#im totally so okay

[adharastarlight]

i want to go back to being a baby when crying all day was considered normal and not a "psychiatric meltdown"

#im totally so okay #totally fine #im fine #i just want to be okay #but alas #nervous breakdown #and depression #depression is a bitch #mental unhealth #mentally unstable #im crying

[someawkwardnerd]

lautski on the bus

#dont mind me posting another laustki thing :) #listen theyre just cute god #i have so many sappy sickenly cute ideas and theyre the perfect characters for it okay? #who knows how many of those ideas I'll ever get to.. at least i got this one pit #out* #i also just wanted to draw more of them after rewatching npmd haha #not sure i rlly captured their characters design wise but im happy with how it turned out anyways :) #I'll just have to draw pete and steph more so that i can capture them better :) #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #team starkid #starkid #starkid fanart #stephanie lauter #peter spankoffski #fanart #my art #animation #hatchetfield #hatchetfield universe #hatchetverse #hm sappy and sickenly cute is actually not totally accurate actually but i digress #lautski

[konigsblog]

ghost putting a gun to the back of your head while you suck him off.

#someone hold me back from writing this 😵‍💫 #you cannot tell me this isn't something simon would do #like please he so would #and he'd make sure you were slobbering and drooling and making a total mess from the pressure #just so he could praise and degrade you for every little mistake #your cheeks would be bruised and aching by the end of it from being smacked #and don't forget about a sore head from him smacking the gun against your head :( #okay im rambling ill stfu now 🫣 #simon ghost riley #simon riley #ghost simon riley #mw2 ghost #cod ghost #ghost #ghost call of duty

[chirpsythismorning]

Thinking about the what if El was never interested in Mike romantically, she just assumed she was discourse on the tag today and how it's very possible what could make El fully realize this, is when in s5 she see's Will's love for Mike in real time, for the first time, and she's just like damn! That is not me!

#byler #no but arguably that already happened.. #remember that! you're the heart #el listening: you're the what now?? im sorry but that's corny as hell. could not be me! #i feel like this could be how el confronts will in s5 about lying to mike #i think it's interesting they had that talk with will and el about her lying to him with will calling her out #if to not circle back to it in some way for her to be like hypocrite much? #tho i doubt that's how it would happen #i have a feeling el is going to understand in will's case in contrast to her and mike's argument #like will and el are siblings so yeah they fight #but i just get the feeling she's going to sense something is up with them (already does) #and something big will happen and i feel like she's going to see the truth before they're able to #and i think will is probably going to realize last because he really does not think it could ever happen now #and also because of el i think will would feel like its wrong unless he was confident she would be okay with it #so i could totally see will not allowing himself to be happy in that sense even if he realized mike could return his feelings #but by then mike's already made his peace with el and they're good #UGHHGHHG s5 arrive now! #no but isn't it kind of side eye that they've never shown us el be confronted with mike and wills friendship at all? #like in s1 and s3 at the end Mike mentions will in his plans with el #and that's about where it ends #we have not seen her exposed to their dynamic and like reacting to it before #UNTIL THE END OF S4!!!

[witchinatree]

i know the whole "do you think jon ever used his powers to Know what his parents looked like" thing is far more devastating than this but what if he tried using his powers to remember original sasha? jon and sasha always seemed closer than the rest, he picked her (and tim) to work with him and tolerated a lot more nonsense from her than anyone else (using his password to access his computer [161], debating his pronunciation of calliope [25], etc)

and ofc jon and martin became significantly closer as the podcast went on, but in the beginning he was cruel to martin when he gave a statement but accepting of sasha? idk i think their friendship was a lot deeper than we realized (ESPECIALLY since his first murder in season 5 was because NotThem provoked him about sasha) and i think jon wouldve used his powers to Know the original sasha, not sure if it wouldve worked though

so so sorry to distract from the post but can yall read the tags for me because i suffered immensely for this post

#they make me ill #sasha was so cool i miss her every day #i think we need more sasha content #idk i wish we got more of them specifically #THIS POST. HAS CRASHED. 4. TIMES. #i am trying to write about the magnus archives and its like “hee hee tumbeast ate your post” give it the fuck back? #it saved to my drafts after the 4th tag but this is pissing me off #every time i try to tag it as “tma” it crashes so im not doing that #just pretend i did ok #16 more times total of 20 every time i try to write tags it crashes #it wont let me write the archivists name im genuinely so serious #please help me please help me #im gonna sit here for a second and let it save as draft #6 more times #ur joking #total of 26 crashes over this one post #hate to distract from my incredibly brilliant insight but this is unusable #i think its okay again actually? #gonna try tagging with real tags wish me luck #jonathan sims #jon sims #sasha james #tma #the magnus archives #the archivist #notthem #notsasha #tma theory #tma spoilers #holy shit it worked

[love-3-crimes]

HOLE-DWELLING HOLE-DWELLING HOLE-DWELLING

#i sure hope the video doesnt get messed up #made this on procreate dreams btw! #im so cool that i didnt need tutorials #i totally didnt crash the app like five times because i kept messing with it #chonny jash #angelo tag #i think this took me like four days? #idk i kept getting distracted with school stuff #hello person still reading the tags #shh dont tell anyone but its my birthday today #i only celebrate w family so u are the only one that knows #okay byeeee

[stiffyck]

I'm posting it before I can back out

No one will ever see me again goodbye I'm going to chuck myself off a cliff now

#i dont even wanna tag this #its bad quality on purpose btw #i totally could give you the hd version but i would most likely have to kill myself to do so SKFFKVKSG #my urge to draw gay people is strong but my embarrassement is stronger #gtws #jimmy #trafficshipping #hermitshipping #i dont even know if i should tag it with my art tag.... #ill do it. just for you guys. but i will be ignoring it every time i see it #my art #OKAY I SHOULD STOP RAMBLING #GOODBYE EVERYONE IM GONNA GO DIE IN A DITCH NOW NO ONE TALK TO ME #solidaritimes #i was made aware there is another tag for them: #scaridarity #which is somehow worse #(i do not like their shipname its so. weird idk how to describe it djgkrgls) #how do people draw kissing this is EMBARASSING #okay okay ramble over i really nees to stop procrastinating and just post it

[ghostorbz]

I made graphics instead of going to bed

Plus zadr stuff,,,

#im so tired uugghhhh #anyways #i tried doing more of the show style... figured people would like that more i guess #they make me SICK i hope they EXPLODE (i love them so much #art #my art #invader zim #nickelodeon #zim iz #dib membrane #trinkets #pixels #blinkies #sorry i am literally so embarrassed to post this for no reason #ive posted zadr before i just feel like im gonna get thrown into a volcano for this one #even though i LIKE what i made and i LIKE zadr #okay. okay im normal #zadr #zim and dib romance #👍ok #forgive me father for i have sinned. i am cringe #OKAY okay im like so normal and stuff and im like totally not nervous to post this #<- LIE #okay SHUT UP just post it. loser

[wr0wn]

#give me one second #winter king #adventure time #adventure time fionna and cake #adventure time simon #art #digital illustration #illustration #fanart #artists on tumblr #im so normal #totally fine #im chewing on drywall #he so cute #but so not okay

[lesbian-sunshim]

see art up to the day before or leave a tip!

rare pairs for your consideration 9/50 - celestia x sunset shimmer

#my little pony #mlp #princess celestia #sunset shimmer #for obvious reasons this is NOT SHIMMER VERSE this is a separate au using the canon characters in a totally different situation #okay we cool yall we good? #she's less a twilight here and more a tempest or a shining #another body guard au #i was thinking it took place in the lunadancer au #im not sure why i went with kirin mix for sunset here but catching fire when emotional is an interesting concept on her #maybe she and moondancer are related here?? #anyway i took weed and that's how celestia's mane happened #goddammit i fucked up my DA queue again so this one is going up early :X

[p4nishers]

no no this is ACTUALLY so fucking embarrassing for him no wonder he was an absolute bitch in rome

#i was upset first but its actually fucking hilarious i am having so much fun #i dont blame azi for rejecting him so much he probably needed to erase this first from his memory #it looks like something died on his face i CAN'T #aziraphale goes to meet crowley like 'i cant wait to see my beloved crowley ☺️☺️' then goes home and vomits #okay its not THAT bad...is what i would say if i wasn't a total bitch but since it is im gonna keep pointing and laughing #good omens #crowley #good omens season 2 #good omens s2 #ineffable husbands #azicrow #inefabble husbands

[relaxxattack]

every time someone calls moirallegience just an alien qpr i wilt a lil like YEAH thats more or less the CLOSEST human thing but its also Literally Not That. like a qpr is fundanmentally not romantic and thats not even going into moirails whole Actual Purpose of calming ppl down. its just. aughhhhh pisses me off i see the confusion but, as aformentioned, aughhhhh

OH MY GOD THIS HAS BEEN BOTHERING ME TOO.... but i don't want to get petty at the people in my notes always saying "moirails are QPRs!" because in some ways that is the closest human thing so it's hard to be mad...

i think there's definitely some overlap in some ways. but NOT because moirallegiance and qprs are the same at all really, but INSTEAD because both relationships have unconventional boundaries defined by the people within them.

you know... like every relationship.

like the only reason the two have overlap is because they are both partnerships that emotionally care for each other but can choose to not bang (which is true for any romance anyway, even if it's considered abnormal). they're both just romances* that are unconventional to human norms, which makes people view them as the same thing when they're not.

i think the REAL issue here is that humans insist on using human words to understand things that are just, fundamentally, alien. can't we just appreciate alien romance for being... alien romance?

no, it's not platonic, it's romantic. it's just romantic in a way you aren't quite wired to understand, is all.

*in generalization, most QPRs are not romantic, because they are made up of aroaces who are life partners in a non-romantic way. however i want to disagree with you that none of them are romantic, because that is up to the partners in question.

#quadrants #homestuck #moirallegiance #BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS FOR SO LONG OMG THANK YOU FOR THE ASK #its just i USED to think they were the same #and then recently i kept getting pissy when people said they were the same so i was like. okay let's unpack this #what's the overlap here and what's the differences? #and really people THINK theyre the same because they think theyre both like. 'im gonna platonically marry my friend!' ^w^ #(which is obviously not actually what either of them are like. lol) #when REALLY what they have in common is 'hey you're a person i want to have a committed partnership. but potentially not sex or tradition' #and it's not really fair to compare them because they come from totally different places and have totally different standards #QPR was created as an ALTERNATIVE to allonorms. its about saying 'hey lets make up our own rules. my life partner can be platonic if i want #whereas moirallegiance IS a norm and its not counter any culture. it's just 'trolls have biological romantic feelings/needs in This way.' #idk idk how to explain it any further because ive spent a fucking hour on this post and i have a massive headache so feel free to ask me-- #more specific questions if the shit i said here doesnt make any sense (；￣ー￣).. #<- wow haha the troll fictive autism really jumped out with this post huh. whoops #hsmeta #long post #op

[inkskinned]

will it ever be enough? when someone loves you, you feel something curl inside of you, sour and whiplike, angry at being unheard. they don't really love you, they love this facsimile you have ensconced in your rabbit body. they will chop up the bits of you looking for luck and never find the good soul you promise - their love slides off. you're viscera; you have spent a lifetime promising the blood is art.

oh but when someone hates you - well, they're right to. and you'd trip over your little grassknot legs for them. begging them to reconsider. you feel it all knifeedge, spinepoint straight through you. they're the ones who see the real you, after all; and if they can love you, you might finally feel worth something.

but if they do love you in the end, after all of that, after your heart like a fawn opens to gutter under them - you've fooled them, and it isn't worth anything anymore. they've just gone and fallen for it. the love slides right off.

once, you heard a line in a musical about being abandoned. you laughed at the time, unnerved. your voice a keen; too shaky to be candid.

will it ever be enough. will the love ever diffuse through your skin and sink into your marrow. are you even capable of feeling that - of feeling cared for - or are you still waiting, even right now, for the hunter to draw the bow and arrow. if you trust that love, even once, and are wrong, you know exactly what will happen.

and somehow you know - you'll never be able to fix that, once it's been broken.

#spilled ink #warm up #............... #... #okay to be honest #i had half a gummy and couldn't sleep #and i was like. how is it possible #i've never tried writing under the influence #psa: im 29 and in MA it's legal #i mostly take them to sleep so i haven't had the brainwave of like. #''....... other artists probably get high ...." #im too busy being like . #okay so if i take meticulous notes on the effects of each carefully measured portion i take per diem #i might be able to find the optimal amount for sleeping #if i'm held at a 45 degree angle and ive worked out for more than 30 minutes and ive walked a lot #and all of my work is done and my floor is clean and ive had a shower AND i have been able to find the right rain playlist #THEN i can sleep for a total of 7 hours #(i usually get 4. i know. trust me when i say I KNOW)

[intelligentbees]

Ik we stevetonies love our ‘Steve pulling Tony out of a bender in the workshop’ trope but me? I LOOOOVE the other way round. A bad mission and Steve loses someone - he tried to save them but it was too late, he couldn’t get there in time. And post-mission he just holes himself up in the gym and stays there. For days. Working himself to exhaustion just so he can shave half a second off his sprint (half a second and that person would be alive), punching bag after bag until his hands are bloody and raw.

Tony is the only one who can get through to him like this. It’s only his voice that can make Steve pause, come back to himself. Sometimes Tony has to actively stand in front of whatever it is Steve’s attacking, which absolutely infuriates him, but damn if it isn’t effective in a way only Tony no-thought-to-his-own-self-preservation Stark could be. And Tony is equally as infuriated that steve is insisting on doing this to himself, but even though his tone is angry, his touch against Steve’s knuckles is impossibly soft.

He’ll drag Steve back up to the land of the living. Put him in the shower and clean him off, freshen him up, make him feel human again. Steve will already be healing, of course, but Tony still tends and bandages his hands - attentive to the finest detail, devoting every part of his mind to just making Steve feel a little bit better.

They don’t talk much throughout this. God knows Tony’s tried it before, but Steve is never in the headspace for it, and Tony never says the right thing anyway. But he’s there.

He runs his fingers over the back of Steve’s palms. Up his forearms. He strokes the sharp curve of Steve’s neck, settling against the quick pulse. Steve’s face is blank, but Tony is always surprisingly patient with him. He waits.

“I’m fine,” Steve will say every time, while his face will say the opposite.

“You’re an idiot,” Tony will respond. “I’m locking you out of the gym.”

He won’t. Steve needs it, even if it’s unhealthy, even if it’s agonising for Tony to watch. This is just how they get through.

But Steve will see the way Tony is looking at him- distressed, angry, worried - and it’ll break through the fog. The thing that always takes priority over everything is Tony, and even though Steve’s brain is screaming at him to get right back to it, he just can’t put it above Tony’s well-being. He couldn’t ever do that.

“I Guess I can take a break now.”

#stevetony #Steve Rogers #tony stark #um. merciless killing machine Steve tearing apart punching bags in the gym. #until Tony walks in and simply. steps right in front of the line of fire. totally fearless. #not even FLINCHING when Steve’s fist flies toward his face because he knows Steve will stop before it lands. #AND IT DRIVES STEVE FUCKINF CRAZYYYYY BECAUSE ITS SO DANGEROUS DONT FUCKING DO THAT JESUS #and Tony’s just like. okay. anyways now I have your attention can you PLEASE get the hell out of here’ etc etc etc IM INSANE FOR THIS #LOVE IT. GIVE ME ALL THE FICS.

[helldreamz]

sketches

#🎮 post #total drama #noah tdi #noah td #cody td #cody tdi #noco #cody anderson #noah sterecra #dont tag as kin/id/me #i literally havent drawn in so long my art style changed so much but im honestly okay with that #i also forgot to add another shirt collar for cody but um #i feel like it isn’t that noticeable #hopefully #i 🫶 cody #cody i love you

[romansmartini]

#disco elysium #im literally bumping ecstatic vibrations totally transcendent right now #this should be for sea power a little but i love egg head okay. #he gets me #fun fact by the way that a sea power song is once featured as the weather in welcome to night vale. which makes a lot of sense #sorry for fundamentally changing the format of this meme btw but you guys have phds in meme so i know it’ll be fine