#im catching up to u

[madeby-meru]

some theories ig???

i would be absolutely fucking THRILLED if Danica became our best friend in the game like Rosalya and Alex were in the original MCL (our poor candy is all alone here wtf and ealine and brune give me a rival vibe more than a bestie vibe iykyk) and she could be our conection to Goldreamz to find out more about what the fuck happened between Devon and Jason and uncover some juicyyyy company secrets

i have very high hopes for her to have a good proper storyline of how and why exactly she "switched sides" (im betting everything on the children, maybe she is divorced or her partner passed away and she could no longer afford to care for two children on her own and Goldreamz offered her better benefits??)

also yes i want her to be a secret route >:] beemov we need more than one female love interest !!! let me date Danica !!! please !!!

#yes im using all of this for my fic #im creating my own canon now #chop chop beemow #im catching up to u #mcl #mclng #my candy love #my candy love new gen #my candy love new gen danica #my candy love new gen jason #my candy love new gen devon #mclng danica #mclng jason #mclng devon

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[65bananba]

the beauty of giving kdj a generic-ass shounen MC character design in the webtoon is that he is so much like a typical shounen MC. but he is so special to me

this is the version im talking about by the way

#ppl not knowing kim dokja calling him generic whenever i catch him in the wild and im like. u dont know him like i do...... #he is my generic shounen MC-coded little guy #oh you dont know kim dokja? would you like to? *pulls up a ppt presentation* #about to be like those door to door salesman about to sell you my merchandise (orv webnovel) #orv #kim dokja

[b4kuch1n]

simulated earth (it does not matter)

transcript

#sherlock and co #sherlock & co #podlock #comic #sherlock holmes #john watson #victor trevor #ft. archie (in like three panels lmao) #need to figure out a podlock specific tag for these guys so this doesnt clutter up the main sh tags #bc ohhh boy. I anticipate being insane abt s&co for a While #this comic def a Hot minute post-gloria scott #what is this about exactly? you ask. haha well (there's sunlight bouncing off a window and when u look back Im already gone) #listen I caught up to everything right before gloria scott and holy Shit that case knocked me on my ass #as a chronic adhd (and thus serious memory problems) haver.... (holds sherlock tenderly) #I have not listened to SOLI yet btw I will tomorrow. I wanted to finish this before catching up #Im obsessed with them. Im such an easy idiot lmao Im a sherlock holmes adaptation enthusiast before Im a human #gloria scott.... the way it muses on the limit of the genre same as the red headed league.... what about the victims? #what about the victims. what about the victims. what part of the pain does the process of investigation cure #victor's like. he's between jobs he's between boyfriends he's living with his dad whose caretaker he just became. who does he have #and sherlock holmes is about the truth but john's been about the solution so far. I just. I really like this john watson lmao #listen the way he complains and then refuses to shoot the underlings in red headed league. based. I love him #I can fix him (radicalize him against punitive justice) #(I am refraining from talking abt sherlock in the tags here bc I Will run out of tags before Im done) #(mariana is not here but I care her too!! she will be here more often in the future I swear I fuckign swear......) #(''I'm in a co-op that's sponsoring my visa. also I just witnessed two actual dead bodies like a month ago'' you mean everything to me) #screams. I got attached SO fast this show is targeting me specifically. my broke millenials suffering in london show #I have like a number of sketches too be prepared. theyre gonna show up soon. until then #have a good day lads. be there! be there. #edit: this comic is finished and assembled in full before I listened to the solitary cyclist part one. this has been an update #I have now listened to SOLI part one. I must hit john watson with a hammer

[kenmaiii]

after two years i finally draw the favorite

#my art #still learning honestly. idk how to explain it but some medias youre so fixated on and obsessed with u instantly want to draw everyone #for me dunmeshi has always been the opposite. series and characters i enjoy sm i cannot bring myself to pick up a pencil #for some reason. it got a lot worse once the anime started airing idk. simply forcing myself to get some of my energy out. in a way #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #thistle #dunmeshi thistle #thistle dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #>_< series i was into since late 2021. yet u wouldnt know that unless u follow my side twitter account. sowwy ig #i do this with a lot of franchises honestly. cannot bring myself to draw even if i think abt the characters constantly. ie skip to loafer #u will nvr catch me calling this guy sissel sorry. save that name for Mr. Ghost Trick. another thing i. also. dnt talk abt. which i adore #i need to get better at talking abt and expressing myself for the things that i enjoy. ive been wanting to draw laios for a good #while too but im scared. for some reason. u-u should nvr let a white man do that to me honestly. #for now i'll thistle tho. maybe we will get kabru namari or mithrun next from me >_< i have to talk myself into it #i think the closest way i can explain why i cannot bring myself to draw for some series is that i dnt want to mess up somehow #like 'ilu so much [character] what if i cnt draw u the way u deserve even tho i love u sm what if its not enough.' <- leaves it to sm1 else #tbh [scratches head] i prefer the version with less coloring ^-^ but i realize the one thats more colored would get more eyes on it... hm

[taitavva]

WDYM IT ISNT FEBRUARY ANYMORE ???

#NO U DONT RECOGNIZE THE CUPID OUTFIT #shhh i totally don't know where its from .... #persona 5 #p5 #persona 5 royal #p5r #procreate #2023 #illustration #digital fanart #goro akechi #persona 5 protagonist #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #10.5 hours #shuake #akeshu #im sorry im not dead #i just let procrastination catch up to me #FORGIVE ME PLS !!!

[parpolaroid]

#im really really trying to get better at backgrounds and space #can u tell ive painted along to a bunch of bob ross videos #capypril 2023 #takarts #day 7 (fantasy) #im so behind but im gonna catch up

[cutie-lumi]

boobies

tsumugi can't see your ask bc there's something blocking her view :(

#ensemble stars #femstars #tsumugi aoba #natsume sakasaki #enstars #genderbend #my art #ask #i wonder what's causing her problem #if u see me randomly answering old asks/requests thats bc im trying to catch up ok </3

[disappointparents]

you will try.

#EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS BLURRY AHHHHH #he is so beautiful (a bunch of lines and u cant even see his face) #anyway i made this while my mom was having the most dramatic juicy gossip session crisis next to me #and the prompt was battle so um fitting enough #still trying to catch up from the previous days but now im free from class for a few days at least so yay #obi wan kenobi #star wars #star wars art #revenge of the sith #inktober #starwarstober22 #chiara’s inktober 22 #chiara’s art tag

[puppyeared]

man

#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!! #and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

[heystephen]

im so glad i was assigned to be a swiftie during the debut era

#one of my friends became a swiftie during the folklore era and is like. i cannot catch up!!! #i keep going back to learn the old stuff and then she adds more new stuff!!!! #im like babe im so sorry. u should’ve known #this has been a post*

[dizzybizz]

magma doods from the past few days bc its basically all i have been able to get done

uhm i dont think i ever posted these from a few months ago

a bonus bc im right:

#or as i like to call it: a blorbo catch up #bc i always end up just defaulting to blorbos i have missed drawing (jerma is not a blorbo. it was jerma hour i had to participate) #also i probs need a break from anything hand related bc i kinda maybe overdid it with gaming n drawing for too long n uhh my fingers owie a #jerma985 #yu yu hakusho #the great ace attorney #heaven official's blessing #honkai star rail #awoogaarfarfarf boothill im comin for ur ass in 2.2 just you wait i will get u u RAHFHGHHH #the teeny tiny doodles dont get media tags sry #moomin #promare #the disastrous life of saiki k. #just roll with it #mob psycho 100 #dead plate #witch hat atelier #my art #magma #i vloe drawng i hate drawnig i love drawin g

[saturnsickle]

12!

12.) Damian Wayne (at 148 comics read at the time of this ask!)

Send me a number between 1-100 and I'll draw whoever it corresponds to in my LOCG reading stats

#damian wayne #robin dc #dc robin #damian al ghul #dc comics #my art #im not 100% on how this one came out but i still think it came out okayish #i love damian hes lower now i need to catch up on his comics #i need another dick as batman and damian as robin run plz dc i beg u

[bioluminosity]

pizza party for "one"

#destiny 2 #my art #the witness #season of the deep spoilers #IF U SQUINT #nothing new for me. except confidence ig #having to catch up on all my ideas now that school is out and im only a little bit sick <3 #the ones on top are arguing about the ice cream

[sparring-spirals]

my dash: Bell's Hells are doing doppelganger trust exercises in the feywild for bonding purposes

me: oh???? :) my fools?

my dash: half of them wanted to use detect thoughts to get through it. they werent allowed to. but they were absolutely planning to do it.

me, with great affection: oh, my fools :') of course

my dash: They Handled This Less Than Optimally and were accusing each other suspiciously and randomly and using all kinds of strange tactics

me: my fools :'DDDDD of COURSE they did-

my dash: Even in an ACTIVE TRUST BUILDING EXERCISE with live doppelgangers, they were still grappling with their chronic Fuck With Each Other impulses

me with all the affection in the world: u fucking <3 bet <3 they would <3 maladjusted trainwrecks <3333333

#comforting to know that all of my instincts about how BH would handle a doppelganger trust exercises aligned wIth what they did. everything #im seeing feels right. trust exercise? detect thoughts time . what do you mean im not alllowed to is that NOT how trust works. #of COURSE i trust u. my trust is dependent on very specific things that are kind of indistinguishable from my distrust of u. thats normal #and good even. #hey this is an important exercise to build trust. however it would be SOOOO funny if i fucked with u rn so... hmm..... #anyway. maladjusted. im sure im missing plenty of details but this was fun to catch up on everyone keep up ur posts theyre great #critical role #cr spoilers #c3e80 #? #bell's hells #shitpost #still alive! just tremendously behind and busy! but glad good and fun things are happening in campaign still lmao

[c-kiddo]

disabled and spoonie cad headcanon important 2 me because you just know tmn would be like thats ok we're going to take turns hanging out with u and do silly thinks like read spellbooks outloud for background noise or a silly dance for entertainment and because theyre all burdens on eachother and all help eachother so its ok . and then if its characters you can make it like, people dont get tired of u for being too disabled for them . win

#big big long sigh #kiddo say #i jsut think To me . post campaign cad jsut kind of collapses a bit. like combo of exhaustion catching up on him and that thing #when u let yourself be disabled and then all the things you were pushing through are too hard after and its like Oh Shit . #i just think im too disabled for people a lot of the time. even if i get a long with them a lot i eventually get too tired #and then thats a no-no to people . cant go out cant speak im too too tired and also dizzy again