#im going fucking insane over here

[dhs-in-disguise]

Anyone else wanna regularly delete their entire presence of the internet cause they think that no one should have to look at their shit again or is it just me

#my shit #im going fucking insane over here #Like literally #im not ok #hhhhhhhhhhhh

[stone-stars]

a while ago i saw a post by @sideblogdotjpeg about how the cycles in c3 seem a lot more personal/familial. and i kind of went insane in the tags at the time and i’ve been thinking about it a lot since because like…

you have the heroic cycles that the band of boobs parallel/break on this large scale. the idea of these broken trios of adventurers is there throughout the campaign, but they really start to engage with it towards the end— with the divine hearts, and thiala, and the wheel of suffering/wheel of joy idea. the thing hardwon says as he takes the divine heart, that no matter what anybody chooses from then on it’s with love in their hearts, i feel is very relevant to how they break the cycle. they love each other, and they choose over and over to hold each other tighter rather than be driven apart.

and on the other hand, you have duck team’s refusal of fate vs their family’s resignation to it. look at swag working with mothership, oliana’s contrition, and the stuff that is currently ongoing with gowan. you know— sol is a version of swag who fully rejected mothership and found his friends instead. callie refused to be a part of her family’s business, and her love for the wild and the serpents is giving the world a chance. calder, when he makes the deal with ultrus, telling callie and sol that he trusts them to save him. and now calder is refusing to sit back and let gowan handle things in the ice knife.

it's not that duck team aren't trying to save the world. they are. and it's not that the boobs didn't have a personal connection to the cycles they were breaking. they did. but it's like... well... how do i put this into words. right--

the song melora's boon plays when the boobs arrive at the heart of the world and speak to melora. when she talks to beverly about duty, shows him the places he faltered and how at the last second, he gets back up. (later, when they face thiala, bev doesn't go unconscious once. at one point, he's the only one standing.) for sol, this is the song that plays when he expresses his fear of going down again. when he admits to callie that he's scared of the day that she and calder are down and he's the one that needs to stand up alone. when callie says she's not afraid of that day, and sol finds himself empowered by the mushroom in his chest. the moment that sets up sol's long death monk ability, where he's able to refuse to go down and keep on fighting.

melora’s boon is also the song that plays for moonshine’s boon at the heart of the world. there are actually two songs in this scene, hardwon’s is different, and the transition back happens when melora says there’s a part of herself that moonshine hasn’t embraced. when she speaks to moonshine leading her people to a better future like an alpha wolf leading her pack. for callie, it plays when she tells hardwon and sol that she’s a liability and she needs to change— to embrace winter— in order to get calder back, even as they reassure her that she doesn’t. it also plays when callie asks the others to help her protect honeysuckle while he’s weakened. when they promise to lead honeysuckle home and free him from his connections to gromdal.

the writing on the wall plays when the boobs reach the court of gods. there's the wall of prayers there, and they hear the prayers of the people of bahumia, reaching out to them. prayers of protection-- for and by them. prayers that put the future of bahumia in their hands. for callie, this is the song that plays when she sees aryox's carving of her reaching the cave. when she realizes her mother acted the way she did because she could see what was coming in the future. when she realizes her mother was leaving the world in her hands.

the songs that the boobs first encounter at the end— when they’re basically demigods stepping up to face thiala— return for duck team in these personal moments. when sol finds the strength to refuse death. when callie talks about embracing winter, her mother’s season, something she eventually finds strength in, to save her friend. when callie asks the others to help honeysuckle, one of the serpents that she’s promised to protect partially due to the harm her family caused to the wild. and when callie realizes her mother saw the future and acted as she did because of it, pushing callie to walk the path she’s walking now.

anyway. this was a post about naddpod music.

#naddpod #ba2mia #naddmusic tag #sorry to leave calder out his story is too ongoing to fit yet #(and we haven’t had any songs that fit in his arc either) #if we get a late stage bahumia song during this arc #for calder and gowan im gonna fucking. die. #truly just going insane over here anyway #like obviously on a meta level the reason the songs were never used for the bob #before the endgame is bc they weren’t written yet #but like. when you start to think about it #it kind of fits that it happens like this #there’s also more examples like i just want to know you’re taken care of #which is used in c1e91 for moonshine and paw paw’s convo #being used for callie and foster in ep10 #of c3 #specifically in the context of callie’s love and her fear of loving big #(contrasted against moonshine resigning herself to hell and her fear of that future) #anyway if i keep talking abt this i’ll explode so #enjoy? i guess? #hanbles

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

There are only so many fanfics that use the entirety of DC as cardboard cutouts to prop up bat family characters that I can read before I go berserk.

I swear to god. Every character that has ever been shipped with a bat or coexists on the same team as a bat is owed an apology.

How many Young Justice fanfics that solely revolve around Tim must exist? How many Titans fanfics centered only on Dick? Why is it a herculean task to find a Justice League fanfic without Bruce as the main character?

And then even when you do find a fic that seems like it's balanced, everything still revolves around the bat. Like Kon, Cassie and Bart have nothing else going on in their lives except Tim and Tim's issues or thinking about Tim. Like Donna and Wally and Roy just cannot function if they aren't spending every waking moment thinking about Dick.

I'm... Guys. I'm at my limit. I swear to god. We need to make a Batman tag and surgically remove all these fics and quarantine them there. We'll keep the actual DC fics and they can do whatever the fuck they want in their own tag. It's getting ridiculous how hard it is to find fanfic that's actually DC related and isn't just 'The BatFam Show'.

#im going INSANE #i literally just have to filter out the batfam characters at this point #and even that doesn't help sometimes #holy shit guys what is GOING ON #seriously if i see one more fic thats all 'haha the justice league meets the batfam and they're so shocked! 😯 because they're crazy 🤣' #i don't know how to explain to you people that THEY HAVE SEEN WEIRDER #a bunch of ninja kids aren't even making the top ten weirdest moments my dude. like. at all. #not even remotely #i can't stress ENOUGH how normal that would be to them #anyway im going fucking bonkers over here #dc #dc comics #or god fucking damnit the YJ fics that literally just have Kon's life revolving around Tim #and Cassie and Bart are just background scenary. and only exist to push Kon and Tim together. I'm going to go fucking nuts #ship whoever you want but at least have the character have an actual character beyond 'love interest' #also jfc. every. single. birdflash fic. that has Wally just be a love interest with literally nothing fucking else going on #except his relationship with Dick. work? family? life? villains?? nope! no he's just madly in love with Dick and cute and thats it! #im GOING INSANE

[canibeanythingelse]

arcane incantation

#GOD. the THINGS i want to do to this mans cervix... FHDSKGFHDKGFGHDS #kaname date more like can i may have my fucking life back asshole god fucking damn #hate his ass. HATE HIS ASS (<- obsessed with him) #aitsf #kaname date #ai the somnium files #my art #this is the first properly painted Thing since like...... was it the ryuki drawing i did ages ago? or like. ig i have a painted comm wip #(that i... need to work on. surprisingly this took way less time than those do! not in a bad way btw i love comms they just take way longer #(for me at least) #also lol 'arcane incantation' is the title of the date residence ost since i got the idea of this from looking at date's house replaying ai #anyways while im here. im going insane over the fucking nursery rhyme-like piano motif in parts of sinkin in the brain #and that being carried over to atrocious insanity 2 but sped up and running through the whole song instead #when those are the two key points where we're hinted/get told about date's identity and like. the major parts where they're the actual Focu #I LOVE MUSIC MOTIIIIFFFSSSSSSS im insane whatever WHAT EVER. #whatever. look at my art Boy.

[almightaylor]

taylor zakhar perez is the only man ever

#taylor zakhar perez #i’m so obsessed and enchanted by him your honor #i know that he’s aware that he looks good but i wanna keep reminding him bc HE LOOKS SO FUCKING GOOD AND CHARMING AND ATTRACTIVE AND KIND #im going insane over here send help

[possamble]

realizing im kind of a weirdo about laios and marcille

#possramble #ignore this im just babbling but #the thing is that like. i don't ship laios and marcille together. their relationship is so so important to me in that laios comphets himsel #and THINKS that he might be in love with her but he isn't and that's my insane obsession #platonic soulmates for real but they're so sweet together that i fully expect them to be shipped together #like i get it. that's almost the appeal for me. if dungeon meshi were any other series there'd be an epilogue where they get married #convention dictates that they're meant to be together as the male protagonist and his beloved female deuteragonist #but dungeon meshi DOESNT do that and i love it so fucking much they're the comphet besties ever for my strange little brain #like if i ever did an arranged marriage au it would absolutely be laios and marcille having a platonic political marriage and then just #the most insane mutual pining with marcille and falin while laios and marcille struggle their way into becoming best friends #the imagery of the king and his beautiful court mage being tender to each other and everyone thinking they're in love is like catnip to me #like yeah they'd be like that and have no idea people think they should be together and the subversion makes me so obsessed #the more people ship them romantically. the more i enjoy their platonic dynamic it's like some sort of weird comphet fetishism idk #people think they're in love and im outside the window like YES... YES!!! #but also the second i see stuff of them kissing on the mouth or fucking im like oh god no i went too deep in here i gotta get out #don't wanna see that. i'll go feral over the idea of laios and marcille being arm-in-arm like king and queen but they would not fuck. #i want marcille to be his default comphet beard and dance partner/plus one at official royal events but they're not kissing. #she's there on his arm because he's scared of the other noble women tryna get him and being a baby about it #and people see them muttering to each other and laughing and generally being very sweet and think that they're dating but they're not. #she's actually covered in hickies from falin underneath her dress and is gonna get dragon dicked right after the party is over #like she's in her bedroom and falin's helping her take her ridiculous dress off while listening to her complain about politics #and falin is the person she goes home to the person she falls asleep to and wakes up with #they're a triad of utter devotion to each other but only farcille's side of the triangle is romantic #it's almost like an open secret because they're not trying to hide it at all but people assume and are surprised to find out #like people are so right about her relationship with the toudens but with the siblings' roles switched #love of her life & irreplaceable life companion. does anyone get it #anyway. i don't know what's wrong with me #it bothers me that they're not the undisputed most popular het ship for marcille on ao3 #it's unnatural. marcille being paired with any other man should be a fringe case.

[dennisboobs]

my favourite thing about the always sunny podcast is listening to rcg all say something extremely neurodivergent and then agree amongst themselves and convince themselves its completely normal

#and to be clear im not diagnosing them charlie said he wasn't neurotypical #like deadass i think. the reason some of their writers just completely botch the gang's motivations/dialogue sometimes is bc at their core #these characters are all. SO autistic. which inevitably leads to them being misunderstood by others outside their group #whether rcg realizes it or not they inject this very specific vibe of neurodivergence into the gang #and its why they will just. argue over inconsequential details bc they Need to be understood completely #they can't just drop it unless they are crystal fucking clear #imo the biggest mistake other writers make is thinking that the gang is completely desensitized when its more like #they just don't react the way you would expect #which is often... adjacent to that but still distinct. and its trauma that influences this as well #the gang does not believe they themselves are 'bad people'. theyre most often oblivious to the fact that the things they do are insane #rob saying he doesnt pick up on social cues and then going on to argue in circles with glenn #i dont think last week was anything crazy but i think. rob doesn't know when to let up. which is a problem that *i* have #and while it comes across as being confrontational in an 'im right youre wrong' way i dont think its driven by ego here #just like with how as they said mac and dennis are making up while chucking bread rolls at each other #on both sides its frustration at being misunderstood #but they are all similar enough that even if they disagree over small details theyre usually on the same page. and this can be beneficial!! #thats the conclusion of the ep!!!! whether its suggesting smoking to cancel out the toxic apple skin or suggesting words u cant think of #glenn said he was upset about feeling misrepresented and picked on #dennis gets angry for those exact reasons in.... ALL of his big rage scenes #its frustration that leads to anger because youre speaking to (another) brick wall and you can't adequately explain yourself #which. glenn is clearly more competent than dennis & i think a lot of the time in sunny the gang is WAY more obtuse for the sake of comedy #but its interesting to watch the dynamic because as charlie said last week #they are mac and dennis (especially when theyre fighting) #i just think.. they are in a semi-unique position to understand this because this is how they are. while several other writers do not get i #ada speaks #untagged

[adellovesrowan]

can you even imagine falling like i did?

#no fucking way. me ? posting here again ??? hi #god imffuckigngkdnkff ROWANNNN loves u #shakes them puts them in a jar #im soo tired. i havent drawn for myself in so long and im an art student . this is a warm up before more assignments return ig #so i dont yk go insane . #rowan my angel theyr beautiful perfect spectacular blinding admiraeble wodnerufl magnificicent. kisses them my baby #they deserve all the goo d things #also peek their massive scar from y6ch18 :) it looks like tree roots growing from somewhere over their heart where the curse hit them #god what were the tags i used ummm #rowan khanna #rowan x mc #well no mc is specified here but we all know someones being a lesbian #hphm #harry potter hogwarts mystery #fanart #mine #UPDATE mc specified its adel check the link out #adel young #rowan x adel

[clits-and-clips]

Is there like.... anywhere or anyone I can talk to about wanting to die without feeling bad or triggering people

#tw #txt #cause i cant talk to him about it as it would trigger him #i dont want to trigger people here cause i know multiple people who have attempted #if i tell my family ill feel bad and theyll make me do something about it if that makes sense like theyll make me tell my psych or smth #i jjst dont fucking know how to handle it #ive always had slight feelings of wanting to die but its sooooo bad now #how do i handle yhat when i have no friends #etc #idkdidkdksoakdpcjwheic #im going fucking insane man #i just cant handle the thought of life without him as my partner and it feels so pathetic #but 8 years #and its just over with no conversation beforehand #idk i didnt deserve that #here i am repeating myselffffffffffgfg

[just-null-cult]

noritoshi stansism so true

i love every character in jjk equally, Noritoshi (JR) and not Noritoshis! idk what youre goin on abt

#??? #cult leader cameo #but you got me #noritoshi supremacy is so fr here #i love this dude so much #hes so fucking good #he ticks every box for me and YET #I COULDNT FIND ANYTHING ON HIM ASIDE FROM THE FEW BLOGS THAT DID SMTH W HIM #(ily out there i see you and ive most likely lurked your blogs aha) #so im just gonna praise him here #watch me go insane over this guy bc im in love w him #noritoshi stans are so sexy and have W rizz #btw if you couldnt tell i love when noritoshi is confused distressed or grumpy #those facial reactions on him are so fucking good #BUT GOD I NEED TO DRAW HIM LAUGHING #I SAW THIS ONE POST THAT SAID 'I WANT HIM TO LAUGH LIKE A FOOL' BITCH ME TOO #anyway expect more ramblings abt him when hes barely mentioned #p.s. if its not obvious that green thing is my little persona not y/n but you can join me in praise of the best boy of the fucking ever

[eremin0109]

You don't know how insane it makes me that the last scene and even the penultimate scene of the show wasn't about Gicheol and Euijeong or fuck, even Junmo and Euijeong. Both of those scenes were about Gicheol and Junmo. Of what became of them and what could've been. It has all always been about them.

#do you know just how fucking insane that is!? #like yes Euijeong was the key to all the personal conflicts around them #but in the end it was always gonna come down to those two #it is Junmo who bestows the judgment upon Gicheol it is him who finally seals his fate while euijeong is merely a witness in that moment #gicheol was doomed from the start because he had not one but two judas' flanking him #fuck this shit maan im going a little crazy over here #the worst of evil

[werchezdeeno]

FUCK YEAH GREAT PRETENDER SEASON THREE BABY IM GOING FERAL HELL YEAH

BLUE EXORCIST, BLACK BUTLER, AND NOW THIS?! IM GOING CRAZY HOLY SHIT.

ALL I NEED IS ICE ADOLESCENCE AND THEN I WILL ASCEND. I WILL DIE. ILL MANIFEST MY DELUSIONS 24/7 AND IT WILL HAPPEN. TRUST. 🦅🙏

#kuroshitsuji #black butler #blue exorcist #ao no excorsist #great pretender #yuri on ice #yoi #LETS FUCKING GOOOOO #IM GOING INSANE RN #ACTUALLY LOSING IT OVER HERE #SO HYPED #lmao but seriously #if all of these can happen why cant ice adolescence happen #im missing my favorote gays 😭😭😭😭😭 #its not the same 💔 #maybe if i manifest my delusions hard enough ice adolescence will happen #maybe #oh well #ill just settle for laurent and edamura #edaurent #ok back to cleaning 🧼 #jade’s posts #NOT A REBLOG #I FEEL POWERFUL #ice adolescence #almsot forgot to tag that 💀

[puppyeared]

save me old flipnote studio MVs.......

#im going thru old flipnotes i used to watch years ago and ouggghhg so many good ones #is twenty one pilots still popular.... do people still remember the TRNDSTTER and marble soda meme......... #its like im unlocking some sort of primal part of my brain and everything is coming back to me. one of my biggest inspirations as a kid #i still remember thinking the final transmission lyrics were the coolest thing and watching =TopHat= Bee and Melissa over and over #theres a very specific feeling of longing and nostalgia looking back and watching these again years later #especially when there isnt anything genshin or mcyt and instead its either fnaf undertale eddsworld or another obscure #interest... and not even fnaf sister location its like fnaf 3 and 2. its THAT old. and a lot of oc MVs especially pokemon ocs and furries.. #god but they were so creative u know. i still find it amazing ppl took this little lightbox animation on the fucking NINTENDO DS and #cranked it all the way to 11.. like if u look at the transitions and movement its so fucking fluid its insane..!! HOW DO YOU MAKE THE #CHARACTERS SPIN??? AND CHANGING CAMERA ANGLES??? and keep in mind youre doing this all with a shitty stylus #on a THREE BY TWO INCH SCREEN. you only get two layers you can go up to 29FPS and you only have 999 slides to work with #and 24FPS eats up a lot of that. absolutely insane it literally boggles my mind every time i think about it. AND SOME ARE EVEN FULL COLOR #i forgot how popular EDM was back then too...they were really good for timing beats though so you get a lot of MVs with #strobe last and marble soda. porter robinsons goodbye to a world was also popular with undertale and oc MVs. also a lot of vocaloid #someone made a flipnote abt the warner bros fnaf movie being announced EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO. it even used the stay calm audio from #the office.... i wonder how theyre doing now... i love you shitty grainy MV audio.. but i have mixed feelings abt the flashing colors #ppl LOVED animating the sans vs frisk fight. aishite and primadonna were also big ones they were SICK AS FUCK #lots of these inspired my old oc designs.. a lot of my characters had side bangs with one eye covered. animal ears and simple eyes too #now i kinda wanna try my hand at the marble soda meme cause i loved it as a kid lol.. i wonder if i should compare my old and new art here #UGHHHH IM SO NORMAL ABOUT NOSTALGIA. IM SO NORMAL ABT MY SCHOOL BOOK DRAWINGS WITH SHIBA BROWS #yapping #nostalgia

[sittinginsunflowers]

I never thought the piece of art that would most perfectly capture the complicated, loving, and fraught relationship between mothers and daughters with generational trauma would be a fucking d&d campaign about stoats and nuclear power plants.

Like at it’s core this is the story of exile, filled with all the generational trauma and grief that comes with it. In just seconds, they lost everything they’ve ever known but each other. They lost their childhood homes, their community, and their way of life. All to find that the thing they were taught to respect and thought was an offer of safety, was just secrets, control, and more danger than they’ve ever known.

People joked for years that Brennan made capitalism the big bad, and then Aabria turned around and went “what if we give communism a turn?”

#dimension 20 #aabria iyengar #burrow's end #burrow’s end spoilers #d20 #im going insane over it #it’s like someone snuck into the lunches my mom and I have with my abuela #Like I’m out here fighting for my life every time Erika gives me psychic damage #and maybe it’s just that I’ve been raised by a single mom as a Cuban American with a family that literally rebeled against a regime #but this is literally the best depiction of my family I think I’ve ever seen and I might actually lose my mind about it #anyway #d&d is fucking wild man #also aabria I know you go here and I’m so sorry if this comes across your dash #like idk where you’re going with this but fuck it’s incredible and thanks #also before anyone says anything captialism is an horror and I truly believe that the Last Bast could be beautiful #but my spidery senses and family history have me on the edge of my seat

[unknownarmageddon]

Killer and Cross dyiesing in a tragic plane crash (they wanted to make their aircrafts kiss)

BAHAHA WAILING killer like says to cross over coms like “hey wanna make our planes kiss lmao” and then all cross’s guys on the ground see is them flying directly at each other and then an explosion

#answering asks #justanidiotartist asks #jaa!! #im gonna go on another insane tangent here cause i gotta say it or im gonna go insane #i feel like when cross and killer would actually meet face to face is like. #when killer’s jet gets damaged and he’s gotta abort it (jump out with a parachute) or crashed or something so it’s like. #whatever happens is Not Good. killer ends up kinda rough #cross finds him in the woods around where cross’s stationed and has to take him back #and make sure he doesn’t fucking die cause he’s all beat up and not fully conscious or whatever #and he’s absolutely kinda smug about it like the first thing he says to killer when killer’s conscious is “i finally beat you” or something #and then they start flying again but Together and their dogfights get more playful #ANYWAY. tangent over. hadda get it out of my system /silly #no idea if that’s anything it was just my first thought

[narwhalandchill]

theres people out there that dont want childe to die bc they like him.

me however. im different. i like childe and i explicitly want this guy to die. and im very specific about the when and how too.

i dont want a forced dumb predictable redemption arc or a self sacrifice. i dont want to see him reform his abysspilled unhinged chaos-sowing ways or break free from his 'twisted fate'. i dont want to see him "learn". i want to see him master foul legacy and witness as he grows stronger and stronger until he reaches his apex as a warrior rivaling the heavens at the peak of his pride and hubris.

i want him to embrace and finally fulfill the destiny the abyss bestowed upon him of being the one to overturn the world at the climax of the story. i want him to rip the tenets holding teyvats heavenly principles and world order apart as he gives gold a run for her money in terms of the utter catastrophe about to unfold if we dont stop him in time. forcing the traveler to face him once and for all as the world lies defeated at his feet just like he promised before. and all throughout this he remains the same gleeful battle maniac as before that sees us as his greatest rival and friend. only caring for the exhilaration of that fated final showdown even as the stakes couldnt be higher bc what does it matter to him? he may be acting as the abyss' chosen champion through the fulfillment of his ambition but for him it always boils down to the thrill of battle and conquest anyway. nothing more, nothing less - so he welcomes us with a smile once more for the last time.

and then i want us to fight him to the death. i want him to die as teyvat public enemy #1 and the final boss and the true manifestation of the world-devouring abyssal deep and the celestial star-whale he awakened at 14. dissolving into and becoming one with the very cosmic dark that made him who he was.

#IM SUPER NORMAL ABOUT HIM I SWEAR #they give me one (1) new lore drop about his abyss ties and i go fucking insane over this man all over again #genshin #rambles #childeposting #genshin spoilers / #kinda. its just the mention of the AQ act I lore drop #seriously block childeposting if you dont want to see this stuff bc . ive been here before. its not gonna stop anytime soon #sorry to hsr followers ajksjkjksjkdjk #you people: worried about his new mood swings #me: (grabbing popcorn) #fuck them up ajax #childe