#im not over Erwin’s death

[soldier-poet-king]

Okay so a strange and stubborn endurance is maybe not the best book I've ever read peak high literature or whatever, but I'm only 1/3 of the way through and I've cried multiple times and been beset with that distinctive grief of a book really getting /me/. The title intrigued me and oh oh is it very much the heart of the book. A broken creature of odd endurance despite it all.

And I think it's because it manages to combine a serious emotional plot of assault/mental illness/homophobia/recovery with a fantasy intrigue setting. Most books do one or the other. You've got teen contemporary YA dealing with heavy issues but with teens in highschool, but I am 27 and tired of teen protags, or you've got intricately plotted fantasy masterpieces. This is neither. But it puts that recovery front and center within a larger fantasy setting and I cannot stress how much I need and crave that and how hard it is to find done even semi-decently.

Velasin makes me want to throw up from crying. His fears and shames, his desperation, and love, and nonexistent self esteem. His humour. His loyalty to his only friend. His Whole Deal with his father. Every chapter just brings a new. Huh. Recognition of the self through the other. Gut punch.

Idek what I'm saying. It's not the most insanely perfect book in the world. But it's doing something For Me that objectively better books don't. Idk. Idk. All I know is that I'm sick with weeping from it.

Like absolutely mind the author's note warning at the beginning, because it can be heavy, but it's never graphic or gratuitous. And it IS focused on recovery, just again, against a fantasy plot.

I really dk I'm rambling now but it's just. Oh. Oh. Maybe I needed this. Everything lately has felt either too lighthearted to be genuine or too desperately dark for me to handle. And I can only reread the cemeteries of amalo so many times. I eventually need other things that are both hopeful and dark, gutwrenching and reflective of the self, without grimdark. (Not that this is on the same level but who can compare to thara celehar To Me)

#franposting #i am not eloquent this is so badly explained and im so emotional #but yeah. everytime vel is breaking down. all the horrible guilt he carries.its like. well maybe so. #and the fact that the tithenai just accept him and love him #like YES obvs the author isnt going for subtle #but maybe sometimes i just need to see a sad broken man be loved and cared for by strangers #and have his homophobic fathers exile be the instrument of his grace and love and new life #and markel! i love a loyal best friend right hand man character. that stays platonic! #anyway vel is like. i need to kms and im afraid all the time and im useless #abd its likeyeah me too my dude. me too #his literally only driving factor is duty #he calls himself a dutiful creature made of falsehood in the FIRST chapter #and im like. OKAY THEN. #shout out to fantssy book tournament account for having this in their latest polls #its how i heard of it #anyway. im unwell but yknow. trying. got too sad to finish arcane bc viktor #havent watched snk in Months bc im avoiding erwins death #STILL dragging out the finale of cr2. i have 5 hrs left. ikithon just showed up. i cant handle it being over #im. hm. a mess.

[abbyslev]

𝑨𝑶𝑻 𝑺𝑰𝑩𝑳𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑫𝑪𝑨𝑵𝑶𝑵𝑺

A/N: as the middle child, i would like to say being a sibling is the best and worst thing ever. ANYWAY HERES SOME CUTE LITTLE HCS I WROTE MONTHS AGO PLS ENJOY

WARNINGS: mentions of death, angst and whatever else

HANGE

calmer one of the two 

levi prefers you over hange ( or so he says we all know he loves hange)

you’re more brawn than brain 

hange is like a mastermind 

you capture titans for hange

Hanges older smfh they won't let you live in peace 

“Can you-” “no.” “IM OLDER”

hanges actually pretty protective they just won’t say it out loud

levi enjoys watching you two fight 

“I SAID MOVE!” “YOU FOUR-EYED FUCK!” while levi’s in the corner enjoying this 

one time hange made this fart noise thing and put it under your seat, and when you sat down it made a loud fart

IN THE CAFETERIA IN FRONT OF LEVI AND ERWIN AND ALL THE FUCKING SCOUTS 

no one believes that hange pranked you with it so the scouts call you “commander fart” 

you choked hange that night

moblits so kind to you like KING

hange gets all excited and grabs you and shakes you so aggressively 

if something or someone bothers hange you now have to kill the person

when hange loses their eye you’re kind to them but now you just bully hange

“hey look- oh wait” “YOU’RE NOT FUNNY ”

you help hange around with caring for it and stuff 

also help hange through moblits death </3 

you were close w erwin so hanges all like <3333

back to the bullying tho 

hange makes sure you’re safe in the front lines <3

yelena tries to hit on you and hanges NOT having it 

you and hange gush over the guns and new weapons Onyakopon showed you two 

Levi’s trying to shut you two up 

10/10 duo

ANNIE

Annie tried to keep you from becoming a titan so she took it herself 

they ended up giving you another one because you also fought really well 

annie’s all upset cause she wants you to live 

you actually enjoy your time in paradis and annie’s all like “we have a mission stupid bitch” 

one time annie chewed you out cause you hung out w sasha (you’re in love w her) and annie was like “you can’t be doing that, we have a mission” and you were like “FUCK YOU” and annie slammed the door and locked you out for the night. she was not having it 

you and reiner are like twins and annie’s hates you both 

you joined the scouts and ofc annie was like “okay you’re gonna die you stupid fucking brat but whatever no one likes you anyway”

those little night bonfire meetups would just end up in your and annie arguing 

bertholdt takes your side and annie fucking FLAMES HIM

“i mean… we do need someone to bring us information from the scouts. Levi favors them and reiner could just be backup. I could bring the information to you, Annie.” “and who asked you? everytime you speak it makes me want to smash my head against a wall.” 

she just wanted you to live

annie’s actually sweet she just won’t let that show through 

once everyone was revealed from their titan form you had to fight along side w them 

sasha hated you and annie had to comfort you :( 

once annie was in that crystal everyone started targeting you 

“are you a titan too???!!!” and all you could say was no 

annie was your main concern when the rumbling started 

you never left her side after that <33

MIKASA

ofc you grew up w eren around too

it hurt to see mika so in love w eren

you also could fight really well thanks to mika

when you joined the scouts w her she could tell you had a crushhhhhh 

you would sit with sasha and just talk and talk and mika would be like :3

you and armin gang up on her sometimes 

she cuts her hair and you help her <3

she has her scarf and mika gave you this cool bracelet you wear all the time

she protects you with her life and she can be affectionate sometimes <3

you and armin bicker cause he wants to be smart and mika always takes his side 

meatrider 

“mika you only take his side because you like him more than me.” “and?” 

you get mad at her when she gets all worried about eren like girl

you comfort her because she’s an emotional person okay

when the rumbling starts you can tell mikasa has sort of lost herself

when eren said he hated you both you just stared and and blinked at him

ofc mika protected him from armin

when armin got into the fight mika was staring and you had to stick up for that poor boy

you then tried to fight and mika stood up for him again like MOVE 

mad at eren but mika’s like “he has a plan ok:(“ 

mikasa becomes more protective, she can’t lose you either :( 

you’re very mad at eren for causing mika to worry and stuff 

overall, you just want mikasa to be happy but it’s so hard :( 

SASHA

Levi swears he’s gonna kill one of you one day

you two drive him nuts 

drive everyone nuts tbh 

you, connie, jean and sasha are just uncontrollable 

sasha likes food like she’s never eaten before 

you’re more tame

you always share half with sasha, it makes you smile seeing her eat food like that

sasha’s so good with her bow and you’re better with ODM gear

sasha drives you crazy but you still love her

you killed a titan that almost killed her and you were scolding her and she’s like “I PROMISE TO GOD I WILL DO ANYTHING YOU ASK ME THANK YOU FOR SAVING ME PLS.” 

she in fact did not keep this promise 

she always sleeps on your bed with you 

makes her feel at home

when you guys found kaya she threw you and kaya over that bridge and made you run

willing to die for you

you guys saw your dad and you’ve ever seen sasha so happy

so cute 

sasha knows you have a crush on mikasa YOU CANT HIDE IT FROM HER

when the war of Marley starts Sasha’s all serious 

proud of you all and sasha makes sure to let you know you did amazing 

when you lost sasha you lost yourself 

connie tries to comfort you but tbh you both just sit on the floor facing each other in silence 

you take care of kaya and keep your parents safe <3

YELENA

 you’re a bit shorter but still tall asfk

tbh yelena doesn’t care that much 

she meatrides zeke and eren so you’re just kinda there to help 

you’re really good at artillery so yelena uses that to her advantage 

you get along with hange so well and yelenas like “you’re fucking up the plan.”

you don't really care you like your new friends 

one time someone pointed a gun at you and yelena didn’t even hesitate to shoot them 

so she cares but she won’t show it <3

when the general broke her arm you fixed it for her and she didn’t even mumble a thank you

you and onyakopon are best buddies

there’s not much to say yelena just bosses you around and demands shit

LEVI

BUCKLE IN PLS it’s a wild ride 

he makes up these stupid rules like “NO DATING ANYONE” “STAY OUT OF MY WAY”

if Hange or anyone shows a slight interest in you he will go feral

everyone is amazed at the way you talk back to him

“Didn’t I tell you to clean out the cabinets?” “Get out of my face, shorty.” 

he makes you train extra hard bc he hates you (he actually does it to protect you but wtv)

you always reply with “no” to everything he says

you actually clean really well because he raised you like that 

you’re an extremely talented fighter bc of levi

you and levi = deadly duo

when kenny shows up he tries to target you first bc he knows that’s levi’s only weak spot. he raised you and levi together but saw you as the brains more than the fighter 

makes sure that you’re not in complete danger, still lets you fight on the front lines because he knows they need you

he can tell you have a thing for hange 

“do you like shitty glasses” “THEIR NAME IS HANGE AND NO I DO NOT”

sometimes he just needs your presence to feel better 

silence and tea with you is his therapy

he likes seeing you hunched over some book. he likes seeing you at peace 

never says good night but will peek into your office sometimes to check in on you

he smiles (A VERY SMALL SMILE OK) when he sees you asleep on your desk with papers scattered everywhere 

leaves you there bc lets be real he will not carry you to bed 

“Did you get taller?” “That's 100 laps.” 

cannot handle you and hanges energy 

one time you and hange went to jump in puddles and you came home dirty and he was like “you filthy fuck” 

you guys share a love over tea

when the attack on Marley happened you could see the FEAR mold into Zekes face when he remembered there were two of you AND MIKASA??? DEATH.

Levi made sure to keep you safe that whole mission 

was sad at you being upset ab sasha’s death

when Zeke was imprisoned w him you were there too 

you blame yourself because Levi jumped in front of you when the thunder spear exploded 

you thought you lost him

HANGE TO THE RESCUE

you got minor injuries 

“Levi, you are so fucking stupid i’m gonna kill you!!” “You’re still as annoying as ever.” 

levi lets you know you’re strong and that he doesn’t regret almost dying for you (savor this bc he not letting this happen again)

you tend to his wounds :( 

hange tends to yours and Levi’s suspicious of y’all

overall you love being his sibling 10/10

JEAN

good god no one even knows your related by the way he treats you omfg

“don’t talk to me, don’t embarrass me, don’t even look at me.”

he actually broke his own rules and talked to you first

“Jean, do you like Mikasa?” “Remember when you pissed your pants? Yeah. Shut up.” 

You joined the Scouts and ofc he joined to watch over you 

“I thought we agreed on the Garrison.” “YOU said that. Not me.” 

he thinks the scouts are pretty fun

“Do you like Sasha or something?” “JEAN THATS ENOUGH.” 

actually gets you and sasha to date <3

you tell connie embarrassing stories ab jean and he choked you 

you laugh so hard and cheer eren on when he fights jean 

#fuckjean

jk we are a #jeanfanpage

when your mom visits you get all excited and jeans like “act normal” 

once the war of marley starts you cut your hair and jean lowkey shed a tear #mullettwins

he loves you sm and he made sure you were not in danger the whole time 

when you lost sasha you literally tackled gabi and jean was like :(

you ran to jean and sobbed in his chest while he had one arm around you </3

you call him captain

HES A GOOD LEADER OK

jean keeps you close and refuses to let you be close to danger <3

jeans a good brother ok:(

ARMIN

you basically bullied his ass  

you deeply care for your little nerd 

he’s actually older but wtv 

you’re the fighter and he’s the brains 

you two are literally a deadly duo 

like he plans the attacks and you execute them like YES

he can tell you like annie 

jealous 

GET AWAY ARMIN THATS MY WIFE 

he’s actually so supportive 

one time you got onto him and he roasted you back so you tackled him

“armin, shut the fuck up.” “remember when you stuttered because-” *table goes flying*

levi gives you both laps like bro chill

you teach him how to fight 

you basically give up but he gets better 

when he died you died but he’s ok and alive now ig

now you can’t fight him cause he says he’ll blow you up :/ party pooper

jk when he’s asleep you and connie pour water on him

when annie’s out of that crystal and you found out he’s like !!GAY ALERT!!

when he got that haircut all the girls wanted him and no one paid attention to your sexy ass anymore

you protect armin with your life <3

“How are they taller, but you’re older, Armin?” “THATS NOT FUNNY JEAN!”

he lowkey is a goat and you just sit back and watch proudly 

now when armin gets stronger he defends you with his life

when eren sits you all down he said if you even move he kills armin

beat armin up and you lowkey got scared so you couldn’t defend armin 

swore to kill eren and he’s like “:| oh i’m so scared.”

eren said that you just defend armin and that was your whole point in life was to defend a “weakling” 

tried to beat erens ass but armins like “it’s ok leave it alone.”

you just love armin and hate to see him hurt 

armins an awesome brother <3 he promised to show you the outside world 

REINER

PLSSS pray that no one messes w you

he’s like those corny ass people that are like “mess with her, mess w me” 

reiner pls stop

its kinda cute tho like he cares sm :D

YOU GOT A COOL TITAN AND WHEN YOU TWO FIGHT HE DOES THIS THING WHERE HE THROWS YOU AND YOU ATTACK ITS SO FUCKING COOL ISKZUKAJSJSJ

annie crushes on you and reiner is like :o

you can tell reiners like super depressed when y’all get back to marley 

gabi and you try and make him feel better 

you like to sit next to him and trace little shapes on his arm 

hey he’s a big scary man but he just needs to be loved 

protects you w his life

confessed that he also felt like giving up and you made sure to let him know that you loved him

you would have bake offs where you would purposely mess up your food just so he could win 

pieck has a thing for you and reiners like “GO FOR IT” 

when war on marley started he wanted to make sure you were ok :(

begged you not to fight but your titan was strong and they needed you 

you two were flawless out there <3

just pls let reiner know he is loved

be a good sibling ok he needs it

EREN

fucking god 

he’s like so annoying and he never wants you in his way

“MOVE” “eren that’s why your ass got beat”

you ofc join the scouts because of him

you’re in love w mika but she’s in love w him :(

when he becomes a titan you get picked on 

levi kicked you cause you jumped in front of eren cause levi was gonna kick him

eren got all mad like woah jamal don’t pull out the 9

you can tell he starts losing himself in all of this

at some point he says things are changing and you two won’t be the same

it upset you :( he was your only brother 

zeke wanted you on his side 

that’s why he tried taking you and eren

you put up fight and told him he would never take you

so eren just told zeke ab you and how smart you were

this made zeke more determined 

NOW levi didn’t let ts slide 

you lost all hope for eren and you became closer to levi and hange and stuff 

when the war of marley started eren looked so different you couldn’t even believe it was him

you were very upset at him you couldn’t even look at him

he stared in awe at you:( you looked just like your mom

all the years he was gone, he missed you a lot 

you stood in the corner looking down the whole time while he talked to you in the aircraft 

zeke was like :3 the whole time bro was just excited to meet his sibling 

you didn’t reply or anything :( it just hurt that he left out of nowhere 

then you found out sasha died and everything came crashing down 

when all the jeagerist stuff was happening you had to find a way to sneak around town 

flotch knew you would refuse to join so eren ordered him to forcefully bring you to him

when eren had y’all sit in at that table oh god nooooo

in a nutshell, he basically said he hated how you follow orders and was willing to die for the scouts. He said you deserved to be free and if you were against him, you were against your own blood.

he made you cry and armin was not having it 

he had you locked up and you literally wanted to cry and scream at him

overall 0/10 hes mean

CONNIE 

OH MY GOD YES 

bros just here to have fun 

you guys are twins 

but you’re cuter (duh)

he knows you have a crush on sasha 

you two make everything into a competition 

you two join the scouts :) 

he’s there to protect you but he just says he wants to beat you at everything 

never a dull moment

you sneak food out for Connie, Sasha and Jean. 

you two can’t be serious 

once the war starts Connie starts being more protective 

he won’t let you fight frontlines, he makes you tail behind him, Sasha or Jean so they can protect you

he’s excited to get some action but at the same time he doesn’t want you to get hurt 

you’re pretty strong so you carry multiple thunder spears 

connie distracts them while you bomb them

badass siblings

once sasha dies you and connie lose it

you lost your gf and connie lost his other twin

you two never really recover yk since she died in your arms and connie was telling everyone sasha was hurt

it was so bad you were putting pressure on her wound and crying and Connie was freaking out and Jean was in shock 

Connie was there for you and made sure you were ok

10/10 brother would recommend 

ERWIN

GOD 

he’s really cool, as serious as he is

he makes you hanges assistant 

he knows you’re in love w hange that’s why

you still have to salute to him and shit like bro chill

levi thinks you’re pretty cool 

you’re like a mini erwin 

you’re so good at fighting and hanges all like *insert hange blushing*

erwin likes to just sit down and talk to you at night it’s like a little stress reliever 

you scold him for putting to much pressure on himself 

when they said erwin was to be executed you lost it bruh 

like NOT MY BOY ERWIN 

once he loses that arm you stay by his side 

you beg him to stay and not go out but he says he would die to find out the truth 

you send levi to convince him but ofc look where that got y’all

you’re so mad at levi for saving armin instead of erwin 

you genuinely thought erwin was gonna live 

but no it was just some short kid with a bad haircut

you lost yourself and just really hung around hange and levi 

10/10 brother you miss him a lot

#attack on titan #hange aot #hange zoë #hange x reader #snk hange #attack on titan headcanons #hange zoe #hange attack on titan #connie springer #connie aot #connie #snk connie #jean kirschtien #jean aot #snk jean #snk erwin #snk #snk eren #snk hcs #snk headcanons #snk hanji #snk fanfiction #eren jaeger #snk mikasa #mikasa headcanons #mikasa snk #sasha braus headcanons #sasha aot #levi ackerman #annie leonhardt headcanons

[pasdasin]

Entanglement - ch 1

first chapter of this series! im so excited lol!

cw: cussing prob. idk what else pls lemme know

read under the cut!

next

Heavy rain always recalled the pain of the captain’s past. A demented reminder of the life that he had left behind in order to survive. The horror of the fated day replayed in his mind as he leaned over his desk. With such heavy rain, the commander, Erwin, believed that a rest day was in order. Just a few weeks after the coup d’état and an inevitable expedition right around the corner. Rest was needed but the farthest thing on Levi’s mind. His thoughts shifted from the painful day to more peaceful memories of his dear friends. It was harder to remember their voices and the way they looked the longer time passed, as the more people he lost grew.

A knock recaptured his attention and brought him back to reality. He muttered an enter and looked up to meet the eyes of his only two friends left in the above ground world. He quickly stood up and greeted Erwin before glancing at Hange. 

“Levi theres a problem…” Erwin stated as Hange closed the door, making sure no one was able to hear the conversation.

“Problem? What do you mean Erwin?” Levi looked up at the commander, confusion laced his eyes.

“Ever since the Coup, we had a suspicion that someone wouldn’t be happy. I was right, just an hour ago we intercepted a package addressed to you” Erwin stated sitting in one of the chairs around his office. “Inside was a heart, we suspect it is human but we cannot be sure until it gets tested.” 

Levi’s eyes widened. It was impossible, Kenny had died by Levi’s hands. All of his connections to the underground world had either disappeared or died. Only a man with a death wish would try to pull this stunt. 

“A letter came with it, detailing some woman in the underground…” Hange tailed off, pulling it out of her pocket and handing it to Levi. Levi took it and read it. His face dropped as he gripped the paper. I thought she was dead. 

“Erwin, I would like to take my team to the underground city. I have an idea of who is behind this.”

----

A wolf whistle reaches your ears as you arrive to the run down building you called work. Dull eyes looking up to meet your boss and his companion. A few girls sitting up next to some sleeze bags and a full bar. Your boss grinned ear to ear as he looked at you. It was no secret that your boss, Conrad, had the upmost favor and adoration for you. The only girl he had employed to stay fully clothed. 

Conrad ran maybe the only neutral territory in the underground and of course it was a brothel. Upstairs moans and creaky floor boards were heard. Some girls looked at you with jealously, others with respect, but only Conrad knew the real reason he didn’t pimp you out. Not even you had learned the true reason, all you knew was that you were thankful.

“Ah there is my favorite girl in the whole world!” Conrad exclaimed as you approached his table, stroking your cheek affectionately. You gave a curt nod. Before opening the booking journal you carried. Conrad and his partner, Darius, discussed business plans, money, investments, remodels, and the whole works while you carefully jotted down the important information and repeated the minutes. The two men shook hands and Darius left. You turned your head to face Conrad.

“Sir, is there anything else you’d like me to record today before I balance the books?”

“Yes actually, Y/N please come into my office.” Conrad whispered before carefully leading the way. You both entered his office and you sat down in your usual chair. Before you could question him, Conrad dropped a heavy box on the table in front of you.

“As you know, Kenny the Reaper is dead. Now I don’t know who you pissed off but tell me why there is a heart in a box being mailed to my establishment.” Your eyes widened and as you peered into the box you left the bile rise in your throat. Your mouth opened but nothing came out. A note was attached addressed to you. Reaching for it as you tried to avoid the heart, you quickly scanned the message before gasping. It's impossible… they told me he was dead. 

#levi x reader #levi ackerman x reader #attack on titan #levi ackerman #levi aot

[lostcauses-noregrets]

Hi, Lost, I was just wondering if you could answer something about Erwin that I've been struggling to understand for a while! Why is Erwin's dream considered as corrupted and not innocent anymore? Why did he have to be "freed" from his dream? And why was he feeling guilty? How was he trapped between his dream and being commander? Why did he have to choose between one of them? Sorry if this ask is a little confusing! Im not very good at putting together words haha!

So, there are a number of ways to answer these questions.  In the manga, pretty much everything we know about Erwin’s dream comes from Erwin himself, and the point that some readers consistently overlook is that he is an extremely unreliable narrator, particularly in the chapters leading up to Midnight Sun, where he is in the depths of despair and sees his every action in the bleakest light. 

Erwin deludes himself into believing that he is a liar and a conman because he thinks that he alone is fighting for his own selfish reasons, and not the pure and noble goal of Saving Humanity. This causes Erwin enormous guilt which exacerbates the guilt he carries over his father’s death and the deaths of all the soldiers who have died under his command.  To make matters worse, he believes he has conned his soldiers into dying for the sake of his own dream, rather than to save humanity.

In the depths of his self-loathing, Erwin is deluding himself of course; he is far from the only character fighting for his own dream.  Many other characters have their own dreams and reasons for fighting; Eren wants to be”free”, Armin wants to see the ocean, Ymir wants Historia to live for herself, Annie wants to return home to her father, etc.  Also the tragic irony of all this is that Erwin’s dream is fully compatible with the cause of attempting to save humanity.  It’s Erwin’s dream that acts as the catalyst to uncovering the truth of the world and of course, as it turns out, his father’s theories were correct.   

Sadly Erwin never lived to see his dream fulfilled, however the thing about dreams in SnK is that they have a tragic tendency to turn into nightmares when they are fulfilled. Look at Eren’s dream of “freedom”. 

Isayama is explic about this in the Character Guide: 

When he faces the sea, Armin takes a seashell a representation of something that can only be found there and tells Eren to look at it.  But Eren, the all-important character, doesn’t even look at it. The sea shell that Eren doesn’t even glance at as it sits awkwardly in Armin’s palms is meant to symbolise their dreams coming to an end, or maybe their childhood coming to an end.

By contrast, when he’s talking about Erwin’s final moments he says

You hear people saying that dreams are better left unfulfilled.  As I was drawing Erwin’s last moments, I took this to mean that one’s life is better lived if they chase their dreams until the very end.

So the fact that Erwin’s dream remains unfulfilled is not necessarily a bad thing. 

As to why Erwin’s dream is regarded as being “corrupt”, rather than “pure” like Armin’s, I suspect this is primarily a result of Erwin’s monologue in chapter 76, with some readers failing to realise that he is an unreliable narrator. If you believe everything Erwin says here, then yes, I guess you could come to the conclusion that he is a selfish conman who sacrificed the lives of his soldiers for his own corrupt dream, but of course that’s very far from the truth.

I'm not sure if I've answered all your questions here Anon, but hopefully this helps to dispel some of the confusion.

#asks #erwin smith #erwin meta #snk

[koulakoukoula2003]

in my head, erwin is this 40 year old virgin who still gets flustered around women and when he falls in love he'll be sincere and its so cute. So imagine my shock when i read erwin in your fics as a dominating manwhore who breaks women's hearts :')

First of, TYSM FOR READING MY FICS 🥰🥰🥰 lmaooooo 'dominating manwhore' AHAHAHAHAH

Second, JUST LOOK AT THIS MAN, ANON, and tell me he's not a dominating manwhore LMFAO I'VE NO IDEA how you look at Erwin and you're like YEAH THIS MAN'S A TOTAL VIRGIN

He's so manipulative, he's probably slept with noble ppl's daughters so that he can get them to pay sponsorships for the Survey Corps AHAHAHAHAH

I mean, I get it with Levi being a virgin and all, but Erwin's totally the opposite of Levi. Levi has feelings and he feels those feelings very intensely (so he doesn't open up to have sex with someone very easily), but Erwin?

Erwin has totally convinced himself he doesn't feel anything (even tho he does) so he (thinks he) doesn't mind fucking with someone and then leaving them the second it's over (he does feel guilt, but he's burying it just like he's burying everything else he's feeling). He will use everything and everyone to his advantage and sex is no exception.

The ONLY reason he'll break your heart for, it's cuz he doesn't accept your love. Otherwise, he is INDEED the perfect man. He'll buy you flowers, chocolates, treat you like a princess, baby the shit out of you when you're on your period or when you're moody or sick. He doesn't forget anniversaries, he takes you on expensive restaurants AND WHATEVER you want, he buys it to you. Clothing, jewellery, expensive shit, he doesn't mind. This man's EXTREME, he'll give you EVERYTHING.

But he won't give you his love.

My HC is, that he doesn't know how to do FEELINGS. He fucks like a god, he can fuck you and kiss you and FOOL you so damn easily that he LOVES YOU, but his job always comes first.

If your death means the salvation of humanity, he won't hesitate to toss you into battle. He won't tell you he loves you. He won't promise you that he's not going to die. No matter how PRECIOUS he is to you, he will still throw himself in battle cuz HE TELLS HIMSELF that he doesn't care about you, even tho, he does.

You will always come second in his priorities, the first being his job and his duties and his dreams.

So yeah, he is not the perfect man (I WENT OVERBOARD WITH THIS IM SORRY i can be talking about erwin all day tbh). HE WILL break your heart if it means it helps him get closer to achieving his dreams.

And I also HC he lost his virginity sometime in the training corps or when he became a young scout, chicks were totally swooning over him lmao but he never sought for something permanent. A meaningful relationship to get married and have a wife and children because HE KNOWS he will die one day for this 'higher' purpose he's aiming for.

Like, his dad died when he was a boy, Erwin doesn't want to do the same to his own potential children. So he doesn't want to have any, because he will still put his job and duties above his own family. That's why he is a heartbreaker.

Plus, 40-YEAR-OLD VIRGIN???? ERWIN???? You're telling me he's been interacting with ppl for forty years and no one thought about fucking this man???? Have you seen how this man looks like???? He looks like a fucking god who's directly fallen from the heavens and is now sitting on the throne of hell. He looks like a fucking angel with the soul of a devil.

I know y'all imagine the best, most perfect husband material man when you look at Erwin (cuz we all NEED the perfect man) but he's really not even remotely close to anything like that, let's be honest LMAO

Obviously, this is just my personal HC, y'all are free to HC him however you like I MEAN THIS IS THE BEAUTY of fanfiction!

Also, I got this ask a few weeks back, an anon asking me write a 40 year old virgin erwin losing his virginity to a virgin reader I'M SO SORRY IT'S TAKING ME SO LONG u must be the same person who asked for it BUT IT IS IN MY DRAFTS and im working on it uwu TYSM FOR WAITING 🥺🥰🥰🥰

#erwin smith #snk #aot #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #erwin smith x reader #erwin x reader #erwin x you #aot erwin #erwin x oc #erwin fluff #erwin smith smut #erwin smut #erwin x y/n #erwin smith fanfiction #erwin smith headcanons #erwin smith x oc #erwin smith x you #erwin smith x y/n #erwin x reader smut #erwin smith imagine #snk smut #aot smut #snk hcs #snk headcanons #aot headcanons #aot hcs

[seeingivy]

aot characters as specific taylor swift songs 

**an: based on this post by @crazychaoticizzy - I just had to pick the songs for the albums that you picked bc they were so perfect :DDD 

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erwin smith a place in this world - from debut

seemed like a no brainer, erwin gives country vibes 

like idk how to explain it but he would wear cowboy hats, and cowboy boots, and out of taylor’s discography he would be THE country album

erwin from texas agenda

“don’t know what’s down this road, i’m just walking / im just walking / trying to find a place in the world”

historia reiss the way I loved you - from fearless

right. 

miss fearless for SURE 

this is pregnant historia s4 who deserved a happy ending w/ ymir’s SONG SPECIFICALLY

cuz I know that farmer has 0 heat, esp compared to the love of my life ymir 

“he says you look beautiful tonight / and I feel perfectly fine / but I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain / it’s 2 am and i’m cursing your name / so in love that I acted insane but that’s the way I loved you” 

hange zoe mean - from speak now

idk just gives hange vibes

like they would LOVE to scream this song and air out their frustrations yk?? esp season 4 exhausted hange 

but hange does things on their own terms!!! hence the song 

“I bet you got pushed around / somebody made you cold / but the cycle ends right now / cause you can’t lead me down that road”

mikasa ackerman - sad beautiful tragic from red

so, basically any song on red. like the urge to pick all too well for the scarf line was too powerful 

BUT I had to pick this one cuz it’s so eremika it hurts

my red baby she is just like me fr 

“and time / is taking it’s sweet time erasing you / and you’ve got your demons / and darling they all look like me / cause we had a beautiful magic love affair there / what a sad beautiful tragic love affair” 

sasha braus - new romantics from 1989 

similar to 1989, sasha is all vibes, no skips, no emo crap

so, I had to pick the highest energy, scream at the top of your lungs, stick your head out the window song WHICH was the new romantics, obv. 

but song is just good vibes, makes u wanna dance which is very sasha I feel 

“and every day is like a battle / but every night with us is like a dream / we are too busy dancing, to get knocked off of our feet / the best people in life are free” 

levi ackerman - look what you made me do from reputation 

duh. 

may I quote that one scene where levi promises to kill zeke for erwin? yeah? yeah. 

also just has the whole revenge, justice thing in his vibes idk 

“the world moves on another day, another drama drama / but not for me, not for me, all I think about is karma / and when the world moves on, there’s one thing for sure / maybe I got mine but you’ll all get yours” 

connie springer - death by a thousand cuts from lover 

ok so

picked this song cuz baby connie just KEEPS GETTING BETRAYED  

let him rest. leave him alone. let him keep his friends. 

also sasha connie coded sorry I just know he’s stuck on things like this - sasha, his mom, eren 

“cause I can pretend it’s okay when it’s not / saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts / but if the story’s over, why am I still writing pages?” 

armin arlert - this is me trying from folklore 

I don’t even have to explain this one

like rlly, I don’t 

“they told me all of my cages were mental / so I got wasted like all my potential / I just wanted you to know / that this is me trying” 

reiner braun - evermore ft. bon iver from evermore 

WOOP

evermore will be post-war reiner’s jam like he finally gets to have his peace after struggling for so long 

specifically the lyric change from “this pain would be for evermore” to “this pain wouldn’t be for evermore” bc reiner finally gets to live in peace 

eren yeager - you’re on your own kid from midnights 

was gonna pick anti-hero, because he, in fact, is the problem

but you’re on your own kid, just his SONG. 

“I looked around in a blood soaked gown and saw something they can’t take away / so make the friendship bracelets / take the moment and taste it / you’ve got no reason to be afraid / you’re on your own kid, you always have been” 

#aot #aot headcanons #taylor swift #attack on titan #attack on titan headcanons #snk #snk headcanons #shingeki no kyojin

[littlelalaland]

Attack on Titan Headcannons:

Levi-

- He’s actually great at Ice skating, he just doesn’t usually have any time to go. He will never tell anyone that he can skate either.

- After Erwins death, Levi vowed to never love someone ever again because the pain was unbearable.

- When Hange died, he decided not to get attached to people anymore; because they always seem to leave him anyways.

- When Levi was put in a wheelchair for life, instead of taking it like a retirement; he became suicidal

- Sometimes when he misses everyone, he asks for someone to push him to the beach; and he sits there, talking to everyone as the waves crash against the shore.

- Levi died young- around the age of 55-65, because he stuffered from a ton of physical and psychological damage that messed up his immune system.

Mikasa-

- Even After her marriage to Jean, Mikasa often has dreams about what life would’ve been like if she were with Eren instead. (Obv she doesn’t tell anyone this)

- Mikasa developed Anxiety after Eren’s death, and is a little over-protective of her children.

- She totally taught her kids to fight. (She beat up Jean as an example)

- When Armin became the new Commander of the Survey Corps, she only stayed for another year or two before leaving.

- Jean and Armin have forced Mikasa to go to a couple sessions of Therapy, and she traumatized the therapist instead.

-Mikasa has frequent Night terrors of having to cut off Eren’s head.

-Mikasa never grew her hair out because it reminded her of Eren.

-Mikasa hand washes her scarf often, because she’s afraid someone else will ruin it; and it means too much for her to lose it.

Armin-

- He was actually a great commander, because after the wars and Eren’s passing, He became more stern and less playful like he used to be.

- Armin still has the inner child in him, but he only lets it out with his S/O, and the other cadets that were with him when he was going through everything.

-He tends to have nightmares of when he became a burnt chicken nugget.

-He’s forced Mikasa to go to Therapy a couple of times; and it helped a little bit, but the therapist ended up traumatized too.

- He is still obsessed with the beach, and secretly he hopes that Levi can hear him from the other side when he talks to the water about how life is going on so far.

- He’s had a diary all along, and writes down everything into the book.

Eren-

- By season 4, since Eren was no longer able to show his emotions to anyone he trusted, he decided to write everything down in a Diary, since he’d read Armins and liked the idea.

- Eren was actually a very emotional person, but he shielded his heart in hopes that he could set everyone he loved free. Even if it killed him inside and out.

- Eren turned into a bird because a flying bird represents freedom, and his one goal that he managed to do wasn’t kill all titans, but rather see his people free. It was a representation of his spirit.

- Eren loved Mikasa too much to put into words, so even if it meant hurting her, he would do anything to keep her safe.

- He wrote down this on one page of the diary, “I wish I could tell everyone how sorry I am and how much I care about them, but it will ruin my mission. I know that Jean and I never got along, and I’m sure he hates me but; Mikasa, I really hope that you learn to love Jean. If anyone is worthy of your love, it’s him. Jean is a great guy, and when he looks at you, Mikasa, I can see it in his eyes. I hope that you understand that I’ve always loved you, so I need to give you Freedom. Even if it means we can never be together. Armin, Im sure you will be a great commander, but I hope the idea of sending people to their death doesn’t overtake his heart. I will miss you all, Eren.”

Jean-

- He was the one who opened Eren’s diary after his death; being petty and all- and began reading it out loud to Connie and Reiner because he was hoping to find something to tease his ‘Frenemy’ with after his death. Instead he ended up putting the book back and later crying alone in his room. He respected Eren the most after that incident. He told Connie and Flotch not to tell anyone about that.

- He did like Eren, but they argued a lot and was pissed about when he talked down on Mikasa the way he did.

- Jean had fallen in love with Mikasa in season one, and knew that Eren had her heart all the way; so when he found out that Eren wanted to give her heart to Jean because he trusted him after all of those years they seemed to hate each other, he couldn’t hold in his emotions.

- In order to protect Mikasa, Jean made sure to hide Eren’s diary and gave it to Armin for safe keeping. (Armin cried when he read the diary too.)

- Mikasa mean everything to Jean; she was his whole world, so he would commonly buy her gifts- and never asked for her to take off the scarf.

- Jean was actually really good at art, and would commonly paint pictures of his memories during his Survey corps. He would hang them in the walls of his house as memories of everyone, and had even managed to paint Sasha year one. That painting meant a lot to him.

Connie-

- Connie developed PTSD after the war was over, and left the Survey corps.

- He was pen pals with everyone after leaving, but he usually talked to Jean to see how his life with Mikasa was going.

- Connie was The Godfather of Jean’s kids

- Although Connie never liked returning back home, he did it regularly for holidays, and eventually rejoined the Survey corps.

- Connie sometimes went to see Levi, but Levi seemed to be getting really sick by the age 48.

- Sometimes at night, he would look up at the stars and talk to Sasha hoping that he could hear him. (Sasha never left him, and would listen to him speak to her as a ghost)

- Connie regularly left food out on his porch for the poor kids to eat, hoping that Sasha’s spirit would find him that way.

Annie-

- She ended up marrying Armin, but commonly avoided most of the new cadets in fear she would be judged.

- After leaving her Crystal, she was devastated to hear how many of her friends had died or changed.

- Annie taught Armin more about fighting, and in return, Armin would educate her in math and science.

- Armin would tell Annie stories about things that happened while she was in the Crystal, and Annie was always up to listen to them.

- Annie was still in the Survey corps, she was just too nervous to talk to most of the new cadets.

Gabi-

- Most days when she thinks about the titans, she remembers and regrets when she killed Sasha.

- Gabi goes to gun ranges to practice shooting, and lets out all of her emotions that way.

- Gabi joined the Survey corps at 15 under commander Armin, and became a proud Cadet in memory of Sasha.

#anime #sad thoughts #attack on titan #shingeki no kyoujin imagine #sad headcanon #armin arlert #eren yaegar #eren jaeger #mikasa aot #levi ackerman #jean kirschstein #gabi snk #aot headcanons #snk headcanons #Annie #annie leonhardt headcanons #annie aot #annie leonhart #headcanon #connie #connie springer #season 4 #post rumbling #the rumbling

[thebellearchives]

SNK’s Finale…. was like ………..

i feel like i’m missing something??? the must be more than this ??? Mikasa deserved so much better ??

what happened in the ship ??? also that last conversation between eren and armin was so fucking dumb and so stupid and GOD don’t get me started on mikasa and ymir whAT

the fact that in the end the cycle starts all over again??? ymir being in love with fritz had me pulling my hair out of my skull

anyways, i’m just glad Jean specifically didn’t die like i thought for a hot minute he would, im also glad my Levi survived AND I CRIED SO MUCH WHEN HE CRIED TOO MY STONG SOLDIER HAS FEELINGS TOO BITCH

HANGE AND ERWIN ALSO HAD ME IN TEARS MY COMMANDERS 😭😭😭

ZEKES DEATH WAS SOOOO 🖤💕💙💞💚💝💛💘💜💖❤💓💗✨

the animation overall was fantastic MAPPA always does such an amazing job with the ODM sequences they’re soooo delicious 🧎🏼‍♀️🧎🏼‍♀️🧎🏼‍♀️

#; belle speaks #listen at the end of the day MAPPA delivered animation #THEY DELIVERED LEVI THAT’S ALL I CARE ABOUT #lowkey have feelings for Pieck too ngl lmaooo

[levmada]

Lay for Me - PT.3/4

pairing: Erwin/Levi

summary: “I’m more worn out than I thought.”

Erwin takes Levi’s hand to get his attention, and his eyes land on his warily. He’s gazing up, undeterred.

He clears his throat. “L-Lay for me.”

content/warnings: hurt/comfort, references to sh (cutting), erwin has selective mutism, healthy communication, mouth fucking, service dom erwin, multiple orgasms, dumbification, overstimulation, crying, praise, rimming, oral, begging, a little vanilla | 8.0k

note: i'm adding my own hcs in this part so i wanted to say: i think that ackermans have a high sex drive/low rebound time because well levi is an ackerman, and i said so

and im using the ackerbond in the way that having sex with your liege makes it the most powerful so there's that also.

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Levi squints down at the paperwork spread out on Erwin’s desk. It looks more like he’s glaring at the pages not a foot under his nose.

The contents are not what’s infuriating him, despite this task he’s set up for himself (One, to check over each Squad Leaders’ report of the past expedition; two, to review the eighty-six death certificates for grammatical errors). The swoops and scrawl of words and the spaces between them are starting to blur together.

It’s mind-numbing. Over and over, he’ll get past a paragraph or two, and then stop, realizing he’s retained none of it. The urge to punish himself echoes around his thoughts’ peripherals. A minor slip-up to act on it for—even a waste of time—but if he stops before he's finished, he might act on it anyway.

He volunteered to help Erwin after all. There was an abnormally long list of tasks to complete after this expedition, and of course he volunteered to give Erwin a hand with it all.

He pushed Erwin off toward the shower a while ago—the second of the day after returning this morning—but Levi barely remembered to even make Erwin take a break because he’s been so hyper-focused on work.

Maybe when people like Eld and Oluo almost die in one Titan attack, Levi must keep that off his mind.

What’s more, the expedition as a whole wasn’t exactly a resounding success. Erwin has entered one of his silent moods since his customary speech to the regiment around lunchtime today. Tomorrow, everyone has the day off.

Erwin’s silent moods are easy to predict, despite how jarring they are. If Erwin could help it, they wouldn’t happen—he wouldn’t let himself be inconvenienced by them.

Anyway, a problem that Erwin can’t solve is in his mind a shame. Therefore, Levi doesn’t complain, and brings as little attention to his coping mechanism as possible. It’s how Erwin deals with things that he thinks are his fault. And besides, Levi knows things about anomalous ways to cope.

He turns another page, tossing a stray piece of his overgrown bangs off his eyes yet again. Annoying.

Though honed-in on reading, he’s never not aware of his surroundings. He relaxes imperceptibly as Erwin comes to his side, and places his hand on his shoulder. With the other, he tucks the offending piece of hair behind his ear.

Levi looks up at him with a questioning tilt of his head. Erwin looks as tired as he feels, but at least he’s dressed for bed on a cold and rainy spring night. And more importantly, clean.

A certain weight to his features age him. Ghosts.

Erwin motions with his head in the direction the adjoining door, his personal quarters.

“Now?”

He nods reluctantly.

Levi glances at the grandfather clock. Shit, even he would be in bed by now. He didn’t realize.

“Shit. I forgot the time,” he amends, and stands, raising his hands behind his head to stretch. Somehow his back feels even more like lead than it did this morning.

“I’ll finish them on your day off.”

Erwin lips press as he arches one brow.

“Sleep enough. Maybe I’ll change my mind.”

A shadow of playful contempt shows through the cracks of his overall resignation. They both know that this is just another effort to get Erwin to relax. The true issue erupts when it’s needed both ways.

Levi can try. But falling asleep won’t be easy, just like how the death certificates weren’t easy, or hearing the jeers of the crowds upon their return wasn't. The past two weeks weren’t easy.

Nothing is easy right now, except crawling into bed with Erwin, even in short sleeves, and wiggling under the covers. With the dirt, mud, and blood down the drain, and the lost souls barred from entering on them.

Rest. I’ll make your sacrifices worth it. I swear to you.

He’s comfortably tired after several short naps throughout the day (including during their bath this morning). Unfortunately that means he can’t just pass out after his eyes close; instead he’ll see shadows, flashes of bodies missing parts, or contorted like dolls belonging to a disturbed child, bones protruding from weeping wounds.

Sleep is an impossibility for a while.

Levi opens his eyes. The lantern framing Erwin’s silhouette is bright. For however long, Erwin has sat there, staring indecisively at it.

Yes. When he gets quiet, Erwin can’t make decisions. Erwin is even wearing the felt blue trousers (and boxer briefs) he is now because Levi picked them out.

"Leave it on," he murmurs.

At the sound of his voice, Erwin visibly relaxes, then nods. He drags his hand down his face with a deep sigh. Sleeping is out of the question for both of them now.

Erwin matches Levi's worn gaze with his own.

“Hey, there’s no need to show me that shitty look,” he says softly. On his back, he opens his arms.

“Come here.”

Erwin joins him, sinking into his hold. He wraps his arms around Levi with his head resting squarely on his left chest, over his heart. It’s a little stiff because of their height difference, but he holds him in turn.

He mindlessly strokes Erwin’s soft hair, fresh from his shower, as he thinks of something to say. Long silences between them are comfortable, but he wants to make him feel better somehow.

Levi ruffles his hair gently. "What about the book?"

The book they’re reading together.

Erwin raises his head with a solemn look on his face. There's something about the tenderness in his eyes, feelings of which they wouldn't speak even if Erwin felt like it.

“‘No’ is as good of an answer as ‘yes’.” He combs Erwin's nappy bangs off his forehead. His eyes flutter, and then crack open. "I'm probably too sore to hold up a book anyway."

Erwin looks pained suddenly.

Levi raises a brow.

“L...” He raises himself up. “…Levi..."

He trails off, peering down at him.

“Yeah?”

Levi's eyes flutter as Erwin cradles his cheek, as if he were caressing something pure and easily stained.

He tilts his chin up. He comes closer and closer, until their lips brush together.

“Hm.” Levi easily takes the lead. He’s tired, but certainly not too tired to kiss Erwin. It’s selfish… but being on professional terms for two weeks left Levi missing this.

Nothing needs to happen. Actually, they’ve never had sex after an expedition. But being close to Erwin is reinvigorating to his being.

Whether it's slow or fast, Erwin kisses him like he has eternity to spend, one thing to treasure, and one goal: to kiss him. They kiss slowly.

Levi brings his palm over the nape of his neck, deepening the kiss. A quiet sound of approval hums between them, joining the sensation of Erwin’s warm breath washing over his face, and this peace filling his chest.

As their kiss deepens, Erwin's arm comes to rest beside his head. Their chests press together, but he's not on top of him. Indecisive.

But just the suggestion of Erwin's weight pressing him down makes him run warm. How the tender smacking of their lips grows messier and more feverish.

Before Levi gives in to Erwin's parted lips and takes in his tongue, Levi pulls away. Any longer and they may get carried away further than Erwin wants. Golden strands tickle Levi's forehead.

The result is a simple but smoldering look exchanged. Erwin doesn't look listless like before.

"Yeah," Levi consents, a faint rasp. "I'll say something if it comes up," he adds.

Levi understands that he'll speak when needed—hell, he's aware that Erwin likes his voice at all. Breaking that mysterious universal rule of blind submission was a resounding success after enough practice.

But he senses Erwin's insecurity in this state. It's important to especially him that Levi communicates. Spoken words are extra insurance.

He isn't alone in that insecurity, actually. He missed Erwin, more than he let himself feel while they were outside the Walls. That's why he swallows around a lump in his throat as Erwin presses a doting kiss to his lips before smearing them down his neck. His tongue appears, licking and nipping over his rapid pulse as his hand toys with the hem of his t-shirt.

Levi sighs, baring his neck to give him more room. Where his mouth goes, the skin soon cools, making him shiver.

Through with letting Erwin be so gentlemanly, he locks their hands, bringing them up under his shirt to spread over the hard muscles and raised lines of scars packed in his middle.

Levi winces. "Your hand's a fucking icecube."

Erwin huffs, hot breath spreading over his throat.

"It's not because I run warm," he growls, forcing annoyance as Erwin spreads his fingers, closing on his nipple and making him squirm. "Hah..."

"Hm," he hums lightly.

All Levi can do is gasp as he tugs the pink nub into a sensitive point.

His hand briefly disappears to peel up Levi's shirt, leaving it lumped below his neck. Erwin lowers his head, soothing the chill with slow licks of his tongue over his pricked nipple. A whine slips from him, loud to the point of embarrassing.

He lied. He's burning up now.

Erwin does all the right things in all the right ways. As his chest leans up, silently begging more, his hand slides down, closing on the firm bulge between his thighs.

"Ah—yeah..." he whispers.

What was a spark has transformed into a stoked burn. He slides his fingers through his silky blond hair and rubs distractedly.

He's pleased to feel Erwin's growing confidence. He mouths Levi's other nipple, sucking to bring it as hard and swollen as the other. He must taste how quick his heart is growing to beat.

He hooks his teeth into his bottom lip. Erwin is only rubbing and squeezing his hard cock, not enough, very not enough under layers. He's doing enough only to tease.

"C'mon," he whispers heatedly. "Know you can do better than that, Blondie."

He grunts, almost a moan at the sound of a challenge. He fleetingly sinks his teeth into the soft slope of his pec before moving up to his neck again, and instead of his hand, swinging his leg over for his thick thigh to rest on his crotch.

Levi gasps, pulling his hair, pushing on the new heavenly friction. What's even more, he feels Erwin's cock now, hard against his hip. Levi mouths a curse.

"F-Feels good," he whispers, grinding with a slow, but tight intensity.

Erwin practically trained him to talk, on those nights he edged Levi with his mouth. Look at me, Levi. How does it feel? Good? Do you like it when I kiss your cock?

"Don't stop."

Erwin groans with his teeth on his throat, a gravely sound he was clearly suppressing for some time.

He snags Erwin's hip, holding him in place. Desperately he swallows embarrassing whines. Erwin has a knack for that—making him beg and whine.

"Please," he mumbles.

For some reason, that gives Erwin a brief pause. Bringing Levi's cheek toward him, he kisses him hard, thrusting his tongue into his mouth in a messy outburst of desire.

It's not fair. It's hot when Erwin gets ambitious, hot when he drags his tongue down Levi's canines. He looks stupidly hot with his hair disheveled, cheeks ruddy, and boundless blue eyes lidded with desire.

Levi pulls off his shirt. Their hands snag on his boxer briefs, those following, and the huff of relief Levi makes once his stiff cock is freed. It slaps his pelvis, leaking at the tip.

It's clear when Erwin again hesitates. It's rare that he doesn't feel like taking charge, but Levi has no qualms about taking that role. He reminds himself over and over, He'd stop me.

He presses Erwin down on his back and swings his leg over so he's straddling his thighs. It's so obvious how turned on Erwin is that the idea of leaving his strained boxers on is laughable.

"These. Off."

Erwin reluctantly huffs in relief, visibly swallowing as they drop from his ankles. But before Levi can give his massive cock the slightest attention, Erwin steals his attention, his lips, back.

Levi huffs in amusement. He's suddenly being forward.

Erwin's hands flock all over his waist and hips, molding his thick flanks in his palms. Touching without making the commitment of asking Levi to do something one way or another. Clearly torn.

Levi rises up, hands closing on the top of the headboard so he looms over him a heavy amount. If he scooted up a little...

"Is this what you want?"

Erwin nods profusely, then hooking his elbows under Levi's thick thighs and hefting him forward.

He half-gasps, half-huffs as a weightlessness flips over his belly. He gets the message.

From the moment Levi's knees lay to rest above his shoulders, Erwin's attention lies on one thing. Before he has the chance to lower himself, his tongue darts out to lick his cock indiscriminately. As long as his mouth is on him, that's good enough for Erwin.

Levi's hips fall downward on their own, thighs wobbling as Erwin dutifully laps up what's oozed so far. He takes a handful of Erwin's hair, lowering himself finally with a choked curse.

He hears himself moan, as Erwin is already sucking hard—no patience indicative of him is present—with his tip sliding over his tongue, burying in his waiting mouth.

Erwin echoes the sound as those big hands he loves so much follow up, playing with the meat of his ass. Squeezing, spreading him open so that Levi gasps when that sensitive spot is exposed to air.

Levi has practiced. He wouldn't mind if Erwin put his fingers there, or pushed into his little rim like he's done with his tongue. That's not taking into account how many times he's imagined it.

His fantasies in this state are crippling in their temptation. His knuckles turn white, hooked over the headboard as he takes the initiative by fucking Erwin's mouth. How he's imagined riding Erwin's cock would be.

"Shit, you're tight..." he hisses.

Erwin just sounds so fucking pleased to hear that, he throbs. Erwin's grip hugs Levi's ass and thighs a bit tighter.

Just as soon as he speeds up and bears down a little harder, his body reminds him how worn out he is, and with a vengeance. His core begins to strain, hamstrings burning. What's just a little worse, his grip on the headboard is wearing out his hand more and more.

While focusing on how Erwin was feeling and how good it's felt to be near him again, he forgot. Even Erwin has avoided gripping where he's bruised or scraped.

He grunts, expressing a touch of frustration. Showing weakness is not only unbearable at any time, but this is embarrassing. He's even sensitive, Erwin knows that best, but the weariness is getting distracting.

He rests his forehead on his hand, breathing hard.

Some of the weight of moving is taken off him by Erwin and his hands gripping his thighs. He meets his hips more than halfway, but too soon, Levi's thighs are shaking in no attractive away.

He's slowed to a crawl when Erwin pulls off.

"Shit..."

He rests more on his haunches, muscles twinging. He grimaces—not from the bittersweet relief—as he curses himself. This... doesn't happen to him. But them having sex so soon after an expedition is unheard-of in the first place.

"I'm more worn out than I thought."

Erwin takes Levi's hand to get his attention, and his eyes land on his warily. He's gazing up, undeterred.

He clears his throat. "L-Lay for me."

Levi feels hot all over as he clambers off of him. Before he can so much as drag a pillow into place, Erwin does it for him. He presses Levi down on his back, he spreads his legs, and rubs the places that are hurting him until his body is loose and pliant.

Erwin cherishes his war-torn body with his hands, and with his lips, indiscriminately. His knees aren't exactly an erogenous zone, and neither are his biceps or his fingers, but he treats them as such. Levi can’t look at him as he does this.

He shivers as Erwin dots slow kisses up from his sternum, his chest and then attaching to his jaw. Erwin kneels between his legs.

Levi reminds himself not to overthink Erwin's feelings about him. But whatever he did to deserve this, he doesn't know. Part of it is because he was too weak to give him what he wanted, right?

He nibbles on the inside of his cheek and holds on as Erwin's lips decorate his jutting collarbones in kisses. It's the right thing to speak up about these things.

"...Sorry. I..." He cringes.

Erwin stops, and shows him an inquisitive look.

He meets it with a frown. "Doing all the work can't be fun for you.”

Well, he can already tell his answer by the way is is looking down at him. A near-imperceptible smirk doesn't reach his lips exactly, but he can still sense it, like he can sense the desire in his half-lidded blue eyes.

Levi rolls his eyes. “Right… You don’t have to say anything.”

Erwin closes his eyes, and comes to some resolution.

He opens them. "...Either way"—he plants a kiss to his blushing pink nipple—"I can make you feel as good as you des...deserve to feel," he whispers.

Levi searches his expression for any exaggeration. He can't find any, let alone a lie. "To take your mind off the past two weeks?"

"T-To cherish. The one good thing I have."

Finally, he just has to look away. He's blushing all the way to his ears, he can feel the raging heat, and this thing in his chest tightening up. Not trusting his voice, he just nods.

He feels a little guilty for making Erwin talk so much despite his obvious struggling.

A good thing. The one good thing. My one good thing.

He's noticed a trend.

Would it be selfish to conclude that he is easy enough for Erwin to talk to? Apparently not.

"You softy," he mumbles finally. Erwin peppers kisses to his firm nipples again, then across in the straight divot made by the gear he uses to fly.

Erwin raises an expectant brow.

"Do your cherishing, then."

With the ghost of a smile turning his lips up, Erwin latches his mouth on one of his tender nipples.

Levi hisses softly, eyes opening and shutting. “Erwin…”

Erwin hums to himself as he soothes his pricked nipple with his tongue. His other hand wanders up his inner thigh. Levi's chest leaps and falls as he tosses his head to the side.

Erwin smears kisses down his navel with just enough pressure to tease, soft smacks.

He licks around his sharp hipbone, nearing close to his hard cock. Closing his eyes makes the sensation that much more intense. He shivers in anticipation.

Erwin's fingertips are digging into his thighs just lightly, soothing the aching trembling from them. Those big hands can wrap around his thighs if he so wanted. He pins them down, wide apart, for now, with a startling amount of strength.

What is he planning?

Levi watches Erwin through his lashes. His eyes are closed, with a face that says there's nowhere he would rather be than between Levi's legs.

His fucking tongue, so close to his stiff cock. He's already as hard as before, if not more.

Erwin has no more patience than he did earlier, not really—he was taking it slow for Levi to recover from his collapse, certainly—when suddenly the fattest part of his cock is in his mouth. All of it.

"Fuck!" he gasps, his head falling back and his back arching up. He's fucking ambitious. To make up for the past half-hour, he seems intent on making him come in under a single minute, mouth sucking this tight and bobbing this fast.

"Erwin, Erwin, ngh..." he gasps uncontrollably. "What the fuck—fuck...!"

Erwin is pinning him, letting him get nowhere, but his hips tremble and snap forward on their own, chasing the pleasure at the back of Erwin's throat. Hands grabbing at Erwin's shoulder and his hair tighten into fists.

Erwin moans with a profound satisfaction, somewhere deep in his chest.

He can't even get out a warning in time. Every muscle, drawn tight, freezes when his balls tighten, throbbing when he begins to come. Weightless, hot, so fucking hot that his vision escapes him for a moment.

He shouts out soundlessly, it dissolving into a shaky moan as Erwin swallows every drop of his cum. The sensation leaves his toes curling, and him to whine helplessly.

He whimpers and struggles to hump Erwin's hot mouth until he feels a familiar embarrassment. Even after they got into this regularly, Levi's energy is about as boundless as his strength. It's not that Erwin doesn't satisfy him—exactly the opposite—but one climax doesn't tire him out, and he comes hard.

It's embarrassing. Erwin of course loves it.

So it's several moments before he sinks back down, and soft keening noises begin to slip out of him as he fails to twitch away when Erwin isn't stopping.

He slows down, but when he goes down, his nose buries in the trimmed wiry hairs; he swallows, like he intends to suck the soul out of him, and lathers his softened cock with his tongue when he comes back up.

But he's not soft for long.

"Dammit," he gasps. "Fucking, your mouth—too fucking fuck, Erwin..."

The tight sensations of Erwin swallowing his cock leaves him shaking. He makes involuntary attempts to close his legs to get some relief from what's quickly becoming overwhelming, but he can't move at all.

The reality of his own helplessness strikes a cord deep inside him. Processing a thought becomes an arduous task better spent shivering in pleasure as Erwin sucks his cock. He throws his head back, gasping softly in quick succession.

He slurps obnoxiously on his tip, so shamelessly, erotically filthy, leaving Levi to curl his toes in preparation as he sinks back down.

"Hah"—he whines at the ceiling—"F-Fuck... That's too good... baby. Baby...."

Erwin moans, and so fucking loud, a deep rumble that hugs his cock. Just how much is he getting out of this?

The fact that he's doing nothing, but turning Erwin on anyway, strikes him deep inside again. He's hard again, and the noises falling out of him are just slutty, but he can't fixate on it for long enough to muffle himself before Erwin takes away his ability to think again.

"Hah..." Another little whine slips out, feeling it twitch on Erwin's heavy tongue. He grips the sheets tight.

A thick shiver runs through him as his whole body tenses like a rubberband close to snapping. Erwin bobs his head in wet, rapid motions with that firm grip growing tight his trembling thighs, sinking in his fingertips until it hurts and his head is dazed and he's so fucking close—

“'Vin. That’s it that’s it, oh fuckfuck—…!”

His next climax feels punched out of him. He jolts when he reaches it, freezes, and then soft moans shake their way out of his gaping mouth. Combined with the pain makes him come so much harder.

Erwin drinks him down relentlessly. He feels like he's losing his grip or something—it's too much, it feels too good.

Because of all his tossing, his head has mostly slipped off the pillow, so he must gather the strength to raise his head and meet Erwin's glassy eyes, with his cock stuffed in his bulging cheeks. His face is ruddy and wet with sticky tears. He was watching him come, getting so much more out of this than Levi can even believe.

"Sh-Shit, 'Vin..." he whispers, cradling Erwin's cheeks, who stutters out a moan. "You're so—fucking thirsty, aren't you?"

Levi swears he's drunk on him, but he sees even Erwin shiver at his words.

He notices he's still bent in a deep kneel. Surely giving himself no relief at all. Surely doing it on purpose.

"E-Erwin." The words die in his throat as Erwin goes down, just warming his soft cock in his mouth, holding still. His hand closes on his balls, tugging and playing with them.

Levi is going to dissolve into a puddle on the bed before he can get a word in. That doesn't help his reluctance to speak up.

It's in how pensive and distracted he becomes, maybe, that makes Erwin notice. Either way he always notices. Erwin pull off his wet cock, just barely hard.

"I get that you don't want anything. But I do. Want you to want," he stammers out lamely.

Erwin doesn't look confused. But he seems reluctant to believe his own conclusion.

"Give me more," Levi says.

His brows lift, voice a rough rasp. "I'm—I'm not, pressuring you, am I?"

"If we're both worrying about that, then probably not."

The edges of Erwin's rosy lips curl up slightly, all swollen from sucking him, a mess from it. He's no longer smiling as he kisses Levi's bony knee, appearing pensive.

"You can... take care of me, or whatever cheesy line you always come up with. Stop worrying for tonight." He rubs Erwin's hair, and wipes the wetness from his ruddy cheek.

Erwin's eyes glint in the light, rich cobalt. "I'd—I'd always take care of you."

He worries the inside of his cheek between his teeth. It's very hard to scowl at him right now. Especially since Erwin is feeling talkative again just to say that.

"You're such an idiot."

This time, Erwin's slight smile reaches his eyes.

Erwin sits up, and with a fleeting kiss to Levi's lips, leans over him for the bedside drawer. He fishes around in it for the oil.

"I've fingered myself before," Levi offers mildly.

This stops Erwin right in his tracks. He slips the drawer shut, but he only has eyes for Levi. "Oh? ...How many?"

His eyes widen. He was just telling him—he didn't think simple words would turn him on.

"Times?—Or what?"

Erwin crawls between his legs, and spreads his thighs apart. His free hand just idles at his inner thigh, his little finger brushing against his hipbone. "Both."

"You expected me to keep count?" he tries to retort.

"So you did it enough times to lose count?"

Levi blushes bright red. "That's not what I meant. Pervert..."

He watches Levi as he oils his fingers until they're wet and glistening. And Levi watches him.

"Is what I'm doing right now perverted...?"

Levi bites his lip as his fingers brush up against his hole, and swallows. He covers his mouth and looks away. "N-No."

He adds more quietly, "I used three."

One prods inside, massaging the tight muscle almost. Levi gasps sharply, shutting his eyes tight.

"Did you enjoy it?—Using three fingers to fuck yourself?"

He's sure he didn't do anything to make Erwin talkative again. Enough to so effortlessly make his cock throb like this. Sheer embarrassment constricts his throat.

"I'm realizing I didn't. When you make it feel like this."

"Oh, Levi," he sighs, as if Levi was touching him right now and not hiding behind his elbow.

Suddenly his fingers disappear. Levi's eyes open, a panicked question of whether he said too much popping into his mind before Erwin lays down comfortably on his stomach with his ass in front of his face.

"Please tell me if I'm good at this, or extremely bad."

A whine is torn from him as Erwin spreads his cheeks apart, thighs shivering when not his coarse fingertips, but his hot and heavy tongue rubs against his hole. That's all it is at first, rubbing and swirling it in the slowest circles imaginable.

"Oh fuck," Levi inhales, hand shooting down and sinking into golden-blond strands again. "That's good."

He's imagined Erwin's tongue on and in him in this way, but just this moment blows his imaginings of even the orgasm Erwin would give him from this out of the water.

How is it going to feel when Erwin fucks him? He's refrained from thinking about it due to their sheer size difference. But Erwin is changing his mind by the moment.

"Keep going," he whispers.

How would it feel? To be that fucking full? Erwin's massive cock inside him and his soft insides stretching around him. Squeezing on him. The ridges around his fat tip catching on his hole, fuck.

Erwin moans. Levi can feel it, too—twitching to become loose and pliant for his tongue to slide inside him. It dips into him, and rotates in circles and circles.

Levi stutters a gasp as his whole body does, unable to fully process the pleasure from the sensations. Erwin's fingers dig into his thighs, narrowly managing to pin them in place. He feels hot all over, thinking then in a string for immediately forgotten curses and an apology for being unable to control the way his hole is rapidly fluttering around his tongue.

It parts obediently for it, and with Erwin moaning, licking into him, his strong nose digging into his taint and tickling something inside him that he slaps his hand over his lips to muffle—he's going insane. His breaths grow shallow. Nothing has ever felt so incredible, even their very first time together.

He whimpers obnoxiously as Erwin thrusts in with his heavy tongue. He can't stop himself from quivering.

To say nothing of how hard he is. His cock has dripped down his shaft, wet with Erwin's mouth and beet-red from overstimulation, but he can't get enough of Erwin. Nothing compares.

Regardless of how he quiets himself, the wet sloshing sounds are impossible to miss. Finally he moans, loudly, as Erwin's tongue retreats, and thrusts in faster. His insides clamp down on it every time he pulls out, as if in refusal to let it leave.

"Don't-Don't fucking stop... Need more. Fucking—please."

But this is just the beginning, isn't it. Before his fingers. Hot anticipation in him builds and builds.

Erwin's tongue pulls out, but not before his lips latch to his hole, leaving an open-mouthed kiss. He almost cries out.

The gentle snick of the oil opening makes him squirm in anticipation. And because Erwin doesn't have his hands on him anymore.

He locks his ankles behind Erwin's shoulders in protest, imploring him with lidded silver-grey eyes.

Erwin chuckles, no more than a raspy grunt as he crawls forward. "Are you needy?"

He recoils inside, glazed eyes opening. Erwin's cheeks are pink, contrasting so beautifully against his reddened lips and bright blue eyes. He's coating four fingers, leaving them slick and glossy.

Levi closes his eyes again. "No."

"I think you will be."

He won't admit it, but he loves it when Erwin gets like this. He's always quick-tongued, but when he's cocky, like he knows how Levi will feel, or knows what he's feeling despite coy denial.

Erwin kneels, and has Levi's legs bend comfortably out beside him before his middle finger appears at his hole and presses in. He's already so wet and pliable that it sinks in effortlessly.

"You're tight," Erwin says softly, the words drenched in unquenched desire. Levi whines sweetly into his arm. "Do you need more oil?"

Levi's brow puckers as he analyzes the feeling. He settles on shaking his head. It's not that different from his tongue at first, but he discovers it's much longer. Feels weird, but nicer and nicer.

"Do you like this, darling?"

He thrusts it now. Levi's cock twitches, oozing more, again. Erwin asks such a thing despite his squirming and weak attempts to raise his hips.

"Mm," he hums. "Mhm."

Some feeling flutters in his belly like a feather. Something else to add to the long list of things he has come to like about Erwin is that he checks in with him often, but not in a coddling manner. He came to like it as Erwin made it abundantly clear that his feelings matter to him.

A second finger prods inside him, sinking in slowly, and, there. Levi groans and raises his hips—already two of Erwin's fingers are thicker than three of his own, to none of his surprise.

He throws his arm out for anything to hold onto as Erwin spreads and scissors, and lands on the sheets. "Fuck. It's good."

Erwin kisses his inner thigh. "Good."

It's tight at some points, but Erwin is too careful, and has the patience for such care, that it doesn't hurt at all.

If he ever needed a distraction from the stretch, Erwin's lips float down and mouth over his thick balls. A pathetic noise between a whine and a gasp lifts Levi's chest.

Erwin hums from low in his throat. With two rocking in and out of him, he knows what he's murmuring. "Does that feel good, my beloved?"

"Yes," he rasps.

Erwin's mouth roams and skips upward, licking up the mess at the base of his stiff cock. He licks him like he's candy.

Dazed and whining, Levi touches Erwin's fingers spread over his waist, his hair, his jaw as it moves, anything.

His third finger makes Levi's head fall back. He gapes soundlessly as his insides flutter and stretch. So big. His lips. So soft. Mouth. So fucking wet.

"Oh fuck!" Levi cries out. "Fucking right there, right there..."

His abdomen muscles visibly tense, hips undulating uncontrollably. Pure pleasure joins the blood in his veins with Erwin's fingers pushing over a firm spot he couldn't have been aiming for. Erwin trumps him in size too much for his own good.

So good. Somewhere, his core and leg muscles are achy again, but the pain is a silent whisper amongst the rampaging pleasure.

Erwin moans softly, not even touching himself, not even doing anything. "Fuck, Levi."

The sound of a curse from Erwin's mouth burns him red-hot. He claws at his arm, wrenching the sheets in his grip, whispering, pleaseplease under his breath like a prayer. He's needy.

"Want it here?"

Erwin's hand travels from Levi's slender waist to his cock, pinning it to his belly. It's utterly swallowed in his palm, but it's his finger, stroking over his sensitive slit, that makes him writhe and tense.

"Yes."

His fingers pump inside faster. They press on that spot.

"Goddammit, you're gorgeous," Erwin breathes.

"I can't, fuck, Erwin—!" Levi tosses his head. His hips move all on their own, rushing to meet his fingers. If Erwin stops now, he'll fucking die. He slaps his hand down on Erwin's, where he's fondling him, and moans at the ceiling. Erwin sounds just as out of breath as him, if not more.

“I can’t. Can’t last. S’too much.”

"I know, I feel you're close," he soothes, his voice all low, fucking enticing. "Just let it go for me."

He comes so hard that he feels outside himself for a moment, pleasure unable to be contained to just his body. He blacks out for a moment, or he thinks so, before the explosion hits him full-body, all at once with his eyes rolled back. His thighs, every inch of him trembles.

He just knows Erwin’s eyes are locked on his slackened jaw and terse brow, and the cum spilling onto his navel, and somehow that knowledge just defeats him.

When he drops back down, his eyes brim with unshed tears. His raw cock twitches over his navel, still oozing cum. Erwin still uses his fingers, but slower now.

“Such a good boy, Levi…” Erwin murmurs, his voice like honey. Eyes meeting, his might as well be made of diamonds. When Erwin looks at him like this...

He covers his face with his elbow as a strangled, but wet whimper escapes.

Erwin slows down, almost to a stop.

“No please…” he begs. “Please. Please.”

Erwin crawls forward to hover over him, but honors his request by rocking his fingers slowly.

Levi wastes no time grabbing onto him now that he can, which means revealing his face.

"Tell me to slow down, and I will." Erwin brings down his hand, wiping the tears before pressing doting kisses to his eyelids and cheeks for good measure.

Levi shakes his head stiffly, mouth moving but failing.

"This is intense? Is it overwhelming?"

He nods, quickly.

"And you want more?"

Levi blindly nods at whatever he’s saying. He's having trouble reading between the lines, managing to grasp that Erwin is still preparing him, and that Erwin is checking in, that Erwin is loving this.

“Look at me, angel.” Erwin turns his cheek with his knuckles.

Levi manages to peel his eyes open as little whines well up, and he navigates the confusing borderline of pain and pleasure. Erwin's voice makes him feel calm, and his lips to his jaw inspires the anticipation once again. His blue eyes are cautious, but serene.

“There you are. Does this feel good?”

He nods, over and over. He’s weeping, he realizes.

“Mhm?” His breath fans over his parted lips. “How about one more?”

“Yeah. Yeah.”

Erwin presses a lasting kiss to his lips.

He works his fingers out, giving Levi something of a break as he coats them in more oil. The momentary reprieve also lets him take in the wreck he has made of himself as he peels his wet bangs back over his forehead. His pale skin is glossy from sweat in most places, and sticky with cum streaking his navel. To say nothing of how raw and messy it is. His thighs tremble.

He's not even sure if he can come again, but he wants Erwin all the same.

"Are you still very sore?"

Levi opens his eyes and gathers himself. "I want you."

He watches Erwin's blush glow deeper. His blue eyes soften, lidded with passion. As he leans forward, and as he looks at Levi like he's the pinnacle of what little good is in this world, Levi can hardly breathe. He kisses him softly.

Erwin's voice, then, is a crude rasp that only he will ever be blessed to hear, barely restrained. "I've got you. I've got you, dove. Put your arms around me."

Levi melts as Erwin's weight presses him down with their bodies irrevocably intertwined. He's between his legs, and as they breathe, from his hips to his chest, he is pressed against him. Levi lets his bent legs rest loose and comfortable outside Erwin's waist, arching blindly into him while Erwin positions his cock. His arms can hardly close around his large frame.

Erwin grips Levi's hip to steady him. "Tell me again if I'm bad at this."

"I'll tell you to..."

The sarcastic quip dies on his tongue as blunt heat and weight dips past his rim. Above all, he's big. Erwin gasps or moans as he pushes in, and his walls stretch around it.

Bigbigbig…

Levi gasps. He's practically sputtering as their sweaty foreheads press together, and they breathe heavily into one another.

It's not as Levi expected, but much, much better. Even now Erwin is considerate of his feelings. He doesn't slam into him with no regard to how intense it is even after all that preparation.

He rocks in and out in slow, shallow movements. From Levi barely holding him inside, to a steady sinking into him. Levi gapes soundlessly as he quivers uncontrollably around him, with Erwin caging in his head, with Erwin slurring praises against his cheek.

“Am I hurting you?”

“Ngh. Mm…”

He's so fucking full. And finally, a long moan streams from his mouth with Erwin's pelvis grinding against his ass, hips squishing together.

"Ah, god." Erwin's fingers clench in the pillow beside his head. "God, Levi. God."

“‘s… good… Good…” he groans. It throbs inside him. "Fuck me."

Erwin speeds up from the offset, hurried as the mask that hid his desperation begins to crumble. He cradles the back of Levi's head so tenderly.

Isn't this better than sex? he finds himself thinking. This pleasure runs deeper than the body. It makes 'love' a cheap term. It doesn't say much that Levi can't come up with a name for it, but he's sure of his instincts in place of what he doesn't know. It's pure, ancient, and with Erwin it's right.

It simply is as Erwin slams into him, and Levi's leg spasms in efforts to raise and bring his cock deeper into him. Erwin snaps his hips gradually, so he doesn't come too fast. He's loud in the tender flesh of his neck, and tense everywhere.

But Levi has him beat with the pitched moans Erwin reels out of him, despite the downright filthy squelching between them. Even the slap of skin against skin. The mattress, creaking. Is he really that loud?

He doesn't have the words, only tears. Shivers that pulse in him and through him each time Erwin pulls out, as his walls drag and cling to it because his body especially wants this.

It begins to confuse him where Levi's lips end and their joined hands begin, or who is tensing and how much. Whose nails drag down the other's back.

He wishes his body wasn't so tired. He can barely hold up his wobbling thighs. Even his core burns from the exertion.

Erwin's ability to read him is a bit more uncanny than usual. He slows to a stop and brings his arm around his shoulders, the other bracing his thigh.

"Hold onto me," says Erwin.

Easy. He whimpers and claws at his back as it shifts inside him with the change in position—Erwin bringing him to straddle his lap so that gravity does the work for them. Levi's hips dip to the bed outside Erwin's hips, parting his legs just about as wide as they can go.

His raw cock is left pinned between his navel and Erwin's muscular middle. Any movement at all delivers a fiery lash of friction that makes his head spin.

But he likes his own helplessness. There's no way to wiggle away or close his legs, leaving him at Erwin's mercy. Erwin who takes care of him.

"There." Erwin's eyes search his own. "Is that better?"

He nods shakily, eyes closing.

It slipped out of him at some point. Levi feels behind himself, curious, breath hitching. He could easily slip four fingers inside his wet and puffy hole.

Their arms brush as Erwin lines his cock up again, probing inside, slipping past Levi's fingers. A sob springs from his chest. His cock stretches him, and fills him up all over again.

"You're perfect," Erwin groans. His warm breath and the words that contained it kiss Levi's face.

"Mph."

Levi bends his back, arching like a cat. It's deeper than before. Somehow impossibility deeper.

He can relax like this too—he doesn't even have to hold himself up, or lift his hips. Erwin holds him in place as he does all the work.

He opens his eyes, and at the same time so does Erwin. The moment couldn't grow more intense when their faces are so close, while their bodies couldn't be closer together. Erwin's brilliant eyes have always been entrancing, and his fixates on them now.

Finally Levi cracks. "Need you to fuck me."

"Ah." Erwin moves in him again, slowly. His eyes fall closed, fighting to open. "I know, but I can't last… when you..." He chuckles, unable to complete the thought.

Levi shivers uncontrollably. This position doesn't let his cock angle away from that firm spot. The one that gives him such pleasure it pierces his very blood.

"Fuck!" he squeaks. "Fuck I can't I can't—Please, please, please…”

Erwin moans, kissing Levi’s plump and gaping bottom lip, and finally the last modicum of Erwin's control is lost.

Erwin's nails dig into his thigh as he pins Levi in place and rams into him with reckless abandon. Any pace he masterfully kept up earlier disappears in a chorus of creaking, and slapping, squelching and noise.

Levi senses Erwin’s impending climax just as much as his own. Tensing and tightening, the frenzied holds, hiccuping gasps, his, his squeals as calls of another's name slurs, the wet clapping bouncing off every wooden wall.

“Levi—! Levi Levi Levi—”

His name, gasped in frantic synchronicity with Erwin’s hips drives him over what edge is left for him.

He cries out, a moan that is just too weak to be more than a whine. It sounds like he’s crying, and he is. He jolts, as tight as a wire, and stuffs his face in Erwin’s neck as cum leaks from his raw cock.

“Oh, good boy—”

Levi cries out.

Tension that begged to escaped every moment he was pleasuring Levi—it pours out of Erwin at the moment his blood turns to fire. For that second his balls tighten up, he’s frozen to gasp, then reel as he pumps rope after rope of his cum inside him.

Levi savors every second, and he can savor several after Erwin restrained himself for so long.

His toes curl until they begin cramping from a different pleasure, of thick heat getting drained inside him, and Erwin’s tight grip as he does, as if he isn’t allowed to twitch away, even while his body tries to stave off the overwhelming fuck. He feeds off the hot, heavy throbbing, and his own quivering deep inside, something else he can’t control. Erwin moans so pretty in his ear.

Towards the end, a full second passes between each harsh thrust, and a low, satisfied grunt bombarding Levi’s mind. Anything else is blank.

When Erwin is finished, Levi collapses against his strong frame. No one moves as the room is filled with the sound of panting.

Erwin is soon to work rubbing the violent shakes from Levi's legs. He slips out of him slowly, but still, he whimpers in his half-asleep state as his cum soon begins to ooze from his hole, down.

“My beautiful love,” he murmurs in his ear. “Does anything hurt?”

He hums mildly, a no. In fact he feels different, good. He doesn't focus on it for long—one doesn't feel the need to over-analyze their instincts.

Erwin is stroking his back now. "Do you feel different, Levi?"

Levi manages to open his bleary eyes over Erwin's shoulder, biting his lip in sympathy. He probably doesn't mean covered in scratches. "Do you dislike it?" he asks.

"No. Not at all."

He closes his eyes. "Me neither."

He feels himself being laid back down. Erwin starts pulling away from him, but he's not having it right now, even to clean up.

Erwin gives in to Levi tugging him back down with an amused huff.

He maneuvers Levi onto his side with the same doll-like ease with how tired he is. He grunts in approval as their legs intertwine. He's sticky and sweating like a pig, but he's shocked that he's too tired and relaxed to care.

“Perfect. My darling. You're amazing... You're the most beautiful person I've ever known,” Erwin murmurs at random.

Levi melts for those words, melting into his arms. It doesn't feel like just words coming from Erwin. Trust in them is so complete that it hurts.

“‘m really tired. But… I feel the same,” he whispers. Levi has to hold his breath to hear himself. He smolders with emotion and an odd embarrassment at hearing himself speak them.

Erwin’s breath trembles when he sighs, an expulsion of emotion. "I'm glad Levi."

Levi nods like a dumbass, realizing he is one as soon as he does it. They don’t say these things during even what he’d define as ‘special’ moments; they don’t say it before they leave on expedition (it would feel too final; a bad omen), but they were expressed their first time together, and here again, at their second.

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[lostcauses-noregrets]

let's forget about the vow for a second and even about erwin. do you think in general levi's character went downhill in s4? for a long time i was strongly against this, i believed people wanted him to still be the same character from s1-3 but it was impossible after everything they went through and i do believe people think hange being the commander means only they were affected by the heavy burden of this new world they discovered but it was just 2 veterans and a handful of kids after rts arc levi and hange must relied on each other heavily. those were my reasons to explain his character in s4 but now that we are watching s4 happen i think isayama was too focused on the rumbling and he lost the natural flow of the story unlike 1-3. characters' dumb decision couldnt only be explained by stress and depression, questionable decisions and all. i wish he found a better way to handle levi's character. what saved levi was his conclusion. best in the entire manga for me. that's a lot of questions im sorry but whatwould happen to erwin if he survived i mean saved by the titan serum? a lot of people believe he'd still be kicking ass but unpopular opinion, everything in the manga indicates that his story and arc would be complete at that basement and after leading everyone to their death surviving would cause more damage to erwin, it's one thing soldiers dying during an expedition and completely different thing leading them to their certain death, promising you'll die alongside them and then surviving. i cant see him being what everyone expects him to be due to his mental state. that's the only reason im glad he died when his character was at his very best, i believe his character would be butchered by isayama in s4.

I’m going to skip over the first part of this ask because it’s basically asking the same questions as the previous ask I’ve just answered. In fact I strongly suspect these are from the same Anon.  (Say hello Anon, don’t be shy!)

So first off, this definitely isn’t an unpopular opinion, there are a lot of people who believe that if Erwin had survived and reached the basement, he would have lost all motivation once he had achieved his dream.  Those who vehemently dislike Erwin tend to argue this is because he is selfish and cared nothing for humanity, only his dream.  Those who love Erwin are more likely to feel that he would be so crippled by guilt that he would sink into the depths of depression.  

Personally I’m inclined to agree that Erwin would have suffered horribly from survivors' guilt for exactly the reasons you said.  However I also think the fact that he had vindicated his fathers theories, and revealed the truth of the world to boot, would have galvanised him into action. I also think that if Erwin had received the serum and the Colossal Titan he would have felt a responsibility to use that power judiciously.  With all that power and knowledge at his disposal I think Erwin would have done everything he was capable of to resolve the conflict between Paradis and the rest of the world, and prevent the rumbling.  

Of course the coda to this is that it depends on whether Levi also survives in this hypothetical “Erwin lives” scenario.  Several writers have seized on Diasuke Ono’s description of Levi as "the last store of Erwin’s humanity", to speculate on what might happen if Erwin lived, but he lost Levi and his humanity.  One of the best explorations of this scenario I’ve read is @huxandthehound's magnificent Like a God, Raged.  My version of Erwin lives / Levi dies is Broken.

You’re right that Erwin’s story arc, as it’s written in the manga, does end with the basement.  Isayama has said (I forget where) that he had always intended for Erwin to die at this point in the story, though of course that’s not the last we see of him.  There are multiple flashbacks and memories of Erwin and he is always, without exception, remembered in a positive light. And of course there’s also the amazing sequence where Erwin and the Veterans welcome Hange to the afterlife.  Far from butchering Erwin’s character, I think Isayama portrays Erwin very sympathetically in the later arcs of the story.

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[ohmytomorrowisthursday]

Until I Fall - Part Twelve

Levi Ackerman x Fem Reader.

Eventual romance but this is a slow burn, definitely angsty and darker. It will also focus a lot on Hange, Erwin and the original scouts. Eren and the 104th training corps will be around but I’m focusing on the older characters in here. Your self insert name is ‘Azeria Becker’ pronouns She/Her/Hers. Using a name because don’t like using ‘y/n’.  

Cannon universe. I wrote this for myself but I hope that you enjoy it, too lol <3

cw: imagine literally every awful/gory thing that happens in SNK. Death, violence and gore. Drinking, sex. (bolded ones in this chapter)

I will be releasing 2 chapters at a time every few days. You can find all chapters here.

The next morning you awoke with the searing dull pain of bruises and cuts across your body. Your muscles were weak and your head felt clunky and cloudy. Overall, the general feeling could be summed up into one word; awful. Still you made your way over to the infirmary to visit Ilse. When you saw her leg bandaged up, relief washed over you. Thank god you’re alive. “Ilse!” You exclaimed, making your way over to her as fast as you could. “Azeria!” She exclaimed back and the two of you hugged. If everyone else had to die, at least you knew you had her. It was the best feeling that you had felt in a long time.

“Im so happy you’re okay,” you muffled into her, hugging her as tight as your body could hold her. “I’m so glad you’re okay, too. I didn’t know what happened when you all left for wall Maria” She replied.

“Ilse,” you choked on your words and began crying, “It’s awful. We’ve lost the entire land of Wall Maria. Thousands are dead and missing. I have no idea what we’ll do.”

She held you tighter, “I’m sorry I couldn’t be there to help. That’s awful.”

You caught your breath and looked out into the distance, “It’s okay. We will take it back.” You wondered if you would ever believe that yourself.

“Are you hurt at all?” She asked.

“Yeah, I got a nasty concussion. It feels like my head is full of water.” You sat at the edge of her bed, “How’s the leg?”

She smiled back to you, “it’s alright. Broken, but that’s fixable. I’ll just need to rest for a while.”

“Ilse, did anyone else from our class make it?” She frowned, her eyes lowered down and she shook her head, “It’s just the two of us.”

Your face fell solemn. Although, unlike yesterday, the pain felt like numbness. You had cried all of the tears that you had in your body last night; there was nothing left but exhaustion. You looked her in the eyes, “Were going to stick together from now on. Same squad; always.” She smiled and nodded back at you, “Always.”

You lifted yourself from her bedside, “I have to go, I’ll come visit you again tomorrow.” She gave you a wave, “You better!”

The infirmary was crowded. You hadn’t realized just how many of the soldiers were injured. And what horrified you more was the fact that this was everyone who was left after the expedition. It was only your squad who was left relatively uninjured. You walked across headquarters and wandered over to Hange’s office. Their door was ajar and you could see papers scattered across their desk. “Morning,” you said, knocking on the door. They lifted their head up from reading and smiled at you. You could tell that they were tired, so were you. “Good morning, Azeria! You’re finally up!”

“Just barely,” You smiled, “Can I come in? Or are you busy?” You chewed your lip.

“No, come sit! I love company,” They gestured to the chair across from them and you wandered over, groaning in pain as you sat down. “Getting crushed by titans will do that to you,” They laughed.

“Tell me about it,” you groaned, “How are you holding up?”

They adjusted their glasses, looking around the room with an unreadable face, “Physically? Fine. Although, it has been tough. We took a lot of losses and there’s so much to do now. Paperwork and duty wise and also in regards to some other things that have been bothering me.”

“I’m more than happy to help,” You offered. You really just wanted to get back to work and get your mind off of everything. Being bored was just giving you more time to be sad, and you didn’t want to think on it anymore.

Hange smiled back at you, “I’m sure I can think of some things that you can help me with.”

It made you over the moon happy that they’d let you help them. You looked down at the papers scattered across the table. It was titan information that the Survey Corps had collected; heights of different titans, kills, data on where attacks occurred. Why was Hange looking at this stuff?

“What are you reading?” You asked, your brows furrowed as you searched the papers. “Our information on titans. There’s still so much that we don’t know about them,” They replied. You looked around at the papers.

“Hange,” you started, “Somethings been bothering me since the expedition.” They met your eyes, “What’s been on your mind?”

“Well, I know that we can get abnormals that come around when we go on expeditions, but there were so many that came towards us. Plus, I heard about the Colossal titan that appeared and broke the wall yesterday. It feels… strange.” You said. Hange was focused and deep in thought.

“I agree. I’ve been doing this for a while and I’ve never seen anything like this before. There’s been some bloody massacres of our troops but not with abnormals, and who knows what the Colossal and Armour titan are. I’ve never even heard of anyone spotting them before.” You looked at them, they were puzzling down at the scattered notes, searching for something. “Is that why you pulled all of these notes out?” You asked.

“Oh- no. Actually, I’ve had something on my mind, too. When we were out there fighting, I killed one of the ten meters; this big huge titan. But when the head fell, I noticed that it was incredibly light. Far lighter than it’s size would suggest. It made me wonder; how can it be so light and so strong? How can the colossal vanish in thin air with all of that steam? We know so little about them. I really want to try and observe them more.”

You paused and thought hard before you spoke next. “… What if we could capture them alive?” You asked. Hange’s face turned into a smile, “That’s what I’m thinking. We’d need to build something to use that could capture them, and we don’t have any technology that would be able to do so right now.”

Before you could stop, the words fell out of your mouth. “I-I can try and help with that,” stop talking, Azeria, “I was educated as a mechanic before I joined the Scouts. I’m sure that I can make use of some of that knowledge for this.”

Hange leaned back and regarded you with a puzzled look on their face, “I don’t understand. If you have this engineering experience, why didn’t you become a mechanic? Why did you want to join the Survey Corps?”

They must have seen the surprise on your face as they asked the question. You didn’t know how to find the words to explain yourself. How do I tell you that I hate who I am sometimes?

“Well,” you spoke, “I never wanted to be a mechanic. It was my parents business in the interior and we did a lot of work for the Military Police. I told them that after training I’d be an MP so that I could work in the interior and see them all of the time. But I lied. I really just wanted to be in the Survey Corps, I want to set people free. I’ve always hated the idea that while I’m living this happy, safe life behind all of those walls, there are people’s whose homes are under threat every day. I can’t sleep at night knowing I’m not making the world better. I just want to protect people. And if I can use some of my knowledge from my time working for my family? Well that’s just a bonus, I guess.”

Hange softened their face and smiled at you “I think that we’re going to get along.” You smiled back. You hadn’t told anyone about your past since training. It felt nice.

“Okay,” they cleared their throat. “Let’s propose this to Erwin tomorrow. For now, if you want to help, there’s a pile of letters to be sent off to family members. Do you mind sorting it and sending it with carriers to the right town?”

“Consider it done,” You smiled, “Thank you Hange. I can’t wait to get started.”

Hange beamed back at you, “Me too.”

chapter thirteen

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[malexthesecond]

i finally figured out what attack on titan does right

i've been re-watching the show recently and for the longest time I could tell it was good, but could never tell what it was. but a re-watch really opened my eyes starting off, the foreshadowing oh my god the foreshadowing. ALL OF THE AOT SPOILERS AHEAD don't continue if you don't want the anime spoiled (i wont spoil the manga, since I'm primarily discussing the show here, but some of my points will apply to both since the manga is equally amazing). There are so many fucking examples of subtle and not-so-subtle foreshadowing it's insane. Here's a few - The camera pans to Reiner and Bertolt a number of times when other characters are discussing the armoured and colossal titans -Armin figures out that the female titan wants Eren, while not specifically mentioning it until several episodes later. This leads to him yelling about how she killed "that suicidal maniac" when she did not, which causes her to pause, further foreshadowing that she wants Eren. -Reiner carves a message into the female titan's hand when he is "captured". pointed out later but still cool - Reiner takes a specific interest in eren's location in the scouting formation. also pointed out later but still awesome - you can SEE Reiner and Bertolt going to bite their hand as the tower at utgard castle begins to fall before ymir saves them - Reiner and Bertolt are in awe at the beast titan, multiple episodes before they are revealed to be titans themselves There's so much more, but I could go on all day if I talked about them all. Foreshadowing is a fucking great technique, especially in shows, as it allows you to rewatch them and gives the plot such a suspenseful feeling, and attack on titan uses it extraordinarily well Another reason aot is so great is due to the way it treats combat and mortality. Death is such a prevalent theme in the show that you feel that all characters are mortal, even seemingly invincible characters like miche and erwin have such fucking horrendous and emotive deaths that it gives the feeling of uncertainty and suspense throughout the entire show. miche's stands out to me in particular due to the absolutely harrowing screams he emits being torn apart by titans and his fear in the face of the beast titan. He's determined to succeed, but in the end determination means nothing, which is typical in other places in attack on titan like in Eren's entire character, where he is determined, but not actually all that skilled until later on. Attack on titan treats combat better than any piece of media I've ever seen. Sure, combat can be badass and cool and in attack on titan, it sure as shit is. You don't have to look much further than Levi's fight with the beast titan or Eren fighting Annie in titan form to figure that out. But it also treats it differently to other shows. Victories are almost always pyrrhic or there is an absolutely disastrous defeat. Most of the time, during battle, a named character is injured or outright killed and the effects of that on the characters are shown. Armin's guilt for being revived over Erwin, Eren's guilt because so many people died to save him at the start of season 3 and Levi's obvious despair upon seeing his whole squad wiped out are prime examples. But where how it portrays combat really shines is in the soundtrack. AOT has a brilliant soundtrack for intense battles, tracks like xl-tt, You see big girl and ashes on the fire are amazing and really add to the scenes they're used in. But attack on titan occasionally switches what music should be where, with tragic scenes like Levi finding Levi Squad dead having ətˈæk 0N tάɪtn play in the background, an intense orchestral track, and Vogel Im Kafig, another more intense track at its end playing when Eren is inside a titan's stomach. It highlights desperation but also the tragic nature of combat, where it must continue despite a character's emotions. anyway im done being a nerd bye

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[koulakoukoula2003]

omgomgomg i am screaming (i am the anon who sent the rivetra ask) omg i never thought I'd meet someone who exactly had the same ideas as me omg i am freaking out hahahahhaaahha

ok first of all, 'no, I could've loved you so much more' is the perfect amount of pain i need omg that scene is so beautiful like heartbreakingly beautiful

and second, the choices you wrote on the last part i thought of it tooo!!!! Like everything, exactly the way i imagined!!! So imagine my excitement when I read it and finding out that we were thinking exactly the same omg!!!!! anyhoo, personally of all those choices, i'd like to combine the first and second one. Like Petra for some circumstances that i haven't thought of yet ends up being in the UNDERGROUND, working in a BROTHEL in order to FEND for her and HER SON. Imagine how Levi would feel when he finds out and realizes that this is like his childhood all over again. Like the nightmare he got out of, his son is now living it. And the hell his mother went through, the woman he loves is now suffering in it. Imagine his regret and the pain and the angst and this, i am squealing omg. But that's just for me. I'd also be very thrilled to read it your way. <3

Anyway i apologize for rambling too much about rivetra, but i really do appreciate you and i am very thankful that you indulge me in my angst cravings :)

OMG ANON LMFAO fewjrhgiu3oiq JFC I THOUGHT OF THAT TOO when I had just posted my previous reply to your ask I was like hmmmm why not both LMFAO

You, ma’am/sir/x, are a person of exquisite taste. You are a sadomasochistic little angel (like me) who loves torturing characters and crying over their torment at the same time LMFAO

Honestly having Levi going through this entire déjà vu, Petra going through the same shit his mom did and the same shit HE went through, now his son going through it as well like WE’RE GONNA BREAK THIS MAN SO BAD LMFAO

Ok ok ok ok imma write it like this. The heartbreaking scene happens (glad you like the dialogue, I use it in all my fics cuz im not creative at all and im out of ideas LMAO) and when she wakes up, she leaves him anyway (retiring and giving him the engagement ring and leaving).

Now, I gotta figure out why in the world would Petra wind up in the Underground 🤔🤔🤔 maybe she got abducted by some Underground crime lord that had beef with Levi and after finding out that Levi was engaged, he wanted to avenge him somehow, so he abducted his fiancé and put her in his ‘business’ 🤔🤔🤔

I GOT IT, I GOT IT, after Levi became a thug in the Underground, he went and found that brothel that his mom once worked in and he killed the owner of that entire business and freed the women who worked there. The owner of that business had a brother who rebuilt the business and wanted to avenge his brother’s death (whomst Levi had killed) so he abducted Levi’s fiancé.

I mean, I know Petra can def fight and fend for herself, but if she has no gear, no weapons at all and she’s surrounded by many many strong men that are twice her size, there’s really not much that she can do. Maybe she even tells them that Levi doesn’t care about her and that abducting her wouldn’t hurt him at all, but of course they don’t listen and they take her anyway while she’s actually pregnant to Levi’s child.

Goddammit anon, we’re evil as fuck LMFAO I love ppl like you, you know, we understand how important pain and struggle is in a story, because if there’s no pain and no struggle, then there is no story 🤷‍♀️it is that simple.

Ok imma write it like this (you probably got the entire thing spoilt) but TYSM for helping me figure it out, honestly, I had no idea what to do with Levi and Petra that’s why I kept them in the background (honestly i also kept it in the background cuz some rivetra fans are crazy af and i wanted no interaction with them but fuck it we die like men), but now I do know what to do AND IT’S THANKS TO YOU, ANON 🥰🥰🥰🥰

Hell, I might actually enjoy the rivetra of it more than the Erwin x OC LMFAO cuz the angst is stronger over there

Lemme know if I make you cry when I post those chapters COMMENTS HELP ME A LOT PLS. Those chapters will be exclusively rivetra bonus chapters and I’ll let y’all know by adding to the title of the chapter the word BONUS (I do it with all my fics).

Of course, that depends on me and my fight against writer’s block it.has.taken.me.two.days.to.finish.a.chapsklmdjdvngti3

also my buddy @shrekisshrimpthesimp wanted you to see this LMAO ENJOY THE PAIN I KNOW U LOVE IT WE ALL DO

#rivetra #levi ackerman x petral ral #levi ackerman #petra ral #come and read my fic and COMMENT ON IT #for the love of god pls comment LMAO

[swagging-back-to]

besties just hear me out.. hear me out for a second.

Voltron x attack titan cross over aus. Mainly the voltron cast thrown into the plot of attack titan.

Just hear me out! this is mostly just me figuring out the au so it's rambly as all hell. there's TWO versions of this i want to explore. both are klance btw because DUH.

It wouldnt be a 1:1 crossover because obv. and It'd be lance centric obv cause he's my boy. So Lance --> eren.

Hunk fits armin's role almost perfectly. hunk is a relatively curious type of guy, takes punches with grace and doesnt hit back out of kindness--not out of weakness.

Pidge is hanji reimagined, basically. Although she's technically younger than lance and hunk, this au would make her slightly older than them. I'd lessen the age gap between senior officers and new recruits by a couple years so the difference isnt so intense. Coran would also occupy some aspects of hanji's character, but very loosely. He's like a bridge between hanji and erwin--silly but also holds more authority than the paladins.

Erwin could be occupied by allura. I dont think this one requires much elaboration.

Shiro would be Levi's character (even tho im canon ereri, im willing to change my preferred dynamics for the au.) this is mainly because Shiro is always tired, and responsible for a bunch of kids, and i know having to beat the shit out of any of his kids would tear him apart (referencing the court scene.)

so who would occupy misas actual role??? keith, of course. "BUT WAIT, MISA AND EREN DONT GET TOGETHER IN CANON?" i hear you saying, but luckily this isnt a 1:1 au. Misa and eren butt heads (LITERALLY) multiple times, misa is a badass killing machine, misa is an orphan, misa admires eren and eren is envious of misa. It literally just works for this au.

Moblit's character can be filled by coran and hunk collectively and at the same time that the two are occupying other character roles.

The galrans would probably be molded to fit into the marleyans, but i dont really care who becomes who. I feel like Lotor being Zeke just kinda makes sense, though. Zethrid would be reiner, ezor would fill berthold's shoes simply because of how close she is with zethrid. Axca is DEFINITELY 100% annie. that leaves narti as pieck. IDK about the war hammer and jaw titans, though. Not even a single clue. Maybe Haggar could have the war hammer, seeing as she never actually joins the fight if she has any chance of losing (like a coward) and always fights from far off the battlefield. genuinely no clue for ymir though.

Alternate idea; Pidge could also fit armin's role, simply because of both their intelligences. I debated having pidge fill misa's role because her familys death would drive her to become a badass fighting machine, but i feel like she doesnt fit the role as perfectly as i'd like...

So, although pidge technically embodies some aspects of misa's character, and hunk represents armin's character, i think the living situations could be reversed. On one hand it would be funny if lance and pidge squabbled like misa and eren do in canon, but i genuinely cant see pidge fretting over lance like a mother hen. That's why i think hunk should be the one taken in by the ''jaegers'' instead of pidge. Pidge's father and maybe matt would occupy the role that armin's grandfather had.

#wips

[rekikiri]

okay long vent skip this if you don’t want the negativityyy you are warned now. im not looking for negative discourse, I just am frustrated. this is also kinda just word vomit so it may not make total sense or be vague but 🤷‍♀️

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why do people feel so compelled to shit on other people’s ships? especially publicly.

like, if you dislike a ship and want to shit talk them, please do it in the DMs. meet people who either 1) don’t care you want to talk about them 2) agree with you.

I really hate seeing people spreading hate about a ship especially in a way that you’ll frequently see it when you search for that ship.

if you think a ship is genuinely toxic (ie, adult/minor), I think that can be fine. for example, langa/adam. I think discussing it is fine as long as your arguments are ABOUT the ship and not targeted hate to a person.

but for the love of god why does it matter to you what other people like? and why do you feel compelled to try to force others to like your ship over theirs?

AOT SPOILERS SKIP TO THE EMOJI 🌻 IF YOU CARE TO CONTINUE

i’ve been seeing this a bit with levihan vs eruri and honestly? I love both. idc I love both. I saw some people arguing, “if erwin were still alive he’d not care as much about hange” and that ? is so shitty ? that’s totally invalidating the friendship they’ve had throughout the entire series. you can think he’d favor erwin, idc, but why must you shit on the potential platonic relationship between characters to further the narrative of them being a couple?

and even if that WERE the case, why must you insist on him essentially only being close to hange because he lost someone else? people can move on and meet other people/strengthen bonds between others after losing someone else, does that invalidate the love he’d have for them? if someone irl lost a partner they cared deeply for, is the next person they get with suddenly not able to be as important to them? are they always going to be “second rate”? NO.

after hange’s death, is levi supposed to just see everyone he’s friends with as being replacements for erwin and hange? no. that’s ridiculous. new people are just that, new relationships. they’re not replacements to the ones you lost. that’s not how it works.

🌻🌻🌻

I can’t think of many that fit that dynamic right now but other scenarios I see a lot.

bakudeku vs kiribaku. im not a bakudeku shipper, but guess what? you can like it! I don’t care as long as you’re not trying to force others to change their mind or hating shippers of other pairings (using kiribaku because that’s what I interact most with).

I love the platonic relationship developing between bakugo and deku. I love it! I love fics that include them being close, basically developing a sibling like relationship. and you can write your ships however you want in fanfic, but why do so many people insist on undermining the development they had to push the kiribaku (or vice versa).

close friendships exist and idk why so many people hate on deku to push kiribaku, or try to hate on kirishima for being best friends with bakugou. you can have a best friend and a partner (or even two best friends! it’s possible!)

I thankfully don’t see that much because I surround my online presence with people who are respectful but holy shit why is hating on other characters friendships/characters themselves so common? just like your ships and keep the negativity to yourself and your friends. why is that so hard?

[universallychaoticpan]

hey hey, i hope you’re feeling ok, i know a lot is going on and its tough, but hopefully we can all get through this together. 💗

on another note, i was wondering if you would mind writing a part 2 of the parental levi x reader? i found it super endearing and sweet. im not sure what base to follow so ill give you creative liberty.

once again i hope you’re ok and that you have a lovely day.

Hello, and thank you; I hope you're doing well yourself :)

And I wouldn't mind at all. On the contrary, really; I've been a bit low on ideas lately and requests are fun to write so I hope you enjoy. Also sorry this took so long my week has been absolute insanity lol

<333

"You," he sighed, "have a strange penchant for injuring yourself." As if to prove his point, Levi pressed the warm rag against the raw skin of the nasty gash tearing over your shoulder. "This'll leave a scar when it heals so-"

"So I'll look even more badasss?"

Stopping, you turned to meet his dark eyes, his un-amused face challenging your smirk.

"I mean it, y/n, you can't keep being this reckless with your life."

You shrugged, wincing as the motion reminded you of your still open skin. "I think commander Erwin would disagree; heart and lives for the cause and all that."

"I don't care what commander Erwin thinks; somehow, against all my better judgement I care about you and I won't let you die that easily. So let go of your damn death wish before it actually ends up killing you because I swear y/n, death itself won't be able to save you from me if you go and die. Now hold still, I need to stitch this up."

For once, you listened; you sat in the patch of later afternoon sun that stretched across the wooden floor, wincing as you felt the stitches pulling your skin back together. And the more you sat, Levi's hands moving from your back over your shoulder and around to your collarbone, the more you felt a melancholy gratitude growing inside of you. His careful movements almost brought you to tears; when his skin slipped across yours, gingerly and gentle, it made you feel as though something were breaking inside you. Like gold was now spilling from the cracks opening, chasms of light splitting your heart as the comfort of Levi's presence healed more than just your battered body.

And as for Levi himself, he found that he quite enjoyed the natural rhythm you had found; he liked how you shifted before he told you he needed you to, and how you seemed to adjust your body to his slightest movement without a word. He liked how the silence in the room was nowhere near prickly; it was a simple pleasure to listen to the sounds of your breathing and the rustle of the breeze through the open window as summer slid its way inside. When he finally looked at your face again, though, he felt his heart drop. There were tears in your eyes and rolling down the soft swells of your cheeks. He had thought you'd be ok with the pain so he didn't think to ask if you were alright and now you were crying and dammit this was what he got for trying to help you.

Instead of moving away from him, though, like he thought you would, you let yourself sink into him; you let your body relax into his, your breathing evening out as your head landed on his chest. There didn't need to be anything romantic about it; it was easy and sweet and he found that it didn't scare him as much as he thought it would when he pulled your sheets over your legs. You were asleep in seconds, your body slung over his as he rested against the wall, trailing his hands over the pristine white covers. It would have been so easy to leave then; to slip out and go on with his day and then see you whenever you decided to wake up.

But he didn't.

He stayed and closed his eyes and while he was not intending to sleep, he was content to enjoy the peace of the day. He was simply enjoying you.

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It went without saying that Hange had no intention of waking you when they stumbled upon you both later.

Of course, it also goes without saying that they summoned a very amused commander Erwin in the next ten seconds.

And finally, neither needed to say a word about two things: one, that they would never mention to Levi what they had seen. And two...

they were happy to see him that way. They were happy you had given that to him. And they were happy that there was still someone in the world who could offer that.

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