#im just a drug addict lol

[blushweddinggowns]

Steddie Drunk Dialing Fluff

Steve Harrington-Munson was probably one of the happiest men to be alive in the modern era. He had the perfect life, against all odds. Because apparently having your late teens and early twenties ruined by demons equated to a fantastic adulthood.

He had it all. A loving family, the best friend/surrogate sister he could ever ask for, and he was married to the love of his life. And okay, yes. That had included some extremely embarrassing revelations and internal meltdowns and... a pretty brutal disownment. But he had figured it all out in the end. And here he was, a decade later with a ring on his finger and a nice hyphenated name. Not to mention how he was basically a trophy husband.

Eddie hadn't wasted a moment of the last decade. A symptom of almost dying it would seem. He went for the GED, gathered the band back up, moved across the country to chase his dreams and play in every shitty dive bar he could until they were discovered. All while dragging Steve along for the ride.

As much as Steve had believed in him, neither of them had been prepared for his music career actually taking off. Especially not to the level it did. It was undeniable that his husband was an A-Lister, despite how universally hated he was by half the country. You don't get many out and proud metal front man who loved parading around his high school sweetheart at every social event he could. But Europe loved him, as did the entirety of gay, rebellious youths world wide.

It was so stupid. There Eddie was, painted as an insane freak who was fake-married. With tabloids running story after story about his secret children, his drug addiction, a wife from another country, anything that they could think of. All while Eddie spent every free moment at Steve's side, always opting for a night in with his baby when given the choice. And when he wasn't doing that, he was busy playing surrogate fun uncle to the kids, who were definitly not kids anymore. But that didn't stop them from all getting together for Dungeons and Dragons once a month, hundreds and hundreds of campaign hours on everyone's belts. And that was his life. Spending time with his family, forcing them on hikes and runs, volunteering, working occasionally to help Robin with her translating work, all while coming home to the sweetest thing that ever existed.

God, did Steve love that man. Reminiscing about the love of his life while he was on tour was not helping his fretful sleep. He just... really had given him everything. He loved him so much in fact that he was only slightly pissed when he was woken up at three a.m. from the phone ringing off the hook.

Steve reached for it blindly, still half-asleep when he mumbled, "Mm-Eds?"

"Steeeeeeeeeevie," Eddie's voice slurred back at him, "Baby booooy. How's my baby boy? I miss my baby boy."

Steve smiled despite himself, yawning into the phone. Eddie was lucky he was so cute, considering how the love of his life who could not remember what time zones were, "He misses you too. And he's a little tired right now babe. What's up?"

"Day drunk," Eddie sighed, "Guys, morning show, mimosas, hotel room to sleep it off. Missing you."

"You won't be missing me for long," Steve softly laughed. Though... hearing his voice was quite the reminder of how cold the bed suddenly felt, "Just... one more week. That's not too long right?"

"Too long!" Eddie groaned, dramatic, "I miss you now. Why can't I see you now? Wait-Can I see you now? Cause planes and trains and-"

"And no," Steve interrupted with a chuckle, "You'd only get me for a few hours before you'd have to leave again."

"Worth it," Eddie mumbled out, his voice a little muffled as he tumbled around in his hotel bed, "Want my baby."

The pathetic tilt to his voice was enough to make Steve's heart clench. God he was too precious. Suddenly a red-eye in the middle of the night for a two hour make-out session didn't sound like such a bad idea. But he could be the strong one for tonight, "You have me sweetheart. Want me to stay on until you fall asleep."

"Yes please," Eddie sighed, "Love your voice. It's so... nice. Like... audible perfume. Like poetry or something."

"Oh baby you are wasted," Steve said as he laid back down, nestling the phone to his ear, "Please tell me you drank some water before laying down?"

"... maybe?"

"Babe."

"I knoooow. Keep nagging me though. I missed that too."

"Is my bitching your bed time story?"

He could hear Eddie nodding, rusting against the fabric, "And it's the best. Keep going?"

Steve rolled his eyes, but he did what he was asked. Saying every silly little grievance he could think of. He whined about how cold it was in bed without him, how Eddie had promised to take out the trash before he left and forgot. Again. How he hated how quiet it was without him, how much he missed hearing his voice trailing in and out of every room.

And Eddie listened, mumbling out a few sleepy m'sorrys and I love yous along the way. Until all Steve could hear was the slow, steady sound of his breathing. But he didn't hang up. Not when that was one of his favorite sounds in the world. And the perfect thing to fall asleep to.

Steve smiled to himself as he closed his eyes, a little amazed that Eddie could still make him feel so loved, from hundreds of miles away.

But one thing was for sure. He still had to be the happiest man on earth.

#steddie #steddie ficlet #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #ive written steve as a cursed prince #an emt #a counselor #a bartender #but now I write him as ME #Eddie Munson Arm Candy #Offical Title #i havent lost my love for them #im just a drug addict lol #a FUNCTIONING ONE #recovering #it's chill #i'm trying #in a slightly better place #yeah they went to cali for his music career but its cool #Robin went with #I'm going crazy in these tags the fuck #they are highschool sweethearts fuck it #he was in highschool when they met #close enough #fluff #so fluff #im like getting it out of my system #an exercise in writing and then sharing said writing even if it sucks #because I think everything i write sucks right now

[fluffyartbl0g]

Everytime I go into the Zosopp tag, I just see people SCREAMING CRYING SOBBING about the lack of posts IN the Zosopp tag. THE ZOSOPP ECONOMY IS IN SHAMBLES

#one piece #op fanart #zosopp #roronoa zoro #usopp #this was also just an excuse to play dress up with zoro and usopp XD #oh why is usopp wearing a detective outfit??? #well im so glad you asked!!! #The gang stopped at this town on an island and there seemed to be some mysterIOUS shenanigans going on #robin and usopp formed a watson and sherlock holmes duo!!! but only usopp dressed for the part LOL #cue usopp getting super into his role and interviewing whoever he can while robin solves the whole mystery with just a few clues #she likes watching usopp have his fun tho wahah so she follows him around and nudges him in the wrong direction for funsies #the ultimate reveal ... usopp: MS BAKER IS THE ONE WHO STOLE THE COOKI- Robin: yeah they're all trading addictive drugs #Ms baker: DRATS and i wuda gotten away with it too if it werent for u two meddling kids!!! #am i talking about usopp and robin on my zosopp post? yeauh #anyways usopp is like wauwah ROBIN!!!!!! UUUU >:((((!!!!! #then he trots off to zoro because he hasnt seen him all day and he wants to tell him about the fun adventure he just had XD

[bandaidfingers]

🩸BRAM STOKER’S DRACULA (1992)🩸

Not a favorite Dracula movie of mine by any means, but a must-watch movie for a lot of non-Dracula related reasons. This movie is an absolute visual treat, the sets and costumes are stunning throughout, and is filled with excellent actors including Gary Oldman as Dracula and Anthony Hopkins as Van Helsing. It really isn’t a horrible adaptation either as it follows the sequence of events in the books fairly accurately, and features narration from the characters in the style of diary entries which I really enjoy as a reference to the epistolary structure of the original novel. This move is also one of the rare few that features the entire cast supporting characters, however I have mixed feelings about their portrayal, particularly Mina Harker’s odd romance with Dracula (another dead-ringer reincarnated wife romance subplot—completely uninspired) which I find to be a distasteful treatment of her character even with her original personality still being somewhat intact in other ways. Ultimately this movie is worthwhile only if I don't actually think of it as a Dracula movie haha.

My favorite scene in this, which I based my little illustration off of, is when Dracula’s shadow is moving behind Jonathan, I love the way it starts out subtle enough that you might not be sure you’re seeing it right, gradually getting more out of sync up to the moment it begins moving completely independent of him. I think it’s brilliant.

Anyway, happy Halloween everyone, and I hope you’ve enjoyed both my artwork and my movie chatter this month :)

#dracula #bram stoker's dracula #dracula 1992 #keanu reeves #inktober #hannah’s dractober #I feel like I should have tried harder to make lil keanu actually look like keanu instead of like the way I drew Jonathan in #jonathan harker's adventures in castle dracula lol but honestly that's the way I envision him when I think about this movie. he brought #such little dude energy to jonathan in this lol #while rewatching this I forgot that #one of dracula's brides bites jonathan's dick when they're like accosting him and man I screamed lmao. the sfx like dear god she BIT him #it like crunches asjfhds poor jonathan lmfao #I have such mixed feelings about this movie making Jack Seward do drugs. on one hand Im like ew it's just to make him seem gritty which is #cheap but on the other hand Jack Seward self-medicater teetering dangerously on the precipice of becoming an addict does actually feel very #in character. I think that's a good and interesting direction to push his personality in #very Stephen Maturin of him actually hahaha

[romanroygirls]

logan mentions in the first ep that kendall was "still in the nut house three years ago" so that's why he couldn't do The Job and this makes me so angry. three years is a long time in sobriety. it's actually a huge accomplishment because addiction is so difficult, especially in the executive business. kendall has to look away from stewy doing coke so he wouldn't be tempted. coke in their business is just an appetizer for heavier stuff and kendall tried so much, so hard only for logan to write him off as incapable for having a fucking illness

#i dont even know if this makes sense but i got so angry when i remembered that #people dont take addiction as an illness bc they think is as simple as 'just dont do drugs!' #i seriously saw people say kendall's relapse was stupid. and now i wonder how this person sees addiction and mental illness irl lol #so anyway im glad logan is dead and kendall fucking tried to do everything and anything to make his father see him #and in the end it was useless but he tried and i feel so bad that he relapsed after 3 years #im starting to mourn kendall now rip #succession #kendall roy

[yousaytomato]

I've got one day of work left (today), and then 5 days off, the most days in a row I've had off since NOVEMBER

I'm also going to try and do a self-imposed TikTok ban for these 5 days because otherwise I am just going to spend 5 days depressed in bed </3

#i had 3 days off in Dec i think and apart from that i get every other weekend off together #ik this is probably Normal for a lot of people but it feels like. a lot. #i dont quite believe it lol #it's not even that long #woes of emily #will update on the TikTok thing i think i might just spend more time here #I've allowed it for myself so far this week because work is tricky and sometimes im anxious #and i want that easy low effort and immediate distraction #it fully is addictive and like a drug to me :/ 5 days cold turkey feels like a lot #because i dont even have a timer on it atm #talking about this is embarrassing but i know im not the only one

[morningmarionette]

i think someone should kill me. violently. make my body unidentifiable. dismember me. discard my limbs in different parts of town.

#mari fucking struggles 😞 #risking it all typing this on my school computer lol #i mean the worst theyll do is call my mommy and then ill just idk #be mental irl i have nothing to lose anymore man idc #if i were a band kid and deadly afraid of drug addiction i would get high rn.... #the only reason im not completely suicidal is cuz i wanna grow up to be a tired 37 y/o who works with the unbearably hyper teenager #who learns to love themself again while also gifting life knowledge to said teenager like were in a movie or smth #also bc i need to own a victorian estate and have pretty dresses and be hauntingly beautiful and marry a gyaruo #but none of this will happen if i dont get to go to college within 2 years of graduating high school #since 3rd grade my policy has been if i dont get into college suicide. #that probably says alot about me huh #3rd graders are 8-9 btw (i was 8) #i kinda hope the school clocks me but also i hope not cuz itd be sooo hard explaining that i have multiple mental illnesses that #make me wanna kms and sometimes i over share these things online for anybody to see #i trust my mutuals tho lol weve known each other since 2019 thats longer than literally anyone i actively consider a friend irl to date. so #i need to be killed. #mari vents

[autistic-shroom-trip]

ARGH IM SO DIZZY ALL THE TIME

Never quit smoking this is awful

#man this sucks #why cant i just use substances without getting addicted #id love to be able to use in moderation but nooooo #i just have to make a problem out of everything #not talking about cigarettes anymore lol #but like literally i cannot stop everything at once #drugs and cigarettes i mean #like what am i gonna do without all those things its like noting was missing before i started using but now that drugs have become part of #my LIFESTYLE💅 #its like something is really missing when i dont have that #what am i gonna replace that with #before i would replace speed with weed #and weed with cigarettes #now its replacing cigarettes with weed #so im high af all the time and it's not even fun anymore #watching breaking bad makes me miss the good good meth speed #😔

[transexualbutchfagdyke]

genuinely kinda funny when you say something you assumed to be normal and everyone starts acting weird. like I've told yall my trauma before you should NOT be shocked

#didnt happen recently just thinking #also happens when i talk about drugs. my friend group mostly knows im a former addict but ill mention smth and i get 😟😟😟😟 LOL #ratt squeaks

[pagesofkenna]

I'm starting to feel once again like taking a break from social media would be good for me, but I'm also nervous about losing the human contact that comes seeing people reacting to my posts, and reacting to other peoples posts

#i want... to connect with you all directly... #i want more friends on Discord tbh. who i can just check in on occasionally #ive never been good at messaging friends out of the blue which is why social media is nice #it lets us all parallel play and check in on each other indirectly which is nice #but... its a double edged sword? #because i can absolutely feel the social media addiction digging its claws into me. constantly checking for notifications and reactions #and the fact that i feel scared i'll lose the benefit if i quit the drug is PART of the addiction i think? #anyway if literally anyone wants to chat with me on discord my username is KennaM #1381 #damnit i forgot the hashtag wouldnt work in the tags lol #anyway. even if we rarely ever chat or you dont consider us friends but you want to #im considering taking the whole rest of this week off #what i've done in the past is still checked my notes and tags for things i want to reblog #or specific peoples blogs if i know they're doing cool stuff #but staying off my dashboard and my 'for you' page etc. staying away from the feed #im rambling. my head hurts and i feel stretched thin

[metropoliseaten]

Whenever ppl do anything like. ‘quirky’ or ‘random’ in either a funny or scary way and the first response is to be like omg what drugs are you on or like jesus you’re acting like a tweaker like. Get a different joke? It’s past midnight so this isn’t well thought out and I’m sure other ppl already said it better but like jeez drugs do not exist just for comedy or shock value and addicts r real people? Get a grip. And don’t reblog this plz

#not mad at anyone here i know better than to vague where people can see it #and also i hope this doesn’t come across as ‘guy with a straight edge tumblr icon talking about how drugs are bad’ i prommy that’s not my #intent. harm reduction all the way pro legalization all the way. this is about ppl who don’t use drugs making bad jokes #it’s also about me being pissed off that my outward whatevers of mental illness are being interpreted like that but that’s smth i’m too #tired to unpack right now; it’s about the reduction shit i’m mad at #and putting this in the tags on a single post is even less useful than a dni but i don’t want followers who make shitty jokes about addicts/ #drug use like hello? get ahold of yourself lol #rant over i don’t like making my own posts on like stances i have n stuff mostly cuz i don’t feel the need to put in the effort to ‘’’educat #e’’’ my <100 followers on topics they probably already agree with in this little leftist bubble but also i want to give the appropriate care #n ig like. seriousness/nuance to topics i think deserve it. but i’m not doing that tonite im just complaining <3

[spicedpersimmon]

im sorry but ppl on Instagram and this app acting like drinking coffee or having a mild caffeine addiction is the exact same as any other kind of addiction especially comparing it to any kind of hard drug is wild to me... like we see how those 2 things are clearly not exactly the same right?

#not trying to moralize about people who are struggling w addiction of any kind #people in active addiction are still human and deserve to be treated as such #it's just like some people are outta their miiiiinds trying to compare these things im sorry #like yes i know addiction to substances can happen with many different types of drugs legal or illegal #its just not the same lol #txt post #personal

[glitchdollmemoria]

i google how to feel less sick from cigarettes i open quora "first, stop smoking" stop being fucking patronizing. stop it. i know i shouldnt be smoking. i am fully aware of the dangers and it is not enough to stop me because addiction runs deeper than logic. just give me the home remedies and stop acting like addicts are suddenly going to stop just because you tell us drugs are bad for us, as if we havent been bombarded with that information, as if we dont carry shame from engaging in something harmful when we know the harm it causes. stop acting like addiction is a matter of moral and intellectual failure instead of a disease stemming from underlying problems that need to be addressed in order for anything to actually change. stop being patronizing and tell me what tea will make me less nauseous. this is fine to reblog but if anyone tries to fucking lecture me about my life choices im blocking you immediately

#addiction cw #smoking cw #venting #back in my fucking addict arc full speed ahead baby!!!!!!! #''wow i was able to quit weed and alcohol preeeetty fast when my schizophrenia made them too dangerous #and the withdrawal symptoms werent ever that bad so i guess im a fake addict lol so glad im better'' #jumpcut to me feeling like my body is falling apart because i just HAD to have LITERALLY anything to smoke again #fuck i am in so much pain lol! this shit is so much more painful!!!! #and i am becoming addicted so much fucking faster lol!!! lmao even!!!!!!!! #i keep telling myself that if i just find the right amount to smoke at a time then itll ease the pain without making me even sicker #thats withdrawals baby!!!!!! it has beenthree fucking days and im having withdrawals #it hurts when i smoke it hurts when i dont smoke wjat even is the point #the fact that most people apparently start with 1 or 2 a week and i had to jump in with 1 or 2 a day #or idk maybe its not exactly withdrawals but some other equally shitty thing #idk. i feel like i become dependent on drugs so fucking fast and when i try to research it i feel like im the one being dramatic #like idk why i am in this much pain except maybe that im disabled and my body is at a disadvantage #idk how it all works but idk what word is more accurate than withdrawals

[sneezes-and-stuff]

Life is a curse and existence is a prison, this has been A Week

#lol i am Not Doing Good #tw vent #tw sui ideation #sorry i just need to idk say something #bc its kinda bad and idek why #like i do know but also not really #and im scared this will be a trigger that'll bring me back to how bad i used to be #and for that long #i cant do that again #i should juat take a Clonazepam rn and go to sleep #tw drugs #ive been taking too much but i need it rn #risking addiction is better than wanting to kys ig? idek #im trying to blance things out #its gonna be ok #bc i said so

[nelly289]

Your bio says you play destiny, whats ur favorite class, super, and character? (Im bored)

I've basically only played hunter. Before all the dlc i ran with solar and liked golden gun. Once beyond light came out i pivoted to stasis and have not really looked back. Strand seems cool, but I'm really only in it for the grappling hook. (I'm just gonna keep typing for a bit because its 2:30 am, but i think that's your questions answered) I played D1 for a while, but i was young and didn't get much done. The first legendary I ran a lot was huckleberry. I don't really know why, before primary ammo was infinite it was nice, I think? Idk, but it will always have a special place in my heart. I guess the first real accomplishment I ever did was earn the whisper of the worm and its catalyst. (rip my favorite encounter/dungeon/thingy in that game) Once Dead Man's Tale rolled in I was once again hooked. The story of that encounter was so much fun, and I was addicted to hunting for a god roll. (I got like 3 I'm really happy with) Calus is (I'm not in denial) my favorite character throughout the story, maybe its the praise kink idk. How about you?

#i just kinda started typing and couldnt stop #sorry lol #196 campfire #does that tag fit? #if it doesnt #uhhhhhh #go do drugs about it #unless you have a history of addiction #then dont do that #maybe drink a glass of water #or eat some crackers #ok im gonna stop adding these now #right now #this second #now #also sorry the punctuation sucks

[powerfulkicks]

hm well i guess they did get into houses pain a little as soon as i said that

#i wish there was more like pain management stuff? #idk maybe i'm just looking for ideas lol #the conflation of taking a prescribed drug to manage pain and addiction is like. does bother me #there's definitely a middle ground #of meds and no meds at all #but they don't really get into that? #and like house is an addict yeah #i guess they get into it a little bit it seems kinda skewed? idk man #i like a lot of stuff in the show and dislike a lot as well #and yeah i relate to house a bit. especially since rn im in a horrible flare up #but house md encouraged me to try to see a doctor again! #and write up all my symptoms and history and tests i've had done in a huge document #ANYWAY just having a ramble #i think house and wilson should fuck #what who said that

[mrfoox]

Also love how... Slightly awkward it was in the beginning but then I started to talk and then he just took over and went on an topic rant and all was normal and good (:

#miranda talking shit #Did he sit and google and read about drugs for me? Yes. We really have been on that topic many times now #Idk if he likes to share his knowledge or whatever bc i have zero experience. Havent even smoked a cigarette or gotten drunk lol #I know he have a past of that when he was a teen but idk how fun it can be to discuss topics when someone knows nothing about it #I love to learn anything so i enjoy it but i cant really add any insight im just like jaha ja. Bonus: if you crush these pills and snrt the #You'll get a crazy high. Or well normal people will. Yoi and me would need more and still feel less for it #5 mins later: miranda promise me you wont crush and snort your pills... Me who literally havent taken my meds normally for weeks #'uh what you think id want to?' him: idk i just want to say that its not good and you shouldn't do it please promise me #Typical him. Anytime he shares anything positive about drs he'll add an 'its super addictive and dangerous etc' and its like... I know #I havent even smoked weed that would be the worst thing id consider trying and only in good company 😭 #I know my mind is basically wired to be more easily addicted to things so thags part why i stay away from things. #But god its fun to talk about weird topics and i love learning about anything tbh