#im really happy with the face for once

[theokusgallery]

I'll scan this better tomorrow if I remember to do so, but it looks good, so you get that version now

#couldnt sleep so i did some watercolors #made with one of those fancy pens you dip in chinese/india ink ! #i hadnt used it in YEARS #im really happy with the face for once #omori #drawing #art #arsenic #traditonal #omori basil #watercolor

[queenofbaws]

i will not stand here and say the quarry's writing is perfect by any means, but man. that moment. in the beginning. when chris absolutely loses his shit and you see every last one of the hacketteers freeze..............shocked, wide-eyed, so taken aback they don't move even to look at each other.............

and then, realizing what just happened, chris scrambles frantically to grab hold of the situation again. he tries to grin at ryan ("tries" being the keyword), he tosses him the keys like nothing's wrong. he tries to go back to being mr. h - he does, he tries so hard - and finally when ryan talks to him, there's what waver in his voice. that absolute lack of understanding in his eyes. ryan's not just surprised, he's not just shocked......for a second there, he is scared, and chris sees that, realizes it, and peels out of there before anyone can say anything else. just.....

JUST............

i think that moment is 100% the moment i realized UH OH I THINK I LOVE CHRIS HACKETT because that's when we see the counselors have been around this guy for two whole months (some of them even longer, possibly), and not once. not once!!!!!!!!!!! had they realized who he really was.

ugh. UGH. i LOVE IT.

#queenie rambles about supermassive #dont even get me started on the flashback with him and travis in the station either #we as the audience like. ONLY see chris at his worst. from the beginning he's grumpy. he's vaguely suspicious. he's screaming into a car. #but the hacketteers SO CLEARLY have not seen him like that. not even once. even when dylan jokes about the sex dungeon... #you know it's tongue in cheek on his part - trying to get a response from ryan #i just. gfdi i know i always end up feeling the most attached to the characters with literally the least screentime of all but i love chris #i really really ReaLLY love the idea of this guy who puts on the happy wholesome corny dad face #only to turn around and be eeeeevery bit as unpleasant as the rest of the family turns out to be #AGAIN! THE SCENE WITH TRAVIS IN THE FUCKING STATION!!! #this is probably just because im replaying tq and getting back into writing #the hacketts #but fuck me. FUCK ME. the thought of mr. h and chris hackett being two very separate characters is just. so. good. #anyway i'm in a totally normal place re: my mental health lately. how about you guys.

[wormonastringtime]

reminder.

#hi i couldnt think of an awesome caption for all of this so um ill talk in the tags about my thought process #silhouette is forgetting herself. and she knows this. they reflect on this often. this time literally in a mirror. and their face... #its blurry. its obscured. they can see their own tired expression... but can they really see their face? #and the flames. once again burning away at their memories. sil can watch herself forget in real time if she wanted. she's so tired. #she could burn away everything if she wanted. they could keep burning until there's nothing left at all. and that self destructive tendency #is tempting. god it is so tempting to say fuck it and give up. but no they cant. they have a job to do. they usually remind themself to kee #going in the mirror. even when the reflection doesnt always look familiar. but now theres also something else. a new glimmer of hope in #silhouette's otherwise bleak life. a girl. she doesnt know if they can have that happy ending. but she will do anything to keep her safe. #and for now that is enough. sil doesnt know if she will remember her own face or her own name but my fucking god she will not forget lucy's #anyway hi im normal about my ocs 😁 teehee #my art #doodle #digital art #colored sketch #oc tag #silhouette #lucille

[secondchoice-ragdoll]

#T's “what did u call me? do u think whatever that is is hot? okay then good” #i love the tour pic above K! #and i love how they r still plucked abt not being in Dune2 #K the avid winker... #its so cute how T is featured on this album of K's too😭😭😭 #T wants to be left alone (on the phone) on her bday and K wants attention... well... ((once again relating to K)) #T looked at Ks belly in a suprisingly like? soft way? idk i might have hallucinated that but who knows. #fuck whoever didnt visit K when she would have wanted them to. #its sweet how T visited her! (srsly cant u just communicate who wants what in this situation so its no suprise? ik its hard for them but😭) #T describing Ks party attending habits!!! they know each other soooo well🤭 #aaagh how they have to act like they cant easily spend 2 hrs together having fun when they literally cant wipe the smiles off of their faces #(lesbians..... lovesick idiots.......) #oh they r always facetiming! so adorable :( #T was so excited that they r linked! like girl u do not need more confirmation for that research do u?😭 #K watching the pod...... my heart...... #why dont they just sit closer if they will reach across a whole fucking room to touch eachother?? like it sounds easier for me but u do u! #i really get a kick out of K mentioning TRHPS anytime she does it bc ik it was such a big thing in Ts life and ugh😭 #constantly praising each other😭😭😭😭😭 what if i start sobbing huh #well maybe T is trying to get K to learn how to flirt so that she can practice on her? just an idea?😁 #K putting her leg up on T?????? hi what? jist sit in the other's lap u creatures... its okay we can all look away for a sec if u need it... #their art! i fucking love it! both of it! its art at its finest🛐 and id kill to see a collection of their drawings bc cmon they r amazing! #its cute how they r talking abt smth and then they go “oh wait we were there together!” #its almost as if they actually spend time hanging out😱 (dont let the police know!!4!4) #“if we were on DR now-” okay but why r u still dreaming of that miss T?🤭🤭🤭 (who could blame her) #them watching the movies the other one recommends is the closest we can get to them watching an actual thing together (outside of NF) #also im so happy T spent time w K on her bday :((( #trixie mattel #katya zamo #tbatb #the brians

[softshuji]

Any men out there wanna pretend to be my bf to get my parents off my case about marriage? I am so so serious right now.

#my mom gave me a really really lonf lecture and upset me because her and my dad want me to start thinking about settling down ans getting #married. again. cos this comes up all the time. ans I reiterated that i do wanna marry and have kids. i know im 26 years old why do they' #think im also not aware of this??? like i suddenly forgot my own age and have my head in the clouds all the time. and i got so heated cos i #said they only believe in that in theory. in reality neither of them have accepted the idea od my leaving home or the idea of mw being with #a man. and they start freaking out if they even find out i talk to them so to say they want me to get married is so fucking naive #ans when i mentioned this and that they're more than ok w mt brothers talking tp women she said that if i wanted to settle down she could #talk to dad and they could “go about finding someone for me” and I've never been so pissed #i got so upset. why does everyone keep saying this to me. as if anyone my dad knows could ever be a half decent man #and the truth is they don't care if im in a happy marriage they've accepted that i won't be they only care that im gone and saving face in #front of family. that's all. it's always reputation it's always “what will people say?” #not once did love come up. not once did shw even imply that i should marryfor love #or that they hope i love someone and marry them. because they're more happy with the idea of me marrying for the sake of it than #they are at the idea of me finding genuine lovw #im not a fucking broodmare im not here to push out babies for the sake od reputation. #and then i said nor being married isn't the end of the world and she said “it's important that you settle down” #and i said im unwavering in my principles. she can call mw high maintenance like she loves doing but I'm not wavering on the #kind of man i want to be with and when i do marry him i want it to bw genuine. because be loves me and vice versa not because im ticking off #somethin from a damn checklist to appease them. and if being unwavering on my principles means staying unmarried then so be it. #my obligations are to god and myself and that's it #and y'know what??? i am in love with a boy already #and yet they don't care that i wanna be in love at all. no im just a puppet to follow a certain narrative in life live according to evergone #else has and that's it. #im done. #and then she tried to apologise by getting me a slice of cake and that somehow made me feel worse. #i dont want an apology. i want to be heard and actually listened to for once. i want someone to ask what i want. to actually give a shit #and love me cos it's me. not cos im some thing to further an agenda. or some toy or puppet that does your bidding. #is it so much??? to just want to be loved in return? to marry and live according to how i want to?? ans not want anyone to make these #decision's for me? #ruined my whole day.

[skitskatdacat63]

“Constantia et fortitudine” - Emperor Sebastian I “der Sieghafte”

#i dont ever want to look at his face(blatant lie) #i love him and i love staring at pics of him but jfc trying to draw them. absolute murder to ME #well anyways. happy with this. took too many late like 4 hour sessions tho LMFAO #watched uhhhh animal documentaries and casino royale again :) #OKAY ANYWAYS ITS NOW YOUR FAVORITE! CONTEXT! INFO! LORE! #so ive mentioned before seb is charles vi. obviously. but i love to steal stuff from Joseph I as well 🥰 #seb is a mix of both bcs he obv doesn't have an older brother in this au so yeah! #'Constantia et fortitudine'(by persistence and courage) was Charles motto! #i think that fits seb so well no? 🥹🥹 #'der Sieghafte'(the Victorious) comes from Joseph I! bcs he was so successful in battle 🥰 #again! so seb right??? #i think so fucking often about him and nando's nicknames in this au #'the spirited' for nando's perseverance....'the victorious' for seb's well. victories haha #i think they fit them incredibly well both in this au and real life!! #even if this fucking murdered me to paint i like it a lot :) i thinm the hair was a lot of fun #actually im not even mad w this one! it was pretty fun once i got past a certain point honestly! #but the secondary expression whoch will be in a different post....jfc i wanted to throw my ipad away 😭 #it doesnt help that it was 4-5 am when i was working on jt LMAO #but i believe in courage and perseverance! i will paint constantia et fortitudine 🥹 #anwyaysyyyyys!!! hope you like!!!! i think i got him pretty accurate???? im pretty happy w the fsce tbh #wish i could draw his crown but i dont think ill ever subject myself to painting thay monstrosity #also dont really undertsand how they wore crowns back then alongside their giant periwigs?? dont crush the curls :< #sebastian vettel #f1 #formula 1 #boy king au

[dbphantom]

you know if you guys voted for stretch armstrong i probably would have shut up a lot sooner tonight

#so really this is all your fault /lh /j #i love thinking about h2o tho so im happy #VERY FUCKING TIRED THO WISH I COULD SLEEP #i think my brain is kicking into overdrive after being filled with cotton the past 3 days which. hey im glad ur back bud #CAN YOU SHUT UP NOW I NEED REST #i was just thinking because im probably not posting that essay i will summarize here (i saw #that privating it made it lose like 4 recently edited paragraphs and i don't want to type all that out again my memory isn't good enough) #it just boiled down to the pods basically making a self fulfilling prophecy by orphaning their sons and making them increasingly #desperate for connections to other people like them which is why i think erik behaves the way he does esp when ondina is around #like i am not excusing his actions in the slightest dont get me wrong here he really fucked up BUT #his last conversation with ondina before he goes to the chamber kind of sold that idea to me #how he scoffs at her saying rita says it's dangerous because she's 'old school' and of COURSE old school mermaids think all mermen are evil #and then starts adding on how he wants to do this for HER and get her home back for her by controlling it #like a bit of an add-on at the end to try and convince her #i think what he really wants is to be hailed as a hero. you know. validation and acceptance from the ppl who originally abandoned him #the OGs who made him feel like an outsider. the ppl who ripped everything away from him just bc of the way he was born (which is prob why #when he's trying to convince zac to help him he keeps bringing up their ancestors bc that's what unifies them) #i don't think he's an evil dude per se i think he thought stealing the trident stone from rita's grotto would be small peanuts in the past #once he finally got the pod to come home bc he genuinely (mistakenly) believed he COULD control the power of the chamber #i also think that's why the camera keeps focusing on his face when he's watching the others panic over #zac's sacrifice and i think he is feeling jealousy bc they are paying attention to him and not Erik #like that's not the face of someone who deeply regrets what they just did. my guy is just sitting there like 'that should be me rn' #i think that is why he also sounds so desperate to make things right with ondina afterwards. iirc he's just like 'wait no we can start ove #RIGHT?' and she's like 'uhhhh... no??????' (valid). my dude is lonely as fuck and he finally found a group of ppl like him and he messed up #big time just trying to get their attention and affection bc he couldn't just be normal abt it he had to go big or go home #like i kind of feel bad for him in a way #but i feel bad for everyone #i felt bad for denman the other day! that's how bad this is getting!! #i mean come on imagine making the scientific discovery of a LIFETIME only for all that shit to happen in a row #especially after you get your comeback. they just go right back to fucking you over again

[bonesrbleaching]

had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what

#lolaa.txt #what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!' #'i wouldnt lie to you!' #okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time. #its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa #also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!' #yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up. #i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men #and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man #so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up. #and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face #that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense. #shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin #you dont have to worry about anyone else. #im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to #never really have #im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are #if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box #then when would you have any space for self discovery #youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats #and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that. #and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names #and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy #and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares. #and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look? #then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness. #SORRY RANT OVER. #im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric. #tw homophobia #tw transphobes

[fruitsyrups]

ive crossed over into an alternate dimension where side profiles are somehow sometimes easier to draw than other angles. bodies in side profile however... nooo thank you...

#ok the back of the head is hard but the facial features proportions kind of feel easier to figure out . maybe. #weird #n e way im happy with the way i draw faces mostly maybe 50 percent of the time but im so not caught up on drawing bodies #like to the point it just looks bizarre #decent proportional face with like at least some understanding of structure/form even if it's not much #and then the stiffest clunkiest body you ever did see #or i can go the other way around and have an ok body. like decently fluid / proportional. but no face #theres some kind of disconnect. cant have both at once #thats only a sometimes thing though anyways. faces are generally easier #tried to do a teeny bit of gesture drawing yesterday but i was feeling sooo lazy and impatient so only 3 of them turned out ok ish #im pretty sure i post more often talking about art than i actually post art #i dont post most of the things i draw #i like to have my little secrets... #secrets in question are just literally anything that isnt adventure time art #actually looking through my art folder is crazy cause like if i saw this 3 years ago (i was really bad at drawing 3 years ago) i would. idk #drop dead or something #but now its like yeah same old same old. lots of problems. need to work on those. #but its nice to step back and be like woagh holy shit. massive improvement #earlier i was trying to dfraw a character and it wasn't coming out right but instead of getting frustrated and discouraged #it was more like i had this feeling of . idk. excitement to get better at drawing? #i dont know if this is just a temporary mood or maybe im turning over a new leaf. new optimistic mindset about art #<- watch that 'new mindset' totally disappear when i have a slightly more prolonged period of art struggle. lol

[crowdsourcedloner]

35. How do they feel about the fact that they've killed a lot of people and/or things?

Nailah's been a mercenary most of her life. She knows she's good at it and carries herself as a consummate professional - it's her life or theirs and she has work to do, it's not personal.

This is what she's told herself, anyways.

Truthfully, Nailah struggles with seeing worth in herself under all the blood on her hands. There's a lot of unspoken survivor's guilt just under the surface, bubbling up whenever things are a little too quiet.

#answered asks #thank you for the ask! im sorry it took so long!!! aaaaa!!!!! #ive rewritten this dozens of times bc the words havent been quite right orz #im still not perfectly happy... but i need to post something its been more than a week ;-; #oc: hrothwol #okay ramble time #you know the scene in post-arr #where the wol is waiting to meet someone before the big banquet #and they guilt-daydream a procession of corpses in front of them of all the lives they've taken? #how it suggests this festering guilt that's never really faced or dealt with? #that's probably my favorite small moment in all arr #and that simmering sense of guilt stays with nailah like a stain #she eventually learns how to cope with it but it never really leaves #the sheer amount of blood on her hands helps push her to learn healing #so she can do some good for once in her life #(to her eyes at least - she needs the concrete small-picture reassurance) #(rather than vapid 'oh youre a hero :D' bc she really doesnt respond well to that) #...if you read all these tags i appreciate you ;-;

[phantastragoria]

Watched B-Mask's video essays on the Sly games trilogy for the millionth time (you should watch them too btw) and I can't stop thinking of the similarities between Vol. 3 and Honor Among Thieves specifically in both dealing with the characters having to decide what comes next in their lives seperate from each other because they just can't do the same job forever, but what the Sly games do that the GotG films don't is build up to that being a main plot point from the second game up to the ending of the third. Vol. 3 really makes the odd choice to have that become a background plot point and then expects the audience to just be okay with them all suddenly deciding to part ways within ten minutes at the very end.

I can't stress this enough, but my problem isn't that everyone goes to do their own thing. My problem is that suddenly being the end goal of Vol. 3 after two films + a holiday special where that was never a possibility or a problem in the first place. The only reason everyone stopped progressing (and even then mainly just Rocket and Peter. You can say Mantis got held back but even she had character development to realize what she wanted during her time with them so she wasn't literally held back like she was with Ego) was because both of their lives only came to a screeching halt after what happened outside of the core films (IW+EG) But the film itself didn't even bother to address any of that stuff aside from only Peter being depressed about Gamora. So it comes off rather moot to me, personally.

#lex thoughts #gotg thoughts #guardians of the galaxy spoilers #gotg spoilers #vol 3 spoilers #universe: mcu #i know im in the minority because everyone else on the planet thinks the ending is perfect #i just dont see it. if this was really the goal then they shouldve dissolved the guardians as a team completely #because i just don't see how being together was this rock holding EVERYONE down lol #no it wasnt a perfect life but regardless they did things that bettered themselves and helped others (mantis. nebula. etc) #so i just. i dont know. everyone outside of drax and nebula's choices just felt like face value happy endings #not what they actually truly needed especially if they needed to move on from each other #and by the iw/eg stuff especially being moot aside from all the gamora crap (which im not getting into here) is like #you're really telling me it wasnt important enough to mention at least once? #you're telling me rocket wouldn't be upset that they wanted to immediately leave after all the horrible shit he experienced? #and even after only having them back for a short while after the five years everyone was gone? insanity #truly im just peeved they didnt buy and go live on a moon

[teddybeirin]

having a real reckoning along with my wish fulfillment huh!!!! the quencies.... this cannot continue

#realizing that. if i want to be happy & well & safe once im out of here. i have to not fall into the same patterns #of doing things that hurt me just because that's my normal..... or accepting more harm than i really have to #just to not have to face the fact that it was never really okay or the only way things couldve gone #which means. letting go of something ive been clinging to to survive #cuz so long as that's in my hands there's no room for anything else. certainly not anything better #by keeping it that way i am myself fulfilling le prophecy of doomed-to-suffer-the-same-forever.

[alsoyooraiyah]

thinking abt how much my makeup collection has minimized and shrunk down through the years bc for some reason youtube decided to show me some old t*ti w*stbrook videos while on autoplay

#kinda of ashamed of how carried away i was abt it all a few years ago but it was so fun being able to play around and feel like #i can change my vibe so easily either for going out or just playing around in my room. my regret really was that i fell for buying lots of #cheap little things that i wasnt truly happy with vs just sticking to a few quality pieces #bc the thing is that it *all* eventually expires and thinking abt the material waste is so... ugh... esp lipsticks bc once we started needi #to wear masks i just found no point in going through the hassle of making lipstick work with masks + i dont like matte liquid lippies... #and like. i had no real sense of how quickly makeup is used up so i had so much that i could never realistically use before it went bad?? i #idk. now i have a very cozy 'collection' of one eyeshadow palette + two duochromes and like. 1 lipstick 1 liptint and then i dont even have #brow things or complexion stuff? and its very freeing in a sense that it feels even more like playing with paint bc its just the fun colors #im going to wilt away and die if whatever job i get in the future asks for only 'natural' makeup ugh #the most 'natural' i can go with is duochrome liner on a bare face...

[spontaneousglitterbees]

quick question why do i do this to myself

#WIP #TAPP AU #glittersart #so there are lines on this drawing but coloring in where the outline is might let me tint lineart #i did an actual vector layer for once ?? #also the first time im really drawing kiibz #im still not fully happy w his face but ill figure it out ig #dr

[semercury]

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#stuff sarah says #i miss my therapist and i need him #who else is going to remind me that im only responsible for me? #how do i stop obsessing? #how do i make the past stop haunting me? #also im swinging the other direction and eating too much #im sure once the good holiday food is out itll go back to how it was #bc i really dont have the energy to cook like i used to #cooking for that party exhausted me #anyway my face is breaking out #and i feel like a wretched thing for wanting to be happy

[mishapen-dear]

i've learned how to draw from complete strangers. like just. little internet tutorials, or seeing how someone draws a nose or a jawline and copying them, or watching speedpaints on youtube and learning what the hell an overlay layer was from that. like sure i've learned a lot of my ability from a few studies and experiments, but my perspective rules? colour theory? shape language? i only knew to study and experiment with those Because of all the tutorials i've seen. the second-most given art advice (beyond "practice") is "see what your favourite artist is doing and pick out what you like about their style!" and! idk! there's something so beautiful about how we're all strangers, but there's so much community in the art community? there's so so many strangers who took time out of their own lives to make flesh clouds or anatomy guides or explain perspective rules, and I wouldn't be where i am today without them. i cannot explain how grateful i am to those people, and how happy i am that so many people fucking. share. sometimes i think about a rose drawing tutorial made by some 15 yo that i watched when i was 12. it was pretty basic im not gonna lie, but i drew roses like that for years. I still draw roses like that when i want to spent a little extra time on them. i saw some artist talking about using thin lines so they'd have to get better with their linework rather than relying on the juicy thick lines, and i copied them and can now wield linewidth like a beast (when. i want to . which is not often). i've watched so many speedpaints that render skin in so many different ways that its all boiled down to the one method i use. neck width. hair physics. hair shine or lack thereof. eyes, pupils, mouth. fucking noses and the million variations. clothes???? idk i am like 100% rambling at this point but it's so fuckin nice to look at my art and see the ways i've been shaped by the kindness of other people

#mishapen rambles #i am completely incoherent tonight and thus it is Text Wall time #i bet id be really good at writing an essay rn im so fuckin verbose #anyway this is why i LOVE it when people talk about their creative processes #do you create things? want to talk about it? PLEASE DO #there are people who will see it and will learn from it #even if youre 'not good enough' i swear 12 yo me beginning artist baby would have had no idea how to spot a single one of the mistakes #you're agonized by. again ive now surpassed the skill of that rose tutorial but i still think about it a lot and how i couldnt see any erro #it's stunning to show a non-artist a piece you're not happy with and they're just. amazed #i once drew a real Shit Pile worthy face in front of my dad and one of his work friends and they were blown away by how fast i made it #idk just hey here's a love letter to everyone who shares anything about their creative process #ilu you're doing great and are a vertebrae in the backbone of this community #this all goes for writing too but the circulated writing tricks seem to be. trendified? more often than art tips #hey fun fact you can use 'said' as many fuckin times as you want i prommy #you don't always need whatever big fancy phrase or detailed description #if it hurts to write just don't write it #you will get so much farther with two sentences than a three paragraph slog #this mishapen dear is full of too much love for the creative community and all the people who never knew her but still taught her