburban, nuclear family life. they are fundamentally mismatched when it comes to what they want in life and i think exploring THAT aspect of their dynamic is so much more interesting than just shoving them back together

overall the show is so much more enjoyable when you don’t care about ships <3 please disregard everything i just said about the ships <3 but seriously the main focus of the show is not even remotely centered on the romantic relationships and watching the show without really caring about that aspect of things is way better

this isn’t a hot take about the show but more the fandom: a lot of the dynamics do not exist at all in the show the way some people think they do. most obvious example is el and will, who both are wayyyy closer to at least 3 other characters than they are to each other. this isn’t just limited to stranger things, it happens in most shows, especially ones with a found family element (ex. agents of shield) but people tend to forget what the dynamics actually are and then project their opinions onto the characters

semi-related and not really a hot take but if i had to choose underrated/non-existent dynamics to explore in s5, i would choose: lucas and el (connection to max), nancy and el (both on the show since s1 but have barely spoken, both the only people to know vecna’s full backstory firsthand), and nancy and mike (siblings who both probably think they’re only children at this point because they never interact with each other)

also related to fandom but it’s so clear that so many people either have not watched the show or just don’t anything remember what happens in the show when they post shit. and that’s way there’s sooo much mischaracterization everywhere

this show has way too many characters and it’s resulted in a lot of them having nothing to do for entire seasons. look at the california group from this season. they spent the entirety of episodes 5-8 driving around in a van with nothing to do. even joyce, who was one of the main main characters in earlier seasons, felt like she was just kinda there this season. part of it is the way they divide the plots, especially geographically this season, but the other part is just not having anywhere near enough time or plot spaces for all the characters. it’s unfortunately probably only gonna get worse in s5 because they have to somehow wrap up every characters individual plot in addition to the greater shows plot

and my hottest take is that will is severely overhyped sorry. he’s just not that interesting of a character and i really don’t understand that obsession with him? i mean he’s a fine character and he hasn’t really done anything wrong but there are so many other characters that are actually involved in the plot that i find way more interesting, relevant, and better written. like he was barely in s1, s2 was more about things happening to him than him actually doing anything, and s3 and s4 he didn’t do anything. hopefully s5 will give him something interesting to do but for now i just don’t see it

#this is so long oops #some of these are probably more unpopular than others idk #moonlayl #answered

[radroller]

I finished Ginga…and Ginga S!

I wanted to look at both of these series as a package deal, partially because that’s what they are, but also because i find how they both serve as testing grounds for the New Generation Ultraman seasons in various ways.

Ginga has turned out to be one of my favorite Ultras for how unique it is. It trades the usual Tokyo skyline for a rustic environment. There’s no defense force, most villains of the week are humans that have been manipulated, and the story focuses on a group of friends reuniting at their run down school out in the sticks. It’s such an intimate little setup i can’t resist, even if it was likely a byproduct of the main thing the show is infamous for. Ginga had a low budget and you really start to feel it after a bit, and at first i was a little nervous about this. Im definitely not picky about that sort of thing but i was afraid that might color my judgment given how used i was to the standards set by 2010s Ultra seasons. And i can safely say that if you are at all apprehensive about Ginga for this reason, don’t be. The combination of the show’s amazing cast and superb direction really made the most of what they were able to do. And i wouldnt want it any other way. It may not have various tropes and iconography you associate with Ultraman, but even so it gets to the heart of what the series is all about, humans overcoming their selfishness and despair to reach their full potential and rise up and build a brighter future. Also Taro is there and you will love hi.

I assume Ginga was a success because by the time Ginga S came out it was clear Tsupro was much more willing to give them money to work with. All new sets, props, a defense force with various vehicles (part of a deal with Nissan i believe), the BEST city miniatures the series had ever seen, it’s all the stuff Ginga dreamed of having even if it didnt exactly need them. You could say S is a sort of victory lap for Ginga (no pun intended) and that’s kinda what i see it as. Because despite all of this i don’t quite like it as much as OG Ginga. It’s a perfectly solid Ultraman series, it’s just that Ginga gave me something I didn’t really know i needed. But that still makes it an 8/10 as opposed to Ginga’s 9/10, it’s not that huge of a difference and if you enjoyed Ginga you should definitely check out Ginga S to see all that it has going for it. Hikaru’s back, and while all of his friends from the first series reappear in some capacity, S gives us a whole slew of new characters to enjoy. This is the strongest thing about the show i feel, as new deuteragonist Ultraman Victory aka Sho, the UPG staff, and villainous android One Zero make for a fun circle of folks with fun dynamics. To say nothing of the fun one-off characters we get, this shit had me upset over fucking Gan Q. I think the only objective flaw with Ginga S to me is that most of the new villains aren’t all that interesting. This is remedied somewhat by a couple of things but i don’t wanna get into the details. The other thing, and this more of a personal issue, is how regrettably short it is. It’s paced perfectly for being a shorter season but i was left wanting more of all these characters and stuff! Which is funny because it’s actually longer than original Ginga. It’s like the bigger budget made me want it to stick around more while Ginga’s more modest resources kept them from overextending themselves. After that though Ultra would opt for 26 episode seasons, which i think is a perfect length. Again though this is just a personal thought, watch Ginga S and enjoy yourself!

I hope you enjoy Ginga and Ginga S as much as i have. I honestly thing Ginga is a good intro to Ultra, though some may disagree, and Orb remains my own go-to recc so take that as you will. But regardless i absolutely enjoyed my time with it and was pleasantly surprised by just how much i liked the whole thing.

#stephen watches ginga s #stephen watches ginga #ultraman ginga s #ultraman ginga

[celestequeenofheartz]

I think many people take Taekos execution as "ok she wanted to burn so instead they hit her with a truck" so jus explaining into more detail but I don't actually have a brain

First thing im clearing up is "she didn't struggle", she did actually struggle, though it's not seen as visibly as much as the other executions she did regardless. In the scene where it zooms up on her face smiling you can see the rope tied around her hands more clearly, theres also the way it was pixelated. It used the Monokuma dragging her thingy-ma-jiggy instead of her walking with Monokuma like Junko.

(This one is mainly a theory) The second/first thing/theory I'm clearing is "She got hit by a truck because she wanted to burn". Which is semi-true I think, but not at the most part. In the third trial, her name is revealed as 'Taeko Yasuhiro'. I'm pretty sure the reason she's so sensitive about it is because she was seen as some average high school gambler (which she clearly isn't i mean omggg she's literally what I thought my wall saw me as). Anyways, her wish was likely to be burned, given her attitude and everything else as, and she literally looked liked a witch in general ngl. So instead of burning like she wanted to, and to make her feel like the Celestia Ludenburg she really is, they hit her with a truck (a firetruck mainly to get her hopes up) which millions and thousands people die from commonly, to remind her that she just is Taeko Yasuhiro and will always be nothing but a commoner. The signs that pop up behind her say "HELP!!HELP!!THERES FIRE!!!HELP!!HELP!!HELP!!HELP!!" which were likely to either mock her, make her see how much she only cared about herself, or that she's just the average scholar people don't care to acknowledge. But in the moment, it was probably her thoughts, in the anime before she got executed two of her sentences were; "I imagine deep down I'm absolutely paralyzed with fear." and "I'm so good at deceiving others that deceiving myself is childs play." so it could show out that she really was frightened.

okok third/second thing. Her surroundings and some random details in her execution, this is sum I'm pretty sure the fandom takes most as granted. The castle behind her is the European castle she dreamed to be in, another reminder that she didn't, and never will, get her dream. The bunny on top of the set is a detail in her beta design, which was her holding the rabbit and on her head instead of white ribbons, they were red. Anyways, onto the name of the execution and why her fake accent was french. The one she wanted to be reincarnated as was Marie Antoinette, who once was the queen of France. Once she was found guilty of treason back in 1793, she was led her to execution of the guillotine. She was described as a 'bold, social butterfly who loved gambling" which is quite similar to Celeste. She lived in the Palace of Versailles as the Queen, which gave Celestes execution name 'The Burning Of The Versailles Witch'. And Marie's house at once was 'Habsburg-Lorraine' which kinda reminded me of Celestes false name for some reason

anyways so uhm, her whole execution is just a load of despair which was actually really sad sense you could also see the despair and fear and her eyes. and she wouldn't have gotten her dream even if she did win her trial bc the world was post apocalyptic 😢. . . . . . . (a lot of this has already been figured out so some of it may seem 'copyrighted' of some sort, I do apologize for that. I'm also not a weeb nor a gambler 😡 and refuse to go that deep into knowledge of her, I do however know there is a few anime references towards her 😋 you may see this change ever so often because my pea brain can just take in so much when it comes to characters oh so stunning)

#celestia ludenberg #celeste #celeste ludenberg #marie antoinette #reincarnation #burn the witch #danganronpa #trigger happy havoc #danganronpa v1 #execution #explanation #despair #burning #this girl is on fire #ultimate #hopes peak academy #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #i have no idea #my iq is thirty #fan theories #theories #not smart #i love her #ultimate gambler #ultimate waifu #gambler #gamble #headcanon lesbian #beta designs #witch

[silverxcristal]

I'm completely out of the loop here, what did Rebornica do?

I have tried to look for a document that contains information regardless what happened, because I just have one memory attached to fnaf that was... not great, but there were apparently many other things that happened outside of tumblr later on. There used to be a lot of documents with that info but it had been deleted, and the few i found are edited by the autors saying that they have cleared things up and are on a good light with them again, asking to not harrass and just ignore them if needed.

TW under cut for abuse manipulation gaslighting and suicide attempt

But escencially, there were claims of phycological abuse, racism, gaslighting, scamming people, and other things i dont remember clearly. Toxic behaivor in general towards people who were closer to them, and to a extension to their followers, but again most of it had been deleted or "cleared up" so I am uncertain of the current situation. Also most of this happened when they already deleted their Tumblr, or happened on other platforms where I did not follow anymore

The only "close" experience ive had and have seen with my own eyes was when they transfer their fnaf au to a friend not be associated with it anymore, allowing people to still enjoy it and make content of it but asking to not @ them anymore about it (they left the fandom due pressure and lowkey harrasment over everything they did, when you are big people try to take you down, same old story different fandom. I have to remark they were a minor at that time too so the mistakes and the pressure is mmmm [still doesnt justify the shitty actions im about to mention now])

A few months later they snapped after getting fanart of a character they have and being called Vincent rahter than Vinny (they took the guard designs and adapt them into ocs, which confuse some people who didnt knew and this happened) and begin to search in the main tag for art of their au and @ people who still drew art of it (even when they previously gave permission to keep making art), and send people to harrass them to stop, which lead to a few rebrands or deactivations and people coming directly at them to them to talk things in a more civilized way via asks and reblogs (tumblr chat didnt exist back then).

I remember it was a big discussion about "public domain" of the AU since they transfer the rights to somebody else, who later "drop" the AU and allow anybody to be free to make content out of it (from there a bunch of "insprired by reborniverse" aus pop up... including mine. Just dont claim it as yours). It all ended in a big discussion reblog thread where they threaten to kill themselves by jumping of a roof and provide photos of them about to do it

The blog wasnt updated for a few hours... then they delete everything that happened that day and act like nothing happened. This is behaivor that repeat a few times here on tumblr (the whole delete it all and act like it never happened), but there is not enough documentation (there were blogs that dedicated to reblog every single post they made for documentation for this same reason, but they are gone too)

It was so many years ago, and my memory could be failing too so apologizes

But escencially that, I cant provide more

#ask #heavy themes... im not feeling comfortable #sorry for sharing. i might delete it all tomorrow

[starseed-awakening]

I have a lot of thoughts about queendom 2 and Im just going to do my best to articulate it here. I was going to post a cute little thing in the youtube comments for the Pose stage, but that stage is currently region locked so here we go.

First things first, I am really sad that LOONA didn't win. They worked so hard and they've been through so much and they really deserve the best. It's especially disappointing because, as everyone on twitter already mentioned, if they had participated in round 1 and gotten points for that stage, they probably would have won. They caught a highly contagious virus when cases were at an all time high and mnet didnt think to have a reasonable contingency plan and just gave then zero points for round 1. Like something like this was pound to happen. But it is what is is I guess.

Orbits who voted and streamed, you all should give yourself a pat on the back. We all worked hard and really gave it our all. There was nothing more we could have done. For any possible points that was within our control, we did the best we could have possibly done. They were in the top 3 for both round 2 and 3 and even won the dance unit part of round 3. They were #1 in digitals, youtube views+ fans choice, an #1 in live votes. Literally the gap was less than 4,000. They were so close. And for that I am also soooo proud of them. They went from being in last place with literally 0 points in round 1 to being the runner-up.

And honestly, I am so happy the had a chance to participate on Queendom. Those stages from the show are going to be a legendary and iconic part of LOONA/orbit history. They really did blow me away with every performance they put up. Every round they did something different and they nailed it every time. Seeing them work behind the scenes has made me more in awe of them. These girls are dedicated to their craft in a way that not every idol group can say. These girls were meant to be performers and there is no way you can ever deny that.

Regardless of the results, there are people who came to know LOONA and become orbits through this show. The girls bounded with the other contestants and made new friends. And I know that there are many good things to come for the girls. We have a comeback that is expected to drop sometime this month. There is an upcoming US tour in August and I won't be surprised if they add in more dates for other parts of the world as well. These girls are destined for greatness and nothing will ever change that.

#this was so much longer than I anticipated #dont mind any spelling or grammar errors please #just thinking #loona #queendom 2 #kpop

[thisdreamplace]

i’m the laser hair removal anon. that would be a cool anon name LMAO. i can’t say this must be it about the laser hair removal, because it’s not. 😭😭😭 i do not have enough money to pay for the rest of the pay afterwards. i can’t do it bc i can’t pay the monthly fee afterwards. and the reason i say that about the job is because that is nowhere near what would have me at peace in my life. at least not the jobs im being forced into. and even then, i have applied to multiple jobs. it’s not me being crazy but it’s me being real as in, girl i’ve did everything i could in the 3d so idk if it’s going to work but we’re going for it. like i don want to lie to myself, idk what’s going on rn, even if it is my life. 💀 i just know i have a vision i go towards and i keep going regardless of the bs but it is tiring. and it’s cool that you and other people can see the good in their life. but sometimes people have a life where everything truly is falling before them so i also can’t be one of those people to say “oh i see the love in life”. i don’t think everyone will feel that is the way to go for them. idk. ig i still need to find out what will actually pull shit together for me. thank you so much for allowing a space for venting. i was literally blowing up on the inside. 💀

i am so sorry i misinterpreted and misunderstood you so much in ur ask !! omg. i truly and deeply apologize. i’m sorry if it came off like i was minimizing anything you shared at all. thank you for feeling this is a safe place to rant, and i’m glad you got it out. <3

i do want to mention that, i truly hope it doesnt come off that everything is so easy for me and has always flowed so easily in my life. its extremely important to be that i am transparent and honest on this blog and true to my journey. i’ve never tried to make it seem like everything has been great and easy. ever since learning the law, i have seen some of my most darkest days with my mental health as well as have watched my life crumble to rock bottom several times. the only reason i am where i am now is because it finally became too painful to keep enduring. so i let go, and chose to shift my perspective even though life gave me no reason to do so. i always want to be honest about what i’ve gone through, so that i may reach people who feel alone when the journey isn’t as smooth as they thought it would be. thats v important to me. and of course, i can only express myself and help others from my lived experience. and it may not be for everyone, but i can only stay authentic to my truth.

i truly hope you find your way, whatever it may be ! of course, this life is a journey and eventually you’ll find yourself more in tune with what works for you. <3