#im really not getting back into the fandom my friend

[skeetlehand]

space skeetle, *space*

💀.

#now that youve explained it in dms. finally. #im really not getting back into the fandom my friend #i cometh and goeth with the fandom activity for insperation #most of my mutuals dont really post dsmp stuff anyways so #shrug emoji??? #skeetle answers

[itsdefinitely]

richie really wanted to be max's friend. he really wanted to be max's friend. he. he wanted to be max's friend. nobody talk to me i'm having a moment

#not even michie im just. woag. i. #man. #definite's ted talks #richie lipschitz #max jagerman #nerdy prudes must die #hatchetfield #im supposed to be drawing or writing right now but i cant get rhis out of my head. richie really wanted to bw max's friend #do you think he transferred from another school and - not knowing about jagerman - introduced himsekf to max #and max pushed him into a locker and called him a nerd #do you think they were best friends before fourth grade and richie really wants that back :( #do you think that richie was the only person that could see the good in max before the waylon incident #do you think. because im thinking #also sidenote: ship names in this fandom are really funny #jagertitty? jagerschitz? what next. spankman? #okay sidenote over #do you think richie was the only person to actually earnestly want to be max's friend

[fleouriarts]

feeling bad about my art lately. will probably not post for a while. but i wanted to at least dump some stuff here before i retreat into my hidey hole

#hivemind tv #riley savage #graydon weaver #hmfcu #quadeca #jane remover #eden burke #my art #2023 #fanart #doodles #its like. augh. longtime fleouriarts followers are familiar with my eternal tango with posting art online #doing this since i was 11 has like rotted my brain and made me rely wayyyy too much on external validation to motivate myself #and every year or so it gets bad enough that i take a break. but the break usually only lasts a month before i miss the feeling #and come back and then the cycle repeats #its probably worse now bc this is a fandom where getting seen by the creators is not really that hard #so there have been times where im like 'well idk if i wanna draw this. but if i do maybe hivemind will rt it :-)' #NO!!! THATS NOT WHAT ART IS ABOUT!!!!! i cant keep letting myself get addicted to the numbers going up man i gotta get out of here #and i was reading a quad interview from around when idmthy got released. cus hes also brain poisoned like this. but he managed to get out #and now just kinda comes online to release music and then leave #i need to be like that. i need to take a break from art posting thats so long that i come back as a changed man odysseus style #idk. its been so long since i drew stuff that no one gets to see but me. all the art i keep to myself is just out of embarrassment #i need to relearn how to draw stuff just for the love of creation and not “maybe people online will like this one” #or “this new thing came out i need to prove my love of it by drawing it” #sometimes it leads to good art but more often than not it just makes me feel worse #whatever. if any of yall are in the hivemind jane or quadeca discord i MIGHT still post stuff there. but otherwise ill keep to myself and m #friends for a while i think #woooooo this is queued to post while im in orgo lab everyone wish me luck with my thin layer chromatography

[misciouscave]

hb Lu Guang... You deserve all the love in the world...

#YES HELLO I AM ALIVE #just had 6 very difficult months but now i have a computer AND a drawing pen so all's well that ends well :) #i wanted my first drawing to be link click related beacause i really enjoyed s2 ans i was so sad not to be able to contribute to the fandom #i know im late but i just wanted to give this good boy a happy birthday with his friends... #just a little thing to get back in the mood :D #Lu Guang #Cheng Xiaoshi #Qiao Ling #Link Click #Shiguang Dailiren

[hershey-the-person]

i have two moods :😔 crippling depression and anxiety making it hard to stay alive 😔

and ✨️pop icon in the bathroom✨️

#honestly i think im funny when i want to be with the people i want it to be #and honestly not many people get to see that side cuz it just takes away from this mysterious and quiet persona i have #but once i let u in baby the jokes never stopping #well they stop when im having an existential crisis but lets not count thay #actually i make jokes even when i feel like dying lmao #so um yeah #i wish i had friends whom i could make jokes with #but the problem is people dont understand my humor cuz they dont about the topic im talking about #but like here on tumblr say if i make jokes about some character people do get it #my fandoms dont match with otherss irl #actually most of my irl friends are not into any actual fandoms 💀 #given i dont have many irl #people whom i actually talk to ? not more than 2-3 id say #i do have more friends but like i dont TALK talk with them iykwim #and tbh i dont really need too many friends im fine with what i have cuz thats amazing #more people u let in = higher chance of becoming toxic + more heartbreak + more energy drainage + start losing urself to please others + #more back bitching + bejng asked to give more explanation when u have ur kms times and u disappear for a while #and when u dont explain they get mad or u get tired and just cut them off #lmao im rambling all my problems in just one post oops

[peachybuggames]

sooo ive finally gotten around to (binge) playing bug fables after years of knowing of/having it and ive made it very far in!!! like 32+ hours im (minimal/very vauge spoiler ahead) just past the giants lair, actually! speaking of the giants lair, i just have ooone statement when it comes to it:

what the FUCK what the actual FUCK!!!!!

#bug fables #somewhat spoiler-y rants below here be warned #anyways warnings aside #WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUUUCKKK #WHY DID IT BECOME A HORROR GAME ALL OF THE SUDDEN WHAT THE SHITTT #FELT LIKE I STARTED PLAYIN L1TTLE N1GHTMARES OR SOME SHIT WHEN THOSE EYES POPPED UP #one fucking CLIPPED ME and made me fight that stupid spider thing and i gasped so hard i almost choked #like when i saw maki was fighting with us i was at first like 'yay omg maki wahoo yippee 😁😁😁' #then exactly two seconds later i went 'wait a minute 😅😅 why do we need maki here 🙂🙂'and then continued to get my ass beat for 20 minutes #anyways that area is spectacular 10/10 i am NEVER going back #if there's like hidden really good items \_'-'_/ oh well too bad im not gettin em /lhlh #i hate sleeping I wanna play more neow #but also im really close to the end of the game and like. no :( i don't wanna be done :(( I wanna go on more adventures :((( #s okay tho after this i get to chug that Fandom Juice w/o fear of spoilers #and ofc i still got things to do in game #handful of side quests. loose ends to tie up. boss rushes to complete #so i get to keep my silly little bug friends for a bit longer :)))

[charmac]

PLEASEE POST A NEW CHAPTER OF THE SUGAR DADDY FIC I AM ON MY HANDS AND KNEES 😭😭😭😭😭

Updating All These Nights tonight and then Sugar is next to be updated, promise promise.

#ask #sugar daddy fic #i have been in a writing rut that is known #so i needed to work out some more canon stuff to get the voices back yk? hence updating the other fic first #but also i still feel like the last chapter fell off hard cos i got like no comments #which i know is like 'who cares' but i think i majority switched the style (like for myself) last chapter and i really like it but #if people didnt respond to it #im a little stumped on where to go #(again not in the story but style-wise) #people do not respond to long chapters? people dont respond to the dennis chapters? too much time wasted on sex? idk im #yeah like just a little lost on what people enjoy in the story and what i should gut/cut down on i guess #cos last chapter is hands down my favourite ive written #content wise its close to 6.. #but style-wise i know its so fucking long but i thought it flowed really well and god i love exploring dennis' weird relationship with sex #but to me like only 4 people finished that chapter #to clarify. in my head there are literally only max 10 people who read this thing #and 2 of them are my random friends who arent in this fandom and just want to read what im writing #and neither of them bothered with a 27k chapter.. lol #so im stumped trying to pace the writing and rework how i thought it would go #cos i dont know what people enjoy in the fic!!! and seemingly did not respond to in what i thought was the best chapter so far.. lmfao #sorry you caught me on 30hrs awake and way too much coffee

[certified-anakinfucker]

ok this is unprompted but if you pride yourself on being the reason people leave a space for something they genuinely love and have done no objective wrong - youre a piece of shit btw. like full send youre horrible.

#cheeri rants #this is brought on by me finally letting myself get back into smth i loved for like 5-6 years #and got squicked out of by senseless witch hunts and trans/misogyny and the like #im really sitting here remembering all the nights i stayed up with amazing friends #the shoulders i cried on and the hands i held for others #the people who stood with me through some of the toughest times i can remember #we all loved the same silly things #we all poured bits of ourselves into everything we created and we shared that with everyone #i still so vividly remember lamenting that id never get to see our interest irl #and someone i didnt even know all that well dm’d me a few days later asking if i had venmo or paypal #because they were going to give me $50 to buy a ticket. they wanted to go but couldnt #for some reason i cant remember but they gave me their own money and told me to please enjoy in their place #and you know what? i fucking cried that night. you dont see that anymore #the all-nighters i pulled with my best friend watching the live reruns of our interest before we even got into the fandom #doing my homework while we were on facetime together squealing #and all of this came to a screeching halt because of some . PEOPLE. #who figured we were having fun the wrong way because they didnt like it #and we put up all the flashing neon signs to warn people #warn them of smth they should have already known #and just because people ignored those signs it was taken out on us anyway #and i have never been so heartbroken to watch one by one as some of the brightest people i ever knew #started leaving. breaking down. their light was being stomped out because some assholes cant mind their own #and i will be fucking damned before i stand by and let that happen again. to anyone.

[ruerock]

🧸 ?

#as much as i enjoy fandom spaces #the negativity in them sometimes can just. get me so shocked #ill be just casually enjoying a series with my friends and stuff #and then ill go see hows the fandom and oh boy #the fandom #i just usually surround myself with gay friends and in everyday life the topic doesnt really come up for me #since i admittedly do not talk much to strangers #or people im not 100% sure if i can trust #but internet is something else so when im encountering homophobia in the fandom like im just #i dont know i guess i kind of forget internet isnt build just out of gay people #or at least supportive people #and the whiplash i get... #anyway this has been my rant #i should be back to posting art soon im working on comms a lot to help my friend with vet bills still!! #i have a lot of personal stuff i wanna draw this year i hope i can do it all #january literally almost done and i like #blinked

[freebooter4ever]

Your Geno patch is beautiful and if they are on sale, I would very much like to buy 🥹

Thank you! I'm very flattered! I'm also very embarrassed to say I underestimated the interest - I assumed it would be just me and a couple of my friends on here who would want them. I saw that the Gulo Gulo Geeks had to mark the item as currently 'sold out', and if I had to hazard a guess, I'm betting they weren't expecting the sudden influx of orders and couldn't handle all of them at once. Please remember guys this isn't a hugely staffed corporation, this is just a very nice couple with what is probably a small side business who likes geeky things (I found them through their amazing Jurass*c Park patches). And remember, I was quite serious - I have zero involvement in selling these. I bought mine (the 50$ original custom patch option plus 20+ for the extra practice patch and geno's) and I'm done lol! I haven't heard anything from them, so I imagine once they get through the current orders the item will probably go back on sale. I do know they had to custom order some thread colors for this patch, so if they ran out of that it could take a few extra days.

I feel like with the influx of mainstream fan merch, sometimes we forget that custom creators are actually human and not merchandising machines :( Just have a little patience, and pay your artists cause they're probably not charging enough for their time/effort anyway <3

#The really embarrassing thing is i deliberately did not tag any of my patch posts with his tag #figuring that just in case i would space it out make this one for friends and wait to make a tagged post for the general fandom in a weekis #So that the gulo gulo geeks wouldnt get like 10 orders at once #But im guessing thats what happened anyway lol #Anyway I'll check in on their page in a few weeks and if the items back i will put another link up :) #This isn't like a limited thing #But thats also precisely why i didnt go with some manufactured patch maker i didnt want to have to order like 100+ patches myself #And then figure out how to sell them that sounded like a lot of work and i prefer drawing lol #Its hard enough to keep up with my print business and that only gets like one order a month lmao

[taichouu]

I need a new blog theme to come back from my mild hiatus but I'm knee deep in a yugioh moment right now so .. up in the air with what I'll come up with this weekend.

#tai talks #im just saying you know my life has gone down the drain if im picking up y/g/o again #i might start posting art again someday but not rn .. im not really confident in my art style anymore so i gotta build it back up #but y/g/o brings me a lot of comfort 💓 so im letting myself get back into it to love myself again #i feel kinda aimless in fandom atm since k/n/y ended and i havent been feeling bl/each 💔 #everything feels a bit empty so im spending more time with my friends which is more important than fandom content creation #idk. sorry i havent been online as frequently. i miss you all

[the-kipsabian]

maybe instead of a fic writing goal list i should make a fic reading goal list huh

#read more in general. potentially get into new ships and fandoms. leave more comments. the likes #i mean i try to comment on everything i reblog here and what i kudos on ao3 if its not cross-posted #i need to read more friends stuff in general. ive been really bad at that sorry #im just still trying to ease myself back into all this its been a long while before this year when i properly interacted especially with #fics. so getting back into reading more than my blorbos and shit is just rough on me #i'll do better next year. im gonna make the effort. i promise #anyways yeah just putting that energy out there idk #night is an absolute mess on main

[kurokeip]

Ouuhhhvbhgh the anxiety of having people perceive me as krk mod... the way I Know people are talking about me and making assumptions about me... the way nobody will believe me even if I post an apology for the Fourth time. But I'll just end up doing it anyways because I Have to

#i wish i never had a public personaaaaa #i just need to stay unlocked until im done producing my little keychains and then i go back into the abyss #its genuinely so tragic bc i reflected and apologized for all of my missteps in like under 24 hours but people are still #posting cropped screenshots. #okay well even if i get a callout again ill just own up to my mistakes again... #not really that hard since it was just bad wording and I know what I meant to say and I Know im not bad... #probably the most annoying thing is the people that dont like me because of my Friends being problematic #which is whatever because ill defend ny friends too i know theyre good people #katsu and shu defender... Ive spoken to them for so long if they were weird or secretly pr0sh.p i would Know. #fuck the enstars fandom blocklist btw they still havent answered my ask where I sent them an archive of shu's apology post #theyre just ignoring it on purpose. 'good will' my ass. thats a normal fucking person #youre just inviting more harassment #i should tag these ummm #vent #i guess?

[darcyolsson]

i know how this might come across as like, gatekeep-y or whatever, but do you ever miss the days before heartstopper/alice got so popular? like obviously i’m so so glad more people are finding this story and are able to see themselves in the characters, but it’s still bittersweet at the same time. for example, i’m on hstwt (which is an honest to god mess every other day i’m so serious) and i kind of wish i could go back when it was maybe 50 people all just obsessing over stories that made us feel something

at risk of also sounding gatekeep-y, sometimes!

i think it's hard to put it into words exacly but i know exactly what you mean. i think i miss the sense of community that small fanbases have- virtually everyone who read heartstopper knew each other back in the day so the general feel was very respectful and kind to each other. the fact that you both knew this tiny obscure webcomic on tumblr was enough to connect you. right now, the group of people who like heartstopper is so huge it doesn't really mean anything to like heartstopper anymore in the same way it did before.

in general, the way fans behave is just very very different when a fanbase is as huge as heartstopper's. i think the best way to describe it is that back when it was impossible to post about heartstopper without alice herself seeing it, and people knew this, and acted accordingly. people don't act like this anymore. (imo, it wasn't the show that caused this though, it was a gradual change after the traditional publishing that became very noticable around 2019-2020). in general, reading a story on it's own vs reading it as the creation of someone you at least somewhat know via tumblr is very different.

i think it always feels this way when you like things before they blow up, it IS very bittersweet!! i don't think this is shunning new fans as much as it is missing an old dynamic you once had. it's like when you miss an old friendship that doesn't mean you loathe their new friends, it just means you miss that old friend.

in general i'm very very glad heartstopper is getting the recognition it deserves (and with that her books!!! loveless getting the attention it deserves at last has literally added 45 years to my lifespan!!!) but seeing something that was once so very personal to me be shared with literal millions of people will never not be odd i think :')

#i don't think i would revert it given the chance though like even the 'heartstopper finally getting its well deserved attention' bit aside #i think that even if that dynamic still existed i wouldnt be a part of it in the same way today. i had a Conversation ab this with a friend #i dont miss the dynamic as much as i miss that specific part of that period of my life which was otherwise miserable #i was 15 back then and now im 20 ive changed the fans have changed alice has changed #im nostalgic for it but if it existed today do i really think i would be less uninvolved w the fandom than i am now? not sure if i'm honest #i do miss alice on tumblr though :') that was fun. but other than that? i'm okay with it #answered asks #anonymous #personal #long post

[lesbianbishounen]

there are some pieces of media that i love a lot for a variety of reasons but most of the content on social media about it is ship related. and a lot of the time i like said ships as well but theyre not the reason something impacted me at all i want other kinds of content. but if i have to read a single analysis post from an online stranger that i disagree with i might start blowing people up with my mind

#moral of the story is to only have serious conversations abt stuff u like with ur friends #ill be fr i was thinking about trigun typing this but i could name other things #like witch hat atelier. almost every single piece of wha art ive seen online is orufrey and i love them but like Damn #kingdom hearts too i feel like thats the fanbase that really made it clear to me that i do not like being engaged w fandoms at large #idk. the constant war between me being like 'damn it kinda sucks that some aspects of things i like arent typically discussed online' #vs that allowing me to live my life in peace and never be at risk of seeing someones wrong opinion #bcus i get so fucking tilted when i do. being really into dbz last year was rough for me i was so fucking mad all the time #trying to find character study fics (dont ask) and constantly being like 'he would not fucking say that.' #feel like this also doesnt really bother me for some stuff like orv. like yes joongdok is literally everywhere but #so much of that novel loops back into them that like. a lot of the fanart u see of them reflects themes of the novel itself. #does this make sense. like i still want more hsy art but it doesnt bother me that much that kdj and yjh are literally omnipresent #anyways i love tumblr i can blab as much as i want in the tags vs on twit i have to make longass threads #which makes it look like im posting for engagement or w/e. im not i just need my thoughts out of my head #chatots

[navxry]

🐹

because i mean. i saw that exemplary ebg documentary™️ so immediately i knew you were gonna be a supportive and kind soul right off the bat???

genuinely, ty for coming into my life 🙏🏻

HELPAHUIHFDRUIR IM NOT INTIMIDATING??

Damn, thank God for that EBG thread cause that. that took ages to do (/exag cause it took days BAHAHAHA)

People say that I am thought but yk how it be fr, Im a menace but not that big of a menace

(not to bedo though BAHAHAHAHAHA sorry sir but I am your biggest menace that will always go "this u?" when you do smth suspicious in EBG era. smfh /exag)

Honestly Im surprised you got supportive + kind vibes from the documentary cause I. lost sleep over it and esp when I was waiting for updates BAHAHAHAHA ITS LIKE "Oh I didnt plan this out" (ends up doing it to fuck with others online)

I swear sometimes I go "I shouldn't invest this much in a mystery online"

And I still do anyway smfh /j

but all jokes aside, ty to YOU as well for coming to my life in the means of a calm before the storm (storm being EBG) and for feeding into my hyperfixation of Genshin <3 (/p)

(Although my interest + hyperfixation on it has been waning, I still think abt the ideas for AUs we had in threads and I STILL need to reply to one of them... probably when I'm not going "...????" @ Genshin)

(sorry Genshin but I am too invested on IDV to uh. give a shit. oops.)

#🌹 | navi speaks #🌹 | tea time with: meirin #🌹 | navi plays: ask games #;; my relationship w/ genshin is like titanic #;; its all fine and nothing is going awry till I stopped playing #;; which is hilarious but sad #;; and after a few more patches #;; life hits the fan #;; and overall focusing on other games/fandoms to really... put as much as i did before #;; I do wish I can get back to it but oh well #;; but sometimes it comes around through our ideas + many others and I still giggle as I think abt them #;; its v silly and I still laugh at calling haitham mantits #;; alhaitham (derogatory) #;; wait why am I ranting on tags HELP IM SORRY #;; HAIUHDFURI #;; i enjoy talking about shit unrelated to the topic on god someone help #;; but yes uh #;; genshin thoughts + losing interest/hyperfixation aside #;; i rlly cherish you as a close friend and i'll never let it go #;; EBG was probably the easiest for us to meet because on god the amount of effort I put in #;; and the investment i did on the silly event #;; gdi #;; BAHAHAHAHAHA #;; i still want to rattle dorian but alas #;; maybe some other time BAHAHAHAHAHA #;; EBG feels like some fever dream w/o the documentary™️ and thats saying. something BAHAHAHAHAHA #;; anyways rant over ty for coming to my ted talk