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Okay please, I just adore how you talk about Marcille!!

I feel like a lot of people don’t like her as much, or more like they don’t like her as a character or just completely ignore her character growth etc. So it’s so sweet to see someone who GETS IT. Haha

AHa thank you so much!!! I get what you mean. Marcille is like... because she's written so well, I think she can induce polarizing reactions in people. On one hand, you have the people just dismissing her as a prissy uptight girl who's overly mean to the boys.

On the other hand, her fans unfortunately can have the tendency to be too charitable about her. Like, they kind of don't see the fact that she can be so horrendous sometimes? So hypocritical? that she absolutely should not be allowed to date Falin until she gets her shit sorted?

I think she shows an insane amount of complexity that changes and grows throughout the story. The Marcille at the end of the story is so much more mature than the Marcille you meet at the beginning. I kind of just want to wave her around like... isn't that wonderful, that she started as such a close-minded and scared child, only to very nearly cause the end of the world and then grow immensely from it? that she is so deeply flawed and damaged and lets fear rule so many of her actions, lets fear poison the way she treats Falin (almost like a beloved pet than a full person), but ultimately decides she'd rather learn how to be brave than die scared? That the audience is genuinely unsure if she would have been able to be truly brave without the love and support of those around her? That beneath all the immaturity and prissy hysterics, she is fundamentally motivated by unfathomably deep love--for better and for worse?

She is still cringe in her most profound moments. She is still profound in her most cringe moments. She contains multitudes beyond what can be explained in so many words and I really really really let this post get away from me

#asks #possramble #marcille donato #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #stares at the ceiling #sorry. #don't talk to me about this stupid elf #i just won't shut up!! and i'll be pretentious about it too!!

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realizing im kind of a weirdo about laios and marcille

#possramble #ignore this im just babbling but #the thing is that like. i don't ship laios and marcille together. their relationship is so so important to me in that laios comphets himsel #and THINKS that he might be in love with her but he isn't and that's my insane obsession #platonic soulmates for real but they're so sweet together that i fully expect them to be shipped together #like i get it. that's almost the appeal for me. if dungeon meshi were any other series there'd be an epilogue where they get married #convention dictates that they're meant to be together as the male protagonist and his beloved female deuteragonist #but dungeon meshi DOESNT do that and i love it so fucking much they're the comphet besties ever for my strange little brain #like if i ever did an arranged marriage au it would absolutely be laios and marcille having a platonic political marriage and then just #the most insane mutual pining with marcille and falin while laios and marcille struggle their way into becoming best friends #the imagery of the king and his beautiful court mage being tender to each other and everyone thinking they're in love is like catnip to me #like yeah they'd be like that and have no idea people think they should be together and the subversion makes me so obsessed #the more people ship them romantically. the more i enjoy their platonic dynamic it's like some sort of weird comphet fetishism idk #people think they're in love and im outside the window like YES... YES!!! #but also the second i see stuff of them kissing on the mouth or fucking im like oh god no i went too deep in here i gotta get out #don't wanna see that. i'll go feral over the idea of laios and marcille being arm-in-arm like king and queen but they would not fuck. #i want marcille to be his default comphet beard and dance partner/plus one at official royal events but they're not kissing. #she's there on his arm because he's scared of the other noble women tryna get him and being a baby about it #and people see them muttering to each other and laughing and generally being very sweet and think that they're dating but they're not. #she's actually covered in hickies from falin underneath her dress and is gonna get dragon dicked right after the party is over #like she's in her bedroom and falin's helping her take her ridiculous dress off while listening to her complain about politics #and falin is the person she goes home to the person she falls asleep to and wakes up with #they're a triad of utter devotion to each other but only farcille's side of the triangle is romantic #it's almost like an open secret because they're not trying to hide it at all but people assume and are surprised to find out #like people are so right about her relationship with the toudens but with the siblings' roles switched #love of her life & irreplaceable life companion. does anyone get it #anyway. i don't know what's wrong with me #it bothers me that they're not the undisputed most popular het ship for marcille on ao3 #it's unnatural. marcille being paired with any other man should be a fringe case.

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im finishing this fucking thing tonight if its the last thing i do

#fic #possramble #it's 12:25am #i have work tomorrow #but im SO close to actually capping off the first draft of this #it's all ive got now that the next chapter of a little creature is a shitshow that's giving me trouble #yeah sure im not posting it tonight. but i WILL finish this draft tonight on god

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if you're ever wondering why some japanese fantasy media with meticulous worldbuilding randomly has like normal-ass months and dates. it's bc calendar months being named after specific myths or historical figures is not a thing in east asian languages, all months are just called month 1, month 2, month 3, etc. so setting a normal date based on a 12-month calendar doesn't actually seem incongruous with fantasy

#randomly remembered a friend asking me this a while back about final fantasy birthdays #and honestly even i was slightly surprised by ryoko kui giving everyone normal birthdays #i think i was expecting some crazy fantasy calendar bc i know she's played so much fucking dnd and pathfinder #but alas. there's just literally no linguistic need to worry about it and she did not make dungeon meshi with a western audience in mind #possramble #i can't speak for the rest of asia/other countries and languages that are outside the sinic cultural sphere

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woke up and got absolutely obliterated by a farcille fancomic on twitter how are you guys doing

#possramble #lsdfjvnsf it's by shindo9600 and you've probably already seen it if you're on twitter #i just. hooo boy i don't cry often #but that one was just like. every single had something that got to me and there were just like two pages in sequence that GUTTED me #i hate twitter's 4-image limit bc those two pages are split across two posts and like #i think it would have hit even harder if it was immediately in sequence instead of you having to click to another post #but jesus christ just. marcille holding falin and feeling the difference between little falin and the one in front of her #and then it cuts to two panels of her earliest memory of holding her father's hand and here last memory of it. #and then because it goes immediately to her hand on falin's face you don't get to see her expression until the next page #and it's just this held breath of grief and sadness until you see her smiling wryly and at least halfway reconciling with it #instead of flinching away from it #i had to put my coffee down and rub my eyes like wow. #i. god. what the fuck

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looking through my saved collection of fanart that went directly into my farcille characterization and. 50% of it is just porn from twitter lmfao

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^ guy who played too much pathfinder kingmaker and dragon age inquisition and can't stop thinking about laios looking at a project with three cards of marcille, kabru, and yaad respectively to choose from

#possramble #listen i fucking hated the management system in both games but it also kind of popped off #so nostalgic for it for some reason esp when the options were so fucking crazy too #leliana: ill cut that bitch's tongue out #josie: i can ruin her life othello style #octavia and jubilost being so so cunty ro each other #theres a spy problem in melini and its like #yaad: we can pump up the guardsmens salary and increase overall security #marcille: i mean i can cook up a ton of familiars to sniff out trouble #kabru: we can just ask around with normal people youd be surprised by how much they know #secret option: izutsumi #what does she do? izutsumi.

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jesus im backed up on work

#possramble #im putting an immediate stop on all fic writing and in-depth marcilleposting until may lol sorry #too bad for me i just had another pwp idea that's rattling my brain #marcille starts taking a few hours to do full-body tans just bc she realized she's getting weird neckline tans in the summer #and she'd rather not have that when it's so hot out and she's cycling through her low neckline dresses #but of course. falin walks in while she's lounging naked on her balcony covered in tanning oil #first time i'll be using 'clothed top naked bottom' if that's even a tag #anyway. i did finally figure out what i want to do with the next chapter of a little creature so that's a relief #also thank you for the tips LMFAO i just need to fight off the urge to use them for stupid takeout orders

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rubbing my face as i work on this marcille's mom ask post and it keeps getting more complicated. oh my god im turning into the sad elf mommy issues guy

#possramble #to be clear i don't think marcille has mommy issues the way that like. laios has daddy issues. #i just think there's a very loving but sad distance that happened when they failed to grieve together in a way that helped both of them #marcille wants to prove herself as independent and competent as her mother and her mother just wants her to be happy #but they don't talk about it in so many words etc etc yknow

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six paragraphs into answering an ask i have realized im going to give up for now and come back with actual evidence and just commit to it being a long post

#apologies anon i'll get to it soonish #possramble #i have. far too much to say about marcille's mother #how she's obviously kind of an integral part of marcille's personality but barely has a presence in the story otherwise #dungeon meshi

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seeing art of falin with her little guy makes me so crazy like how am i supposed to get back to work now. he's just a little thing that also IS her and he loves her soo much when she's never been able to love herself and

#overcome with emotion #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #incredibly funny that i didn't get 1k into my 'short farcille fic' before immediately starting to get emotional over the little dragon #originally i was trying to come up with an excuse for marcille to go into falin's mental/dreamspace #just so she could physically see how much the dragon trusts and cares for falin #just chillin on her shoulder and being curious about everything she does #but alas. its tastier and a better story if i leave it ambiguous whether the dragon is a separate entity inside her or not #possramble

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that really took ALL DAY goodnight

#possramble #sorry to all the other asks about normal shit in my inbox dslfjsdf #oh my god i have to figure out dinner #my onions are SPROUTED cream pasta is off the table #im all out of easy junk food tho arrrghh #local idiot goes to raid in ff14 on empty stomach and stalls prog #someone needs to kick my ass if i don't go grocery shopping tomorrow

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hurgles

#possramble #sorry guys i don't want to answer the asks about the other popular marcille het ship #partially bc i don't want it showing up in the tags and partially just like #frankly i hate it on a personal level but theres really no point harping on about it in public #and anyway im almost 30 i really don't need to be doing this fandom shit like that lkdsjfvnsdf

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no no no why is this another long chapter i want to go back to short chapters

#crying screaming tearing my hair out #life is so simple when you can just post 3k-4k and be done with it but NO #this has to have buildup #i need to add more to the beginning to make the end of it actually stick #it's gonna be another week or more i hate it here #possramble #a little creature #my god my mood has improved so much since getting a job but i forgot i can't just pump out fic 24/7 now #why does writing TAKE so long!!!

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oh nevermind it just finally clicked for me haha ryoko kui you're insane

#possramble #i'll put this in the other post but my god. why does she know how to write about every kind of parental trauma in existence #from outright neglect to the incredibly human failings that parents can't be blamed for but deeply damaged their children nonetheless

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when you need your next dose of attention but both your wips are at a really weird midway point that's gonna take multiple days to figure out

#possramble #shall i deliver pain or shall i deliver porn? #the answer: i should be working for like real money instead.