#im really so. nobody look at me bc i AM crying

[meiozis]

hi peach!! <3

a fic i haven't read from you yet but i want to - i still need to read your hyuck fic!! the one in the diner i think? i remember i saw lily reblog it and i skimmed over the beginning a little and From what i read its actually chef's kiss AS EXPECTED but i still need to read it in full :( once i can find the time i will def sit down and give it the english lit read & review it deserves!!!

something i remember vividly from reading one of your fics - this spans across a lot of your fics but i looove your depiction of night! its always so immersive and quaint and nostalgic and Sad . AND YOU KNOW I LOVE MY SAD MEDIA!!!! which also leads me into my next point but

what i like most about your writing - your prose!!!!!!! another fic author that i'm constantly taking notes on . i mentioned this in my review of parallels & almosts but your imagery and your symbolism is sooooo ,,, it scratches that itch in my brain like your fics are so rich in meaning like WHAT are you doing writing fanfic on tumblr dot com please get published!!!! the type of writing that needs to be annotated . i feel like i'm too smoothbrained to do it Truly and give it justice but just know . just know ..... if you ever write a directors cut for your fics i will be one of the first to read it!

if i've ever shared/talked about your fic to someone else - Of course i have ..... number one advocator for fics and authors that need to be put on the hall of fame!

im really so..... cat firstly i need you to know that this has me tearing up like i will full on start bawling if i read this just once more (to be fair ive read it. a lot of times already just trying to take it in)

i already go back to your review of parallels & almosts every time i feel stuck with writing bc its probably my fav fic i have written and to have you take all that time and effort to read through it and analyze it in such detail it really meant so so so much to me, like you literally made me excited to write again and write more <333

nights are Everything to me and i love writing it so much, sometimes i really feel like a one trick pony but really its just what comes naturally and i write for fun so it will keep happening! but also WHAT do you mean too smoothbrained!!!!!! the way you keep an eye out for and keep track of the little details and take the time to really dig yourself into the story, i put my silly little words out there just for people to read and hopefully enjoy and to get a full blown review is something that i hold so so so dear to me!!!!! and the fact that you think silly old me should be getting published im going to curl up into a ball and cry you are literally so wonderful </333333333 if i develop a god complex im gonna blame it on you 🥺 you are literally doing god's work on tumbler dot com and i love u and i hope you are having a fantastic day cat!!!!!!

#had to add a read more because i couldnt contain myself #cat i need you to know that you are so wonderful #actually i need everyone to know that you are so wonderful #and there might be another sad fic entering the chat soon too bc. well. i love nights and they keep happening #im really so. nobody look at me bc i AM crying #mutuals #cat #save

[depresseddepot]

had a dream abt making a friend in a class in high school and being really excited that i did but it being ruined by some teacher singling me out for literally no reason and then that person didn't want to talk to me anymore

#that is my whole high school experience compressed in one dream. made me feel just as bad too #thinking abt that time i was in a class of people i didn't know at all and were older/cooler than me #and someone next to me asked me (genuinely) if i could explain what the teacher meant the last two slides #and how the teacher called me (in the very last row of a class of 40) out by name the SECOND i started whispering to explain it to her #and then another time i had to leave my english class to take a math test (i was done w all the eng work) and the teacher was like #'why are you doing this so often?' 'this is only the second ti-' 'yeah and now its three. sure whatever. go.' #while that same teacher then turned around and let other kids cry in her class bc or worked hard to help them pass #like. lol. i wore all black and never spoke and stared at the ground when i talked and looks terrified whenever i had to do a presentation. #did that not generate any sympathy. maybe I was worse at expressions than i thought and looked angry all the time #but why did nobody ask abt MY home life #i got straight A's and was quiet and well behaved so nobody gave a shit abt me right. its only the ones that act out that get attention #god ive been out of high school for 3 years now and its still the worst time of my goddamn life #they were objectively good teachers bc i liked their classes and they were really nice to us #but every time they interacted with me one on one they were so mean and dismissive #am i that ugly? lol. was i not expressive enough #was it the lisp? did they hate hearing me talk? did i smell too much like my parent's cigarette smoke? #im never going to know and its always going to fuck me up that people that were SO nice to everyone else were so mean to me for no reason #those examples are just a couple of them but it happened a lot #i went into high school w emotional neglect and left with all of those symptoms absolutely solidified into my pysche #bc it showed again and again that adults were nice in public and mean in private and couldn't be relied on for support or help #vent #sorry

[chryblossomjjk]

👉👈 v triggering rant about my life below but i need to get it out before i explode fr so ye 👉👈

this past week has been so rough like ive literally never felt lonelier in my entire fucking life!!! i am usually a super productive person and i recently quit my full time job bc the company is toxic and it’s a break between semesters so i have nothing to distract me so i think that plays a factor but

my coping mechanism is isolating which unfortunately makes it v difficult to maintain healthy relationships, friendships, etc. lost two soulmate childhood besties from isolating and was subsequently ghosted when i came out of the funk which i understand obvi but yeah.

i was assaulted a few years ago which makes it difficult for me to date.

grew up with an abusive mother and generally am not close with anyone in my family.

and with all this time off im just looking around like… ohhhh right, there’s nobody here but you bestie lol. like i have casual friends, but really no deep intimate relationships of any kind that i am craving. n wow the realization that things have been like this for atleast 2-3 years with little to no change has made my outlook on life and the future really bleak!

i graduate in may and my degree isn’t lucrative at all so i am v v scared. i dont know what im doing n i live the same day over and over and over again and it’s making me lose my marbles lol. like i recognize there’s so much time for things to get better but it’s been like this for so long. ive been having exhaustive crying breakdowns every night for the past week n nothing i do helps :’)

[lifmera]

Hi! I'm not sure if you are still doing matchups, so if you aren't that's okay! If you are still at it and you would be so kind, I would love a Hazbin Hotel matchup! With a male character (minus Valentino, pls ;;), please!

I'm not sure if I'm an INFP or an ISFJ, but most of the time I go for INFP because that's the first result I got. Personality wise, I'm very, VERY shy at first. I don't really talk unless I'm asked something or if I'm with someone I consider my friend or at least I feel safe around. I'm not asocial, just terrified of either making a fool out of myself or making the wrong choice of words and be judged. I am soft-spoken and people sometimes say my voice is cute? I'm also asked many times to raise my voice. I don't like harsh words; I mean, no one does, but I'm particularly sensitive and the slightest hint of annoyance or anger makes me want to cry. I guess it goes without saying that I'm easely intimidated ;; I always do my best to help as much as I can, but I have trouble setting my boundries and sometimes people take me for granted. I can be lazy, but ironically enough, I am very hard working. Even if it's hard for me to do something when I don't feel like it, I push myself in order to get the task or tasks done. I hate leaving things undone because I get stressed easely

As for my appearance, I'm kinda short (150cm/4'11ft) and a bit chubby. I have long hair that I rarely tie up because I'm very insecure about my face. I'm often told that I have this "innocent"/soft facial features that make me look approachable. Once someone told me my face matches my personality because one can tell right away that I'm shy at first glance. I always wear dresses or skirts and my style is overall cottagecorey/cutesy. I often wear pastel colors

I don't consider myself particularly interesting. I'm a "go with the flow" kind of woman, but I'm working on voicing my wants and needs and learning to think about myself too. I enjoy many things and I'm up for almost any activity. Just don't expect me to enjoy loud parties or drinking ^^' I'd rather go to a quiet PUB, on a walk, or have a party with friends only. I'm very physically affectionate and a huge romantic; I always daydream about meeting the one, haha

Sorry if it's long, I get carried away sometimes. Thank you for reading! 🩷

HEYY OFC!! But also guys, i see a lot of you, say “no Valentino,” but i promise i DO NOT write for him. 😭

I kinda wanted to pair you with Adam… just bc he’d love u sm…. But..

I’ve decided to pair you with…….. ALASTOR!

You remind him of a sheep or lamb. He wants to just eat you right up!!!

He doesn’t mind if you anti-social. He’ll speak for you, nobody else needs to listen.

Honestly, he’d enjoy intimidating you to see your reactions, but he’d definitely apologize after. He wouldn’t raise his voice at you ever though.

He loves that you try to care for him, but he doesn’t want you to see him be weak. That’s the only time he might snap.

Oh he definitely loves the way you look and dress. Like I said, reminds him of a little lamb and probably wants to squeeze your cheeks.

He’s also more of a “go with the flow”. Unless things aren’t going his way. In the way im using it means in the way of going out.

He definitely loves walks.

Although he isn’t huge on physical touch, he’ll try. He definitely will be initiating some though.

He would LOVE to hear you talk. I think he’d enjoy listening to your voice.

~~~~~

HOPE YOU ENJOY!!

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin alastor #hazbin angel dust #hazbin charlie #hazbin husk #hazbin nifty #hazbin vaggie #hazbin cherri bomb #hazbin adam #hazbin mimzy #hazbin art #hazbin spoilers #hazbin lucifer #hazbin vox #hazbin verse #hazbin vees #hazbin velvette #hazbin hotel adam x reader #hazbin sera #hazbin emily #hazbin lute #hazbin lilith

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

k, m, n, t for pd and/or suck!!! >:33333

K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?

-> you know i gotta say wiwi. i have to. that character was Made For Me i swear to GOD . genuinely i cannot think about prime defenders season 2 episode 39 without feeling physically sick bc i love it so much. its the only one i havent relistened to since i heard it the first time. i KNOW its gonna make me cry again so i genuienly have not touched it even though theres things in there i need to hear again for character research. his arc is so like. narratively satisfying in a way that hits me so fucking deep to my core in an extremely personal way. and like. there were definitely some Decisions that i was REALLY ANNOYING about hating when they were brought up because im used to media with bad storytelling/creators that do not care about their characters but. looking back on it i would not change a single thing about it. i love you wiwi so much.

-> FOR SUCK.... its not over yet. so i cannot definitively say. campaign finale comes out tomorrow so my answer may change depending on that but for right now i think i gotta say arthur. i joke a lot about hating arthur for no real reason in particular but. man his story is just REALLY good. not going 2 give you suck spoilers (hehe) but i also really like how shilo has grown through the campaign. hes my little guy :]

M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend.

-> TIDE. TIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIDE TIDE TIDE I LOVE TIDE SO MUCH. thats my dad thats my best friend i love tide so much dude. every time he is mentioned or on screen i am just like :D HI TIDE I LOVE YOU TIDE

-> grefgore :] light of my life this is how i feel anytime i think about grefgore

N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).

-> CHARACTER STUDIES. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. I LIKE A GOOD SHIPPING FIC AS MUCH AS THE NEXT GUY BUT PLEASE GOD WRITE THEM IN CHARACTER. EXPLORE THEIR THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS AND WHY THEY MAKE CERTAIN DECISIONS THE WAY THEY DO. this doesnt even go for just pd and suck this is like. true for every single fandom ive ever fucking been in. do you know how hard it is to find character studies in the danny phantom tag on ao3. nobody has even fucking watched the show how are they going to write character studies they just want (<< i cannot legally finish this sentence without getting in so much trouble) I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING MY FUCKING SELF AROUND HERE. ALL I EVER WRITE ARE CHARACTER STUDIES BC THATS THE WAY I THINK ABOUT CHARACTERS. I LOVE THEIR MOTIVATIONS I LOVE TO GET INSIDE THEIR BRAINS LIKE A LITTLE PARASITE AND IT IS ALWAYS SURPRISING TO ME WHEN OTHER PEOPLE DO NOT THINK LIKE THIS. (edit im just now reading through this and realized the question says three things. i did not process that. my three things are all more character studies please)

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? 

-> oh dude i have so many hmmmmmmm how to choose just one. i have a LOT of feelings about wiwis original death and i might write something about that when i can get over my shrimp emotions about him. dakota cole audhd truther but that ones pretty much canon anyway so i dont think it counts. vyncent and his relationship with growing up in fantasy world and then being thrown into prime and how he adjusted to that. I think he really lies shitty syfy channel type horror movies that are so stupidly bad. and also plays a lot of video games but again i think thats mostly canon already. i think tide listens to dad rock but also like. ocean man by ween. you already know about my william and ashe being each others emotional support at concerts. i think william and ashe should hang out and do emo kid things more. i also have a lot of feelings about ashe and coping with the crippling loneliness of basically growing up alone and how the pd becoming like INSTANT best friends was so much for him in sooo many ways. you already know how i feel about mark i am in the middle of dissecting him like im in a high school biology class as we speak. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i know im gonna think of something really good after i hit the post button so stay tuned

#ive written like. maybe 2 shipping fics in recent years and one was while i was high on post-wisdom-teeth-surgery drugs #and the other has been in my wips for over a year bc i got to the quote unquote romantic part and ran out of all ideas #<< ive started working on this one again and instead of making them kiss i just went on for like . 4 more paragrapsh #about how the robot character finds it inconvenient to be in a body that visibly emotes. so that explains a lot i guess #the murderbot influence has hit me apparently #I DONT REALLY HAVE MANY SUCK HEADCANONS. as much as i loooove the suckening it doesnt like. grip me quite as hard as #pd and riptide do. #same with bitb! i fucking looooove bitb and i think about it so much but i dont necessarily have hcs for it because i like. #prefer the way canon is??? if that makes sense???? #I DO HOWEVER love to say the phrase “arthur bennett is a beautiful name for a butch lesbian” only bc i saw a piece of fanart with #that as the caption after like. epsiode 3. and it got stuck in my mind #oh also idk if ur here yet but arthur and deacon are also divorced father toxic exes in my mind. they totally fuck in a vampire style #(<< which is . ALSO a quote from a piece of fnaart that got stuck in my mind so fucking hard. they totally fuck in a vampire style. #i hate it here) #GODDD THANK U FOR LETTING ME RAMBLE. CAN YOU TELL IM NORMAL ABOUT THIS #asks #intertexts #friends!!!

[fluffypotatey]

When I started LMK, like. just last month actually, I was ELATED to see Wukong like that was a fluffy silly monkey!! Like ain't no wayyyy they're just gonna introduce him like "yeah so I met THE monkey king and told me I was his successor and then I never saw him again?" shows who thought of doing that always changed their mind, so hooray! reoccuring character! I know nobody sees Wukong as a dad but I think of JTTW where he's the communal grandfather of all monkeys and like. I like me a Monkey King whose a KING and not a Monkey Jester looking out for his family of monkies on the mountain. im soft. he's like alone in his species. give him a monkey family. give me a good leader. he loves them SO MUCH. anyways. he's so squishy too like when MK was all "whaaat? but you're so cute and cheeky!" and Wukong was all "I KNOW" im crying, also when he was gushing over the bunnies on the moon. the line about "dorky mortals" what a goofball. but ooh the GOOD STUFF like when his voice goes all deep and growly when he's actually serious and angry like YES WRECK SOME STUFF UP. protective Swk is so good, and when he crashed onto the ship whumped out to hell and back OOH that was good too, so yum yum, and reminded me a ton of my old fav bc the whole "lying/pretending to be chill and relax kind of guy when you're actually doing Secret Important Business" is 100% his thing, but this time it actually gets revealed to the others lol. but yeah that aspect of Wukong is so fun because I can write so many tactical schemes with him. I love how they dragged him out of retirement to still be cool and active. "You should have stayed buried." had me on the edge of my seat as one of the first Things Are About To Get Real moments. Its also neat how sometimes his dialogue shows slivers of his Great Sage Wisdom Style of Speaking coming out. I went to rewatch that ep and also forgot how much of a stupid cartoon villain Macky was there lmao, I was hoping they wouldn't send him blasting off like team rocket every episode, at least that's started to change as of S4 XD I wonder if the theories about the journey failing hold any merit, stuff like "Wukong is not the loner he pretends to be" and all the other itty bitty behavioral clues are so fun to dig into.

HE IS SUCH A GOOFBALL 😍😍😍 i love this monkey man so much like you don’t even know 🤧

“you should’ve stayed buried” <- RIGHT HERE YOUR HONOR!!!! THIS WAS THE MOMENT!!! THE POINT OF NO RETURN FOR ME 🫠

up until s2 i had been waiting to see swk really fuck shit up bc he is one of the most op characters ever written and he’s such a fun guy in general, so to see him go from teasing DBK to THREATENING LBD WAS SO GOOD!!!!

I BELIEVE IN PROTECTIVE!SWK SUPREMACY 🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐 I BELIEVE IN SWK HOLDING BACK UNTIL HE KNOWS HE CANNOT (and even then he is still holding back like wtf) FOR THE SAFETY OF THE PEOPLE HE CARES ABOUT 🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐🛐

i am also a firm grandpa swk believer because yeah i’m not a big fan on labeling swk as a father figure (especially to MK) but if i had to place a familial label then i dub thee Grandpappy™️ Monkey King. he’s lived long enough to earn this title (also i think swk even calls himself grandpa to his subjects in jttw but i may have heard that wrong) but i also wouldn’t say no to Distant Uncle™️

but yeah, swk <3 he’s my little guy 🥰 my special murder boy 🥰 my precious “consumed by past regrets that span over centuries” guy 🥰 my “i have lived for a long, long time” immortal

#i love him so much i killed him twice #well #2.5 #bc in another au of mine he makes a deal with my reaper OC over his death bc i figured since he’s 7-fold immortal he gets to call the shots #and not the Diyu ya know? #anyway #love him #also welcome anon!!!! #welcome to the lmk fandom!!!! #I hope you enjoy your stay :D #lmk #lmk sun wukong #asks

[aropride]

hey. was anyone going to tell me that psychotic depression. aka major depressive disorder with psychotic features. was a thing. or was I gonna find that out from looking up delusions to be more educated.

(and the academic article I found on it was exclusively in German so I can't read it. and that the English abstract included said that the three delusional foci associated with it are the things I have the most severe anxiety about while not being that anxious about much else.)

oh my god yeah no thats definitely a thing and i feel like no one talks abt it except for ppl whove experienced it or other psychotic people 😭 bipolar as well can include psychosis, theres theories that ocd with low/no insight can lead to it, also trauma, childbirth, a bunch of other stuff that like. nobody ever talks abt!! i mean people barely talk abt schizophrenia let alone other schizospec disorders either but like. tbh im guessing a lot if not most people with psychosis arent ever diagnosed or recognized as having it or even realize that they have it bc nobody really knows what to look for outside of the stereotypical outward signs yknow. like if someones not percieved as a danger to others ppl dont pick up on it or they do but they just think someones weird or creepy or whatever yknow. i am screaming and crying and clawing at the walls i wish there was more knowledge abt this stuff cuz its so important and pretty much the only people i see talking abt it are ppl whove experienced it ;-;

#ask #enby-ralsei #like a couple years ago i went thru trauma and then spent a month like. Ok everyone in thr world can read my mind + also im being stalked #also [person] is the bug on my windowsill + im in a secret human experiment in the wilderness + im going to fall into a time loop etc #and i was llike. juuust aware enough to be like hm. i wonder if this is not normal . & got really into reading articles n stuff abt #connections btwn trauma + psychotic episodes and ocd + delusions etc #but i would never have thought to do that if i wasnt already a bit autistic about psychology #and i wouldnt have been able to understand most of the articles abt it either #like the ocd delusion thing i read a couple articles abt and its like. not a Recognized thing as far as i can tell but people have been lik #hey we should look into this at some point. ANYWAY. yeah

[evergreen-femme]

diarypost

why has my appearance always been, overwhelmingly probably, the main thing i've always been concerned about? it eats my brain and always has, and i can only recognize that i like myself as i exist *right now*, that i am finally pretty, sometimes. and yet ill look at pictures of my body from just 6 months to a year ago and think "what the fuck she was so hot what happened" every single time. and idk if this is some kind of mental programmimg error or loop or something because my mental architecture was developed in the complete absence of ever feeling even remotely good about how i looked. like it doesn't even know how to handle positive self-perception, much less process it and incorporate it into my self image. poor girl needed some positive body image and never once got it or thought she was worth anything. idk it feels like such an overwhelming need these days im crying just thinking about it

like literally that manga panel with the "if i can't be cute then what's even the point of living"... that feeling stretched out to infinity all the time

yeah im a girl but i feel like i only got to be a cute girl for like less than a year and that almost all happened during the really traumatic circumstances of me coming out. and the cute part was always mandatory for me. i feel like if i can't see myself as cute im going to die, but it just gets into my head that i transitioned on the cusp of my 30s and not my 20s and there so much socialization and fun and dressing up i missed and i feel like because of my age i have maybe a year or two of that left and even then i feel a bit too old for it.

like i was a huge nerd but more than that i was just the socially stunted outcast. i never even had friends close enough to invite over throughout my entire childhood. not one. i got to party a bit in college but i wasnt a fucking GIRL then so i stood around being *really really* bad at being a guy and hoping like. girls would notice my skin and how pale i was or something idk. obviously never happened. i got told by my roommate how badly i fumbled the possibility to be the "pimp of our dorm building" because i tried to join a female friend group. over and over he'd talk about it and he never fucking got that i just wanted to be one of them! i just wanted to wear dresses and get pretty together and feel cute and accepted and not on-guard for once. ofc it never got that far (god, god i wish it had my life would have been so much happier) bc of me. and my stupid sexuality. like i hooked up with this weird girl who hinted at doing bdsm with me (ofc it ended up with her wanting me to dom and nothing happening bc of that) but she told fucking everyone and i literally had started reading all this girl's writing to get to know her and writing bad poetry about her (ugh) but yea turns out she was cheating on her boyfriend back home ¯\_(ツ)_/¯¯\_(ツ)_/¯¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and just wanted to hook up and tell everyone the details (like lol he has a big cock but is submissive 🤢)

like over breakfast

and then poof nobody wants to be my friend anymore.

but anyway yea i just need to have that life that i never got in my 20s but all things are convalescing to make me believe that im too old for it and i'll have to live the rest of my life carrying that yawning absence with me

and its already so heavy at 31 i dont know how im going to be able to handle it as i get older

also worth noting that that was my first sexual experience ever.

#diaryposting #pls do not reblog

[zombiepatch]

vent abt capitalism and mental illness under read more bc it got too long but. yeah

sometimes i feel like i don't have the right to complain about how capitalism effects me bc i am unemployed and supported by my parents. like...i don't DO anything but mope around all day and think about things i COULD try to pursue, without actually having the courage or willpower to make any of those steps.

but then i remember that the reason i do that is because i have no hope for a happy future when there is just no BETTER to ...THIS. i have to find employment while also knowing i am constantly walking the fragile line of depression, anxiety, and adhd, knowing that as hard as i try, i know i am a very mentally unstable person who needs routine, predictability, and relative quiet or i'll cry. knowing that nobody is willing to make accommodations for that, especially for someone with no experience and a high school diploma.

then i read shit from ppl hiring, who Would actually hire someone like me (no skill or experience), and they're all like "looking for someone who thrives in a fast paced environment and is always friendly and-" jesus christ just kill me. the time i had a retail job for a total of two days, i had a breakdown the first day while watching the training vids because it was SO peppy and condescending and i had the thought "oh fuck i can't do this" ...then i tried anyways and uhh was right. i couldn't do that. too weak. but i'm FORTUNATE because i was ABLE to quit without having to worry survival. i'm being supported, i live with my parents.

the coworker i was with was pregnant and worked 2 other jobs and GOD i could not IMAGINE. i felt so bad for her. we got off our shift and another stressed coworker came and asked if either of us could cover her shift for her, to which the answer was no from both of us, because i still had NO clue what i was doing, and my other coworker had to go to her Other dead-end retail job. i hope they're both doing alright nowadays, this happened just one month before covid really hit.

idk where i'm going with all this now im gonna go turn off my brain for a while and play video games or smth nblkbngj

[bbgmiraa]

Paint our love.

actor!!SongKang! FEMactor/singer!! Reader! fluff!! mentions of killing each other!! and the tinyest bit of angst!! this is inspired by my delusions + im inlove with these songs & been waiting to write abt them but i cant stop myself from thinking nobody will like my writing style bc its kinda trash. first story too it's abt to be pretty short. i'd recommend putting these songs on loop while reading but if u cant its wtv .BUCKLE UP!

Walking down a dark yellow dimmed street after having a yell out with your oh so pretty boyfriend. Damn.. he really has a way with his words. To have you crying like this and you're sure you're gonna end up right back in his arms by 12:00 am. Caught up in your thoughts, you didn't hear him walk up to you all you felt was a hand grabbing your arm, hand being stuffed in your pocket. You both didn't have to say something. The looks on both of your faces screamed what you wanted to say. Yours being 'you hurt me' his being 'im sorry'. You shrugged him off, keeping it pushing. Until you got pushed into the wall right next to you. "I'm sorry baby." such pretty words coming out of the mouth that called you out of your name. "𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲𝘀 𝘄𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝘄𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻". You chuckled "i really wish i could believe you right now Kang. But it's the way you said it that's pulling me back." you said in a really cold way. Maybe it's the breeze outside but it is pretty cold out here. "Here," Kang said handing your favorite padded jacket as if he was reading your mind. You ignore it and try to walk away. he pulls you back into a pleading kiss. When you both finish tears are streaming down your face. "Why do you always hurt me just to pull me back. Do you do this on purpose? I don't wanna feel hurt done by you, i just wanna be embraced by you. Why do you make this so hard baby?" you say voice cracking on every other word, walking in the opposite direction while he keeps trying to grab your wrist you pushing him away every time, Sobbing. "Imma get it right i promise. gimmie one more chance baby ? lets go home hmm?" " Are gonna break my heart once again Kang hmm? Im losing trust in you, and once i lose it all it's over. " "That wont happen ma". You break down crouching down on your feet (postioned as if your megan thee stallion) he's calling you all of your favorite things and making you fold so you can run right back to him. He crouches with you making you sob harder. Looking at him you say " How can i trust you. Do you even remember what you just said to me 15 minutes ago." "If i fuck up again, you can kill me." "CUT! Kang why'd you go off script?" the director says loud enough for the outside of the rented street to hear ringing your ears. "Yeah, why'd you go off script" you say laughing hitting his chest. He can't hide how he feels for you, this is the only time besides with his friends he can express it except, it's scripted. He actually meant what he said and seeing you look so hurt like this, even though he knows it scripted, makes him wanna kill himself. If you're not made for him, and he can't have you he'd kill both of you.

#song kang #i actually love him so much #kdrama #ate that up #idk man #drabble #light angst #fluff #yandere #love #Spotify

[catspinach]

ive been meaning to vent on here about work for a long time now so here

i was hired in as a shift supervisor at a brand new starbucks with all brand new employees aside from another supervisor, Mylah, who is a 4yr partner(remember her), and maybe 2 others or so. none of us knew what we were doing. i was barista trained separately from the rest, followed by supervisor training, and then a week off. I came back and had no idea what the hell i was doing, and everyone was mad that i didnt know what to do??

Mylah trained me, and it was brutal. She would critique everything i did, and I always defended myself, saying "why do i need to do it that way if this way gets the same results?" and she did Not like that lmao and the entire training was incredibly tense.

Months pass, and she is worse than ever. she's had several lectures about her behavior but not a single writeup. Nothing has changed. She trained a new supervisor a few weeks ago, and she treated her the same way as she did with me. At some point she slammed a freezer and started shouting, making her cry, and Everyone in lobby turned their heads. i felt awful and wanted to say smth, but I'm genuinely scared of her. Everyone is. Several people have admitted to me that they call off when they see Mylah on the schedule.

The other day, the lobby was empty, and we were free to talk about all the harassment we've faced with her. I cant even remember all of it there's so much but uh here's a list of stuff i remember:

My manager gave Jenn some extra hours, and when they came in, Mylah cornered them, asking why they stole all her hours?? Jenn was comfused because they were literally just added to the schedule so that they would have enough bodies on the floor. Apparently Mylah was pissy at them for the entire rest of their shift, which sucks bc they were already working 12hrs that day:'(

I became friends with a barista named Diana, who is hispanic, and Mylah (white) would always say rude things that made her uncomfortable, saying its okay because her bf is mexican ._. It became a problem and eventually Mylah started looking through all her stuff to get her fired, and succeeded. Diana told me that Mylah would joke with the other baristas about how im stupid and bad at my job, and she said she always stood up for me which definitely did not help her with this whole situation but I greatly appreciate her for it, and we still talk!

Anna said Mylah was talking to her about me and how i do my job wrong. she said i don't face the bills the same way in the deposit bag, and that I dont fill in the money order right so I'm the reason we have so many goddamn nickles, and she said I don't double count the drawers and that's why there's so many mistakes with the deposit. the funny thing is, i DO face the bills the same way, I have never even DONE a money order because that's morning's job, I TRIPLE count the drawers bc i have anxiety, and nobody has EVER said anything to me about the deposit being off.

At some point someone said ret*rded, and Mylah is autistic and was rightfully mad, and brought her to the back to yell at her. not sure what she said but when she came back she went up to me, and only me, and apologized. so like that really hurted but okay whatever ill just go kill myself ig

Mylah was opening one day and told Morgan that since I was closing that it would probably take longer than usual to close? I asked Morgan how Mylah was with closing, and she said that nothing gets done until the absolute last minute, and it takes at least half an hour to finish closing. My record is 2 minutes past close.

Jenn and Taylor told me that I'm their favorite out of all of the shifts, because I make sure to get everything done, I am fast, efficient, and if they have a question I will do my best to figure out a solution for them. Apparently, when they ask Mylah a question, she answers with, "I dont know man, I just work here" and walks away. which like. mood. but she's getting paid 20/hr compared to the baristas at 15/hr, and there is absolutely no reason that the baristas should have to pick up her slack.

Anna used to be friends with Mylah, and they went to get piercings together, and Mylah thought it would be super funny to snapchat Anna having a panic attack about the needle! outside of work, but still fucked up

theres more idk

Mylah got it in my head that I'm the worst of all of the supervisors, and when I found out I was almost all the baristas' favorite, I started visibly shaking with relief! Ive been trying so so hard to make up for how "bad" i am at my job in fear that everyone will hate me otherwise, and now I gind this out and I don't know how to handle this information jdgdheb

I asked them if they would like to talk to the manager as a group, hoping that will show her just how serious the situation is. I don't usually pray for someone to get fired, but I want her ass permanently out of my sight asap

#vent #there's more going on with another supervisor but Mylah is really my main issue #the other supervisor goes around every morning and writes a list of all the stuff i missed the night before and posts it for everyone to se #i love my job #theyre my only problems actually tho like i do enjoy my job for now and i dont have to see Mylah a lot since we're both shifts

[jinkicake]

Today is the day🙂( well in like an hour and 45 mins) i see they posted his birthday art and he’s so precious🥹 like he’s funny af too “ i don’t really care about birthdays but if you’re gunna bother me all day🙄 you can stay” bitch do you want the present or not😒 making up at sunrise to tell him he looks very nice in blue, like im making his outfit rn and i forgot he had his shoulders out!! Like its a body suit w the ARMS CUT OFF. He really said if imma have a rebrand im gunna be the sluttiest character here😭 clearly took insp. from kaeya to have his chest out like that🙄like i want to kiss the lil electro mark on the back of his neck. About to shower this little bastard is so much love and affection😈 going to suck his dick bc side by side his blue outfit does look nicer; i saw a thing saying he probably doesn’t need to breathe so he just makes moaning noise for fun😭😭 the thought of him being a slut bc “this is fun” is HILARIOUS since he’s just along for the ride so we can go to the most secluded spot in mondstat-bc i would celebrate my birthday there first for sure- and and ride him until he’s crying😊 just whispering how proud i am of him and how pretty he is. Now then for ANNOYING SCARAMOUCHE i would sleep in too much effort bc he’s gunna wake me up ANYWAY like as soon as his eyes crack open he is planning how to be annoying for a full 24 hours bc tomorrow is a wrap. DEFINITELY they type to me like “it’s my birthday you’re not gunna let me do what i want🥺(😈)” when he keeps getting handsy all day. You’re out on a romantic date? His hand is stuffed in your pants and he literally could care less, its you who’s trying to make sure nobody notices. Strolls into inazuma like he owns the place🙄 just to fuck you in the shrine; me and him will be petty to that fox until we both die😤 def takes you to some hidden cave in sumuru w pretty plants and is like look at what i found; fails to mention they’re like sex pollen plants tho😒 so hes checking his watch as everything gets fuzzy and only then do you realize this place is very isolated🤨 nobody would hear you let alone be in this area. Fucks you like his life depends on it, he is using the day to be as sadistic as possible; probably tell you to ding happy birthday like you can talk😭 he has blankets and everything set up like i thought this was a picnic🤨the only thing he eating is you😔the type to get overstimulated easily but holds longer bc hes holding on by sheer willpower and to also make a huge mess. Like to him if he not light headed he’s not done. Fucking like 3 loads back i to you bc hes obsessed w watching you gush around him like he never does anything halfassed hes gunna make you scream every-time, biting you bc why thats how cats show affection and degrading you like hes doing any better “look at you making a mess and cant even help it”! And he only pulled out to not cum

scaramouche is so annoying T T like just say you want to spend time w us you loser! but he's so cute,,, so cute... I had a little party for him in my teapot keke

((two second side note... speaking of kaeya... did you see his new skin? when i heard about it i literally exploded like nothing from this game has made me happier than my meow meow getting the pampering he deserves! and the braid- the braid in his new skin im going to cry))

something in my brain shifted at the thought of kissing scaramouches electro mark... youre making me a scaramouche appreciator,, stop! smh his mark that probs hasnt been washed since it got put there LOL

O.M.G.... i never thought about him not making noises bc he doesnt breathe- yeah he's a slut through and through and i love it.. i love it T T my favorite puppet (raiden look the other way this is NOT about you.... not yet </333)

sharing a birthday with scaramouche is so cute bc i know he would do everything that you want to do and would prioritize your feelings over his because he's such a softie... what an angel. okay that's enough sweet scara im going back to crazy!scaramouche bc if you dont share a birthday w him then he would so take advantage of it like (aside from insecure scara who would hate his bday) he would so make you do everything that he desires since it is his day (and i wont fight him on it!!!!)

YOUUUU ARE FUCKING CRAZYYY IF YOURE GOING TO THE NARUKAMI SHRINE AND NOT FUCKING MISS YAE MIKOOOO- like howww could you pick scaras short ass over her?! hell no! (but fine since it is his birthday smh)

awww scaramouche fucking you everywhere (unlocked lol) in teyvat for your birthdays is so sweet ,, who knew he had a kind side? (i did)

#sarahandoikawatalkshit #xiaos spicy almond tofu

[wibble-wobbegong]

What kind of Mike moments™️ are you hoping to see in s5 (like getting vecna'd, certain things brought up from old seasons, interactions with certain characters)

okay i’m gonna shorten my list down to my top five Michael Moments that i really need to see happen

1. the one thing i absolutely need for mike in s5 is for him to finally let go of being strong. i don’t want him to be angry, because that’s just another cover up he uses to hide his actual feelings. no i want him to sob, to cry loud and hard because he’s tired. i want him to be allowed to cry for the people he’s lost, cry for all the time he spent trying to be someone else, cry because he’s terrified of the things that are happening again, cry just because he’s tired. he’s tired of feeling alone and having no one to turn to except will, who he can’t even be completely honest with. he deserves to let himself be ‘weak’ and just feel everything. i want him to let himself be saved and taken care of

2. i need mike to come out to lucas like i need air. i need that reconciliation arc SO badly. mike finally opening up to lucas and admitting that he’s gay is just something that would be so impactful considering the role lucas has been playing in mike’s life as the person who mike thinks he’s supposed to be but can’t. i’ve talked about this like 6 billion times but mike being accepted by lucas is just something that is so important to me

bonus if we get a parallel to the s1 handshake

3. i am such a sucker for the swing sets im so sorry. i literally don’t care what it is or how it happens but i want mike to go back to the swing set. maybe it’s him hiding in the light, maybe it’s somewhere he’s been going when he wants to really be alone, maybe it’s where he takes will at the end of their first date. don’t know and i don’t care I just need him to go back to back to the swings

4. OKAY DO YOU KNOW THOSE LITTLE MOMENTS HE HAS LIKE. okay so there’s the, “told you. physics.” scene and there’s the one where he figures out the number is in the pen. i want another one of those, but i want will to call mike a genius and for mike to get all flustered about it bc nobody has ever complimented him for his brains and also it’s will

5. this one is entirely self indulgent but i kinda want a little scene of mike trying to get dressed. not in the way he’s been doing by picking clothes off the floor but he finally feels good enough to put some effort into it and i wanna see him go through his closet and we can just see the different stages of mike’s life in his clothes. we the striped polo shirts, the sweaters, his leather jacket, maybe some other stuff he’s picked up along the way. i’m just curious as to what mike would end up deciding feels the most like himself. also i wanna see him looking in the mirror and smiling because he finally feels like himself

#thank you for the ask!!!! #asks #mike wheeler

[estcsy]

OKAY SOOO for anyone that doesn’t know on the weekends in my encanto dr it is full blown party mode I’m talking nobody is going home till 3am

so it’s like 7pm and people are starting to gather on casitas front lawn and I’m out there minding my own business devouring some strawberries and then leo and noah came up to me out of nowhere, and they didn’t do anything like crazy they acted like they normally did

until like a few minutes I noticed that they would like follow me around?? they don’t do that normally unless we’re like having a conversation but I would get up to do something and they would automatically stop talking and get up with me

NOT TO MENTION WHEN I WOULD WALK AROUND THEY WOULD GRAB ONTO ONE OF MY ARMS

so then I’m like “why are y’all being weird 🤨” and they were just like “what do you mean?” and then in sync they said “we’re always like this 😁😁”

that kinda freaked me out I’m not gonna lie I walked away because I thought they were gonna pull a knife out and kill me

but anyways

so yeah I’m walking away and they ran to catch up to me and grabbed onto one of my arms to I turned around and asked them what’s wrong with them again because they don’t normally like do that?? much less both of them at the same time

so they sigh and let go of me and then they look around and then noah whispers “we’re scared and we need protection…” so now I’m obviously confused from who do you need protection from and wtf do you expect me to do about it dawg

so then he keeps going and he says “xavier wants to fight us…”

I nearly fainted from how hard I was laughing

like I was in tears

no way them at their 5’8 height are scared of the 5’0 ankle biting xavier

but going on

so once I got myself together I asked why because like… WHY??? WHAT DID THEY DO??? 💀

they didn’t end up telling me because they said I was bullying them so they ended up walking off and then angel was their body guard for the rest of the night

so I like went to go sit down and I’m still minding my own business yk just watching the people dance and then miss valentina spawned next to me and asked if she could sit in the chair next to mine

nobody was sitting there so I’m like “yeah go ahead” and she puts her bag on the floor and sits down and it’s the most awkward tension I had ever felt I wanted to evaporate

so then out of the blue she goes “can I get to know you better?”

AND IT CAUGHT ME OFF GAURD IM NGL LIKE I LOOKED BEHIND ME TO SEE IF SHE WAS TALKING TO ME OR NOT

it’s so weird having her go from being a big meanie to her being shy and complimenting me when I do things like it doesn’t feel real

so I look like this “😳 actually? 😳” and she goes “yeah :D” and all of a sudden I know nothing about myself like WHAT DO I TELL HERRRR

so I’m being the amazing conversationalist I am and I go “do you like cake?” and she says “yes I do :D” and then I said “I don’t really like cake” and then she said “eh I don’t really like it that much either”

so I’m 🤨 so then I asked her if she just said that because I said I didn’t like cake that much and she didn’t say anything she just like looked down

so then I’m ngl I felt bad for the girl because she felt like she had to do that so I told her to answer how she feels and not like this person that she’s being for other people and she starts CRYING

SOBBING EVEN

I didn’t know what I did wrong I didn’t know what to do so I just sat there like this 😧

she calms down and then she says “I really like cake 😢, it’s fluffy and sweet 😢, like you 😢”

I was at a loss for words

I couldn’t come up with anything else to say but “I’m a cake?… woah” and she seemed to like it bc she laughed and wiped her tears

once she calmed down I asked her what else she likes and she like grabbed her bag and pulled a book out and she said “I like to draw” so I’m thinking ‘oh that’s cool’ and she hands me the book and I’m looking through it and she’s not bad AT ALL

GIRL CAN DRAW BRUH

so I’m like “wow that looks cool” :D and it’s like animals and landscapes

but then I reach this one page and I’m like looking at it and its a girl sitting by a river like just staring looking at everything

and then it clicks

that’s literally me

so I gasp and she like closes the book really fast and hides it under her bag and I’m in SHOCK LIKE MOUTH OPEN EYE WIDE

and she goes “SORRY IF THATS WEIRD” she was gonna say more but I cut her off because I wanted to see 💀 and then we asked me “is it not weird?” like nono it’s a little bit weird but it also looks pretty and it’s me I wanna see

so she gives it back to me and I look at it again and the outfit I had on tells me that she drew this on the day her mom yelled at me for being momless HASHAAH

so then I asked her like how did she do this because like I didn’t see her it anything?? but I was out there for a long time in my own world

she said she didn’t really get close she only saw me from a far but it took her like two hours to do and for around two hours I was sitting there doing nothing so it adds up

I also asked her how she saw me and he said “my eyesight is pretty good ☺️” idk I thought it was funny

it was two pages one was of my back looking at the river and the other was of my side profile like looking down

and she did me justice I didn’t look bad at all

then I told her that she’s really good and if I could keep them and she was like “yeah sure :D” so she ripped them out and gave them to me

but yeah that’s it

[literary-mafuyu]

I rate my all(probably) teacher because i have absoloutely nothing to do and i hate my life and i hate studying and i hate school and i am going insane (i really hope now one of my school knows that its me and sees this or ill maybe actually kill myself).

TLE Teacher: first impression of him was intimidating but is actually not that bad lol, but still tho, why the fuck did you make us memorize 10 procedures in exact at the ass nighttime, 7/10, i will never rate anyone above the 8

MAPEH and ENGLISH Teacher: ok, i must admit, you are nice, BUT WHY THE FUCK ARE YOUR EXAMS AND INDENTIFICATIONS AND QUIZZES FUCKING IMMPOSSIBLE AND YOU REALLY EXPECT US TO FUCKING GET IT CORRECTLY AAAAAAAAA-, 2/10, why, its always hard to review the indentifications 😭😭😭😭😭, the source of my endless will to kms

SOCIAL Teacher: why so strict and scary 💀😭, he has the same vibe/feeling/looks or what ever as the TLE teacher but he's more cheerful-like and less akward, oh dear they were complete polar opposites, the other one looks scary, but is actually a bit nice(atleast), he looks approachable(he still tries to at this even time and i always fall for it bc his activities was 'not boring'), but is SCARY AS FU-, bro is scary, i feel like i was about cry when he said that i should speak more louder like "What did i say about my rules in this class" always says it like that in a scary way bro im gonna cry dude why does nobody understanddddd 😭😭😭😭😭, he fr dont understand us shy people, bro actually looks like hes always about to cry ive got a theory that hes always like hes about to cry bc he gets scholed by some person or idk abt him being so strict and is actually holding back on scholding students (bro probably hit a student by his attitude dont judge me its a students responsibility to assume ok) and like actually mentions on getting scholded by some idk, bro i saw that "IM DONE" in ur files bro prol venting (ik im probably misunderstanding like who tf would leave that in the whole ass class but he could be just like me fr to ignore and act like its isnt there and hope they dont notice it like me 💀 i can assume ok bish) probably has anger issues? BUT THATS JUST A THEORY, AAAA- Man, 2/10, wtf

FILIPINO Teacher: Hello advisor, you chill, and nice good humor, good tiktok dancing mov- ...excuse me, nice good easy pc exam, i hate essays tho, also why high expectations for me and give me the unfairty and made me merorize the hardest speech even if i was a tranferee 💀💀💀😭😭😭, and why my hardwork of studying on a lesson then you skip it tho, thank you for that tho, bc the mfing lesson is hard thank for skipping it, thank for the swimming pool, 8/10

SCIENCE Teacher: She feels like just my old school's English teacher, she chill, she cool, thanks for actually hearing out my excuses to get perfect grades lol, 7/10, W teacher

MATH Teacher: 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 Dont even get me STARTED im already tired bro, like, ik you old but, WHY YOU ALWAYS TEACH SO WRONG AAAA, like dude, just look at her answers youll literary understand me, its ok if it just a little mistake but like umh... thats too much for a "Pro,fe,tio,nal teachers" 💀💀💀, she wont accept crap, she either ignores it, or blames the student 💀💀💀💀, i also have that fucking feeling where shes favoriting the son of the principal on the school like wtf dude, also why do you make us just copy the answers 💀💀💀💀💀 i can excuse the lack of activity on checking our answers even if you promised to do it already like 2+ times but pleaseee why are you making us copy the answers except of making us train our brain and say that "Parents will come here and complain about your grades" like broooooooooooo 😭😭😭, everyone of us got probably atleast 15 mistake in math exam for no reason just because of her one single typographical error and didnt even correct it 💀, 2/10 u and my father is literary the same whats worse is me put both in the same room with both of you and math, i feel like dying

Peyn

#pain and suffering #rating my teacher #rating my teachers for no reason #crying sobbing screaming dying #depressed as shit #school #school is ass #teachers #rating

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

thousand autumns donghua, episode 14~

(episode 14 already??? IS IT ALMOST OVER?? OH NOOO I’M HAVING TOO MUCH FUN ;A;)

AH our intrepid duo have arrived at bixia sect!!!

aww the cute bby likes the scener--OH MY GOD EVERYONE IS DEAD

OH NOOOO THIS IS TERRIBLE!!! WTF???!??

i am glad that shiwu is getting some extra trauma btw, it'd be a shame if he had a normal childhood after all this

YAN WUSHI'S EYES WENT ALL PURPLE!!

he frowmn >:( like dis >:(

oh!!! my son is here MY SON IS HERE HI BBY!!!!

UH. wow the old man wiping blood off his mouth in a. kinda sexy manner??? hawt. 😳😳😳

yu shengyan all worried about him ;A; the letter, all symbolically splattered with blood ;A; wHAT A SCENE

is this a flashback??

ruan hailou!!! idk u yet but my opinion is low bc u and pu anmi are killing these ppl who seem v nice

AAAAHHHH TOO MANY NAMES!!! i'm getting a bit overwhelmed by all the introductions!! i’ll try my best, but pls forgive me if i get names wrong or miss a few ;A;

yue kunchi, ok he's a disciple here....that miniature chinstrap beard thing on him is....a choice 👀

also some of these other dudes have got like,,,,,,,sort of khitan style hair arrangements?? they look rad tho 💅

GIRL NO DON'T PROTECC HIM WITH UR BODY!!!

OHHH it's not a flashback!! SHEN QIAO ARRIVES JUST IN TIME TO HELP!!!!

lmao ruan hailou thinks he's the main character, it's very cute

ahh is pu anmi from the south then?? his animations are rly good actually, like i can just FEEL the disdain dripping off him, i can imagine him as an actual human in a live-action drama like, i've seen ppl do these....movements!! I LIKE IT!!!

ooh they gonna fight?? they gonna fight 😤

EWWWWWW HE LICKED THE SWORD!! DONT LICK UR SWORD MAN!! DO U KNOW HOW MANY DISEASES ARE BLOOD-BORNE. DO U WANT EVERY HEPATITIS. UR NOT SAFE FROM PLAGUE SIR

aww yisss now they fighting >:D

OH SHIT SHEN QIAO IS SHOWING HIM UP

FIGHTING TWO AT ONCE???? GET EM SHEN QIAO!!!! U ARE SUCH A BADASS SHEN QIAO!!!!

shen qiao is the epitome of 'float like a butterfly, sting like a bee' today with his gentle winds ability!!! such beautiful martial arts!! 🤩

i love how there's always a guy describing the fight for us, the audience lmao 🤣 like a sports announcer or something, but for martial arts 🤣

FUCK YEAH THIS FIGHT SCENE GOES SO HARD!!!! THIS IS GREAT!!!!

WOOOOOO!!!!

Zhao Chiying!!! A LADY SECT LEADER!!! she is beautiful omg ;A; she is so pretty and graceful ;A; they all respect her so much ;A;

bixia disciples: great to see u zongzhu!! ur killing it zongzhu!! :D

lol ruan hailou looks like he just saw his ex at a party. awwwkwarrrrdddd

OH SHIT ZHAO CHIYING IS KNEELING TO THIS LOSER?????

she is so polite!!! she's a better man than i tbh!! i would never bc i am impolite as fuck :D couldn't be me luv, couldn't be me 😌👌

SUCH HONOUR. SUCH DIGNITY.

ohhh was........was ruan hailou accused of assaulting the previous master's daughter?? but he didn't do it, and he was wrongfully exiled from bixia sect?? maybe the subtitles are a bit unclear, or maybe i'm a bit dumb, or maybe it's both (it's probably both lol)

aaaawwwwww the disciples love her so much ;A;

OH GREAT EVERYONE IS NOW CRYING

wtf is even happening anymore??? im so confused lol

lol yeah girl u could have intervened BEFORE ur disciples got killed but whatever

now pu anmi is a prisoner to bixia sect!!! they have ONE DUDE, one SKINTY DUDE, taking him away, unrestrained. that won’t end poorly at all (unless the plot declares otherwise lol 🤣)

pu anmi: U GUYS SUCK!! MY SHIZUN WILL RESCUE ME!! AND UR STUPID BOYFRIEND YAN WUSHI IS GONNA DIE!!! >:(

shen qiao: :(  but we're not friends anymore :(

OH SHIT IS THIS GUY GONNA KILL HIMSELF???? DON'T DO IT BRO WAIT WAIT

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OH MY GOD HE JUST

HE JUST WENT OVER THE CLIFF LIKE

THAT WAS SO FUCKING SAD???? IDEK WHAT HIS DEAL WAS BUT WAS THIS REALLY THE ANSWER??? poor fucking man, he was a twat but like........i feel quite bad for the man!! nobody deserves to feel that there's no way out besides taking their own life ._. even if u have done really bad things....u can do better! as long as ur alive, things can change!!!

poor shiwu....standing by the table, wiping his tears....he's seen SO much ;A; my poor bby boyyyy i wanna hug him ;A; COME TO BIRB'S WINGS, CHILD!! I SHALL SHIELD YE FROM HARM!!! :V

shen qiao: well i brought shifu's kid all the way here :)

zhao chiying: yyyeah about that. can u keep him actually??

shen qiao: u couldn't have told me this BEFORE WE WALKED ALL THE WAY HERE?? :) whatever fine i'll keep him, he's mine now :)

AWWWW SHIWU'S KOWTOW WAS SO EXCITED!!! HE'S SO HAPPY OMG!!!!! SWEET CUTE BABBY ;A;

HE SNATCH THE TEA FROM ZHAO CHIYING BC HE'S SO EAGER TO HAND IT OVER OH MY GODDDD ;A;

btw are his parents and sister dead now?? his old man's probably in gaol for taking another child hostage but his mum and sister were starving to death on a bridge. do u suppose they sold him to zhu lengquan. do u think they got a good price

shen qiao: btw can i stay over ur place?? i need to kill a man :)

zhao chiying: sure why not lol

#birb watches #thousand autumns donghua #qian qiu #i am having such a great time with this #im sad it's nearly overrr ;A; #cw suicide mention #he's a fictional character but i won't risk triggering somebody over a silly review like this