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#im not paying for this. ill watch it just because i dont want things to be bad ever but like. im only paying for it after ive seen it IF it
be-good-to-bugs · 5 days
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UGH why does eating always make me feel like throwing up :/ that is the opposite of what i want
#the bin#i feel less bad todaynthan i usually do. i think. but physically my body feels terrible. i am also still super stressed and sad but. i dont#feel as utterly horrible as i usually do so thats good i guess. i wish i could turn it into something productive but thats fine#i mostly wishbthat i could being myslef to do something fun like watch something or whatever but my brain still says no#and i wishbi could draw but my brain says no to that too#well. i can probably actually afford some weed after all bc itll peobs mostky be gas i gotta pay for for thw trip so#idk when ill see my sister next but ill have to fully figure this out then. and i gotta measure the inside of her boyfriends car so i can#know how much i can pack. i can also probably afford to get the things i wanted for my siblings from here before i leave. maybe.#gas will be a lot but they still owe me $300 so that helps a lot. i should be able to afford the trip fine. im really sad i have to leave#most of my stuff though. i dont trust my sister with it. but i dont have a choice so whatever. ill just have to deal.#well. im glad i dont feel so empty and horrible now. i hope it lasts and i can do something with it. its probs bc i had a meltdown honestly#ive felt like maybe thats what ive been needing to feel better. things still suck but i feel marginally better#usually i try talking to my mom just to get an ounch of social interaction and also i can complain abt stuff to her and she doenst tell#anyone. she has issues but shes pretty good about my privacy i think because shes scared id stop talking ti her if she broke that trust#which is true. i would probably stop talking to her. that was originally the plan before she stopled being such a bad mom anyway so#but idk. i havnet talked to her since she asked if i was coming to the funeral and i said no. she wasnt mad at me or anything but i havent#talke to her about non dad dying related stuff in a bit so. i shouod tho. im moving and i need to find out when a good time for that is.#and make sure she knows around what time i had been planning. and i need to know if she got an update about some stuff too.#also helath insurance stuff. im assuming she didnt end up getting a chnace to add me yet considering what happned. shes been busy#but my tooth pain has gotten even worse this past week so id like to see a dentist in june if possible bc god this thing hurts so bad
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socpens · 7 months
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Please never play Garten of Banban again
i dont know if i will. i love looking at popular things, especially if they're related to horror, because i'm really curious about what it is that makes things accessible on a wider scale. after playing 4 garten of banbans i can say its not any deeper than bright and simplistic monsters appearing in youtube content kids & teens watch. if you look at feenaf, or baldi, there's more there than just their aesthetic, both in terms of gameplay/design and the reasons they exist in the first place.
i try hard to give games i stream the benefit of the doubt and not bad mouth them too much. i dont care about bad mouthing things, i think a lot of things suck and will voice that whenever i want, but doing it for hours in front of 1000+ people can easily snowball into a really putrid energy. so its partially because of that. but also because i know making anything is hard. so on stream i probably appear very charitable when playing these kinds of games but ill always give my honest opinion at the end.
and with garten of banban it was that with each iteration it becomes more and more clear that each game exists only to lead into the existence of another. in a way that, with each iteration, becomes more and more disengaging because of how obvious it is. im not gonna shit on people getting that bag, ride the wave if it comes you gotta pay the bills (also who tf is buying these games?? it aint kids, my laptop could barely run the game and they're just gonna watch markiplier play it), but after the 4th game ending exactly where i thought it would and greeting me with a screen telling me to buy not the 5th but the 6th garten of banban was just whatever straw i needed to just not even be curious anymore.
like in a way the games broke my curiosity, and ive always prided myself on going from being very cynical and negative towards anything popular in my early 20s to having some kind of curious optimism as i've gotten older. so for it to break that is honestly super sad but also a wild feat. the progression of the garten of banban games has made me more cynical about art as consumer product than any amount of call of duty games i think because of the audience, the scale & the rapidity of it all
anyway we'll see when 5 rolls around if apillabode meets choo choo charles maybe ill play it.
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aliaology · 5 months
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CARDIGAN
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summary: right person, wrong time.
pairings: jack hughes x fem!reader
warnings: mentions of cheating, drinking
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heels clicked against the cobblestone walkway. people came, people left. yet you stayed. you stayed in the living room. the party around you felt empty, even though the room was crowded. you watched, watched his hand move from her after she attempted to touch him.
why was it that suddenly he didn't want to touch her, but just last month he was perfectly fine being inside her? it felt unfair.
you sipped your drink. you remembered being the one who got him for his summers, winters, falls, and springs. now she had him, well, not necessarily. he barely even pays attention to her. instead he talks to his best friend, who keeps glancing your way.
every time you find jack's eyes on you, you watch the pain hit his face. but that was his fault, right? he chased two girls, lost the one.
the one. were you really the one for him? you two were young. by the time he hit 16, he called you his. that you would forever be the one. your parents and his parents laughed. you were too young to say that. too young to know anything.
you adverted your attention from jack, to the party itself. the loud music, crowded room, and bodies jumping, yet it still felt like nothing was there.
"what are you doing, jack?" you asked, a smile adorning your lips. the brunette boy shuffled through your closet. "you have literally nothing to wear" he groaned.
"hm, maybe because i dont just wear hoodies and shorts. none of my clothes will fit you" you laughed, watching him from your bed.
he groaned again. ultimately, he fell down onto the bed next to you, hands meeting your waist and pulling you on top of him. "guess ill wear you to keep warm."
you let out a laugh. "that sounds so wrong, jack. plus, im not some sort of cardigan" you giggled.
jack smiled at the sound of your laugh. "you're still my favorite, even if you unfortunately aren't a cardigan."
you let out a sigh and stood up from the couch you sat on. you grabbed your drink, and walked to the kitchen, gripping walls for support as your heels killed your feet.
you went to dump your drink out, feeling a hand on the small of your back. you jumped slightly, looking behind you to see jack. he lingered like a tattooed kiss, never leaving you alone if he knew where you were.
"what do you want, jack?" you asked, placing your cup on the counter, head now facing forward as you refused to look at him.
"i miss you" he spoke softly, his free hand reaching to your side. you weren't surprised. you knew he'd try coming back to you. you felt his hand move up under the cardigan you wore over your red dress.
you let out yet another sigh. you wanted to let him back in, to turn around and kiss the shit out of him, but you didn't. no, he hurt you. you couldn't let him do it again.
"jack we're gonna be late" you laughed, trying to pull away from him as he kept peppering kisses along your face.
"who cares? just let me love you." he placed a soft kiss on your lips. you smiled into it, hand cupping his cheek.
his hand rested on your thigh, fingers tracing stars onto your skin as his lips stayed on yours.
"i think august would be pleased to have you instead." you spit. jack let out a sigh. "baby please, it was a mistake."
you scoffed and shoved his hands away from your body. "a mistake that happened more than once over the course of a month." you sent him a harsh glare. "a mistake that occurred while i was in new hampshire, visiting my mom who was in the hospital."
"baby please" he pleaded.
you let out a sigh and walked away from him.
"baby- baby wait!" he yelled, rushing towards you, a towel being the only thing around his waist.
your heart broke at the texts, the pictures, the messages. you wanted to throw up, his endeavors happened in your home. your bed. on your sheets. your side is where she slept.
"go to hell, jack!" you ended up slamming the door, rushing to your car.
you cursed him under your breath as you walked away, hearing the same words fall from his mouth as they did that night.
"baby it was a mistake! come back to me.." and his voice trailed off even as he chased you. you drowned him out.
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erm was this good... i cant work on now that we dont talk atm bc my laptop is acting up so here is this to make up for it!!
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4pfsukuna · 3 months
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jealous!sukuna story here👇🏾
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Akward
The last thing Nanami kento expected to see at Gojo’s party (that he basically tricked him into going to) was his ex girl from 4 years ago in a black mini silk dress that if you just bent over a tad bit more—
“You alright man?” Gojo ask slapping his blonde hair friends back snapping him back to the reality where his cup of alcohol had been crushed completely in his hand.
He was sure of Two things in this moment.
His hand was wet and 2? He wasnt letting you get away again.
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Incubus curse
After the mission Gojo sent you and Namami on to get rid of some incubus curse (which he didnt mention)  Nanami is shocked when you dont show up to the school the next day and decides to pay you a visit.
“I want you to bend me over every surface including my balcony until neither of us have any energy left… and then go for one more round”
Part two
What if Nanami is the one who suffers the effects of the incubus curse instead of you?
He felt fine and whatever silly little pink dust the cursed spirit sprayed mustve been just that, that’s until he catches a glimpse of you pinning one of the students to the ground and damn would he work endless amounts of overtime to be under you like that— what was he saying?! Shaking his head he almost completely looses it when he watches the way your ass jiggles in your shorts and wonders how back shots would be.
Its not long before hes back in his office gripping his length in his fist and bottom lip between his teeth to quiet his moans.
“Nanami you shouldve said something”
“Like what? How i want to have you moaning and beging to cum for a fifth time with tears in your eyes? Or that i want to watch your eyes get  wide as you swallow my dick taking it to the back of your throat like the good girl i know you are? Or that i want to fill you up with every drop of my seed to put my claim on you and my self control is dwindling because i can smell your arousal and i just want to burry my face in it” he says with pure raw desire as his eyes burn into mine.
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Professor reward & punishment.
You suck at college math and luckily your neighbor who happens to be a proffessor offers to tutor you after you helped him out a few nights ago.
“Since you can’t seem to pay attention, for every answer you get right ill put in another finger and for every wrong answer you put clothes on reducing the friction.” He holds my jaw making sure im listening.
“And extra credit” i tease before he begins rolling his sleeves up the bulge of his muscles ans loosening his tie yanking aggresively.
A dark smirk reaches his lips that ive never seen before and ive never wanted to be more accurate in… whatever subject we were studying for again.
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Jealous!Sukuna
You and sukuna had gone back and forth so much its almost like you forgot yuji was his vessel, almost like you forgot he was the king of curses.
But none of that mattered now you (23) and yuji also of age had comitted to getting drunk and letting loose for once.
Sukuna pays it no mind as you aimlessly flirt with some guy at the bar but your eyes are on him. Not the guy, not yuji but Sukuna who had taken over since yuji was to drunk to fight back.
He could easily burn the world to the ground and nothing could stop him except for the look in your eyes when your tounge trails up his abs to his chest tracing his tattoo that the only fire burning hes worried about is the one in your eyes.
“Id pleasure you in ways no woman in your 1000 years of existance could even think about” i smirk before flipping us over so im on top us still connected by our hips moving my hand from his wrist to his neck making him purr.
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Dad!Sukuna
More of a drabble aka the 3 times his kids call him daddy and the one time you do.
“Get in the cage!” 
“Sukuna stop telling them that! Theres no cage”
“He put fucking smiley faces in my book of incantations” he growls showing me the smiley faces with red eyes, fangs and a crooked smile.
“Oooh he drew you is that why youre mad” i tease watching him seathe as the sound of footsteps running upstairs can be heard smoke nearly comes out of his ears and foam from his mouth.
“As shitty as the smiley face may be he drew it because of you, now stop being such a sourpuss! if you be nice ill even call you daddy and let you give me another little you” i peck his lips listening to the growl of disappointment from pulling away too fast.
“I don’t think i told them how much i love them today” He mumbles pulling me into his lap.
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jjunsolos · 10 months
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LET ME IN! - how awkward
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synopsis - jeon yn is a mysterious human being. people only know her as “kazuhas silent buddy”. this makes beomgyu curious. curious enough to try and befriend yn himself. if only she wasnt so stubborn…
warnings - written, stressed/worried/anxious(?) yn, things r rlly awkward between yn and beomgyu😭. lmk if i missed anything🙏🏽
wc - 464
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school. the thing you’ve been dreading the most. not only coz youve actually been kind of enjoying your weekend but also because you dont want to face beomgyu. you know you shouldnt be thinking about him. in fact he probably doesnt even think about you but the thought of running into him later today absolutely terrifies you.
“yn!” somi calls out before entering your room. she notices the stressed look on your face and frowns.
“why so stressed, baby?” she sits next to you, comfortingly rubbing your back.
“im just worried that ill bump into… you know” somi sighs.
“if it really bothers you that much then you should just stick next to kaz. im sure she’ll help you avoid beomgyu.” she says. “also.. you shouldnt let a guy- especially beomgyu- ruin your mood like this! be confident. show him that you dont give a shit about him. show him that his words didnt affect you at all”
you listen to your older sister’s words and nod. she’s right. you cant let him believe that he hurt you.
“thank you somi. youre the best ever.” you give your sister a tight hug before making your way downstairs. you put on your shoes and head out.
you walk to the nearest bus stop with your headphones on. “glue song” by beabadoobee is blasting as the sun slowly rises more and more as time goes by.
you reach the bus stop after a good 10 mins of walking. sitting down on the bench, you exhale and admire the beautiful sky. “valentine” by laufey is on now and you dont know what you were so worried about. everything seems so chill and it feels like nothing can ruin your mood.
or so you thought..
you turn to the right as you hear loud footsteps and to your surprise, youre met with beomgyu’s exhausted figure. you assume that he ran all the way here and you almost feel bad. almost.
“awkward” by sza comes on. what a coincidence. you watch in the corner of your eye as beomgyu looks up and finally realizes that youve been sitting here the whole time. his eyes widen before he quickly looks to the other side, clearing his throat. you pray that the bus comes quickly.
your prayers are answered as the big bus comes zooming in front of you. you quickly gather your things and make your way onto the bus, beomgyu following close behind but you dont pay attention to that. you sit in the far back, putting your bag on the empty seat next to you. just in case. beomgyu sits two rows in front of you and you let out a breath you didnt know you were holding. looking down, you close your eyes and sigh.
“how awkward…”
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arthurtaylorlester · 6 months
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RETURN OF THE KING: MALEVOLENT LIVEBLOG EPISODE 37 THE FARM
spoilers (you already know)
back at it with some humming!
JOHN MY BELOVED !!!! youre so bitchy i love him
HES SO PETTY HELP
harpers hill mention omg (harpers hill hijinks coming soon)
“MY BOOK HMPH 😤” girl 😭😭
“i didnt realise” yes because you cant see and john is like really really dumb
it kills me that john is bitching about oscar not finding anything but like what information have you contributed in the last 3 episodes
ive missed bullying john
malevolent is a comedy and i will stand by that
mmm rain sounds
HYPNOS GREEK GOD MENTION ‼️
“can you imagine hahah” yes i can it was the best arc of the show send tweet
well you havent seen his face
whys john being so quiet all of a sudden?
OH WHAT THEFUCK I SAW RHIS COMING
“i suppose ill just watch again” SOMEONE IS A JEALOUS GIRL
arthur ignoring john….. the girls are going to DIVORCE
“not you sorry ^_^” and then he goes back to ignoring john?? girl
oh wait that was very sweet
WHAT THE FUCK I JUST TOOK ABDHDNFN
sorry arthur speaking to john like that just destroyed me
I TRUST YOU AND YOUR MY FRIEND??? IM NOT TRYING TO IGNORE YOU?? THEYRE COMMUNICATING A
“its not because i dont care 💛” “…yes?” oscar this isnt about you
poor guy though he must be so confused
arthurs tone changes so much when he speaks to john
someone get john a pair of glasses either that or he was too busy daydreaming to see the turnoff
oh of course john would want to split off because he hasnt ever seen a horror movie arthur if you die then it’s your fault for not showing him the movie 🙄
“we might have to sleep in the car” okayyyy
oh so now john wants to give him info because he deserves to know
aaaand now he doesnt want to tell him. we love a hypocritical king !!!
return of the canadian sourry
you dont need to sound so smug that he looks hurt john 😭😭
okay oscar love the existential crisis while reading very relatable
is he gonna say arthur is his purpose
oh for fucks sake
NOT THE SOFT “oscar”
ok oscar is def into arthur and arthur saying “i don’t believe in god” is like rejection. this is how unrequited blindfaith can still win.
also god believes in you? well john and kayne sure seem to believe in him for what its worth
oscar nooo dont devote yourself to arthur that never ends well
john i dont care about oscar either but you have got to stop laying it on so think jfc
john the undefeated more like john the opportunist
“woAH” same john same
oooh so john can see auras now basically?
what monster are we gonna find in the barn 👀
oh that sounds fun actually though /j
AWW I KNEW HE WAS GONNA ASK IF HE WAS OK
ok i love how prominent the dreamlands are this episode i was just thinking about how good it was
john just wants his alone time with arthur because he cant answer his questions
“i need another set of eyes” thats like the one thing john can do it must be kinda sad to like, not be able to fully do the one thing you used to be great at
“ *gasp* a forgotten one :0” john dont act like you know what that means
hey is john a forgotten one then. is he. is he though.
can everyone except arthur feel the weirdness of places
NOT THE MUSIC BOX MUSIC IN THE BACKGROUND HARLAN WHEN ARE YOU GIVING US AN OST PLEASE IM BEGGIN YOU
ITS MIDNIGHT DONT GO IN THE FUCKING BASEMENT ITS RAINING YOURE BEING CHASED BY AN EDLRITCH THING
john its ok if you didnt see it you dont need to justify yourself ❤️‍🩹
john sounds almost scared to go in the basement lol
the stairs are gonna give out at a later date im calling it
what could possibly happen in the last 15 minutes
a door ajar omg is that a wtnv reference
did arthur almost die by getting crushed by a bunch of furniture
oh a barricade i know what this is about
oh happy halloween btw guys
OSCAR JUMPSCARE
my honest reaction too john
what… what did you just sink into….
oh hole in roof, cool
arthur pay attention oscar hes gonna set hjmself on fire on accident
the jarthur was too busy analysing the painting to pay attention to oscar
OH GODDAMIT ARTHRJ WHAT THE FUCK JOHN WHAT THE DAGGER? THE ONE HE SLIT HIS THROAT WITH
oh he wants to cut it off ok
jfc 7 minutes oh no
I CALLED THE STAIRS CAVING IN
GUYS HE WAS READING THE BOOK OFC HE KNOWS
question: how strong is arthur physically
“A TOWEL!” “A TOWEL?” as i said a comedy
WE GOT A “WELL DONE ORTHUR” LETS GO
you know its weird that i can handle this fine but couldnt deal with the michael torture in the woe.begone finale
NO ARTHUR ITS NOT OK
HES ISNT GOING TO MAKE IT
oh ok hes fine sort of ok
the music goes so hard again
that arthur was so scared
ok the arms alive run
or get john to arm wrestle it idk
“what thE fUCK WHAT THE FUCK” my daily vocabulary
and oscar was right :)
RUN YOU IDIOTS
arthur you could at least carry him instead of dragging him that poor poor man
i find it amusing that this mostly happened because of jarthur studying a painting and ignoring the man currently in possession of their braincells
indeed what do we do now
and thats a wrap! oh boy what an episode i have THOUGTHTS (oscar is not surviving this)
i know like maybe 2 people read this type of posts but i enjoy making and reading them back. so if youd like me to keep going with these i will :)
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honakito · 2 months
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hiiiii😁 idk of yours request is open but i wanted to ask for a mmj! reader x akito😞 hope youre okay with thisss, bye kisses and hugs 🫶😊
-⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀MORE , MORE ⠀⠀⠀. . . ⠀⠀⠀more more JUMP !
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authors babbles . . ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀i freaking LOVE THIS ! !
MORE! MORE! - prod. honakito
posted as : request
chars : s. akito
type : x g/n ! reader
scenario : akito with an idol (specifically more more jump) reader ( headcanons )
taglist : @finanah ( ask to be added )
affiliated with : @virtualbookstore
notes : OH MH GOD i am SO SORRY for dipping this whole month and not doing this request sooner you probably forgot about it hhh,,,… no joke i was procrastinating this whole month since i am signed up for the math olympics ( i got a 20/28 at the local phase and now im in for the city phase) then i also have national phase if i qualify so requests are gonna take much longer… but still THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REQUESTHING THIS AAA!! AND AGAIN IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG
notes 2 : so im actually working on a canon character only series. the only thing ill reveal about it is that it is a crossover with one of my current hyperfixations (they go brrr brrr brbrbr) so mist of my attention will be focused on it (requests will take longer in this case) and other shit BUT!!! ill alao try to finish the masterlists befpre my blog gets bigger so it is easier for me to arrange shit YKNOW ,,, and also the last time i posted here i barely got any REACH. like it was embarrassing omfg i dont want that to happen again so this is probably why i was hesitant on posting again but were cool gang ,, and i aslo have to revamp most of my posts kms
date : 26 / 02 / 24 - 10 / 03 / 24
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well , he doesnt really care.
wait , what?
dont get him wrong , tho! when he first found out you were also interested in the music field , he was ecstatic in his own way. so , he asked some questions.
to realize youre the fifth member of ‘ MORE MORE JUMP! ‘ tho? that was a shocker! he never really put the puzzle pieces together.
not because he isnt capable of doing so , he just doesnt really.. care, about idol groups. it was never akitos type of music genre.
sure , he saw a few posters here and there , but never observed them as a whole. the only one he recognized on those was airi , because of enas childhood friendship with her.
and when you first came to kamiyama , he never really eavesdropped on any conversations about you. wasnt that normal? for everyone to talk about the new student! why was he the only one that didnt know you were a known idol?
isnt that a good thing , tho?
because akito didnt know of your passion , you saw right through him that this is actually how he feels. figured out that he saw you as an average human being , and not someone you only see on the outside , on a screen.
you were more glad for his oblivion , rather than mad.
but back on topic.
for a little while , he didnt know. but after? he seemed more cautious for you.
he knows the things you have to go through in the idol industry — he isnt stupid.
so for your sake , hes more supportive.
youll never notice it , but he will watch each and every livestream your group will hold after finding out. ofcourse , on a whole different account , while hes alone — he does not need teasing from neither you , mizuki , ena or an. 
and the same goes for your social media posts , he always tries to be the first one to like.
also pay close attention to his playlist — suddenly , a few of ‘ MORE MORE JUMP! ‘ s songs are there! but not the whole discography , hes still getting accommodated with the genre. 
so after a while — he gets comfortable.
hell always show up to the shows you will host. at first , he will seat in the back , so you dont notice him. but with a little bit of time , you will always spot him easily in the front rows , but he has too much pride to admit it. half of it , he will say ena dragged him with her. but what about the times he shows up alone? when theres no big sister , or no extra ticket from kohane?
if you figure it out tho , hed gladly accept any ticket you give him. doesnt matter if general or backstage access — your performances are moments that he holds close to him , outside of RAD WEEKEND.
and even if it seems like he doesnt care — he will always cheer on you from the sidelines.
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begging the x reader gods to show this under the tag this time
div. arent mine ; please do not use my work for own uses , includes : reposting and claiming as their own , heavily inspiring off a long term fanfiction , etc , etc .
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left4deadstuck · 1 year
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You bite your lower lip. You don't think being straight to the point with Karkat would be a good idea… Though you considered it heavily before ultimately choosing to go with an apology.
Okay… Here it comes.
Dave: hey. Dave: im… sorry Dave: im sorry man
Your voice is quiet. Maybe too quiet, making you think the other didn't hear you. So you look up to glance at the other.
Dave: genuinely i Dave: i didnt think wed see each other like
You don’t get the chance to finish before he raises his hand to cut you off.
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Karkat: YOU KNOW IF I WANTED TO WATCH SOMEONE VOMIT THE FLIMSIEST APOLOGY KNOWN TO MAN, I'D GO OUTSIDE AND WATCH ONE OF THE INFECTED ASSHOLES OUT THERE THROW UP THEIR GUTS ONTO THE PAVEMENT. Karkat: AND IT WOULD STILL BE A BETTER "SORRY" THAN ANYTHING YOUR BATTER BRAINED SKULL COULD CONJURE UP RIGHT NOW. Karkat: SO SAVE US BOTH THE EMBARRASSMENT AND SHUT UP FOR GODSAKES
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You scowl, back straightening. Goddamnit now you remember. Remember how much of a crabby jackass he is.
Dave: oh Dave: because sitting in the dark while silently death glaring at each other is productive Dave: cause we got all the time in the world to just kick back and do absolutely nothing but seethe at each other Dave: not like i was trying t
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Karkat: TO DO WHAT EXACTLY? BE REMORSEFUL? BE ACTUALLY APOLOGETIC WITH NO ULTERIOR MOTIVE DESPITE KNOWING I CAN BE OF USE TO YOU? Karkat: DO YOU HONESTLY TAKE ME FOR SOME KIND OF FUCKING IDIOT?! Karkat: THAT I WOULD EVEN HUMOR THE IDEA THAT YOU'RE ACTUALLY SORRY?!! Karkat: THAT I'LL JUST TOSS MY RESENTMENT AND FRUSTRATION OUT INTO THE ATMOSPHERE BECAUSE POOR OL' STRIDER IS JUST A PATHETIC LUMP OF BRUISES! Karkat: *FAT FUCKING CHANCE.* Karkat: YOU COULD BE FOLDED INTO THE MOST DISGUSTING AND AGONIZING EXAMPLE OF HUMAN ORIGAMI AND I'D STILL BE "SEETHING" Karkat: SO YEAH, *I’M SORRY* THAT I DECIDED NOT TO WASTE MY TIME AND ENERGY HEARING YOUR LOUSY ATTEMPT AT A HEART TO HEART
Dave: … Dave: sigh
Once upon a time Jade had asked you and your mutual group of friends to test out the latest version of her new project. A mental inventory system that had a very convoluted retrieval and sorting system. Luckily her team was quick to fix that after your group’s trials with it.
Jade never really told you exactly why, but you always speculated that some people on her team, or well, someone, didn’t really trust your legitimacy enough when signing your NDA. Maybe it shouldn’t have surprised you though, after all you have made a name for yourself with your bizarre level of spectacles you do for the sake of irony.
It did not thrill you to find out the next morning that you would now deal with the living embodiment of “stick up the ass” as your personal bodyguard for however long the trial had to last for. Despite your best efforts to get rid of the guy, you’ve quickly learned a few things about Mr. Vantas here. One of those things being that he is skeptical and stubborn to a fault.
Well, there it goes, your plans being haplessly thrown out the window! Poor sons of bitches didn’t even have a chance-
You hear a snap next to your ear
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Karkat: JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU STOP MUMBLING TO YOURSELF FOR A SECOND AND PAY ATTENTION
Dave: what Dave: you have another drawn out monologue about how god awful i am? Dave: are you sure your throat can handle that shakespeare Dave: ya dont exactly have the voice for stage anymore with all that smoke Dave: but lets be real here Dave: its probably a good thing that you cant blow out anyone within a 10 ft radius of you eardrums anymore because you decided to make causal conversation
Karkat: YOU MOUTHY FUCKING PRICK- Karkat: CAN YOU DO THE WORLD Karkat: AND ME ESPECIALLY Karkat: A FUCKING FAVOR TO SHOVE WHATEVER BULLSHIT YOU HAVE IN YOUR WINDPIPE AND FUCKING LET ME TELL YOU WHAT I ACTUALLY WANT TO TELL YOU FOR FIVE FUCKING SECONDS
Dave: ok sir ill be on my best behavior for "five fucking seconds"
Karkat:THANK YOU, GODDAMN. Karkat: AS MUCH AS I WOULD LOVE TO JUST KICK YOUR USELESS ASSES OUT OF MY HOUSE, I DON’T THINK I’LL BE ABLE TO SURVIVE A FIGHT BETWEEN YOUR POTENTIALLY TRIGGER HAPPY HELLSPAWN. Karkat: AND ALTHOUGH I THINK IT’S WITHIN MY RIGHT TO FEEL THIS LEVEL OF BRIGHT HOT ANGER TOWARDS ALL OF YOU… Karkat: SIGHS … I
He looks up at the ceiling as if his next few words are the greatest offense that any higher power could have subjected him to utter.
Karkat: (GOD I MUST BE MORE SICK THAN I THOUGHT.) Karkat: I, FOR SOME REASON THAT SHOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE SEEING AS I HAVE DEALT WITH ENOUGH OF YOUR TOTAL TRASH FIRE OF A PREDICAMENT, BUT HERE I AM EVER THE GLUTTON FOR MORE SELF-INFLICTED MISERY
Dave: yeah yeah i get it Dave: im a dick get to the point
Karkat: I DON’T WANT YOU TO DIE, YOU COMPLETE JACKASS!
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Karkat: AND I HATE THAT CAUSE THAT RISKS MY LIFE FOR SOMEONE I ABSOLUTELY DON'T OWE SHIT TO, BUT NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I TRY TO THINK OF A REASON TO JUSTIFY IT TO MYSELF I CAN’T. Karkat: I CAN'T LIVE EASY KNOWING THAT IF SOMEONE DIED, EVEN IF THAT SOMEONE IS FUCKING YOU...I Karkat: I DON'T NEED TO EXPLAIN SURVIVORS GUILT YOU YOU FUCKING KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT
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Dave: oh Dave: uh Dave:th Karkat: NO SHUT THE FUCK UP Karkat: FUCKING Karkat: NO!
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Karkat: HAVING A SENSE OF COMPASSION STILL DOESN’T CHANGE THE FACT THAT IT’S EITHER I HELP OR I DIE. Karkat: DON’T TAKE THE FACT THAT I SOMEHOW STILL HAVE MY MORALS INTACT AS FLATTERY. Karkat: INSTEAD BURY THAT IDEA SO FAR IN THE WORTHLESS SLUDGE YOU CALL A THOUGHT PROCESS UNTIL IT ATOMIZES INTO NONEXISTEN-!
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He must've worked himself up. You watch him as he moves out of your space to turn and hack up a cloud of smoke. Well, if this isn’t just the perfect time to digest the clusterfuck he has given you. While it is great that he is going to help you out, he’s doing it out of fear and as fuck up as it is, it’s an advantage you have over him.
Though is it a good idea to go along with that? That could risk him fucking you all over and abandoning all of you last minute. You could gain his trust, maybe offer him something that he might want, but even then what would you give him, you have no clue if you have anything to offer him, not to mention that again, he could still just ditch the plan when the opportunity shows up.
What are you going to do?
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Do you have tips on what makes a good amv editor please
hmmmm well the most important things for me are
clip choice! choosing clips that go with the lyircs (literally cuz its fun or emotionally to make me crazy) is imperative. amvs where theres no thought put into what goes where aren't as fun to watch. i'm still mad at an old amv of mine where the lyrics mentioned punching a wall and i didnt use a scene where the character punched a wall cuz i forgot about it lol (this also ties to amvs with really inappropriate songs for the character/ship...like if youre editing a ship positively but use a song about abuse or breaking up, it just doesnt work)
timing! an amv is most engaging when the video moves along with the beat of the song. not every beat needs a clip change but its nice when something happens on the beat, and if theres a big moment where the song goes from soft->loud then there needs to be visuals to match. the video should vibe with the song every step of the way
those are my top things for sure
aaand then theres, like, littler things that are very preferential but ill go into it 'cause i have other things i need to do and thats when im most talkative
knowing your strengths/weaknesses: for example, i dont love doing typography nor am i very good at it - so i limit it! i dont go crazy and fill my amvs with nonstop typography. but i dont use none 'cause you can't improve without practicing lol. sometimes as practice i will stare at typography from other amvs that i love and just imitate it as best as i can, see if i can figure out how they did it and try to incorporate the style into my own editing
moderation: overlays are a good example. overlays are fun! they can really enhance an amv. but too many overlays can become headache-inducing or just take away from the actual footage you're editing with (another moderation example) sometimes you'll see a well-edited amv but there's soooo much zooming in and out back and forth that it can give you a headache. i obviously love adding zooms but its good to take a step back and try to decide if you're relying so much on the zooms that you're not letting the footage play its part
coloring: not every amv needs to be colored but even just a little bit of levels adjustment can make your footage stand out more. that being said - its also important to pay attention to how the coloring fits each piece of your footage. you don't wanna whitewash dark skinned characters or make things so dark you cant see whats going on. coloring a Generator Rex amv can be difficult because the show utilizes a lot of Bright Whites and Dark Blacks which is nice but also makes you think more
balance: this is hard because, yknow. its subjective. but like...i like to use a lot of parallel imagery/typography in my amvs, but its also good to have a lot of variety and mix things up. it really depends on the song/the vibe youre going for/the type of amv.
i am happy to talk about editing stuff any time if you want me to talk more lol
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thedisablednaturalist · 6 months
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My parents found out about the present I bought myself for my birthday. I worked my max hours to afford it. I had it shipped to my bfs house so they wouldn't see it. Apparently I missed a receipt that was hidden in the box. Idk how they got it anyway cause I put the box out with the trash/recycling. My mom was being so cruel about it and how I keep buying myself "lavish" gifts (most stuff I buy for fun is like $10-$50 max). I always plan my purchases and have never missed a credit card payment. Most of my money goes towards doctors visits, medication, car maintenance and gas, accessibility items/ergonomic stuff, cat food and litter, and hygiene. Recently I stopped most of my subscriptions save for a cheap minecraft server. The bulk of my pay goes into savings which have really grown since I got my raise. I also give my parents $400 in rent each month. I'm trying to save up for a recliner to replace my bed but I don't want to use the money I've already put away.
Like ok, maybe I'm not mr.frugal. maybe i sometimes buy more expensive things because they're more convenient (like already cut vegetables/fruit or preprepared meals) but like my hands fucking hurt and sometimes I don't have the spoons to feed myself. Maybe I fall prey to impulse purchases once in a while. Im learning and I'm trying to learn how to budget bc now I have to also pay for insurance until I can get on medicaid.
My mom acts like I don't care. She sees amazon packages come for me and think theyre all toys or expensive skincare or junk when its actually body wipes for when I cant shower/so i dont come back from the field to the office all stinky. Its a trash can I can keep on my bedshelf so I dont throw trash onto the floor instead. Its knee braces because my knees fucking suck. Once in a while Ill see something on sale that ive been wanting for a while and will grab it. And the most expensive skincare I use is $20 for a jar that lasts me 3 months. I have to keep my skin clear or ill pick and have scabs and blood all over my face again. I spend money on drag because it MAKES me money. Last time I got paid $100 from the venue and $50 in tips. One time I got paid $300 from the venue (i dont remember how much in tips).
Im trying my best. Im working with 3 government agencies rn to get a job and get health coverage. Im working my ass off at my job when i probably shouldnt be working (my mom laughed when I mentioned this). I'm constantly doing things to earn me money or to make life a bit less painful. Even streaming is a desperate attempt to make a career/side gig out of something I enjoy and doesn't make me flare up. I only watch shows when im with my bf or when im doing chores or working. I rarely play video games. When I flare I lay in bed and scroll Tumblr or play a mindless dress up game where I only have to move my thumb. I cry almost everyday. I cry on the way to work. I cry holding my cat in so much pain i cant move.
The only big frivilous purchases I've made is the present and a new graphics card (I haven't replaced my old one in a decade). The present cost $230 and the graphics card cost $800. Both of these I saved for. I might buy a nice skirt once in a while but thats pretty much it. I also spread out big purchases over time when I can.
Am I spoiled? Maybe. Maybe my parents are right and I'm a lazy spoiled kid who just makes excuses. But my pain is real, constant, and severe.
I have friends who's birthday presents consist of trips to fucking italy or the bahamas. Who complain when their parents drag them on yet another international vacation. Some are amazing people who are grateful and work their asses off. And some of them are a bit entitled. My mom said most 26 year olds are living on their own with jobs and I fucking laughed. The only 26 year olds with their own apartments especially in my area either have 5 roommates in a 2 bedroom shithole, got lucky and have a high paying tech job, their parents pulled strings to get them hired, or their parents are paying partly or fully for their apartment.
And when i tried to find an apartment? She discouraged me and told me id never be able to afford one (correct) but now im suddenly able to when it suits her argument? Ive been heavily job hunting for over a year and got ONE interview who ghosted me after two interviews. I make $2k MAX. Rent in my area is $1700-2500 for a freaking studio. The $1700 one doesn't let you see the apartment and gets snapped up immediately. And these are all apartments within a 2 hour radius. All the "affordable housing" is for people 55 and older.
Like I literally have no options. I can't move until I get a job in that area. I can't leave the country cause Im disabled and also thats fucking expensive. My bf makes less than me and even combined we couldn't afford a place.
Literally, I've never been suicidal before. Ive never struggled with that due to my fear of death. But all of this? Ive recently had suicidal thoughts and its fucking scary. Thoughts that killing myself would make it easier for everyone else. That it would be easier to just end it, that life will always be a living hell and i should just give up. And thats fucking scary! I shouldn't have those thoughts! But that's how bad it is.
I try to do what my therapist told me. I try to set boundaries. But setting a boundary means not eating dinner bc I leave when my parents yell at me. I try to think positively and ignore the pain. I probably walk an average of 1-2 miles a day. I try and try and try and it hurts so much. They can't be proud of me? For even big victories? Guilting me about graduation cause I took too long. Keeping a job for more than a year (its not a REAL job cause its hourly and doesnt have benefits).
Like what's the point? I've been fighting and fighting and most of the world wants to see me dead and gone anyway. I'm trying to work in a field that doesn't even consider people like me. If I cant work Ill just bring my boyfriend and my family down. Every step forward I manage to take I get dragged back 10.
Im so tired and ashamed and stressed and my fucking body hurts worse now because of the stress and i just dont want to wake up tomorrow.
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candyredmusings · 1 year
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“Another One Of Those ‘Things My Discord Said’ Sentence Starters.
Things taken from DMs and a few group chats from Discord. CW: NSFT Change / Edit as necessary !
i am literally tom cruise
cum is cool.
[NAME]  is fucked up cus he is straight man
[NAME]  show me your fuckin tits
[NAME], you better not be standing catatonic in your room wearing your handmade jigsaw robe again.
its like they creampied me but instead of cum it was new music
like what about my pussy-area makes u think sea cucumber
the mind is weak. but the body is funky
so im reading that fanfic where 1d like, buys your soul or whatever and im shook
well tom servo is a sex god
and then i freaked it
FUCK YOU APPLE JACK FUCK
ILL SLURP WITH YOU
LEMME SHOW U DICK
ITS A SIDE QUEST YOU SILLY BITCH
I’m a zombie the law can’t stop me
LEAVE YOUR GOLDEN UNCRUSTABLES OUT OF MY HOME I WILL NOT FALL VICTIM TO THY TRICKERY
you, telling me to ignore a twink with side swept brown hair? foolish.
Hes so hot i briefly started texting like a straight person
and because I’m god and I’ve decided that. No. In fact. I’m not done.
MY DUMB BOTTOM BRAIN FOLLOWS COMMANDS TOO WELL
[NAME], I know you love bloopy reggae jams. Now is not the time
OH THATS WHAT I THOUGHT YOUD SAY YOU STUPID ACCIDENTAL HIMBO DEMON
man i rlly am attracted to paul mccartney.
its not that kennedy was gay af sleeping w jackies fat ass out, he just has a better one-
jealous of my massive honkeers
YOU BRAINCELLED BITCH
this forced open my third eye and i saw the devil--
oh me seeming romantically interested in u is making u uncomfortable?? noted
the only pussy this party city shake out wig looking mother fucker is getting
[NAME]  expose your teeth right fucking now
IN THE DEPARTMENT OF OLD MAN FUCKING, WEVE GOT YOU BEAT
What if we kissed while one of us got called racist and we are both boys
i just jacked it to minecraft piss porn
I will pop a huge tentacle boner
i hate females fr fr
we left u to die to play minecraft
IM GONNA FRICKLE-FRACK YOUR WIFE
CAN I KARATE CHOP IT LIKE IN SPONGEBOB
DWIGHT FROM THE OFFICE IS NOT MY SKRUNKLY
she would never ever take away one of these stupid fucking hats
My brother in Christ you’re being haunted
i want to wring you like a wet towel and slap u against a wall
Yeah you'll come to learn I just have a thing for milk
Piss ur pants harder pls I wanna watch
I'm gonna corn on the kill myself
good morning to parappa and his stans. everyone else..... hi ig
lol look at this clown with no slurs
God has abandoned his children but unfortunately for you I pay child support and I will smite thee.
this is how I reveal myself to be homophobic
I have no sluts
idk what it is abt it but boba makes me become like an actual whore
im homophobic suddenly
he was like ‘You're so big”.... and i just started crying
anyones penis can be hard hes not special
for the love of god please help me
i can talk about piss for hours
im sorry i havent recognized mickey mouse clubhouse ost as the cultural landmark that it is
I ASKED IF WE WOULD RP AFTER FUCKING BIBLE STUDY OR WHATEVER
the benefits of being a yandere is that i dont have to forgive OR forget and I am a living breathing PVP zone so Fuck with me white boy.
When toxic by ashnikko comes on I enter the gaslight gatekeep phases of my girlbosshood
im like a child in line for the newest fucked up disney ride
[NAME] is just all fucking Sorts of fucked up
im clownfaking
why are we here? to suffer? every other day i get messages from a whore
always thinking abt when my friend called me a "white boy whore"
you gotta PUMP the errand girl with cocaine
im beyond shame bc i love all cock try again
people have fetishes.
They really do crucify anyone these days huh
u may have never hungered for cock but you have hungered for a sub sandwich and honestly? theyre basically the same thing-
hi im drawing hentai
[NAME] idk why but that really. makes me want to stab you
“Don't have sex FOMO, [NAME], no! “
“TRY AND NUKE THIS, BITCH.”
“There's a group of golden skeletons behind you hitting the griddy “
“GRANDPA’S ASHES SUCKED MY COCK AND TOOK ME TO ARBYS.”
“You’re lanky with no gender and silly goofy with the rizz it works.”
“You can’t just tell me I could be a Tumblr sexy man to my face at 4:30 PM.”
"I have strong opinions about the soviet union"
“CALL THAT PUSSY THE MATRIX CAUSE IM IN THIS BITCH AND I CANT GET OUT “
“dont cry. 8000 types of reptiles on the planet, okay?”
[NAME] lives his life like he’s an RPG character but picks only the rude dialogue options.”
“I need to beat off to this before God destroys California.”
"No amount of pussy could get me on a rollercoaster with three loops"
"I love your senior citizen pussy"
"Gerber is pretty reliable .. I mean .. The Gerber baby didn't die .... did it?"
“you are white i assume”
"I hate you terrorist, and you may quote me on that"
"I love watching you play minecraft. It's like watching a baby fawn."
"I've never seen old men who fuck harder."
"i don't need him to KILL i need him to FUCK ME"
"well maybe if you just dicked down your wife she wouldn't have gone on a murderous slut rampage"
"why cant these BIG titty bimbos stop HANGING around me"
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ok. i took a long, long time (song ref) but hi!!!!!!!!!
1. titanic fic (*cue shit-eating grin*). umum. im curious if there's anything about the morse code yet. or codes in gen actually. so. sentences with the word "code" :3
2. titanic vid!!!! Idk if you like the engineering aspects, but there still were a ton of other facts sprinkled in (spiral staircases, people that monitored coal balance, separate staff room for firemen, how they got air down there etc) https://youtube.com/watch?v=4begc_U8ygI#searching
3. surprise!! this is an interview. i have some Official Author questions for you (feel free to pick and choose, come back to this later, or just striaght up ignore lol):
3a. Do you have any authors (professional or not) that you aspire to be like one day?
3b. Following that up, are there any specific works (again, published, professional, etc or just amazing amateur works!!) that really inspire you?
3c. What made you start writing? I'm curious on anything that led to the conscious decision, of course, but additionally do you think there was anything you grew up with that "planted the seeds"? Was it any of the people from question 3a?
3d. What's the silliest (/pos) idea you've ever had for a fic? If you didn't write/publish it, why not? Was it a recent thing? If not, do you think your experience would have influenced that idea today?
if those dont make sense u can send me a messgae or something 👍👍👍 goodnight
ITS BEEN THREE DAYS but im here okay……. lets do this. hi pep :>
1) alas, i’ve been focusing on a lot of other things so i havent reached a written point of the Code Usage, which begins in like chapter 3-4. sorry man 💔 (progress has been made ! just not as much as i’d hope 😭)
2) FUN FACTS?!??!??!??!!?!!? IM WATCHING A DOCUMENTARY RN BUT IM YOINKING THIS RIGHT AFTER YIPPIE!!!!!!!!
3a) uhmmmmmmmm i dont exactly pay attention to authors as much as i pay attention to books but you know what. rick riordan. not because of anything he’s done or written but because of his audacity to write 20+ books in the same universe and still get 100000000000000 people 1000000% invested in it. i wanna write sequels forever. can i be him
3b) OHHHHHHHH UHM UHM UHM UHM the thing that got me into fanfic specifically was the fic “versability” (it was a gf fic about ‘what if ford never made the portal’, written like 2015-16, and yeah i did know of and even read a bit of fic beforehand but i was never into it) but just READING ? the land of stories by chris colfer, easy. mmmmmmmmm that was my fucking Thing. if i wasnt a baby at that time i would have WROTE. SO. MUCH. GOOD GOD. IT WAS MY THING. THE THING THAT GOT ME INTO NOVELS. URGH. alex my iconic mentally ill bisexual, conner my precious cynical boy. i need to read those again my GOD now i think about it that was fairytale fanfiction that happejed to bepublished and ohhhhh it was beautiful. im gonna read jt . iM GONNA DO IT!!!!
3c) in writing in general or just fanfic? for fanfic its that one day i had an gf fic idea (that i had to heavily revise/rewrite, but it did end up getting out eventually) that i hadnt read anything like it, and i wanted to see it. decided: hey, im shit at writing, but might as well!!!!!! 65k words later, its not a joke anymore. im a Writer now :) but as for in general, well ofc reading books. people told me in the past im creative and should get into book writing if you like reading so much. i decided well im gonna do it professionally, but might as well do something tiny, so i well uh wrote. im not gonna tell you but it certainly was Something. classic isekai mary sue dramatic plot hybrids etc etc etc but actually the queen the mc is “related” to is actually polyam and was in a relationship with both their dad and their mom and the big villain is the queen’s sister who’s pissed that both of her lovers ditched her for the human world (but actually they had to break up because because the society was not polyam friendly. there just happened to be a war after that). everything else was basic isekai except for that little crumble of lore. the queen was a bisexual. the dad was a pansexual. the mom was a lesbian. i think i ate there to be honest
3d) mmmmmm i gotta think. there was definitely a gf x amphibia au where ford got ploped in amphibia and the plantars IMMEDIATELY stole him and wrapped him up in their adventures right when the plot starting becoming a thing (early season 2). there’s one where stan and ford just….. climb a tree. it’s laced with a lot of philosophical talks straight from good omens knowledge but ultimately its just goody fun. mmmmm theres one where gabriel has no idea what crowley looks like, but he DOES know what Bildad The Shuite looks like, itd be tiny but so so so so funny. the gf/gomens crossover…..a human au based on that one tumblr post about a necromancer bringing people back from the dead to fuck with the killer and opening a discord support group….. the s1 humans + aziraphale being the victims, crowley the necromancer, and the s2 humans being the nosy outsiders who Notice things happens but can never say shit. oughhhh……… Yeah. yeah, thats good. most of these are recent except 4 the amphibia one, wouldnt change much about it even with the shit i know now EXCEPT being able to handle the relationships/emotions between the characters better, ive certainly gotten better at it and i love it. i havent published any bc either i started but couldnt finished, or just thought it was neat and moved on to plop it in the ideas folder and wait 4 inspiration.
OKAY THATS A LOT BUT THERE YOU GO sorry for the wait, man. you’re my best cupperty you know that right 🫵 ANSWERS!!!!! and ill work on titanic as fast as i can, it hasnt been forgotten !! i just gotta mow the grass….. (“short” fic wips)
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the anon who had asked the questions before !!
the reason i started shipping sukugojo was because of the first episode (guilty) i don't know why but just that one scene had been oozing with so much tension that like i couldn't help it but since sukufushi had started to gain popularity, i quickly had to bit adieu to sukugojo
until i re-watched the entire thing and read the manga <3
for me, it feels like since gojo is the strongest and sukuna was the strongest, it has like a connection bounded to them. like they hate each other but at the same time, they can only understand the other. it's really fascinating !!
and like it's said, gojo being born had brought a kind of chaos to jujutsu world and sukuna had been brought back to even that out because like i said before they're the only ones who can destroy each other yet commiserate with one another
they look hot together. like that's it. they should end the fighting and fuck, like I'd actually pay to see that.
SOOO TRUE ANON. all of this exactly!!!!
like YES, their first encounter!! it really does ooze so much sexual tension like........ the touch......... sukuna promising to kill gojo first.......gojo saying he's honored....dakshfjahfafds, how could see that and not ship them! it was the same for me too
(tho i feel u're definitely not the only one when it comes to the skfs thing. i feel a lot of people gravitated towards more popular ships, which is understandable (and inevitable) really!! they have much more canon material (which is, well, why they're popular), with sukugo it was just those two moments for YEARS. but either way, yeah!! the manga and the current fight just <3333333
but yes yes!! their connection. they are totally tied to each other narratively. and while i dont think they hate each other, they definitely are the only ones capable of truly understanding each other (unparalleled strength and the solitude it brings !!). and i LOVE what u say about them balancing out each other!! sukuna being there to bring balance to gojo's chaos is soooooo sexy, fascinating is the perfect word.
AND IM WITH U, IM PAYING TOO. god i just want them to fuck so bad OTL. fuck, ill even take a KISS, come on akutami-sensei, i know u can do it. like if he's already making all the parallels with yorozu, he might as well lean fully into the romantic (and sexual) aspects of it
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buckieduckie2 · 1 year
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why i joined tumblr and why i ship byler- cause i want to info dump cause i can
i wanna tell everyone why i got on tumblr because i can and i want to
so i got on tumblr because of byler during august. i started shipping byler during july.
i was kinda late to the stranger things party and i didnt actually watch it until may of 2022, but funny enough, it WASNT because of season 4 at all actually. my friend just really really wanted me to watch it because she thought id like it. she was riiiiiggghhthttttt.
yeah lmfao i didnt watch stranger things cause there was so much hype around season 4, i watched it because i wanted something gay to watch cause my heart stopper hyperfixation had just gone away and i still needed something gay to watch. i dm my friend saying "hey, do you have anything gay to watch because i need to watch something gay" and she gave me a list and was like "richie from IT is gay" and "will from stranger things is gay" and of course MY brain translated this to "mike is gay" because of notions from before hand i had about this little known to me character mike and also the fact that i knew that finn wolfhard played richie so i mistook will for mike because i was thinking the FCU and- yeah
so yeah i watched stranger things because a) my frined really wanted me to and b) the knowlege that mike was gay and thats what pushed me
anyways to safe to say i was THOROUGHLY confused when they started pulling the mike and el narraitve cause i LEGITEMATELY just thought it was straight canon like genuinelly- i had already imagined what i thougt the coming out scene would be like for him- LMFOAOOOO
anyways back on track- so then mike and el kissed and ill admit i was a lil disappointed but i was like fuck it ig theyre cute and then proceeded to be BLINDEDDDDDD by comp het. twas a very sad three next seasons for me in retrospect 😔
so then i saw the "its not my fault you dont like girls" and then i was like- oh yeah this is the dude my friend was talking about
ANYWAYS
so yeah why i got on tumblr?
cause i got on pinterest andnndndnd yk naturally statrted filling my feed with stranger things stuff and of course i loved will cause he was gay and that made me so like omgggggg yass hes gay and that makes me so happy- but like i didnt ship byler- I THOUGHT HE WAS GONNA GET TO SEE ONE DUDE IN THE VERY LAST SCENE HELP 💀🖐 i now realize im allowed to hold myself to better standards
so everytime i would see something byler related id be like, yeahhhhhhh its cute but not for me </3 cause i was like "yeah will likes mike but obvi mike doesnt like will back 🙄" and i thought it was a lil kookie and also was a firm believer that mike was straight cause yk i love throwing away all my suspicions that were raised while watching season 4 yk i love just forgetting everything 💀
and THEN one faitful day in july i was over at my friends house (The same gril who made me wtch stranger things) and we were watching gay stranger things edits on tiktok (as ya do) and GIRLIE
there was one edit- (and usually as i was watching these compilations i would just ignore the byler stuff and-) it was a rink-o-mania edit
need i say more
i saw that look
i SAW THAT LOOK
and i knew
we paused the video immediately and were like "well- i mean i know that mike is straight-" "yeah exactLy-" "but-" "but-" "but right there-" "yeah i dont know that-" "that seemed pretty gay-" "but mike is straight, right?" "yeah- yeah..- mike is straight..." "yeah..." "...yeah..."
literally how it went
anyways so then im like- its running thorugh my head all evening and like- that sole video was enough to like 99% convince me he was gay- like cmon fellas lets be real here. anyways so yeah i was now 99% convinced that mike was gay or not straight yk (im a gay mike truther now) and we talked about it for a lil and
yeah so then i started paying more attention to the byler posts on my pinterest page and i started reading theroies, all of which were tumblr screen shots and i started really convinceing myself- still was on the fence but-
the one post, and one of the first posts that i read. and the post that conviced me was "Why I no longer think Mike Wheeler is Bi, but Gay" yk the iconic post from @kaypeace21? yeah so i read that and was like "fuck im convinced" and then i proceeded to read the entirety of the byler slides over the course of a 3 day period and fully fully convinced myself
and yeah i kept looking at theories on pinterest screen shotted from tumblr and yk byler was my everything (and still very much is) and i loved pinterest and spent all of my time on there and- 💀 i read- i read w- wh- wattpad fics 💀😟 BUT ITS OKAY because i actually found a pretty good collection of one shots on there but- nah man after one specific fic i found i had to call it quits cause i couldnt handle it anymore 💀💀💀💀
and then i found one poster on pinterest that would just do daily updates on the byler tag on tumblr and eventuallyyyyyy i decided tumblr looked really fun and i was tired of just watching afar tired of WAVING FROM A WINDOW WOOOOAAHHHOWOWAHHHOOOHHH
yeah so i decided enough was enough and i wanted to be directly at the source and part of the action
and now im here <33333
and yeah so i have officially upgraded from Pinterest and Wattpad™ to AO3 and Tumblr™ and thank the lord too 😟🙏
@l0v3c0r3e peer presuring you into reading this entire unit of a post
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slayingstan · 1 year
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Will you? Shuriri Fic.
Shuri's POV: 
Her and Riri had went to a bulls game 2 weeks ago, and she hasn't seen her since. Of course they called, and texted about all sort of tech related things. This was great, but she wanted to see her,  be around here, feel her. 
Ever since Riri left Wakanda and Shuri fixed her car, Shuri has formed a habit of doing things for her. Sending her doordash, paying her parking, and just venmo-ing her money. Shuri's love language has always been gift giving, she loved to go overboard.
Shuri felt her kimoyo beads buzz as she received a message, she prayed it was from Riri. Happily it was.
ironheart:  princesssss, whats up <3
black panther:  nothing much, stuck in the lab working on things
ironheart: like whatt?
black panther: a curse for cancer riri.
Shuri deadpanned through text.
ironheart: wait r u jk or nah?
black panther: im kidding riri im actually working on some mechanics 
ironheart: mechanics for whatt? i wanna know what ur doingg
black panther: its none of ur business <3 
Riri left her on read for a couple minutes. 
ironheart: sorry, some dickhead just spilled coffee on my tote bag. most of my stuff is fine but i think my ipad is going to be on the fritz after that :(
black panther: you made sure to back it up into icloud?
ironheart: yea, but i dont know what im going to do until i get it fixed. i hate using my laptop to design stuff
black panther: ill get you a new one, or i can fix it, or i can send you money to go fix it yourself. whatever u need i got you
ironheart: dude thats like 200 dollars, aint no wayyy
black panther: u calling me broke? 
Black Panther Has Sent You $400.
A notification popped up on Riri's phone from her venmo. 
black panther: oh alr
ironheart: wait u weren't joking about that? and you sent me 400, the repairs will be like 200. stop throwing your money at meee
black panther: get a new apple pencil, i remember you complaining about your old one acting funny. 
Riri's heart fluttered at Shuri's observantness and at the fact that she so easily spent money on her. 
ironheart: im gonna have to repay u somehow now
black panther: come see me, or i can go see you. thats payment enough
ironheart: a new mall just opened up here, we can go get something together
Black Panther Reacted to your message with: ❤️
Shuri felt like a fucking genius, and not because she was. She just found another way to see Riri, even though it involved her spending money. There was so sum of money that could compare to Riri's presence. 
"$400 really?" A voice said from across the lab. 
"What the fuck!" Shuri jumped in her lab chair. 
She heard a sinister chuckle that belonged to one of the most evil villains in existence, Okoye of the Dora Milaje. 
"Why are you in my lab?" Shuri shouted.
"When did you become a sugar daddy? Looks like we both have questions." Okoye responded.
"Sugar daddy? I'm simply helping a friend Okoye, stop making everything sound so bad." she responded as she rolled her eyes.
"Who's been paying for everything? Not the college student. But you can live in your delusions."  Okoye slid out of the room. 
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Riri's POV: 
Today was the day of her long awaited date. Did she recommend the mall because she knew Shuri would buy her things, Yes. Could this be a bad decision, Yes. Will she regret this, No. 
She wore a cute black bodycon dress with some white sneakers. She decorated her goddess braids with golden cuffs. She was waiting in front of her dormitory building. 
Suddenly a familiar black Lexus with tinted windows drove up and stopped in front of the building, she began to walk towards it. She watched as the princess stepped out of the front seat and walked around the car. She admired her outfit that was a brown leather suit that seemingly had no shirt under it, but it was buttoned high enough for that to not be an issue. 
"Hey!" Shuri opened her arms for a hug, and she received one.
"Long time no see, Princess." Riri rested her arms around Shuri's waist as she pulled away from the hug.
"I know right, it's been years at this point." Riri laughed at Shuri's exaggeration. She sat in the car as Shuri opened the door for her. 
Shuri sat in the driver's seat. Riri examined how slick the car was, she has never been inside this car.
"Griot, take us to the New shopping mall." Riri was shocked as the car began to drive itself.
"Is this safe?" She questioned. 
"Of course it is." Shuri leaned back in her seat.   ________________________________________________________________________________
Shuri's POV: 
They had just walked into the mall and they were wandering around a Forever 21. 
"This is so cute!" Riri pointed to a cropped sweater and then she looked at its price tag and her face dropped. 60 dollars. For this little sweater, no way.
"Whats wrong Ri?" Shuri noticed her face change. 
"Its 60 damn dollars, ain't no way I'm getting that." She put it back on the rack. 
"Thats ridiculous, we can head to another store." Shuri told her.
"Alright let me just try on these shirts." Riri left to the dressing room with a couple other things she grabbed. 
While Riri was gone trying things on, Shuri decided she was going to buy Riri come things she saw her put back, including that cropped sweater. She surprisingly finished checking out once Riri was done trying on clothes. 
"Alright let me check out and we can head off!" Riri said happily as Shuri followed her back to the checkout desk. 
Once everything finished scanning Riri pulled out her card and before she was about to swipe it, Shuri stopped her. 
"No need." Shuri quickly swiped her own card, it made a little ding noise as the purchase completed. 
"That was like 100 dollars worth of clothing! I could've bought it. " Riri lightly pushed Shuri as she grabbed the bags and walked out of the store. 
Shuri chased behind her. 
"Why can't i be nice to you? I like buying you things." Shuri stopped Riri from walking any further.
"You like to buy things for me?" Riri stared her in the eyes, questioning her.
"I'll buy you the world if you ask for it. Anything you want from me you can have it." Shuri stated, grabbing Riri's hands. 
"Why are you so generous towards me, Princess? Like i- " Riri was cut off.
"I think I'm in love with you, and I don't know how to express that besides buying you things. And I know how childish I sound but-" Shuri was cut off by Riri stepping closer to her and grabbing her face. 
Riri looked at the Princess's lips, then her eyes, then her lips again. 
"Is this okay?" Riri asked, and Shuri nodded not being able to gather her words.
Now they stood in the middle of the mall, it seemed as if fireworks were going off as their lips collided. It was slow at first, then they pulled apart from each other for a breath of air then connected once more at a faster pace. Shuri's hands began to drift a bit and that's when Riri grabbed them and pulled away from her. 
"As excellent as that feels you have to remember we are in the middle of a shopping mall, we are technically on our first date. I bet Bast is looking down on you wondering 'What the hell is this girl doing right now'. " Riri joked as she held Shuri's hand and began walking again.
Shuri laughed, everything felt way more relaxed now. 
"So now am I officially your sugar daddy?" Shuri joked.
"I think girlfriend sounds a whole lot better than that but you gotta work for it, and you can't pay your way there either." Riri sideyed her as she spoke.
"Well I guess it doesn't help that I brought that sweater, and those pants- an that other shirt." Shuri exposed herself.
Riri scoffed. "You just throw away money! The pants weren't even that cute either."
"But you look so cute right now so it was worth it." Shuri tried to charm the anger out of Riri.
"I need to get you out of here before you buy the whole store." Riri showed Shuri to the nearest exist.
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(this might be where i add some vibranium strap since yall whores r so thirsty)
Riri's POV: 
It's been about a 1 month since their trip to the mall, and Shuri's still been buying Riri plenty of things and taking her to expensive places. 
Today Riri's going to Wakanda to visit Shuri, but also do some work. And now she was sitting in an aircraft flying through the main border. She had brought a gift with her, after all of these months of being treated, Riri thought to return to favor. She was going to take Shuri out somewhere, give her a beautiful obsidian bracelet, and hopeful seduce her into some sort of 'activities'.
Their long distance and busy schedules have caused strain on certain aspects of their relationship, and Riri has been ready to return every favor Shuri has ever done for her in her bed tonight. She just knew it would be great. 
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Shuri's POV: 
She has been in her lab, working on a 'side project'. She had dismissed all the other sciences who assisted her in her lab for a couple of hours to work on something, and for good reason. Her project wasn't the most 'safe for work'. 
Quite frankly she was designing the world's best strap-on. A device so miraculous that the wearer could feel all sensation through it and at different intensities depending on the area of stimulation. 
She has been taking this seriously too, she was not doing to disappoint Riri. Shuri has had her fair share of sexual experiences, specifically with American girls who has no idea who she was. No complaints, No attachment. But Riri was different, Shuri wanted to absolutely rock her world. Make her scream, beg, cry even. And she wasn't going to stop until she got what she wanted.
She has been working on her prototype and plans on printing it about, now. Then she heard a knock on her lab door. She instantly opened up all her devices to another more appropriate project.
"Princess?" She heard a calming voice from upstairs. It has her shudder in excitement. 
"Riri williams?" She asked in an American accent and went up the stairs to meet her. 
As soon as they seen each other they connected their lips. The urge to go farther was very mutual. You could see their sexual tension in the air. Then they pulled apart. 
"Hey." Riri spoke quietly.
"Hey, I didn't expect you right now. It looks crazy in here." There were all sorts of technology scraps around the area. 
"Don't worry about it at all. I wanted to take you out of here actually. Get something to eat, maybe come back here afterwards." Riri smiled as she spoke, extending a subtle invitation to Shuri. 
"Yea- that's perfect actually. I need to get changed and such though." She looked down at her lab outfit which was just a comfortable red tracksuit. 
"Let's get you ready then." Riri grabbed Shuri by the hand. 
The two walked down a long hallway to Shuri's room. As soon as they were in there Shuri found an outfit to wear that went along nicely with Riri's chic blue dress. It was a pair of blue slacks and a white shirt. 
She changed in front of Riri honestly just forgetting that she was there. Riri watched in awe, admiring Shuri's muscular build. Her waist was slim, her abs were well defined, her collar bone was sharp. She didn't take Shuri as the type to wear boxers, but she did. They weren't form fitting, and dropped a bit in the front. Shuris hips were muscular as well and formed a v-shape. There was just go much to look at, she traced her eyes up and down the Panther's body, in a daze. 
"Riri?" Shuri said as she buttoned the last button on her shirt. She met eyes with the girl. 
"No- I mean yes? Yes, Shuri?" Riri shook herself out of distraction. 
"You ready to leave baby?" Shuri put a watch on her wrist, she obviously didn't need it but she liked decoration. 
"Yea! Let me use the restroom quickly." Riri quickly responded, and left to Shuri's bathroom. 
While she was gone Shuri commanded Griot to print her prototype and deliver it to her room.
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Shuri's POV: 
Their dinner was cute, a simple candle lit dinner. It was at a restaurant outside of central city. Riri paid, and even gave Shuri a present. Shuri had to fight the urges to pay for everything, however she made sure to leave their server a tip.
However now they had made it back to the palace. And were on their way back to Shuri's room.
As soon as Riri made it into the room, she sat on the bed and took off her heels. Shuri sat next to her and did the same thing with her dress shoes. 
"Can you help me unzip this dress?" Riri looked over to Shuri for help. 
"Sure!" She answered way to quickly. 
Riri turned to the side, Shuri made her way to the zipper and slowly unzipped the dress. She got distracted over she was done, she ran her hands down Riri's back. Then let her hands travel to Riri's open shoulders. She massaged them lightly.
Things were going smoothly until Shuri hit a nerve and Riri let out a light moan. The tension was back. Shuri did it again and got the same reaction. That's when she stopped. 
"I want you to touch me, more than that. Please?" Riri said helplessly, so quiet Shuri could barely hear. 
Shuri felt her heart pound, this was the moment. She fully pulled the dress off of Riri. Revealing a navy blue lace lingerie set. Shuri grabbed Riri by the throat and connected their lips again, however this time it was harsher than before, less control than before. Soon they were both panting. 
"I want to fuck you Riri. And you're going to enjoy it. I want to hear you moan and whimper. But before that happens I want you to know that I'm going to be rough, and react to that however you like. Scratch, cry, yell. But I'm going to make you cum over and over. So if there if any of that is against your liking, let me know now." Shuri stated, nonchalantly. 
Riri just shook her head no. 
"Say it, I need to hear you say it." Shuri commanded. 
"I'm cool with all of that." Riri said shakily. 
"Great." Shuri got up and began undressing. Her shirt, then her pants, then her bralet, and finally her underwear. She was cleanly shaven and moisturized, her body glistened against the moonlight from the open slightly opened window blinds. 
She made her way over to a box on her desk and opened it, there sat her 8 inch creation. It was a dark black with bright purple highlights along the side. She attached it to herself and Riri watched in awe as the machine seemed to actually connect to her, it wrapped around Shuri's waist on its own and the base covered all of Shuri's heat.
She walked back over to Riri. She unclipped Riri's bra and revealed her chest.
Riri shivered as Shuri took one of her breast into her hand lightly squeezed it. Shuri's lips wrapped around the bud, sucking lightly. 
Riri felt herself dripping through the fabric, she groaned wanting to be touched. She rolled her hips upward. 
"You don't know how to wait? I never thought you were the slutty type, You've proven me wrong. Maybe I need to teach you how to act." Shuri said as she glared up and the girl.
"So what if I am, what are you going to do about it?" Riri challenged, it was going to be a long night.
Shuri just laughed a bit. She pulled away and pulled Riri's soaked underwear off. She ran 2 fingers between Riri's sticky folds. As fingers were coated in wetness as she showed Riri. 
"You want this really bad don't you?" Riri stayed silent as she watched Shuri play with her. 
Suddenly Shuri grabbed her by the hips, flipping her onto her stomach. Her back impulsive arched. She noticed a mirror across from the bed, she saw how helpless she looked.
Shuri wrapped her hands around her new device, she felt some pleasure. She placed the tip of the cock against Riri's clit and rubbed it there.
The girls simultaneously let out low moans. 
"I'm a slut? Listen to yourself baby." Riri teased Shuri.
Riri's enjoyment was cut off by feeling something breach her entrance. She felt a pleasing pain as the entire length was pushed into her. Shuri shook a bit at the new feelings but soon enough she was pounding into Riri. 
Riri yelped and gripped the sheets of the bed. Their was loud slapping sounds. Riri could feel wetness dripping down to her stomach.
Shuri's hands sunk into Riri's hips as she went faster, she never felt anything like this. She felt Riri gripping around her. She stared at Riri in the mirror, she noticed she wasn't looking. 
She grabbed her by her braids, pulling her head up to make her look at herself in the mirror. She looked like a wreck, she looked like a braindead slut. Drool was dripping from her lips, her pupils were blown.
"Do you want to come baby?"  Shuri slowed down her pace. 
 She mumbled, incoherently. She was having a hard time thinking straight. 
Shuri slid almost all the way out of her then slammed back in. 
"Use your words." Shuri repeated the action and moaned. She could peel how wet Riri was through the strap, she was trying hard to keep it together. 
"Please Daddy, I'm sorry! Please let me come." Riri cried out. 
"There you go. Don't worry baby I'll make you come." Shuri set back at her fast pace.
Riri's face distorted a bit, her eyes closed in pleasure. She sunk down, struggling to hold herself up on her arms anymore. She finally came with a spine chilling moan. However Shuri continued to thrust into her. She began to whine. She tried to pull away a bit, and Shuri pulled her right back. 
"You know I feel like I really need to put you in your place. You have to remember that I'm the one in control here. I'm going to do whatever I want to you." She continued thrusting, the splashing sounds got louder. The comforter had a wet spot on it. 
Tears began to run down Riri's face because of the overstimulation. She was getting closer to cumming again. She yelled. Shuris grip tightened as she got closer as well. 
Riri's legs shook once more and she was cumming again. She was dripping everywhere and couldn't handle anymore.
"I'm done baby I can't go no more." Riri exclaimed. Shuri's breath hitched as she pulled out, she was so close this time. She felt like Riri was doing this on purpose, edging her. 
Riri turned facing Shuri seeing how flushed she looked. 
"Did you?" She asked, Shuri shook her head no.
Riri grabbed the strap in her hand and Shuri shuddered.  Riri smirked.
"You can feel that can't you? You made this didn't you?" Riri questioned. Shuri shook her head yes. 
"You were waiting for this? You wanted this bad didn't you? I'm a slut but you literally engineered a sex toy Princess." Riri teased her. She wanted to reverse the roles.
Riri moved her thumb around the tip of the device. Shuris eyes fluttered. 
"You made this well baby, I'm gonna have fun with this." Riri spoke and moved her head closer to the strap. 
She trapped her mouth around the tip and sucked lightly. Shuri thrusted her hips upward strongly. The tip touched the back of Riri's throat and she coughed a bit. She took that as an invite to go down farther. 
Words started to flow out of Shuri's mouth, the most sinful phrases. She said a few things in Xhosa, Riri didn't quite understand. 
Riri grabbed Shuri's thighs and decided to take all of the strap at one. She took a deep breath then went down. It slid deep down her throat. 
"Faster." Shuri grabbed Riri's hair and began to fuck her face. Tears pricked at Riris eyes. Shuri moaned loudly. 
"Riri!" Shuri shouted as she finally came. She pulled Riri off of her as she settled down. She unequipped the strap and it disconnected from her. She couldn't handle any more feelings at all.
Riri laid on the bed, her eyelids heavy. She looked ready to go to sleep. 
"You gotta stay up baby, I need to clean you up." Shuri brushed her hand along Riri's face as she spoke.
Riri just groaned. She could already tell Shuri was going to take this seriously. She realized that Shuri loved aftercare. She loved to take care of her period.
Shuri got up and went to her bathroom, turning the shower on a medium-high heat. Then she went back to the bedroom. 
"Go get in there while i make the bed. I'll be in there to join you." Shuri rubbed Riri's stomach and made her get up. 
Riri walked to the bathroom and when she was gone Shuri quickly changed her bedding. She didn't want to leave Riri in the shower alone for too long. She walked to the bathroom, it was steamy and she could see Riri's figure faintly through the foggy glass. She slid the glass over and stepped in. 
While they were in there Riri was struggling to stay fully awake a bit, she rested her body against Shuri as Shuri cleaned her gently. Shuri also managed to wash herself. She didn't take long because she knew Riri was exhausted. 
Shuri grabbed a spare robe off of the bathroom door. She put it around Riri and grabbed her own as well and put it on. At this point Riri was practically sleepwalking as she sat her on the bed. Shuri grabbed some shorts and a tank tops out of her drawer, she put a set on Riri and a set on herself. 
"Please lay down baby, I'm tired." Riri groaned as she got under the covers. 
Shuri quickly turned all the lights off besides a small purple star night light her had. Then she laid next to Riri and began to talk to her as she fell asleep. 
"You're so gorgeous, and perfect." , "You did so good." , "Your so smart." These were all things Shuri had been saying as RIri drifted off. 
"Shuri, I love you, and you're a great girlfriend but I'm tired baby. Sleep with me." Riri said softly. 
Shuri's heart fluttered 'girlfriend'. She was so happy to hear it finally said, used in a sentence. 
Shuri decided to be quiet, she wrapped her arms around Riri as she began to fall asleep. 
They were definitely sleeping in before work tomorrow. 
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mrpsychokiller · 10 months
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okay but for real i dont know what to DO about it but i think i have like real attention span problems.
like i literally just cant pay attention to anything, even things i want to do and want to pay attention to. i cant play videogames, watch shows or movies, read books, draw. nothing. i procrastinate extremely with starting anything, even these things i actively want to do i just cant bring myself to do them. and it stresses me out every second on how i SHOULD be doing them but i never do.
everytime i start doing something i just get distracted and stop. i stop paying attention to whats happening in the movie, i pause the game, i look at the words on the page without reading anything. even without outside distractions ill just lose myself in thought. i then just get bored extremely easily as my difficulty to pay attention just makes me get frustrated and uninterested and then i give up completely on doing what i was doing 30 minutes later.
but i am also decisively addicted to my phone. i will stop what im doing to check my phone for no reason and then get distracted scrolling. i may try to turn off my phone but i just get stressed or find other ways to get distracted and just give up and grab it again in the end. its effectively hard to draw because i need my phone to make digital art but ill just stop drawing to check other apps
i just dont know what to do!!! this literally sucks so bad and stops me from doing anything, both things i need to do and things i want to do. i feel horrible and stressed and bored and guilty all the time and i dont know how to fix this. im going insane
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