#im sorry for vagueposting its not really my thing

[lovesickgyu]

that counts for a closure then haha for the past few i genuinely i thought we could talk again but well i guess it's over

#im sorry for vagueposting its not really my thing #pls let me go this once #i just need to get it off my chest #friendship breakups are the hardest ever i'll never get over this one

[widevibratobitch]

me when im obsessed with dead singers from 50 (well... mostly 70-120) years ago and im heartbroken to know i'll never see them on stage... never hear them breathe, never see them sweat, never even touch the hem of their garment...

it really is enough to drive a person mad...

#this is so funny because this is the one vaguepost that i wholeheartedly 100% agree with skdhsjshsjdhsn #like yeah!! it does indeed pain me that the level of operatic singing has so drastically decreased over the last 50 years! #that top operatic stars of today are all either nasal or wobbly or knödely or completely inaudible without microphones #but some of yall are just not ready for this conversation. example a #anyway. as many have said before. its kinda easier to understand how some people cant appreciate certain operas #if they never heard them sung well lol #sorry im out of blood today. i know this is a very uncomfortable subject for many but. #you can actually judge someone's singing in a pretty objective way. there are nuances of course. but from a technical point of view #it really is pretty simple #(also its not like i dont enjoy *some* modern singers lol have you SEEN my kwiecień posting???? lmao #hell. there are even some modern singers i have a soft spot who i KNOW sing... Not Very Well. but i enjoy them lol #not many ofc but. yknow) #also 50 years ago would be the 1970s if im doing my maths correctly and. that is really the point in opera history #when it all started going downhill (sadly partly because of one of my all time favourite singers' influence... but thats a different story) #anyway. remember when luis tetrazzini said that the future generations of singers will be The Best singers in history #because they'll have access to all those recordings of The Greats Of The Past that they'll be able to listen to and learn from? #lmao queen you were right about so many things but that was tragically not one of them </3 #opera tag #yes im stirring the pot of boiling liquid shit and putting this post gently into the main tag #*luisA tetrazzini ofc #lol and lmao im out FOR blood* shdgsjsghs

[waning-wings]

why is every youtube drama nowadays such a nonissue lmfao

#like. before they were still fucking stupid but at least they were things that should've been addressed #now it's just “youtuber hurt my feelings and this secretly means they do really bad things to people behind closed doors xoxo💋” #and its always just ppl treating the internet as their personal jury #when the matter couldve been so easily solved with like. three dms #GOD im just tired of everythingggg 🫠 #this is abt a bunch of stuff that i def dont want to get involved in so im not tagging/mentioning any of it. sorry for vague posting! #vagueposting #<- incase ppl have the tag blocked <3 #they should make a “dying in a glue trap” emoji bc sometimes 🫠 just doesnt cut it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #theres always absolutely NO PROOF either but everyone blows it way out of proportion #and acts like the youtuber like doxxed someone and conducted a smear/harassment campaign against a ten year old #whtever. back to my carefully curated hole-of-not-caring :D!! #rambles yadda yadda #uhhh if anyone wants this tagged as ranting lmk! #not sure if it counted bc most of it is in the tags but idk #personal yadda yadda

[prestonmonterey]

intro

!! plz dont send me chain asks !!

(pronouns page is linked on there but also here if you dont wanna look for it:)

ok so uhh basically the gist of it

hi

im preston

uhh for names call me preston or pres or squid or orion or jaxon or actually just whatever you want i dont mind (more on my prounouns page) (if we're friends/moots feel free to gimme a nickname if ya want)

pronouns are it/he/they (the order of preference changes from time to time also neos are alright just anything other than she/her)

fandoms im most active in: varian and the seven kingdoms/tangled the series, camp here and there (will wood too!!), adamandi, the art of pleasing princes, starkid, spies are forever and percy jackson (mostly the musical bc im in a production of it :)

you can always interact with me! apparently im intimidating but i swear im really nice (i think) and id be really happy if you sent an ask at any time :3 i promise i wont get annoyed even if you think youre being annoying i just really like interacting with cool people :3

you can tag me in anything and everything! i promise ill look at it :3 and i try my best to do tag games and stuff (lmk if you dont want me to tag ya) but if i dont uhh, just assume i was like, really tired that day, or ive been tagged by another moot in that game before and im too lazy to dig it up :P sry

uhh im a minor too so like nsfw/18+ blogs dni

i try my best to use tone tags but if i forget and you need them please let me know!! (i also find tone tags helpful for myself) :3

theres more info on my card about like other stuff too

tag key:

#marble musings = original posts

#marble monologues = long posts/reblogs usually about chnt or just like existentialism idk

#marble draws = art/fanart/crafts/cosplay type thing

#marble games = i make games on google forms! hoping to learn to code or get an actual game engine to make full games past like choose your own adventures

#marble music = song covers :3 (yes i have all the filtered instrumentals i used for adamandi, lmk if you want them i can send em over discord or something)

#marble asks = answering stuff in my ask box

i think thats all of them :3 might add more eventually, and sometimes i forget to tag properly so sorry about that :(

i have some sideblogs if you wanna check em out (not super active on them but ill still try to respond if you shoot me an ask)

vent/writing sideblog: @lonelyinkcap (you can interact with my vents i dont really care. i mean. if im talkin about someone please dont fucking go like "but have you considered that theyre going through something" because uhh yes i have and also fuck you stop making my panic attacks worse :P) (if you know me irl. um. you can do whatever ig. i mean i cant exactly stop you. but proceed with caution. some of them might be vagueposts about you. im not gonna fuckin tell ya tho. also if you see anything concerning there. um. no ya dont. and definitely dont bring any of it up in conversation irl.)

hatchetfield rp sideblogs: @thelilcloverpatch @fading-angelic-starlight @marble-man @honey-sparrow @ivy-wreathed-arches and @hatchetfield-bone-thief (not sure why that one isnt properly linking but i swear its there you can search if you want)

#intro

[sweetzscore]

What if I fakeposted about my ocs. What then

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🛸 ang3l-baby follow

Me: [after talking about aliens n space for 3 hours] I dunno I just think they’re kinda neat

🌌 cosmicgirlthing follow

Your record is actually four hours

🛸 ang3l-baby

Sometimes I just black out and talk about doctor who a lot too

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💣 emooooeeeekid follow

Ive had girlfriends before which is really weird because I am the most idiotic loser ever. Bitch what do you see in me

🌌 cosmicgirlthing follow

This is true you are very much a loser

🎬 samthehotdog follow

I second this

💣 emooooeeeekid

Listen here you little shits

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🎬 samthehotdog follow

I’m very publicly intersex and my favourite thing about this is that I am a high schooler and my classmates get rlly confused all the time and its so funny

🎬 samthehotdog

I like to ask them why they’re so interested in my dick (or lack thereof) and they usually just combust or something

💣 emooooeeeekid follow

high schoolers are very invasive an insensitive so I like to give them the funniest answers possible

I once told a kid that when I was born they asked me if I wanted a dick or a vag and I couldn’t decide so they gave me one of those multicolour pens where you click down the things to get the new colour

🎬 samthehotdog

That. Is the best thing I have ever heard

241 notes

🍊 bowser-jrjrjrjr follow

Theres so many fucking fags at my school I hate this stupid place

🌌 cosmicgirlthing follow

What are you doing on this website

🍊 bowser-jrjrjrjr

Stfu tranny

🛸 ang3l-baby follow

I go to OP’s school and I can confirm he is very stupid and mean and nobody with any sense actually likes him

🎬 samthehotdog follow

Lmaooo

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💣 emooooeeeekid follow

Vent under the cut

read more

💣 emooooeeeekid

Fuckin got you didn’t I

🌌 cosmicgirlthing follow

Go fuck yourself

💣 emooooeeeekid

Don’t mind if I do

🧢 jord-the-trans follow

There’s something wrong with both of you

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💣 emooooeeeekid follow

>be me

>have a crush on a guy

>guy likes someone else

>other guy is homophobic, used to be my friend but dropped me when I came out

>dont have the heart to tell my crush

Hes gonna get his heart broken either way and like :((( UGHH i just want him to like me

🎬 samthehotdog follow

Oof thats rough pal

🧢 jord-the-trans follow

Yeah Im real sorry abt that Val :(

A little off topic but I didn’t know you had a crush?

💣 emooooeeeekid

Haha nope. No crush here. I dont have any crushes nosireee

🌌 cosmicgirlthing follow

Real subtle mate

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🛸 ang3l-baby follow

Im just gonna make it clear right now if you don’t think that straight aces are lgbt i need you to get the fuck off my blog right now

🌌 cosmicgirlthing follow

are you vagueposting abt your boyfriend’s haters

🛸 ang3l-baby

Die mad

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anonymous asked: wait you have a boyfriend ???

🛸 ang3l-baby follow

Actually @:reedinthemarsh isn’t my boyfriend he’s my wife

🍬 reedinthemarsh follow

When did we get married also when did I transition???

🛸 ang3l-baby

It’s only a matter of time

💣 emooooeeeekid follow

GELP???

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💣 emooooeeeekid follow

My parents think that me being non-binary might be confusing for my little brothers but I explained it to them once and they immediately understood, said “okay” and then asked me what my 2nd favourite colour was

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🌌 cosmicgirlthing follow

URL check

Cosmic: nope

Girl: nope

Thing: sure why not

#fake posting #everyone look at my guys #might make a part 2 #ocs #original characters #my ocs #fakeposting #slur tw #uncensored slurs #f slur #t slur #f slur tw #t slur tw #tw slurs

[sanctuarymoonfan397]

Can someone please like, genuinely tell me why that one post i made about my interpretation of MB and ART’s 'relationship' got shit on and vagueposted about?

I never meant to imply that ace/aro people cant form deep connections with each other or that friendships were lesser or whatever. And i really didn't think the post had come off that way; friendships are very important and even if i don't have/haven't had good ones, of course, I understand that other people do have good ones and that they cherish them.

What I'm mostly confused about is that i wasn't talking about real living people and their relationships in real life (and i wouldn't, its not my place to judge how different people interpret their own relationship with the Aro/Ace community and what their relationships mean to them).

To me, I see MB as (as I see myself) demiromantic and have been reluctant to share this (observation? HC? Interpretation?) because i have lost friends over my own orientation and didn't want to be told i was wrong or bad for seeing something in a character that i saw in myself - in a place/fandom that felt so welcoming and safe to talk about these things.

I genuinely am sorry if i hurt anyone or gave people the wrong impression. I don't know what, if anything i did wrong but im sorry

#mine #im not sure if this even makes sense this has been eating me away for the past day

[masterporky]

im gonna go on some sort of rant that may be deleted later. i guess it could be considered a vague post but ive cut off anyone who im "vagueing" or whatever. its kinda my explanation why i havent been here much recently. its not very cohesive or anything its kinda just my pissed off rambling. its really long or whatever.

ive been treated very poorly by people in the rpc. it was mostly in a discord server made by someone i had trusted. i trusted them because they were older and more experienced than me. and they seemed nice

i guess its my fault for being a kid on the internet in spaces primarily dominated by adults

but also. those same adults were kids on the internet just like me when they started out. so i dont understand how they cant show an ounce of sympathy or come up to bat for me when i very obviously need it

i dont care if you hate children, i dont care one bit. it was an all ages server. pro tip: if you dont want to be around children in online spaces dont be in all ages spaces!

even if it was only me and about 3(?) other minors out of like 10 active people. i dont care.

im mostly angry at myself for joining a server out of blind trust for someone i thought i was friends with. i know it wasnt very smart of me to join a server where i knew most of the people would be adults

but i still cant understand why they all began to fucking hate me. they acted like i was aggressive and unapproachable because that was the type of character i played. they vagueposted about me and acted like i was some sort of villain.

they made groupchats where it was me and 2-3 other people (usually mods) and practically ganged up on me whenever they didnt like the way i spoke or the way i played my character. and then one of those people who said they had been "bullied" by me joined back afterwards because yippee!!! i was gone!!! so now they could shittalk me some more.

"bullied" was me wanting them to properly communicate with me when they didnt like something i said or wrote. which when they did do that it was while in those groupchats. "bullied" was just them not liking the way i talked.

this person did so much other than just fucking that. they borderline fetishized black women & played what i can only fucking call a shittily concealed mammy stereotype. they roleplayed as a pedophile around child characters and REAL CHILDREN (me) which yes when they were askrd to stop fucking using their pedophile character they did. and they told me i frustrated them because they didnt understand me. there is a very high chance that i am neurodivergent. i dont care if you're neurodivergent too, thats borderline ableism. and their partner threatened to harass me once i left. what a great fucking thing to do.

oh and after i left, along with another person they put their "triggers" as "pokey minch" and "earthbound" which is just fucking spitting in the face of anyone with real fucking triggers. i did not traumatize you. grow the fuck up.

one of the weirdest things that happened was that someone who had joined had been making me uncomfortable beforehand (i have since forgiven said person) and no one else knew them. so they completely ignored when i was uncomfortable. but then. they had their character say "kill yourself" to one of the mod's characters and suddenly they got immidiately banned after. hm.

dont get me started on the mods. the mods who i thought were my friends, but excused everyone elses far worse behavior while condemning what i had done. which was seemingly nothing. and the owner of the server did absolutely nothing but let them do this.

i think the worst thing i did was, in a panic when i started feeling like a horrible person, send an apology to the owner a week later i dont feel bad anymore. i dont feel bad because i know that i didnt deserve whatever the fuck they were doing to me in there. i feel bad that i basically lied about being sorry. i guess it wasnt lying because i did feel very sorry and guilty at the time but it wasnt right to send what was basically a false apology to them and i wish i didnt because its embarassing and also wrong.

and the worst thing my friend who i invited did who they also hated (he's also like. a minor) did was send a very mean message to one of the people who had gotten mad at me for a seemingly very small reason and sent mods after me for it. which. i appreciate him being the only one fighting on my behalf. but i dunno.

that person was one of the people who made pokey minch their trigger. and had also made some insane fucking comment once about being "neutral on gay and trans people. some are nice" thats called being a bigot you fucking walnut. you cant be neutral on that sort of thing. and they criticized their coworker for being "racist" when their coworker just said that they hated white people and then got fired for it

the person i had the most problems with had spread what seemed to be false rumors about someone else in the rpc as soon as they entered so im not very certain im going to be safe from any sort of thing like that.

these people were 21-32. i am 14.

and not to sound like im giving you my sob story but its just that. do they just not remember being a kid? do they not realize how genuinely worse being in school has gotten? late generation z kids, especially in a school thats like mine where theres no minorities and everyone hates anyone whos different is actually hell. the people who hate me for being edgy or coming off as mean would fucking drop dead if they stepped foot in my godforsaken fucking school. on top of being bullied relentlessly in school, i now have to fear that i'll be basically bullied in the spaces that i thought that id be safe in. and by none other than people who should know better and thay i thought would have known better because they're well past highschool.

im tired of being treated like im an easy target for harassment everywhere i go. i almost quit roleplaying on tumblr altogether after that because it was such a stressful experience as well as the entire server being made up by mostly people i was mutuals with and have since blocked

ok um i guess my point is just that well. if youre going to have your blog or your discord server be an all ages space maybe dont try and chase out children immidiately because you dont like them because theyre children. you were an edgy teenager who acted stupid too so you should try to have an ounce of compassion for edgy teenagers who act stupid.

oh and also if you cant separate fiction from reality then block me. straight up.

also like. idk if any of you are worried youre following any of these people. i aint gonna like list them down since this isnt supposed to be a callout post but if you like really wanna know for some reason you can like dm me. like as long as u dont harass anyone or anything idgaf

anyways heres some shitty memes i made off it cause like you gotta do something to like not entirely die after some bullshit like that

#POLLYANNA (ooc)

[gluevah]

"Have you heard of the drama if you will happening in another community on a different social media website? This is vague because some people who like stuffed animals also belong to the other community." omg this is literally exactly the kind of semantically useless vaguepost anon i was complaining about a little while ago; there is zero information being offered here it's like the asker never learned the five Ws (who, what, when, where, why) that are necessary for actually useful communication. like, what kind of answer were they expecting??? you are not a psychic mindreader with perfect knowledge of everywhere on the internet the asker visits! other anon i say this out of compassion: if you talk like this in real life, it is only a matter of time until you drive away almost everyone who does not have the patience of saints necessary to unravel the byzantine cryptic nonsense that comes out of your mouth. clear, direct communication will save you and everyone around you a tremendous amounts of trouble gluevah, sorry, im just beyond frustrated and this persons asks have me so close to just unfollowing you because they are so infuriatingly (and apparently intentionally!) obtuse; its literally a step away from being a Mad Libs; if they didnt specify stuffed animals it straight up would be thewordfinder (DOT) com/wordlibs/story-915/

I was unsure whether or not to post this ask, because I don't want to be a conduit for hurt feelings, but I do agree the vagueness is getting a bit out of hand.

I literally cannot adequately answer asks if I don't know what the question is. And I get not wanting to bring drama to my blog, but by asking me "have you heard about a drama happening in this other place," that's literally what is being done. I've posted silly BaB drama here myself, I don't mind discussing the various goings-on of the internet with folks but in order to actually discuss anything, there has to be something to discuss! Avoiding hurt feelings is important, and I appreciate people not wanting to invite drama or harassment by asking me about other people's business. But if a situation is so likely to cause people to angrily flock to my inbox just from it being mentioned, to the point where any bit of information is stripped from the message, maybe it's better not to bring it up at all just to be safe? (Also if people do come in my inbox being rude I can just block them lol. And I am literally a nobody so I don't think I'm on anyone's radar enough that discussing a situation from reddit would incite the hordes.)

I've been putting up with the intentional vagueposting because I appreciate people trying to look out for me and not wanting me to be harassed. But it really has gotten to the point where it's frustrating me, and seeing someone else also be frustrated has made me realize that it's okay to not put up with things just to be nice?

So I'm not answering any more intentionally vague asks. If I can't tell what's being asked, I won't answer. If it's an established inside thing, like "our favorite redditor" or something else that I can actually recognize without specifics being mentioned, that's fine. But no more "did you hear about the thing in the place with the thing?"

[memoriesofthecircularroom]

hey i personally disagree with that take you made, but i know the context and im not upset or disappointed or going to bitch about it like a lot of others. youre human. youre not infallible. sometimes what you say may come across as bad and thats okay. you dont deserve to be dogpiled and harassed for it. every single person whos been on your ass has probably made mistakes like that before, mistakes that caused someone harm. youre not a bad person for it and im sorry that people are acting like you are.

also, the idea that broad, blanket statements like "some traumagens are endo" isn't fakeclaiming. you arent going up to someone and going "hey, youre not actually traumagenic youre endogenic". youre saying its probably possible for someone to be wrong about what they experience.

i dont share my syscourse takes publically, so im going to go with ones from the rest of the system. non-disordered plurals to us are not systems, system is a term specfically meant for DD plurality. but those experiences are still real even if we dont believe they should be compared. in the same way a singlet could believe they are a system before realising theyre wrong, a non-DD instance of plurality could believe that they have a DD. It could happen.

the only reason that agreeing with that ask was hurtful is because a lot of traumagenic systems will jump at any chance to deny their trauma. like tim, one of our hosts, made an entire sideblog and asked a bunch of people their thoughts on whether or not we seem traumagenic. literally no one else in system agreed with him, but he was having a lot if self doubt. that self doubt came from the idea that "your trauma wasnt traumatic enough to be traumagenic". it actually came from the "stressgenic" label and him going "ok what if-" but the base idea is still the same.

if someone is a system, the trauma they went through was enough to be a system. it was enough to disrupt the integration of their egostates in childhood, that means it was traumatic. that is something we believe in and something that is so comforting to know (and also part of why we feel non-DD plurality should be seperate from systems but thats not the point)

but i still dont think you were wrong for agreeing, not necessarily. just because with the context you were having a really shitty time and you just wanted that asker to not get their satisfaction of "ooh evil ableist person who thinks some endos are actually traumagen doesnt believe in a 2 way street huh". and youre definitely not a bad person.

i hope that you have a good day and that this isn't getting to you too much

I think the last thing I’ll post on this topic. Thank you, Anon. This helped me greatly.

I try not to get TOO personal on this blog anymore (which is sort of messed up, given that this blog was made as a personal blog for me to connect to other systems and just record the things happening to me), but I want to address what this all did to me. The following is gonna be a trauma dump, so feel free to completely ignore this. I just have a lot of thoughts and want to give context and get them out on the blog that was SUPPOSED to be for these things.

Tw for sui ideation, sui bait, trauma dump, anxiety, etc.

I made a hurtful comment to some. I can see now how it could be hurtful, and I’m analyzing how this take and others could be. I’m willing to take the criticism and move on with better actions.

I’ve also almost thrown up due to the anxiety about this. I’ve been having issues opening tumblr without panicking. I’ve been needing to deep breathing each time I post.

Syscourse shouldn’t do that to someone. People shouldn’t do that to people. I understand how it can be hurtful, but every time I so much at glance at system things now, I see another vaguepost about how I’m bad, how I’m hurting everyone, how I’m a disappointment, etc etc. Even posting this ask is already making me cry.

When I posted the original long post, I was suicidal. I regularly am. It’s an issue I deal with daily. This time around, it was the worst I’ve been in a long time. I contemplated hanging myself at work. And that same day, someone reblogged my bait ask (an ask that I was too terrified not to respond to, due to the harassment I was getting, and would continue to get unless I responded.) They reblogged the ask, called the response disgusting (and I couldn’t understand why) and immediately I get anon hate. I was told to kill myself, and god, I wanted to. Why was I such a failure? Why did everything I say hurt people now? I had support on anon messages, but Everytime I look in. The syscourse tags, it’s people talking about how I’m horrible and transphobic and just.

I gotta stop on that topic because my heart is racing again.

And none of this happened with *discord*. I’m in a discord where we discussed my post. And it was a CIVIL DISCUSSION. Nobody insulted me - they just shared why people (including themselves) could be angry. They also heard me out! Some people agreed and some people didn’t. Nobody harassed me, nobody told me I should be dead. It opened my eyes a lot to how it was hurtful WITHOUT making my ideation even worse.

All this is to say… I think I may leave tumblr. Not forever. But when I can’t post a hypothetical ask for a situation that has never come up in my life, with an angry short response, but everyone else can post an enormous long angry response about how I’m a disappointment and a failure? There’s something wrong there. And I need to take a step back from syscourse before it kills me.

Thank you if you read this far. I’ve been doing a lot of introspection since OAS responded to me. I also apologize for the gendered insult - I use bitch interchangeably for anyone, as bitch and bastard are distinctly different connotations to me. I also did not know OAS’s pronouns. I apologize for insulting OAS at all - I let my anger get the best of me again.

I’m stepping away. Not forever. But I need to take care of myself.

#syscourse #personal #don’t rb #tw trauma dump #tw sui bait #tw sui ideation #tw anxiety #endos #asks #tw

[doebt]

its insane that someone would still hold such a deep and disturbing hatred for me over something that happened when i was FIFTEEN and it wasnt even an ‘event’ at all and NOW at age 20 im sitting here scared of that. Like it was nothing and still

#sorry this is SO vague and weird sounding i really cant go in depth about it on my like public tumblr blog #where they could like see it and confront me or something...i mean im sure if they read this they would know its abt them #but idk i want to maintain some plausible deniability #i hope that the last thing they did to hurt me was intentional 'revenge' and satisfied whatever weird desire for that #they were holding. and that theyre not still out there stewing in hatred for my 15 yr old self #its like the one person im really actually scared of #im such an agreeable person like ive never had a really big fight with anyone or anything #besides like my dad??? ive never had serious friend drama or anything so its really disturbing to me to be in a situation like this #which might not even be a situation like i said they probably dont even think of me anymore. but #clearly they were thinking of nothing BUT me in that years-long window of time we werent in contact w eachother #so i just cant know. I hate that like... and im sooo vulnerable and defenseless...like im so weak #even our house like would be so easy to break into and theyre a very physically imposing person...i just hate to think about it #i actually have to stop thinking about it #sorry for the WEIRD vagueposting

[a-dragons-journal]

At first I saw that ask about deitykin vs dragonkin and was like 'Oh are we talking about the intersections of divinity and draconity? Wait no scrolled further its about deitykin having some shitty drama that hurts the whole community' Which oh yeah it does.

Im dragonkin and in my past life I had rites given to me for protecting a place so at one point I was calling myself divine(dont actively do so now). And about ~5 years ago I was reblogging goreposts to the edgy kin sideblog as one does and suddenly got a ask that was like 'hi please block me thank you <3' and I was like ??? who the fuck are you but ok I respect boundaries and did as asked, though out of curiosity I checked what tf happened and it turns out a post I reblogged without even looking at op as you do was that person and they had in their hidden dni post that all divinekin/godkin werent to interact. Which fair boundary but completely unfair to expect people to check like that before reblogging. All right. The person the proceeded to vaguepost about me for a few posts over an hour or two about how divinekin are so 'entitled' and 'arrogant' and this one divinekin was oh so terrible. For. Not obsessively checking the pages of every blog they reblogged like a stalker and replying 'not sure why but ok, also blocked on all sideblogs for you, wishing you the best' so they know their request was granted I guess?

Let me be clear- my blog didnt directly state I was divinekin, I had 'gore/horror + divinity blog' as my bio on whats clearly an aesthetic-only blog. Otherkin should not have been the first thought there. I did not tag the post with anything but the gore tag. This person would have had to stalk my blog into the about pages to discover this fact. On a post with hundreds of notes.

Its this kind of baffling kneejerk hatred for divinekin who are just vibing and have never been anything but polite and courteous to people that is just really saddening. For those who id as divine out there I really feel for you because thats only a taste of the flack you folks get for just existing. Trolls and kin drama that breached containment and people being fucking weird about religions not their own serve to inflame this shit and I wish all you the best. Haters gonna hate and all that. Sorry this anon got long lol

I'm not going to use this as an opportunity to rant about my hatred of DNIs, but. *gestures vaguely at the entitlement* what is wrong with people that they think telling someone else to block them is the solution instead of...... doing the blocking themself like a normal person??? There's literally no point to that other than alerting the person that you're blocking them, which should not be a goal of yours. That's not reasonable boundaries, that's being entitled. Reasonable boundaries would be them blocking you, not them demanding you change YOUR internet experience because, what, they said so?

*long sigh*

Okay, anyway. Not to distract from the fact that this happened because of the whole divinekin stigma thing, but it's also just. super reflective of current internet culture's failings and that's just as aggravating to me tbh.

But regardless - heartily agree; the whole divinekin stigma is just horrendously damaging and I have nothing but sympathy for those who've been harmed by it.

#otherkin #deitykin #actuallydivine #rani talks #asked and answered #anonymous #'hi please block me thanks <3' what the fuck is wrong with you #why are you under the impression that you get to control who OTHER PEOPLE block or don't block #literally just block them yourself it does exactly the same fucking thing and DOESN'T a) alert anyone who's *actually* - #- a danger to you that you're purposely avoiding them OR b) make you look like an entitled prick #and i know i'm being meaner than usual tonight about this but i'm not sorry #you don't need to be an asshole to quietly and effectively enforce your boundaries #being uncomfortable with deitykin and personally not wanting to interact IS fine that's your business #going up to them and saying 'ummm sorry sweaty :) :) but you're making me uncomfortable so actually could you please leave <3 <3 thanksies' #- is just a dick move #full stop that's all there is to it #anyway /rant people are stupid sometimes #i'm gonna go see if i can convince my roommate to watch centaurworld with me to wipe my brain of this

[violentviolette]

How do u cope with perceived rejection? I'm at the point rn where I don't want to leave the house bc I don't want to interact with anyone anymore.

oof, that sucks. im sorry anon.

honestly for me its a combo of a lot of little things and techniques but also its still hard sometimes. I also don't have any issue when it comes to strangers. I dont care if random people don't like or reject me or think negatively of me I only care if the people I care about and want to like me don't like me. if that makes sense? so sorry if some of this isnt as helpful for those kinds of situations

but okay so my main steps are usually firstly reminding myself that I'm not that important in peoples lives. and I dont mean that in a self depreciating way so just stay with me. most people are self centered in that were all the most important person to ourselves, we live in our own brains and with our own thoughts 24/7 and so were constantly thinking about ourselves and our behavior and our life and all the things going on in it that are important to us. and like thats a good normal thing but that also means that so is everyone else. no one is paying as much attention to me and what im doing as I am, because theyre paying attention to themselves.

so I remind myself of that and remind myself that most people have a lot going on that has nothing to do with me and so their bad mood or their quietness or their weird vibe isnt them hating and rejecting me, it just means theyre upset and theres a millions reasons why that could be that are more important to them than some little thing i did.

next up is that whatever the most mundane and casual explination that exists is, is probably the truth. and even if i truly think it isnt, i act as if it is until someone directly tells me otherwise. is someone not talking to me today or hasnt replied in hours? theyre probably really busy at work or eating or showering or maybe their phone is dead, and it helps me to ask myself “well when are some times ive taken 2 hours to respond and why was that” and if im being actually honest with myself i will find times when i have behaved the same but wasnt mad at someone or rejecting them. so i always force myself to believe the mundane solution, which helps me not act on any of my feelings.

because even if i really cant believe it in the moment, i can act like i do. so say someone hasnt talked to me and i feel like theyre rejecting me, i tell myself its just because theyre busy and not because theyre mad and force myself to act accodingly. i message them a normal amount and i dont mention my feelings or suspicions and then eventually they always talk to me again like normal and then i can be like “see, eveyrthing was fine and we were just being crazy. glad i didnt do anything about it”

only act on direct information, never assumptions. i act like nothing is wrong until someone directly tells me it is, because i dont live in their head and i cant read their thoughts. i dont truly know how they’re thinking and feeling until they tell me. (and for all u other aspd and npd assholes out there NO U DONT. genuinly and honestly. people are always capable of surprising us and even when we think we have them nailed and know exactly what their thinking, even if were right, u cannot just assume someones thoughts and take it as fact. its disordered and unhealthy and u need to stop doing it if u want better relationships with others) and if they haven’t directly told me something is wrong, then they haven’t communicated properly and that is on them. i dont read into vagueposts or status updates or tweets or level of activity or anything. i notice all of it because my brain is crazy but i force myself to ignore everything except the direct words someone says to me.

is their discord status something super upset that i think vaguely relates to me? that means nothing what was the last thing they said to me? oh that they love me and then we had a totally normal interaction. thats whats the truth, and if they were lying and they actually are mad at me, then thats on them for literally communicating the exact opposite of their feelings.

and lastly, if its people who ur close with, u can also ask for reassurance or validation in a way that doesnt accuse them of doing anything wrong. i will often go to my wife and instead of being like “are u mad at me?” or something i’ll say “im feeling really fragile today can u help reassure me that u love me and that im good?” or “I know u love me but can u tell me again i need to hear it extra today” or if its a friend sometimes i’ll say “hey im feeling kind of insecure and anixious today, when u get a chance could u reassure me that we’re still friends?” or literally just coming in the chat like “hello friends i require validation today” and then people will repsond with emojis and “god mood” and i will feel better

these are good ways to ask for support because they dont put any blame or onus on the other person, its about u and ur feelings, and usually if its people who care about u they’ll have no problem doing that. my friends and i tell eachother very often that we love and care about and genuinly like one another because reassurance and validation is Good and it should be a normal part of ur relationships. (no one insert a screenshot of that time ryo said he was feeling paranoid we hated him so i instantly sent him screenshots of my dms about my crush on him i will skin u)

but yea. those are the main things i do and tell myself and sorry this got so long but i dont know how to explain things like this without a million words lol i hope that made sense and that some of it was helpfull for u

#percieved rejection #npd #bpd #cluster b #actually npd #actually borderline #rejection #insecure attachment #insecure relationships #jack.speaks #anon #sorry this took me so long to answer but i wanted to make sure it made sense and i had a lot to say #clearly lol #long post

[virgilantejustice]

I want to post a fic.

But, whenever i do post a fic, i always put this long preamble about how i never get any notes on my fics (which is true) and i hate that i always feel that need to include a pity party when people just want to read a story (or maybe they don't). I want to be like one of those accounts that posts fics all the time and answers asks and stuff but i just can't. Only one of my fics has ever broken one hundred notes, none of the others have even come close, mostly having about 10-25 notes each, which isn't really a small number considering my following, i guess, but i dont want to post something that I've spent time and energy on and that im proud of, when I know that only ten people will see it. And whever i actually post something with multiple parts, the first gets a few, then the next ones, despite me tagging more people, get way fewer. And thats another thing: my taglist has, what, five accounts on it? How do i still post things that get four notes? But now i feel like im being petty and vagueposting, but im not trying to, i just need to get this off my chest! It just gets harder and harder to post anything that I've spent any amount of time on, it gets harder and harder to actually click 'post'. I like to consider myself a writer, and i do actually write, i just never post what ive written, because its like having a kid go to school on their first day then coming home and telling you they've made no friends (maybe an overreaction but you get my point).

I'm sorry.

I don't want to post a fic anymore.

#e speaks

[amoebacore]

tagged by the very lovely @cozy-hearts !!! thank youuu :,,,,) <3 <3 <3 <3 nicknames: mibah/migah, amoeba, chickadee, ghost/ghostie, and breadcrumb zodiac sign: aries !  height: 5′3″ hogwarts house: hufflepuff  last thing i googled: “wwatt” basically in preparation for answering the question below ksdjfhghdj favorite musicians: watsky, wwatt, idkhow/brobecks, simple plan, melovin, and nsp (i.e. artists who i know basically all their songs) song stuck in my head: “my strange addiction” by billie eilish cause im trying to decipher someones cryptic vagueposts so i had to listen to it kjdhfjdks following: 321 (i need...to follow more people.....) followers: !! 7,100?? (i gotta!! make a post!! i didnt know oh my god ;;; aaaaAAA) do i get asks: yeyeye! im vvvvvvvv thankful :,,,,) love too big for...got dam...body...... amount of sleep: as much as i want kwjdfvbds like today i think i got... 10 hours? (if i have to meet with a friend sometimes its like 4-5 hours cause i sleep so late) lucky number: 4 ! what im wearing: black shorts and a beige ringer shirt that says “good times” dream job: musician!! (more singer/songwriter aspect cause i dont like playin instruments but i gotta rn;;;) dream trip: i wanna go to new orleans so bad! but i would also love to go to ireland and revisit hawaii with friends! favorite food: potatoes? mashed, smashed, broiled, boiled, idc! bread is also a big favorite food.... focaccia esp and broccoli braid... (chicken, broccoli, mayo? in bread) instruments: guitar + uke (do i know chords rly well? nope! do i do bar chords? nope! skjfnbgfhdjks) languages: basically just english -- i can read hangul(korean) and understand some words in speech, french, spanish, and ukrainian are all like...touch and go like i know some Words and some letters (for ukrainian) and thats It basically favorite song: hotel california by the eagles !! random fact: i have a barn on my property! we used to have horses (only two) cause my mom rode and we also once had a lady give us a lil bull named benny! loved him akdjbhjskls aesthetics: warm orange sunsets in the spring/summer either when youre out and about and it creates that dusk summer look or when youre inside and it casts an orange glow onto the wall through the window, the sound of distant more acoustic-esque music being played live, eating outside in the summer with friends and having those lantern lights around, the overall vibe honestly of spending late summer nights with friends and laughing a bit too loud, doing impromptu karaoke in cars or with a radio outside, and walking around a small town/city at night with them just absolute like....2000s teen movie esque shenanigans and that warm/explode/full of love feeling you get in your chest tagging --> @sentimentalcelestine @snailsfungusherbs @milkymoontea @blue-greenery @hobbitforest @autos-ismos @mothposting @aopositn @lithoneybunny @oh-wildflowers !!! *(i just did 10 cause im so bad with urls -- also sorry if we dont really know each other! i was kinda going down my DM list ! i think i know you all tho at least a lil and...ily! ksjcbvfbhdjsk)

#amoeba.txt #thank you for tagging meeee!! #this was fun i lov doin this lil guys akdfjghdjs

[boku-no-meme-academia]

I saw you vague posting about k uri k uri on twitter and was wondering what exactly they did???

is it vagueposting if i explicitly stated her name...?IM GLAD U ASKED. ANON. BC IM STILL MAD ABOUT IT Hok like so,,,,twitter about 8 months ago???? actually maybe 9-10 months ago...it was whenever i was in the middle of writing my fake marriage fic, we got alongish??? like she commented on my fics and stuffwell obviously one of the things in my fic is homophobia, and in the fic it was mentioned along the lines that lgbt stuff isnt..u know, like the same it is in the U.S? im not saying the U.S is gay paradise--far from it--but the U.S recognizes gay ppl and shit like that and japan doesn't. theyre not as open about that stuff. thats a fact. anyways she took issue w that and i was like ok ok cool cool its a difference of opinion i guessthen another issue with an author popped up where they headcanoned mic as half-american, and she took issue with that and said smth like, ppl who are half-white are "whitewashed" versions of their other ethnicity, and i, as a half-white half-mexican kid, took issue with THAT, but it ended kind of peacefully u know. we kinda just stopped talking to each other. didn't interact.and then weeks or months later i dont remember, she started a thread about plagiarism. keep in mind this was when there were, say, 300 fics in the erasermic tag, and she wrote a good portion of them. she said something along the lines that obviously, since she is so big and so very popular, lots of people have unconciously copied her works, since she is the erasermic god and fics with even remotely the same headcanon as hers are Obviously Plagiarizing. she posted a screenshot straight from my fic and was like "see this author was obviously influenced by me and unknowingly plagiarized me right here"look. thats an understandable Author Worry(tm) if someone is actually copying u. but here's the thing. the lines kuri compared werent even similar. the only thing they had in common was the same headcanon, the same idea. u want to know the very rare, uncommon headcanon that was patented by kuri and can only be used by her? that mic is more affectionate than aizawa. sorry guys. everyone who has that headcanon has been plagiarizing her :(ANYWAYS when that happened ppl got mad. my friends, and the folks in the Discord(tm). but i...never really got to be mad about it, i feel. it feels like my friend deandre had all the anger, and he and dave both went off on her, and yeah i was the one who initially brought it up but i never got to be angry about it the same way everyone else did. i had -10 followers and she had 500 and i felt like if i actually got upset about it all 500 would come after me.so ive always been kind of upset about it but then she was brought up again today and it ignited the Rage(tm) and recently i havent been caring about reeling my anger in when people are being shit. im being Angry now. anger is fueling me today. it is the cause behind my actions. i won one(1) game of dodgeball today. it was great.now all that aside, if any one of u--any 11,800 of u--goes after her im blocking the SHIT out of u lmao. dont Do That. this is just me venting.

[universalsatan]

hihihi another vent post cause feelings are DUMB

okAY so like denial crush person that i made a post about like a few weeks ago?? anyways the only place i know them is on instagram right?? so ANYWAYS my desperate ass was SURE they vagueposted me (prolly not but lets roll w it for now) w this book paragraph as a picture (irrelevant i think but lets roll w it) anyways the caption was in SPANISH and said (translated) ‘if you love me save me’. OKAY GETTING TO THE POINT 1) im not sure of his background BUT im half hispanic and can speak spanish (i dont know if they know this tho), plus the only languages ive seen them post in are english and once korean (im sorry [translation]) (lmfao their dramatic aesthetic showing the pic was someone lighting a rose on fire ANWYAS)(they also like kpop so they could be at least part korean, know some korean, or just translated it for the Aesthetic™. idk). okay so its been a few weeks and as per usual ive been trying to get over it so im like ‘okay. whatever. chill.’ even so, i still REALLY vaguepost reply to them because u kno why not. so in my instagram story (which btw they dont even check half the time anymore :/) i just took a picture of the fairylights off my bunkbed cause thats the only source of light and said 'ummm i was reading on demons and stuff and its also midnight im so dead :/’ SO not blatantly obvious stuff but rather like the call for a rescue thing (i hate myself why am i doing this and like overanalyzing ANYWAYS) (also this claim wasnt exactly untrue as i was looking for content for unsolvedbs and i found this one fukcing eerie af image tagged as demon and i HATE creepy stuff so yeah). but nothing ever happens weve never talked online before and i only had an hour of sleep the night before so i go to sleep. so then i wake up in the morning, check my phone notifs, and turns out they replied LIKE A FEW MINUTES AFTER I WENT TO SLEEP. AND I WANNA DIE NOW????? cause also when u reply to someone story it creates a whole chat. and hhhhhhh. anyways remember that post about saving people? they literally were like 'eyyy dont worry i literally have a copy of Ars Goetia’. i looked it up and its mostly about summoning demons n shit so maybe i took what they said wrong or smth but thats fine cause i sent them 2 paragraphs (not 10 cause i aint a desperate ho :/) and well im just lowkey angery because chatting during the day is very different than chatting at night but who knows it really depends on what they reply with, when or even if they reply \_(シ)_/ sorry lol

also imma murder anyone i know irl who reads this lmfao :)

#personal