#iss mental illness innit

[cemetery-walks]

i feel like the mental illness shrimp colours could apply to. a lot of fictional robots also. like what the fuck is wrong with these guys. i don't know. i don't think they really know either! they got the-- thehth thehehe shrimp colours!!!

-💡

FORREAL LIKE BUDDY I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY U ARE ACTING OUT AND TRYING TO EXTERMINATE HUMANITY ISS MENTOL ILLNESS INNIT GO RIGHT AHEAD

[threecheersfordeadpoets]

inside my brain like [those are youve got some nice shoulders id like to put my arms around them if you stay i would even wait all night or until my heart explodes im sick of meaning i just wanna hold you i dont know what to do without you i dont know where to put my hands you can run away with me anytime you want i got so fucking romantic i apologize one word from you and i would jump off of this ledge im on baby]

#i think this post is incomprehensible but i hope not #car seat headrest #my chemical romance #mitski #iss mental illness innit

[purposelessbreather]

another small rant

i finshed my Rita (2 boxes w 30 pills each) in 2 weeks, no joke, so now i have to go 2 weeks without till i can refill my prescription

meanwhile i'm also in SSRI withdrawal and I have a terrible headache

and I can't do crap without pep pills JHEBSHJZBA

#depression #anxiety #pep pills #ritalin #add #adhd #addiction #im losing my mind #help #mental health #ILL #iss mental illness innit

[arguablysomaya]

thinking about this tiktok i saw about being stably unstable and someone said "i may be on the edge but i have a house there" and. wow. yeah

#me trying desperately to conquer executive disfunction to pull my stats grade out of the toilet #shut up somaya #mental illness #iss mental innit #adhd

[pinkfilm]

spiraling because i don’t know how to be easier to love! also i may be hormonal but i literally need to gonegirl right now

#logged #iss mental illness innit!

[kinktae]

Ok so that last ask gave me courage to show you my own fan art I’ve been sitting on forever. I present a shittily drawn Hoseok n Eva form the Groovy universe. And yeaaaa I made this blog just to send this to u bc I have hella anxiety lmaoooo *iss mental illness innit luv* anyways , enjoy!

#THE GASP I JUST CUCKING #LET OUT #AR EU UFK ING KSISING #I CANG BELEAGFR MY FOLLOWERS R SO TALENTED #AND EVA AND HOSEOK?? #I WOULD HAVE NEVER DREAM IN A MILLIOB YEARS ANYONE WOILD EVER (ʃ⌣́_⌣́ƪ) TO RAAW THEM #I COULD CRY #I LOVE THIS AND U SO MUCH #WTF #fanart #submission #my fanart folder on my phone getting so much action lately wtf

[growingupinvisible]

Iss mental illness innit?

[several-very-small-eggs]

Or maybe

Iss mental illness innit

#i think that's from a vine or smth #vent #I'm just frustrated at the situation rn #i need to shower but i don't have any clean clothes to change into #and if i just get back into my dirty ones I'll still smell #and my dad is constantly pointing out when i smell bad like we know and we're working on it #and the worst part is when I've just gotten used to my room smell and don't notice it #hhhhh i can't give him actual rules about whether or not to point it out or w/e #because im so inconsistent about it like #sometimes I'll notice/realise/know things and sometimes i don't and i have no idea what causes either #and someone else pointing out something that my brain perceives as a personal failing makes it really hard for me to actually get help #because asking for help is admitting failure and I'm Not Allowee To Fail #gifted kid syndrome anyone? #hmmmm wonder if that's why my greatest fear is making an unfixable mistake #because I wasn't taught how to properly handle failure + rejection sensitivity issues = horribly exacerbated anxiety #anyway the point is that I'm currently hiding in my stinky stinky bed trying to delay the inevitable shame #and dreading my dad coming in to ask about shopping today #and in writing this out ive half realized #i could do laundry #but the washer is only half full rn and i don't know the protocol for a half load of laundry #and if i do full load settings then it's Wasteful #and it was drilled into my head from a young age to not Be Wasteful because we're Poor #but.... hhhh I'm remembering a comic but i don't remember the context i think it was writing? or finishing projects idk #but one of the bits of advice was 'remove secret rules' and those are a big problem with me #and most of the time i don't even notice them #i think it stems from perfectionist tendencies #like 'if i can't do something perfectly i can't do it at all' #that comes from school stuff im p sure #but now it means i just have to remind myself that half-ass is better than no-ass #I'm gonna go do laundry now and be wasteful

[saintlaurentproblems]

maybe shes born with it or maybe just maybe iss mental illness luv innit?

Oh

#answered

[purposelessbreather]

had been 120 days clean of sh

relapsed

now clean for 2 weeks

it’s part of the process, and it’s not easy

#depression #sh #depressing shit #mental illness #addiction #getting clean #it’s okay #anxiety #mental heath awareness #iss mental illness innit