#im laughing at my own writing

[bombshelllblonde]

a snippet

a piece from the colter chapter uwu

XXX

“Hello, Arthur,” Abigail said, looking up at the tall man.

          Arthur leaned down by the fire to try to keep himself warm. “Abigail,” he responded.

          She stood up and walked near him. She had an eager expression on her face, but didn’t want to say what she was thinking out loud. “Arthur…how you doing?”

          He picked up on her tone and faced her. She wanted to ask him something. “Just fine, Abigail…and you?”

          Abigail looked down for a moment. “I need you to-“

          Arthur huffed and rolled his eyes.

          “I’m sorry. I’m sorry to ask, but-“

          “It’s little John. He’s got himself caught into a scrape again,” Arthur finished for her.

          Abigail stood up tall. “He ain’t been seen in two-“ she stopped herself and took a breath, hopeful to calm herself a bit. “Two days,”

          “Your John’ll be fine,” Arthur spat. “I mean, he may be as dumb as rocks and as dull as rusted iron, but that ain’t changing because he got caught in some snowstorm.”

          Eleanor let out a cold laugh behind everyone. “Maybe he’s frozen somewhere,” she looked straight at Abigail. “Maybe he’s dead,” she called out, her hands cupped around her mouth to project and echo louder.

          At that moment, Hosea gave a swift smack to the back of Eleanor’s head. Thankfully the layers of scarves wrapped around her head protected her from blunt force to her skull. She looked to her right and saw Hosea frowning at her. She shrugged her shoulders at Abigail and sheepishly looked at Hosea with apologetic eyes.

          “That’s enough outta you,” Hosea said firmly. “Or I’ll send you on your own to find your brother in this weather.” It was an empty threat, sending her out by herself, but Hosea was getting tired of the constant feud between with two Marston siblings. Eleanor sank into her chair without another word – out of all the people in the gang, the last person she wanted to be angry with her was Hosea.

#henlo #this is a piece from the colter chapter #i just think its funny #like imagine a spectator event #and then eleanors just in the back #“maybe hes dead somewhere” #im laughing at my own writing

[lovesickeros]

can.. can I ask for an affectionate reader with characters who aren’t normally like… used to the love? like, not just through words but physical affection like hand-holding, kisses, hugs, all that shebang. probably with a few people like yelan, ei, basically any character that is either cut-off from society or seems socially distant or isolated. 😞

☆ affectionate reader with yelan, ei, & furina

[ 4.2 Archon Quest spoilers ]

× yelan

Varies between how you display your affection, to be honest. Just like being affectionate with people? She's cool with it as long as you don't pop by while she's working (mostly because she'll end up dragging you into it for a bit of fun). I don't think she's all that touchy feely herself, but she'll absolutely get you gifts instead– like pretty knick nacks? She'll make sure to snag any she thinks you might like. Like a good meal? Sure, she'll take you out to one of the restaurants in the city, doesn't matter how expensive. Her treat. If you do prefer physical gifts rather then being taken out, you'll eventually get used to the random unmarked letters and packages showing up where your staying pretty often. It's obvious to know who it came from even if she never signs anything.

Flirty reader, though? Whole nother can of worms and now it's a challenge. The more confident you are the more interested she is. The other acolytes would absolutely seethe at the idea but she has no hesitation at just straight up flirting back– she's as charismatic as they come and she's got a poker face that's basically impenetrable. She'll probably also make a bet to see who cracks first (she always wins, unsurprisingly). Probably won't get dragged into any of her schemes this way but if you ask politely maybe she'll consider it, anyway.

The smell of freshly brewed tea and the clatter of dice across wood was a common sight at the Yanshang Teahouse– less common was the woman secluded in the far corner, her lips pulled into a grin that flashed fangs and a look that would scare off the most confident of men.

She'd normally try to scope out any new blood that'd made the mistake of stepping into her teahouse and was equally stupid enough to accept a gamble against her just for the thrill of it, but she was far too absorbed in the warm body at her side, one of her die clasped tightly in their hand as she guided them through the motions– they had a knack for it, she had to admit. The thought made her preen, the clatter of the die as it rolled across the table giving her that subtle, familiar rush.

Even if she knew exactly where it'd land.

"Six. Hm, maybe you're just lucky," She muses, plucking the die from the table and holding it up to her eye like a prized jewel, "Or maybe you're not as innocent as you'd have us believe." There's a sharp glint in her eyes at the prospect, but everyone else has the sense to keep their heads down and their words to themselves as she tosses the die herself.

"So why don't we find out and make a bet, just between you and me?"

× ei

Varies between Ei and the Shogun, because you'll probably be seeing either as much as the other. Sometimes you gotta really squint to tell who it is sometimes, but you get used to it. Both are fairly similar, though, in that their first instinct (especially in public) is to tense up like you're about to attack them or something. Difference is Ei eventually relaxes after a solid minute of trying to process your sudden affection and, if no one else is around, she might even reciprocate. Just don't tease her for being a little stiff and awkward about it, she's trying. That's what happens when your only company is a robot and uh. Nothing. For like 500 years. She's trying. Raiden, on the other hand, is just about as awkward as you can imagine. She's polite (blunt) about it because Ei is fond of you and also you are. The Creator. But she's not really built to deal with personal relationships and so she doesn't know how to deal with affection.

..Depending on what you do you may or may not blue screen Ei hard enough that she retreats back to PoE

Ei usually isn't fond of sitting still, unless it's to meditate. At least then she goes in with a purpose, something to achieve– but now, she's just focused on trying not to make a fool of herself. Her muscles are starting to ache from how hard she's tensing, though, in an effort to sit as straight and still as possible as their hands glide through her hair, weaving it into a single braid.

She can just barely hear the subtle lilt of their voice as they hum– and though it is soothing, it is also..very distracting. She can't focus long enough to try and meditate, too lost in the gentle rise and fall of their voice and the care they take to braid her hair. If she'd had a heart, she'd sure it'd be beating so wildly against her ribcage they could hear it.

But then it stops– their hands fall back to their sides and their humming falters. She freezes, too, racking her brain for any slights she must have committed. Instead, she is met with a calm, tender touch on the back of her neck, making her inhale sharply.

"Am I making you uncomfortable, Ei? You're so tense.." She has to grit her teeth to stop herself from bowing so low her head presses against the ground, her hands folded in her lap, clenching instinctively. "..No, Divine One." She answers simply, trying to contain the adoration swelling in her chest.

Yet as much as she tries to relax, to ease their worries, she finds that she cannot.

"Hm." That small murmur, a simple sound that nearly made her jump, was the only warning she got before they scooted closer, wrapping their arms around her stomach and resting their chin on her shoulder with a grin she would liken to Miko's, if she dared to make such a comparison. "Really?"

She swears she must've been feverish at the affection, lightheaded and dazed until she thought she might simply perish at the brush of their hands against her own.

Much to her embarrassment, however, she doesn't realize she's instinctively pulled back into Plane of Euthymia until she sees the familiar dull purples engulf her vision once again.

Though only a small solace, it seemed a little..brighter, this time.

× furina

Varies between pre 4.2 and post 4.2 archon quests to be honest.

Pre 4.2 she comes off as very vain– of course the most Divine would see fit to spoil her with affection! She deserves it, and is obviously their favorite! Just don't look too hard because she's terrible at hiding how flustered she actually is. Absolutely goes home right after and screams into her pillow for at least thirty minutes minimum.

Post 4.2 she's a lot more openly bashful and flustered. She's really not used to affection and even the smallest show of it has her folding immediately. Now that she doesn't need to worry about being found out she's a lot more receptive to affection. Cup her cheeks and compliment her and her knees are buckling. Like. Especially weak for compliments and praise (she deserves it. please spoil her).

She swears she must be hallucinating– she had been having trouble sleeping recently. But..no. The visage of the Creator was as real as the sweat beading on her brow as she stared at them for a long, awkward moment. Should..she let them in? But then they'd see the pathetic state she was in, and the last thing she wanted to do was make a fool of herself in front of them-!

Her choice was quickly made for her, anyway, as she let out an undignified squeak of surprise when they suddenly tugged her forward into their chest, enclosing her in a hug.

Her first reaction was to freeze– her second was becoming absolutely flustered, her cheeks flushing a soft pink and her mouth closing and opening as she tried to find her words.

"I– ah..um." She stumbled over her words instead, floundering like a fish out of water. Yet she felt a distinct sense of emptiness wash over her when they finally pulled back, looking a touch sheepish. "Sorry, sorry– you just looked like you needed a hug."

The silence spoke for itself, her shoulders tensing slightly. But the way the concern and affection bled through their voice made her waver, her hands trembling as she let out a shaky breath that almost sounded like a sigh.

"It's..It's fine! Fine, I'm fine." She repeated, trying desperately to ignored the way her voice cracked and how hot her face felt– though it was more an attempt to affirm herself that she was not thinking about how warm they felt, how much she..actually enjoyed the hug. She wasn't thinking about it all! Absolutely not!

..Maybe a little.

"Just warn me next time, please?"

#asks #sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #fic tag #genshin cult au #genshin impact cult au #yelan #furina #ei #THIS DIDNT SHOW UP IN MY INBOX UNTIL LIKE #NOVEMBERBIM SORRY IM ANSERRING IT SO LATE?????? #tumblr working right is a miracle that will never happen #anyway can u tell i have. biases. there r so many characters I wanted to write for this (shenhe.........) but I forced myself to limit it #to 4 for my own sanity and everyones elses #also didnt know if u wanted just yan or sagau so I went for my specialty 🧍‍♂️ #was gonna include my beloved cryo archon but decided against it #ei the pathetic lesbian that u r....mwah #I'm sorry this took so long it took me 50 yrs to figure out yelan.. 😭 #i am still not confident abt my characterization of her but shes so good at her job even im confused abt her #reading her lore crying and sobbing in the corner. shaking her like a can of soda #checks note idk uhh cocky doesnt let herself form personal relationships charismatic uhhhhhhhh #idk dont ask me i just started praying and hoping for the best here #i think she'd get a kick out of getting reader into like. fudging rolls and shit. create an absolute menace out of reader #set them loose and see what chaos happens #just kicks back and watches it all unfold internally laughing her ass off #i didnt know whether to just do headcanons in uh. bulleted list or like #full on drabbles

[postergadorart]

i said i love zelink

#why do these mfs have so many details in their clothing #bruh drawing this was a nightmare #na dont get me wrong i love them but wtf #zelink #zelda totk #zelda botw #zelda #link #lmao tagging link feels so unfair dude why do u have that nameeeee #anyways i love zelink #i did minor changes to zeldas boots and collar? what the heck is that called. anyways i changed some of it bc i can #and bc my eyes get confused by the lighter tone in her boots like. at first glance i always think her legs are exposed #like shes wearing capri pants or whatever the name #i cant read nor write #i could write an entire paragraph here like those AO3 authors about what happened in my life during the making of this piece #but theres a limit in these tags and id rather just laugh about it #i referenced the ao3 authors bc their life seems cursed and thats exactly how i felt during my own said events #but its ok im back again #until im not anymore #expect more drawings of them from me -needs the pressure

[ptashenka]

oh, tybalt... if only there was someone out there who loved you

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #retj #romeo and juliet #shakespeare #mercutio #mercutio scaligeri #tybalt #tybalt capulet #tycutio #lidochka writes a novel and stuff #technically this scene isn't in the novel #YET #*laughs menacingly* #zoom in at your own risk #but actually im really proud of this one

[spacedlexi]

it honestly frustrates me when i see people reduce the ericsons cast down to "just some teens in the woods" acting like theyre no different than any other group of lone teenagers from other existing properties and treating them like an overused trope

it is sooo important to acknowledge the "troubled youth" aspect of the whole equation. theyre not just some random teens in the woods clem stumbles across. these kids were abandoned by their families for their various "difficulties" and fucked up by The System before the outbreak even began. and then once zombies started roaming the streets their familes never came back for them and the adults that were in charge of taking care of them just left them there to rot in that old boarding school (except for ms martin who was like their lee 🥺 the only person who ever saw them as the scared traumatized kids they were and died protecting them)

the whole aspect of them already being fucked up by the adults that controlled their lives is like.....kind of important when discussing the whole "delta is stealing kids to force them to fight in a war they have no real part in and want nothing to do with" aspect of the season. and its important when comparing them to clem and her journey of also suffering at the hands of the adults around her forcing her to become self reliant. AND its important when discussing the "just trying to build a safe home (and future) worth fighting for in this world that wants them dead" aspect of the season as well

these kids were forced to come together to survive. and a Lot of them didnt... theyre the only family they have left and you can tell that even when they argue with each other theyre still a close knit group who looks out for each other. theyre a Real family before clem even gets there (and its why what really happened with the twins and brody and marlon hits them all so especially hard)

all of this is what REALLY makes ericsons such a perfect home for clem. its a Real community of her True peers. theyre not Just teens. they mightve had a layer of safety clem never had by at least having walls to keep them safe. and having the benefit of the school being hard to find. its the only reason theyre still alive when clem shows up. but theyre also some of the only people who can Truly understand where clem and aj are coming from. and its why it hurts so much when they vote to kick them out. but its also partially why she merges back into the fold so easily when she returns. plus the fact that shes Really the only one who has any idea what shes doing. shes their rock and she makes them feel safe because underneath it all theyre still just those scared traumatized kids ("EVERYONE is scared, clem..." vi was Definitely including herself in that 'everyone'), and on some level, so is clem

they saved clementines life. and she saved theirs. "the school was supposed to help them with their trauma, now they help each other" its about the LOVE the COMMUNITY the SUPPORT!!!! and thats the shit that makes good zombie media honestly 👌

#it speaks #twdg #there i go again writing another essay but i will Always defend the ericson cast theyre one of the strongest out of all 4 seasons #complaints ive seen about s4 typically include mentions of the teens as a trope being overused and im like.......did you even pay attention #the fact they were branded “troubled youth” and basically thrown away by everyone who was supposed to take care of them is SO IMPORTANT #these kids are Fucked Up but theyre Trying to make a kinder world #nobody talk to me i fucking love the ericson cast 😭😭😭 theres not a single one of them i dont like im serious #them using poor pilgrim of sorrow in ep3....ericsons is heaven to clem 😭 all the comments she can make about feeling safe there 😭😭 #clem being everyones rock but violet being clems rock back 🥺😭💕 waaaaahhh thats why it was over for me when vi stood up for them in ep 2 #vi having the courage to stand up to her group for aj........... yeah she had me in a vice grip after that. she fought for them so hard #and if it wasnt for her advocating so hard for them to stay they ALL would have been taken or killed #vi cared about clem so much she undoomed them all #and aj loved clem so much he undoomed her :') #s4 is just the perfect ending to clems story truly itll make me happy for the rest of my life im so happy for u clem 🥺 #tfw the media you like gets a good ending and the main characters are respected and it feels like it was made from a place of love #instead of being like...actively hostile to its fanbase and destroying its own characters for the Laughs #and when i say “good” i dont necessarily mean “happy” i just mean “competently written" #i wouldnt call it perfect but it survived both a cancellation AND the financial collapse of a major game studio. its perfect to Me #for what it is (and what it originally almost was with the clems house plot) we truly lucked out so fucking hard #truly a return to form of season 1 but with less despair and more hope which i appreciate :') #all the things ive liked over the years that were destroyed for me by bad or weird writing decisions... clutches onto twdg like a lifeboat #god i love s4 so much nothing has ever been More Specifically Written For Me Personally

[spaciebabie]

You felt eyes trained on you from a few feet away, but you didn’t need to turn your head to know who it was. However, Springtrap had been staring at you like this for just over five minutes now, cheek resting in one hand. You occasionally glanced over at him here and there from out of the corner of your eye, but you couldn’t discern much from his oddly deadpan expression.

“Are you warm or cold?” he muttered suddenly, his gravelly voice a bit shaky from not having used it much that day.

“Huh?” You flinched. “Oh, uh… I suppose it’s only a little chilly in here, but not all bad.”

He nodded, shifting his expressionless gaze to another corner of the room as you tilt your head. “..Why do you ask?”

Springtrap’s eyes widen slightly, appearing to have only just realized how strange such a question may have sounded without any context.

He looks at you, perhaps observing your intermittent fidgeting, before fully turning back to you to reach a trembling furred hand gently cup your cheek. You can already feel your face burning, but Springtrap shows no indication that he even felt the change.

“..It’s not the same,” he finally sighs, his breath shaky and his delicate torso quivers with each little movement. “Sure, I know what you feel like. Kind of. And I suppose I can RECALL feeling hot or cold at one point long ago…”

He trails off for a moment, tilting his head a bit; he must have finally noticed the new pigment in your cheeks.

“Even though I know there’s a surplus of blood rushing to your cheeks right at this moment, I can’t feel the extra heat it’s producing. It’s not enough. Not for these hands. Touching you this way isn’t the same as if I suddenly had every one of my nerve endings again, and could actually feel every detail without, well.. harming you.”

You’re speechless. Where did all of this come from, anyway? Though, you notice an actual expression eventually form, and the spacey look in his eyes has been replaced by a strange sting of loss.

“I used to fear my own heartbeat. The noise was unbearable. Any time I stressed myself, the thing felt like it was trying to punch a hole through every pressure point in my body.”

He chuckled dryly. If he’d been able to, he might have let a tear roll down his cheek.

“Now? I’d give anything to hear that wretched thing again.”

~Mari

THAT. THE. THE ENDING LINE. OHGGGG OGGH MY GOD

#SCREAMS #IM SPEECHLESS I #spacie splains #YOU GUYS NEED 2 WRITE. FANFIC SO I CAN. READ THEM. #CLAWS AT THE WALLS #CHASES AND BITES AT MY OWN TAIL #RUNS IN CIRCLES GOOD GUFKCING GOD #woe....the torment of never being able ta fully touch and feel ever again #hhhh YESSS ANGST!!!!!!!1 HURT OLD MAN!!!!!!!!!! FUCKA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #GET TORMENTED AHAHAHAHAHHA #LAUGHS ;LIKE A SICKO

[poof-its-gone]

My problems are like William Afton

They always come back

#fnaf #fnaf meme #problems #this is actually not funny becuase my problems do follow me round everywhere #Pun #fnaf movie #william afton #sorry for the really bad joke #five nights at freddy's #i always come back #my problems follow me everywhere help #lgbtq #funny post #this is funny to no one but me #im laughing at my own joke how sad #i have been writing this post for about 2 hours god damn my ADHD #audhd #adhd #autism #i need therapy

[perexcri]

happy one year to her and one of my better opening lines for a fic <3

now, because i'm curious:

#to hell and back again #i genuinely can't believe it's a year but i guess that's how time works huh :') #anyway umm gonna leave some retrospective thoughts in the tags: #1. i hold this fic near to my heart but also have a very complicated relationship with it now- #mostly bc i feel like my writing has improved so much and it's hard for me to reread parts of this lol #2. i honestly feel like it's a product of its time? like i think if i was publishing it now people wouldn't like it nearly as much #(especially with the opening line wHICH HAS A POINT AND COMES FULL CIRCLE AT THE END OK JUST TRUST ME) #3. on a sadder note this also means it's been a year since we had to put my family's eldest dog down #i remember i was gonna post this first chapter later when i had finished another fic up #but then our dog just like. straight up started dying on my mom's bedroom floor #and my mom was too distressed/upset to take her to the vet so i had to put her in my car and take her on my own #and then had to go to work right after that #so yeah i was upset and was like 'well dammit im gonna post this then bc it's silly and makes me laugh and i am sad' #so yeah!! some thoughts and behind the scenes info for anyone who's bothered to read this many tags #idk these things just feel like Tags thoughts not Post thoughts #anyway thanks for all the love this one has gotten!! i'm glad people are still enjoying it though *will voice* it's been a year mike #byler

[boxwinebaddie]

EVIILLL (i love that) BUT do they still make out WAYYYY longer then needed even if they're broken up?

oh, Certainly, darling. ;)

here’s the reference post for context.

and actually, that whole music video scene/side plot lives so rent free in my head, that i…started writing it out as a little mini para? i just miss writing stuff and wanted to do something fun and dramatic and spicy with legit crazy amounts of emotional/sexual tension in it.

because…oooough my god, i just know jersey was annoying and extra as FUCK that whole time. which, while diabolical, is also a very bold move bc stan was not speaking to him, like, At All and had no intentions to but kyle, conversely was extremely desperate speak to him so…he saw his opportunity and he took it, baby!

my man was Working! It! every angle, throwing his head back, his jawline could cut glass, his hair was so luxurious i bet it smelled so good, his like billowy tunic thing was falling over his shoulder, which has so many freckles on it…all while he was winking and waving his pretty long ass fingers at stan, smiling evilly.

— and when kyle does the things he did to him as raven back to him, it’s so funny to me because stan had to be blackout drunk and try really hard to exert that level of sex appeal as the biggest boyfailure on planet earth, but jersey quite literally is just That Bitch, does not need to try at all, can do it ten times better and it’s one hundred times more effective on ravenstan —

who is probably in hair in makeup, gripping the table so hard, trying to be unbothered when he’s SO bothered, hot and otherwise, shaking so much the hair and makeup team are like “you need to stay still.”

like stay still???? STAY STILL??? bitch! could you stay still if literally your ex super best boyfriend and the hottest person on planet earth is trying to eye!fuck! you! during the shoot for YOUR MUSIC VIDEO??? which i know that was extra stressful bc it was stan’s music video so it was his concept so he designed his own hell and built it around kyle and wanting to see kyle do it, so he literally played himself, rip bestie.

a mess…a MEEESSS.

and after all that happens which, whEw! a lot was happening, it was Very Ungentlemanly And Depraved, there were a lot of hands…in places that polite young man’s hands should not be…but when they pulled off i Swear kyle was smirking lookin sooo smug and satisfied, absolutely shameless, abt to try and go in for another one like literally tucking stan’s hair behind his ear, like skating his nail down his jaw line slowly and stan was SEETHING. i mean mad mad MAD!!! and stan never gets mad. like he stormed the hell out of there slammed the door And Everything before screaming into his hands.

free ravenstan, stop the violence jersey!!! you know my man is a pacifist and can’t fight back. :/

p.s. pls note that ravenstan looks like a slutty punk rock crimson dawn virgin sacrifice version of victor van dort in corpse bride but like more red than blue bc of raven stans angst divorce hair…do we…do we see the vision? there’s a vision and in it stan looks extremely pretty, wide eyed, easily corrupted & biteable. <3

#oh my god literally this entire thing is a mess #like the fact that ravenstan probably had an extremely vivid sexually charged dream about this #was like hm what if i make it a music video and pretend like its beautiful artistry when i really just want to see kyle #dressed like a sexy sexy vampire and do bad things to me #LKHDLKHSHSLSKHS JAIIIILLLLL #but like then takes literally the fattest l on planet earth bc he literally built his own hell like he fucked up so badly #he did not think kyle was gonna show he thought he was gonna cancel like literally stan wanted to call in sick but its HIS MV??? #and jimmy and kenny are like are you okay can you do this and hes like duh yeah ofc im a professional i dont even car-- #literally walks into jERSEY and who just winks and says Watch Where Ya Flyin’ Angel ;) HDSLKS HE WANTED TO DIEEE #AAAA WATCH WHERE UR FLYING ANGEL IS SOOO SICK OF HIM LIKE I AM IN SHOCK I WOULD FALL TO MY KNEES #LIKE KYLE PLEASE STOP RIZZING HIM HES SO WEAK HE WAS BREATHING SO HEAVILY JIMMY WAS PATTING HIM ON THE BACK #WITH HIS CRUTCH LIKE THERE THERE BUDDY KSHDLKDS #amazing i...am gonna write it i want to laugh and cry #jersey kyle is too good at this like hes so powerful #they looked good i know they looked good anyways do we see the vision are we obsessed i want the copy of the mv #but like the xxx directors cut where stan and kyle makeout for like several minutes and knock everything over #thank you for coming to my ted talk #also i wrote this ask meme bc i was just talking to rp about it and i literally got so unhinged help akshdlksad

[hella1975]

ur making it pretty hard to not be curious about aftg like what is going on can you infodump ur worst to me

so basically it's about a guy called neil who's not actually called neil bc turns out he's the son of a HIGHLY abusive mafia hitman and him and his mother have been running from this guy for years which ofc means changes in identity and a SHIT ton of issues ranging from good old fashioned paranoia to lighting cigarettes not to smoke them but to let them burn down bc the smell reminds you of your mother's burning corpse. but neil is obsessed and i mean OBSESSED with this made up sport called exy which is like lacrosse but with the violence of ice hockey and he joins a pro-team despite aforementioned ABUSIVE MAFIA DAD AFTER HIM and guess what! the guy who signed him is called kevin and his ex-team are affiliated with the mafia too! including neil's dad! neil just screwed himself over big time! but who cares when you have exy! enter: andrew minyard. andrew is a blonde, 5ft, ex-juvie, under-court-surveillance-for-grevious-bodily-harm goalkeeper currently working unofficially as kevin's bodyguard and, while we never get an actual diagnosis bc god forbid we handle mental health properly in this thing, it's implied that he has some kind of psychosis and, as part of his plea bargain, is legally obgligated to take incredibly mood-altering medication that makes him manic in exchange for being allowed to stay on the team (aka with kevin who he's VERY possessive of), done entirely for the wellbeing of those around him and effectively against andrew's will. does he stick to that deal? fuck no! but it doesn't stop there! andrew proceeds to spend the entire book being as violent and unpredictable and generally cunty as possible in order to figure out What Neil's Deal Is bc neil is capital S Shifty and andrew is convinced he's from kevin's old mafia cult team trying to hurt him. we spend an entire book watching the three of them wrestle between neil's paranoia, andrew's protectiveness and kevin's desire to Please Can We Just Play Exy. there are some keys involved. someone dies. there are two more books. inexplicably two of the characters can speak fluent german purely from high school classes.

#aftg spoilers #just for book 1 but still BIG spoilers lmao #ill also tag this as: #hella reads aftg #bc i told people to block that tag if they didn't want spoilers so it's more likely to be effective #but yeah! arent you so glad you asked gloomy! this is the abridged version! #i genuinely havent even mentioned more of the insane parts bc i couldnt even explain if i wanted to #also i know i touched on andrew's meds here but i actually do have Views on all that and i was NOT getting into that here lmao #also just andrew's mental health as a whole. i could write essays #ask #aftg #the foxhole court spoilers #tfc spoilers #tfc #rereading this is making me laugh bc i come across as such an andrew-anti #as if he hasn't been one of my all time fave characters for six entire fucking years like do you know how hard that is and yet he's there #so just to clarify i am mad at a lot of the things andrew does but im also mad about the court-mandated-medication #and every therapist that gave him some shitty diagnosis and also nora for going down the 'violent psychopath' trope #andrew is a victim of his own books i would give my life for him <3

[bwobgames]

Just re-read beebo and I am no longer insecure about too much dialogue in game. I am great at dialogue.

#i am indeed the type of person who will laugh at their own jokes #but also its actually good??? It got a really good ending??? I highly enjoyed it??? #for some reason i have been under the impression that my writing and storytelling sucks and i need to do better in the game #but turns out its good!! so THATS why people like it! #a new insecurity has arrived: what if the game is not as good #i do think the comic is definitely more romance focused while im trying to make the game more mystery focused with a s.ow burn romance #the romance is crucial though. somehow it is #i will get them different endings tho thats a thing i want. even if theres no path branching to keep it close to the comic #i want the final decisions (and some early decisions) to make and impact in the end

[blushweddinggowns]

Some context expansions. I write explicit works and am angling for another Dom Eddie so that's a factor. And I don't do unhappy endings. I do morally ambiguous endings, but always happy for the boys.

Option 1. Rockstar Eddie falling for a completely oblivious Steve and trying to hide his fame to have a normal relationship because Steve has a celebrity vendetta. (Alternate Universe)

Option 2. Established Relationship Steddie dealing with the after effects of an overly affectionate, aggressive, and protective Kas Eddie. (In Universe)

Option 3. Married "ready to leave my wife for you" Steve cheating with "i can not handle that kind of pressure" Eddie, (In Universe)

Option 4. Adult siblings Robin and Eddie with single dad Eddie begging for a babysitter rec, which Robin gives in the form of her bestfriend that she's never let Eddie meet, on the one condition that you do NOT fuck her best friend. He does not follow this condition. (Alternate Universe)

Option 5. Pirate Eddie escorting cursed Prince Steve overseas for a possible cure to an unknown affliction, with explicit instructions to kill him if it doesn't work. And to ignore any singing you may here at night with him on board. And a whole other list of strange details. (Alternate Universe)

#i want to write dom eddie again but i am so stuck on my ammnesia fic #she's laughing at me stuck #the google doc is laughing at me #and i shouldn't start another wip because i have freaking five of them if you include the smurf account #but my creative process is whatever makes my brain move #and if none of what im doing is moving it then maybe its time for number 6 #unknown #bad ideas that i may not even ever do #steddie #steddie fic writing #i have too many ideas #writing these out helped me with my own bias though not gonna lie #cheaters and pirates are apparently a thing for me #steddie fic #steddie poll #poll

[nerosdayinanime]

"Im worried what people would think of you then, that you're just a personal whore or something- i don't want to ruin your reputation.."

"Are you kidding? 'My dick was so good i got promoted-' Thats the biggest flex i can think of!"

"Well, you're certaintly enthusiastic about this."

#ive been thinking of the au from @planethoneybee's tags in that writing prompts post #on the topic of giyuu wanting sabito to have political power in case something happens or someone tries to pull shit- #him & shinobu debating the pros and cons of giving him title of concubine before giyuu brings up the social aspect #so shino calls sab in to get his thoughts on the matter directly and it made me laugh #another bit w sanemi- theyre at a meeting talking abt finances and theyre talking of cutting sanemi's beetle funding- #G: i can pay for it /Sane: what? /G: keep as much funding to the project as possible- i'll finance the rest of it out of my #own allowance. that works doesnt it? /Shino: i suppose. ..but you'd do that for beetles? /G: i see importance in it. /Shino: very well- #sanemi doesnt thank him or even mention it but he definitly looks at giyuu differently after that- he used his own shit to keep #the project going full blast? damn. he did that for sanemi's beetles. man. #somethn somethn giyuu bringing up the idea for shinobu to have a personal guard(/helper) as well #shinobu 'i know what you are' @ giyuu before he hurriedly explains he doesnt mean get a side hoe hes genuinely just #offering to find her a trusted guard/helper whos sole purpose is to do errands n shit specifically for her 'oh! that sounds nice actually' #'sab has someone in mind for you- says shes one of the best in the forces and a pleasant personality' 'ill see that for myself first' #'okay [thumbs up]' #im imaginging a mix between european kingdoms & east asian/chinese/japanese empires except i dont know shit about either #only thing i vaguely know is theres advisors & like sub-royalty & in traditional japanese more (/complex) layers of clothing = rich/royal #the 'sub royalty' has a name im p sure. i forgor. fuckiinnn. #nope its just not there. oh well. giyuu w the fingerless sleeve-gloves my FUCKING beloved #also vague thought of sabito & mitsuri wearing helmets that utilize their pink hair as fuckin. yk the european knights #w the stupid ponytail thing/romans w the gold helm/red mohawk thing. somethn like that #they wouldnt wear like full Heavy Armor like knights do their fighting styles & w the close-quarters they wouldnt need it #but like for Show at Fancy Pantsy Time theyd dress up similarly #loserboy giyuu posting #loverboy sabito posting #sabigiyuu #of all the shit i have for this au THATS the scene that gets front page. dick joke funniee #(in case its not clear text goes Giyuu-Sabito-Shinobu talking)

[youreaclownnow]

The master trainer comics on pixiv are objectively the funniest things to come out of the g gundam fandom. I'm not even an uma musume fan but yall know I fucking love crossovers and this one is downright hilarious

#see i knew about the fics on ao3 but hadnt read em cuz like i said i dont uma musume. i wouldnt know what the horsegirls looked like #and so i passed them up #but today i go on pixiv and scroll the master asia tag and find hand drawn comics of this stuff #they turned fuunsaiki into an uma musume girl and i think thats objectively the funniest possible way to gijinka him #ive been actively losing my shit over this au like #i can only read a few pages at once because they make me laugh so hard i cant breathe #the guy writing them is i think the only person whos master asia brainrot might surpass my own in terms of intensity #im so impressed. amazed. i hope the artist has gotten himself laid over this comic cuz bro fucking deserves it

[rosyredlipstick]

i LOVE writing mitchell and will being bitchy with each other its my absolute favorite oh my GOD

#this is about one scene in particular that im finding very funny hahahahaha #half of my fic writing is just laughing at my own jokes hahahaha #space fic

[thescreaminghat]

major spoilers for t&b s2 cour 2, don’t open if you haven’t watched it all the way through, but

cour 2 handles yuri’s trauma in an extremely off-putting (and frankly? disrespectful) way

what the actual fuck was that ending for yuri. and no, i don’t mean this on a “the writers took the story in a direction that i don’t like so i’m mad” kind of way, but in a “they took the cheap way out. they hurt this character unnecessarily, so many times, and for what? for a nonsensical character assassination that doesn’t resolve anything” kind of way. 

Let me explain, using Jinx from Arcane as an example to really clarify why I’m so upset at this writing choice. Both Yuri and Jinx are heavily traumatized characters, and neither seem to “get a break” from the writers in terms of the scenarios they’re put through. The difference, as I see it, is that Jinx’s trauma is an inevitable byproduct of the system she grew up in---aka it’s not difficult to imagine that there are many Zaunite kids suffering through similar trauma by virtue of the horrible living conditions they are in + Piltover’s oppressive system. And Arcane, at its core, is a tragedy, meant to lament the INESCAPABLE reality of life in Zaun, of how such trauma is more the norm than the exception, with Jinx being the most extreme example of this. So it’s narratively sound for Jinx to lose everything in the end, for her to engage in that last act of destruction against Piltover and her own sense of self, because she has known no other life besides this. Do I want Jinx to be happy? Absolutely. But I can understand the direction that the writers are going in, and even though I personally wouldn’t have written Jinx into a downwards spiral, it makes sense within the themes of the story. 

T&B, on the other hand, has had “healing through togetherness” as a central theme from day 1. The message that gets hammered into the audience is to learn how to open up to others, how to trust, how to coexist, how to heal even when systemic problems seem insurmountable, how to help others and have hope---that was Barnaby’s whole fucking arc in s1. We’ve seen people like Barnaby and Ryan go through trauma but make it through by relying on others, because those support systems EXIST in that universe. Even the capitalism in Sternbild seems super. . .”nice?” Like, the corporations that control the schedules and daily activities of our protagonists generally have pretty sensible and accommodating bosses (e.g. Lloyd). There are “bad eggs” like Maverick, and as s 2 has shown us, continued discrimination against NEXT, but they’re either portrayed as individual bad faith actors or broader problems that can be resolved using a plot device like Little Aurora.

So why the fuck would the writers deny Yuri the possibility of an ending where he can take accountability within a system that has allowed other criminals to tdo the same without dying (e.g. Virgil and co in The Rising, Origami’s friend from s1)? Why the fuck would the writers find it any more difficult to write a narrative where Yuri learns to heal and trust others again when they’ve done that with other characters before? 

And some ppl may respond with, “Oh but Yuri has a different personality---he responded to his trauma differently than Barnaby and so he has difficulties trusting others and doing the right thing besides cosplaying as Lunatic.” And they would be 100% wrong, because we’ve SEEN Yuri take meaningful steps to enact his sense of virtue and justice without being Lunatic. AKA AS A JUDGE. Although he’s the Director in s2, we’ve seen him, both in s1 and the manga, hand out fair sentences for those who come before the courts. We’ve seen him be swayed by Kotetsu’s generosity and goodwill towards Sternbild’s citizens, and help him get out of legal trouble by reducing his fines/imposing a lighter sentence because he empathizes with the act of saving people’s lives. So he’s perfectly capable of enacting his values in a non-harmful way. And cour 2 has also shown us the kindness he is capable of, how he took meaningful steps to not be a vigilante, to try and ignore his father’s presence, to help out the heroes to the best of his ability, to lovingly care for his mother, to wipe away the tears of someone who blamed herself for his mother’s death, even though she was a victim herself---what was all that for, then, if his fate was to die as an unknown, unremembered, not even given a second thought after our two main characters watch him die? 

I was already extremely put off by Kotetsu’s and Barnaby’s responses to Yuri opening up about his abusive father. Kotetsu’s response seemed more like “Oh sorry about the horrible things that your father did to you and your mother, but I’m different,” rather than a response of genuine empathy (Kotetsu himself regretted saying what he said immediately afterwards, so I don’t think I’m reading what’s not there for this). And Barnaby didn’t even fucking say anything meaningful, even though he should be the one who has a better understanding of what trauma can do to a person by virtue of his own experiences. 

Watching Yuri blame himself, grapple with the fragment of an abusive father who he’s projected his own pain onto (and who never will apologize, because he died attempting to harm his own son), weep on the bloodstained spot where his mother was fucking shot in the head---the writers re-traumatized Yuri like this, and for what? So that people can still walk around thinking Mr. Legend was an infallible man? So that Yuri’s traumatic past is shared with two people who responded like assholes even though they’ve been characterized up until this point as perceptive and emotionally intelligent when the time calls for it? So that Yuri’s act of revenge against the people who killed his mother is still seen as one of Lunatic’s acts, rather than the (not necessarily justified, but completely understandable) rage of a human being who has had everything taken away from him?

Yuri was a victim of his father and never had the opportunity to get help---it would have shown Kotetsu and Barnaby’s strength of character if they had managed to help redeem Yuri somehow. But no, we had to have Yuri “feel useful” after years of emotional, physical, and psychological torment by being a human shield and committing suicide. It felt so exploitative of his character development in cour 2 and threw away everything that the series had been building up in terms of its theming. And everyone just walks away for dinner, laughing? No self-reflection, no question on the kind of life Yuri must have lived, the secrets he must have kept in that double-role as judge and Lunatic? It’s all just sunshine and rainbows because “the baddies are gone!” And it makes me feel sick.

That’s why I’m so upset---sure, I would have been upset if Yuri had died in any narrative sense, but this felt so egregious and disrespectful to everything he represented, to all the tenderness and humanity he displayed in cour 2. I know maybe I’m overreacting but honestly, this felt like a slap in the face, and i don’t think I’ll ever really continue with T&B if they make a 3rd season, if this is how it treats its characters. 

#tiger and bunny season 2 #tiger and bunny season 2 spoilers #yuri petrov #im so fucking done #did they forget how to write their own show or something #i just #oh my fucking god #tiger and bunny #i feel like this went from a solid 7-8 show to a zero real fucking quick #everyone laughing and walking off into the sunset felt so forced with all this context in mind #kotetsu t kaburagi #barnaby brooks jr #i need a break from this im gonna go cry now