#im so anxious still

[roachemoji]

#bo posting #croutons #but also this is a #vent #i need tbis cat to let me sleep through tge night just ince #im so tired and im waking up just #exhausted emotionally #im so anxious still #im terrified and catastrophizing #forcing myself not to isolate even though ever fiber of my being is screaming at me to #convinced that no one believes or understands the extent of how bad things r rn #and that bc no one believes me #everything i do is seen as.... purposeful #or personal #convinced theres nothing i could say or do that would accurately describe how i feel #and more convinced i already need to know what would help before i can ask for it #and since i dont know i cant ask for help #🫠

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i just wanna be protected and cared for like i'm a tiny kitty with abandonment issues

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd problems #bpd #bpd vent #bpd mood #i lost electricity for two days and my fp said i could stay with him and his sister.. i love him so much #tho i can’t fall asleep because it’s a new space #so i might go see if i can sleep in his room in like a half an hour if i’m still awake #because i always get anxious when im in new spaces that someone is gonna break in and id be the first victim

[nordidia]

having a very rough night so raph doodles needed to be made

when in need, mash two interests together

#i love him so muhc ghghgh #and uh please stop sending me asks straight up demanding me to draw more /nm #if u've sent me an ask just regarding art before pls dont feel anxious this is about people actually DEMANDING like im some sort of machine #im absent due to my work/mental health situation going up and down #tmnt will ofc always be special interest but right now its in the back row #theres little time for anything but work and meetings and thinking about work and.. well.. monster hunter escapism egsfkhjhh.. #but yeah i promise im still here #and i want to draw him when i can #but stress is high right now and drawing takes too much wrist stamina to do often now #i hope u understand #sorry if i worded myself badly im very tired and stresed n its ... oh its 5am great. wellp. goodnight skafklgsjdklfnshh #my art #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #nordidia art #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt raph #id in alt text #also one would think my art style is easy on my wrist but #i gorilla grip my pen and when i learned to write as a child i held the pencil jank #and it stuck like that #so its really rough on my hands #sadly

[coolnonsenseworld]

Commission done for Lilly, for her future project "As Loud As A Whisper, As Silent As A Scream". 

You can find Lilly here - https://liluger4e.carrd.co/ Thank you so much for Commissioning!!  💕💕💕

#klance #lance mcclain #keith kogane #voltron legendary defender #voltron #klance fanart #is everyone as sad and anxious as me? #like man life is a streak of coping mechanisms #also posting comms is sitll weird #but on the other hand as im writing this tag i realize i have plenty kinda-finished kl pieces i still want to post like for a year #and still havent #so i guess picking a moment to post is just a general issue not only comms related #i hope yall having an amazing day!!

[wardingshout]

that one very important meme...

#pokespe #pokemon #pokespe blue #pokespe yellow #my art #I've never remembered a ship name in my life I'm so sorry #I have to get up for my first day back at work in like 5 hours and I'm anxious so this was more important... #I don't feel less anxious just more tired 👍👍👍 #silver week rly got my brain kicking about pokespe but Im still too stuck in zeldaland dfhudsj

[whimsyprinx]

I feel like now is a good time to announce that I’m in the process of moving blogs! Im doing so for a few reasons, the main one being paranoia, so for that reason I won’t be saying my new urls publicly so like please dm me if you’d like my new url so you can follow me there! I’ll be reblogging this post a lot so ppl can see it (so sorry if you get annoyed by that)!

I’m also remaking my discord account as well so if we’re friends on there then feel free to message me for my new username!

friends and mutuals please do reblog so shared friends/mutuals have a higher chance seeing it!

#whimsy whispers #I’m just like ahdjfjjg #I’ve been considering remaking blogs for a few years now (as some of you may know) and like simply changing urls isn’t enough #no matter how many times I chnage urls the paranoia won’t go away and I think that starting a new blog is the best choice #idk what to do if my newest blog gets found by the ppl I’m paranoid about like idk the odds of that are low (I hope) alas I’m still anxious #about it #for some slight context: I’ve had several people now pop up in my life pretending to be other people/several people and while I’ve blocked #then on every social media account I interacted with them in im still paranoid about them lurking #and then like there’s other reasons to remake as well #I’m tired of this blog like I love it it’s been fun but I think starting over will be nice #tbh this is the longest I’ve had a blog without remaking I usually remake accounts every so often #I don’t intend to remake my next blog like at all but like agdhjfjg I have a habit of getting bored of accounts and staring over (usually #this applies to art accounts like y’all wouldn’t believe how many deviantart accounts I’ve had) #uhhhh idk I’ve been rambling for too long #I have this in drafts rn but you should be seeing this post soon

[sunflowers666]

#love my new shirt. the back is lace. im going to dye my big page stlye jacket red and see if that makes it work for me #i just drank a hard kombucha. still depressed and super anxious abt the trajectory of my life for the next year or so #i forgot to write in my diary the last couple days

[kettleghost]

hi tumblr, long time no see! i would like to announce i am opening commissions!!

all the details are here on my ko.fi! please check it out, it’d be super appreciated :D and please make sure to read the rules before commissioning me and all that stuff, hope everyone’s been doing well!

#im still extremely anxious posting on tumblr and it’s unlikely i will be sharing much more over here #as kind as you all have been! it’s just been a very stressful experience for me running this account #but since this is where i have the most followers i thought i should announce my commissions here #since i really don’t have much money at the moment and the most people will see it here ! #so yeah :D hello again everyone #sorry for my radio silence such a large following really terrifies me #thank u to anyone who commissions me! it’s super appreciated :D

[choccy-milky]

Bro I’m kicking my feet in the air! The new chapter was so FREAKING GOOD!!!!

I’ve said this in the past but I LOVE the way you write Anne, ominis and the general fluff for this story and I can’t even begin to talk about your art and how much I smile when I see you post ❤️❤️❤️

10/10 I missed our normal pink flag Sebastian

BAHAHA AW TYY💖💖IM GLAD YOU LIKED IT💖 i love writing all of their dynamics not just clora and sebs, so im glad you like that as well 🥹tysm again🥹 and fr between my dark relic comic and my relic!seb art i been missing him too, all hail the return of the SLIGHTLY red flag/pink flag boi 🚩🩷🏳️🩷🚩

oh god idk LMAO. the climax is gonna be happening in the next 1-2 chapters, and then after that its gonna be summer stuff / epilogue with a bit of seb and clora as curse-breakers and what thats like, but i have no idea how long itll be BAHAHA, i am starting to get a bit self-conscious about the word count and how big my fic is tbh LMFAO so im glad youd be fine if it went on forever LOOL💖💖

@oneofafew NO BAHAHA THEYRE NOT RELATED AT ALL, I DIDNT REALIZE THERE WAS ALREADY A LAWLEY IN THE GAME LMAO, maybe he can be his uncle or some shit, bc the lawley in the game is also an asshole. its funny too, bc when me and hogwartslegacypics were trying to find out what bully boi's ACTUAL name was by looking in the audio files of all the NPCS, we saw a "lawley" and i started freaking out i was like OMG IF I ACCIDENTALLY GUESSED HIS NAME RIGHT THATD BE AMAZING🤯🤯 but alas........no. no relation LOL

@slytherinsomniari IM GLAD YOU LIKED IT, TYY💖 and for the anatomical parts u mean the x-ray stuff? tbh its just a trope/thing that happens in hentai manga which is where a lot of my reference/inspo comes from when i draw nsfw stuff, and i always liked it, so i included it into my own art. as for how i can tell when theres too much....well there are certain sites you can always go to to watch an actual video to see what a 'normal' amount is, but WHO CARES IF ITS REALISTIC OR NOT I SAY, ITS ALL KINKY FANTASY SHIT, WHO NEEDS REALISM💪

@4ever2000lover LMAOO IF IT WAS UP TO SEB CLORA WOULD BE PREGNANT 24/7 I SWEAR TO GOD (until he realizes that means they cant bone as much) but tbh i actually only plan to make them have 2 kids, a girl first whos fiesty and a tomboy and takes after seb, and then a more softspoken boy who takes after clora🥰

#ask #i wanna turn on anons again but also i never realized how anxious i was of anon hate until i turned them off LOL #dont wanna make it sound like i was getting anon hate tho i wasnt 99.9% of all my anons were always lovely #im just easily anxious so it only takes 1 meaner one to make me all blehhhh #still will turn them on soon since as an anxious person i ALSO understand not wanting to send anything unless its anon LOL even if its nice

[waterfallofspace]

Seems we've found ourselves stuck in a trope- and this closet~

Had a little free time, and maybe a touch too much confidence, sooo here's an unscripted, all recorded in one go, lil wav!~ (I absolutely adore sneezing while hiding tropes, so I had to give it a shot >///<)

Too big for the audio file limit, so here it is via s/oundcloud, hope it's alright!~

#waterfallwav #I'm actually not as anxious about posting this as i thought i would be! #dont get me wrong im still a mess of nerves hahaha~ #anything thats JUST me not a character is sooo scary to me~ #plus... unscripted... so it is what it is! but honestly i dont hate it so! take this! #either way i enjoyed making it and had fun with the story in my head~ so im choosing to be satisfied #hope anyone who listens enjoys!~ #snz #snzkink #snzaudio #snzwav

[77dekiru]

togachako doomposters are literally so annoying bc if you paid any attention to the actual plotline, and not just the five chapters from a few months ago, you would be able to realize that it isn’t even close to being over yet lmfao

#mha #my hero academia #bnha #boku no hero academia #toga himiko #uraraka ochako #togachako #like i understand if you’re upset or anxious abt himiko dying but she is literally still alive lmfao #and seeing ppl go on and on abt how she’s dead is so annoying #bc the plotline rlly isn’t that complicated #i won’t explain it all in the tags bc im already writing a huge post abt it but #keigo will be playing a very important role in it #not to mention i feel like ppl completely forget abt jin’s role in it as well #which is literally so crazy to me

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

You ever think about what's gonna happen when the Welcome Home website updates in December? Hopefully, at least for what I think, we'll get to see the fabled Julierella! Or any visual parts of the show in general. Probably something fit for the holiday spirit.

Maybe wondering about their relatives and loved ones living outside the neighborhood, and the fact that the residents haven't left to see them in some time.

Stuff like that! Maybe even some new recipes!

i try not to think about it or i'll become so nervoucited that i'll get nauseous

#the fact that its a psychological horror brings my excitement #from 'ohhhh i cant wait!!!' #to Im Genuinely Deeply Nervous AND Deeply Excited. #welcome home stresses me the fuck out but... in a good way? somehow??? #still i dont wanna think about whats to come or my entire day will be lost to pacing & staring at a wall w/ a racing heart #it probably will be housewarming themed - if thats still the in-universe version of christmas for the neighborhood #but yeah! so stoked im anxious! yeehaw! #whatever happens im going to go absolutely fucking Feral #also theres an element of 'i cant even imagine. anything could happen. things will happen that ive never even considered' #rambles from the bog #yk actually a thought ive had #is if i start streaming. before the update #maybe... i could stream the update. #yk me and any of you who join checking it out for the first time and looking for secrets #could be fun! if! emphasis on if!! #could be nice. cause like... idk about you guys but i dont have irl friends to sit down and check it out with #the updates are fun but a little lonely for me! its just me in my room wishing i could share the First Time Excitement yk yk #just. something for me to consider aiming for! #oh my god i just realized ill probably be working #i swear to god if the update drops while im at work im just gonna quit and walk out the door #ohhhh now im nervous about that happening... heres hoping it wont... #lmao who am i kidding! given my luck's track record that absolutely Will happen

[wr1ghtw0rth]

mayhaps draw Wrightworth as dog and cat! if you want (obviously Phoenix is dog and Miles is cat)

Obviously

#ace attorney #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright #kits art #wrightworth #narumitsu #nrmts #cat and dog #im actually working on a bigger drawing of cat and dog lawyers rn #but im anxious about doing the lineart #so it might still take a while to finish haha

[one-bunny-a-day]

25/08/2023

#daily bunny #237 #standalone bunny #originally this was gonna have just a plain black background #but for some reason that gave me horrible anxiety #so I had to scramble to add something sfgdfhg #it still lowkey unsettles me #I think its the eyes oof #'then why don't you change it/draw another one' lissen #it's almost midnight Im eepy #maybe it won't make me anxious in the morning dfsgfh

[cinnamon-phrog]

GUYS!!!!!!! GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!! LOOK WHAT CAME IN THE POST TODAY

MY SILLIES!!!!!! THE THREE OF THEM!!!!!

I taught myself to plait properly just so I can do Reds' hair [I find I can do someone elses' hair but not my own yet]

I had a chocolate bunny for easter and kept the bell and ribbon and I think it looks cute asf on Duck <33 I tied the bow myself it looks a bit shabby but idrc

Also I had a little jumper from another plush I had and I think it looks cosy on Yellow :3

#i'm more or less back to normal now. my headaches come and go #if i wasn't feeling better then i sure am now despite how. almost embarrassed i am for how awful last week was for me #dhmis #dont hug me im scared #don't hug me i'm scared #f/o #fictional other #selfshipping #selfshipper #selfship #selfship community #selfshipping community #selfshipper community #f/o community #fictional other community #polyamourous selfship #poly selfship #🎨🌻 #👄🍝 #🦆📋 #🚦🏠 #sooooooooooooooooo many tags omfg but i'm just so happy that i finally got these i'd like to spread my joy quite far #months of waiting and saving up and then months of waiting for kidrobot [who are awesome and reached out to me when i asked for help] #so many upsets by people being weird about how Yellow was described in one [1] synopsis of the plush [ew btw i trusted you man. womp womp] #i may still be anxious but these guys will help my anxiety <333

[not-another-robin]

In a constant state of tummy hurts. And being so brave about it

#i my have taken my meds twice today and im STILL so anxious i feel sick #woof :( #...... #you know im just now realising that some people dont use 'woof' as a word for frustration #my mom used to do that #so i do it a lot #i s2g im not just making dog sounds #am i a dogboy or catboy.... #answer quickly......