#in some ways id be nice if it was worse bc then id be or something.

[dyketubbo]

also heres the full picture the cartoony t'surots is from feel free to ask about any of them because im going a little insane in this school

#dragon's end [ocs] #dyke doodlez #idk if yall rb this or not itd be nice but honestly #i am a little tired of asking for people to at least try and keep an even ratio #bc this site has gotten worse and worse at supporting artists in the way they want to be supported #and i feel 'bigger' artists have definitely fucked it over for smaller ones by like. insisting that reblogs dont matter etc etc #like yeah ok easy for you to say people actually pay attention to your art and engage with you about it . #bla bla make art for yourself yeah i AM but i would also like for people to be nice to me about it ykwim #it feels nice when people support my art and leave little tags and it stings when people like it and do nothing else. is that so bad #like it sucks to work on something just for people to just like. give a nod of acknowledgement and move on #itd suck in real life and it sucks with the online equivalent too #but anyways idk im tired so many of yall suck at doing like a basic feature of this site and its exhausting to keep asking #and with something thats just was just a destreseor doodle to get their designs down idc that much anyways #id still like some engagement though #theres nearly 1000 of yall following me no way only like 5 of you know know how to interact with ppl who arent your friends yeah #anyways im done ranting now. support artists if you reblog art i hope you have the best day of your life every single day #t'surots and i'llfrekilf are siblings from the end cities; smokebomb was born in the overworld; sunny in the nether; n eerie is a farlander

[whomturgled]

yrkeby4ur8

#hi its personal post as tho tumblr is my diary in the tags while still being vague time bc my coping strats are failing me a little and #ig being able to essentially shout into the void is kinda nice like i cld physically write things down but i did a lot of that #already today w sssitnments and my fjfknging joints hurt so here we are! #ig theres also comfort in knowing someone somewhere probably read it. regardless of what they think/feel/the impression it gives them bc. #like. i exist! i guess? idk. #anyway that being said tw for talk of sh and upsettio spaghettio n stuff. #but yeah im like 🤏 close to relapsing with cutting or some sort of. idek. #and the only reasons im resisting are like. its been so long and itd be a shame to break that streak #which funnily enohgh mskes another part of me wana do it MoRE to like. idk. remember. and. punish ?? idk. #but we're ignoring him rn hes being a little too edgy. #and then bc it would feel like im being manipulative and ik if ppl find out they would probably be very . distressed. #and if it were me and i found out i know id be incredibly distressed and maybe a little scared and just knowing other ppl like it just #would not help the situation ykwim itd probably make things worse #also kinda too tired physically emotionally etc rn to do it and go thru it and the aftermath and having to clean up and take care and #trust myself to be. safe. enough. abt it. #but. now hear me out. IF i do it somewhere that isnt super obv or visible. i doubt theyll know anytime soon. #and if things go. in a way thats.. i dont think i can cope with then well ill prob end up right back in this feeling without the like #withstraint of someone who cares and wants to care abt themselves and others and want to control themself and behaviours and health #but that thought in itself feels manipulative bc its like saying either way i wld prob do it teehee like a threat but. its. oeurghgnnfd. #i just. am struggling to cope. i feel things. so much. and. hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #i think if i have made it this far for this long i will be able to keep going without resorting to that? #but i really do hate that its like. wld be. yeah like turbo bad. #a very small and fucked up part of me feels like if things do go bad then what does it even matter and even better if whoever were to know #that i HAD relapsed bc ig at that point its like. idc who is upset or disappointed or uncomf or scared of/for me and thinks im terrible bc #at that point like. things are all. tumbling (lol) snd messed up so if i am messed up then whatever! ig. ???? #but umm. yeah. idk i guess im just frustrated with my own . caring abt being responsible and stuff #there was a time when i was not as likely to be able to resist consequences be damned #im like over here going thru the stages of grief on god fr fr no cap on the stack or whatever ppl say #in other brighter news i managed to get a bit of work done on one of my assignments and some needed friend time but wasnt actually able to

[pizzapizzadickz]

Haaah. Is it really too much to ask to have just one day (1) where I'm not achy and in pain?

#valid #diary #personal #chonic pain #haaah. its my hands today and my legs. #its bc i was working yesterday so im very sore. haaaah. #i honestly just wish i could have even a teny tiny bit of time where im not in pain #usually its not quite this bad but its probably been 3-4 days since i last felt mostly okay #ive just been in varying levels of moderate pain #probably between a 3-5 depending? #either way i just took an advil cold n sinus. bc i also have shit sinuses. which means ive also had a lot of headaches lately. #...they last so long bc i take Ibuprofen and forget to take advil cold n sinus instead bc that has ibprofen in it. #im really tired yknow? its not super painful or anything. but its super hard to do things i wanna lately. #my hands n body just arent moving as id like. #its really frustrating tbh. idk. i know i dont have it as bad as others bc i dont get dislocations rly. #but i just have chronic pain constantly. which makes it hard to function. especially bc im already so tired always. #in some ways id be nice if it was worse bc then id be or something. #it sucks being told all you can do for this crap is massage and physio and painkillers. #i dont think ive really ever been able to just enjoy shit. ive always gotten hurt so easily. theres always something fucked up #haaah. im really tired of dealing with my body. i wish it wasnt so ill.

[scekrex]

I’ve had this idea for a while and I like your writing so I figured Id ask you! If you don’t like it, please feel free to ignore!! Can we get Lucifer’s reaction to sinner!Adam being with someone who seems to genuinely love and care for him. I always kinda saw Lilith and Eve as people who wasn’t into the idea of being with Adam in a serious manner (Lilith a lot more than Eve) which is why they turned to Lucifer.

I just find the idea of Lucifer seeing someone genuinely care for Adam more than any of Adam’s past lovers really fun. Like, would he be low-key jealous? Would he be happy for Adam (as much as he definitely would not admit it)

I also would find it funny of what Lucifer would think to Adam dating a guy. The first man, progenitor of humanity, Mr. everyone came from these nuts himself, discovering he’s bi waaaay too late into his after-life, and after he becomes a SINNER no less! I can’t help but chuckle about it

Have a nice rest of your day!! ❤️❤️

Okay so this turned into some Adam x male!reader n Lucifer being jealous over reader. Basically one-sided adamsapple. Hope you enjoy, xoxo/p

Part 2

Maybe you can call me Eve, standing here under the forbidden tree

pairing: one-sided adamsapple/Adam x male!reader

warnings: language

note: not beta read bc fuck you I don't have beta readers

It was a little weird, that the devil had to admit, it was a little weird to see Adam so happy, so relaxed, so lovingly. Ever since the former angel had arrived in hell after Alastor's little demon girl friend had ended him he had been even worse than before. He had constantly insulted the residents of the hotel, whenever there had been the possibility to pick a fight with Charlie, Adam had done exactly that.

And it made Lucifer feel strange.

Adam was laying on the couch, you were laying on top of him - chest to chest - his guitar was gently placed on your back as he played for you. Has Adam ever played for anyone but himself? Lucifer certainly didn't think so. Sure, he had played concerts in heaven, but he had mainly played for himself, for his own entertainment, so that people listened to him had just been a nice bonus. But actively played for someone? No.

And your curious, loving eyes were watching his every move, an adoring smile was on your lips and Lucifer's heart felt heavy at the view. The thought was small but it bloomed in him, the thought that this could have been him, that he could be the one laying on Adam's chest while the first man played for Lucifer instead of a random sinner. It wasn't fair, but Lucifer had already known that. Life - or afterlife - never played fair. Never.

“Dad?” Charlie's soft voice made him tear his eyes from the scene, her hand came up to rest on his shoulder. “Are you-” she interrupted herself as soon as she spotted you and Adam and a small sigh escaped her.

Adam played the last chord and then proudly looked down on you, a cocky smile on his lips as you placed a small kiss on his stubbled chin. One of your hands moved to ruffle through his hair and Lucifer suddenly remembered Eden, back when it had been just Adam. Just him and Adam. Those times were long gone though, and the devil knew it, he knew that what they had back then would never return, especially now that Adam had you.

He was thankful that Adam had finally found someone, that he wasn't feeling as miserable anymore and that he actually seemed to try and redeem himself. And yet Lucifer couldn't bring himself to be happy for the first man, not when the person laying on his chest was you instead of him.

The fact that Adam was dating a guy didn't make it easier to deal with though. If you were a girl it would be different for Lucifer, that way he could trick his brain into believing that Adam was straight, that he had no chance anyway. But you weren't a girl and Adam wasn't straight. The possibility had been there, the possibility had been right in his damn hands back in Eden. The bond he and Adam had back then had been special, it had been a connection Lucifer had never felt again in that way. Yet Adam had always denied being queer once his soul arrived in heaven. The image of him kissing your forehead so softly however shed new light on it, Adam didn't deny being bi anymore, he had grown comfortable with it actually. The credit for that went to Angel Dust.

Why you? Why not him? That's a thought that constantly occupied Lucifer's mind. What did you have that he hadn't? The devil didn't know.

Charlie's hand squeezed his shoulder apologetic, she knew. Of course she knew, Lucifer had told her himself after all. He had told her about Eden, back when Adam had been the sweetest creation of God's, right after ducks, that was. A thing Adam had named. Adam had named most of the things, if Lucifer was being honest with himself, it had been his job after all. But when Adam had named ducks, Lucifer had been there, he had been with Adam when the first man had spotted a duck for the first time.

Oh how bittersweet that tasted now.

You looked over, spotting the devil and his daughter as you happily waved them over, Adam simply rolled his eyes in annoyance but remained quiet.

Lucifer tensed up, Charlie however led him over to the two of you.

Oh fuck him.

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel adam #hazbin hotel lucifer #adamsapple #adam x male reader #male reader #adam x y/n #adam x reader #adam x you

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

WIBTA if I blocked/ghosted this guy I can't quit?

so I've(nb25) known this guy(m29) about 8 months, but we haven't seen each other that many times. maybe 10 total. It's just a friends with benefits situation but he's very generous, he's splurged on hotels in the city for us we didn't really need, expensive meals, he's also just given me pocket money straight up before. He will kind of do whatever I want, all I have to do is mention it and he will make it happen. i mention I wanna see the ocean at 9pm and he's driving us around to find a beach that's open. i mention a food im craving and he's already ordering it, etc. he's not rich either, he lives with his parents(I think it's more for cultural reasons than financial) but his job pays pretty well I guess. he talks about the money and I think he's trying to impress me but I know so little about money and still rely on my parents I don't even really have the context. he's constantly trying to impress me with stuff like that or how much he can bench press and i find it super off-putting and don't respond to it. He's been nothing but nice to me I think, but I think he's got issues and he can't really open up emotionally. I am very suspicious of how "nice" he is and I find his positivity to be really invalidating sometimes.

Recently I got mad at him for an insensitive comment, and while I was chewing him out he just smiled at me and kept saying "I like you". It really irked me and I felt like he wasn't taking me seriously, even after asking him why he was reacting that way he just elaborated saying he liked me because I stick up for myself ? I was upset so I kicked him out of my place, it was the middle of the night. He left with a smile on his face still. it creeped me out and I almost felt like he was gonna come back and kill me while I was home alone.

I know that I'm not into him. not just that but I actively think he's annoying, and his toxic positivity thing really gets on my nerves. Ive explained that to him and he still wants to hang out. every time were together, our dynamic gets worse. im not mean to him, but I don't hold back when I think he's making something up to sound cool/nice or being fake. he says he likes my honesty and often puts me on a pedestal for it, and im constantly having to take myself off the pedestal bc im just a human being, capable of lying and inauthenticity.

He knows I don't want a relationship and I don't think that's what he wants either? hes never asked. i know he's dating and looking for someone though. I don't even really know what he meant when he said he liked me.

Every time I see him, I end up feeling like I don't wanna see him again. I find him really annoying and end up feeling really alone with him. ive tried to break it off before which he respected but would still DM me on insta occasionally, and it's bad but eventually I just went back to him bc I liked the way he was nice to me and spent money on me. it's really pathetic but it makes me feel worthwhile? but I want to stop seeing him. and im thinking, he doesn't have my phone number and I could just block him on Instagram then Id be done with it. I think we're bad for each other and that I probably frustrate him more than he shows, I think he tried to make me jealous recently by talking about some "beautiful blonde girl" he slept with, who didn't have a "good heart" like me or something. it felt weird and negg-y. overall just really weird, bad vibes. Would I be the asshole if I just blocked him ? i have a feeling that the only other way this will stop for us is with something worse than that.

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[controversial-blorbo-bracket]

id like to weigh in on those two asks re: (vriska) and meenah and vriska's arc

1. i dont think hussie know how old any of his characters are

2. (vriska) developing into someone who is nice and chill and is not driven to always be the most important wasnt "becoming a good character" it was "finishing a character arc and then becoming less prominent in the story because that's what happens when you finish a character arc"

3. vriska coming back saying "lol pussy" and being herself and being Important To The Ending is, in fact, an important part of her character arc as the thief of light. vriska was told ok your time in the spotlight is over, your story is done and now you can become a kinder more balanced person offscreen bc you are no longer being used by the narrative to further its own goals and vriska said lol you THOUGHT and stole that spotlight right back to be important. the fact that vriska is so important is a direct result of her being the thief of life and that dictating her story

4. some clarity regarding the thief of lufe stuff for u: hs has a symbol system of aspects and classes which when combined refer to a particular direction a character's story arc can take. aspects are a collection of ideas symbols and metaphors, while class dictates how you relate to them. vriska's aspect of light is the aspect of fortune and knowledge but also quite literally the narrative spotlight. (someone did a statistical analysis and light players have more words of dialogue than any other aspect by a good fuckin bit.) thieves, then, steal their aspect for themselves; this is their character struggle and character arc. vriska's whole thing is needing to be the most important and relevant, and she does. now you may be thinking, that dossnt seem very healthy! and youre right! but classpects arent about reaching your best self. they are about being who you need to be so the story can come to completion. a person whose character arc is refusing to change or becoming worse is not a poorly written character; they are just a character whose story is about that. if the bad guy becomes a good person offscreen after the movie is over, thats not a character arc. thats you imagining something that might happen after the events of the deliberately constructed story you watched that was written that way for a reason

anyway. the biggest problem with vriscourse is that no one in it understands media analysis god bless. to be fair hussie ecourages this behavior. but despite the yellow guy in the neverending story attic*, homestuck was written by a person who did it on purpose, and none of it is real

*hussie (homestuck character and in-universe writer of homestuck, as distinct from andrew hussie real human author of homestuck) first shows up in the comic in an attic from the neverending story. hes yellow

#this reaction image sure will get a lot of use I think so thank you to the person who made it for me #not a poll #ask #anonymous #discourse #vriska #homestuck

[fiberglassandflowers]

Hey idk if there’s some master post about mbts but if there is may I please ask where and if not could I perhaps humbly request a description because it sounds cool as FUCK

omg yayy okay so there's not a masterpost as of now (though there is a google doc in the works that will probably be. very big) BUT i will try to give a brief rundown. underneath a readmore 👍

OK SO. IN SUMMARY

MARY BELL TOWNSHIP: more like mary bell CLOWNSHIT ha ha. heavy surveillance like everywhere (including in peoples homes. how fun). it's also got some like radiation stuff going on. all the residents are a lil radiation poisoned But it's mostly fine. also the town moves and i dont know why.

VANNIE OVERTURE: based on suburbia overture. the mayor who is a vampire. major control freak. sucks shit. like most of the reason mary bell is the way it is. permasmile swag. has killed before. hates when people are weird freaks and is actively passive aggressive if not outright aggressive.

TRIP LETWO: based on 2econd 2ight 2eer. world's silliestguy contrarian and infamous public nuisance. deeply tortured individual but shes dealing with it i guess. physically cant leave mary bell township. he has too much goddamn lore

LYDIE LAPLACE: based on laplace's angel. so lame. just deeply lame. killed a guy and got kicked out of office building heaven (laplace's inc. id give this its own section but it doesnt really matter all that much). i dont ever think about it unfortunately im sorry women.

MINA BYRD: based on i/me/myself. very sweet very nice. ladybugpilled socialanxietycel. doesnt have a whole lot going on but she is nice im glad shes there. im gonna have a significant relationships section of this but im saying that shes roommates with lia here bc its not really significant otherwise

WALTER LEE: based on ...well, better than the alternative. worlds first cis father to be a butch lesbian. probably a girl but she doesnt know that. weird nostalgia issues so bad his wife left him.

DOTTY LEE: ten years old. strange little girl but i dont really think about it a lot. not much else to say about her really.

LIA CRATES: based on outliars and hyppocrates. her name is pronounced like lie-uh cray-tees not lee-ah crayts. i have to clear this up because i realized most people were wrong LMAO. a little mean but not so much when you get to know her.

WARREN LEARY: based on blackboxwarrior. actually the worst therapist you will EVER meet. isnt even licensed. you book a session with her and she only talks about herself the entire time. constantly referencing a dark and contradictory past.

MARSHA TILLIS: based on marsha, thankk you for the dialectics. slightly better therapist! still not that good. has the spirit of an old man despite being in his 40s. will begin to psychoanalyze your behavior upon the first thirty seconds of knowing you.

NORMAN LEE: based on love, me normally. guy trying really really hard to be a regular guy. has a loooot of problems that stem from this. hugest people pleaser the world has ever known. a little bit offputting. has hair symbolism :-)

MORTIMER: based on memento mori. doesn't have a last name. worlds silliest grim reaper death thing. works in the death division for laplace's inc. lived a pretty normal life. then it died :-(. more here

FERN O'DYNAMIC: based on thermodynamic lawyer. hates his bitch wife (who is a praying mantis for. unknown reasons? will elaborate). just has a lot of anger inside him and doesnt know how to deal with it so he takes it out on other people. he kind of sucks but he's a neat character.

MIRANDA WRIGHT: the person being sung about in thermodynamic lawyer. bug wife (i can blame anything on radiation). she wasnt always a bug she just kinda did that idk. there's not much about her but she's an etymologist.

COTARD LETWO: based on cotard's solution. she has so many problems oh my gooood. deeply lonely person. fascinated with the macabre. its like coping mechanism that makes you worse. im insane about her writing a basic description is so difficult fkdjsfhsjd

RAMONA MCLAREN: based on red moon + hand me my shovel (though the latter was included later on bc it fit her). worlds most intelligent and stupid single celled organism. patheticswag. absolutely batshit insane. attempting to solve the end of the world.

KUIPER SUNSHINE: based on dr sunshine is dead. uh. i dont really know much about her to be honest SORRY... its really silly though + haver of prophetic dreams that she is NOT transparent about. fucks with people a lot just for funsies

COLIN THESIER: based on cover this song. girl who used to be in a band but got kicked out bc of friend drama. survivor of a toxic codependent queer friendship. trying to be a better person bc she used to suck pretty bad unfortunately. a bit more here

theres like a couple more characters but none of them are really important enough to give their own sections. debbie letwo is trip and cotards mom, laplace is the head of laplace's inc, maude is walter's ex wife who left him (heres the scoop on that).

OK NOTABLE CHARACTER DYNAMICS TIME:

VANNIE/NORMAN: norman has been pretending to be a normal dude this whole time + vannie totally fell for it. normans stuck in this friendship bc hes too much of a people pleaser to break it off even though vannie actively drains him emotionally. also he feels validated by vannie thinking hes normal. its so awful im so insane about their dynamic

VANNIE/TRIP: THEY HAAAATE EACH OTHER. their entire core beliefs are at odds (guy who thinks everyone should do their best to conform vs. guy who loves being a weird freak and doing fuck all). their dynamic is honestly pretty simple in comparison but theyre so petty and stupid its insane. if you put them alone in the same room one of them isnt coming out

TRIP/NORMAN: theyre gay together. there's a weird lore thing about the way relationships are handled in mary bell but long story short theres paperwork that has to be filled out if you want to be registered for one and trip thinks its really funny for xem and norman to constantly break up so they'll have to fill out the paperwork because it fucks with vannie. theyre also kind of awful and tragic

WALTER/DOTTY: that is a father and his daughter. walters trying his best and hes doing well but nothing would have been better than just moving out of mary bell township to raise his child.

WALTER/NORMAN: they’re brothers 👍 not much else to say there but they’re cool

WALTER/MAUDE: already linked a more in-depth explanation of their deal but ill summarize it here. maude thought living in mary bell township was really bad for a child (and it is) but since walter has issues about idealizing his childhood he was like "whaaat well i was raised here and im fine" and they fought about it and once it became clear walter wasnt changing his mind maude figured shed just spare herself from all of it. so she left 💯

WARREN/MARSHA: what if the two worst therapists ever were queerplatonic and violated hipaa together. also what if one of them [marsha] was helping the other [warren] because they're on the run from the law. would that be crazy or what

FERN/MIRANDA: actually awful. they really want to divorce but trip and norman keep clogging up the paperwork so theyre on a waiting list forever. their relationship was really good at one point but its not anymore :-( more info here

NORMAN/FERN: fern haaates norman because of the previously mentioned paperwork debacle but normans ass cant deal with the thought of anyone disliking him so hes just been really trying to get on his good side to no avail. also theyre coworkers so its more relevant

MORTIMER/TRIP: man how do i even summarize this one. due to lore reasons that you can read about in the link provided in trips session they have a super weird dynamic present day. or at least on trips end, mortimer is just super friendly to them and it wigs her out.

TRIP/COTARD: OUGUIGHJ. AOAUYFGDSFHSJ. tragic sibliiings. man i dont even know if i can go into this. go here and here if you want to learn more about them. jesus

COTARD/COLIN: frienndsss :-] classic extrovert forcing themselves into introverts life trope a little bit. they play music together and its great. mina's also in their little group but the two of them are closer

KUIPER/RAMONA: have been described by my friend as being "nonromantic freak4freak" and this is true. theyre working together on the end of the world stuff. they also rope cotard into it but thats lore i havent talked much about yet. go here and here for more info about them.

that might??????? be it?????? if there's more ill update it but thats the general basics i think. thank you for being interested and hopefully reading i greatly appreciate it :-)

#explanations #not tagging every single character but i might include a link to this in the pinned post #yayyyy

[hopelesswrites]

Midnight - Joseph Quinn pt. 2

You call Joe after a night of trying to forget him

18+ MDNI - small mentions of smut

(This one is mostly being sad bc Joes a dick. I couldn’t decide if I wanted to end this quickly with a happy ending or keep the hurt going a little while longer, please let me know what you think! Id love some feedback and input, should they get together? or is this little relationship doomed!?)

Part 1 Part 3 Part 4

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Weeks had passed and not a word from the man you were hopelessly in love with. He was travelling the world, you’d find out where he was through fan photos online. As time passed on you felt more and more depressed, your own cycle of life just not thrilling you like it used to. Joe was out doing things, partying, meeting girls, probably fucking them too, while you were stuck in London, home, work, home, work, a repeated routine. You hadn’t gone out with friends in weeks, hadn’t been on a date in months and hadn’t slept with someone since the night you had with Joe.

It had to stop though, if he was going out and fucking around so were you. So here you were now, doing your hair and makeup for a man you matched with on tinder 2 hours ago. Some would say this was a bad idea, most actually, but you needed to get out of the house and out of your head.

The man was nice, attractive face, rugby built body, accountant, boring. You couldn’t get it out of your head how utterly boring he was, but you persevered. He had taken you to a quaint little Italian restaurant, family owned, run down kind of joint. You also couldn’t stop thinking about how Italian was Joes favourite. How he had taken you to a much more enjoyable restaurant further in town and how you would rather be there with him.

Your date had moved on to talking about his apartment, how nice it was and how close it was to the place you were at now, you noted the area and how nothing here could be as nice as he was boasting it to be. The man’s flex continued, how convenient it would be to continue a couple drinks back at his. You mentally rolled your eyes, you had been in this situation before, go out with a guy that stays close to home so you conveniently go back for a shag. As much as you didn’t want to, you agreed, you really needed to forget Joe and if this is how to do it, so be it.

His apartment was big, but so painfully a bachelor pad. You examined his room, no cover on his duvet, 2 thin pillows, the thought of sleeping with this man in this bed made you sick.

“You have any tequila?” You asked looking around for anything good to focus on. He had dirty socks on the floor, a laundry basket full of clothes in the corner and a dresser with cans of lynx body spray lined up. This was a nightmare, this was worse than sulking over Joe.

“I’ve got Jägermeister in the kitchen” The man replied.

Typical, you thought, not even decent booze.

“That’ll do” You stated before making your way out to down the bottle.

You poured the both of you a shot each and downed it almost instantly, no time to process or react, you needed a second shot.

“Woah slow down” The guy chuckled, pulling the shot glass away from you. “We’ve got all night.”

Flashbacks to you trying to slow down Joe filled your mind and tears threatened to prick at your eyes. The reality of your relationship with the man becoming clearer, this was all it was for him. A convenient screw.

At that you latched yourself to the man in front of you, eyes squeezed shut, trying to imagine he were Joe, anything better than what you’ve got now.

As the kiss deepened you pushed the man towards the living room, opting for the couch rather than his unwashed sheets. As his hands explored your body, you felt nothing, only numb and sad. As he slowly entered you, all you could do was look at the wall and wince, hating every moment. You felt bad, it wasn’t this poor guys fault you were broken, it was all yours. You did this to yourself and now you’re suffering. Once he finished you bid him a good night and left, stumbling out into the street, shoes in hand one thought still stuck on your mind.

Joe.

You were lost, figuratively and literally. You didn’t quite know the area and you couldn’t afford an uber, so were stuck walking the streets, looking for anything familiar. Your mind kept wandering though. Was Joe in London? Was he thinking of you? Would he pick up if you called? What would he think if you told him about your night? Your phone chimed, taking you out of your thoughts. It was a text from your flatmate, she was going out and left the lights on for you, but a name in your contacts kept drawing you in and so you clicked on his name.

The phone rung a few times, you were ready to just hang up but the line stopped ringing and a groggy voice spoke over the phone.

It was Joe, he had said your name. His voice brought you bad to a sober reality and you looked around to see where your legs had taken you, the train station. Joe called your name again and you sniffled in response, not realising you had been crying.

“Is something wrong, where are you” Joe asked, sounding worried now.

“I’m fine, I’m sorry I shouldn’t have called” You answer, ready to hang up.

“You don’t sound fine, you’re crying, where are you? Who are you with?” You heard shuffling on the other end, Joe was getting out of bed.

“I’m alone, I’m at a train station, about to head home”

There was a pause, “You’re alone, who were you with? Send me your location I’m picking you up”

“You’re in London?” You asked, your silent sobbing now subsiding. “You didn’t tell me”

Another pause, longer this time.

“I’m sorry, I got in on Wednesday” A whole 3 days ago, you thought.

You paused this time, debating whether to say your next line.

“I miss you”

You could hear Joe sigh. “Stay put and send me your location” before the line went dead.  

After dropping Joe your location you sat on a nearby bench and continued to sob to yourself. You felt ashamed, embarrassed by your own emotions. You really didn’t want to see Joe tonight, rather, you didn’t want him to see you. But you couldn’t say no, you needed someone right now, even if it was the man causing you so much pain.

Before long you spotted headlights coming down the street. Considering the time of night it could only be Joe so you got up, quick to wipe your face of any leftover tears and made your way towards him.

“You alright?” Was all he said when you sat down beside him. His head turned for a quick glance at you, checking for any damages you presumed before his eyes went back to the road and he drove off.

The energy in the car was tense, you could tell Joe was uncomfortable with what you had said on the phone and it made you want to disappear.

“What happened tonight?” Joe was the first to break the silence.

“Just drunk too much” Was all you said, hoping he would just drop it and drive you home.

“What were you doing on this side of town?”

You sighed at that, “I was seeing someone”

Joe turned to you this time, “Someone?”

You looked up to check the expression on his face, was he hurt? Excited? Confused? But he had turned back to the road, the dim lighting in the car not giving anything away.

“A guy from Tinder” You practically whispered, but you knew Joe had heard you. You could see the way he tensed up beside you.

“So you just use me to pick you up from your hook ups now? Is that it?” Joe practically spat. But you felt he didn’t deserve to be upset. He had ignored you for weeks, hadn’t even told you when he got back in town three days ago, he had no right.

“You didn’t have to come!” You retaliated.

“I was worried about you!”

This infuriated you, you laughed out loud , the only response you could muster that didn’t result in you crying. “Could have fucking fooled me, you haven’t spoken to me for weeks, anything could have happened in those weeks, you wouldn’t have a fucking clue”

“Well, did anything happen?” Joe shot back, matching your anger.

“Not a damn thing, while you’re off living your life I’ve been here, waiting for you”

That shut him up, the air in the car, still and thick with discomfort. You looked around noticing you were down the street from your flat.

“You can drop me off here” You whispered, the car coming to a stop instantly and you got out, not even looking back, not wanting to face the man it hurt so much to love.

#joseph quinn #joseph quinn fanfic #joseph quinn x reader #joseph quinn smut #Smut #Joe Quinn #stranger things

[mugentakeda]

I notice in some of ur Zuko art you give him a little chest scar 🧍🏻‍♂️... is there any headcanons related to that .. do u have any Zuko scars headcanons.. or body headcanons in general... I loved ur reference post for how u draw different characters so consider this an open invitation to talk about your hcs for other characters too *bats eyelashes*

OHHH YES HEHHEHEHE .... if im being quite honest. this is gonna seem soooo silly but Id use female volleyball players as reference for zukos body build if i didnt always draw him in bulky armor and sweeping robes. they have a good balance of slenderness and muscle that i feel really suit zuko, and i personally hc that his legs have more defined muscle in them than his torso. hes strong as hell in the arms as well of course, and has a strong core, but i believe the legs are the true powerhouses if you just had a regular regular fight with him without his bending or swords.

i love the fact that zuko canonically has super powerful legs and can do crazy shit like shatter chains and crack real wood tables, and i like highlighting that. i dont hc zuko as naturally broad in the shoulders like his dad is, and that he has to work hard to keep muscle on them and eat well to maintain it. plus, the way fire nation fashion flares the shoulder part of their clothing gives his shoulders that little extra bit of width that zuko prefers.

(that way zuko doesnt have to constantly puff his chest and flex his shoulders to make himself look bigger than he really is- and on top of that, i like to give his boots a little bit of heel. its all about making yourself bigger and taller, yelling louder, etc.) (and serving cuntress. zuko is a diva okay!!)

as for the scars i like to give him, first of all its bc i think they look cool af!!!!!! second of all just because i think it makes sense honestly. scars from fights, scars from accidents, scars from ozai, scars from his instructors, scars from flailing in one of azulas more thrilling games and busting his ass, scars from himself. scars from weapons, scars from burns, scars from nature.

when i look at zuko and his general demeanor, and this is even without bias, he just doesnt have that same royal flair the rest of his folks do. he can be a total snooty cunt, but hes too prickly and awkward to pull off that charisma everyone else seems to ooze. it may have been a front for her sometimes, but azula had that charisma nailed most of the time, even as a little kid. little zuko just felt like any other fumbly twitchy kid with two left feet in some nice clothes. and him having all types of scars and a golden tooth as a teenager would just make it worse- he gives the vibe of some mangy snarly disgraced sailor kid in royal finery rather than a refined prince. i just feel the scars suit his personality too well on top of just looking cool and rugged!!!!

#i dont have specific stories currently in mind for the big ones i draw but i could def cook some random funny shit up #i think the gaang would def be nosy as hell and would want the stories behind all of them #i will def make a ref sheet of fullbody hcs for the gaang+extras now that the idea is in my head.... thank you gremkins...... #asks

[hyenagurl]

This sounds mean but is coming from a well-meaning place: why are you upset about that moid coworker. So he was nice to you, until you come to work with hickeys (kinda trashy but we’ll let it slide) and now he’s a dick. So he’s nice until he is shown evidence you had a romantic encounter with someone else. This moid is the equivalent of “add nice tokens until sex comes out.” The fact he switched up so fast the second he thought you fucked someone else ⁉️ He was never a nice guy, he never liked you, he wanted to smash and that’s it. He doesn’t see you as a person, he sees you as something to be used and discarded- once he saw someone “used” it first, he moved directly to discarding. Use your head babe, he showed his true colors. xx luv ya

no no youre right but 😭 well it just sucks to have someone show their colors like this. part of what hurts is that it really was night and day, like a complete 180, and nobody notices but me and insists its just bc he got dumped when this started happening well before that…

ive been keeping my eye on him too. hes friendly with everyone. it feels like hes going out of his way to chat everyone up - and then when im talking to someone nearby he does his best to look away. yesterday i did something bad mannered without thinking about it (tore open a packet of aspirin, spat out a piece of it😭) and he came over and was like “why would you do that, that was disgusting and inappropriate.” he has never lectured me like that. and it was the first time he spoke to me in like days. i thought he was joking!

but that was not the worst. today it came to a head, i saw him smirking and i snapped. i asked to speak to him privately (after him initially ignoring me, with an “i guess… 🙄”) and we went to the back. he kept working while i was trying to speak to him, and when i moved in front of him, he could barely even look me in the eye and he had this big dumb nervous grin on his face, and kept laughing like “haha whats the problem? 😅” granted i kept him off guard and i honestly hadnt meant to, but still. i couldnt believe how rude he was being, even if he was nervous. he used to be so courteous!

i was angry and fighting back tears bc i would literally rather die than cry in front of a man like that, so i kept my voice as calm as i could be and was like “whats going on? i understand youre going through something hard rn, but it feels like somethings wrong between us and idk why.” he brushed it off again, still laughing and smiling, and i said “well youve been acting differently for weeks, and you only speak to me now just to lecture me.” he rambled some more bullshit, like “idk sometimes i just dont have anything to say.”

yeah, right. if theres not a problem, then who just has nothing to say to someone in a matter of a DAY?

i couldnt do anything with that and i was pretty upset, so i just told him id be here when he was ready to talk and made sure to stay away from him. then after weeping in the group chat, i was a huge mess, and then my other (male) but honestly sweet coworker saw and figured out what happened and comforted me..

okay so yeah. this is whats so upsetting. its not so much i miss our flirty dynamic - its that a coworker is pulling psychological petty high school bullshit over seemingly nothing - or worse, you and i are right, and hes icing me out for having a sex life! i feel like im going nuts!!!!

#in case u couldnt tell yes i needed to rant sbout this some more

[quodekash]

i went to bed instead of watching abaab and i woke up and im ✨sick✨

its not the plague but i have a sore throat and im really congested and i feel like a dump truck ran over me and poured all the bin juices in my brain, but its fine cos im here, im queer, and threezo are near

CONTENT WARNING: if youve seen this episode, youll be aware that there will be discussions of rape, sexual assault, and pedophilia. if any of these topics are triggering for you, please take the measures you require to stay safe, and please call emergency services if you require help, and talk to someone you trust. remember: you are not alone, and there will always be people who love and care for you, but you havent yet met some of them. stay safe everyone, i love you

i cannot for the life of me remember how the last episode ended so its lucky that they have little summaries at the starts of episodes cos otherwise id have no clue whats going on

OH YEAH THOOP WAS ARRESTED

hang on, dont they still need to go to work?

i cant remember what day it is and what they were doing before cher got that phone call but still

dang it ive already had a cup of tea today but i think i need another one

THREEZO HELLO (ft jack's luscious hair on the side there)

THREEZO ARE SO SWEET WHY ARE YOUR FACES LIKE THAT JACK AND TUB

okay, yeah, fair

HE IS HAPPY

HIS HAIR IS FLUFFY AND HE IS HAPPY

GREHJKDFGKJRB

aww

AWWWHHHH

awhh thoop is cryinggg

bro is in desperate need of a hug

IM GONNA CRYYYY

i love deep platonic bonds

especially when its found family

fnjgbhfbvhfb

**gasp** despicable!

HELLO THREEZOOOOO

hes so prettyyyy

and hes also so prettyyyyyy

GJKRTBNFDHKJRG I LOVE THEM

am i crying? yes.

im crying a lot

i love threezo so much

the grip these two have on my mental health and sanity--

have i rewatched this scene four times? yeah. do i now kinda just wanna curl into a ball and sob for a day or two? yeah. unfortunately i have to keep watching the episode

okay so its literally like six hours later now, ive tried having two naps, ive had three cups of tea today, as much medicine as i can have, and the sickness has done nothing but get worse which is just so fun but the only reason i wasnt watching abaab is bc i was trying to sleep and that's just not happening so im continuing the episode now

the commentary is gonna be very little tho btw bc im having trouble making coherent thoughts through all the conjestion clogging my brain

the way they smile at each other is so 🥺🥹

im TRYING--

sorry, last week i couldnt stop talking about the freaking pomegranate i was eating, today i cant stop talking about how sick i am, ill try and shut up about it and just watch the episode lol

SCREW THAT GUY

VAFFANCULO

I HATE HIM

I HATE HIM SO MUCH

idk much about the mother

BUT THE STEPFATHER CAN GO SHOVE A PIGNA UP HIS CULO

look, i hate cops and law enforcement

but i even more hate thoop's stepfather

and law enforcement, unfortunately, have a lot of power, but thats fortunate in this situation bc they can force him to shut up which is nice

oh, wouldya look at that. i was right.

im not happy about it. its freaking horrible. and its even worse that it happens every day in every single country and state and city and suburb and yet nothing is being done about it.

um. yeah. thats all i can think of to say.

SHE HAD TO PUT UP WITH IT FOR THREE YEARS???

holy hell thats freaking disgusting

i hate this so much. not that they included this in the show, im really glad they included it because it's freaking disgusting and not talked about enough, especially in mainstream media and stuff. i just freaking hate that rape exists and people have to put up with it every single freaking day of their freaking lives, and NOTHING is happening to fix this freaking disgusting issue

this episode is a lot heavier than i was expecting and idk if anything im saying makes any sense because im too sick for this and the things that happened are making me even more sick

HUZZAH, I WAS RIGHT

AND THIS TIME ITS A GOOD FEELING THAT IM RIGHT

HES NOT HOMOPHOBIC

HUZZAH, HUZZAH, PRAISE OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR JACK'S ALMIGHTY FLUFFY BEAUTIFUL HAIR

sobbing, i cant do this, theyre too sweet

AH SHOOT, I JUST REALISED IVE BARELY DRANK ANY WATER TODAY

as per usual, your hair is on fleek today, my friend

he's angry at laem, but his hair is perfection

the perfect way to get someone to shut up: shove food in their mouth as fast as possible (im using this at some point) (also how the hell is his hair so pretty i love his hair too much. i think i always spend more time talking about jack's hair than i do talking about the actual episode)

gun's mother has such a sweet sounding voice but her words sting like poison, jeez

OH HELL YES ITS THIS PART

IVE SEEN SCREENSHOTS

side note: look at three and zo's knees pressed together gjfngjbhfgbh

HEYYY GUYS

ITS SO FUNNY

WHAT ARE THEY DOING WATCHING SIMM

wait so. bad buddy exists as a series inside the msp universe. simm exists as a series inside the abaab universe. what's next??

the frame changed suddenly, kluen was looking down slightly earlier and now he's looking right in nuea's eyes (yes i had to include jack's hair in the screenshot, so what?)

side note: i love all of jack's ear piercings (and his hair) so much

(ive now used all my 30 photos for this post so you just have to deal with that. on the bright side, the final photo was of jack's beautiful face and beautiful earrings and beautiful HAIR)

i love this friend group so much, theyre all just sitting in a circle in their gaming chairs supporting cher as much as possible in their own little ways and its so sweet and so happy and gfbhbrhgb

ignore your bfs phone calls only to show up at his house with food

AWWW, THE WAY HE JUST PULLS HIM INTO A WORRIED HUG AS SOON AS HIS HANDS ARE EMPTY- I LOVE THEMMMM

"promise me no matter what happens, we will fight it together" RGHBKRDFHGKRBDFHB

AWWWW TEHY KISSSSS

"(talking to himself) if your mum knows about this, she will hit you to death, cher" "know about what?" "she gave me only one heart and i gave it all to you" "youre as cheesy as i am" IM DYING WHAT THE HELL THEYRE SO SWEET

BRO CHILL

CALM DOWN

I DONT NEED TO SEE THIS

I MEAN LIKE GOOD FOR THEM

BUT WHY DO WE NEED SUCH A LONG SHOT OF GUN'S BARE ABS

theyre so soft with each other what the hell

"i just want to hear it from your mouth-" AND CHER CUTS HIM OFF WITH THE SOFTEST KISS EVER??? (well, not ever. no one can ever kiss as softly or lovingly as freaking akk, but that's neither here nor there) THAT ONE TINY MOMENT IS GONNA PLAY IN MY HEAD FOR AGES NOW OMG

keep the pants on please guys

oh thank goodness they finished the episode before it got to that, i appreciate that

anyway THAT WAS SO SWEET GBFHGBFHBHG

im desperately hoping that next episode will be mostly fluffy happiness bc i cant take much more of this seriousness, especially not if my sickness persists (which i really hope it doesnt, id love to be functioning this week)

um yeah. that was that. i hope you enjoyed that? sorry for all my ramblings about being sick, i just really hate being sick.

once again, i hope youre all safe and healthy, if you're not, i hope you can find a safe space and people you trust, please contact someone who can help you if you need it. i love you all, have a great week :]

#quodekash rambles about abaab #abaab #a boss and a babe #a boss and a babe the series #chergun #guncher #mike chinnarat #jack’s almighty curly hair #jack abaab #abaab jack's hair #threezo #zothree #zothree supremacy #flukeohm #ohmfluke #fluke pusit #ohm thiphakorn #forcebook #force jiratchapong #book kasidet #leo saussay #java bhobdhama #abaab thoop

[fayestra]

finished up my book 1 draft run, here are all the characters i focused on training up

(i was first in draft order and it was snake draft, so i picked Caeda solo, everyone in the middle came in pairs, then ended on Dolph)

Caeda was my main outdoor fighter, i kinda picked her based on memories of how good she is in FE11 but forgot that a big part of that is being able to forge the wing spear. she's still really good here with high speed and weapon level letting her deal a lot of damage, she just didn't snowball the way i was expecting bc her main way of increasing Atk and Def is items and her promotion instead of level ups. she got the most kills out of everyone

Wendell was my main staff user, really nice to have such an early warp user. having only one slowed me down sometimes but it was mostly fine, the main issue i thought would come up was that i couldnt warp Wendell to fight Gharnef with Starlight but there were too many enemies around for that to be safe anyways and walking was a much better option.

Ogma was supposed to be my main indoor fighter but after being really good early game, he mainly was a back up to Marth and Caeda especially after Marth leveled up a bunch and got the boots. he had the 3rd most kills after Caeda and Marth, and far ahead any runner ups.

after Caeda, Wendell and Ogma i didnt really have a plan for who to draft or who might be useful other than Tomas being a good Parthia user

Tomas starts off pretty close to promotion with good weapon level so he became a sniper that could use Parthia pretty quickly and was really nice as a high damage option to take out problem enemies

Dolph was a meme pick and then i decided i wanted him to get power leveled and use the Gradivus so he got to oneshot some threatening enemies

Draug and Barst helped the early game go by smoothly by taking some hits and helping clear out enemies so that Marth, Caeda and Ogma could move forward. after that, Barst got some value bc he got some good levels and could deal alright damage, while Draug didnt do much.

Wolf and Roshea were outdoor flunkies and were an OK help, they both helped knock out an enemy or two on most outdoor maps. i probably picked Wolf too early for how much he contributed, since i still had time to pick up one of the manaketes or Xane, but it couldve been worse so whatever

i skipped Est lol.

not intentionally bc i just skipped Maria and Minerva since they weren't on my roster, but then i learned too late that i locked myself out of all of the Whitewings. which meant no Est and no Mercurius oops.

this playthrough was really fun, and pretty laid back with how many side objectives i ignored. i was the second to finish in the group so id have to wait but im probably gonna draft book 2 soonish

#fire emblem

[marshmallowprotection]

You know one platonic relationship i dont consider much often is saeran and Vanderwood. But i think it could work and be beneficial for saeran, id imagine if vanderwood decided to stick around he'd look out for saeran in the same way he does for saeyoung. And none of the saerans really have to worry about feeling like a bad person in comparison bc vanderwood has done just as much if not more. They could really get into some conversations about feeling complicated about what they've done without the tension the rest of the rfa and saeyoung might bring. Its nice to have someone other than saeyoung to talk to, someone just a bit older with more experience.

Of course! There's always something beneficial in having a friend in your life who can guide you when you've got no experience otherwise for something. In the context of Saeran's Good Ending, Vanderwood could make a tight bond with the RFA if he wanted to do so. I'm sure he'd be closer with the twins. Vanderwood is like an older sibling who is tired of your crap when it comes to Saeyoung. With Saeran, we can assume it's more of a dynamic like "wow, you're nothing like your twin at all, what a relief."

Once everyone is able to get past what Vanderwood had to do to be able to defeat the agency, things will smooth over with time. It wasn't the best idea, but you can't play fair with an agency that's got a gun to your head every step of the way. Saeran wouldn't mind speaking to Vanderwood now and again. He knows that he looked after Saeyoung for years... and Saeran feels grateful that his brother had someone in his life that helped him stay alive despite the odds, even if everything in the agency was cutthroat and Vanderwood can argue that he only took care of Saeyoung to save his own skin.

Vanderwood is a solid friend once you get under his skin. He may not admit it, but it's far too easy for him to go soft on people. It's a trait he isn't proud of since those natures get killed readily... but hey, being a softie for a brat dismantled the agency and gave him a real chance to go back home to his family who he clearly cared about after all that time away from them. What hasn't Vanderwood seen in his years in the agency? Nothing passes this guy.

So, yeah, for Saeran, we could say that Vanderwood could be a good place to turn to if he ever needs someone to talk to about... well, the things he did in Mint Eye. He might be working to make peace with his actions but those feelings of guilt don't just go away overnight, it lingers no matter how much work you do on yourself. It's the name of the game. Vanderwood doesn't judge. He's done and said worse for the name of their job. Why would he say something to judge Saeran for anything?

Saeran wouldn't feel comfortable talking to the RFA about the things he did in Mint Eye. Jumin said it was forgiven and forgotten on Night 10 since Saeran was willing to work with them to save Saeyoung, but we know how Saeran is. He wants to own up to what he's done, make things right, apologize, and do better in the future. That means he wants to be honest about his misdeeds. Even if they've forgiven him, it doesn't mean he's forgiven himself. So, who better to talk to about that than Vanderwood?

Vanderwood doesn't mince words. He won't lie to you. He'll tell you like it is and somehow, it's helpful. Maybe what Saeran needs for this is someone to tell him the honest truth without sugarcoating things.

#8 bit space #ask #mod kait #vanderwood #ge saeran #saeran choi #choi saeran #character analysis

[lightbulb-warning]

[MAJORLY uncoherent anecdotal storytine:]

entertainment value: mild

cw: blood exams (not described in detail), vague mentions to struggles that aren't elaborated on, tmi personal rambling written by someone who is loopy from blood loss aka bad grammar/syntax/morphology/yeah also this got long whoops

im feeling mega loopy cuz blood exam (dundnt faint!! how outstanding of me. iamcurrently instanding. batumtssk!!i lie down now.)

but AT the blood exam a newer nurse stopped by and my usual nurse was like "PIVELLA meet [redacted <- (me. im redacted.)] this kid is a STAPLE in this department bla bla" and wow mom look im famius!! it only took me getting my blood displaced and stared at medically and faintinf a lot very often hshahahaah

the usual nurse is so NICE she's been doing my blood check traslocations since ive been like 15 i think maybe earlier?? idk idk i love her she's so nice and a kickass lady and she bullies all her coworkers and also me a lot!!! bully as in teasing she's nice yeah anyway yeah

me having to get my blood checked often is really inconvenient and kinda sucks!!! because i get koed and fuck if i can do anything for the next 24hs blegh but but BUT this lady has seen my grow up and seenbthe fuck up my life became and is seeing me pick up the peices abd whenever she sees me in the waiting room she shouts "its YOU" very dramatically and the staff has inside jokes about me and my dumv unoptimezed blood stats and thats REALLY NICE SOBS

like i dont wanna make a fable moral out of it like live love kaugh kindess uwu because realistacally, when i was fucked up previously (in the way that was bad compared to how i am fucked up now. funny joke. laugh.) i didn't gove two shits about people being nice to me because i was a massive hater and hated myself most (loser behavior!!!! the world hates you already love yourself out of SPITE!!!!!!!!!!) so people going out of their way to make a horrible situation slightly less horrible for me COMPLETELY went over my head "broom broom autopilot kill crush destroy ourselves!!!" (<- that's what my head looked like.ew there's no whimsy and silly in there, gross!! jk baby me gets the reatroactive love myself treatment bc noone els ecan do that for me!! what was i saying) and yeah i wasn't neurobiologically capable of giving two shits about anything, especially some random nurse going out of her way to crack jokes but idk i appreciated now!!! and she realizes i appreciate it now!!! and it's nothing big or grandiose i guess the world is still turning and nothing in the essential state of things changes bc i did a navelgazey testimony of WOW SOMETIMES THINGS CAN BE OKAY OCASSIONALLY HOLY SHIT?? but also!!! if i don't do it!!!!!!! who will!!???????

aesop would prolly write about foxes and grapes and terracotta pottery and crows and things being okay with time, but ME, a certified "just some guy", is gonna ramble about " it's gonna be okay" semantics because its!! been!! bullshit!! BUT THAT'S OKAY!!!!

shit got SO MUCH worse than what i could've imagined in my catastrophation!!!!!! id wasted my life preparing and planning for all the plans Ds and Gs and Js and Zs because my situation was FUCKED and i didn't have power to fix it, and too bad!!! SHIT HAPPENS AND IT SUCKS!!! time isn't gonna fix SHIT!!!!!! time is just a tracker of when!!! time does no good time does no harm!!!! what time did give my stupid fucking idiot idiot lovely self was time to change!!! not in just "omg change your perspective ✨" (which can be really really really important!! but you shouldn't take anyone's shit just because you see their perspective!!!! no you don't deserve to be treated like shit!!!!!! they don't deserve to get away with treating anyone like shit!!!!! what makes you so special that the world's evil needs to converge upon you?? you're just some guy!! they're just some guy!!! you be nice to you!!)

time is just there!! what does get okay with time is being!!! your enemy is no longer gonna cause you stress once you outlive them!!! you can be better than your yesterday self at any time!!! life goes on if you fuck up everything and you CAN do whatever you want with the peices!!! FAIL!!! FEAR!!! if we're scared we do it scared!!! it's not gonna be okay because its gonna be perfect, it's gonna be okay because it CAN be different!!

im still not """""fixed""""" , im still screwing things up and i still don't really understand what exactly is """""wrong""""" with me and that's okay for now, and hey!! i am capable of having a nice interaction with someone!!!! that's progress.

massive tangent lmao

local tumblr user gets some blood consensually stolen, has a positive interaction with someone, goes home and starts preaching at [unidentified recipient] jesus fucking christ maiora go to sleep this isn't the time for monologues

tl;dr: someone was nice to me just to be nice and im happy because i wouldn't have been able to appreciate it previously and it's nice to see people being nice for the sake of it

im nap now buh bye thanks for reading have a night or day!!!! be nice to you i can't do that for you!!! /lh

<3

#incoherent #absolutely incoherent #shut up maiora #shut the FUCK up maiora #affectionate #ramble #anecdote anthology #illbregret posting this but also itd be funny to have my rambles out there and people can read my woozy rambles at my funeral/pos #like if it stays in my brain noone can see it. if i get it out my brain it's a sign i existed in whatever capacity and idk that's fun #not that im dying anytime soon #what's death gonna do?? stop me???? pathetic. #/j #i really need to sleep

[2bloved]

You liked my Hell Bell Dawn headcanons? WELL OH BOY PUT YOUR SEATBELT ON-

Soulless Dawn glitches between different forms (mainly different female gen 4 player characters, but sometimes gen 4 male player characters if she's really upset) and yes it hurts.

When she first got to the bar (Beelze brought her there as a thank you for letting him get souls) she was outcasted and stayed at the bar that Glitchy Red ran. They started talking and Dawn started venting, causing Glitchy to care for her bc haha relatable, except she has it way worse since she's constantly being played. Eventually this gets out of hand and Glitchy goes to try to fight Beelze to free Dawn. Finding amusement in this, Beelze challenges Glitchy to a Pokemon battle. I dunno who would win it, but it doesn't matter, since they would get broken up by Hypno and others. Beelze makes a passing comment that Glitchy could make a deal with him, if he had a soul (which he doesn't, bc Glitchy is just, well,, a glitch lol) so Glitchy goes on a soul finding quest. It'd be really funny if he tried to take Grey's soul lol

But then again I don't know Glitchy very well so,, whoops-

Oh, speaking of Beelze! He's an actual demon in my headcanon, and made a random Brongzong into his helper, giving it some of his powers. The more souls he collects, the more powerful he gets. His goal? To become so powerful that he would have many "cursed" Pokemon to steal souls with, but rn he just has the one. He toys with Dawn alot, and has power over her. If she annoys him too much? He'd make Hell Bell ring, and transport Dawn back to a game. Also, he uh- smokes. Alot. Usually old timey cigars bc *classy*. He sometimes bets souls with other soul-taking pastas for funsies.

Now for Hell Bell! It is not nice, to say the least. It thinks highly of itself, and both it and Purin Jigglypuff hate each other. Like, Jiggly will be singing, putting DISABLED in a dream and then Hell Bell comes around, ringing loudly, waking DISABLED up. Jiggly and Hell Bell get into fights alot (Beelze responds to this as a 'play nice kids', and Pico througholy enjoys it).

Also, Frozen Red (Red from Snow on Mt. Silver) was allowed into the bar once, and only once. That is bc Gold (who was Blake in the past) freaked out so badly that Red had to be removed. Freakachu only furthered Gold's reaction. So now Red and Freakachu hang out with Buried Alive when he isn't busy, along with MISSINGNO.

MISSINGNO. only came to the bar once, bc it uh, said an uh oh.

MISSINGNO., referring to Strangled Red events: So, did I do a good job being scary?

Beelze, nodding:

Steven: It,, it told me to kill my brother because,, it was trying to be eDGY?!?!

Yeah let's just say it's hard to strangle a glitch lol

Yeahh it's pretty much chaos in the bar. Eventually all the Pokepastas are gonna need their own separate bar!

Also I'm super sorry if I'm annoying you with all these asks, if you want me to stop or just limit myself to one a day just lmk. - 🐞

god teh concept of a lively little pokepasta bar makes my little heart EXPLODE /POS

id like to imagine as more people get kicked or banned in it eventually little knockoff bars would pop up. imagine a little city street corner with the like window shops? that's estentially what it'd be

anyways the first thing i thought of when i saw this,

#derek.txt #fave #GUYS COME QUICK!!! QUICK!!!! GLITCHY AND A OLD GUY ARE BOXING!!!! #- shinto. probably #giving this one main tag. just for the world to see. #pokepasta

[roobylavender]

Same anon from a while ago, but yeah there was a bit in the fic where jason wouldnt get medical attention that was otherwise cheap because he had no ID. and then willis swoops in and saves him, which is nice on its own ig, but it felt like they sort of insinuate its bruce’s fault for jason not having that, despite willis also being there….not helping him sooner. the Identification isnt the only thing, but otherwise the writing sort of explains it like “Bruce is too busy blaming himself, ruining his ability to do something about helping Jason recover”

yeah i read through to the end and i think that's what surprised me is it is accurate for bruce to get so caught up in his own emotions that he fails to prioritize another person's emotions when necessary but for that to translate to him willingly withholding material help from jason because the latter won't back down from his moral stance is so.. like where is the logic here lol. i think there's a lot one could do with bruce's classism and his inability to look beyond his initial moral stance to truly understand why jason does what he does, even if it's ultimately wrong in its execution, but for some reason writers are always more immediately interested in the base violence than they are in interrogating any of the factors that feed into it. even the most left-leaning batman writer (in my opinion), mike w. barr, wasn't able to go further than "violence regardless of who employs it is all-around bad". there was a slight acknowledgement on his part of worse material circumstances for poor, marginalized communities, but ultimately he still condemned their retaliatory violence against oppressive structures and portrayed it as disorganized and ultimately leading to mass death (legends of the dark knight #21-23, batman annual #9). part of that factors into portrayals of jason as well, bc it's more convenient for his methodology to be condemnable from the start (even if some small part of it can be explained via his emotional volatility post-resurrection) than it is for it to be grounded in even an iota of reality that actually allows for bruce's classism to be criticized in turn. i almost wonder if writers do so not only to keep jason stagnant but to keep bruce stagnant as well bc at this point it's easier to make him a target for everything in order to explore the desired themes in narrative. even the way willis talks to him in this fic is emblematic of that. it reads like talking points from a book more than it does an actual conversation that acknowledges bruce has any capacity for emotional intelligence and reformation of his views

#outbox