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lunarleosreblogs · 2 years

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i had a whack ass dream last night with like dark cacao and affogato and for some reason walnut was a main focus. And for some reason, affogato was characterized like @good-coffee-and-hot 's roguefort from our rp, but not ??? Idk it was very confusing BUT i rate this dream a 10/10 cus it had angst without bringing any if my personal issues in. Ty brain rlly appreciate it. I should watch more gacha react videos before bed (ironically, theyre funny as hell)

#The Collector #cookie run #At the beginning there were like diff endings #there waw alwo someone called and it was liie chesire cat from alice and wonderland #very entertaining #i wont tell yall what its abt tho cus its DARK #lets just say. rest in peace walnur #almonds gonna be so mad at affogato.... oh no........#also walnut turned into a kitten ? maybe ? we thouhjt tjat she didnt die ans somehow lived #as a kitten #she had a yellow and blue eye like pv #and was a brown tabby kitty #and kinda had this light cream splotch on her sides #also zero thoughts did i mention that. zero thoughts in those eyes.#great dream tho 100/10 loved it #im very happy now

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mayeetjim · 2 years

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patron saint of adding really funny notes on posts

Anon i love you

(platonic)

#I didn't think people actually saw my additions #im very happy now #thank you

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catmask · 10 months

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its true that romance amd friendship will not solve everything but. objectively speaking its very hard to get sad when you can say 'lets go get cake tomorrow okay' and someone will go get cake with you. like there is some good at least. you know

#i think this is why ive been so much more geniunely happy these last few years #like. i will never be going to bed alone. i will always have someone who wants me here #i will always have someone to say 'im sorry im not feeling very well now' and they will be concerned instead of being annoyed #at you as if those feelings are an inconvenience #scratchpost #txt

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bleedingheartsandminds · 9 months

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when i was younger

i loved my birthday

presents and parties with all of my friends

as the years dragged on and the knives manufactured by resentment and annoyance were bought

i started to dislike them

the feeling of loneliness that has slowly crept in in the last six years

has made me hate the day that gave me life

those major celebrations already given to an older sibling

16, 18, and now i will sit for my 21st birthday in a city i don’t know

grieving a different life with a different outcome

wondering why i am always alone

#no title #depression #this is when i was in the peak of my depression #im very happy now #but i wanted to show my range #poetry #poetry workshop #angsty poetry #queer artist #poem

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inkskinned · 1 year

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something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering.#it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now...#... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy.#(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

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tatck · 3 months

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Issue 2 Vagabond Comic Part 4/?

Style change! And I am giving the middle finger to backgrounds.

Ko-Fi - ISSUE 1 START - PREVIOUS - ALL CHAPTERS - NEXT

#eggman #sonic fanart #metal sonic #amy rose #sonic the hedgehog #stvh #my doodles #vagabond au #sonic au #Sonic fan comic #stvh!comic #dont look too closely at the bgs 😬 i am too lazy for them #not ship #i feel like im gonna have to tag this comic with that lest i be misunderstood #doing my epic gamer move of posting at 3am again ✌#i'm very happy eggman i can finally show off what eggman is like now #i hope i can do my idea of him justice and that he isn't seen as too far off as an eggman

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cabi-leodrann · 2 months

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Picked up watercolor again, after not doing anything with it for years lol Pretty happy with how it turned out!

Anyway, Cult of the Lamb fanart- because it lives rent free in my head. Specifically the Lamb/Narinder ship. I live for this ship, I do not know why. It just scratches my brain like very fiew ship can.

#cabi leodrann #traditional art #watercolor #cult of the lamb #cotl lamb #cotl narinder #lamb #cat #red #art #flowers #I am very proud of how it turned out #like watercolor is hell when youre rusty #but it went pretty well and smooth #only Narinder was a bit of pain on the contrast #still room for improvement but im very happy right now

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tianhai03 · 10 months

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i watched re death island today!!!!!1 it was really good!!!!!!!!! had to draw smth to celebrate :)

#guys. its a good movie. if youre a re fan youre gonna love it. go watch it when it comes out its GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!#im forgiving capcom for the crimes they committed in infinite darkness death island makes me so happy im willing to ignore them #god. i wanna rewatch it already. when is the movie gonna get online i need it so badly #resident evil #jill valentine #chris redfield #claire redfield #very happy to finally see the siblings interact on screen btw. took 20 years but im glad capcom finally did it #now remake code veronica please #rebecca chambers #leon s kennedy #allyart

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seagull-scribbles · 8 months

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All of my Out of Touch Turts-day for easy comparison 💕

Which one is your favourite?

[1987] [2003] [2007] [2012] [2018] [2019] [2023]

#TMNT #out of touch turts day #studying all the different styles was fun and I think I learnt skills as it went on for sure #it was a lot of fun doing things differently than usual each week all summer #whats your fave animated turtle version? did I do it justice #one of my irl friends was very supportive of this & asked if i was going to do a comic version and idk maybe next year i should explore tha #but im happy to stop for now like drawing 7 characters 7 times is just a lot for me #well almost…..rip mutant ay hem Casey jones ahaha #i worked out this took somewhere between 65-75 hours to do and just gosh....i didnt know i had that in me

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mipexch · 9 months

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comic about v2 and the goal they'll never fully reach alongside a dissatisfying conclusion. intimate rivalry and all (alternative ending comic. V1 dies instead of V2 during 4-4. V2 is narrating. V1 is dead.)

#high of victory drops to an overwhelming crushing feeling of what comes next now that youre done #if it wasnt clear v2 is trying very hard to put v1 back together after it kills them. very very poorly. weight of your actions hits #v2 #v1 #ultrakill #v4v #heavy implied at the very least. see as you will #i realize now that the writing is very disconnected and so are the drawings but bear with me here. do you see my vision #theres something going on between these two that is beautiful but also extremely codependent #at least on v2s end #tried to do those two descriptive pages in a way where it went like. 2 - 3 small details about v1. and then something very specific. some-#-thing theyd only know if they paid close attention to how the other acted or looked #took me a few days to put together and im pretty happy with it i think #feel free to dub or do whatever as long as you gimme credit where credits due #there are many ways to interpret v2 and this is one of them #gen art

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liecanthrope · 9 months

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wait because seriously being an adult therian fucking rips, especially when you start being independent.

dog with a blog? nah. dog with a JOB. i come into work with my tail and my theta delta necklace and the building implodes from my sheer swag. weirdo teenagers love me. also having your own paycheck means you can get whatever gear/treats you want (once bills are paid, of course - bet youve never heard a dog say that!)

living in your own apartment? well the pet limit is 2 but if i include myself im going over the limit. whoops! good thing i love lying to landlords (fuck landlords). living alone (no roomie) is even better bc theres no one to judge you for your animal habits. i can make a huge den in the living room and who is going to stop me?

i even have my own health insurance. bro. imagine being a dog with medicaid. im climbing the walls and howling and barking. i love being a dog filling out government paperwork.

having your own vehicle? THIS DOG CAN DRIVE! if i feel like going to the lake i can just go to the lake! nobody is stopping me! midnight ride with the windows down to howl at the moon? yes please!!

you can literally just go wherever bro. i moved 11 hours from my hometown to the mountains to feel more at home. i lived in the great plains and now i can just go out for a hike in the rockies and howl at the sky.

being an adult therian slaps so fucking hard i cant wait for the youth to grow up and experience the joy of freedom. yes being an adult is incredibly stressful but if youve been stifled living with family, you get a real chance to develop who you truly are. adult therians i love you im rubbing against your neck and mixing our scents. mwah.

#no shame of course if you do not or cannot have these things #but i wasnt granted much independence as a youth so im very happy now #sorry for the ramble im just feeling rlly accomplished today #still settling into the new apt but i finally got my books and some of my trinkets unpacked and set up :)#feeling a little more homey and im enjoying the weather quite a bit. we're having a rainy week #angel barks #therian #therianthropy #dog therian #wolf therian #feline therian #otherkin

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drawnfamiliarfaces · 4 months

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Heroes of Millennium (HoM) AU

Act 1: What was left behind. - Part 1 <- Part 2 <- Part 3 <- Part 4 <- Part 5 <- Part 6 (here)

#hom au #heroes of millennium au #danny phantom #dp #danny fenton #jake long #american dragon jake long #adjl #rc9gn #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #randy cunningham #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #aaaaaaand scene! WE MADE IT FOLKS!!! ACT 1 aka SORTA INTRO IS DONE and all before 2023 ended!#its an accoplishment for me to finish any comic project so im very proud <;) thank you everyone who liked reblogged and left comments #im very happy to know there are people enjoying this! and future kudos to all people who might enjoy it in the future ;D #now lets hope i actually figure out how to go about act 2 lol #also of course it wouldnt be me drawing anything rc9gn related without inserting first hAH its i m p o r t a n t

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stealingpotatoes · 9 months

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hands you all this cal to announce i’ve FINALLY finished fallen order (by which i mean i finally picked it up again after those couple hours i played a few months ago and then finished the whole game in 2 days lol)