#im soooooo upset

[helmarok]

genuinely so angry about this. you gave us a red-maned man with a big ol nose in the botw tapestry only for it to just have been another little white boy? no ganon? no hero ganon? like i was really hoping he'd have been the chosen hero but demise's curse and all of his previous reincarnation history has doomed him into being seen as evil by the kingdom he saved, and his portrayal as a villain in TOTK would have been his rage after what the people he loved did to him. that would have made a very good story about fate and the harm hatred can do but no that isn't what we're getting. did i expect nintendo to go the classic "ganon is evil!" route? yes. am i happy that they did after 30+ years of "ganon is evil!" formula? no of fucking course. i want more insight on him as a person and his culture. i want more lore on how he feels as a gerudo male and how he feels being born into a curse or being born as someone history has always scorned. but we'll never get it and that kills me

#ganon rambles #rant #totk #totk spoilers #im soooooo upset #i just. i love ganon so much and every game he's watered down to big bad evil man just to focus on hylian culture #and hylia and whatnot #i wanted this game to get into GANON'S side of the story #but keep link as the main focus to give the game some sense of misunderstanding on the player's part #as the player slowly unlocks the truth throughout gameplay #but based on the leaks? that's not what's gonna happen #i was just hoping the reason ganon as a demon has become so powerful #is because his heart was broken by the kingdom #and thats why he's stronger than ever #the fate he's tied to took him over using his broken heart #and he couldnt fight it and he was sealed #he's in regular clothes and jewelry! there is zero sign in his corpse that he was ACTUALLY TRYING to cause harm #in the moment he died! he is dressed as though he was welcome into the castle #not dressed for battle #i really love ganon and i see him as human too not just a demon with no motive but destruction #and yes ofc i love him for that. id be a fake ganon fan if i didnt think it was hot that he loved killing and violence #but while id love to keep my twisted and insane OOT and TP and WW ganons... #a good ganon that the game tells us about that gives us a view at his life and culture #that wouldve been so good #cuz all we get about this man is that hyrule treats his people like ass and he uses that as an excuse to kill civilians #i wanted to see how the kingdom treated the infamous male gerudo as a hero. i want to know WHY the gerudo grew pointed ears. #i want to know everything about him and his people but we never will because he's just the villain #and the gerudo are just a racist in game fanservice #ganondorf #totk neg

[baby-prophet]

I dropped my ipad and the top of the screen shattered

#its under my paper texture screen protector #so it still works #it shattered around the camera tho #it kind of looks like an angel....... #im soooooo upset #norm.allie

[saintprivateer]

VW character designs for @shastafirecracker’s Trillium and Ivy, a modern au Trigun fic about a landscaping Vash and funeral director Nicholas! Something something the hardships of being dealt a bad hand in life and scraping all the love and peace you can get… but you’re in so much gay love so it’s all a little more bearable. c :

some close-ups under the cut!

#To save room i gotta just post visdev separately —w— #tumblr compressing images more and making these blurry up close im soooOOO upset abt it 😭😭 #anyway two months worth of drawings!! not much but honest work ^o^ #trillium and ivy #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #shastafirecracker #ao3 #trigun #modern au #trigun au #fanart #concept art #character design #tw smoking #saintprivateerart #saintprivateer

[deerlisteners]

felix will rlly b like “it’s not my job to make sure dimitri’s ok” & the very next scene he’s like “hey dimitri stop being so sad” like……… he’s SO subtle

#sorry i’m replaying azure gleam and i’m rotating about it. it’s fine #they’re just soooooo stupid. they are so stupid #i’m going f!shez this time and i loveee her sm <333 #i was also actually reading the documents this time & the one abt fódlan mythology is SO GOOD #the faerghan legend where the ghosts of the vengeful dead come from under the earth to pull u under…… thinking about dimitri. just thinking #also i opened the documents and immediately saw old letter and was like ? its the glenn letter. im so upset #few3h #dimilix #feposting #if u don’t wanna see these u may wanna blacklist that bc. i’m unwell abt this rn #deertalking

[seaweedstarshine]

Hi! Long time no yap but I've been really bothered by this thing and I know you're just the person I can go to with this (even if we don't always end up agreeing at times).

I got into a tiff with someone in a comments section of a post that was about Amy (Which character do you think deserved to become a villain? or something similar). They brought up Amy's abuse of her boyfriend. I may have tried to defend Amy (key word is tried. I am officially rubbish at debating) but then I may have said something? Because they said that I (and apparently a lot of other fans) was excusing Amy's abuse because of her trauma. It got me stumped because isn't young Amy's treatment of Rory rooted in her trauma? Did I miss the memo where we separate trauma and abuse? Am I missing something?

That statement bothered me a lot because if there's one thing I never want to do it's defend an abuser. So here I am, humbly asking and hoping to clear the muddy waters.

Your really confused and disturbed moot, Tia 💌

TIA!!!!! Thanks for the ask 💌 , and I send you all the hugs.

Discussion of abuse, trauma, ableism, infidelity, and unhealthy relationship dynamics beneath the cut.

(First off… while I really appreciate your faith in my explaining skills <3 <3 <3 my passion for traumatized characters and mentally ill+neurodivergent rights doesn't make me especially qualified to fully clear muddy waters especially not knowing the full context, but I feel you, and what follows is my informed perspective!)

Speaking generally first, harm done in media is best examined by the impact on the audience, with a different lens than harm done to real people. While relatable experiences in media can be useful and validating and incredibly important, you can’t be “defending an abuser” when the abuse is fictional. It's actually normal for traumatized/ND/mentally ill people to project onto mentally ill villains, when villains are the only significant representation for those stigmatized symptoms in a media landscape that excludes and demonizes us simply for existing. RTD can't stop people who hallucinate from reclaiming the Master's Drums and projecting onto the Master, for example — 90% of the best Doctor Who psychosis fic by psychotic authors is about the Master, whether RTD likes it or not. It's not true crime.

(This is speaking generally. Amy Pond is very much not the Master.)

Abuse is a behavior, and there can be many reasons for it, but reasons based in trauma don’t make it not abuse (some forms of generational trauma can propagate abusive parenting styles, when the parent thinks abusive parenting is normal, or lives entirely vicariously through their child). This absolutely should not be taken to mean trauma correlates with abusive behavior; rather that abusive behaviors from traumatized people are more likely to present in specific ways.

Abuse is also a targeted behavior, based in control — not consistently displayed C-PTSD symptoms as seen in Season 5 Amy Pond through many aspects of her life. Mental health symptoms don't become abuse just because they hinder one partner from meeting the other partner's needs. Any life event can do that.

Without knowing the context of the arguments, this is the aspect of their relationship I've seen you talk about before (which I also feel strongly about), and what I assume is what you were debating? So, here I will talk specifically in regard to Season 5.

We all know Amy — she's never attached to Leadworth because she never wanted to leave Scotland, no steady therapist because none of them stick up for her, can't stick with one job yet her first choice is a job that simulates intimacy because her avoidant behavior (a known trauma response) isn't sustainable to her wellbeing. Rory knows her fears of commitment stem from her repeated abandonments, it’s why he’ll always wait for her, and it's why he blames the Doctor “You make it so they don't want to let you down.”, who apart from having caused a lot of her trauma, has actively taken advantage of her being the “Scottish girl in the English village” who's “still got that accent,” because he wants to feel important, so yeah, I think interpreting Amy's issues (and how Amy and Rory transverse them) as Amy abusing Rory indicates a fundamental misunderstanding of their relationship, as well as a misunderstanding of the (raggedy) Doctor’s role in Amy’s formative self-image (which of course she works through in Season 6, but I am sticking to Season 5).

Abuse is always based in control. That just doesn’t fit here. While Amy's detachment from her real life includes things like calling Rory her “kind of boyfriend” (which she is upfront about to his face; differing commitment levels isn't abuse, though it can be a relationship red flag for both parties IRL) — her Season 5 disregard of Rory’s feelings occurs only in response to the fairytale embodiment of her trauma. It's never a response to Rory; it's a response to the Doctor, who stole her childhood and led her by the hand to her death. She cheats on Rory with the Doctor in her bedroom full of Doctor toys, drawings, models, she made from childhood to early adulthood.

(And yes, like many repeatedly-traumatized people, Amy is prone to being sensitive and reactive. Take her “Well, shut up then!” line in The Big Bang; but given Rory responds to this by hugging her, clearly he doesn’t take it as her actually dismissing him. He knows her better than that.)

And by no means do I meant to imply this is fair to young Rory, poor Rory, who's left struggling with the feeling that his role in her life is in competition with the role of her trauma (aka the Doctor). But not every unhealthy relationship dynamic is unhealthy because of abuse. Labelling Amy's treatment of Rory in Season 5 more accurately isn't the same as excusing her harmful choices — but making mistakes is part of being human, Amy's mistakes are certainly understandable, and she works through them out of love for Rory.

If there's one thing to say about Moffat women, it's that Moffat allows his female characters the same grace that the male characters *coughTENcough* have always had, to hurt and struggle and make realistic mistakes and overcome those mistakes and to heal without being demonized.

Amy isn't perfect, but she is a fully realized character, and her story gives us a resonant depiction of childhood trauma.

#abuse #rtd critical #anti rtd #im NOT really anti rtd but im tagging it that because some people block that tag and uhhhh this post strays into rtd critique #maybe he does regret how he wrote the master! we'll never know because rtd is very anti-admitting-his-own-mistakes #words by seaweed #anyways tia i am. SO relieved you’re not upset with me about our last disagreement? #i high key jumped to conclusions after the lack of reply to the last DM? so thank you for this ask it's great to hear from you #sorry you were in a debate about this! that sounds extremely awful. #anyway i'm gonna WAIT at least a week to tag Amy and Rory to avoid this showing up in the character tags right away haha #because I am KINDA scared the anti-media-literacy ppl will find this (I had to include the first part tho its important) #(lack of distinction between harm to audience *in fiction* and irl harm *to actual ppl* leads to problematic public apologies where- #-public figures apologize to fans they let down *instead* of the people they actually hurt. no it doesn't work like that) #(parasocial relationships are not more important than real victims agency or privacy) #editing to say..... yanno what? ive come to terms with not all the posts with the following tag been about the doctor #and I am planning to make a post at some point about the nd aspects of Amy+the Doctor's connection which this stuff IS relevant to soooooo #(eleventh) doctor is neurodivergent tag

[jackshiccup]

hiccup is so friend shaped :(

#HE LOOKS SO . HES SO HES SOOOOOO #THATS MY SON #THATS POOKIE BEAR #I WANT TO HOLD HIM AND HUG HIM AND WRAP HIM UP IN A BLANKET #his smile is so sweet im getting very upset #☹️☹️☹️ #he just wants the best for toothless always #the best friends ever… #httyd #httyd rob #riders of berk #hiccup #fave #video #rob s1 e19 #we are family part 1

[merrysithmas]

if you want.... lizzo..... and jack black.... in the effing mandalorian we are not the same kind of person

#i felt my soul dessicate when i saw them #wtf was that corporate shill #the mandalorian #utterly awful #also im judging every single person involved in making that cameo happen #singlehandedly killed my interest in the show #shudderingly bad #no joke im soooooo upset about this #im gonna gatekeep star wars right now #that is NOT star wars #i finally understand tlj haters

[drbtinglecannon]

The CATTs are today's countdown art!!!

#toh #the owl house #dana terrace #the owl house for the future #my fav queer maladjusted rebels 💖 im so pumped we got art of them omg #eber on darius' shoulder!! darius' sour face!! raines comforting smile!! katya derwin amber doing the hiss!! eda & luz cheering!! #obviously danas art style is so 🤌🤌🤌 but the way she draws eda & raine esp is soooooo 👀🤌💖🙌👏 #im so upset theyre gonna be puppets in the special ;___; but at least we get this lovely countdown art #i am certain others posted this but i only just saw this so. posting 3hr later #huh i wonder if amber can fly using her little wings or if shes just jumping. interesting hc to think on #darius is so much bigger than raine & eber its hilarious. what a weird little trio i love them so much i wish we got a full ep of them

[variksel]

hi fellow transmascs pls put in the tags or reblogs What is the Worst everyday experience that makes u dysphoric but in only an inconvenient and petty way. mine is stepping out of the bathroom after a shower and having to put my towel up like this

#actually nbs and transfemmes if u also wanna contribute feel free to #i was just mostly curious about other transmascs cause like idk relatability ig 😭 #anyway i genuinely hate this towel thing soooooo fuckin much #i dont get like upset but it makes me feel so Small and weird i hate it lmao #but theres literally nothing i can do about it cause i do kinda hate putting on clothes in a really humid lil closet more #im just always like >:[ #ANYWAY #transmaculine #trans man #trans #transgender #dysphoria #cw dysphoria #lgbt

[littlehatmouse]

im actually like. so sad my best friend cant call bc hes in fucking FRANCE and my other friend said he would call and i think he's not feeling good so he can't and all my other friends are asleep except for one of my friends who is Not very reliable when she promises to do things :(

#lila thoughts #i am unreasonably upset about this i think #i was soooooo excited but now im just sad #ive never pulled for a character i like this much before without calling my friend :( #this is maybe concerning that im this hung up on Gambling in a gacha game #but whatever its fine i guess

[bordonfreeman]

Had a dream the other night, there was a guy. Take him. Please. He won't leave me alone

#a shut up #art #drawing #original character #eclipse sb #??? i guess #im upset the colors got rlly muddy #but i guess it works bro was living in the woods soooooo #catboy eclipse????????? #he looks moldy. stinky man #idk #fnaf #fnaf oc #fnaf sb #daycare attendant oc

[mister-mizu]

take him off my hands

AAAGAGAGAGAGAGGAGAGAGAGGAGA

#JAMIL WAS SOOOOOO CHEFS KISS DURING GLOMASC #IM SO UPSET I NEVER FINISHED IT #AUGHHHHHHH

[dapperrokyuu]

Been reading Noragami since the news of its ending motivated me. The comments under chapters are such a peek into how desperate some people are to blame a child to avoid accepting that things are just complicated and messy sometimes, lol.

Like, it cant be "Everyone had responsibility in this," nor "Its nobody's fault, really," theres this interesting obsession with needing to have A Sole Person (1) To Be Upset With.

#dee p thoughts #noragami #and it ends up being yukine like!!! how much does the narrative have to explain to you this is a neglected and thus easily manipulated chil #like its okay to be upset with him but to say its his fault Im??? that ignores everything that drove him to be that way #and the MORE MATURE FIGURES who should defaultly be viewed as more able to hold accountability of taking advantage of/not helping him #it just really is the fact that yukine NEEDS to be at fault SOMEONE has to be at fault #only one person so its a nice little neat package that I dont have to think or have sympathy for or critique anyone else after c: #like its SOOOOOO easy to say either EVERYONE and/or NO ONE is at fault and yettttt- it boggles me lkdjabfn- #the story literally bonks you over the head with ''its because hes a child and can literally never grow up or mature'' MULTIPLE TIMES... #Im only at chapter 88.whatever and the fact that people are digging into yukine SO HARD...when father is literally RIGHT THERE..... #youre literally blaming someone for being manipulated instead of the manipulater pleaseee

[classicsonic]

we have to kill olimar's boss. Now

#SOOOOOO UPSET ABOUT OLIMAR'S SHIP GETTING SOLD. IT HASNT EVEN HAPPENED YET BUT IM COLLECTING ALL THIS SHIT TO GET OLIMAR HOME AND IT JUST #GETS SOLD. THERE WERE GIFTS FROM HIS CHILDREN IN THERE YOU BITCH!!!!!!!! HE'S TAKEN CARE OF THAT SHIP FOR SO LONG . HE WAS GOING TO TAKE #HIS FAMILY FOR A TRIP IN THE S.S. DOLPHIN.... 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥 #punchline!

[skitskatdacat63]

Where is the clip of Jense kissing the camera?????? ☹️ I could've swore it was from Brazil 2009, no?? No gifs for this race yet from me then :/

#I NEED THE CLIP PLEASE SOMEONE 🥺🥺🥺🥺🙏🙏🙏🙏 #i know there's gotta be more footage of his championship win??????? #like the pics where does the win symbol to the camera :( is there really no clip of that? #im already fidgety and upset about some other things so this is really upsetting me 😭😭 #im like oh yes finally! brazil 2009!! the championship wins!!! and the kiss!!!!! #and then its... just...not..there #even if im wrong and its not from this race i really really really desperately need the clip pls 🥺 #but god you know when youre already upset and then smth minor jusy piles on top and makes ir even worse #no gifs tonight sowwy! i was dealing w some other things and its soooooo fucking late now #AND I WANNA FIND MORE CONTENT FOR MY POST OKAY??? :( #so uh someone pls lmk ? i just feel a bit uncompleted rn :/ #and also just the approaching emptiness of being soon to finish a project #the post race is so funny #bcs its like jenson jenson jenson and them like oh yeah mark the winner exists too i guess.... #catie.rambling.txt

[elialys]

Hey *waving like dumbdumb that I am :)

I have a question: I just read through your answers of the 20-question game/tag thingy, and stumbled over your Polivia "In Reverse"… now, i do absolutely adore your writing, stories and style, but before I get started with that story, i just wanted to know… is it a HEA? or are they just breaking apart, full stop? I can work and gladly read trauma and angst, but only if it has a HEA or at least a silver lining/hopeful ending…

otherwise Im just gonna dive into "Shivered Bones" again ;)

Thank youuuuuu! :D

In Reverse is a bit tricky to be honest 😅 It is known (within the group of P/O readers I had especially back then anyway) as my biggest tearjerker. The premise of the story is basically Peter and Olivia's life in that 'bleak' timeline we see in 3x22 "The Day We Died". It starts right after Olivia's death in 2026 and slowly goes back in time through each chapter until 2014, so it covers their 15 years of life together...in reverse format 😅

Does it have an HEA? Well, not exactly, because the last chapter of it (spoilers) is basically all about 'future' Peter in 2026 making the decision to change the timeline to save Olivia--which he does, erasing himself from time in the process. We know he does reappear canonically though, so it's not TRAGIC, and I tried my hardest to make it hopeful despite how bittersweet it was.

I always put a strong warning on this story though because back then, I decided to explain Peter and Olivia not having children in that future timeline by writing them almost having a child in the early years of their relationship, but the baby died near the end of Olivia's pregnancy. And all of that is written in rather sad details toward the end of the fic (and has been the cause of many many tears from me and readers😭).

That being said, although the first couple of chapters are very sad because future!Olivia is dead and Peter is grieving, and the last..3/4 chapters are quite rough because of them losing their baby, a big chunk of this fic is just...them, being in love, trying to survive in this bleak world, having their ups and downs, being domestic, and very co-dependent haha

Soooo do they break apart? No, never, although they go through hard times, but they're together through it all. I'm still extremely fond of that story, nearly 13 years later, but it is on the intense side, so it's really up to you.

No matter what you decide, thank you so much for your kind words!

#In Reverse #i still want to edit the shit out of it someday just because my english has improved quite a bit since 2011 😅 #but editing it also mean working on those extremely upsetting chapters again and im still traumatized 13 years later soooooo maybe not