#im just saying what we’re all thinking

[cheapbourbon]

What if: Moon Knight- everything is exactly the same just Khonshu is 50% more slutty.

#moon knight #khonshu #bird dad thirst trap #im just saying what we’re all thinking #the birb is hot #hotter then Marc and co. #(warm up sketch XD )

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Just thinking about the universe and catalysts and paths diverging so you can learn and grow before merging again!

Eddie got buried under 40feet of mud and had to take a different route to get back to the surface (even ground)- he was buried under his trauma and couldn’t get out by going back the way he came so he had to forge a new path. Which we then saw him do through seasons 4 and 5.

Then there’s Buck climbing that crane after Eddie got shot but metaphorically speaking, he never came back down. The idea of detachment from the world - you can still see it and you’re still part of it, but you’re not actively participating in it (Which is also a metaphor for donor not dad!). It connects in really interestingly with touch points of Bucks storyline since the well - his searching for something (a way down) while we keep seeing scenes happening involving height/ high things - the train rescue, then he met Abby on a hill overlooking the city (the same metaphor)blimps, walkways collapsing, the fact we’ve been out on bucks balcony a few times even the fact we’ve seen the firefam up on the roof of the firehouse!

It’s so interesting how the two arcs are paralleling each other and counterbalancing each other at key points - starting from the well. It’s the same trigger points for them both and how Buck tried to dig to get to Eddie but couldn’t because Eddie needed to find his own way back to the ground, and how Eddie is going to try to get to Buck but won’t be able to, because Buck needs to find his own way down (by this I mean separate from Eddie as if he’s in a coma he won’t be getting down on his own in the literal sense!)

It also therefore stands to reason that the flashbacks (or coma dream for Buck) will counter balance each other as well. Eddie’s flashbacks showed him his family - the one he was building and made him realise that Buck is a central part of that and I would argue, allowed him to recognise and accept that Shannon, whilst an important relationship in his life and someone he loved, was also toxic for him and that he could put that part of his life to rest. Bucks coma dream will conversely (most likely as we don’t actually know at this point) show him what life would be like without Eddie and Chris in it (fully expecting 6x11 to be an Eddie free episode because his absence is more telling and important then his presence!) and how what he thinks he wants and what he actually wants (and is already on his way to getting) are two different things - that the fantasy childhood he’s been dreaming of wouldn’t necessarily lead him to a happy adult life - that what he has fought to build is far better.

The universe is taking matters into its own hands to get him down - it might have been happy to let Eddie take a longer route to get back to the ground, because Eddie was making progress but Buck has been stuck in the air ultimately in stasis so it’s going to be a quicker route to the ground as it just shocks (literally and metaphorically) him into action and to getting back to the ground.

We’re so close to them both being in the same place at the same time that I’m vibrating at the epic story unfolding

#does this even make sense?? #im not sure I’ve said what I’m trying to say at all #but the writers and the cast and crew are just so good #because the layering is incredible #the idea of active toiling towards a recovery #versus getting stuck and going nowhere before something happens to jolt you into recovery #it’s fight flight or freeze in its finest form and fits so brilliantly with their characters #Eddie is fight while buck is flight and freeze!! #they are telling an epic love story #we’re so close #god I love this show so much #kym thinks thoughts #911 spoilers #911 on fox #911 fox #911onfox #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie

[tortellinigirl]

I feel like recently, ADHD has kind of become shorthand for “a person who is annoying online and has no real problems,” and I don’t really think that’s awesome news, given the context that ADHD has a long history of being disregarded as a made up disorder that’s just an excuse for poor/obnoxious behavior, no matter how much scientific research proves otherwise. ADHD is not by any means the only disorder that has people making a thousand misleading tiktoks about it, so perhaps do some critical thinking about why specifically ADHD has become the poster child for that behavior. There are certainly valid criticisms to be made of the way we discuss mental health online, but maybe use your brain and determine why this disorder in particular is the one that’s easiest to point at for being “annoying” and “not that big of a deal.”

#idk maybe if u actually watched a couple of the tiktoks u might learn that the lack of focus thing is reall not the main issue #its just what the people around us are most likely to notice and be bothered by #not saying it doesnt get obnoxious seeing people say the same thing over and over #and yes some people are like purposely vague and disingenuous about the symptoms to get views from people thinking they have it now #but i see that with everything. like autism PTSD depression OCD anxiety #im always getting tiktoks saying that im a lesbian or i have repressed memories or “x normal thing is a symptom of y disorder!!” #and yes its annoying but its probably somewhat helpful to people who actually are dealing w those things #and also like. if u simply stop treating ur for you page like a crystal ball that sees into your soul and reflects it back #and realize its just an algorithm designed to make u interact whether thats bc u like what u saw or fucking hated it #then u will not be as bothered ! #but yes our generation seems to have a habit of constantly trying to find the right box to out ourselves in so we can be like. “marketable” #like people seem to want to design their personality like an movie character or something #but its so shitty that we’re dog piling all that on ADHD as if our specific disorder has anything to do with it #also personally i think its kind of normal to be really focused on a particular aspect of your identity when u just discovered it #and it usually evens out and just becomes part of the background of your identity #but yes there’s often a problem with pathologizing normal things #but i think its important to recognize that lots of things that are normal occasionally are pathological in excess. like thats how it works #like we’ve all been through how being sad sometimes is not the same as depression #why cant we grasp that occasionally going into a room and forgetting why you’re there isnt the same as ADHD #my posts

[chirpsythismorning]

Dustin and Lucas @ Byler in ST5:

#stranger things #stranger things cast #st cast #stranger things memes #byler #gaten: what are they doing?? #caleb: *filming* 😃 #no but fr im convinced dustin is gonna be the first one to look at them like hmmm #then look over at lucas who is already coming to the same realization #or i especially think Dustin’s gonna mention all the whining about how he couldnt get a while if Will #and Mike Will just be like ZIP IT HENDERSON! #also.. in Suzie’s room we get a closeup of her picture frame w Dustin and the clock next to it says 5x02… #theory something substantial happens with Dustin and potentially byler since #most the scenes from Suzie’s house we’re from Mike’s pov/byler coded #I consider myself a ‘Mike finds out about Will’s feelings for him in 5x02 and it’s part of the cliffhanger truther’… #and this potential Easter egg has me going 👀

[pendraegon]

why is pete wentz important to me?? like him, i was a non white kid who grew up in a very white neighborhood in the chicagoland area and it was exhausting and isolating and so so so lonely it could make your teeth hurt. like him, i’m bipolar and no one has ever quite gotten close to describing what my highs and lows are like, but he’s the only one who has gotten close. (do you know what it's like being so so so manic and you know you're not okay and everything rushes around you and you feel like you're on top of the world but you know it's all a lie? an illusion? do you know what it feels like to plummet down so so so so deep and dark and there's nothing but you and that gaping ache inside of you, reminding you just how hollow and fake you are?) like him, i grew up enthralled and obsessed with rock, punk, the hardcore scene of chicago, and there was nothing and no one there for people like me and people who looked like me in a place and sound that i loved more than anything on earth. i saw him reflected in me and in the most non creepy parasocial way possible, he has been one of the most incredible influences of my life. maybe even one of the possible sunshines of my lifetime for all he is still a stranger to me, and i to him.

#for legal reasons as a joke — we’re also both bi. #but he means the WORLD to me. forever and always. #do NOT try to come at me with pete wentz slander i will kill you. sorry for not shutting up about this. im just incredibly annoyed. #he's not infallible. he's made so many mistakes in his life. and im not excusing any of them but you know #i wonder why pete gets SO much virulent hate and always has. might be the racism and ableism. but who knows. not me! #anyways stream mania by american rock band fall out boy (2018). legit life changing fucking album. also stream #their newest album so much (for) stardust. actually stream all their albums they're all so so so so good. i don't know who i'd be or where #i'd be without em. fall out boy forever and ever<3 fall out boy is for lovers<3 #also one last thing: you don't need to like him! you don't need to like fob either! it's just so so so wild the way misinfo about pete #specifically still exists. in fucking 2023. like get a fucking grip babes i was deep in those fucking forums in 2008 i know what's up. #okay. i hope you guys are ready im going to spam patrick images i think. what can i say. i miss them without a concert to look forward to.

[im-still-watching-anime]

i am officially, FINALLY all caught up again in both the manga and the anime for bsd and OH BOY there are thoughts and opinions but also WHO CARES because my tags are finally FREE to be unfiltered

#hnnnnnn #i am SO happy #i am BEYOND happy #i love the arc even if i complain about it a lot #but i am also hnnnnnn…….displeased……..with a few things #the anime fr about to catch these hands #i already KNEW they were rushing it from the few episodes i had watched #but the anime is usually SO good at pacing #that i fully trusted that certain things would be slowed down for significance/impact/etc #but instead the pacing just stayed WAY too fast for me #and they ended up cutting SO many small moments that had SO much importance like im going crazy about some of them #some of the lines they cut……. #or even adjusted slightly that it drew away the impact #ugh i KNOW there was a LOT to balance and a LOT of content to get through #but i am a little disappointed that so many emotional scenes were what ended up suffering for it #this is why i don’t usually like reading the manga for animes i watch #i always end up getting disappointed by the limitations of adaptations #that being said though regardless of general limitations i don’t think some of the rushing is above criticism #and i am going to go and eat glass while seething over the particularly offensive rushing/cuts😤 #OKAY DONE that’s the last i’ll say about it i would just go crazy if i didn’t vocalize it somewhere #in general i was VERY happy with the arc in both the manga and the anime i have SO much love for it #definitely a favorite for me #and THAT concludes my very vague no spoiler review #i swear one of these days my self control is going to snap #and im just going to start posting my full essays and content analysis shit about everything i watch here #but for now we’re safe and all my rants will stay spoiler free tag paragraphs instead godbless🙏

[quietwingsinthesky]

what if. Amy “fix-it” because hallucifer makes sam so paranoid about dean leaving for no reason that sam gives in and follows him and is witness to the whole thing

#hallucifer: wow. big brother really trusts us. (beat) so something’s up right? we know it’s never this easy. #sam: (visibly restraining himself from saying shut up. about to grab his scar.) #hallucifer: (aware he’s about to be banished) don’t listen to me if you want but. I’m just trying to help. #don’t blame me if you look in the papers tomorrow and find a obit for your brain-eating girlfriend. and… what was her kid’s name again? #sam: (touching the scar. not pressing down. face all screwed up.) || hallucifer: :3 it’s not like it’ll hurt anyone #if he really does trust you he doesn’t even have to know we’re following him. *and* you’ll know your brother still trusts you. #even when I’m here. maybe he won’t even punch you again. that still hurting? #sam: (grimace. because yeah. it does.) || hallucifer: door number two - he thinks you’ve lost it and he’s going to stab that woman to death. #so what’s it gonna be Sam? ready to gamble your friend’s life on if Dean gives a shit about your opinion? #[and that’s the point where sam goes to follow dean. still doesn’t talk to Lucifer. not there yet. but oh hallucifer is sooo pleased with #himself about this. because he’s Sam. and he picks up on what Sam doesn’t. and he could see all of Dean’s little giveaways that Sam was #turning a blind eye to. and now here’s the perfect opportunity to put a wedge between them and get sam to trust him more <3) #GOD. FUCK. IM UPSET NOW. WHY WASNT HALLUCIFER IN THAT EPISODE. MOST OF THE EPISODES? #such a good fucking concept. squandered. #anyway. idk if sam saves Amy but he DEFINITELY here’s Dean’s little speech to her about how she can’t change. #hallucifer with faux sympathy like (sigh) damn. well. i always told you what he was like. Michael. Michael-sword. no difference. #both of them want us dead the moment we step out of line. #and Sam just frozen there in horror with Lucifer’s voice sinking in. and he believes him. how can he not. with dean proving him right #hallucifer #spn #sam winchester #amy pond

[jinjofitzo]

i fucking hate being black in america sometimes

#vent #i love being black and i love my body of course #but it’s so hard. we’re always brushed over and if we say anything about it #we’re demeaning other causes and causing an issue… #there has been bills passed for the protection of the lgbtqia and asian/pasific islander communities #but there’s still no bill passed for anti lynching #black women are still payed less than white women #and i know ; i absolutely am so glad those bills were passed #i myself am queer and my boyfriend is asian #but im just . im really upset and sad #i feel over shadowed and it’s already hard with discrimination and micro aggressions and #if the kids in my class are joking about lynching me now #wjo knows what my future will be like #jf.txt #tw vent #i wish living life wasn’t so hard man. like #let’s take a daily thing like school #the teachers think that i’m up to no good just because i “look suspicious”! i have to work extra hard to be nice to everyone #and have a great record but #i see kids all the time who get away with so much bad stfuf #but then when im the one who does it i get in trouble… #i don’t feel good at all really… hopefully things can change soon

[kugisaaki]

sighhhhhhh

#everybody that was ‘against’ the bjp celebrating the ram mandir inauguration today as if it isn’t just a ploy to get more votes and inflict #more of their ethnostate ideals with the inevitable violence that it’ll bring to people with other religions. if these people can forcefully #make a muslim man say jai shree ram for his own life what makes u fucking think things are going to get any better after today ??? for all #religious minority groups in india??? and glossing over this whole thing by saying ‘at least we’re giving them land to make their mosque!’ #is so… does that make all the people that died due to their religious beliefs come back?? does that instantly stop all the violence that is #is happening/ will happen? this is so fucking frustrating how bjp carries these huge events out to get votes and people readily give them #this is all coming from a hindu im not gonna celebrate this when violence against other religious minorities comes from doing so #fuck bjp oh my god just thinking about it makes me so #mehak.exe

[teethbomb]

alador blight fan mood board

#Im trying so hard not to engage I feel like a bomb #I know his arc was handled badly but the shortening of the owl house should be the give away #And I personally think that the boards weren’t only cut for time!! #People are really mad he was redeemed at all but I think we forget that this guy was intended to portray a victim of abuse #Abuse shouldn’t have to be physical for it mean something #No I am not excusing what he did what he did was shitty but what I am saying is I don’t think he knew that #He thought what he was doing was in the kids best interest and when amity confronted him his eyes opened #I’ve seen people call him spineless and “woobified” and that is lost on me entirely #He stood up to Odalia and broke everything when he found out about her goals #He still has his temper he’s just not lashing out on his kids #Claims of him being turned soft don’t make sense to me because he’s been chasing butterflies the whole time! He was under Odalia s thumb #Until he learned it was hurting his kids and he stood up. #His arc isn’t perfect it’s far from it but the guy was in an abusive relationship for most of his life #I Can see the disconnect some are having but I think we’re really focusing too hard on some cut scenes #I Can see people getting upset with him especially those who relate to amity but I think it’s ironically pushing blame #Not everything can be pinned on Odalia but I think we should let abuse victims grow no matter their age #I guess it just makes me sad to see a character I see so much of myself in being dragged like this lol #Alador blight

[trashbaget]

tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍 #but like. ​i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation. #which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what) #anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up ���� #i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.) #anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡 #but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦 #cheers to being fools universe

[needylittlegirl]

sometimes ill be doing some normal everyday task and ill stop and realizing that im doing it pissed as hell cause i started thinking about yolanda saldivar

#brushing my teeth like 😡😡😡😡 #selena quintanilla queen of tejano and queen of little mexican american girls that cant speak spanish (me) #when i was like 7 years old i was having a TOUUGHH time at school #cause kids were saying like oh your mom looks weird she doesnt look like our moms! #and my dads white and im very white like visually #so i was getting a lot of people asking like What Are You are you adopted etc etc #and then on the flipside all of my cousins speak spanish but i dont #cause im the youngest and by the time i was born all the spanish speakers in my fam had learned english #so it was very like whatever way i turned i wasnt fitting in #so my mom sat me down and made me watch selena and i criiies and cried #like no i dont look like her but we’re both 3rd gen girls who were a little lost with their cultures and stuff #also dont tell my mom any of this she says im white passing to white ppl but mexicans always Know #which is true ive had mexican people ask if im mixed or wtf is up #its gotta be my nose like 100000% #i think my nose and body type and hair are the noticeable features #i was also raised super culturally by my moms side of the family #also i think its funny that spanish speaking people dont assume i speak it so theyll be talkin shit or something and ill know #i understand it but i dont speak it #but im getting better!! i think i probably can speak it im just not at all confident #i had to drop highschool spanish cause my teacher thought i was cheating #and she did not care when i was like girl i promise i only know this cause of my abuela pls believe me #sorry im rambling i have no clue where this is coming from #but when my grandparents moved here it was like #like 50s racism running rampant #so my grandpa tried to ditch EVERYTHING and like oretend he was italian cause that was more acceptable and all that #so he got rid of every tradition and tried to smash it down as much as he could #so of course that rubbed off on my mom #but my grandpas sisters never tried to hide it #so me and my mom have really bonded over like relearning our culture and i get to go to his sisters to teach me and its just really nice #yeah ok bye

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #suicide tw #nearly everyone i care abt rn is like so very suicidal rn and it’s making me. ghghfh #(IMPORTANT NOTE this is not me saying ‘’don’t talk to me abt suicide rn’’ i do not ever mind talking abt it ever ever #i am not ranting rn about not being able to handle the subject or complaining abt ppl talking to me abt it that’s not what this is i prommy) #im just. the realization that there are ppl who go their whole lives without ever thinking that much abt suicide #and then there’s those of who are disabled and/or queer and for us it’s just. a constant #for ourselves for our loved ones for ppl on the periphery of our circles like everyone we brush shoulders with #the amount of time we have to spend talking ourselves and others into just staying a while longer #bc it’s so fucking hard to conceptualize a future for ourselves for so many reasons #and even harder to make that future viable bc it depends on other people helping us #it just makes me want to fucking. idk! break something! #like how do you make people understand this if they’ve never been through it #and how do you convince them that it’s worth it to try and understand where we’re coming from #when their default way of thinking abt it is that you only get to this point if u do smth wrong or just don’t try hard enough #or are some kind of moocher trying to exploit ppl who ‘’work harder’’ #i fucking hate this so much #i just keep thinking about engels’ explanation of social murder #and getting so angry i feel fucking ill #people are fucking killing my friends and it’s like all i can do is like… #try my best to plug whatever wounds i can manage meanwhile the killer is still fucking stabbing them over and over #anyway. god. again none of this is to say i don’t wanna hear abt suicide or anything #i like to know and be able to talk abt it frankly #especially if there’s even the smallest thing i can do to help #im just like. suddenly hit w the disbelief of how many ppl go their whole lives without having these conversations #while me and my friends are having them multiple times a day bc it’s so fucking bad out here #insert disco elysium quote about the mask of humanity falling from capital as it kills your sweet courageous friends here i guess. #i just. wish things were better. how can people not wish that

[merevide]

i should stop making cringe posts tbh. but i can’t.

#like here at merevide hq we’re going through a little bit of a revamp and cringe text posts are on the chopping block i fear #but i always have smth to say not matter how unfunny how much it’s gonna flop or how much i’m gonna regret saying it #i can’t keep my big dumb mouth shut actually this has plagued me since forever #no it hasn’t there was/is a time where i’ll go completely silent but most of the time i like to talk i just don’t think other like #me talking 💀 like besides reblog it’s either music links or smth ridiculous #but it’s also like man i should reflect i should sit down. #bc it feels like every word i say is embarrassing NO MATTER WHAT like if i’ve ever said anything to you i’m genuinely sorry #sometimes i think i should stop talking forever but then i realize that’s just my anxiety taking over 😒 but she may have a point #i wanna talk to people sooo bad like i wanna reply i wanna ask questions. but i’m gonna say smth dumb eventually !!! im overthinking it but #idk we’ll see :P thank u all (no one) for coming to my ted talk ily #my text

[pepprs]

gonna delete this later bc i know it’s unproductive to screenshot / namedrop and i actually am thinking the best approach would just be to privately share this thought w the dev who posted this in a possibly futile attempt to effectively advocate for the change i want to see (#worktag2 lol). but im workshopping it here w my beloved mutuals first as i always do which is kinda shooting myself in the foot given that the devs can probably see that but whatever. my thought is like… i get it. i really do. i get that this place needs to stay afloat and some of that is gonna involve sacrifice or something from everyone involved. but… why would you try to snuff out the things that make this place what it is and just make it like all the other places. why would you not even take into account how the changes are going to impact EXISTING users who are loyal even if they don’t pay. people aren’t going to come to tumblr for more tiktok and instagram. they’re going to come here for tumblr. for the anonymity and the customization and whatever. so like i just don’t get it. why is the solution to this problem to experiment with changes **that existing users won’t like** and not to listen to what existing users want and do more of it bc other ppl likely will want that too.

#purrs #idk my thoughts aren’t organized and i have a stomachache so im not thinking clearly and ik i also was trashing staff earlier and that so ma #many ppl must be sending them hate and shit and i know there are probably better ways to go about things. but it’s like.. i do not feel like #i matter and belong as a long time tumblr user 😃 like why would you say this. it’s kind of like a big fuck you to the people who are here es #especially since there have been experimental features (like polls) ppl here have been wanting to see forever. like why can’t you work WITH #us instead of becoming another soulless algorithm wasteland. it just fucking sucks to feel like we don’t matter and we’re not being listened #to. and i get it like this is an age old story. but it sucks. it really does. #delete later #like idk. it just sucks to see a dev say that. why would it not even matter to you what existing users want and need and think. idk #like instead of removing the ‘it’ to get… why not just… idk. make it easier to get. instead of eliminating the it. you know? #ive been mad abt this all day which is cringe / dumb bc it’s the pikaman sword lady crab blue checkmark ‘hellsite’ and i don’t want to buy i #into the cringe staff blog persona but like. tumblr is a lifeline to me and this is just so upsetting lol