#in new bodies each time

[koukaaa-descent]

Infinity is only worthwhile if there are others to share it with

#lethal company #lethal company masked #koukart #I'm normal i promise #this is a cry for help #tfw finding solace in another's arms is the only way ill ever find the light #thinking about 2 masks finding each other decade after decade age after age #in new bodies each time #carrying the other around when one doesn't have a body.. #something something familiar faces unfamiliar bodies

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

milex highlights from the studio brussel interview (x)

#just my favourite little deranged men being deranged #i feel like we don't talk about this interview enough #the wistful little stares #alex constantly reaching out to be in miles's space #the way they immediately look at at each other to share their laughter and amusement #alex caressing the back of miles's head in time to 'i'll follow the sun' #mirroring body language #alex looking down at miles and then reaching up for what appears to be his own nipple??? 😭 #deranged #i love all these little micro moments so much #i love THEM so much #(but that's not really news is it lol) #milex #milex gifs #tlsp #the last shadow puppets #arctic monkeys #alex turner #miles kane #my gifs #lulu posts

[andi-o-geyser]

“cody only has under an hour of screen time in all of star wars” maybe to you he does. to me he's the main character

#he's my most special little guy don't you GET it #in my mind's eye he also has at least an hour more of screen time from being in the kenobi show #because that's canon. FOR ME #bickering like an old married couple protecting luke and throwing bodies into the sarlac as a personal murder disposal on tattooine #everyone raise a glass for the first draft of the kenobi show that had cody chilling in the desert with obi wan as his secret buddy #where we would have had a deeper focus on themes of guilt and sacrifice and repentance and hope for a better future #by virtue of cody being there and exploring his new relationship with obi wan where they're foils for each other both driven by guilt #“my cody was so fun” yeah of course he would have been he's post war scrappy uncle cody killing bounty hunters every other thusday #how is that not the most fun thing ever #he's just so sunshiney like asfdsskk #he's my rotten soldier #he's my sweet cheese my good time boy #this is what i get for hyperfixating on clone wars for months on end #strong opinions on the rich inner lives of copy paste men and their 3 million brothers #*deep sigh* this is my life now and i love it and cannot save myself #star wars #the clone wars #the bad batch #tcw #sw #commander cody #codywan #tcw cody #clone wars #cc 2224 #(thinking of any more tags used for cody) #(nah i think we're good) #andis thought geyser

[secondchoice-ragdoll]

#you know if every house you move into is riddled w ghosts maybe its not the paranormal but the person u r living w... #or maybe the ghosts r trying to warn u abt smth😭 #one braincell one braincell one braincell #literally so in sync!!!4!4 #Ks hand is getting closer and closer to T on the back of that couch... #yes u should hang out some more. go ahead pls. #(atp not even just words. they say the same sentences at the same time. its happening. they r merging into one.) #compliments! #THE INTIMACY OF KNOWING EACH OTHERS FAMILIES #FOR GODS SAKE. I CANT TAKE IT😭😭😭 #cute that we have finally arrived to them admitting that they r besties. we may be actually getting somewhere. #(give them another 10 years and maybe they will manage to actually hang out? dare i dream!) #fucking love this dress on T!!! #they keep finding new and exciting ways to grab and hold eachother🧐 #“a three body problem is that im in a committed relationship-” hmmmmmm #K asking T abt videogames! so cutesy! #well at the end T did manage to fuck Ks wig off (just an ep later) #also her hand placement! hello!? #trixie & katya #trixie mattel #katya zamo #iltw #trixya

[sunlit-mess]

Okay, so I'm gonna try not to freak out, but uh.. I used to follow your art, and then my Tumblr went down, and I lost it.. the thing is I have you added on fb, and I'm ngl. I always thought your art looked familiar. Then I saw your Tumblr linked, and I honestly... cried. Your art always brought me so much comfort, and I was devastated when I couldn't find it anymore.. holy hell, I'm so excited. I can see more art now! I wanted to ask how you're holding up. I know life can be rough, and honestly, it's not nice more than half of the time to people who honestly deserve love. I hope you're gone from your old situation, though, and tbh I'm super happy I can see your art again! Though, tbh I'm nervous about messaging you anywhere since I'm not exactly... a friend or anything QwQ I hope you're doing okay, though, and I hope you have a nice day/afternoon/night!

Hello!! Welcome back!!! Glad that you enjoy my content still huhu 🫶

#messyr #As for situation- NO NOTHING'S NEW AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA (im going insane) #I don't know- The more I continue the more it gets worse and my body is also a bit-- too tired #the shit i went through remains a deep wound that re-opens every time they dig at the stitch. As for the present- #new wounds are painted to my brain and body- seemingly- each time they get mad oof #i'll be fine though- My coping mechanism remains the same: DELUSION

[raindear-a]

完璧なレプリカ。

Perfect Replica.

#I just think/believe these two can definitely make a perfect replica if they’re with each other #Jade can duplicate body and having a hard time giving them memories and the other stuff along the line #while Mithos having a hard time finding a new body for Martel and he’s already had her original body #they will definitely make it #fanart #digital art #doodle #illustration #tales of series #tales of #tales of fanart #tales #tales of crossover #crossover #tales of symphonia #tales of the abyss #tos #tota #toa #jade curtiss #mithos yggdrasill #replica

[glass-noodle]

What is Connor's worse scar so far?

Probably his tracker/monitor scar. He’s had several surgical incisions, but merpeople have an extremely fast rate of healing and regeneration (something that Kamski became particularly interested in after he’d caught Connor), so most of those scars have healed already, leaving only faint white lines if anything.

The scar on his temple, however, seems to be strangely persistent. It’s his most painful scar to date, and it’s also a constant reminder of everything that’s been done to him.

#lab merman au #hankcon #on one hand it would suck to have permanently gnarly scars as a physical reminder of all the trauma you’ve been through #but on the other hand Connor feels a weird disconnect between his body and his mind #he’s been through so much #and yet the only place it really shows is in his demeanor (and his gauntness) #his body is fresh for the scientists to make new incisions and marks each time #and he’s bitter about it

[archduke-enver-gortash]

mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again. #sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all. #imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs! #so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately. #but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when. #like. imagine that. jesus dude. #like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here. #but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

[shade-e-e-es]

Thinking about my etho design. I lovr phantom etho so bad. I think it’s so funny in my mind he was the First phantom. Specifically he was created at the same time as zombies and skeletons and Doc (who was the first creeper. To me.)

And in my head the reason Phantoms didn’t become wide spread until waaaaay after the world was created was because etho went I hate being this weird bat thing. Whatever it is. I’m gonna be a player.

And he did that. He just made himself into a people. Mojang didn’t want to start from scratch so they waited until like someone spotted this weird freaky flying thing. After years upon years they had to like go looking for him and just saw like. A guy. Just a dude. That is not their little freak mob baby. But it is

#him and doc have known each other since forever. doc helped him get a player to copy the code of. etho helped make doc a new arm #the player who etho copied the body of was joe hills btw #I have many thoughts #all the time #lord help me. if you’re curious ask me please I’m so autism I love to infodump

[gonnahaveabigtalklater]

headcanon: when Harry & Kim start back at the 41st, the precinct conspires to put them on super boring/irrelevant paperwork in a comfy, dimly lit room for like 3 weeks until they both recover from their respective sleep deprivations.

#because you KNOW Lt Concussion and Lt Lostallmyblood are going to insist on immediately starting work #they're gonna be like: I don't need even a single day off give me your hardest most gruelling case RIGHT NOW #JV is going to have a great time explaining snidely that as the new Mr & Mr Shitkid they have a backlog of 456534 forms to complete first #they're gonna be so pissed and he'll be like “that's right I fucked you >:)” #then he'll come back an hour later to tenderly put blankets over their sleeping bodies #I just like how the C-wing looks out for each other despite everything okay #disco elysium

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

jeremiah and reeve in canon meetup WHENNNNN

#+ LONAN & JEREMIAH MEETUP WHENNNNNNN #sorry to sideblog ppl who are now seeing these thoughts TWICE LMAO #but THE WAYYY JEREMIAH AND REEVE WOULD LOVEEEE EACH OTHERRRR #HARRISONNNN YOU FUCK !!! lmao my fault sorry BUT ALSO #lonan would admire and enjoy jeremiah's company so much like he would like that man #he would be like harrison wtf why did you choose me lmaooo #how can I canonically get jeremiah to meet both lonan and reeve #he could realistically meet reeve if he's ever idk... in fucking new york (guess Who Else is there) #waitttt jeremiah post breakup novella in new york #why am I literally just coming up with ideas for the novellas I've already written #body back = me and my ex are living in the same city we broke up in #we cannot do this again. OR CAN WE!!!!!!!! #I love novellas I could write these for the rest of my life #TAG ESSAY OVER OKKKK #wait editing to add it is actually 20 million times more plausible that jeremiah and lonan meet considering #THEY BOTH LIVE IN DOWNTOWN LAS VEGAS

[plantaagomaajor]

so sad (but also happy and fulfilled) after watching "marry my dead body..." I really need to see Nick smile tomorrow in order to calm my nerves

#haha you thought I could go a day without talking about ofts? no. #mmdy was sooooo cute and I actually loved the ending bc even though it was sad everyone got their own happyish ending #maomao got to reincarnate and minghan got a family and they got to meet and find comfort in each other even if only for a short time.... #bububububububububu I'm crying #and of course they'll meet again in their next lives bc they're fated to be together in some way in every life.... #just hopefully they'll both be humans next time and they'll meet while they're both alive and have a long and happy time together #in other news I really do hope we see Nick smile tomorrow... ngl the scene with him and Boston from the preview made me happy........... #BostonNick reunification?????? #only friends the series #marry my dead body #ofts

[kelpiemomma]

Ingo held Khan's scaled wrist gently as he examined the claws his friend now sported. Five fingers had been turned into four deadly talons, new to Ingo but already put to gruesome work by the hybrid.

"I'm sorry about your hands..." he said softly. Khan shrugged as he examined his other claws.

"Eh, don't sweat it. It's hardly the worst thing they've done to me." He responded mildly. As though his body being changed against his will to a weapon was the norm. Ingo glanced at his eyes, his fangs, the remnants of his horns- and remembered this wasn't the first time his friend had been altered against his will. His grip on Khan's hand tightened.

"Still," he insisted, "if we'd found you guys sooner..."

If they'd found Khan and Nana sooner, Khan would still have his hands and Nana would still have both eyes. If they'd been just a little faster to realize the hybrids were missing, to remember where they had come from, if they had pushed their pokemon a little harder to fly and fight-

"I'm glad you found us at all, honestly." Khan said it off the cuff, without thinking, but must have felt how Ingo's grip tightened again. He turned his head to look at his friend and Ingo felt mild dread at the look in his eyes. As Khan leaned forward he cringed back just slightly.

"Hey, look on the bright side!" Khan accentuated his words with a point from his claws. He must have seen Ingo's confused upset because he smiled wider.

"The bright side?" Ingo repeated. There was a bright side to this?

Khan shut his eyes as if he was a teacher explaining something incredibly simple.

"Oh, my sweet summer train man, of course there is!"

He stuck out his claws like Elesa and Skylar did when they were showing off freshly done nails. The scales gleamed in the light, dimly iridescent.

"I match your color scheme now!"

Ingo's gaze remained on the claws for a moment. Was this really a good thing? Khan had lost another important part of himself because he and Emmet had been too slow. Was the simple black nature of his scales that important? Could it make up for everything else?

He looked up with tired eyes, meeting Khan's gaze again, and realized that Khan was not as unaffected as he thought. He was giving Ingo the softest smile he'd ever witnessed on the other man's scarred face, his eyes half shut and gentle. Khan had been there when it happened, had suffered the consequences, just as he had the last time he'd been abducted. He would figure out how to deal with his new appendages just as he always had before. It was not quite old hat, but it was also nothing new, and something would have been changed no matter how quickly he and Emmet had arrived.

For the first time in the years he'd known Khan, the hybrid was being sympathetic and offering Ingo a comfort over something he had no control of. Yes, he now had claws and scales, but they were the color that Ingo most frequently found himself in. The color of one of his closest family members. Ingo wondered if Khan had used that as a way to comfort himself after it happened, but didn't dare ask. Instead he tried smiling. Surely it was weak, but the worried look in Khan's eyes lessened.

"Yes, you're quite right." Ingo grasped Khan's claws as if they were still his hands, holding them tightly. He would get used to them, just as Khan had. It would be alright. "Another color would have been quite unfortunate."

#Khan a. #I have no name for this au #TLDR Emmet and Nana met up in the future-present. Nana developed beyond Khan and they managed to track them down in Hisui #And get them home. Akari comes with ofc. Ingo and Akari go back to visit their friends in Hisui regularly. They return after a visit #To find Emmet in distress. While they were gone Khan and Nana were abducted by the organization that originally made them what they are. #Secret labs are not as easy to find as people think and it takes some time for them to track down where Khan and Nana ended up. When they D #They find nana missing an eye. Khan missing his hands. And (to their surprise and horror) Rei. From Hisui. #Who is now a (hisuian) Growlithe hybrid in a similar manner nana and Khan are also hybrids. #Everyone gets saved but not without some losses. Given ow hpeaceful everything has otherwise been... this is upsetting to the train men. #Akari copes by making a pros and cons list of their new abilities and helping Rei adjust to the future #(he can't go back to Hisui because he still exists there... nobody knows why or how he came to be in the organizaion's clutches) #Emmet and Ingo are determined to track down and eradicate the rest of the offshoot branches of the organization but each feel guilty #If they'd been faster. If they'd been smarter. If they'd found a clue a little earlier. #If if if if if. Khan and Nana are no strangers to undesired body modification and are already getting used to them. #(primarily by mocking each other. They're allowed to. They've seen the worst of each other in the first hybridizations and now this.) #For Khan it's very much a 'well. This wasn't planned. Time to adapt.' #At least they didn't give him soft mittens he couldn't inflict damage in #but now he has to be careful lest he unintentionally inflict damage (he cut Akari by accident once already. It gutted him.) #Anyway that guilt manifests into ingo apologizing (more than once) #And Khan trying to convince him it's fine. It sucks but it's fine. It's not ingo or Emmet's fault. #Ingo better appreciate gentle and sympathetic Khan while he's got him cause once the guilt is over Khan is going back to being a bastard #Also I apologize for the beanie but I haven't figured out hair for ANY info #And I was not about to draw his bitch ass hat

[goldkirk]

oh man, owning a body is way scarier than being in one while not owning it is

#wow it is so inconvenient to have a concept of autonomy that isn’t restricted #like it is better yes I get it but that doesn’t mean it isn’t an adjustment #I’m panicking less drastically with more time in between #but it’s still so hard to retain a grasp on the fullness of This Is Totally Only Your Body You Have The Ultimate Control Over It #because there’s just SO MUCH MORE that comes along WITH that and I have very little #processing power to sore as is #*spare #I don’t even know what a body is optimally supposed to be like how am I supposed to know how to make my way over to that? #and that’s all I have to say about that #shh katie #trauma recovery #and I just like. get to make every ultimate decision about it forever. like how close people can get or whether to do an activity or what #clothes I get to choose #and I get to say no to things and I get to defend myself if I want and I get to do fun scary new things in it if I want etc etc #and I love getting all these things! I love that it’s ‘I get’ #but most of the time what I actually feel is ‘I HAVE’ #I HAVE to decide each moment if I want someone to touch me I HAVE to decide if something feels good or not I HAVE to defend myself if I need #to be defended I HAVE to choose clothes with JUST me making my decisions I HAVE to change my body to be healthier I HAVE to etc etc #but then I feel ashamed and unworthy because I feel like I’m doing something wrong by acting or appearing ungrateful while #having such lucky amazing incredible way-more-than-I-could-have-imagined change in the past year #and so much to be grateful for beyond words #anyway there’s no lesson here it’s just a post it note saying where I’m at #I’ll move on from this to something else in a new stage as time passes #it’s chill #cult survivor #add to journal

[pepprs]

discovered miah_pie on t*ktok (<- i don’t have one btw i just stumbled upon her bc someone i follow on ig talked abt her) and her videos make me want to cry so bad. 24 year old dependent moment

#purrs #i went to a clothing store today to try to get new work shoes and pants bc the one pair i have of each literally have holes in them and are #falling the fuck apart on my body and it was a HORRIBLE experience largely bc i think everybody in town was out shopping for back to school #so it was super crowded and there were lots of screaming kids and it was extremely stressful + my dad got into a mini car accident while i w #was in the store (he was / is completely fine thankfully but the car is not which is so awesome 😍😍😍😍😍) and i was just so stressed and #overstimulated but also like… nothing fits me bc im so short lol. but anyway it was so horrible i was on the verge of starting to cry in the #store and then i came home empty handed and my mom got super pissed at me for… needing to go to the store / being the reason we were out lol #and then finding miah pie and her videos are all about making trips to the store SO much fun and buying little treats and saying yessir and #OHHHHHH MYYYYY and just finding the joy in smth that can be so stressful and unpleasant… it makes me want to cry happy and sad tears at the #same time like i want that soooo bad and i can’t do it fully yet but i want it. need it. fuck my stupid baka life #anyways im gonna start saying the stuff she says just to make myself feel better even when im not at a store. yessir! OHHHHHH MYYYYYY. #acquired. don’t mind if i diddly dooooo! #also btw i am not a dependent except for the ways i am a dependent. hope that helps 🫶🏻 #the problem is really that i don’t have a car or a license and also that my mom throws a fit every time i need / want to get driving #practice bc it’s never a good time so. lol 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 me doing drivers ed this summer was a fucking joke i forget literally everything i #learned and have only been behind the wheel 3 times and none of them have actually counted bc im just developing basic motor skills #(literally). fmlllll im never getting out of here who am i kidding 🤪 #delete later

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time