#haaah. im really tired of dealing with my body. i wish it wasnt so ill.

[pizzapizzadickz]

Haaah. Is it really too much to ask to have just one day (1) where I'm not achy and in pain?

#valid #diary #personal #chonic pain #haaah. its my hands today and my legs. #its bc i was working yesterday so im very sore. haaaah. #i honestly just wish i could have even a teny tiny bit of time where im not in pain #usually its not quite this bad but its probably been 3-4 days since i last felt mostly okay #ive just been in varying levels of moderate pain #probably between a 3-5 depending? #either way i just took an advil cold n sinus. bc i also have shit sinuses. which means ive also had a lot of headaches lately. #...they last so long bc i take Ibuprofen and forget to take advil cold n sinus instead bc that has ibprofen in it. #im really tired yknow? its not super painful or anything. but its super hard to do things i wanna lately. #my hands n body just arent moving as id like. #its really frustrating tbh. idk. i know i dont have it as bad as others bc i dont get dislocations rly. #but i just have chronic pain constantly. which makes it hard to function. especially bc im already so tired always. #in some ways id be nice if it was worse bc then id be or something. #it sucks being told all you can do for this crap is massage and physio and painkillers. #i dont think ive really ever been able to just enjoy shit. ive always gotten hurt so easily. theres always something fucked up #haaah. im really tired of dealing with my body. i wish it wasnt so ill.