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leofrith · 5 months

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in the mood for violence: 5 and 6?

5. worst discord server and why

in terms of servers i've actually been active in, it's gotta be the acc*ss the an*mus server. i'm sure it's still leagues better than the official ac server, which i daren't enter for anything other than checking what's in reda's item shop for the day. but i've found from personal experience (and that of some friends) that almost every big fan community for this fucking franchise will claim to be Not Like Other Girls (of the bigoted, gatekeepy, gamergate variety) before turning a blind eye to bullying, harassment, and bigotry within their own community. ata was no different, and while i did have some constructive conversations with people in there, the nastiness of some of the server members in there which went entirely unchecked made it not worth it. also, people will complain all day long about the stupid little problems they have with gameplay mechanics, etc. but the second you try to have a constructive discussion about ubisoft's many, many problems as a company, everyone is suddenly a ubisoft shill. 💀

6. which ship fans are the most annoying?

randivor shippers. 🧍🏻‍♀️ i say this as a (now, only occasional, due to exactly this kind of bullshit) randivor shipper myself, and this is only regarding the specific brand of fan that insists randivor is indisputably canon and then jumps down your throat for so much as implying otherwise. if that description doesn't sound like you, then congratulations! this isn't about you! if anything i'm about to say feels like a personal attack, then perhaps you should take a look inward instead of making it my fucking problem. i did already talk about this a bit here for a completely separate question because i got ahead of myself, but i totally understand the desire, especially for lesbians, for spaces that are entirely free of men. i do truly get it! but i'm sure you can also understand why the constant comments implying or just straight up saying that eivor "ending up" in a relationship with a man is the worst thing that could ever happen might make me, a bisexual woman who sees eivor as bisexual, feel uncomfortable and unwelcome. that's not even mentioning the straight up biphobia. there is a not insignificant number of randivor shippers who seem to think they're doing activism by calling anyone who ships eivor with men lesbophobic or misogynistic—eivor, the rpg character who can romance people of any gender for a reason. this behaviour, in my own experience, is enough of a pattern that any content i was working on for the ship is pretty much dead in the water at this point. i personally don't really feel like occupying space in a fandom where i've been blocked by a number of people who i've never directly interacted with, for no apparent reason other than the fact that i sometimes put eivor in "straight" relationships (that is something bisexual people do on occasion, btw. so so sorry about that. i've tried to grow past my manfucker tendencies but it just isn't working 😔) tldr: it's not fucking hard to have your lesbian headcanons while also being normal about bisexual people. take my hand. let me show you the way.

send me a number!

#OKAY THIS ONE GOT REAAAALLY LONG #like damn this really is the 'choose violence' ask game huh #i was getting increasingly pissy as i wrote this and it shows 🧍🏻‍♀️#answer #aeide #ask games

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youredoinghorriblesweetie · 1 year

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Make Your Heart Beat Stronger - Part 4

Rotxo x Medic in Training!Metkayina!GN!Reader

Description: you wake up to Rotxo sitting next to you in the Tsahìk’s pod

Timeline: 4 days after the attack

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

Warnings: none, this one is all fluffy 🫶

Word Count: Im not checking this time Im sorry Im lazy 💀

Waking up in Tsahìk’s marui, your head is pounding. You groan, rolling over onto your other side.

“——, you’re awake!” You heard a voice. It sounded familiar, but you didn’t care, you immediately went to throw something at the person for being too loud. The voice began laughing, and you simply groaned again.

Sitting up, you yelled “CAN YOU SHUT—” cutting your voice off as soon as you saw him. The boy who all of this had been for. Rotxo sat in front of you, smiling and tears in his eyes.

“I’m so glad you’re okay. Tsireya told me about everything after I brought you back to shore. I wasn’t trying to avoid you because I was upset, I was doing it because I thought you didn’t want to be around me. I’m so sorry that you went through all this trouble because of me.” He spoke, regret evident in his voice.

“No no, Rotxo, I am so sorry for how I spoke to you that day. I was fueled by anger that day and I hurt you. I’ve been so upset with myself every day since and all I have wanted was to fix this with you. Rotxo, I love you so much and I never want to talk to you like that again. I never want to hurt you like that again.”

“It’s okay. I love you too, my heart speaks of you that in ways my mouth could never get across. My love for you runs deeper than the words I speak and I truly just want you to be happy. But right now, you are hurt. And I must call Tsahìk.” Rotxo began to get up and get Lady Ronal, you watched him with joyful eyes. You finally apologized, and he still loves you.

Your leg had been hurt severely but luckily was fully healed after another month, and you were able to walk again. It took you a long time to be comfortable going to the border of the reef alone, still not to the point you would go outside alone. But Rotxo has been supporting you the whole time. You two were together, and mated before Eywa after a couple of months. He was gentle with you every second, and he spoke so sweetly still.

He would always tell you such beautiful things like when you apologized, he was a true gentleman. You had also finally passed Tsahìk training but of course you weren’t Tsahìk since Ronal still was. But you were content, you finally had more time to relax and do what you wanted. You were comfortable. You were at peace. The RDA had attacked and people were hurt, but your people recovered. You were happy. Life was finally looking up. And nothing could ever bring you back down, not with everyone you had on your side now.

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Author’s Note: I am so sorry if this seems rushed, it really was. I genuinely have not had the motivation to work for a bit but this is the last part and we got the happy ending woohoo!! I love him and I love being sweet and sappy so I had to write it for him since I couldn’t for reader (I want to make reader relatable and not everyone is super poetic n shit like me) also I got a new charger cause my old one broke and this one is so pretty

Tag list: @im-in-a-pansexual-panik @effervescentalessia @edasow @eri-s-big-sis @raeluvshammett

#avatar the way of water #atwow rotxo #avatar rotxo #rotxo x reader #rotxo fluff #atwow

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theharrowing · 7 months

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Ahh thanks for the update!! I was going to comment but I guess my comment was too long so I’ll just send it here. This chapter was so angsty my heart is torn for everyone but especially mc :(( she’s going through all these different emotions & is being shut out left & right but then being coddled at the same time.. I wonder if this rift will lead her to taking up Jin’s suggestion. & if it does how would the guys react, joon & yoongi specifically. “Do you think you can fall for someone like me?” Omgggg idk what this means for the relationship jk & mc have .. could they end up falling in love? Is that allowed? How would Tae feel? I personally think mc is so strong to adapt to the relationship between joon & yoongi. It’s so intimate and something the everyone is aware of, they have major history too. I’d personally feel way too intimidated by their love, I’d feel incapable of joining in because I think I’d feel like a third wheel for the entirety of the relationship. What they have is deep and I feel so sad when mc catches glimpses of their interactions when it’s just them two alone. She’s truly understanding for knowing that they deserve their own moments but my heart still breaks for her. At times I feel like they love each other more than they do her but this could just be me projecting my own insecurities & being dramatic hehe. I’m so excited to see what’s to come & what’ll happen between all these relationships. I’m just taking a huge wild guess but I can see a “breakup” happening & mc running off to get away but also getting entail for Jin. I love angst so sorry for the theatrics + I think my periods coming soon so I’m extra sappy 💀 loved this update tho!! <33

anon, hello!!!

since your message contains a lot of what i would consider to be semi-spoiler content, i have been waiting to respond so that more people get a chance to read. if you ever want to comment but it's too long, you are also more than welcome to just spam the comments with long thoughts, i genuinely do not mind that at all!!! i have a couple friends who will leave 2 or 3 comments in a row after reading, and it brings me joy, i promise.

the relationships and the love they all share is definitely a complicated thing. (and then there is jungkook, but i am not factoring him in to this bit.) it's not fair to say they love someone more or less than the other, though. i take issue whenever someone says that. instead, look at it as loving someone differently. you aren't going to have identical love/feelings for two people; even mc has different ways in which she feels and shows love for namjoon and yoongi, whether that is completely obvious to the reader or lot (i try to make it a little clear in her observations and thoughts but i also can't force people to read things exactly how i hope they do.) they are still at an early enough stage to be figuring it out, and needing to have space some times, or struggling to communicate it all part of the process. it's definitely understanding to see the history yoongi and namjoon have and feel intimidated, but if someone is going to view themself as an outsider in a relationship with people who clearly care about and love them, then this type of relationship is likely not going to be good for them. sorry, i hope this explanation doesn't come off as too crass, but i get very defensive of these fake people who live inside my head lol. if people are reading this as "so-and-so loves this character more than that one," it feels like i am failing as an author to tell this story the way i want to.

i'm so glad you're loving the story!!! we'll see what happens next!!! 💜

#POTENTIAL COLLATERAL SPOILERS #lovely anon #reader reviews #fic: collateral #you've got mail 💌

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rainbownixie · 2 years

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(U do not need to answer this question AT ALL and I’m so sorry if it makes u uncomfortable in any way) but I was just wondering; how did you know you were aroace? Recently I’ve been struggling with whether or not the term applies to me. Online tests are super confusing and they don’t rlly help 💀 tysm and again PLEASE do not feel forced to answer this at all :) <33

it doesn't make me uncomfortable in ANY way!!! don't worry <33 i love helping people with this stuff, especially since aroaces don't have as much information out there as other types of attraction!!

it's funny but i actually realized thanks to an awesome book called "loveless". it's written by alice oseman (yeah, same as heartstopper. so you already know it's good) and it literally changed my whole perspective on the term and myself!

basically, thanks to reading this i realized that i don't feel sexual attraction for anyone! at first i thought i was bisexual, because 0x0=0 right? i felt the same for everyone so i genuinely thought i was bi! but turns out i just... didn't feel anything sexual towards anyone.

and it was a rough thing to accept for me, because i am a person with a high libido and i've always been interested in sex. but those things have nothing to do with being asexual! everyone talks about that label as if it meant not wanting to have sex or not feeling any libido at all, but not everyone is sex repulsed and some of us get horny for other stuff that isn't bodies!

tbh i also realized that i don't want to have sex, i was just highly influenced by society and what it meant to be hot and be liked by other people. so ummm yeah, it was hard for me to relate to posts about asexuality when everyone talked about it in such a reduced way and i was pretty obsessed with being liked by others in a sexual way.

plus, i've always liked reading smut and stuff like that and nobody tells you!!! that it doesn't have anything to do with being asexual!!! you can like sexual content and be sexual with people without feeling sexual attraction towards them!!! i wished somebody had told me that sooner, that way i wouldn't have needed a book to tell me.

i realized i was aromantic (greyromantic, actually, but it's inside the umbrella term) because all my relationships always ended in the same way. i thought i liked someone romantically, and the very same moment we started dating i got the ick. everything they did disgusted me and everything related to romanticism within the relationship scared me. so i always pushed them away or waited for them to break up with me. and let me tell you: it's really fucked up.

because i used to think there was something wrong with me. that i was broken. that i was a horrible person and i didn't know how to love. so i desperately entered relationships that only lasted like less than two months looking for something that made me feel... complete? but that doesn't exist! if you love someone romantically you don't self sabotage the relationship that way. i did it because i wasn't truly in love with them and i confused friendship with love CONSTANTLY. that made me hurt some people i genuinely cared about. normativity is a bitch.

everyone tells you how to love. tv shows, movies, books, society... but no one tells you that maybe you just... don't? and there's nothing wrong with that!! you can be complete without feeling romantic or sexual attraction, really. you just have to be yourself and live your life. there's so so many ways to love people, don't ever get stuck thinking romance is the only one.

when you are straight, lesbian, gay etc etc you KNOW how to love. your label tells you how to do it. but when i realized i was aroace? i felt so damn lonely. i still do, sometimes. and i have a girlfriend (we're both greyro, btw, it's practically a qpr but there's also love involved- it doesn't read matter now)!! because when you are aroace, you just... don't do anything. you just live your life as it already is. and i promise you that it's so so so much cooler when you accept that you only need yourself and other types of love to be happy!!

i still struggle with a bit of internalized aroacephobia, but i've never felt so free and comfortable with myself.

if you are interested in the book i think you can find it on amazon, but if you don't want to spend money i have a pdf i can send you!

i hope this helped you somehow, anon <3 if you have more questions please let me know!!!

#loveless my beloved #it's by far my favorite book EVER #you should see it it's full of notes and post-its pffft #aroace #aromantic #asexual

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call-me-kirstein · 2 years

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Reunion

synopsis: you reunite with your love from cadets for the first time ever since he revealed that he was the armoured titan.

word count: 1809

notes: aot reiner x gn reader, mentions of sewerslide, tiny bit of angst(???), fluff, i think that’s it…?

message: hellohello this is my first time writing fan fiction and posting on tumblr so this might be really bad i’m sorry :( i didn’t even intend on posting this but thought it might be fun whether people read it or not. a few extra notes: the content is gn but since i never meant to post it i wrote it as if i were inserting myself 💀 so take that as you will LOL. also, there might be some literary past and present mix-ups, i didn’t proofread it very well soz!

it’s been too many years since you had last been reunited with him, so many years since you had found out he was the armoured titan that broke wall maria.

he was a traitor.

but there he was in front of you, standing with the rest of his comrades from marley. you had all agreed it was time to put differences aside to stop the rumbling that had started just a few days ago.

in those moments, you couldn’t take your eyes off of reiner.

it seemed he couldn’t take his eyes off of you either. you’d grown up to be a gorgeous and strong section commander of the scouts without him.

ever since he revealed his true identity, there was something missing in both of your lives, and that was each other. in the years of training and short-lived moments of being part of the scouts, you two had formed the most unlikely bond, but it was a beautiful one. when you had nights that you were scared, reiner was the only one that seemed to truly care, and secretly held you close in his bed. god forbid anyone else caught you, or else you both would’ve never heard the end of it. while everyone else was training hard, reiner would pull you behind the bushes to steal a kiss. oh how he had longed to see you again for so many years. if only the world weren’t as cruel as it was. the only center of his world had left him, but he silently swore to himself that he wouldn't let it happen again.

now was his chance to have you back before seemingly everyone dies.

hange suggested not taking action for the first week, and coming up with a plan that would actually be effective. that, and they needed everyone to spend some “quality” time together, since everyone would have to co-operate as a group. they said we only had this week to plan the big attack, and potentially say our final goodbyes.

you brought on the courage to say something to reiner first, as hard as it was. you felt as if there were many things left unsaid since he left, like the words you longed to hear from him since he first confessed his feelings to you as cadets. “i love you” is what you wanted to hear from him again the most.

now standing outside his door, you take a deep breath before gently opening the door and entering with a faint and soft smile.

“hey, rei-” you stop as you walk into the room he’s staying in.

hes sitting. crying, no, sobbing on his bed.

he looks up in shock at your voice, and quickly wipes his tears off, trying to compose himself before saying anything to you. before he could speak, you were already sitting right beside him.

reiner may have been a traitor, but the stoic, brave and mentally strong reiner you knew would never break down like this without a reason. but then again, who knows what reiner could be at this point?

“it’s okay, reiner. calm down, i’m here now.” you say as you hesitantly rub gentle circles into his back.

the feel of his back was so different than before, being able to feel bones and a lack of flesh. he had gotten skinnier. unhealthily skinnier.

your words only make him break down again. hearing your soothing voice was enough to provide more comfort than he’s ever felt in these past years away from you. you gently grab his hand and give it a light squeeze, opting to stay quiet until he’s comfortable enough to talk.

you stay beside him until his cries soften, and he relaxes.

he looks up at you with red, swollen eyes and smiles weakly.

“i’ve missed you so much.”

“i’ve missed you too, reiner. and to be honest, you’re all i think about.”

you pull him into a tight hug, finally feeling connected with the one you love again.

you hop off his bed. “let's get comfortable, then we can talk okay? i’m gonna go get some hot water for you.”

he nods as you exit the room. short minutes pass as you come back with a steaming mug.

“it’s actually black tea… i saw some and figured you’d enjoy it.”

you hand it to him and climb onto his bed again, sitting beside him against the wall.

“i guess it’s time i start explaining the meltdown, is it?”

he asks after taking a sip of the tea.

“well i figured it was just because you couldn't handle how hot i got throughout the years” you joked.

you both chuckled at the statement, but you weren’t exactly wrong. reiner’s first thought when he saw you was how gorgeous you looked in a new uniform, and how you had grown your hair long. there was even a tinge of jealousy, knowing he had missed out on your growth while the rest of the scouts saw it with their own eyes.

“well, you’re not entirely wrong there, but…” he looks down, frowning at himself.

“i’m going to lay it on straight. i’ve wanted to kill myself for so long now.”

your eyes widen. why did he play it off so casually? you struggle to find the words to say, but as you look at reiners eyes, you can see the tears dwelling once again. he was about to break into another cry until he feels your soft hand touch his arm.

“is… it okay if i touch you again?” was the only thing you could mutter as you ask with worried eyes.

he nods and you direct him so he sits at the edge of his bed while you get behind him and hug his back. he no longer felt as muscular and built as he did before. he was in no means fragile, but you could tell that the things on his mind were affecting his physical health as well.

“hey reiner, remember that time commander shadis yelled at us because you insisted on carrying me on your back through the forest when i was supposed to be running?”

he chuckles again. “yeah? what about it?”

“this position we’re in right now reminds me of how warm your back was. i think you were being really brave back then. i always looked up to you as a person, and especially then thought you were super cute.”

“i always thought you had a nice ass.” he blatantly says.

you chuckle at the sudden confession. “that’s pretty bold. but i get it, i’ve got a pretty nice ass.” reiner can feel your warmth on his back, and the vibrations of your laugh. he hadn’t felt this safe in years.

“anyways, that's not the point. my point here is that i want to keep making memories with you. imagine how awesome it would be if after all this, we could buy ourselves our own house, and live the rest of our lives together?”

he pauses, and you can almost feel the mood between you two shift. “i-i’m sorry, but it’s not as simple as that… think of all the deaths i’ve caused. it’s not fair for me to live that happy life, no matter how much i want it. i think it’s well known by everyone now that i deserve death, so i’m only here today to pay for my consequences.”

you take a moment to think about what you want to say before speaking again. “reiner, i’ve heard about your story and the others from yelena. you aren’t all at fault. i shouldn’t be backing you up like this because you’re also been the reason why so many of my comrades have died, but i also have the ability to put myself into your shoes. i know you were only doing what you were told to do…”

“please… just let me go. if we get any closer than this it will just make goodbyes worse. my time as a titan shifter is almost up and it’ll be hard enough put myself through the pain of losing you again-“

“then don’t.” your voice cracks. “don’t leave. you always used to say that you were at your happiest with me, right?”

the tears welling up in your eyes start to fall and you lose control. no matter how much you tried to deny it, he was right, and you felt so sorry for him. all those years of fighting did no good. you hug reiner tightly as you gently press the crook of your nose into his shoulder.

“reiner, just think about how i would feel if you go. lets fight together till the end, even if the end isn't far away.”

heartbroken after hearing you cry, he guides you to sit on the edge of the bed with him. “yeah, let’s fight until we stop the rumbling, then we’ll talk about what to do after. sound good?”

you sniffle and look up at him. “get married and buy a house together with the little time we have left?”

his heart skips a beat at the thought of marrying you. you were the one person that made him feel this way, and he knew right then that marrying you was a must.

he turns to place his hands on your cheeks and wipes off your tears. he can't help but stare down at your lips. the ones he hasn't kissed in so long. his emotions suddenly take control of him and he leans in to kiss you. his lips are as soft as you remember them from years ago, and his scent makes you feel like melting. you exhale into the kiss as you hold the back of his head. a new sensation is added with his kiss, that being the light facial hair he grew out. you were never one for beards and mustaches, but it somehow worked on reiner, might you even say he looked even better than before.

after a few minutes of pure embrace, reiner pulls back from your lips leaving you both breathless and panting as stares into your eyes.

“you know this is all your fault right?” he softly says with a light smile.

“what’s my fault?”

“for making me love you so much.”

you struggle to contain a laugh but end up bursting a little bit too loud for how silent the two of you were previously being.

“that’s… sweet but… extremely corny, rei.”

his eyebrows raise slightly at the sound of his nickname.

“i actually forgot you called me that. it’s nice to hear it again.”

you cuddle up with him once more and place a small kiss on his neck before resting your head against him once more.

“no problem, rei. it’s nice to see you again.”

he returns a kiss onto the top of your head,

“likewise.”

#reiner braun #aot reiner #reiner x reader #reiner fluff #attack on titan #aot season 4 #aot

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2jaeh · 2 years

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hiii would like to request for 3 and 7 with either jaehyun, mark or jaemin :))) + angsty angst to the max heheheee thank uuu

bye | jaehyun

"i know you're sick of falling in love, but girl that needs to be us..."

genre: angst

content: gender neutral!reader, best friends to ???, jaehyun is down terrible

word count: 1.1k

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author lin

sorry for disappearing again 💀 uni was kicking my ass

"I think I'm done with my job for good." You sighed in exhaustion, dramatically throwing yourself face first onto your best friend's bed.

Jaehyun lifted his eyes from the book that was resting on his lap, his knees propped up and his back pressed against his headboard. He placed the book on his nightstand and peeled the fluffy brown blanket draped over him so he could lean forward, gently poking your head with an amused smile on his face.

"That's the fourth time you've ever said that, should I believe you this time?" Jaehyun chuckled under his breath when you picked your head up only to give him your most threatening glare.

"I'm serious this time…" You insisted with a scowl, turning to lie down on your back, your eyes fixated on the ceiling, "today was the nail on the coffin."

"You wanna talk about it?" Jaehyun hummed.

"Not really…" You shrugged before sitting up, "what I really want is some ice cream."

"It's almost 2AM." Jaehyun countered, uselessly raising an eyebrow at you already hopping off his bed.

"So what?"

"Can't argue with that." Jaehyun gave in immediately, making you laugh.

Jaehyun had been your best friend for as long as you could remember. He was truly the only man you could stand; he was gentle, he wasn't judgemental and he always made you laugh. You always joked that whoever he ended up with better cherish the hell out of him, because he was a special person. Anyone would be lucky to have someone like him in their life. You were lucky enough to call him your best friend.

"Is the ice cream hitting the spot?" Jaehyun pondered with a mouth full of chocolate ice cream, his seat reclined back and his leg slightly tapping along to the music coming from your car radio.

"Mhmm." You nodded, shoveling another spoonful passed your lips.

Jaehyun turned his to the side, his eyes landing on your unassuming side profile, happily eating your tub of ice cream. With the car parked just outside Jaehyun's apartment block, your face was only illuminated by the streetlamps and the lights of the car dashboard. You quietly hummed to the song on the radio, a frown forming on your forehead whenever the coldness of the dairy dessert became too much.

Jaehyun couldn't recall when he exactly began to fall for his best friend. It was quite sudden; one minute he was trying to set you up with one of his roommates, the next he was wondering what it would feel like to kiss you or hold your hand or hug you or take you out for ice cream at 2AM in a not so friendly way. It just sorta happened and he just had to deal with it because you weren't… exactly… the most romantic person he knew.

"My colleague keeps playing wingman for her son," you chuckled, placing your empty tub of ice cream back in the packet, "how do I politely tell her that I will never in a million years date anyone, including her son."

"That's a bit dramatic." Jaehyun rolled his eyes, turning his head to look straight ahead.

"It's true though, dating is pointless," you grimaced, "but you won't understand because you're a hopeless romantic."

"Me? I just don't have commitment issues like someone I know." Jaehyun teased, laughing when you shoved his shoulder.

"Okay then, why haven't you dated anyone recently?" You narrowed your eyes at him.

"Just… haven't found the right person yet." Jaehyun chuckled awkwardly, letting his eyes glance over you for just a second before reluctantly peeling them away.

"I wonder what kind of person would sweep you off your feet." You giggled, letting out a tired sigh.

You. Jaehyun wanted to yell. He wanted to shout it out for everyone to hear, but he just couldn't bring himself to do it. The word stayed trapped in his throat, like a prisoner behind bars. He knew better than to say anything because you would never return his feelings. You could never fall in love. You could never give anyone even a sneak peak of what your heart looked like. Cold, uncommitted; always running away at the slightest mention of love. And then there was Jaehyun; warm, hopeless and not ready to ruin the relationship with his best friend.

"I'm not that picky," Jaehyun finally responded after being lost in his thoughts, "I just want someone who's nice… and just loves me."

"Bare minimum but alright," you laughed before turning in your seat and jokingly batting your eyelashes, "if that's the case I should be sweeping you off your feet."

"H-Huh?"

"Well I'm nice… ish," you grinned, reaching over to pinch Jaehyun's soft cheek, "and I love you!"

Jaehyun felt his throat go dry once the words left your mouth. Of course you loved him, you guys expressed that to each other all the time. But the fact that you could make jokes about it so easily, while it was eating Jaehyun up on the inside. His heart panged against his chest as he sat up straight and turned to you, his hands nervously shaking in his lap.

"You do." He replied with his eyes closed.

"I do what?"

"You do…. sweep me off my feet." He gulped, opening his eyes but still refusing to look in your direction.

"Jaehyun?" You laughed to fill the awkward silence, "what… what do you mean?"

"I-I love you… more than as your best friend," Jaehyun admitted, his eyes glued to his lap, "you're the person… that swept me off my feet."

The silence was deafening, it seemed as though even the music on the radio was growing quieter. Jaehyun lifted his head to look at you, but you barely acknowledged him. You were staring straight ahead, your fingers anxiously fiddling with the steering wheel. Finally you turned to face him, your eyes connecting again for what seemed like an eternity.

"Jaehyun I…. I'm sorry," you whispered, so softly but he heard it and he felt his heart fall right down to the pit of his stomach, "I'm sorry… I'm really sorry."

"It's okay." Jaehyun cut you off before you could string out anymore useless apologies.

He knew you had nothing more to say to him. There was no polite way to tell your best friend that you didn't love them back. Silence descended upon the car again until you clicked the button to unlock Jaehyun's door.

"Maybe… you should head up." You suggested quietly, only glancing at him for a second as he opened the door.

"Yeah, see you around." He murmured, stepping out of the car.

"Bye Jae."

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