#is that funny i can’t think of anything better

[in1-nutshell]

Being Noah's twin and knowing the Autobot's before him

SFW, Platonic, Familial, Human reader

ROTB

Buddy is Noah’s younger twin.

It all happened a couple years ago while Buddy was still in high school.

Noah had been going on and on about the army engineering program and the places he would go.

Buddy was close to shoving their hot dog in his mouth.

They knew with him leaving, things at home weren’t going to be the same and with no Noah at home…

It didn’t seem right at all.

They don’t know why they did it, but that night they snuck out of the small apartment and walked out.

Maybe they needed to get their head straight and accept that Noah was leaving.

Buddy didn’t know how long they were walking for, but soon enough they reached the docks.

It wasn’t too far from home, but far enough to warrant them to turn back and go home.

That was until they heard a whirling sound that sounded suspiciously like whining.

They tried to go back but the whirling sound grew a bit louder and more pitiful.

Despite their better judgement, they went to the noise.

Buddy couldn’t believe their eyes…

Maybe they finally snapped from the stress of finals.

A yellow robot clutching his ‘knee’ was making the whirling sound while two other robots were around him.

They looked concerned and tried to help Yellow.

Buddy took a step backwards and stepped on some loud bubble wrap.

Pink and Blue take out their weapons and point in the direction of the sound,

“Show yourself!”--Blue

Buddy shakingly steps out of their hiding place with their hands raised above their head.

All four of them stared at each other.

“…Hi?...”--Buddy

Buddy internally screaming at that response.

“Great, a human. Prime’s not going to like this…”--Pink

“I heard someone in pain and came to see…”--Buddy

“Yeah we’re fine—”--Blue

Yellow whirls in pain as some sparks come out of his knee.

Buddy looks at Yellow sympathetically.

“I’ve got a tool kit with me. I can try and see what’s wrong with your friend. I promise I won’t do anything funny!”--Buddy

Pink looks like she wants to retaliate, but Blue puts a hand out to stop Pink.

“Maybe squishy over here can see something we can’t. It doesn’t hurt to try.”—Blue

Pink finally steps aside with Blue.

“…Fine.”—Pink

Buddy slowly walked over to the bot’s sparking knee and took out their mini tool kit.

They used a flashlight and began their look.

A long twig stuck between some of the joints, that must have been the problem.

With a swift yank Buddy got the twig out of the joint.

They nearly cracked their skull but pink and blue both break their fall.

Buddy held up the twig in victory as yellow moved its knee much easier and without sparks.

“Ha! Got it!”--Buddy

“You did?”--Pink

Yellow beeps happily and gently pat Buddy’s head.

“Thank you darling—the pain—hurting like a—”--Yellow

“Got it! You’re welcome… umm do you guys have names?”--Buddy

“My--name is—Bumblebee.”--Bumblebee

Buddy smiles at the yellow bot.

“The names Mirage squishy.”--Mirage

“I am Arcee.”--Arcee

Buddy smiles.

“I’m Buddy. If you don’t mind, but what are you guys?”--Buddy

“Umm… I think its better to take you to the boss bot for that.”--Mirage

“Boss?”--Buddy

“Don’t worry we ain’t gonna eat ya or anything. We’re kinda like E.T!”--Mirage

Buddy deadpans.

Bee transforms into his alt mode.

“… E.T. never did this…”--Buddy

Optimus was not exactly happy to have been discovered by humans… but this one did help Bumblebee…

He decided to give this one the benefit of the doubt.

Over the next couple of years Buddy would start sneaking out and showing the bots Earth and the city while they shared their mission and their ways as well.

Buddy and Arcee, after the brief tension, were often seen driving around the backways on her alt mode talking about the city and its history.

Buddy and Arcee driving by a section of the docks.

“What about this place?”--Arcee

“Don’t know too much about this part, except the time me and Kris found 10 bucks and a pizza rat.”--Buddy

“What’s a rat.”--Arcee

Buddy and Mirage enjoy the little speedy joyrides around the city and a good game of ‘which hologram is mirage’ in the more secluded hiding places.

Buddy looks at the four holograms of Mirage.

“Eenie meanie minie…gotcha!”--Buddy

Buddy tries to tackle ‘Mirages’ pede but passes through.

“Ha! Try again Buddy!”--Mirage

Mirage picks up Buddy from the back of their shirt and stands them up.

“Best out of 25?”—Mirage

Buddy smiles as they brush off some dust from their clothes.

“You’re on!”--Buddy

Buddy and Bumblebee like to go out to the drive-in movie theaters, joyrides and stories from their lives before they knew each other.

“So, you came to earth before everyone? Even Boss bot?”--Buddy

“Yes!”--Bumblebee

“And this Charlie girl? She’s your friend?”--Buddy

“She was—my first—friend.”--Bumblebee

“You gotta take me to this Charlie so I can thank her for taking care of you.”--Buddy

Bee whirls happily.

“Ooh! The movies about to start!”--Buddy

In starts the ‘Terminator’ movie.

Optimus reminded Buddy a lot of Noah.

Older brother’s trying to protect their families, while also being the most stubborn beings in existence.

That must have been a reason why Buddy understood how Prime worked and got along with him so well.

Priem isn’t attached to a human.

No, he is not…

So, what he drove a couple miles to pick them up from a party when their brother couldn’t.

So, what if they let him rant about the war and they would rant about school and their family.

He isn’t attached or anything…

Buddy hurriedly climbs into Prime cab sniffling.

“Buddy? Buddy what happened?”--Optimus

Buddy curls up in their seat making themselves as small as possible.

“…Buddy? Are you all right?”--Optimus

Buddy sniffs.

“Noah… Noah and I had a fight and—and—I just need a moment Optimus…”--Buddy

Optimus wraps the seatbelt around Buddy loosely, the best way he could give a hug them.

“Take your time Buddy, I’m here.”—Optimus

Optimus plays Buddy’s favorite radio station.

“I’m here…”--Optimus

The day that Noah comes in Buddy was with Optimus and nearly begged him to not transform as their secret would be let out.

It was let out regardless.

Noah is just stunned that Buddy knew about the aliens for years!?

He wants an explanation.

“HOW!?”--Noah

“Listen, I can explain!”--Buddy

“You better!”--Noah

“Calm down, Noah it’s all fine.”--Mirage

“You don’t get to talk, you kidnapped me!”--Noah

“And you were trying to steal me.”--Mirage

“I’m sorry you were trying to steal him?!”--Buddy

#transformers x reader #maccadam #human buddy #rotb x platonic reader #rotb x reader

[inkedroplets]

WIP Wednesday Friday

thank you so much @sideguitars and @eqt-95 for the tag Here's an excerpt from the last Chapter of Rich Girl that should be out shortly if work stops occupying every moment of free time.

Kara stared up at the hologram. At Lena. Before she could stop herself she reached out as if it was something she could touch. Her fingertips passed through it and she drew her hand back as quickly as if she had been burned. She stood up on legs as shaky as a newborn foal. Her eyes roamed the hologram’s face with a desperate kind of greed.

Lena’s hologram fidgeted, almost appearing to waffle under Kara’s intense scrutiny. Not that such a thing was possible. The real Lena, the one who would likely blush under the intensity of her gaze was still lying in the operating room. This Lena before her was something else entirely. A recording. A memory. “Hello, Kara.” Lena’s hologram smiled wryly. “If you ever watch this… If you are watching this, it means something has happened to me…” She considered this particular turn of phrase incredibly carefully, lips pursed as she did so. “It means that I’m no longer around…” Again she seemed to ponder her choice of words very carefully, lips pushed together in a tight line that was not quite a frown. She must have found the right words because her smile returned, weak and shivery like moonlight glimpsed through a scrim of clouds. “If you’ve already heard, already know that I've died, you don’t know what really happened. You don’t know the truth and I think you deserve to hear it.”

Kara took in breath in a series of shuddering gasps as tears slipped down her face. She brushed them away, shaking her head so strongly it dislodged a few tears. They glittered like tiny jewels as they fell.

"After what I planned to do with Myriad, what I did to you in the Fortress… Trapping you there… leaving you…" Lena's hologram closed their eyes tight. From the way her shoulders began to quiver, Kara thought she might begin to cry but when Lena opened her eyes again, no tears fell. "I knew,” she said and each word seemed to cause her pain, “I could no longer trust myself. How could I when I had deluded myself into pursuing something so terrible? Realizing how easy it was for me to justify myself again and again when I had misgivings. And hurting you like I did…” Her voice tapered off and her eyes closed as she took a deep breath. “No better than Lex,” she said and the revulsion on her face momentarily twisted her features into a moue of self-loathing. 

“So I scuttled every one of my projects at L-Corp. Put them on indefinite hold until I could be sure that I wouldn't misuse them. I told myself it was a temporary measure.” She flashed a rueful smile and shook her head slowly.  “But with nothing for me to do but dwell on everything that had happened, everything I’d done, I was drowning,” she said with a solemn finality that broke Kara’s heart.

"I hardly ever left my office. I wasn't sleeping and I was drinking too much. I knew things couldn’t continue that way much longer but I was afraid.” She smiled sadly. “I still wanted to do good but I wasn’t sure if I could be good.” She tilted her head sideways as if to say do you understand the difference? Kara thought she did. 

“I’m a Luthor, after all,” she said in a tired monotone, that of a person who has been forced to  retell a joke they didn’t find very funny the first time around. A ghost of a smile touched her lips. “Most people think that we’re incapable of being anything in the ballpark of good and after what I did, I can’t say I blame them. When I used to hear people whisper about me behind my back, or when they’d tell me to my face how much they despised me, how I wasn’t fooling anyone, I took most of it in stride. All the more fun to prove them wrong, I thought.” She laughed, although there wasn’t a shred of humor in her voice as she did so. “But not all of it,” Lena admitted, dropping her voice to a low whisper, looking ashamed to say so out loud. “At times it could be so exhausting. Tolerated but never trusted.  Having people not just expect the worst from me but to see them almost want to see it happen. Like the concept of a good Luthor was an offense to their reality. It always felt so unfair because I knew if I was someone else, anyone else it would be different. I found myself thinking about that a lot while I was holed up in my office. I think maybe that’s how I got the idea in the first place. Or at least the first domino… I’m getting ahead of myself,” she said, veering away from whatever she had been about to say, although Kara was fairly certain she already knew, even if she didn’t quite understand. 

“On one  of the rare nights I actually went home, I happened to turn on the news.” She shrugged. “Just something to have on in the background. I was only half-listening, at first but something caught my attention. A hostage situation in Gotham. A bank robbery went awry and they took some of the staff hostage. Negotiations with the police had broken down and with the way the reporters were pushed right up against the barricades, I think they knew instinctively that whatever the outcome, good or bad, it was going to happen soon.” She worked her mouth around as if something bitter had been forced upon her. “That was what got my full attention. Some of the reporters looked as if they were hoping things might turn out bad.” 

Anger momentarily darkened her face. “It was the same look people would sometimes give me. Hoping I’d finally show my true colors and unveil the death ray I had been building under L-Corp.” She chuckled humorlessly. “I didn’t want their bad faith rewarded so I said a little prayer to whoever might be listening; that the hostages all get out safely." She laughed again. Only this time it was the genuine article. “And then there he was, just in the nick of time, as if he had arrived to answer my prayers. Batman,” she said and there was an unmistakable hint of amusement in her voice. “A few moments later, the hostages came spilling out the doors and I couldn’t help but smile. It was the first time I had done that in weeks.”

I never know who to tag in these and when I do I feel like I'm bothering people but if you feel like sharing: @trashpandato @sazernac @theredcapeofk

#my writing #I never know what snippets work best on their own #or how to avoid some spoilers #wip #tag game

[tyresdeg]

#rom com lead lookin bitch #🥰🥰🥰🥰 #alexander rossi #indycar #from kelly’s ig #* #pretty fly for a white guy #?? #is that funny i can’t think of anything better

[why-the-heck-not]

my thesis advisor asking me to send them my current draft, and me suddenly realizing I somehow haven’t written a single fucking sentence in 2 weeks, dudes it’s a pr nightmare (been hella unproductive the past weeks idk what tf happened)

#(I’ve been watching mike’s mic and ’’it’s a pr crisis’’ abt anything embarrassing happening is so funny to me) #what do I say lol #should just be honest bc what else is there to do but lord I don’t want to #but like can’t get like couple pages out today I have other things to get done #I think I’ll promise to send it like by the end of the week and mf haul ass starting from thursday #idk everybody does their bachelor’s thesis during like the last 2 weeks that’s just how it is and I’m just following the footprint #blueprint* 😔 is what I meant and I’m on the mobile app cant edit tags #anyways I’ll respond by tonight I need to think and maybe try to pull together a page or two #so I could be like ’’havent done much I’ll send a better version by the end of this week but here’s the current one anyways in case’’ #ba thesis struggle diary #april 2024 #2024

[canon-gabriel-quotes]

https://clips.twitch.tv/SpicySteamyMosquitoPMSTwin-Dclmm6BUKX9SyW0b

he cant keep getting away with it

wtf post bot clarity already got a sequel

#brain cells reset #the Bible. #sometimes it be like that #the b in bussy stands for bot. thank you. #the clip i posted isnt from a recent stream its just funny that i posted it and a week later he does it again #now i have to think of a better title uuhhhh ahhhhh uhhh #if I can’t think of anything it will just be post bot clarity 2 #non voice post #ask #asks

[welcometotheravenclawcommonroom]

My dad all year: fairly secular like the rest of us, doesn’t keep kosher, doesn’t really observe Shabbat, the occasional temple service.

My dad on Yom Kippur: *putting on a kippah* hello family yes I am fasting and don’t ask me money questions. I am now extremely devout for the next 24 hours

#mod des #😂😂😂 #not super religious jews on Yom Kippur be like #ah shit I better set this year up right #like bruh if G-d is real he can definitely see you eating that bacon and sinning the rest of the year😂 #no judgement tho I just think it’s funny how my dad without fail every year #finds G-d but only on the high holidays 😂 #I try to do Shabbat every Friday night just as a comforting ritual because I’m pretty agnostic #and I host picnics for all the holidays except this year for new years stuff I’ve just been so busy with the new semester #and a new apartment #and there was a wedding that we got back from late Friday so I couldn’t plan anything for Rosh Hashanah #but anyway my dad does like the whatever the Jewish version of Pascal’s wager is but only on holidays 😂 #I can’t fast for medical reasons even if I wanted to tho lmao

[grmpgm]

ok executive dysfunction is kind of ruining my life actually

#i have an incredibly time-consuming project i NEED to finish and i genuinely don’t know if i can #i’ve started which is good but i’m horrifically behind where i need to be and i’m just so overwhelmed #i technically have enough time to finish it i think? but it’s my final project so i literally cannot miss this deadline #my professor is really cool + likes me but it’s already been so long w/out me bringing it up #and wtf am i supposed to say? yeah. i WANTED to work on it. i just chose not to????? like wtf #it’s just so humiliating and i’m so behind i don’t know wtf i’m gonna do #it’s worse bc it’s an animation and it’s gg related and i really really wanted this to be good and i wanted things to be different this time #kind of funny bc i’m actually mid getting an adhd diagnosis rn but it’s just so fucking awful because i do this constantly #it fucking sucks so much i feel so helpless and i don’t know wtf is wrong with me. i’m so tired of letting everyone down constantly #it’s so bad rn i literally cannot do anything. it’s humiliating like WHY can’t i just be a functional normal person #it fucking SUCKS because i KNOW if i had any self control or work ethic whatsoever i could be really fucking successful but i don’t. #so i won’t be i guess. #and i KNOW it’s tied into a bunch of different stuff too but like gd i DO NOT care i just want to be functional #worst case scenario i have an A in the class so if i completely blow it i’ll at least pass? hopefully? #i might be able to talk my prof into an extended deadline but it’s so embarrassing bc i didn’t need one in the first place. #i have literally no excuses #it just makes me so upset because i just keep doing this over and over and i don’t know how to stop it or how to get better #and LOL sorry for posting this here i just feel weird talking to anyone personally about this (+ currently avoiding responding to messages!) #it’s just like. man if i can’t get a fucking grip i will literally waste my entire life. Oh Well! LOL

[the-raging-tempest]

💎💎💎for agria and zrise maybe?

For a brief moment you see a ghost of a smile on Zrise’s face, before he catches himself and he rolls his eyes, “Spitfire. There’s a reason I call her that.” He sighs displeased to be answering, “She’s hard to describe. Both charming and incredibly annoying. It sounds contradictory but it’s not.” Ending the sentence flat and matter of factly. Almost in defiance of the question.

He waits a beat before continuing glancing off to the left. Attempting to sound as indifferent as possible, “We have some things in common. I guess...” He covers the beginning of a laugh with a cough, “She’s irritatingly stubborn.”

Zrise fidgets scratching the back of of his head. As if admitting this part hurts his pride, “If there’s anyone who can both drive me completely insane and challenge me to do better… it’d be Agria.”

#oc: zrise #friend oc: agria #to me they are divorced and also rivals forever #ask game answers #pwotr pals #kick his ass #the anime rival energy #anything you can do I can do better #also my answers will be a bit slowly but I do be working on them #told myself I’d go to bed at a normal time but it’s 2:11 am #LMAO #to me Zrise can’t be honest also he gets so mad when he has to talk about people he likes #HAHA #not his weaknesses #also in my mind he thinks it’s funny and would annoy her to compare himself to her

[the-casbah-way]

i feel like everyone is going to eventually get annoyed at me for still being sad about simba or still talking about it but posting abt it is easier than telling someone because i don’t know how to do that and i’d rather be annoying here where people can scroll past and ignore it and not feel obligated to reply

#i don’t even have anything to say i’m just sad #i keep being fine for a while because it doesn’t feel real #and then i remember i never get to take another picture of him or play with him again #i wish i’d gotten a video of him meowing he had such a funny meow i wish you could hear it #i get so sad thinking about him when he was a baby and how he didn’t know it would end up like this #and then thinking that’s dumb because cats do not understand their own mortality anyway #i hope he wasn’t in pain when he died i hope he didn’t feel alone or scared #i wish more than anything that someone had been with him when he died. he was all alone #he should’ve been inside he should’ve been safe he should’ve been looked after properly #there’s no point getting angry at the people who neglected him. they can’t hurt him anymore anyway #but i just wish he got what he deserved he deserved so much better. i hope he knows how much everyone loves him #and that i won’t stop loving him just because he’s not here #he was only a baby he was only two. he should’ve lived for so much longer #again i am sorry for being annoying but i am not coping with this and i feel rlly fucking stupid for being this sad #simba

[itspileofgoodthings]

as the anti-Helen of Troy my mission is to make the space where men are not something that can be so Fun and Safe.

#at the end of the day #it’s not the pining for the husband that gets me #it’s the missing the other girls when they begin to be romantical #(I know that isn’t a word) #(I mean it IS okay they always come back around and also it’s necessary) #but sometimes I do really know that my mission/ministry/jobs (that’s lofty language but…) #is to keep the feminine-specific place warm for the girls who don’t have anybody yet/for the girls who have someone to come in and out of #and like. i feel it so strongly that I can make it just as fun. and that I can make it something that is so safe #and I want to do that #like. the protectiveness I feel of the female heart #i can’t explain it but it is SO powerful. i am so protective of it #and I love men. and I love to think on the good ones and reflect and appreciate #but it’s not my ministry to do anything with them except teach them #until/if there is a husband #and it’s just like. he better be such a funny icon. because no way I’m letting anybody else into the rose garden space of the just for girls #actually he wouldn’t be allowed into that space either. but I’d come out occasionally just for him. and then start sort of a joint-garden #with him. #because tbh he should be someone who is taking care of men/leading them etc. #making them run the bleachers of life. till the earth etc. etc. etc. #and yes that is a Coach Taylor reference but that’s why I love him!!! #and that’s why he’s my husband #the ultimate complementary ministries #but like. he would KNOW on some level that my first loyalty is always to Women #in the sense of my work. but then he’d be my husband #Maria literally stop doodling on the whiteboard of life again challenge #but actually I won’t because it’s safe to do it here. i can’t say ALL of these things in person #so thanks for listening I’m sure it is confusing. but I am feeling a lot and reflecting a lot #and am very curious to see how things develop and grow #for me and what I want to do #anyway yes yes I’m being insufferable in some ways but also I just mean it all 100% lol

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

On the one hand I think it would be really funny if one of my posts blew up, but on the other hand I’d be more self conscious and I am almost certain that people would be annoying with me about veganism. There are literally blogs dedicated to countering dumb arguments and they are so much more eloquent than me. Acti-veg is right there you don’t need to pester me about it, they can word things a million times better than my clumsy ass. I don’t even post about veganism 24/7. It’s in my description because I do post about it, but i reblog memes more than anything else. I do wish I was better at debating for the sake of all the important things I care about. I care about humans as well, and no, those two aren’t mutually exclusive, I say this to people who resist animal rights because they think you can’t do that and care about human rights AND to vegans who, understandably, have become very disillusioned with the current dominant human cultures and outlooks on the treatments of animals. It’s always hard when you see something that is everywhere and is fucked up. It can be hard to not feel only bitterness and despair. For people who aren’t vegan, it could be compared to realizing how fucked up capitalism is and being surrounded by people who defend the system, even people who are hurt by it (so, real life). I can point people in the direction of others who are better at communicating (whenever I have a singular person who comes to mind first, so many things have so many people that I have trouble thinking of just one. Veganism is so weirdly shit upon on this website though that I can think of blogs specifically dedicated to it with far more ease) I didn’t decide to just go vegan on a whim. Going vegetarian was an easy choice to me, but the culture of using animals is so ubiquitous that I myself resisted veganism for quite awhile. This didn’t pop out of nowhere. I gradually noticed things until I went “what I’m doing is actually pretty fucked up and I can stop doing so many of these things” to minimize the amount of harm you do whenever it’s possible and can be done in practice. It’s not some crazy definition, it’s not some unattainable philosophy to do your best to live by, the official definition doesn’t say “stop taking your medication” but you can try to buy things without animal products or testing when I comes to like, shampoo. If you are like “but I don’t have options when it comes to shampoo!” Is there literally anything else you can change? That is what it’s about. The thing is, a lot of people can change more than they expect they can. I can’t show up at your house, look through your budget, check every store you can shop at, but if you can do even a little of that some time, you are at least doing better and are closer to doing everything you can in your own life. If you want to get more defensive and go “what about this person who isn’t me” or “what about this thing I haven’t really thought about for more than a literal minute” whatever it is, it has probably been addressed by someone who actually has a better way with words than me. I won’t just shut up about everything I care about, but I won’t pretend that whatever it is hasn’t already been addressed by a million people who are better than me, and you just don’t care enough to listen to them.

This has turned into me rambling but I am so so tired of encountering the same arguments a million times by people who think that they have some hot new take, and I know I’d have so many people doing that if I got more popular on main. I don’t really mind more people finding me funny or being exposed to a new idea by seeing something I’ve posted or shared, but I am fucking tired of being expected to be some professional or even amateur debater because I care about something and share that person’s post. I know some people are going to dismiss me because of that, but it has already been addressed by a million people better at doing it than me, and whoever is talking to me probably wouldn’t even listen to that anyway. It’s like someone asking you about “why is capitalism bad” and you have seen whatever they throw at you hundreds of times and you know a fuck tonne of people have already explained why capitalism bad. It’s just that whoever it is wants you, just some guy, to explain it and explain it better than you, a random meme guy who cares about things but isn’t practiced in explaining more than the definition of an English word or something.

#emma posts #I mean. I can probably explain more things than a word but I think that gets the point across #I’m so fucking tired of this #if you haven’t actually read up on multiple better communicating activists #then random tumblr free time funny blog is certainly not enough to convince anyone #veganism #would you take ‘criticism’ if it’s criticism that has already been addressed a million times #and that you have explained in real life and been ignored about? #you can lead a horse to water but if the horse wants to ignore the stuff you can’t do anything about it #maybe I should get a book recommendation list ready #but then people would ask for studies #and then they wouldn’t care to look at the studies #and as much as I care I can’t do this over and over again online #it’s one thing to talk about it in person with someone you know #it’s another thing to have the same thing thrown at you over and over again online by people who don’t care to listen anyway #you do your gotcha and leave #turning off re-blogs because this is personal #I’m ready to be deliberately misinterpreted

[yuribalisms]

I need to uproot my entire life and start from scratch or I’m gonna go insane

#‘haha funny joke post’ excpet…. not really #I’m coming to the realization that I am just Not happy where I am and I don’t think that’s gonna change so long as I’m here #and that’s why I keep spiraling into intense depressive episodes when I haven’t done that since I last lived with my mom #part of it is my job I hate it and it’s draining the life out of me and they’re working me into the ground #I literally can’t even take time off because they don’t allow it until you’ve worked there for a year #but also there’s no BETTER job opportunities here #and I finally decided what I want to go school for but also there’s no schools here that offer it… #the closest one is in my home town four hours away as some sick fucking cosmic joke #and I’m so…. so lonely #I feel so disconnected from literally everyone around me #I know my friends care about me and I’m important to them #but again it’s that sense that I will NEVER be the most important thing in their life someone else will always be that #I mean… I’ve never EVER been the most important person to someone before someone else has always mattered more than I have #which especially sucks when I feel like I only know HOW to be close with someone in an extremely obsessive way #where I would do anything for them but that’s not necessarily returned #but… I just think it would be nice to have a relationship with someone where the entire time I’m like ‘yeah but they would never do x thing #for you because they already have a person they would do that for’ #(said person usually being a romantic partner) #and I’m just… tired #I’m tired of it and I want it to stop I want to be somewhere I don’t constantly feel like shit and go through frequent periods I wanna kms #and I think I’m gonna have to move for school anyways so…. So what if I really DID just start over somewhere else #I worry I might end up in the same rut but also I’ll never know if I don’t try #and I’m not happy here I don’t think I WILL be happy here I just want to live with/close to someone where I feel like I’m a priority #and my wants and desires are treated like something just as important as theirs #I dunno… maybe I am just in another really bad depressive episode again but…. #I feel like I need to change something to avoid falling back to everything and everyone I normally do #kaz rambles

[wewontbesleeping]

men always want to take a woman down a peg and it’s so gross

#yes I’m talking about those shirts going around #like they see a woman being undeniably successful #and instead of being like cool that’s nice I’m glad an artist with music I like is doing well #they have to drag misogyny into it #and also be like haha I’m here ironically I ironically spent a lot of money to see Some Chick #and I don’t care about anything because I’m Cool #I love South Park and think women are too sensitive #like it has to be fucking exhausting right #it can’t be fun to never allow yourself to just… enjoy things #without a disclaimer that you’re a MAN and you are better than WOMEN #it’s so funny like they genuinely believe they’re better than Taylor swift because they’re a man #misogyny is soo insane #I mean obviously the point is to make women upset which is. sure something #ultimately there is an endless supply of men who will never ever turn down an opportunity to remind women #that they will never be seen as human #and that anything they have is only due to the benevolence of Men

[seaglassdinosaur]

One of the best things coming out of season four is the collective agreement that despite them barely interacting Jonathan is fucking pissed at Mike right now, but Mike is just too oblivious to notice.

#he’s like. standing behind Mike sending the worst fucking vibes his way #which fair. I would too #and it totally fits w J’s character and his role in Will’s life as an older brother/confidant #and now J is just in the Mike Wheeler Hate Group along w Hopper and maybe Max #(anyway brain saying ‘wow this is a kid J’s known since he was little. a practical toddler. #he knows Mike really well has had him over for dinner any number of times #he’s seen Mike grow up alongside Will #and now he’s ready to give him the cold shoulder or rip him a new one if Will just says the word’ #which is really sweet if you think about it that J is so willing to put Mike in his place for Will #that J prioritizes Will’s well being over the relationship with a family friend #but it’s also sad bc that willingness to go toe to toe with Mike? it didn’t come out of nowhere #it’s most certainly the result of months or years of seeing Will pine and struggle and especially the last few years #how his and Mike’s relationship have deteriorated #and then it’s not funny anymore J wanting to throw down with Mike it’s a very reasonable response for a sibling so close to his brother #for seeing Will’s pain and being so confused and frustrated that Mike - his best friend - can’t see it #and wanting to do anything to protect Will to make him feel better to fix things #yeah so 2 hands: funny that J has beef w someone he’s barely interacted w onscreen and is too oblivious to notice #and B it actually makes a lot of sense that J is actively pissed at Mike it didn’t spring out of nowhere this is a result of years of #being in Will’s immediate circle and witnessing the relationship fall apart #so. my two cents #stranger things #jonathan byers #Mike wheeler #my post

[gobbluthbutagirl]

last night my coworker told me that the night i walked out/almost quit hr guy gave everybody a $5 starbucks gift card at the end of the night which i’m thinking he must have done as a direct result of me walking out/almost quitting in addition to other people calling out that day and it’s so crazy how even if i had been there his attempt to reward people for being there was something i would have neither wanted nor had any use for

#i got a $15 starbucks gift card for christmas that i have never used #also i don’t go to starbucks ever so i don’t know how much stuff costs but like. can you even GET anything there for $5??? #but literally it’s so funny because they’re always like how would you like to be recognized? what can we offer you as recognition? #and i’m like More Money. and they’re like oh well we can’t do That #the regular closing lead rewards us by letting us each pick out a snack & a drink that she requisitions which i think is way better #except i always get just a drink and no snack and she’s noticed this and now i think she thinks i have something wrong with me #my job wrapped

[nullians]

Tired of being a shield for people around me yet having my existence be compared to villainy whenever I run out of energy to function

#circus hours #it’s like #some days I really think I was born to be a living sacrifice #> stop generational trauma #> all of the adults in your life actually hate half of your existence for defying them #> adults take out most of their emotional baggage on you #> you can’t be emotional at all (from like age 4) #> you are the eldest child but not male #> most of family disregard you as the proper first born and just see you as a funny being at best #> patriatchy kicks your ass on every front but bc you can ‘handle’ bad things it’s not a problem lol #> mother and grandmother hate you for having a better life than them and tell you that outright at age 14 #> lots of verbal abuse but it doesn’t count bc it’s just words lol mental heath isn’t a thing here #> you are labelled evil for not being able to live up to inhumane standards #> your brother (the Proper heir of the family) is praised for merely putting his foot in the kitchen #> you have been gaslit and mentally tortured into taling up house chores at age 11 and it still continues to this day #> despite your mother saying she doesn’t have time to get therapy she picks up another subject at uni to study for funsies #> house life hanging on the last thread #> despite everything brother who barely does anything is still an angel and never got to experience the emotional scarring but you #remain the target #> ‘maybe I should hate him’ but unfortunately you have some brains and know that’s not how it should go #> despite everything you are the only person in the family who can manage emotions when talking and who gives a fuck #> end up as the default mediator despite being immensely hated #all of this and then you are also used for mother’s clout and father uses you as the example of ‘wasted potential’ #life is fun heh #personal