#im just upset this is the first ive learned of it

[forbiddennhoney]

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#personal #i know logically like #im sad because i just lost a friendship that was important to me and i am grieving that loss #but i feel so stupid still being so sad about this #i feel childish for not having moved on already #even though logically it has barely been a Week since this blowup #but like she Did apologize (even though i desperately wish she hadnt yet bc i Needed to be angry to start the grieving process right - #-bc i really struggle to connect with my feelings and learned how to process them first through anger) #and like idk. maybe im just a childish asshole #it feels like this is all my fault even though i know logically thats NOT true #i keep having nightmares about all my loved ones flipping a switch the way she did #i keep having nightmares about not being good enough for anyone and feel so violently insecure about my role in ppls lives #and i WANT like. reassurance that ppl love me is the thing #but if they reference this issue or like i have to ask it just doesnt feel Righ5 #and ive been putting the energy out into the world that i would like to receive sometime but ik i cant demand that either #i just. #feel so sad #i hate that this impacted me so much #like. im literally more upset about this than my dad's health issues #(though admittedly this hits a more deep rooted insecurity/fear/distress than my dad's issues do)

[tokyoteddywolf]

22 isn't very much at all, I think.

#5am rambles #anyways ignore this as per usual im just thinking in a post that i'll delete soon. i just worry and writing it helps. #you ever wonder when you'll “grow up'? and then realize youre not even fully grown? #that theres still more to learn in life and that the mistakes you make are just that? mistakes? #that you are still so very very young in a world that is so very very old? #im almost 23. barely a quarter of my lifespan. im still a child in a way- my brain not fully formed. #you ever wonder how many mistakes you can make before you figure something out? #I dont know much of anything really. that's the sad part. and the adults who were supposed to help me learn... didnt. #i was failed. and now im a failure. at almost not quite 23 years old. Maybe i wont be a failure in another few years. #i still have a while to go before I die. I'm not going to waste time thinking about it. im just going to try my best. #I have time. I can learn. Grace and patience are not endless but damn if i dont try to figure things out #first step though is meds and therapy tho. we're done with the pity party. some things you just have to accept are okay #cuz my whole life i was taught that being emotional is a weakness. its pathetic and stupid to be upset or angry about anything. #any time i wanted to show i was upset or angry i was 'wrong'. i was 'selfish' and 'dramatic' #so i suppressed and pretended i was fine. that i wasnt weak and pathetic. that i was good and not an annoyance or burden. #i am not weak. i am not pathetic. i am fine i am fine i am fine you dont need to worry about the inconvenience at your door. #sometimes the shame is so much that i cant look at myself or even think i deserve help. that therapy is for people with real problems. #that i feel like ill just be told im like this for attention or dramatics. that im such a disappointment and selfish too. #ive been a “problem” my whole life to the point i dunno if i CAN be fixed. that anxiety eats me alive every day. #therapy is supposed to give you methods to cope #i dunno if it'll work though. I forget my appointments a lot. i struggle to talk sometimes. i may be autistic but its hard to get diagnosed. #emotions are so hard to figure out.

[blissfali]

i beat therapy <- guy whose been seeing his therapist every week for 5 years and recently transitioned to once every other week

#Im so good at this coping skills thing #i realized i didnt have much to say anymore bcuz ive been solving and working thru all my own problems #at first i thought it was cause i just wasnt upset abt anything #but i was i just got through it with my support system and coping skills i learned in THERAPY #Who couldve foreseen this…

[skxrbrand]

300+ hours in Warhammer (600+ total between all 3 games), and 80% of that time is just me ogling the models

#*holds up skarbrand* i just think hes neat :3c #morning ya'll! #anyway i had a real tough talk with myself last night and some things are gonna change #not necessarily here but irl #basically most of my health issues can be traced to having a trash sleep schedule. as far as i can remember its been this way for a decade #there was a post a while back. it read something like 'the reason we stay up all night is because we have obligations all day' #which i think is true. i run myself ragged trying to meet peoples expectations of me particularly where they concern academics #well. its about time i start putting myself first. ive dropped most of my classes which will make my maternal side family upset im sure #but the way i see it: i'd rather pass with flying colors later than barely scrape by or even fail because my mental health is in shambles #and when you're a gifted kid like me doing poor academically REALLY sucks because it fucks with your self concept and esteem #I've been in college for almost a decade on and off. It's unusual #but so are my circumstances. idk i guess ive just gotta learn to be kinder to myself #having a mortgage at 26 while your mom and dads side of the family feud with each other and neither of them understand you definitely sucks #lmao thanks for coming to my ted talk

[penisliker-moved]

ill be like yeah gacha addiction ks a real thing that affects so many ppl and we all need to be more aware of it. and then realize ive spent 200 dollars on a stupid gacha game that i dont even like in 10 days

#no you SHOULD blow yr money on pointless #shit its best to do it now b4 u have rent and stuff #im gonna delete it this isnt a habit i want to keep up At All #im so fucking mad at myself i have things i need to be saving to and this is just..WHY m i doing this #i dont even like the fucking game why did i kep spending money on it #like. it wsnt from ym saving or anything but fucking. 200 goddman dollars im rly mad #and i cant even be mad at anyboyd else its Literally my fault #im just rly fucking disappointed in myself i should fucking know better than this #my parents being dumbfucks with their money is literally the reason i grew up poor im supposed to fucking learn from them #and again like. it ws from my spending money that im supposed to spend on whatever i want #it just feels like such a waste n m rly rly rly upset abt ir. whatever #this isnt me gamblizing this shit obviously. its rly distressing me #i feel like a bad person. whatever #like th game isnt a bad game like. its not g*nshin 💀 or something like that #im judt. still rly mad at myself #s just like. this past month is th first time basically ever ive a tually had my own money n. ive been putting some aside for savings #(i have 500 in savings rn) #but idk i just. i should be setting aside more or something i feel like im doing it all wrong and i rly rly rly dont want to endnup like my #parents lmao. #and i told my dad i ws worried abt it and he tried to give me financial advice that was jus tluke #but fucking. like. even if im not Actively in a lease #or whatever. i am saving up t move Across the Country #which is fuckinf expensjve #and rent'll be cheap bc were splitting it like 4 ways but i still #jghhhhhhh. i wanna have an emergency fund + a few months rent + money tk actually get up there + furniture money #but i dont wanna be setting aside my entire paycheck for savings either bc like. i do deserve nice things sometimes #my dads kind of right there where like. If they had gone crazy and gotten all the stuff they wanted Before they had responsibilities and 4 #kids #then theyd be way more responsible with their money now #i just. ufhghhhh idk. idfk. im rly rly mad at myself

[nerice]

very tldr of my uni woes: have not been taught shit in the four years of courses and am now cramming complex amounts of queer theory, post-structuralism etc into my brain bc i need to write this thesis but how am i supposed to write it well when i am speedrunning all the knowledge processing. h

#elia txts #we had a cultural theory class in the first semester and i keep thinking abt it bc it SUCKED. the teachers sucked im sorry #there was a guy handing out tldr definitions in this after-class and he made sense of concepts in 45 minutes & saved our asses #but none of it was touched on in classes after this. it was always 'read these txts' without teaching us how to #ignore the fact that texts are referencing big theories and shit like modernism and neoliberalism etc we dont have time #n ive been deep-reading this whole year and i actually LIKE academia and texts (tm) now. frothing at the mouth 2 buy butler's gender trouble #and actually read the main text !!!! now that i have the capacity to understand it #versus the snippets we got in first semester nobody cld made sense of and they failed to make it interesting or engaging #im just so upset abt it all !!!!!! im falling back in love with learning but also I DONT HAVE TIME BC THESIS LOOMING OVER MY ASS #UGH!

[danganrhys]

i guess i should post an introduction :}

im rhys, im in my twenties (currently in university), and i was never quite able to shake my danganronpa phase (even though the fandom is pretty dead... at least compared to when it was at its peak a few years ago)

i do draw and reblog a lot of genderbend / rule 63 / genderswap / whatever-word-you-use-for-it. so if you dont like that feel free to block, i dont take it personally <3 alternatively, you can just block those tags

i also occasionally draw dr characters as furries / animals because humans are hard to draw... block and blacklist if you dont like, same as above ^^

here for a good time is all (and i didnt want to spam my main with reblogs anymore...) (on that note this is a sideblog! i like and follow from my main)

#i first got into dr in MIDDLE SCHOOL. here i am... a grown adult woman... #i am cringe but i am free. dont take urself too seriously #also i will tag art i myself make but i dont tag things i reblog #i think tag blacklisting also works for the original posts tags so it should be fine #but yeah dont bother being mean you can just block... ive learned after many years in fandom that no matter HOW small my blog is there WILL #always be somebody who manages to find me and deem my posts Problematic and Bad and Deserving Of Rude Anonymous Messages so i try to get #ahead of it on all my new blogs...! #wild because i have never posted racy content... the things that get people riled up are mostly politely worded opinion pieces #which is wild because i always try to be very... soft? when im making opinion posts. speifically to not upset people. but it never works. #one time i said i thought kris from deltarune was nonbinary and got an anon accusing me of sending suicide bait to children (?????)

[chiritori]

sometimes i reflect on my absolute cringelord online behavior from 2018-2021 and immediately want to spontaneously combust

#basically my edating era is what im saying #there are literally so many people who i ghosted and blocked for making me upset or uncomfortable and just never spoke to again 😭 #mind u most of them are ppl ive met up with irl at least once #just... poof gone. no idea what any of them are up to #good riddance to the majority of them considering most were either evil or just creepy #but theres 1 relatively normal one who i have the urge to text every couple years being like HEY REMINDER THAT I AM NO LONGER INSUFFERABLE #we kept in touch back when i had my old ig but like. my old ig was SO EMBARRASSING #and then we lost touch again after i deleted it 😭 #none of this is even touching on all the cringy shit my irls had to see me post back on that old instagram #im talking kindating. it was that bad #and also the era on here a few years ago when a lot of u first started following me! when i was extremely unhinged & obsessed with skc! #god all of it was so bad i cant 😭😭😭 whatever u live and u learn i guess #vent #more like word vomit but eh

[strawberryseeded]

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#honestly life is so sad and stuff makes me so sad #sometimes i just have to (HAVE to) take some time to reflect on stuff #try to see what ive learned in a certain amount of time. things i got right. things i got wrong #i dont always enjoy it but i need to do it #yesterday & today as well i was in one of those reflection moods #and i concluded (not for the first time) that i have a really REALLY hard time moving on from the bad stuff #especially bad stuff *i* did or bad stuff i witnessed and couldnt do anything about #sometimes even silly little mistakes that arent rly that trascendent. i just get upset anyways #thats why ive been trying to appreciate the good stuff in my life more. it really helps honestly #but i still get very depressed sometimes #cant get certain thoughts or memories out of my head for days and days and weeks and months #some of them ive had for more than 10 years. not everyday but at least periodically #im scared to never be able to move on from them #and im scared of them piling up more and more bc i WILL keep fucking up and i will keep encountering sad things and sad ppl in my life #im scared of the inability of my brain of getting past that #bc reflecting is GOOD. thinking abt stuff and feeling stuff (even when its a sad or angry feeling) is GOOD and healthy!! #thats why i wont give up on that. never. its an important thing to do. i look at the past and present and try to learn from it #but often i get stuck in all the bad stuff and its hard to see the good. i cant forget or move on #am i gonna be like this forever #? #di4ry

[taichissu]

i wish people would stop saying I'm wrong just because i'm not good at articulating my arguments verbally

#or assuming i stumble over my words bc im 'flustered' and thus they won the argument by 'upsetting me' #anyone who's ever talked to me knows Im not great at forming coherent sentences in a short amount of time no matter if Im calm or flustered #its only doubled in english because its not my first language #i just wish people would have a civil discussion with me without speaking over me when I'm clearly not done speaking #I'm just tired and i wish i could be like everyone else but I'm in my 20s and ive been learning my whole life and i still cant do that #talking is just hard okay #just give me time to form my sentences

[thatdeadaquarius]

Heyo, Idk if you still do sagau but I hope you do 🙏🙏 anyway, this is lowkey wholesome but imagine one of acolytes were trying to communicate with a child but then they realize the child is deaf but reader so happened to be nearby. So then, whatever the character is saying the reader translates into sign language and its just a wholesome sight to see. Btw srry if this isn't what you usually write 😓 add anything to this if you want

OH NO THIS IS EXACTLY ALL THAT I WRITE RN ANON DW MY LOVE 😍

(*update: im so stupid i thought ur sunglasses pfp was a anon and didnt look any closer💀i aint livin this one down)

(Spoiler: i do plan to do imagines for other fandoms bc i have such niche AUs or ideas for them, a lot like this whole language stuff for Genshin Sagau :D )

IVE WANTED TO LEARN ASL FOR SO LONG BUT I HAVENT GOTTEN THE CHANCEEE theres no classes for it where i live ;/

THAT IS TO SAY I LIVEEE FOR COMMUNICATION STUFFFFF

Also srry its kinda short i just could only think of this cute little scenario- 😗

Rest in peace bc i have a whole fat post i wanna make about neurodivergence + general accessibility issues in Teyvat and their countries

Like where r the ramps babe

Where r the non-narrow ass doors

Why r we just constantly made to hike up mountains when we dont have to

And dont come at me with that,

"Theyre in their medieval age! They cant make stuff like that!"

Yeah, u right, they cant.

If they dont be ✨️creative ✨️and they dont use their fucking ✨️magic ✨️

Liyue got floating rocks and they cant make a goddamn disability elevator?? Bitch tf?

THAT IS TO SAY IN A VERY RANTING COUGHPASSIVE AGGRESSIVE AT GENSHIN COMMUNITY FOR NOT REPPING DISABILITIES MORECOUGH

WAY OF SAYINGGGG

Literally almost no one gets sign language in Teyvat

(despite the fact that in my perfect teyvat, sign lang. is superior bc everyone could make it the universal lang. ESP if we go by the cool AU of diff countries have diff languages, like Germanish lang for Mondstadt, Frenchish for Fontaine, etc.)

Off topic again srry-

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But you took a class once!! Or even checked out the alphabet and casual convo on ur own time :D

So u just chillin with Kazuha, Thoma, Sara, Gorou, and Kokomi (they vistin the main island to see u!! :] )

Meanwhile a little girl is walking around nearby, and is kinda going in circles

Almost like shes scared to go too far one way or the other,

So being the caring soul he is, (rlly all these boys here rn would notice and help lol)

Thoma comes up to her and squats down trying to talk to her :)

...

Yeah, she didn't say anything, just kinda,,

Motioned with her hands??

She looks like shes doing some kind of code to them..

Oh!

Thoma finally recognized this, its that hand language!! lmao hes got the spirit

so he asks Kazuha to try and see if he knows it or can even figure it out-

Nope. Nada de nada.

Then Kokomi, Sara and Gorou (whos a sweatin nervous mess he doesnt know how to act around kids esp kids in distress he seems like the type lol)

They all fail, Kokomi looks concerned bc she thinks the kids lost, but there no frantic parents nearby, Sara is trying to slowly understand what motions mean what i.e. points to a rock = learn sign from child etc,

Kazuha is trying to get the wind to help locate upset guardians nearby, and Gorou...

... is just 🧍‍♂️

LMAOOO

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So after a minute of this (bc u had originally been away at a street food vender, hey those dango were rlly good dont judge urself)

U come back, and see this mild flavor of chaos-

And are just like

"Oh ffs- just shoo, i got it guys"

And just, slowly, go thru some signs with the little girl to get the keywords at least

She lights up and is like bouncing, she goes hella fast at first but slows down when she gets ur hearing

Either way, she looks a lot happier now

U explain for her to the others to confirm her parents got seperated from her

She got lost and where she last saw them

u finally help escort her to the street she last saw her parents on :] !!

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Meanwhile the whole allogene group, shopkeepers, and Inazumans around you:

😦😯🥰🥺💓💞💘💖

Kokomi is holding back a squeal, shes gotta keep up her image, ahem-

Sara is like,, minutely vibrating?? Lmao

Kazuha is watching u like a fireworks show, intensely and yet fascinated

GOROU'S TAIL IS KINDA WAGGINGGG AW LOL

And Thoma just looks like a puddle of affection, just absolutely melted (he loves kids + he secretly loves you = dead Thoma)

Other people look weirdly, proud? Like theyre like "yeah thats our god, fuck yeah, knowing diff languages, go off, Your Grace 💅 " LMAO SORRY COULDNT RESIST and also some fascination

♡

Anyway, 2 very stressed looking dads see yall and the girl and one of them run up to hold each other

She starts rapidly signing, explaining to her dads the adventure she had and the cool people she met <3

The dads look at u and r like 🤔😶😱 "YOUR MAJESTY??!!" (VIGOROUS HAND MOTIONS)

They sign like,

"We're terribly sorry about you seeing us like this, we usually are much more together than this, a crowd just swept her off, its very busy today. Thank you so much for helping our girl, my Lord!! 😭😭"

Theyre like almost crying, oh geez, u reassure them and sign back that it happens to any parent at some point and that is matters more that they tried to get her back :]

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Meanwhile the rest of the group and the citizens are just watching yall like its the most amazing Olympic level tennis match in the world LMAO

Heads all in sync, watchin yall like 👋👍🙏LMAO IM SORRY

AW IT SUCKS ABOUT WRITING BC I CANT RLLY DEPICT SIGN LANGUAGE AS COOL AS I CAN IN COMICS OR THRU ART

THE EMOJI HANDS NEED SIGN LANGUAGE DAMMIT-

♡

🎵 Hi, it's me. I'm the problem, it's me. 🎵

That is to say none of yalls asks r eaten up, at least im pretty sure? Dw abt it im chugging along having the time of my life hehe >:)

Yall are fEEDIN ME TONIGHT!!

Hope yall r having a good weekend and have no hw if ur in school, or i hope ur shift goes good tomorrow! :]

Love yall!!

Cheers,

🌒🌧🌊Aquarius♒️🌌🌘

♡the beloveds♡

@karmawonders / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist

#this is hella cute #i wanna learn sign so bad #but i feel like i deffo need a class and not like some online videos #did i mention in there that in a perfect world or teyvat the trade or language would be sign language? #oh yes? #well just in case u didnt see ;) #genshin impact #ask box open #genshin sagau #my asks #sagau #genshin imagines #genshin sagau ideas #gender neutral reader #genshin isekai #genshin god reader #disability #genshin disability imagines #disability imagines

[guillermothegreat408]

Not wwdits related, and mentions of the good omens “leak” so view at ur own discretion

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Ive seen some people saying they’re actually upset that az and crowley kiss and I’m just positing my opinion on the matter.

Ive been binging the first season all day because it’s been so long since I’ve seen it and I wanted a refresher before the new season, and I don’t know I feel that them part taking in physical intimacy makes sense for both of their characters, especially az.

Since they’ve both “gone native”, so to say, and they both clearly enjoy earthly, mortal pleasures more than any celestial beings are supposed to in this universe (Crowley with his car, clothes, music, house plants, and drinks, and az with his books, food, clothes, and general fondness for humans) why would they suddenly draw the line at romantic physicality? It was even implied in one of the latter episodes that az has in fact, had sex before, as he spent a great deal of time in an old timey “discreet gentleman’s club”. (I know he was there learning a dance but I mean…..let’s be real…..when in rome, right?)

For any other angel or demon in this world, I would say it would be superfluous of them to have any sort of physical intimacy or romantic entanglement, but the whole point of these two characters specifically is that they are very bad at their jobs because they are both too inherently human, too driven to want and to love and to think freely. Im not saying they’re gonna like, go to pound town on eachother (on camera at least), but I do think it would be in line with the characters for them to want such a very intrinsically human thing as a kiss from someone they love.

Idk that’s just my two cents, let me know what y’all think! (Also since I don’t know how replies work on mobile with multiple blogs, you’ll see me replying to anyone from my main blog jockerbrained)

#good omens #ineffable husbands #good omens leak #good omens spoilers #aziraphel #crowley #crowly x aziraphale

[egotisticalmachine]

one thing ive had to learn with my flavor of low empathy is that often, ill THINK im experiencing empathy, but its actually just me projecting my own assumptions about someones emotions onto them.

often its me projecting how i would feel in their situation, but it isnt actually accurate, because i as a pwNPD tend to have much different emotional reactions to things than other people do. so i end up assuming someone must be devastated over whats actually a small, inconsequential situation to them. most people arent that bothered by one small offhanded joke going unacknowledged in a group chat where theyre generally paid attention to and acknowledged, for example, but it does tend to bother me when that happens, so its hard to realize that others feel differently than i would.

or, i do that thing where i overestimate my effect on people - i assume that others are heartbroken if they dont have my full enthusiastic attention and approval, when really, really, its probably not a huge deal. but its extremely difficult for me to process that im not a focal point of other peoples emotions, so it takes a lot of conscious effort to REALLY consider their perspective, even though to me, assuming they need my approval FEELS like i AM considering their perspective.

or, often, what i first think is empathy is a trauma response. in my case, ive been made to actually be responsible for someone elses emotional well being, and made to feel like it was my fault if their mental health plummeted. so i overcompensate and panic and assume that people are having big emotional reactions to things, because a part of me is afraid of being responsible for someone elses self destruction, and my impulse is to go into damage control mode and coddle them. but its not even necessary because once again, im projecting assumptions onto them.

all of these go hand in hand, of course. and in all these scenarios, im not actually picking up on cues from the other person that would prompt me to feel what they feel. its not affective empathy at all. sure, maybe someone is actually upset and im able to use a degree of cognitive empathy to understand that theyre upset, but the more i examine my thought processes, the more i realize its not even cognitive empathy a lot of the time. its just projection. its like, my own existence is so large to me that i really struggle to look past myself and my own emotions and self importance. and its been very helpful to recognize all this, and stop mislabeling it as empathy, because doing so allows me to look at situations more rationally and acknowledge what i dont know, so i can instead focus on communicating with someone to figure out how they ACTUALLY feel.

#low empathy #no empathy #actually npd #actually narcissistic #npd safe #this is fine for people without NPD to rb i just dont know if i should crosstag lol

[lunarw0rks]

cod dudes with a nurse y/n but make it lowkey realistic: bc lets be real, after a 12 hr shift you do NOT want to hang out with friends, party, or socialize. ur feet hurt from walking and standing all day, your ears are tired from hearing the IV pumps beep all day, and the smell of C.diff makes u want to vomit. nurse y/n just wants to sit down or lay on the couch and be non-verbal... Gaz, price, and rudy are the sweetest. they pick that up real quick after mistakenly asking "hows ur shift" and y/n trauma dumped them for 5 hrs straight. they don't immediately ask for hugs and kisses bc they know u overwhelmed. they just pour u a cup of wine and sit next to you until YOU talk to them first. you lowkey gossip with them on ur day off or randomly be like "omg look at that dude over there next to the parking spot its giving edema". and then theres soap and ghost. Soap is clingy, yall really think hes gonna survive 12hrs of not seeing you? this man was waiting by the door at 7:15 pm. on the dot. wants to hug and kiss you and tell you about his day. but ur just so. fucking. tired. you tried to be as responsive but it always ended up with a tired "mhm". He legit got upset a few times but he'd be a good sport about it tho. eventually he caught on a couple of weeks in and now he just comes and hugs you from behind, kisses ur face, and cuddles you silently (AFTER you throw away ur dirty scrubs and shower. that C.diff smell is yucky yucky). Tells you he appreciates your care and effort for the patients every day :). Ghost.... omgg he said something lowkey offensive to you right after u got home from the worst shift of ur week. and he didnt even know WHAT he said/did, hes kinda bad a picking up ur cues. nurse y/n just turned around slowly, gave him the NASTIEST side eye, and stared at him for a good 2.5 min. This man immediately retreated from ur couch to wherever he was b4 like a hermit going back to its shell lmao. 2 hrs later you find a small written note and ur fave gurl dinner on the dining table.

Alejandro..... this man is SO PROUD of his s/o being a nurse. hes showing you off every chance he gets!!! He takes Nursing week SERIOUSLY. give you massages, spas, gifts, ect. but he doesnt get how tired and overwhelmed you are. you have to physically tell him to stop asking or letting his family asking medical question. "No ale. I will NOT look at auntie's mole on her stomach. when im off the clock im OFF THE CLOCK :("

Valeria threatens to beat up the management for you lol. she hates how you get treated by them sometimes. you didnt get the recognition you deserve. Def bosses her cartel men around to buy you gifts and such. one time she organized a whole day to spoil and pamper you. she gave you her own version of Daisy Award 🥺💞 Konig observes and internally analyzes ur every move. he panics tho. like "OMG she home but she already has a bottle of wine its different from the one she had yesterday.. omg omg she didnt even say hello that means her shifts was extra shitty today.... why is she sipping on the wine for so long and the last sip is longer than all previous sips........" He eventually learned you just need silent company. you were laying on the bed feeling burned out when he came over with some soup, kissed ur hand, and wrapped you in a blanket burrito :).

ah, realistic nurse!y/n. this is a breath of fresh air for me.

they're all trying their best. and honestly, what better pair? they also have an overstimulating, kinda gross (blood and bodily fluids), exhausting career !!

it's a match made in heaven !! (aside from the whole... miscommunication and barely seeing each other thing. but what's a good ship without some gut-wrenching angst?)

#nurse!y/n #nurse!reader #mw2 #call of duty #task force 141 #141 headcanons #141 #tf 141 #141 task force #tf 141 x reader #141 x reader #141 hcs #cod hcs #cod headcanons #mw2 hcs #mw2 headcanons #los vaqueros #rachel speaks #not writing

[penisliker-moved]

pike i try rly hard not t be bitchy abt my parents circumstances bc ik theyre.. "trying". but theyre trying 18 uears too fucking late yk

#th favt that. th other day my dad asked me t lend him 100$ bc his bank ws in th red #which yk. fine. as long as you pay me back. but then Literally immediately after he transferred th money he went and got starbucks with it #like. gd. dude. i want to ficking help #ive known Since i first learned what money was that i was gonna end up financially supporting them for my entire life. yk #but when i ws a kid i ws fuckinf exciged to help out i wa excited to make things better i wa excited t be a good kid and take care of them #bt they just dont appreciate it at all and i dont wanna sound like some capitalist bitch like They dont appreciate th money we give them 😡 #but also like. gd. they say thank you but them they blow it all on random useless shit they dont need #our fucking power got shut off yesterday. bc they didnt pay for it #and they treat me like a fucking atm and if im even slightly upset when they ask for more money they act like im totally unreasonable #my mom starts like crying anytime i even slightly look upset ehen she asks for money #i judt. gdddd #ABD THEY KEEP SAYING SHIT LIKE hehe maybe well move up to washington with you ^-^ #my moms on her vanlife bullshit like OMG ill drive my van up ^-^ shut the fuck up #no #th only time i ever want to see them after i move out is me visiting them #or my siblings visiting me. i dont want my parents tbe at my future apt #i dont want hal t have to meet them ik itll have to eventually but i dont want him to. genuinely #i dont want them t sit on my couch i dont want them t eat my food i dont want them there i fuckinf dont. Andi donr even live there yet #whatever..plus like #theyre almost definitely gonna lose the house. which I knew from th secind my dad announced #tht he ws buying a house #but gd man like. i didnt think itd be so fucking quick lmaooo. they sort of tricked me again #like they always do. into thinking Maybe theyll keep a promise for once #whatevrr. sey #im just a bitchy teen though!!!

[gabessquishytum]

Water spirit Dream anon here. Just wanna say Im LOVING the yes anding on that one it feels amazing like when people love your dish at a potluck. Anyway Ive just had the most Week of all time punctuated by my period coming and I would like to wallow so lemme just sneak in here.

After Hob's return to the Dream Pool or whatever, he's like holy shit I have children! And a spouse? And they live fucking outside!!!! I haven't cooked one meal!! Haven't changed a single diaper!! Haven't rubbed even a single sore foot! I'm a terrible husband and provider ;-; he's so upset bc he's basically by his own definition a deadbeat and he always wanted to be the BEST dad and husband. And Dream is like I am a spirit. Your children are half spirit. We are literally nature elementals. We belong outside. We do not eat meals as such. And as for bad husband, well. Coming home to fuck and then fucking off to do your thing is kind of the divine relationship norm. And Hob is like well theyre also half human so we need a HOUSE. And good luck getting rid of me now bc I'm not leaving for the rest of forever, I'm gonna make up for lost time with my babies. What are their names.

So Hob builds a small house to live in near Dream and enjoys very much his new family. The kids are indeed half spirit, so they grow faster and a little stranger than Hob's used to with Human kids, but they're his, and he loves them. He's also absolutely smitten with Dream, now that he's actually gotten to know him. His little house expands into a large temple built into the mountainside, with a large courtyard and Dream's pool in the center of it. Eventually Dream asks Hob if he really meant what he said about staying forever. He could share his divinity with him and tie him to Dream's pool, only able to drink from there and nowhere else. He'd live forever, with Dream. And of course that sounds wonderful :)

Long after their progeny are grown and out upholding their fathers' legacies, Hob stays as the priest and caretaker of Dream's temple. They fuck happily for forever after.

Ahhh water spirit anon! So glad you've been enjoying all the shenanigans <3

I looove Hob being a stand up dude, a provider, a Good Dad. I think that's very sexy of him. So of course he's upset and worried when he finds out that he's got kids and he hasn't contributed anything to their lives except his stinky human dna!! He feels terrible because if his kids are half human then surely they need someone to help them learn human things, and he hasn't even started doing that! Dream is amused and rather confused by Hob’s stress but tries to soothe him as best he can. There's plenty of time to teach the children. They're still basically babies, they don't need to learn how to light fires or anything yet.

Still, Hob essentially stays up for 24 hours to build a house. And Dream has admit that it's nice and cozy, while still being close enough to the water for his comfort. Hob makes tables and chairs and a bed (Dream is very interested in this) and toys for the little ones, and becomes a very happy stay at home dad. The kids are weird and beautiful but very much Hob’s kids (they drive Dream mad with their stubbornness and knack for getting into trouble). And they are also so loved.

Hob is more in love with Dream than ever by the time they get around to getting officially "married" - Hob gets the immortality and the responsibility of taking care of Dream’s temple, which he was doing anyway. He still can't believe that Dream chose him. Occasionally they relive the first time by fucking in the pool, and Hob will bounce Dream on his cock and praise every aspect of him: mind, body, soul. Sometimes Dream pretends like he's a human and they go to bed in the house Hob built. Dream wants to wait a couple of centuries before he bears more children, and Hob will wait patiently - next time, he'll be there to watch Dream’s pregnancy. Probably a good thing he's immortal now, because seeing Dream full of his baby(s) might be enough to kill him <3

#the sandman #dreamling #nsft