#im grateful but damn!!!!!

[galaxicnerd]

SM1L3! >:]

#homestuck #hom3stuck #galaxicsart #karkat vantas #terezi pyrope #karezi #theyre like so in love #and i DONT CARE WHAT YOU SAY!!!!!! #THEYRE SO WONDERFUL #also this blew up on twitter and frankly! im scared #idk why it freaks me out but it does #im grateful but damn!!!!!

[wuntrum]

one of the many many reasons i love the art of mob psycho 100 is that character are allowed to look emotive and expressive and make ugly faces and have not conventional (for anime standards) facial features ... the style actually has personality to it and that accentuates the storytelling

#mp100 #let anime characters look ugly! or make an ugly face! damn! #im forever grateful it didnt get the one punch man treatment tbh #picturing it animated in a conventional anime style...id be sick #and in the case of opm i Do think it benefited from the style overhaul #...however mp100 is just generally a better product sooo

[princesshair]

happy 30th birthday niall! love you ♡

#apureniallsource #1dsource #tracksintheam #niall's bday #edits #niall #happy 30th birthday baby boy!!!!!! #cant fucking believe youre 30 already wtf??? #i hope you have the best day ever #filled with love and happiness #you're such a wonderful soul and im grateful i get to see you grow #thank you for being and you thank you for existing #thank you for making me happy #i am so damn proud of you that i actually cry with love #lots and lots and lots of love to you today (and everyday) #we're virgo twins!!! #love youu so fucking much #💜💜💜💜💜💜

[merlinshutup]

5x12- The Diamond of the Day: Part 1

#when shit hits the fan #merthur #merlin #bbc merlin #*rewatch #*mygifs #damn this gif series is almost over im going to be crying making the actual finale one i hope you knoq #also im so grateful that so many of you have followed me just through the course of this gif series i love you all

[thekenobee]

Killiney Beach, Dublin

#im living my best life #people and uni and my host family is enough to make up for the horrors of my home #every day im so damn grateful for being here #in Stephen Maturins heimatland!! #ireland #irish life #dublin #photography #my photos

[xsunnysoftx]

Im super close to 1,000 followers! HOLY SHIT!!?

Is there something specific you guys would like to see? the most interesting idea will be voted on when i hit 900.

#sunny speaks #GOD DAMN? #im so grateful for you all

[chaoticintellectual]

Good news! I just received this newsletter from the national council of canadian muslims:

The NDP really showed up for this, and had some amazing commitment to passing this motion. They also tried to get canada to recognize the statehood of palestine, but the liberals took it off the motion. Nevertheless, this feels like a really big political win. 😭😭😭 I tried my best to advocate for palestine in the last few months, and I'll continue to do so but yeah.

#palestine #im just #im very grateful #and damn if the ndp didnt have my vote before they sure do now #(i have always voted ndp)

[cheesecakethots]

watching a piece i spent 2 seconds on blow up vs watching a piece i spent 10 lightyears on get 3 likes

#im still grateful ofc!! #just like damn #i posted this thing like eh this is shit #only for people to eat it up #surprised me #shitpost

[satans-knitwear]

Love this combo 💜

Treat me (wishlist) ~ Tip (pypl) me (cshpp)

#I feel like i cannot fit anything else in my brain right now other than - money hurting me- and - self loathing #Somehow im still proud of the images i produce thanks to my body. But damn. I am not a fan of it or the brain moving it rn. #You guys defo help with lightening the self-loathing tbh #Very grateful for that 💕 #satans knitwear #Alt pinup #Pinup girl #Purple lace lingerie #Lace lingerie set #Lace corset #Underbust corset #Cream corset #Pretty lingerie #bi girl #uk girl #cheeky #wlw #Any tips/donations would be massively appreciated right now 💕💕💕

[in---earnest]

What For?

I study. I study for my future. I study for my parents. For myself.

I study. And I study decently well. I work hard. And I bear the fruits of it.

I study. And I read. And I sketch and write and work and apply and am rejected and apply again. And what is it for?

It’s not for my parents. It’s sort of for me. But it’s mostly for my future.

I have a fantasy. It is not realistic, as most fantasies are. But oh, I have a fantasy, and it is one that I will be punished for voicing.

I fantasise that one day I will meet a girl. A girl with honest eyes, a girl with a genuine smile. Whose hair I could run my hands through. Whose waist I could put my arm around. Whose weight I could sink into. Whose words I could wrap around me, a comforting weight.

My fantasy is simple. To be somewhere, somewhere, somewhere I can say I love a girl and know I can have a future with her. Somewhere, somehow, sometime, I can spend my life with her. Or a few months. Or a few years. The luxury of loving who I want to love. Is that such a terrible amount to ask?

Why do you demonise me? Why do you tell me I should be grateful? Should I be fucking grateful that I have told all of five people and only two have kept my dignity? Should I be fucking grateful that I’m not a criminal as of five years ago? Should I fall to my knees and pathetically plead for you to give me rights, give me respect, give me a promise?

Give me a promise; one that you won’t break, won’t go back on, won’t consider unreasonable?

I must fight to exist! I am told that my living body is enough of a blessing, when I can never breathe a word of my desires. I am told my alternatives are some sort of concession on your part.

What harm am I doing to your precious democracy, your caricature of diversity, your farce of a progressive agenda? What harm does it do to you, every minute I die inside because I know I may likely marry someone I will never want to touch.

What is it? Tell me.

What does it feel like?

Is it a knife in your back, poison in your veins, a slit through your throat? Because you know as well as I do, your sadism knows no bounds. My people. Your people. The people who have turned and will turn on you. They met their ends the very same way, correct? You let them meet their ends in the very same way.

You acknowledge our existence only to call us a problem. A box of knickknacks in your attic. They’ll look nice on display, don’t you think? Oh dear, they’re so dirty with dust, coated with cobwebs, disgusting, disgusting, disgusting. A problem for another day, don’t you think? A problem for another lifetime.

Oh yes, you think i’m a problem. Of course, you think i’m a problem.

#i live in conservative india and im bi-romantic that's all there is to say about that #spilled ink #writing #poetry #queer #bisexual #writeblr #lqbtq #guys it sucks so much i have my finals. my BOARDS. and they're going pretty damn well #but the knowledge that im not even motivated by my future studies i just want to live somewhere i can be safe #that's so concerning and kind of dystopic to me #i hate it so much. the way the politicians talk about us #one of them called us “filth” like last week #man im not even hindu but even i know the very gods you worship fit our modern understanding of lgbtq+ #like give me break #stop telling me that i should be grateful I won't be taken to prison for liking a woman #i deserve the space i take up as much as the next person #stop telling us otherwise

[dirtytransmasc]

I love how my mental health is literally kept in check by a cat.

she get mad when my rooms messy and we can't cuddle in bed. she goes out on affection strikes if I start sleeping in another room to avoid the mess. my cat will guilt trip me into keeping my room clean. what is my life?

#im grateful #but damn #mental health #the #AuDhd #and (mild) depression/anxiety #disaster room is beast I cant quite tame #but my cat forces me to shove it back in its cage every now and fhen #cats

[bluest-planet]

EDIT: I'd appreciate knowing why you picked what you did in the replies 💙

DW about the colors, they're just to see certain patterns and color values, not concrete. The main vibes were supposed to be; figure skating, magician, and prince.

(Just thought I'd give the wayfinder trio some post kh3 redesigns, based on the idea of Aqua as a Prince, Ven a Princess, and Terra a Ronin, and my own taste in fashion design.)

Link to the latest design and the rest individually, here!

#kh #kingdom hearts #kh aqua #birth by sleep #bbs #kh fanart #redesign #planet paintings #lol i feel like u can tell what my faves are #amy that arent used will probably be recycled for smth else #excited for thie to be over to fo VENNNNNN my precious princess son #might even do vanitas bc of. fic reasons #but like. its more complicated than these guys #esp since he doesn't fit into any of their archetypes ive picked #anyways laterre wich i could limit this to 3 days instead of a week tho #ignore her keyblade ik its probably wrong idc i was using her base art for simplicity's sake #im here for fashion design DAMN IT i hated her og outfit so much u dont understand how much it grates on my nerves to look at #some of these might be more Japanese influenced bc of eraqus' influence bc idk. the kh characters need more flavor in their clothes #and they already have hints of it #or at least terra does

[mister-eames]

I know it’s been said before, but you spark so much joy with your headcanon & arthur/eames discussions 🥺 also! Still thinking of that pic of Tom Hardy in a muscle tee & other recent photos of him where he is lots of grey in his beard. Idk if you saw JGL at the ceremony where he presented rian Johnson with an award but he had a deep velvet plum suit on, a beard and his hair is long & wavy. & now I’m thinking about older eames/Arthur who are comfortable happy and still sickeningly in love

Nonnie!!!!!!! Thank you so much for stopping by, these asks always are so thought provoking and indulge me so much, I'm always happy to talk about Arthur/Eames and Inception in general!

Okay so, I had not seen that video and I am SO GLAD you brought it to my attention. JGL LOOKS SO FREAKING GOOD!!! THE SUIT!!! THE BEARD!!! THE CURLS!!!!!! Oh my god. If anyone has not seen the video check it out here you wont regret it.

And, you said it -- "Comfortable, happy and (still) sickeningly in love" is all I want for Arthur and Eames (and my life tbh). My headcanon is that they settle down and retire and while they still dabble in a little criminal action here and there (like being criminally sexy!!!) they live quieter lives a handful of years after the Fischer job. They love each other, right? They want to be safer because they want to build a life over building dreams, because life can be so short, you know, and I think in the film you learn just that--anything can happen at any given moment and you just...slow the hell down. Even when that means taking life in the slow lane and changing course - and so they do.

I imagine Arthur and Eames in their forties and fifties, teaching and consulting for work - Eames being disgusted every time he does his taxes and Arthur being disgusted with himself for wearing polo shirts in the summer and secretly loving it. They are starting to go grey, more grey with every handful of years - they are starting to go soft in places. There are crows eyes and forehead lines and heartburn and creaky bones. Diets to manage IBS and blood pressure. Worse, they start to do things their parents used to do -- like watch the news on TV and mutter into their dinner about idiot politicians and neighbours who park like dickheads on the street and wont trim their trees back out of their yard, and they reminisce about how things were different when they were kids and seriously why the fuck are they the only normal people who live on this street?

They keep busy. They learn new things. For his forty-fifth birthday Arthur builds Eames a library in their Philadelphia home with his bare hands. Eames buys the battered skeleton of a '67 Ford Mustang and restores it for Arthur. They read books and watch movies in bed and keep guns in their bedsides just in case. They go on long drives together and still sometimes travel the world to see old faces and so they still remember what it feels like to be homesick and miss the good life. Eames' knees play up. Arthurs back has seen better days. They're uncles to their siblings kids and to Phillipa and James. And they take that job very seriously.

They still have their domestics and spats every now and then. But they make up and move on. They're partners (in life and crime) and they get their thrills out of making the other happy. They're the people the other cannot wait to come home to.

They have always attempted to manufacture their own luck and they finally did it because here they are, content and happy.

#they trim their neighbours damn trees back in the middle of the night and leave the branches on their doorstep to trip over #they steal their other neighbours paper (they get their dog to do it) at random so no one knows its them #i only do happy endings #maybe i'm getting boring but i just love domestic arthur and eames #growing old(er) together #seeing their priorities change like ours all do when we grow and age #because there is a point in life #especially ESPECIALLY when you lived fast and hard in your twenties #and/or earlier #that you say #'nah no more im done ive done it i want some fucking peace and quiet' #and you are grateful for that peace and quiet #because while you would never regret the experiences you had living hard and fast #even the grief #the loss the awfulness #you wouldn't change the peace for anything #you feel like you earned the stillness and the quiet #and it is valued to the point of it being priceless because of those tumultuous years #when you didn't have it before and you get it you don't want to give it up #and maybe every day is not sunshine and daisies #but you're no longer in survival mode #and while the memories of before are rose-tinted frankly you never want to go back there #the domestic fics are the most 'realistic' ones to me #for this reason #anyway nonnie i appreciate you #arthur x eames #inception #now i want to write a 5k slice of life fic

[koko2unite]

#did somebody cursed me or something #dad came unannounced and say he'll be staying for the weekend like whay #great now im too scared to draw on the day where i supposed to be freely drawing #he did brought me dinner tho so its not a t all bad #and the comms are slowly coming hehe #hopefully i can reach my goal by the end of the month #im aiming for 1K #i recently bought a stabilizer because the power in my house is shit :( #so its either that or having my electronic devices slowly die LOL #i should be grateful i could own my own house but damn if it isnt filled with problems

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

[cult-of-the-eye]

Really struggled with doing work for a long time and suddenly I'm right back to doing it and I realised it's cause I can't work unless I've got an emotional crisis that I'm trying to distract myself from 😭😭

#do i need to kill off a family member right before exams???? #god damn #academic weapon #but only if im being the emotional equivalent of grated on a cheese grater #hmm #rambles #cult rambles #mental health #productivity