#im nervous! but also very happy

[beamiesbuddies]

Part 1: A Dream of the Trees

He is known by many names- Prince of Stories, Shaper, Lord Morpheus, Dream of the Endless - but many a child 'round the world hearing stories at bedtime know him simply as The Sandman.

It's my pleasure to share this project with you after sitting on it for so long! The Sandman (Neil Gaiman) is a profoundly important & personal piece of literature to me, & Mr. Dream such an important figure, I absolutely needed to bring him into the waking world. I worked, reworked & re-reworked on my interpretation of him until finally saying "done!" in December of 2022.

I learned so much about what I could accomplish sculpting with fabric, I'm very proud of him & love him terribly. I really hope you will enjoy him too!

(more photos to come!)

#the sandman #dream of the endless #dolls #beamies buddies #it feels weird to share him after keeping him secret so long #like ive been hiding a secret lovechild in my attic and now im confessing him to you #im nervous! but also very happy #i have so much to say and share about the making of this doll that perhaps i can make a 'behind the scenes/making of' post #but that is for another day! i hope you like him and i want you to know i tuck him in and give him a smoochie every day #cloth dolls #crafts #handmade dolls #also fyi he is approx 3 feet tall :)

[scryillo]

playing too sweet by hozier on loop and they got summoned

#vashwood #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #vw #sketch #scrib: linkings #so anyway very sorry for no art posting here im still trying to figure out what i want to post and for a while after the big 98 peice i was #nervous about posting unfinished stuff but im super happy with how loose this felt to draw! #this is vaguely brainstorming for my podcaster vash au. note to future self too sweet goes in whatever brainstorming playlist i have for #that au. also including creatures in heaven by ga but for a different scene.... the scene in the au is gonna be more pining than this but. #wahoo!

[moomeecore]

here's that essay i accidently hyped up (sorry) on how fionna & cake did a poor job of concluding betty & simons characters + story in the final 2 episodes. sorry it is so insanely long. i don't know what my deal is. sometimes a show just does such a bad job of handling your favorite characters that you have to write 19k+ words complaining about it, i guess. im linking it as a pdf bc i DO NOT want to have 2 copy & paste this all over to tumblr & i kinda don't think tumblr would be happy with me making a post that long.

#if it sucks uhm. be nice to me pls 👉👈 #ik im very snarky & kinda harsh in this but like. i rlly dont usually share my thoughts on media like this much #im ok w hearing rebuttals btw. but also its not likley youll change my mind #im really happy other ppl enjoyed this ending (& also kinda jealous) #but i very definitely. dont like it #not just from a personal standpoint but in that #i just genuinely think the portrayal of simon & betty was done really poorly #things r bolded + theres random section titles that interupt the flow #bc even tho i wrote this much i do genuinely have reading comprehension issues #as in the actual definition of poor reading comprension. due to disability #not the tumblr thing where its for some reason used to mean ' bad at understanding media ' sometimes #oh yea also the font is big bc of this too #im nervou s abt this but too late now ig #fionna and cake spoilers #im not putting it in the tags its 4 the ppl who already know abt it #its emberassing that i wrote all this but i think its worse if i dont share it bc then i just. have it #mmmm..worst part is i dont even cover everything. i have MORE complaints #text

[alexparozi]

lacenet :) (<- mentally deranged individual) (me)

#you have no idea how hard they are to draw not because of actual drawing but because- #everytime i do i need to stop for a 5 minute stim session becayuse of how fucckifjngng happy they make me #help im actually nervous to post this like i always feel like im gonna do touchey lovey stuff wrong somehow #also i never know if anatomy is good on my drawings ill be very hoenst i dont use refrences and i wing it thats the yolo artstyle #hollow knight #lacenet #hollow knight gijinka #hk hornet #hk lace #silksong #hollow knight fanart #sofmof #parozi gijinkas

[nocturnalnewsiestrash]

There are two types of Bottoms (2023) rewatches (for me at least)

Or

#lets play a game of guess which one i am in tonight 🥹 #spoiler its not the first one #isokay though im managing it well *well being a relative term for my usual amount of my panic attack management system #bottoms 2023 #bottoms movie #the amount of giggly smiling tricks my brain into thinking we're actually feeling happy and in a giggly mood #and the unhingedness gives my empathetic nervous system a chance to redirect its focus onto THEIR issues instead of #mine and then suddenly my brain has realized we're not in immediate danger #and boom we've got a perfect panic disorder management strategy for me #the other type of rewatch is also very fun. trust. Especially when I'm introducing it to my other sapphic friends. so much glee #and unintelligible thoughts. giggly unintelligible thoughts #anyhoo here you all go :))

[smithsparker]

family dinner

Sokka had been so excited for today, and he was convinced everything would be fine. But it was not fine. Actually, it was horrible. And the worst part was that it wasn’t even that bad. No, Sokka realised, his father and his boyfriend were just extremely stupid.

or, zuko thinks hakoda hates him. hakoda thinks zuko hates him. sokka is so tired.

[read on ao3]

written for @zukkaweek day one: modern au | family drama

#* #my writing #zukkaweek2023 #atla #avatar: the last airbender #zukka #zuko #sokka #zukka fic #hi guys im scared <3 #i don't think i really love this fic i think its not very well written #i also kind of rushed it because i just didnt really know what to do with it #(and it needed to be finished Today lmao) #but i still like it! first atla fic thats so cool #also first zukka week! lets fucking go!! #also. i use 'hate' in the summary but its really not that serious theyre just a bit dumb (and nervous) #so dont worry guys its a rlly happy fic! #ok thats enough rambling bye im turning my phone off so i dont check notifs too often <3 #*zukkaweek23 #zukka week 23 #*atlafic

[sukibenders]

Being a woc fan of Bridgerton can be a struggle, especially when it comes to liking the poc characters on the show, especially the woc. Like I remember when s1 came out and the blatant microaggressions and just plain racism coming from this fandom was atrocious. You had people spewing very hateful things about Charlotte, Marina, and Simon and undermining the latter two's pain and trauma at the hands of the white characters---Marina was treated terribly by the Featheringtons and, whether you like Penelope or not, you cannot deny that she also played a part by releasing that letter to the Ton and Simon was violated Daphne no matter how people try to spin the story to offer her some form of sympathy (it still blows my mind that people would want to though).

S2 is just as bad (not even including how they changed the Sharma family's storyline than how it was in the books when that wasn't necessary) and the racist undertones many of the fans have towards Mary and Edwina (as well as Kate but for her it's carries more brown woman needing to be saved by a white man when Anthony is involved because a lot of you all in the fandom are quick to use this trope such as "oh, he's the only one who truly knows her"). The lack of screen time for this family really ends up hurting them to but even with that, whether you like Mary and Edwina or not, it would be a lie to deny the racism a lot in the fandom hold towards them (and how that falls onto the actresses because it was very apparent how many in the fandom couldn't let two Desi women shine without having to bring down the other and Netflix played into that too for drama) and paints every small thing they do as being terrible crimes but in the same breath will not have the same smoke for the Bridgertons, who have their own set of problems (but because they are also the main family, among other things, they are provided more grace without consequences).

#bridgerton #edwina sharma #kate sharma #mary sharma #marina thompson #queen charlotte #simon basset #like fandoms can be a very hostile place especially toward poc #and don't even get me started on some fans acting like they care about the poc characters but only still fall into the tropes i presented #im nervous for how this post will be received bc ngl when people call out the racist antics in bridgerton people love to downplay it #and that's just not right (for any fandom) #and this impacts actors too bc there should be no reason that charithra can hardly be excited about her role in the show #or how ruby had received so much hate that (probably) as a result had two breakdowns #on top of still being asked by polin and pen fans to denounce marina to uplift their white faves #dni if you can't have a calm conversation here #also seeing the creator of the show say for s3 kathony that there won't be as much angst #more happy couple scenes irks me in a way bc that amount of angst didn't have to flood s2 if they weren't so concerned with pointless drama #like the books themselves gave enough angst without the engaged to your sister plotline and such #also would have made anthony seem like less of a prick and actually respect a woman's honor but nope #don't even get me started on how it seems more common for the poc characters to have to gripe and struggle #(especially with things that....they should not be blamed for) at the hands of or as result of white characters #when in the same breath that courtesy isn't extended to said white characters #(e.g. marina having to push colin in pen's direction even though both failed her #to simon begin assaulted and then blamed for it by daphne and the narrative #to kate having to move mountains to grow (even though for most part she wasn't wrong) but don't even see anthony apologize for his actions) #all the actors especially the woc experience racism (and other forms of discrimination) from this fandom #i haven't even gotten into the shitshow from some fans towards simone and the actor who plays simon #as well as the racism the actresses for queen charlotte faced #a lot of yall need to do better

[beannary]

I love your little prince au!

It's so interesting to see Big Mama being so caring, until little lines like ''It is only with my help that you can be your best self'' and you just see how manipulative she is to poor Donnie

Can't wait for the next part!!

im so glad that youre liking the au so far! and im so happy that like big mama is coming off as both like caring but ultimately manipulative because that is exactly the vibe im going for!

#answered asks #anonymous asks #bean babbles #tlp au #the little prince separated au #im also excited to see the next part #it should be fun! #rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt donatello #tmnt donnie #tmnt donatello #rottmnt separated au #tmnt separated au #also im very happy that you sent this because ive been so nervous about like how ive been writing big mama #like i have such a clear vision for her in this au but i have very little confidence in my writing skills so i keep like #editing lines over and over before i post the pages

[puhpandas]

I keep thinking about how on earth they would canonize ggy bc like. at this point if they have to sacrifice Gregory screentime of just him to make something we already know actually canon, I would rather just take the screentime, but on the other hand they have to canonize it if they want to do anything at all with that plotline, and that makes me wonder if theyll stick with it as canon in the games at all or just leave it as background knowledge if u read the book 😭

#like i love ggy just as much as the nezt person and go crazy at how canon it is but not yet #but also i like gregory a lot more and ggy isnt the only reason hes my favorite #gregory was my favorite for a whole year before ggy even came out #i want him as a person to be developed more than his ggy plot when we already know its real #but gregory himself desperately needs more time focused on his character to tell us more about him #maybe give some context to some of his decisions #best case scenario honestly is Gregory has a protagonist plotline where it showcases his character and relationships with others #as the game progresses naturally with dialogue and stuff (freddy and vanessa being his guides or something) #with the focus being saving cassie #but as the game reaches its climax gregory realises for some reason or another that apparently he was ggy and did all those things #and was the mimics fave #but its established he had amneisa before security breach so he didnt remember and still doesnt #he just knows he did it and has to deal #so it doesnt completely take over everything else about his character #and then whatever happens at the end of that game has cassie saved and joining 3 star #who GOT DEVELOPMENT in this hypothetical #like idk i want ggy to be canon but i dont want it to overtake gregory #yknow what i mean #it should be background to him not the other way around #vanessa and cassie already have that big main possession plotline #pandas.txt #tbh if they replace gregorys backstory with something equally interesting I'll be ok with no game ggy #we already have a whole book to mess around with i wouldn't mind it being a little au even tho i know it isnt #its VERY canon and ill 100% be alright and happy w game ggy #but im nervous for how they would establish it in a game if at all #with how much gregory needs screentime just as a character and if he'd need to wait even longer after a ggy reveal #thoughts #gregory

[feral-and-or-horny]

Would it be in poor taste to start talking about my newfound knife/gore kink on the ides of march?

#its a weak connection i admit #but my comfort level with this new kink is still at the point where i feel like i can only talk about it as a joke #also i recognize its a harder kink and i want my followers to have some awareness before i start *actually* posting it #ive got a very nice ask relating to it that ive been too nervous to answer yet 😅 #but yall are welcome to send ideas 👉👈 #im still figuring out my limits though so i cant promise my answers will be as thorough as usual #anyway #happy ides of march #my post

[no0t2]

i just wanna say, my tumblr mutuals, friends. i follow u for ur art, not for the media in the art. if ur drawing something i didn't follow u for after a while, it's okay, keep drawin bud i wanna see ur style flourish. even if i have no idea what is pictured in the art!! it makes me happy that even if someone doesn't know the thing i drew exactly, they still support my art. so i wanna do the same

don't feel pressured to keep drawing the same thing over and over just cos ur trying to satisfy a number of your followers. it's ur blog, u can do what u want with it.

#nines rambles #ngl im partly also saying this to myself #bcs i get nervous about drawing oc art #as it doesn't get as much recognition as my fanart #which is normal of course #it makes me very happy to see people like my oc art though #or just miscellaneous pieces i make #thank u :)

[jezterbellz]

wish me luck I’m taking my stimulant meds for the first time today

#Im very nervous #but im also like #very happy to be addressing this #maybe itll work maybe not #im at work taking this #stimulants #adhd #adhd meds #adult adhd #jezter says

[stormyoceans]

some ppl think it would be bad for last twilight to be airing at the same time as OF what do you think? i'm scared i want ppl to give them a chaaaance

I REALLY DO UNDERSTAND EVERYONE'S WORRIES ABOUT THIS TBH

after what happened with vice versa i think what we all want the most is for last twilight and jimmysea to be given a chance without the constant comparison with other series or other actors, which is definitely gonna be hard if the show airs at the same time as such a popular one like only friends

the way i see it tho, there really is no perfect time for last twilight to come out. even if it aired when there were no other BLs around, if someone doesn't want to watch it or only wants to criticize it regardless of whether it's actually good or bad, nothing is gonna stop them

i think the best thing we can do is spread as much positivity and excitement as possible, maybe promoting the show in our own small way, and then just hope that the story and jimmysea's talent are gonna be able to pull everyone in and make even the most reticent of people who don't care about them change their mind

WE'RE MANIFESTING LAST TWILIGHT ENORMOUS SUCCESS!!!!!!! WE'RE PUTTING ENOUGH POSITIVE SEXY ENERGIES OUT INTO THE WORLD THAT GMMTV WON'T HAVE A CHOICE BUT TO KEEP JIMMYSEA BOOKED AND BUSY AND TO GIVE US MORE DIVERSE SHOWS!!!!!!!!!!

#look at me sounding all chill and cool when im pretty nervous about that too ;;;;;;; #but in my head an october release would pretty much be a confirmation of jimmysea having another series in 2024 #ALSO I JUST NEED MORKDAY IN MY LIFE NOW #and!!!! vice versa ended on october 1 last year so if last twilight started on october 1 this year that would be POETIC CINEMA #(and my birthday is in october AND it's falling on a sunday so. having an episode on the same day would make me very selfishly happy ;;;;;) #okay im shutting up now #last twilight the series #m: ask

[analogboii]

definitely gonna use visiting my parents this weekend to my advantage. aka my dads garage. holy shit it sucks not having somewhere to work on my car. my plan is to kidnap all my dads mechanic tools to just really work on my car. i gotta fix the ac compressor first and foremost. probably go ahead and do my rear breaks. i know i still got some left but might as well get it out of the way cause i have the part. THEN im gonna tint my windows and detail my car 😌 give him a good scrub inside and out. homeboy needs it.

its been a while since ive just worked on my car and i always enjoy it so im finna relax and not think about work for four days.

#i mean i wish i was visiting for a better reason than multiple funerals but here we are #gonna just distract myself by spending some time with my nephew and baby sister #i also finally get to meet my sisters gf which im VERY excited about #shes done so much for my sister snd nephew so im glad ill get to see her #my sister is nervous i wont end up liking her but at the same time sje knows ill like her #since im technically the one that raised her ive got that 'you have to meet the parent as the final test' status #but as long as shes happy and buggy seems to like her #anyway im rambling

[jokest3r]

Hey there! I hope you have OC interactions open so, may I ask how Matvey would feel about Captain Arjun? ☺️

Hiya !

Matvey's typically avoidant around his superiors besides a spare few but especially Cpt. Price or much of the captains(since everyone seems to have a bad history with his parents.) So he listens or watches before making his silent escape to leave, away from something out of his element or in general turbulent footing. Given the way he sees most of the captains and his dynamics with them he already has a preconception and expectation of Arjun given his current stance on everyone else high on the ladder. Luckily, Arjun's high enough rank to be on the "need to know" list and would likely know what he's getting into. Most of Matvey's preconceptions comes from his own history of being under scrutiny and bad history with authority, so it's hard for him to break out of it without going back into his shell. Arjun and Matvey play off each other as Arjun wanted to be a soldier while Matvey was pushed into a role he was never supposed to play. Arjun would have been there as well when he was first brought in, and it would not have looked pretty at all(malnourishment and blood loss is not a good look.)

So, in regard to Arjun, given his protective nature Matvey would be at first confused and then grumbly on the outside but internally finds it rather endearing but also finds it an obstacle once Matvey's age shows and goes against people's professional concerns, including Arjun's. He's not used to being dependent on people nor those said people actually caring for him without ulterior motives. He finds it odd and unnatural and tries in any way he can to find something that isn't there "cause how could anyone care for me if they're not intending on using me for political games, influence, or money?" Arjun's only way of really getting past Matvey's defenses is proving to him that he means what he says and isn't faking his genuine words out of mere formalities.

Matvey's one weakness is his curiosity, and he does get curious about Arjun's past and would likely surprise Arjun with a few questions about personal things every once and a while, though the tone still feeling like Matvey's holding something back. Though... I do believe they'd bond over their mutual sweet tooths(Matvey is very curious about the new cuisine and food places nearby the base since he now doesn't have to live off of cans.)

Since Matvey's hunted by hired mercs and a large network with a large amount of money banking on his retrieval he's usually told to stay on base along with a protection order so everyone that's high up enough could keep a close eye on him. Though, there are times where he wishes to be "alone" and leaves base without even a note which anyone with a keen eye would notice. Honestly, don't know if Arjun would be amused at the gall of Matvey or just outright scolding him.

I hope I did Captain Arjun justice since I've never drawn people that were well-toned before ! ヽ(⌒∇⌒)ﾉ I had a lot of fun drawing him so here's Arjun finding him violating his protection order at a cafe both dressed all casual(Matvey of course avoiding the question of why he violated his protection order or why he's off on his own to begin with.) @welldonekhushi

#asks #welldonekhushi #captain arjun #other's ocs #cod oc: matvey-lukyan volkov-makarov #oc: matvey-lukyan volkov-makarov #cod ocs #cod oc art #matvey eventually gives him the title of “old man” in his mother language though tends to say it out of earshot #arjun is tired #when you accidentally wind up at the same cafe together and one of you is definitely not supposed to be there #tbf matvey wouldnt be that nervous about confrontation and would just not understand why everyone's up in arms about it #also this is my first time going in first with a lineart pen instead of sketching beforehand and honestly i was afraid it would turn out ba #but it didnt so im very happy #the dessert is a large waffle with whip cream in the middle and peeled dried fruit shaped like flowers #matvey swiped a wallet off some civ he can pay for it

[hecksupremechips]

Teehee I got hugged today 🥰

#the klock keeps ticking #it was literally like 2 seconds but idk im like WOOOOO #like it wasnt long enough for me to be all satisfied touch wise nah im so starved itd take all night and day man #and also this particular person is uh. very special ahem. and it was like #i wrapped my arms around them best I could and i could just feel their hips and like their body squish under my hands #cuz theyre so squishy and sturdy at the same time it felt safe and its like. thats really scary actually #ive never ever felt safe hugging anyone this kinda thing is brand new to me #touch in general is new to me. at least consensual touch that i wanted and initiated #and i just felt really nervous cuz like i really love this person but sometimes its hard cuz like ‘guys’ dont hug each other often #or at least not in a case like this where we’re friends but theres this sorta avoidance around anything romantic #cuz we’re both very awkward and also uh. trying not to cross certain boundaries just yet we need time #but unfortunately im so aaaaa rn and touch starved and i was like im just gonna bite the bullet and ask if we can hug LIKE A DAMN GAY ASS #its like fuck i may as well propose marriage and get on all fours while im at it aaghhhhh why am i like this #but it was fine they werent weirded out or anything. not visibly anyway. and they hugged me!!! #me! of all people! im like so happy we got to hug but im also really pissed cuz it was really brief and i didnt get to memorize how they #felt and now im just like grrrrr. fucking tease why must i be so tortured i get the smallest taste and then poof its gone #i just wanna cuddle and hug them for hours and pull their hair and feel their body all over and uhhhhhhhhh #ahem. i may be getting too gay here huh. damn itttt. fuck me. how do you ask your mate if you can explore bodies #in a way that definitely isnt platonic without making things weird