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shittinggold · 1 year

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🎵 FUFFY!!!!!!!

Okay. OKAY. You have to have known that I would never be able to narrow it down to just one song. I am going to have to dump about a dozen songs on you, each corresponding to a different era of Fuffy. If that's a problem - tough, you knew what you were getting into.

To start us off, both Bodybag by Chloe Moriondo and Saccharine by Jazmin Bean capture that early-Fuffy feeling of "I'm not sure if I want to fight you or fuck you and frankly I think it might be the same thing".

I could cry when I hear you speak but that just makes me angry Wanna kiss you on your cheeks but I also wanna punch your teeth I just don't get it, I just don't know Don't know if I hate you or if I wanna date you Put you in a body bag instead of my bed

You make me afraid Come closer, wait no, go away Disgusted at the fact I care Cut you the fuck off like dead hair

Speak Your Mind by Alice Merton is the anthem for That final scene in Revelations. I saw her in London a couple of months ago and she was great, but I need to see her again until she performs this song.

And you know that it's hard for me To look at you and realize you're part of me But nowadays you seem so far away from me So out of reach Won't you speak your mind? There's a silence in the room and it is killing me Won't you speak your mind?

If you wanted something for their wild nights bonding in Bad Girls, then Untouched by The Veronicas is a classic, and 100% captures that vibe: horny, but perpetually unconsummated. Speaking of Bad Girls, the song that plays when they dance in the Bronze - Chinese Burn by Curve - is a very Faith song.

She burns friends like a piece of wood And she's jealous of me because she never could Hold herself up without a spine And she'll look me up when she's doing fine Because the rage it burns like Chinese torture She's just someone's favorite daughter Spoilt and ugly as she willingly slaughters Friends and enemies they're all the same

I know they're TSwift, and putting Taylor Swift songs on a fanmix is a cliche beyond parody at this point, but I have to shout out three songs from Folklore - Hoax, My Tears Ricochet and The 1 - for being unavoidably great Fuffy songs.

For what it's worth, any song that references "the one" instantly rings Fuffy bells in my head, because "the one" is SUCH a loaded term for them (being soulmates who are in direct competition to be The One). As such, I present Uno by Muse, which gets at that post-Enemies feeling thy both have of feeling like the other really messed up by not following them.

You could have been number one And you could have ruled the whole world And we could have had so much fun But you blew it away

For the same period, but more focused on the rage and denial that comes with self-recognition through another, we have Anything Like Me by Poppy, which is definitely up there as one of the most Fuffy songs around.

I'm everything she never was Now everyone's out for my blood Stop, you're making a scene You're coming at me with blood in your teeth You shouldn't be anything like me You shouldn't be anything like me You'll never be anything like me You shouldn't be anything like me I feel her heart beating in me Get her out of me Love is never-ending in me Take it out of me

While we're doing cliches, I obviously have to mention that Kiss With A Fist and Girlfriend In A Coma both exist. They're like the complimentary breadsticks of Fuffy mixes - they're not what you're there for, but their exclusion would be a choice. Knife Going In by Tegan and Sara is also another surprisingly appropriate set of lyrics given how on-the-nose the title is.

I feel the knife going in I'm feeling like she's not enough to kill me I thought it up and fast But I'm feeling it now And I feel like she's sleeping inches from me I let it pass

Before we finish, I wanna take us to S7, which is just a goldmine - so many songs about that specific feeling of "we were once friends and now we're so far apart". I'll shout out Bad Blood by Bastille, I Want You by Mitski, and Maria by AliceBand, but most of all a slight wildcard - Forget About What I Said by The Killers.

We used to tear it down But now we just exist. The things that I did wrong, I bet you got a list. Now I know how you remember And those moments that you choose Will define me as a traitor Stealing everything you lose.

If S4!Fuffy is more your thing, then we have When I Needed You by Carly Rae Jepsen and Crash and Burn by Maggie Lindemann to both capture Faith's jealousy and anger after waking up.

You picked him over me And you left with no apology Felt a knife in your back Yeah, you thought I was the killer You're looking in the mirror

Or for the Who Are You body-swapping soul-muddying you-and-I-have-begun-to-blur of it all: Bloodstream by Stateless.

Words can be like knives They can cut you open And the silence surrounds you And haunts you I think I might've inhaled you I can feel you behind my eyes You've gotten into my bloodstream I can feel you floating in me

(Yeah, knives is another trigger word for the Fuffy bells)

To finish off, I'd like to bring us back to S3, and Graduation Day Part II. For me, this is the absolute peak of love and tragedy that makes their story what it is. Strawberry Gashes by Jack Off Jill is a great Buffy-POV song that expresses her feelings of wishing she have reached out and done something different to save Faith, while also understanding that it was Faith's choices that led them to this.

Scold me, failed her If only I'd held on tighter To her pale white skin That twisted and withered away from me, way from me Watch me lose her It's almost like losing myself Give her my soul And let them take somebody else, get away from me Watch me fault her "You're living like a disaster" She said, "kill me faster" With strawberry gashes all over, all over me

But if there's one song that works for both of them at this moment, it's Switchblade by LP. If I had a gun to my head and was forced to pick one song to sum up Fuffy, it would be Switchblade by LP. Both the mood and lyrics manage to capture the soul of it - the wistfulness and melancholy, the lost love and lost innocence, the doom and destiny, the pain that comes intertwined with affection. The homosexual yearning. Seriously, go listen to Switchblade by LP.

We were electric We were wild, we were free And I thought that you meant it It's hard to accept it That it's not meant to be But I'll never regret it I don't, I don't No, I don't, I don't Long live the beautiful hearts Who find love and tear it apart Long live the beautiful hearts Who find love and tear it apart All of the hurt you've been hiding away Cuts me at once like a switchblade So take every stab you can take And I'll give it to ya, give it to ya I always knew that you'd cut me someday I fell in love with a switchblade And I know that you did the same And I'll give it to ya, give it to ya

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#this was me being restrained btw #i want to burn a 4-part fuffy cd collection that comes with a little booklet #with choice lyrics and paragraphs explaining their relevance #fuffy #btvs

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captain-peroxid3 · 6 months

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Fuffy and Spangel for the fucked up ship bingo?

oooooo okay so! im on a fuffy part where there is loadssss of resentment and i! think! they fucked or they want to fuck in that classic buffy summers person in leather is into it and buffy is ashamed nd in denial wayyyy i dont think they would be actually'good' for eachother but i cant think of a buffy ship that is good for buffy. improves buffy. buffy summers forever teacher fr

OKAY SO I CONSIDER SPANGEL AS WHEN THEY ARE BOTH ALL SOULED UP! SO IF ANYONE WANTED TO ASK ABOUT SPANGELUS ,,,WINKWINK,,, uhm i make them watch movies and tickle eachother angel would have brushed spikes hair in the long haired eras spinning them around soooooo fast my guys my girls my vamps my one and onlyssss i think angel would let spike pierce his ear (he guilted him into it)

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isagrimorie · 2 years

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for the fanfic writer game: 1,2,3,9,18. Didn't realize you wrote fic! (You always have such quality fuffy posts, thank you.)

for this ask meme

Thank you for the kind words, I mostly just ramble and hope for the best in those posts!

What is your most popular fic?

According to AO3's analytics, my most popular story is my Root/Shaw (Person of Interest) story: Definitely, Maybe

2. What fanfic do you wish you got more response on?

I already have plenty (for me) for Conversations with Dead People (Person of Interest) but I wish more people read it. I think it's my favorite Shaw story I've written.

But also: My Life fics Human Landscape and Gethsemane, maybe my Doctor Who Rose Tyler-centric divergent AU: New Ground

(Man, I used to write a lot and look at those titles, they were my favorite era of writing).

3. What’s a fic idea that you have but haven’t written yet?

A LOT. Like, A LOT.

There's the Buffy/Farscape crossover/fusion

The Kathy Goes to NOLA (The Originals/TVD)

The Super Squad Timey Wimey adventures

Hope/Lizzie (no Humanity Hope and No Longer sire bonded Lizzie story)

Hope goes back in time and meets Hayley during her chaotic and ruthless TVD days.

And a few more I haven't written here.

9. What’s your favorite line(s) or scene(s) that you have written?

I think... I have to give it to 2 of my Life fanfic:

Human Landscape

Night fell quickly and Reese leaned against her car and watched the city come alive. LA spread out in all directions, twinkling. Somewhere out there another crime was being committed, another death, another tragedy. Reese shut her eyes but the twinkling of the city was imprinted behind her eyes. The car shifted and she opened her eyes to see Crews settle beside her. He held out his hand, offering her juice.

She looked at the plastic cup. There wasn't a juice bar around the area. Crews held it patiently before her, Reese took the juice off his hand, felt the moisture beneath her fingertips.

Reese breathed in the city, the night.

“I can work this.” With you, with all the other things.

Crews turned, he looked pale and as tired as she felt but when he smiled, the corners of his eyes crinkled. “I think so too.” -- /end/--

Gethsemane

Whenever it happened, it happened with waiting and faith and stubbornness and it happened because of many things. But it happened this way: into the long hours, into the sun setting high until the beams of light reached Charlie's face. He had a lot of freckles. Ted had observed this before and re-examined this observation when he had nothing to do--

Ted stopped breathing. Beside him, Reese's chair squeaked. Did he just see...?

"Crews?" It was a whisper and the hope in her voice matched the choked-up thing in his chest.

Charlie's eyes fluttered open. Ted stared. Charlie blinked once, twice, soaking in the sun. Ted wanted to speak but he was all tangled up in wonder, surprise, and just disbelief at what he was seeing, of what was happening. Charlie turned his head--

"Crews?"

--and smiled.

End

I remember writing both and tbh all my Life stories without plots but with a sort of stream of a conscious gut feeling. And, also, I think because of the tone of Salman Rushdie's The Ground Beneath Her Feet. I'm not saying, I write like him, but more like his writing in that novel was such a formative influence for me.

I miss writing these stories, I'm trying to get back to that kind of flow state but alas.

18. Recommend someone else fic! (And tag them if they have a tumblr!)

I'm going to recommend a story that's on my heavy re-read rotation:

Body Langauge by @explosionshark

Summary: Buffy and Faith have always communicated best when they're not relying on words at all.

Rating: Explicit.

I adore this story. Full stop. Yes, it's all about Buffy and Faith having sex but learning about each other, and navigating the messiness of their relationship.

But also Buffy realizes, yes, she does like girls too. And she's not just Faith-centric.

Also, this story wins because here Buffy is terrible at pillow talk and for that whole thing alone, it's worth the price of admission. No, really Buffy is worse than Faith.

#answered #juanabaloo #asked and answered #ask meme #tv: life #btvs #fic rec #doctor who

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sunnydaleherald · 1 year

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The Sunnydale Herald Newsletter - Monday, November 14

BUFFY Andrew is our—actually, he's our hostage. ANDREW I like to think of myself more as a (makes quote marks in the air with his mitted hands) "guestage"

~~Get it Done~~

[Drabbles & Short Fiction]

Meeting Place (Gen, PG) by badly_knitted

Stumbling Towards Happiness (Buffy/Angel, PG) by a2zmom

Victorian Era Fanged Four Fic Recs (Fanged Four, Not rated) by somekindofadeviant

Welcome to Zaun (League of Legends crossover, T) by Lokihatemywriting

[Chaptered Fiction]

The Time We Had Chapter 27 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Dusty

Colonial Bride Chapter 12 (Buffy/Spike, Adult Only) by Feanix88

Restful Souls Chapter 2 (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) by violettathepiratequeen

The Road to Hell.... Chapter 23 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by All4Spike

Daisy in the Dark Chapter 2 (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) by Dusty

Even Ground Chapter 13 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by honeygirl51885

Learning To Be Love's Bitch Chapter 14 (Buffy/Spike, PG-13) by Desicat

Odd Ducks Chapter 13 (Buffy/Spike, G) by violettathepiratequeen

Vacation with a vampire (Sequel to The Sphere) - Part 2 Chapter 5 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by Coraline

Bound Chapter 31 (Buffy/Spike, NC-17) by RavenLove12

[Images, Audio & Video]

Art: Lil Spike sticker by crybabyclubhouse

Art: Spuffy icons 27 icons by mcgnagallsarmy

Art: BTVS “Every Outfit” “No Place Like Home” Xx by whatshisfaceblogs

[Fandom Discussions]

Angel in Waiting in the Wings by herinsectreflection

Xander and Buffy's relationships by wikiangela

thinking about buffy saying “i think you don’t want us to let you go” in Something Blue by silvermars

the double-edged sword of fuffy by faith-thee-slayer

BtVS rewatch: SEASON 7 continued by Stoney

Does the blood of a Mohra demon return a vampire’s soul? by flow

Discussion of 6.08 "Tabula Rasa" - Aired 11/13/01 (UPN-US) continued by multiple posters

I just finished my first viewing of BTVS .... by Raising_Brahmer

I'd rather have a angel/blade crossover by Current_Ad_9850

Choose the best emotional scene from the list by Opening_Knowledge868

I wish we got a full crossover with Buffy & Angel by Almighty_Push91

Your favorite Angel Investigations lineup? by jdpm1991

Is this a shoutout to Buffy’s musical episode? by DrPepper450

Any Harmony stans up in here? by DrPepper450

Giles always held contempt for Xander, but they still shared some great moments by InfiniteMehdiLove

I wish they handled the whole "willow over-doing it with the magic" thing a different way by lunabuddy

Does Xander only want women he can't have? by Almighty_Push91

[Requests]

Someone here was gonna write a psychological paper on Buffy characters by AJ_Babe

[Articles, Interviews, and Other News]

Buffy The Vampire Slayer: 10 Funniest Tweets About The Series by Screen Rant

Submit a link to be included in the newsletter!

Join the editor team :)

#buffy #btvs #Buffy The Vampire Slayer #angel the series #angel #ats

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dushku · 1 year

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10 Things for 2023

tagged by @lesstat-de-lioncourt thank you for tagging me :)

A fic idea you want to write (or read): i don’t really read much fanfiction but i’m always on the look out for better endings for daenerys, fuffy fics where they get together after season 7

A place you want to go: poland, always! i’m glad i go to go in 2019 but i want to go back

A book you want to read: uzumaki (it’s next to my bed)

Something fun you want to do: play more sims lmaoooo

Something you want to make: i want to get a sewing machine and tailor some of my flare pants that are too long

A habit you want to start: eating less garbage

Something new you want to try: cooking (more intricate stuff)

Something you want to finish from 2022: deserter (in my junji ito era)

Something you want to stop doing: getting angry over small things

Something you want to keep doing: being grateful for one thing each day

tagging: @buffysummers @feylix @robert-englund @brandon-lee @dannypinot @moonlight @vhagar-apologist @tomcriuse @jennifersbod @elluvians

#tag games #no pressure to do this if you're tagged btw <3

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theowritesfiction · 2 years

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As my rewatch of BTVS continues, I figured I'd drop some of my mid Season 2 views.

I just can't believe how much the introduction of Spike and Drusilla elevated the show. And I know that everyone loves Spuffy, okay, but I'm sorry I've just always loved Sprusilla okay? It also works out because I prefer Fuffy anyway. And yes, I had a major crush on Dru. Spike is just fun in all the awesome ways in which Angel is a bore.

And speaking of Angel, he doesn't really get much better. The only interesting thing about him so far really has been his past with Drusilla. The 'puppy who accidentally peed on a carpet and is now very sorry' look he always gives Buffy is just so pathetic. Oh, and Angel was also in my favorite scene of S2 so far. So maybe there's something seriously wrong with me, but I thought Dru torturing Angel was insanely hot.

I sort of remember Xander getting more tolerable with time, but now I'm starting to think that my memories might be a little faulty there. He's really quite intolerable. The way he actively and openly roots against Buffy's relationship attempts is just... wow, what's wrong with you, dude, do you think that's going to make her like you? I know the 90's were a different era, but that sort of thing wasn't cool in the 90's, trust me. The 90's thing, however, is the way Buffy and Wil react to Xander's comments. It's just some light eye rolling and 'oh, that Xander, he says the darndest things'. The correct Buffy response to some of the things Xander says would be to put him in a full body cast.

#btvs rewatch #this is incredibly fun #and so 90's in both good and bad ways

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october24th · 3 years

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Resoconto Giorno 140

Ieri sera ho posato presto il cellulare e ho provato a dormire anche se non avevo così tanto sonno. Non ci sono riuscita subito, ho cambiato molte posizioni e alla fine credo di essermi addormentata circa mezz’ora dopo. Ho abbracciato il cuscino per tutta la notte. Zero incubi.

Stamattina sveglia presto, voglio riprendere il ritmo. Coccole a Lola e pulizie in casa. Alle dieci è arrivato il corriere a portarmi finalmente il libro di poesie ordinato l’altro ieri eeee che emozione, sono suuuuuper contenta. L’ho scartato subito e sono stata credo un minuto buono ad annusare le pagine. Adoro l’odore dei libri, quelli a cui siamo legati hanno un odore sempre diverso dagli altri... o forse è soltanto un fattore psicologico. Ho letto la prima poesia che sembrava parlare di me e poi ho fatto un giochetto con Robb. Praticamente mi ha chiesto di aprire una pagina a caso e mandargli la poesia pescata per fargliela leggere. La poesia si chiama Buffo, descrive lo stato d’animo provato da una persona come causa di un’altra, quella sensazione di dubbio e incertezza che va via con la magia della scrittura. Marco Gregò, l’autore, infatti scrive Scrivere mi serve per vivere svuota le mie valigie. Si dipinge come una marea, vittima e colpevole dell’amore incerto che prova verso la spiaggia che cerca insistentemente di raggiungere. Conclude dicendo che in assenza di questa persona lui soffriva, proprio per la consapevolezza della mancanza, ma era sopportabile... ora che questa persona c’è nella sua vita soffre ugualmente nei momenti di assenza proprio perché consapevole della presenza, ed è insopportabile. Credo che la parola buffo nel titolo si riferisca proprio a questo. Ricordo che la raccolta di poesie si chiama L’amore è alle porte ma io ho traslocato. Io e Robb abbiamo deciso di leggere una poesia al giorno, è strano e carino il fatto che voglia leggerle anche lui. Dopo il gioco ho riposto il libro per continuare a pulire casa.

Prima di pranzo mi sono lavata e vestita, che dopo devo andare presto da zia. A pranzo zero sgarri. Ho riposato giusto mezz’ora prima di scendere per lavoro. Ho accompagnato zia a fare la spesa, abbiamo preso i tortellini e il pollo per stasera e alcune cose per il pranzo di domani dei miei cugini. Dopo siamo andate a casa e come al solito ho salutato la cagnolina Wendy e il gatto Fuffy, Nicola invece dormiva e ho preferito non svegliarlo. Comunque ieri sera ho detto a Robb che diamo per scontato alcune cose e ne dimentichiamo altre, come me che ho bisogno che una persona mi dica ogni due per tre che mi vuole bene altrimenti lo dimentico, e oggi lui all’improvviso ha detto “te lo ricordi che ti voglio bene?” carrrrino.

Tornando a noiiii, zia e io abbiamo fatto merenda con una piadina, lei non pranza mai quando va a lavoro. Finita la merendella ho iniziato ad aiutare Antonio con la relazione di scienze scritta ieri, l’abbiamo compresa e memorizzata e pooooiiii ci siamo preparati per il colloquio con la professoressa di matematica. È durato quarantacinque minuti in cui ha praticamente parlato degli altri alunni e del comportamento degli altri genitori, della postura che Antonio adotta durante le videolezioni e pooooi, ma solo poi, abbiamo parlato di Antonio. Ah, ha anche parlato un po’ della sua vita e dei figli di genitori separati, eccomi signora professoressa eccomi. È sola, non ha nessuno con cui parlare e si è trattenuta con noi, un po’ tenerella. Comunque un po’ mi manca parlare con i professori che ti interrompono per parlarti sopra.

A colloquio finito mi sono messa sul divano a parlare con Nicola. Mi ha raccontato un po’ delle sue questioni di cuore e gli ho dato consigli. Ha detto che per lui è difficile non esternare i suoi sentimenti e che ahimè, proprio come me, forse lo fa in modo eccessivo e finisce per rovinare i rapporti. Quanto lo capisco! Mi ha raccontato di un suo amico in particolare per il quale prova qualcosa e gli ho detto di viversi la cosa spontaneamente. Quanto è bello l’amore nato da amicizie, io penso. Dopo è arrivato il mio turno di espormi eeee diciamo che gli ho detto della confusione nella mia testa, non gliel’ho spiegata per bene ma gli ho detto una cosa che è rimasta nella mia testa da quando è comparsa fino ad oggi, solo lui sa. Dopo la chiacchierata ho aiutato zia al computer con una cosa e poi ho giocato alla playstation con Nico prima di cena. A cena tortellini in brodo. Dopo io e lui siamo tornati in camera e appena ci siamo seduti sul divanetto mi ha abbracciata. Gli ho chiesto se volesse dirmi altro e ha detto di no, solamente l’abbraccio. Abbiamo anche fatto una piccola videochiamata con la zia di Modena, carina.

Sono tornata a casa prima delle dieci. Doccia, pigiama caldo e letto. Ho un leggero mal di testa. Oggi pomeriggio ho anche visto una puntata di My Hero Academia e ora ne ho guardata un’altra, me ne mancano sei, tra cui due da vedere con Robb, per completare la stagione. Domenica vedremo il film invece. Non vedo l’ora che arrivi sabato per andare da Imma, mi mancano un saaaaacccooo lei e la mamma, e poi avrò finalmente occasione di stringere amicizia con i gattini ormai cresciutiiii e cicciotti adorabili. Ovviamente vista la situazione non resterò a dormire da loro, ma ci passerò gran parte della giornata. Probabile che nel pomeriggio vedremo anche Antonella che non vedo da 10 di Ottobre.

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kirayun · 4 years

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Scrivere una fanfiction? - Write a fanfiction?

Scusate in anticipo il lungo papiro che vi ritroverete davanti e per quanti riguarda il fandom che ho taggato, ne parlo alla fine, dopo tutta la premessa su di me. Questo post è in italiano ma ho intenzione di mettere la versione tradotta da Google Translate appena finisce la parte italiana, basta scorrere la pagina fino alla scritta “English Version (With Google Translate)”.

Sorry in advance the long papyrus that you will find in front of you and as regards the fandom that I have tagged, I will talk about it at the end, after all the premise about me. This post is in Italian but I intend to put the translated version by Google Translate as soon as the Italian part ends, just scroll down the page until it says “English Version (With Google Translate)”.

Mi sto chiedendo se fare o no un tentativo di scrittura di fanfiction dopo tanti anni di sola lettura.

Ormai non ricordo neanche più quanti anni avevo quando ho cominciato a leggere le prime fanfiction e le prime ship (Fuffy, Fleurmione, Liley, Fangrai), so che su Fanfiction.net sono iscritto da Novembre 2012 quando ho cominciato a salvare fic Swan Queen tra le favorite e le story allerts ma è da prima di incontrare Emma e Regina che mi sono addentrato in questo mondo di storie ispirate alle mie serie e racconti preferiti.

Non ho una grande preparazione grammaticale, ho finito la scuola dell’obbligo italiana e i pochi tentativi che ho dato a quella successiva era praticamente una scuola tecnica per computer ma non ho mai finito il primo anno e quindi non studio seriamente da quando avevo 18 anni. Quando scrivo un post o qualsiasi cosa ho sempre il timore di usare troppo le varie “,” “:” “;” ecc., tendo a scrivere molto velocemente con la tastiera e se non fosse per i correttori automatici spesso lascerei parole scritte nell’ordine sbagliato o con errori di cui non mi sono accorto (ma se mi mettessi a scrivere prenderò l’abitudine di rileggere bene tutto quello che scrivo); non ho un verso senso di come deve essere la grammatica di una storia e ho la sensazione che scriverei quello che sembrerà di certo il lavoro di un principiante o di un bambino. Una cosa però devo ammetterla: ai tempi della scuola mi piaceva scrivere e inventare storie e una volta ne ho fatta pure leggere una alla mia insegnante.

Da anni grazie alla fanfiction non faccio altro che immaginare nella mia testa come cambierei io la storia di base o i personaggi di un determinato fandom e come mi piacerebbe che andassero le cose, ma la mia scarsa preparazione e il fatto che leggo praticamente solo storie in inglese tradotte in automatico da Chrome con translate non mi ha mai fatto provare a cimentarmi.

La lingua è proprio il più grande fattore che mi ha sempre fermato da provare anche le più piccole cose visto che la community inglese delle fanfiction è decisamente più ampia e riconosciuta di quella italiana e io sono uno che prima leggeva solo su Fanfiction.net, e ora anche se continuo ad usarlo, sono soprattutto su AO3. Con anni di storie tradotte, serie guardate in lingua originale con i sottotitoli e una piccola preparazione di base a scuola ho imparato molto inglese ma ancora oggi se devo scrivere un post in inglese da qualche parte lo traduco con translate e praticamente non parlo la lingua ma sto cercando di migliorare in maniera “casalinga” ovvero continuando con i sottotitoli e provando a rivedere cose già viste (film, serie ecc.) in inglese e con anche i subs eng per associare il suono delle parole alla scrittura. Questi sono i motivi per cui, vista la mia già poca preparazione in materia, le storie che pubblicherei sarebbero in italiano ma con AO3 come piattaforma principale e visto che il grosso del pubblico legge in inglese, non saprei neanche se ne varrebbe la pena fare tutto il lavoro che ci vuole dietro ad una storia (aspiro a farne una lunga, ma ne parlerò dopo) se poi i fandom a cui mi rivolgo non la leggerebbero per via della lingua diversa (e non so se in altre lingue i lettori usano il mio “trucco” di tradurre con Chrome o translate).

Non sono uno che progetta “il grande schema”: che pensa troppo in anticipo dove vuole andare con una storia, i personaggi, quando vuole finire...magari con il tempo e i tentativi la cosa cambierebbe ma in genere uso l’istinto quando mi immagino una storia e posso solo sperare che alla fine ne venga fuori qualcosa di sensato e soddisfacente che non mi faccia rimpiangere il lavoro svolto.

Non so quasi niente del mondo dietro la creazione di fanfiction, sono sempre stato solo un lettore, per cui non seguo nessuna community, blog o gruppo su cosa e come fanno gli autori i propri lavori ed è già tanto (grazie alle note degli autori) se so che cosa è un beta tester anche se io non ne avrei uno e non saprei come cercarlo, soprattutto nella mia lingua; il problema poi e che sono una persona molto timida e parlo di rado con qualcuno in chat vocali e pochissime volte con messaggi privati e anche se uso i social tutto i giorni (twitter, instagram, tumblr, facebook), anche in quel mondo solo soprattutto un lettore, postando pochissimo (twitter, instagram, tumblr,) o per nulla (instagram, facebook).

Le domande alla fine di tutto questo sono: visto tutto quello che vi ho raccontato sulla mia preparazione e le mie capacità, il fatto di non appartenere alla principale lingua dei siti in cui scriverei, il non sapere se e come porterò a termine quello che comincio, se avrò la pazienza di provare questa nuova cosa che da anni mi attira... insomma, dovrei provarci comunque? Devo dare almeno un tentativo? Vedere se ne sono in grado? Per me il mondo delle fanfiction sembra proprio il posto dove anche dei principianti alla scrittura come me possano provare a scrivere la propria versione di ciò che gli piace e ama e vorrei sapere se c’è posto anche per me e i sicuri disastri che creerei.

Domanda solo per chi legge in inglese: Eventualmente, versioni più piccole e corte delle mie fanfiction le leggereste (tipo qui su tumblr) se le posto dopo averle tradotte con Translate? Perché se per voi una traduzione del traduttore è troppo male allora magari evito di peggiorare quello che già sarebbe un lavoro abbastanza semplice.

E veniamo finalmente al fandom che ho taggato:

Skimmons/BioQuake

Perchè proprio Skimmons? (p.s. ho sempre preferito il vecchio nome ship, ma mi vanno bene entrambi). Skimmons è una ship che ho sempre adorato fin dalla prima stagione, e anche se negli ultimi anni la presenza del fandom su di essa è calata parecchio e per quanto capisca che nel mondo AOS è Fitzsimmons la nave principale (contro cui non ho nulla ed è una delle poche ship etero che non mi da fastidio vedere con le mie characthers preferite), ho e avrò sempre un debole per Daisy e Jemma insieme e rimangono una delle mie OTP più alte personalmente, affianco a nomi grandi come Swan Queen, Faberry, Supercorp e Clexa; inoltre sono uno shipper quasi unicamente Femslash (con poche eccezioni come Harmony e Snowbarry) e la maggior parte delle mie ship sono non canoniche (purtroppo!).

Forse proprio perché Skimmons a confronto di quelle altre ship ha un fanbase più piccola e vengono postate sempre meno storie che sento il bisogno di provare a crearne una mia versione, un mio modo per cui queste due dovrebbero stare insieme e riscrivere cosi la loro storia. Perché è proprio questo che vorrei provare a fare: io ho un debole per le storie che modificano gli avvenimenti canonici per farne la versione di quella particolare Ship; leggo anche molti AU ma ho sempre un sorriso sul volto quando trovo una storia che riscrive una serie o un film nella versione che a noi shipper di quella particolare coppia avremmo amato se fossero state canon.

La mia idea sarebbe di fare un tentativo di ripatire dall’inizio di AOS e provare a fare ogni puntata la mia versione, iniziando simile ai veri episodi e pian piano variando sempre più cose finendo in una direzione totalmente diversa con trame sempre più originali (evitando cosi trame e personaggi che non mi hanno mai entusiasmato troppo) e apparizioni crossover di altri fandom (ma praticamente solo dei personaggi, non le storie) perché una mio piacere segreto è immaginare le mie varie ship che interagiscono nello stesso universo (con questo non sto pensando ad una mega combinazione di tante ship ma solo non avrei problemi ogni tanto a farne apparire qualcuna, anche solo per poco, in una delle mie storie).

Ma Skimmons sarebbe solo la mia prima storia principale il “grande progetto” da fare con calma, postare per bene su AO3 e scritto nel tempo e quindi non escludo lavori molto più piccoli in tutti i vari fandom che amo quando mi viene l’ispirazione. Anche questo appunto “grande progetto” è una vera incognita e potrei non riuscirci neanche perché per farlo prima di tutto dovrei rivedere ogni episodio per ogni capitolo, trovare le idee per la mia versione, scriverle, rileggere e correggere, essere soddisfatto di cosa viene fuori… insomma è tutto un tale casino che potrei facilmente schiantarmi e rinunciarci, decidendo magari di ripiegare solo per cose più piccole e veloci.

Ed eccoci finalmente giunti alla fine, 1500 parole più tardi e almeno qualche ora a scrivere per spiegare non solo a chi avrà il coraggio di leggere tutto, ma anche a me stesso, i motivi e le domande che avevo dentro di me da tirare fuori e scrivere la mondo per vedere se questa è una strada che dovrei tentare.

By Kira

English Version (With Google Translate):

I'm wondering whether or not to make an attempt at writing fanfiction after so many years of read-only.

By now I don't even remember how old I was when I started reading the first fanfictions and the first ships (Fuffy, Fleurmione, Liley, Fangrai), I know that on Fanfiction.net I have been registered since November 2012 when I started saving fic Swan Queen between favorites and story allerts but it was before meeting Emma and Regina that I entered this world of stories inspired by my favorite series and stories.

I do not have a great grammar preparation, I finished the Italian compulsory school and the few attempts I gave to the next one was practically a technical school for computers but I never finished the first year and therefore I have not studied seriously since I was 18. When I write a post or anything I am always afraid of using too many "," ":" ";" etc., I tend to type very quickly with the keyboard and if it were not for the automatic correctors I would often leave words written in the wrong order or with errors that I did not notice (but if I started to write I will get into the habit of rereading well everything I write); I have no sense of what the grammar of a story must be and I have a feeling that I would write what will certainly look like the work of a beginner or a child. But I have to admit one thing: in school I liked to write and invent stories and once I even had my teacher read one.

For years thanks to fanfiction I have been imagining in my head how I would change the basic story or the characters of a certain fandom and how I would like things to go, but my poor preparation and the fact that I practically read only stories in English automatically translated from Chrome with translate never made me try my hand.

Language is precisely the biggest factor that has always stopped me from trying even the smallest things since the English fanfiction community is much larger and more recognized than the Italian one and I am one who previously only read on Fanfiction.net, and now even though i keep using it i am mostly on AO3. With years of translated stories, series watched in the original language with subtitles and a little basic preparation in school I learned a lot of English but still today if I have to write a post in English somewhere I translate it with translate and I practically do not speak the language but I am trying to improve in a "home" way, that is continuing with subtitles and trying to review things already seen (films, series, etc.) in English and also with subs eng to associate the sound of words with writing. These are the reasons why, given my already poor preparation on the subject, the stories I would publish would be in Italian but with AO3 as the main platform and since the bulk of the public reads in English, I wouldn't even know if it would be worth doing everything the work that goes into a story (I aspire to make a long one, but I'll talk about it later) if the fandoms I am addressing would not read it because of the different language (and I don't know if in other languages the readers use mine "Trick" to translate with Chrome or translate).

I am not one who designs "the grand scheme": who thinks too far in advance where he wants to go with a story, the characters, when he wants to end ... maybe with time and attempts it would change but generally I use instinct when I I imagine a story and I can only hope that in the end something sensible and satisfying will come out that does not make me regret the work done.

I know almost nothing about the world behind the creation of fanfiction, I've always been just a reader, so I don't follow any community, blog or group about what and how the authors do their work and that's already a lot (thanks to the authors' notes) if I know what a beta tester is even if I don't have one and I don't know how to look for it, especially in my language; the problem then is that I am a very shy person and I rarely speak with someone in voice chats and very few times with private messages and even if I use social media all day (twitter, instagram, tumblr, facebook), even in that world only above all a reader, posting very little (twitter, instagram, tumblr,) or not at all (instagram, facebook).

The questions at the end of all this are: given everything I have told you about my preparation and my skills, the fact that I do not belong to the main language of the sites where I would write, not knowing if and how I will finish what I am starting , if I have the patience to try this new thing that has attracted me for years ... well, should I try it anyway? Should I at least give it a try? See if they are capable of it? For me, the world of fanfiction seems to be the place where even beginners to writing like me can try to write their own version of what they like and love and I would like to know if there is room for me too and the sure disasters I would create.

Question only for those who read in English: Eventually, smaller and shorter versions of my fanfictions would you read them (like here on tumblr) if I post them after having translated them with Translate? Because if a translation of the translator is too bad for you then maybe I avoid worsening what would already be a fairly simple job.

And we finally come to the fandom I tagged:

Skimmons/BioQuake

Why Skimmons? (p.s. I have always preferred the old name ship, but both are fine). Skimmons is a ship that I have always loved since the first season, and even if in recent years the presence of the fandom on it has dropped a lot and as much as I understand that in the AOS world it is Fitzsimmons the main ship (against which I have nothing and it is one of the few straight ships that I don't mind seeing with my favorite characthers), I have and will always have a soft spot for Daisy and Jemma together and they remain one of my highest OTPs personally, alongside big names like Swan Queen, Faberry, Supercorp and Clexa; I am also an almost uniquely Femslash shipper (with a few exceptions like Harmony and Snowbarry) and most of my ships are non-canonical (unfortunately!).

Maybe because Skimmons compared to those other ships has a smaller fanbase and fewer and fewer stories are posted that I feel the need to try to create my own version, my way in which these two should be together and thus rewrite their history. Because this is exactly what I would like to try to do: I have a weakness for stories that modify canonical events to make them the version of that particular Ship; I also read a lot of AUs but I always have a smile on my face when I find a story that rewrites a series or a movie in the version that we shippers of that particular couple would have loved if they had been canon.

My idea would be to make an attempt to replay from the beginning of AOS and try to make each episode my version, starting similar to the real episodes and gradually varying more and more things ending in a totally different direction with more and more original plots (avoiding so plots and characters that have never thrilled me too much) and crossover appearances by other fandoms (but practically only characters, not the stories) because my secret pleasure is to imagine my various ships interacting in the same universe (I'm not thinking of a mega combination of many ships but only I would have no problem every now and then to make some of them appear, even if only briefly, in one of my stories).

But Skimmons would only be my first main story, the "big project" to be done calmly, post well on AO3 and written over time, and therefore I do not rule out much smaller jobs in all the various fandoms that I love when inspiration comes to me. Even this "great project" is a real unknown and I might not even succeed because to do it first of all I would have to review each episode for each chapter, find ideas for my version, write them, reread and correct them, be satisfied with what comes out ... in short, it's all such a mess that I could easily crash and give it up, maybe I decide to fall back only for smaller and faster things.

And here we are finally at the end, 1500 words later and at least a few hours to write to explain not only to those who have the courage to read everything, but also to myself, the reasons and questions I had inside of me to pull out and write the world to see if this is a path I should try.

By Kira

#skimmons #bioquake #agents of shield #ao3 #fanfic #fanfiction

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mistysnat · 4 years

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for the show ask meme: 9, 17, 19 (but you can't say s3 faith hehe), 23! 💕

9. season ranking?

okay this changes every day! seriously. but for right now i think:

1. season 3. season 3 will always be my favorite. not just cause of faith and fuffy (but like, hello) but also because i think it has the PERFECT balance of main arc and one off episodes. like, the faith and the mayor arc is my favorite main arc, and then we have amazing one offs like the prom, band candy, the zeppo, the wish, doppelgangland (vamp willow!!), homecoming, anne, earshot, etc. i mean this season is so amazing, there’s almost no bad episodes, it just has the perfect balance. i love it. the only slight negatives for me are xander/willow, the whole cheating thing, not enough faith in the beginning of the season, but this is the perfect season for me. seriously, faith BREAKS my heart. and bad girls happened.

2. season 2. ugh i love this season, and again it’s always going to be my second favorite. these two don’t change. the whole angel turning to angelus twist got me SHOOK on the first watch, and is the moment i really fell in love with the show. spike/drusilla/angelus is delicious. and we have adorable woz and xander/cordelia. to me the later scoobies could never replace the early ones, im sorry. willow starts to do magic! to me this season is the show at it’s most “itself” if that makes sense. still a lot of corny monster of the week episodes left over from season one, but still an amazing season.

3. season 4. i used to not be big on season 4. it was just such a jarring change coming off of my favorite era (the high school years) and my favorite season. i miss angel and cordy and my heart breaks when oz leaves. the setting was so different and weirdly...big and bright, and i was not ready. but now, while it’s definitely not a perfect season, i love seeing everyone...happy? this is one of the most lighthearted seasons of the whole show, and it’s just nice to see. happy buffy warms my heart. the main arc is pretty lame, riley is uninspiring, but there are a ton of fun one offs and it’s cool to see the show trying to find it’s footing again and figure out what it’d going to be next. it’s also the ONLY college season, which is weird. usually in shows that transition, they go to high school, and then stay in college for the next couple seasons. not this show, and the novelty of this being the only college season again makes it really unique in the verse and fun.

4. season 5. season 5 is crafted nearly perfectly. the glory arc is the most well thought out in the whole show imo. it twines together dawn (and yay, they bring in dawn! i love her) and glory and buffy in such an interesting way. there’s so much foreshadowing into buffy’s realization that she has to sacrifice herself to save the world, and the writing just feels elevated this season. that being said, i think this season was a little too main arc heavy, and really could have used more fun one offs to help keep the season from blending together. basically, this season and season 4 have the opposite problems. this is also where shit starts to get depressing, and while i do find it cathartic, it also isn’t as fun to watch. but i do love seeing more of who buffy is. as much as i want her to be happy, the depth she has and the pain she feels is part of why she means so much to me, so

5. season 6. listen...this season is very polarizing, and i feel like i’m of two minds about it. on one hand it’s depressing as hell, and can be uncomfortable to watch. willow’s addiction arc was misunderstood by the writers, spuffy went way darker then i wanted it to, and everything was just :/. on the other hand, one of the biggest reasons i love this show so freaking much is because of how much it took risks, how much it was unafraid to tell the stories it wanted to tell, how much it would experiment and “go there”. i just respect it. this show feels like art to me because it’s imperfect and it’s passionate and it puts it’s ideas out there. as much as i do prefer the high school era, what would this show be without the later years? not as thought provoking or meaningful i think. this season is a lot to get through and definitely changes the tone and characters a lot, but i feel like it has a lot to say and it’s beautiful and a super emotional journey for me

6. season 1. i keep debating putting season 1 higher because i really do love it. the little baby scoobies are so cute and happy!! HAPPINESS OKAY. i love seeing them meet and become friends. their chemistry and dialogue is so good. but ultimately it’s too short and doesn’t have that much to say. a lot of the eps are cheesy. still love it though.

7. season 7 is a fever dream. what the hell’s happening half the time? the writing was all over the place. the whole thing was dragged down by spuffy, even worse than in season 6. i love the idea of the potentials but them actually being there wasn’t super interesting. the scoobies never recovered and spent time together after season 6 like they should have. the scoobie separation in season 6, and even season 4, felt purposeful but in season 7 it felt lazy. the writing was... :/. it’s like they didn’t understand their own characters. empty places happened. i don’t like robin wood. i could go on. but i do like willow’s arc this season, i like kennedy a lot, faith comes back!!, chosen was a great and meaningful ending. i love seeing buffy grow into an adult and leader. a strong, beautiful, broken one. but ultimately wtf was this season?

17. most inspired storyline?

hmm, this is hard. a lot of them are. i love willow’s struggle with power, i love buffy’s whole arc, willow turning into dark willow. i think i’ll have to go with angel turning into angelus though. it’s such a great idea and twist and metaphor. it rocks.

19. favorite villain?

again hard! i love so many of the big bads (angelus/spike/drusilla, the mayor, glory and dark willow mainly). idk if this is just for btvs but i also lovee lilah morgan. a smaller one but i love sunday from the freshman. i really really love vamp willow she’s uhh sexy. i might have to go with her if i can’t say faith :)

23. best performance in an episode?

these questions are killing me!! sarah is amazing always. i love comedic episodes like living conditions and intense ones like innocence and i only have eyes for you, etc. spike is great a lot of the time. trying to pick specific episodes, alyson’s performance is amazing in wrecked when she crashes the car. i love eliza’s in enemies she’s just so fwjlfjw. giles when he kills ben. they’re all always amazing i can’t pick jdwlkmmdlwmlkmds

anyway lyd thanks so much for asking and im sorry this was so long!!

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