#i havent lost my love for them

[blushweddinggowns]

Steddie Drunk Dialing Fluff

Steve Harrington-Munson was probably one of the happiest men to be alive in the modern era. He had the perfect life, against all odds. Because apparently having your late teens and early twenties ruined by demons equated to a fantastic adulthood.

He had it all. A loving family, the best friend/surrogate sister he could ever ask for, and he was married to the love of his life. And okay, yes. That had included some extremely embarrassing revelations and internal meltdowns and... a pretty brutal disownment. But he had figured it all out in the end. And here he was, a decade later with a ring on his finger and a nice hyphenated name. Not to mention how he was basically a trophy husband.

Eddie hadn't wasted a moment of the last decade. A symptom of almost dying it would seem. He went for the GED, gathered the band back up, moved across the country to chase his dreams and play in every shitty dive bar he could until they were discovered. All while dragging Steve along for the ride.

As much as Steve had believed in him, neither of them had been prepared for his music career actually taking off. Especially not to the level it did. It was undeniable that his husband was an A-Lister, despite how universally hated he was by half the country. You don't get many out and proud metal front man who loved parading around his high school sweetheart at every social event he could. But Europe loved him, as did the entirety of gay, rebellious youths world wide.

It was so stupid. There Eddie was, painted as an insane freak who was fake-married. With tabloids running story after story about his secret children, his drug addiction, a wife from another country, anything that they could think of. All while Eddie spent every free moment at Steve's side, always opting for a night in with his baby when given the choice. And when he wasn't doing that, he was busy playing surrogate fun uncle to the kids, who were definitly not kids anymore. But that didn't stop them from all getting together for Dungeons and Dragons once a month, hundreds and hundreds of campaign hours on everyone's belts. And that was his life. Spending time with his family, forcing them on hikes and runs, volunteering, working occasionally to help Robin with her translating work, all while coming home to the sweetest thing that ever existed.

God, did Steve love that man. Reminiscing about the love of his life while he was on tour was not helping his fretful sleep. He just... really had given him everything. He loved him so much in fact that he was only slightly pissed when he was woken up at three a.m. from the phone ringing off the hook.

Steve reached for it blindly, still half-asleep when he mumbled, "Mm-Eds?"

"Steeeeeeeeeevie," Eddie's voice slurred back at him, "Baby booooy. How's my baby boy? I miss my baby boy."

Steve smiled despite himself, yawning into the phone. Eddie was lucky he was so cute, considering how the love of his life who could not remember what time zones were, "He misses you too. And he's a little tired right now babe. What's up?"

"Day drunk," Eddie sighed, "Guys, morning show, mimosas, hotel room to sleep it off. Missing you."

"You won't be missing me for long," Steve softly laughed. Though... hearing his voice was quite the reminder of how cold the bed suddenly felt, "Just... one more week. That's not too long right?"

"Too long!" Eddie groaned, dramatic, "I miss you now. Why can't I see you now? Wait-Can I see you now? Cause planes and trains and-"

"And no," Steve interrupted with a chuckle, "You'd only get me for a few hours before you'd have to leave again."

"Worth it," Eddie mumbled out, his voice a little muffled as he tumbled around in his hotel bed, "Want my baby."

The pathetic tilt to his voice was enough to make Steve's heart clench. God he was too precious. Suddenly a red-eye in the middle of the night for a two hour make-out session didn't sound like such a bad idea. But he could be the strong one for tonight, "You have me sweetheart. Want me to stay on until you fall asleep."

"Yes please," Eddie sighed, "Love your voice. It's so... nice. Like... audible perfume. Like poetry or something."

"Oh baby you are wasted," Steve said as he laid back down, nestling the phone to his ear, "Please tell me you drank some water before laying down?"

"... maybe?"

"Babe."

"I knoooow. Keep nagging me though. I missed that too."

"Is my bitching your bed time story?"

He could hear Eddie nodding, rusting against the fabric, "And it's the best. Keep going?"

Steve rolled his eyes, but he did what he was asked. Saying every silly little grievance he could think of. He whined about how cold it was in bed without him, how Eddie had promised to take out the trash before he left and forgot. Again. How he hated how quiet it was without him, how much he missed hearing his voice trailing in and out of every room.

And Eddie listened, mumbling out a few sleepy m'sorrys and I love yous along the way. Until all Steve could hear was the slow, steady sound of his breathing. But he didn't hang up. Not when that was one of his favorite sounds in the world. And the perfect thing to fall asleep to.

Steve smiled to himself as he closed his eyes, a little amazed that Eddie could still make him feel so loved, from hundreds of miles away.

But one thing was for sure. He still had to be the happiest man on earth.

#steddie #steddie ficlet #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #ive written steve as a cursed prince #an emt #a counselor #a bartender #but now I write him as ME #Eddie Munson Arm Candy #Offical Title #i havent lost my love for them #im just a drug addict lol #a FUNCTIONING ONE #recovering #it's chill #i'm trying #in a slightly better place #yeah they went to cali for his music career but its cool #Robin went with #I'm going crazy in these tags the fuck #they are highschool sweethearts fuck it #he was in highschool when they met #close enough #fluff #so fluff #im like getting it out of my system #an exercise in writing and then sharing said writing even if it sucks #because I think everything i write sucks right now

[femmeetart]

she just needed a king and a princess

#i got butterflies in my tummy as i was drawing this <3 #maria rambeau #carol danvers #valkyrie #brunnhilde #ship name? marvol? macaval? Carvalmar? valcaria? havent tried with brunn.. cabaria? mabro? lmaooo #art #mytrinkets #the marvels #captain marvel #fan art #tessa thompson #lashana lynch #brie larson #thor love and thunder #shout out to that love lost love found fic. made me go crazy for them #referenced that pic of the victorious cast #wlw #sapphic #ot3

[minceraftyuri]

Day 2 - Post Canon - @mcyt-yuri-week

Bek n El enjoying a pizza date in the city after having to leave the old house.

#rats smp #bekel #mcytyuriweek2023 #thos one was a struggle i havent drawn rats el enough her design is so hard for me... #the problem is that they were not designed to be rat furries they were designed to be cute mc skins. #but i refuse to draw them as humans with rat ears n tails. it would be a betrayal to my furry nature #also i lost an important layer at some point so i couldn't edit the original file. so general frustrationd. but regardless i love you bekel #i miss ratsmp </3 #undescribed #myart

[chiffonghost]

while baekhyun is seriously brainstorming drink ideas, kyungsoo is about to lose focus and propose a consensual workplace relationship 🐧🐶

#baeksoo #baekdo #baekhyun #kyungsoo #exo fanart #exo #kpop fanart #digital art #illustration #art #artist on tumblr #i havent been posting much bc i havent finished any drawings #but trust ive completely lost all my marbles since the beginning of cream soda promos #baeksoo is alive and thriving #I’m not but we make do #i love them so bad

[rqg179]

i think my favourite thing about the characterisation in free! is how ready everyone is to commit to the bit at a moment's notice. even characters who at first glance seem all moody or stoic are always just waiting for an opportunity for shenanigans

#haru talking about a waterfall as his first love #the entirety of the s2 bonus episode #you havent lost to persimmons rin! you havent! #the most important thing to remember when it comes to their characterisation #is that every major character is at most 20 years old #at the start of the series they are 16 #and god does it show #my post #free! #sorry for free! posting in 2023 but i am going thru it and i love them

[caffeinatedopossum]

I honestly don't think I was capable of fully understanding how dangerous restricting was until after I had been in recovery for like 8 months already. And I sadly really mean that. I worry about you guys :((

#i dont mean this in a condescending way i mean this in a i literally had brain damage from my ed way #if you dont care if you die or not thats one thing. but believe me when i tell you this: #your ed will not kill you fast. it will take 10+ years of physical and psychological torture. and yes i mean torture thats not exaggeratio #and if you decide in ten years that its not worth and you want to recover thats awesome of course #but theres a high likelihood of irreversible damage at that point #it doesnt take a lot to make your body sick #not nearly as much as i think you guys think #the things you're sacrificing are not under your control. you didnt choose to be sick and you do deserve to be helped #we all make it out one way or another #i just hope you guys make it out sooner than i did #because no one deserves that and i mean it. not even me #the things your ed can do to you arent even talked about. not in media not even in a lot of anorexia forums #not even by the doctors that treat them #after a few years of restricting even if you havent lost weight your body is damaged #your brain is damaged. a lot of the damage is reversible but some of it inevitably wont be #idk i know fear mongering isnt going to help any of you #i just get really mad that there arent better resources and treatments for us out there #i may be just one person but i mean this with all of my heart #i hope you find better days and health and carefree mornings and nights without the shroud of obsessive thoughts #and warmth and love and the mental clarity and strength to keep fighting #you all mean so much to me #and this blog will always be a safe space for people struggling with eds wether they want to recover or not #please take care of yourselves

[twinvictim]

@dancehallcrasher tagged me for 9 movies I first watched this year! I actually watched more movies than usual and loved all of these ones specifically I hope I get to watch more <3

#crimson tomes #literally all of these movies own if you havent seen any of them id reccomend them dor sure #im sure. most people have seen fight club LOL but i hadnt very good indeed #ofc a lynch trifecta if you havent seen much of his stuff try blue velvet first im obsessed with it #followed by mulholland dr and lost highway. i still need to see inland empire and i might watch the dune movie or wild at heart too just cus #requeim!!! man...i <3 you forever the only thing is jared leto and they shouldve kept harry and his mom jewish #the eyes of my mother is so eerie and sad not much straight up horror this year but this one....yeah #memento was so good too i love murder msyteries and goinf back like oh fuck i get it now #brick was fun :) kind of a silly little movie i like how everyone talked in it #waking life is so interesting def falls into expeimentsl artsy shit but its gorgeous and so facinating its all animated! crazy shit #anyway yaay anyone can do this also i dont know many people who watxhed movies but i <3 tou movies #next ones we gotta see are inland empire perfect blue crash dead ringers n i personally wanna see event horizon and videodrome among others

[perenlop]

the image of various scenes with TR crossdressing with the caption “team rocket, destroying gender roles since 1997” has done so much damage to pokemon community and even more damage to the people who haven’t watched anipoke in years and hail them the best queer rep ever from vague memories from their childhood alone

FOR REAL TBH like truly just ignoring that all of those scenes are intended to mock them.

ik its not a big deal its just a pole that i wasnt even following, but something that annoyed me specifically with the one poll was when jessie was against lillie and everyone was like "OMG VOTE JESSIE BC ITS PRIDE MONTH SO YOU HAVE TO OR YOU HATE THE GAYS!!!!!" when like... im sorry lillie has more genuine lgbt hinting than jessie does sldjfslkdfjslkd.

like sure its not the biggest thing ever but one of these characters was pouring their heart out to a girl in the rain about how important she is to her and how much she depends on her while a rainbow comes out, has an arc about breaking out of the strict roles her mother forced her into, and literally gets an RGU reference in the anime and a deeply devoted "best friend", and its not jessie. sure none of that is exactly explicit groundbreaking stuff and i personally wouldnt say youre meant to see lillie as bi, but its more than what jessie's got

#tbh tho ive been watching the earlier pokemon movies in my server and while their role is minimal obviously #i do think i havent been giving enough credit to gens 1-3 TR and kinda gen 4 TR #bc they are genuinely really funny in those first few seasons #i think im just lost in bw/xy/jn hell where they were just EXTREMELY tedious and unfunny #i think part of it is that they stop caring about their little quirks and backstories come gen 5 #and never remembered it again outside of sm #(and even then james's backstory ik is sorta played for laughs? halfway? kinda? #like his abuse is sorta framed as ''HA HA hes getting beaten up by a WOMAN'') #but like james's collection is barely brought up during that era #i also have some issues with how they are in dp bc theyve got both good and bad episodes there. leaning towards bad #and im reeeeally not a fan of how they characterize jessie in comparison to the guys #but idk. genuine thing does anything actually really post abt post dp TR #besides obviously the super dedicated fans and SM (which they are good in ill completely admit to that) #theres like.... two scenes of JN going around and one of them is a bit thats unrelated to them and couldve gone to someone else #mail #d0vegum #btw LOVE the yellowfang setup. lesbian yellowfang real

[hubbaslubba]

don't care that the cgi was bad in wild blue yonder because my prevailing thought was like if they are willing to do weirdo freak shit with it im happy. also they cooked up a gayboy doctor so im blissed out

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #actual review is: thought the premise and character moments were what id been yearning for so much it was excellent BUT #they really lost me near the climax because all this atmospheric tension was resolved by telling telling telling explaining which didn't #feel satisfying or revelatory at all. and although i did say i don't care about the bad cgi i do mean the body horror elements i loved them #i laughed about them with my sister all part of a good dw experience we were crying at dt running on all fours like a dog #but i wasn't a fan at all of the main ship not because the design was bad i loved the changing environment but #it was soooo distracting to me that donna and the doctor just did not look like they were physically there #to the point that the really ridiculous body horror was more believable to me than the environment they were in #overall though this is what i wanted there were times i was so delighted and surprised by the show in a way i havent been for 15 years <3 #feeling sososo positive and excited for ncuti #sorry i turn into a dw blog on saturday nights now

[jackleopard]

found a friendship bracelet from my trip that i left in my backpack and now im thinking of the two little boys on the airport who got so excited when I told them I had messi-themed friendship bracelets, I hope they still have them <3

#there was this mom with her 3 kids (a girl and 2 boys all very little like at most the girl who was the oldest must've been like 8) #and she saw us and started talking to us and telling her girl hey look these girls came here to see taylor too just like you etc #and then she told us the girl went to the concert and the two boys went to messi's cirque de soleil thing and I was like 'oh you guys like #messi? wait until I show you my locksreen (photo of messi with the wc) and they got so excited!!!! #so afterwards when we got off the plane and I managed to find them I asked if they wanted messi-themed frienship bracelets #because my friend had given their sister friendships bracelets but the boys didnt want them #but they got so excited that I had friendship bracelets that were messi-themed and they made me so happy bc they loved the bracelets #so yeah i hope they havent lost them and also that they are having a great day #the youngest boy also invited me to play hello kitty with them on the plane but we weren't sitting close to him and he was so sad :(

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ugh. i have such specific desires its impossible #like how am i supposed to find movies that r kinda pretentious and fucked up and sad with like layer upon layer of symbolism? like what is #that. just like best pretentious films??? #or like i want music thats like. ugh how do i describe. like mostly instrumental but with people talking #so it sounds like youre listening to old home videos. its sad and nostalgic #or i dont even kno how to describe it #just listen to zammuto. my dog's eyes or it can feel so good #songs that make me wanna weep bc theyre like so. so like grounding? like there r good things in the world. value the simple things #these r the children who havent yet lost their sense of wonder. makes me so sad and happy #ugh. i should just rewatch sunshine #i just want media thats so gut wrenchingly tragic and so full to the brim of beauty #is that so much to ask? is it #idk. i feel ill. probably lack of sleep #if u have movie recs id love to hear them #unrelated

[abisexualperspective]

Umm. Hold up. Has anyone noticed that theres a painting of the ocean in the Diaz house?! Like not only is that desensitizing them from a traumatic event by seeing the beauty in it... BUT ITS A LITERAL FREAKING RAINBOW!!

How did i not notice this first?! And not even a sunset that kinda looks like a rainbow. Its there. Its intentional! I mean how many rainbow beach pictures have you seen??

#buddie #911 fox #the set designers have truly lost their minds #and i havent seen a single person talking about this! #its even perfectly in the camera frame! #i love them for it tho #that pics so pretty i want one of my own #also thanks to whoever made this gif so i didnt have to

[nordicbananas]

alright goodnight everyone!! this post will be t he person of the day too

person of the day is everyone I talked to today. if u spoke with me I love you dearly. thank you for talkign to me :) and also vi especially for being sweet (as usual <3)

yayayay I'm very glad I got my new pinned. I like it a lot!! and I hope to actually utilize my tagging system.

oli please consider going to bed soon. it's late. early. both at the same time. go to bed <3333

ummmm yea. OH I get to do nothing tomorrow ehrehrhrh....

#expect rather me going wild or silence #except for interactions. #no matter how inactive I am I will respond to asks and non-tag game tags don't worry guys #even if it's me going 'IM SORRY I GOT UR ASK I LVEO YOU BUT I HAVENT ANSWERED IT YET DJFSERYEHR' #wait I still love tag games just usually I dont do them. idk why. but. #tag me in whatever you want I would actually implode #idk what I'm saying I've finally reached internal incoherence #DID I JSUT SPELL THAT RIGHT FIRST TRY OMG #I mean.. I did get fourth place in my uhhh elementary school spelling bee.... #I lost with 'disinfectant'. #but the good thing is that I can always spell disinfectant now #disinfect the ant. the ant likes i's. #I said that so many times to myself while trying to memorize how to spell disinfectant omg #I will forget my own name before I forget D I S I N F E C T A N T #I can rattle those letters off like skittles talking about the fun facts they've learned you don't understand #I should go to bed. #GOODNIGHT <33 #--flower's bloom #TUMBLR PLEASE WHEN WILL YOU AUTO FILL THAT TAG. PLEASE. PLEASE. SOB

[pavlovers]

actually nvm im not emo anymore 🤧

#will i ever be truly content with the ending ? no 💀 but ! everyone looks so cute nd im happy that my fav freaks are able to be silly :p #i have mixed feelings on chifuyu narrating this chapter tho lmao 😭😭 #i mean its great that he somehow remembers everything that michi went through nd their friendship wasnt lost #BUT I CANT GET OVER THAT LIKE. ONE TAKEHINA KISS PANEL AND ITS JUST HIS UGLY CRYING FACE AT THE BOTTOM 😭😭 #i kinda love that for him tho like shit make their day all about yourself king #i wouldn't have taken the whole takehina ending seriously either way #tokrev aint even about them at this point its about the collection of freaks takemichi collected along the way 😭 #what other thoughts can i put out there... #omg sanzu being an influencer is such a slay. i love how he looks exactly the same as he did in the bonten timeline #he just slays online now instead of yknow with a katana in real life ! #kazus adorable. izanas adorable #I LOVE THAT SOUTH IS JUST THERE. IDK HOW THEY MET IN THIS TIMELINE BUT FUCK IT YEAH HES INVITED WHY NOT #seeing timeskip mikey again just confirms my initial feelings towards manila mikey which is that he was ugly 😭 #IDK THE SHORT HAIR DOESNT SUIT HIM IMO 😭 I WAS HOPING THAT WAKUI WOULD GIVE HIM A NEW HAIRCUT THAT WE HAVENT SEEN BEFORE #its ok tho im happy that hes actually happy ! and that the future he wanted with emma and draken and their baby came true 🥲 #WAHH THAT TOO 😭 THE FACT THAT THEYRE MARRIED AND EMMA IS PREGNANT WITH THEIR FIRST CHILD LITERALLY SOBBING 😭 #its what theyve deserved this whole time !!!! #what wakui did to naoto was a crime tho 😭 why does he look like thatttt #bring back detective naoto 😭 current naoto looks more homeless than takemichi that doesnt sit right with me 😭 #im rocking with long hair hanma. shuji just some guy hanma 💀 #wakui making mikey looking at takemichi like that the opening panel like we know what they are 🙄 just had to remind us #thats all i think... its finally over 😭 i may have my grudges but i truly loved reading this weekly for over a year it was so much fun 💗

[allergic-to-four-leaf-clovers]

BOOK TIME BOOK TIME BOOK TIME

I LOVE BOOKS!!!!!!!

#i havent read all of these btw #these are from like. the past few years #i havent read uhh the binding / rangers apprentice 4 / goldenhand / the odyssey #i kinds gave up with shadow and bone / interview with the vampire cuz i kinda lost my spark with them #twilight is the only series ive ever finished lmao #oh yeah midnight sun did have a red cover but i took the covers off since i preferred it without it #idk why the text is white #anyhow i love books

[snazum]

okay I need to put these ideas somewhere.

Different Gordon Backstories:

• HLVRAI Gordon: This one i’ve given a lot of thought. Thinking about it he sort of comes off as still a grad student, like he didn’t know what a res cas was, he started working there a couple weeks ago. Like, to me at least, this reads as either “entry level” science job for Black Mesa, or a student internship that you get connected through the school and it counts towards credits in your final year.

• OG Half Life: The og backstory, no tweaks (i also don’t know a lot about the half life lore even though I keep binging video essays late night)

• Freemind: I think basically the same as the og lore, maybe a little more unhinged, haven’t given much thought about it

I basically just wrote this so I could write bout feetman lol, I’ll move his to the top

#freemanverse #hlvrai gordon freeman #damn not having a partner to flesh thoughts out with means i’m posting more huh #thats a little idk funny #hlvrai gordon #i havent seen the source material in a while #and havent seen the uncut vods at all #so idk take this with a grain of salt #the one neg of not having someone to flesh out these ideas is now im baring my stupidity to the world #im not tagging the other two cause it sort of doesn’t focus on them anyways lol #I’d love to write more into these differences but i’m just a humble undergrad student who is lost between faculties #we dont talk about my schooling #snazum talks