#ill finish it if someone wants me to

[deadduvznap]

masochist zoro w a strangling kink

#ill finish it if someone wants me to #pinky promise #atlas speaks #unfinished thoughts #very #zosan #directed #or more #sanzo #zosan smut #sanji smut #zoro smut #zoro x male reader #zoro x sanji #zoro x male reader smut

[unexpectedbrickattack]

babpy.

#pizza tower #peppino #arts #mine #happy pride; heres a little otter for u #hes like very early 20s here #happy and unbothered before the Horrors happened #it is NOT his 30s bc he needs to exude raw dilf energy by that point #but for now he is anxious and sweet and awkward #not that i dont draw him like that already but its like 10x here #its PALPABLE #okay mwah i will hopefully come back w more than just sketches that mean nothing skjfsdjkfdhfhsk #i have LITERALLY been on this commission for WEEKS i need someone to take me out back and put me out of my misery i swear #im going to finish the lines TODAY like i cant be this person i cant keep coming back to this fucking comm w no progress ill simply Die #its like singlehandedly preventing me from doing anything else; its making a mental block waaaaaaaau #but i feel like i am breaking through it today. at least i HOPE i am sdkjfsdjkfjsdkf #um if u are still here ilu. send me some anons; i want to be chatty but the messages i have feel like i need to respond w essays #and i literally. cannot. #at least until i get my head screwed on properly again

[littlestpersimmon]

Had this weird story idea about a big dragon with runes all over him, and he's like a paper accordion that could unwind for thousands of miles, and the only way you could defeat him was if you were able to read every single rune on the dragon's papery body, and discern the long riddle of the princess who turned her labyrinthine library into her living armor in the form of a colossal and endless dragon . So far every knight that tried to off the dragon with fire, rain, whatever, was met with *death by a thousand paper cuts*. But the dragon don't really kill them, bc dragon is actually squeamish Lol. But since the entire kingdom is enrobed by the pages of a large dragon, there are entire university branches dedicated to discerning the riddle of the princess, why, why did she turn into a dragon, why is this her curse. And their culture shifts around literature, books and academia being treated as the holiest, most venerable form of knowledge. But anyway a cringefail and autistic kitchen boy loves math. He had come from a long line of dedicated scholars of the book. Boring and trifling matters like arithmetic were considered ignoble when in comparison to the mystery of the paper dragon. And the boy disagreed, of course. He loved books and all but was easily frustrated by them, he cannot focus on it, he needs the abstract to become concrete in his mind, he is the kind of boy who looks at a bridge and marvels at the sheer architecture it took to build a bridge before he is astounded by the bas relief;

he loves the world as it is and wants to tease out the blueprints. Anyway, when he was a boy, his mama used to tell him the story of the paper dragon, with only the first two pages of the dragons body being successfully interpreted by scribes. It had been about a princess who loved looking towards the stars and recording the sun's positions through refracted telescopes. And how she had a library filled with endless knowledge.

And the boy read and read the two pages and was enchanted by the mystery of the princess' riddle. In his teenaged life the boy would see the dragon flying above him while he was climbing an almond tree, and he makes out one of the pages along its infinite body as having similar lyrics to the known pages.

And it bothers the boy, all day he'd think about it. And he thinks about the princess who locked herself in her tower, watching the sun through refracted telescopes, and made dedicated sketches and notes every day to discern where the sun had spots; and it sort of connects in his mind that those sunspot sketches helped form an image of the sun, in a way, so he does the same.

Every day he'd just watch the dragon, and waited for the repeating lyric, and noted it down, until he had a long and fucked up diorama of the dragon; It takes him 12 years to be able to reliably predict where on the dragon's body the lyric shows up again.

when folded a certain way, in accordance to where the lyric shows up, the dragon's papery accordion body, the dragon forms a star at its core.

written in a spiral, the story forms into an answer to the princess' riddle; "I want to be free, I want to be free, I want to be free, I want to be free,"

over and over and over. In all aspects the princess who was a prince all along had wanted to be free, and the only way he could think of escaping the confines of his life and the fear of misunderstanding, of everyone wanting to harm him or to treat him as unnuanced a person for wanting to be something else...... was to transform into a paper dragon, more unquestionable than a normal human boy who loved drawing pictures of the sun-

The boy who loved math looked at the folded piece of paper in his hands, now he held the answer to the riddle of the prince, and he'd look to the sky to see the dragon flying above him like an endless kite. And he'd smile up at the dragon, scrunching the paper star in his hands. And hed whisper, I love you, I know you. I see you .

And he could have sworn the dragon smiled back at him.

#I have been trying to finish reading wheel of time for 12 years #insane trans guy rants #what if you were a princess and you wanted to be a boy and a dragon #also what if they were in love #someone give me 150 usd ill draw this as a comic

[cestacruz]

Anyway since i dont think i actually posted these, have this

Bitches from a Monster AU theyre all gay

Uhh more in the tags cuz i dont wanna type here

#my art #fate grand order #artoria pendragon #salter #lalter #goddess rhongomyniad #saber #jalter #rhongomyniad and lalter are basically inmortal from literally thousand years before the set of the AU #they hate each other its fine #arturia is just. mm magic creature idk a specific name for it? if someone knows please tell me and dont just say furry because theyre not #salter's a vampire because im a simp #jalter is human because i find it hilarious #lalter is gay for jalter and theyre gay together #salter ends up being gay for jalter too and lalter wants to kill her but jalter is gay and has two hands #rhongomyniad has all the mental illnesses im sorry #obsessed with the descendant (arturia) of the royal family she failed to protect #designs are not like finished this is an OLD PIECE

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

#vent #for the last 4 months my life has been in stupid crisis mode #like constantly #from major ones where i had to move out for a while because it was impossible to stay where i lived #to not being able to use my kitchen for over a week #and like other more or less minor house related stuff that made it impossible for me to use something normally #not a single week without something like that or shit at work which is constantly being so fucking chaotic #and now someone died in my family #not someone very close but i liked them #and of course like feeling sad that they are gone can't be the only thing #because it has to come with the headache of i need to travel for their funeral and it's just before easter #so there's no one in this city to leave my dog with #because most of my friends either live abroad or have cats or are busy before easter.. #i'd just want a week where nothing happens #and like the writing is weighing heavy on me #because i miss it #also i wish i could finish something #i wish something good would happen that i could feel proud off #also because i'm mentally ill and fucking stupid when i was going crazy with my kitchen not working and work shit #i bought new furniture #because after 15 years i've finally had enough money to buy some that aren't fucking black and inconvenient and ugly #which is like a huge project and a crisis i brought onto myself #just because i was too burnt out to write #and i wanted something nice to happen to me #like a nice living space that doesn't make feel like i have no ownership over it because everything in it was some else's choice #and that old furniture was bought by my mother and my brother ages ago and it's handmedowns #and my fucking horrible mother feels personally slighted that i want to get rid of a bed that is broken #because my brother's kids jumped on it regularly when they used to visit pre covid #yeah it's been broken that long because i lost all my savings during covid and had to change careers to a souless pointless corpo job #long pathetic whine and overshare over

[qusok]

MOOTIES please tell me in comments/rbs about a character you love more from tdim from the main ones without repeating what others said (i hope someone will say something please)

I wanna try to do something for TDiM's birthday

this far: Jamie ✅✅ Mark ✅ Charlie ✅ Erin ✅✅

#please please please #the devil in me #tdim #ill go to sleep soon #so if all the characters will be taken but someone else would want to be included in whatever im doing you can name a character again #then you can choose erin too #and ill try to make it work #i really hope ill be able to finish it until 11/18 but probably not

[demadogs]

look i know im such a fucking hater but god i like my gay movies to be DRAMATIC AND MATURE i hate the cutesy romcom funny shit i want my gay fiction to be taken so seriously

#like young royals was a fantastic gay prince portrayal #im 40 mins into rw&rb and this has the exact same tone as heartstopper and i cringe so bad st heartstopper IM SORRY #if seven husbands is portrayed like this ill be so upset #this is also why i love byler like its portrayed more seriously ig #watching young royals is what made me read rw&rb in the first place but young royals portrays it so much more maturely #the acting isnt that great either #i cant finish the rest im cringing so bad #someones def gonna send me anon hate for this #IM NOT SAYING YOURE NOT ALLOWED TO ENJOY IT I JUST WANT TO COMPLAIN FOR A SEC

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

haven't finished my light yagami lingerie wips because i've been touching grass instead. tragic what going outside does to a person

#i have literally soooo many wips that i need to finish but i've been enjoying the lack of achy hands from not drawing so much #and i've been taking pictures which is fulfilling my need to do an art #but it's nice i like going outside it makes me feel less mentally ill like as soon as i'm outside the mental illness turns off then as soon #as i come back inside BAM i'm ill again but i find if i go outside regularly enough i feel less bad + anxious over nothing #though i have been having an interesting increase in times where i wake up in the middle of the night 100% convinced i'm about to die #or that someone is going to kill me. which is definitely a development but unrelated to going outside i think #i really gotta finish those wips though i want to get better at drawing lingerie + general anatomy so i can go crazy wild during #kinktober this year because reasons

[shokupanda]

gonna start posting shitty doodles as updates so i wont just go back to dying again. anywho this means an actual drawing will be on like. monday or tuesday or after. if you see me post before that then itll probably mean i actively didnt do something i was supposed to. whoops

#sho.sketches #<- new tag for shitty art #sho.scramblin #<- this is a tag for whenever i get rambly which. applies here i think #sho (sona) #anywho yeah #i should be finishing my assignment rn #so i can try n get sleep before goin to campus #since after class there'll be a seminar AND an evaluation meeting for a campus event i helped organize last week #which means ill get home like. late at night. oh boy! #im also kinda bummed bc i was gonna go to a con next week but bc of complications im. not going #like. i was really counting on it as a pick me up #like. i wanted to buy art prints damn it. and no i dont want to ask an acquaintance whos going there to buy them for me #part of it bc its not the same #partly bc i dont htink asking someone i barely know to buy me buff furry men art prints is. good optics for my social standing #<- closeted (in both ways) #anywho #see you on the flip side when have the time to draw beegee 3 fanart. ciao

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

wait so ok hypothetically i decided to model unclean realm in three.js no good reason

what do i need? rocky terrain. rocky mountain, military gates. Siheyuan style house somewhere, and then?

thats for like a low accuracy first draft. thats what it looks like right?

im kinda confused

are those outpost towers? they kinda look like it but kinda not. what is that?

im really not understanding whats going on over here. what is this layout?

there seems to be a good amount of foliage

is it really that much? i remember more rocks there. but also thats untamed concept art.

that and i dont remember shit

so my plan right now is to use models from online. either buy or free ones. and then as i start refining the area, ill start learning how to make my own for the specifics

and the aim is to go for as much realistic lighting/shading i can manage. i should aim for cartoon but i really dont know the fundamentals of light and color enough to stylize. making shaders or whatever shouldnt be too bad

#i wont run away from artistic endeavors i wont run away from artistic endeavors i wont run away from artistic endeavors #i was making a sv game but i quit because i finished the coding part but i had to animate. i ran away like a BITCH #to my defense animation is REALLY hard #im thinking. game modding right? #so i have all the g*nshin impact character models on my computer #hmmmmmmmm. unity blew up my last computer. like dead ass blew it up. also didnt they have a scandal #some thing something fuck indie game devs something #i dont know blender #ok so. three.js first. starting baby steps never hurt anyone. #especially when you dont know a single technology youre working with #i want to do it. for now. i hope i stay inspired #some words #edit: i opened blender. can i give up #Someone save me please #i want someone to hold my hand #i want to make it and i want to try something new. but i have to tttuuuqgiawua #crying aside im looking at mdzs maps people have made #is qinghe really near shanxi province? #ill have to look around a bit #im hoping i can rip out a model from a satelite image for like google earth or something #im gonna do it no matter what. at least ill make a shitty version #i can totally try. i got this

[raatopaikka]

12 RAATOPAIKKA 2023 PORTRAITS! :

JANUARY: Doyoung 1

FEBRUARY: Doyoung 2 (+Halloween version) & Johnny 1 & Johnny 2

MAY: SHINee

JULY: Taemin 1 & Taemin 2 & Taemin 3

AUGUST: Mark (& drawing process post)

OCTOBER: Taemin 4 & Taemin 5

DECEMBER: Minho

#5/12 being taemin..... very fitting #+ a sixth taem in the shinee one too lol #2023 #kpop fanart #nct fanart #shinee fanart #taemin fanart #taemin #shinee #nct #artists on tumblr #portrait #hand drawing #i think ill take this as my goal next year too! #i'm very lazy and unmotivated which is bad for someone who wants to do more art but 1/month is an ok amount for me! #i should at least finish the february 127 neos thing! and Lost is turning 20 so i want to draw some of the characters! #i should really draw more actors / characters cause almost all portraits i ever make are kpop 🤔

[s0lar-ch3ri]

i make a new theory post on a frog (psoilers ahead)

with theories such as felipe is evil and/or working with niklaus:

(post from aethlingg, his post can be found here! note: after research they no longer do jrwi content but rather qsmp content [specifically q!bbh and q!forever from what i noticed! theyre still very cool so go follow him [heres to hoping ik how he/they pronouns works btw])

(post from redcloverf3y, their post can be found here! i cannot find if they still do post jrwi and just talk about other fandoms rn, but nonetheless go follow them!)

(post from razberrypuck, its post can be found here! they def are still into jrwi from their lil bio and shit, but theres also others things they post, like q!charlie [or qsmp in general] and stuff, follow it too!)

to theories of what demon actually got felipe:

(post by pulchrasilva, their post [correct the pronouns if im wrong, i couldnt find anything on the blog] can be found here! considering how five or so minutes ago they made a jrwi post, they def still talk about it, as well as other things, go follow them!)

to even some on felipe BEING niklaus (which i reblogged and stuff):

(post is from aethlingg again, this one can be found here! for once i cant get a full image because its a long one but ill be talking bout my tags on it too)

theres been 2 posts on how felipe wasnt the culprit (heres one by wrinklemcdinkle) (heres another by ralexsol) ive seen, so im throwing my own theory into the mix: the demon is kuba kenta and kk (or mr. kenta) has relations to both niklaus hendrix AND the compass. lets get into it!

lets start with the tags i wanted to use (i found they werent actually on the felipe is nk post, but rather on the second felipe is being framed post i linked)! theres a couple details here i mention but why do i say kuba in particular?

the only person who could actually have something against gillion straight up is jayson ferin, mainly cause he got stabbed by him twice, but jayson isnt a demon! you know who is a demon though? kuba kenta. so for jayson, mr kenta was the perfect way.

as for felipe's escape, the rope was burnt, correct? who has fire powers again? mr ferin. when felipe was being investigated or whatever, kuba contacted jayson and he got him out of there, leaving there be reason to assume felipe was dragged to hell.

yes i do think felipe was controlled by kuba to hurt gillion, it plugs up some plot holes thats for sure. so how would felipe been target if he only pulled the card the next day? because felipe probably was a target since he was born.

its important to point out the compass not only having effects like kk's scratches do (give nightmares, cause physical reactions/changes, etc), but a similar color pattern to both niklaus and felipe. (pointed out by several people before me, like aethlingg in his actual essay about evil felipe working with niklaus shown above) another interesting detail is the nk tattoo is used with a moon attached, felipe's choice of goddess to worship. he immediately finds a friendship with chip when about 4 eps ago, niklaus had been given a stick by chip (important cause of how it was harder to spy on niklaus since the stick was in his room and stuff before, i think itd also add in an idea of "greater connection with the person" and stuff). i could go on and on abotu their connections.

lets get back to the connection of niklaus and kuba. how would they even have met? probably something like chip did for his deal. as the quote above shows (found from the post by redcloverf3y, heres another link to it), people who have that desire for their goals will find him, not those who look for it. why would kuba need to strike a deal with desire daddy? because how else would he be able to use felipe. theres no way the curse would change the free will of felipe (it didnt do that for chip or gillion), so if he wants felipe to be a better puppet, he needs something to interfer with that. niklaus and kuba cut that deal, and felipe doesnt lose that curse on him, well to the others. kuba wouldnt have been able to give felipe the nightmares, anytime we see him hes with the three, so someone would have seen him get scratched! even if he got scratched in the couple months before they met him (cause felipe was six months old, not a couple days), the scars dont fade, rather theres the black ooze to them that burns, making it not a forgetable thing.

speaking of that, lets move onto the daggers situation. why the fuck would a tour guide have such dangerous daggers, poisonous ones to be exact (i heard it had poison effects somewhere, but sadly cannot find any info about that)? felipe has no need for poison daggers! he literally can spit acid! that means its only being used for its forgetfulness, which doesnt make too much sense to me since its not like being stabbed isnt just something you remember but theres the fucking pain of it too (example being, when i was younger and we were in the car getting ready to leave some place, there was this like tightness on my foot and i look at the door and [because it was one of those automatic doors and shit] it was closing on my foot. i didnt remember getting my foot in there and i still dont know how it happened, i do remember though how much of a bitch the pain was. not close to the pain of stabbing im sure, but you still remember the pain even without the memory of how it got there). that leaves one last usage: actually stabbing. again, hes a tour guide, he has no reason to need to stab people, no reason he should have a dagger that damaging, let along access to one like it. you know what has good weapons, ones with magic and shit? the navy. hell, theyre building a mechicanical leviathin! they of course have magic weapons for combat and such. and being a vice admiral, kk would have access to all of them. he gets a dagger for felipe, uses his deal to make sure felipe does whats needed, there.

so why would pulling the card get kuba as his enemy? its the magic of the cards! why would felipe hate gill? why would gillion dissappear only able to be brought back by powerful magic (whole can of worms for niklaus's abilities btw, needed to point that out)? the cards! theres also how felipe did reveal what his plans with gill were gonna be, but its probably just the cards.

i do also think the compass is related to kenta cause of their abilities being matched and it kinda fits him, a man driven even beyond the grave to reach a goal, even if that goal is only known by him...but this is long enough!

i hope i fed someones wants and if theres any contradiciting (or even more proving) evidence, lmk and ill try to counter it, bye and ill see you probably in a writing thing ive been putting off since this morning to write this

#i dont wanna tag people but if i should someone lmk #ALSO if someone wants me to remove their post from this you can lmk and ill fix it #tmr will so be a day of finishing up drafts #i dont mean my tumblr ones though #my ao3 public one aka #gills greatest enemy #yeah #lets do actual tags now #first my own #the rambler. #cheri's insane again #jrwishow #jrwi podcast #jrwi #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #just roll with it #jrwi spoilers #jrwi theory #dnd jrwi #jrwi felipe #i think ive been spelling kubas name wrong #jrwi kuba kinta #<- what the wiki says on spelling #oh well not fixing it #jrwi niklaus #niklaus hendrix #jrwi riptide spoilers #been a while since ive been on my good theory shit man #good for me

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#just an observation bc im avoiding working on stuff but i draw a lot and post basically everything i draw thst gets finished #and its v funny to me how u can tell how out of focus i was based on the quality of the drawing #or like when i post something and its like ok some of that was good but u def gave up halfway thru one of those lol #inconsistency i funny like that. its also funny to me that now a days i get comments like COLORS!!! #which is funny bc i notoriously haaaaaate coloring. like i will sit around whining and complaining when im home with my parents bc i dont #wanna color. its just so easy to fuck things up when u draw traditionally and it takes a million years so its a big ask lol #but i guess i dont hate is so much right now bc i kinda just slap whatever colors i want together like fuck it we ball #and thats kinda fun. reckless i suppose #its agony when u wanna try to do shadows and lights tho. like finding references ugh #or wanting to draw big ideas but then its like oh god its gonna take so long and if i dont do it all in one sitting i might die #im a lil better abt thst now bc it would b impossible but in my head i still hate it #ugh. all i wanna do is draw. theres another universe where i went to art school. or just like took art classes. and i wanna say id b happier #but thats def a lie XD i like learning too much and i dont have the attention span to hardcore learn genetics outside an academic #environment. and i got way too excited abt exploring the genetic traits of my cyano species #like i can make genetics trees for traits and look for. fuck. i forgot the word. how tf did i forget the word. oh god. horizontal gene #transfer. jesus christ its like theres a hole in my brain. well. i guess i did get only like 4hrs sleep. ugh im rambling. #i need to finish getting ready for Monday so i dont have to tomorrow and ill have time to draw. prob wont stop me feeling nauseous abt #teaching tho. OH FUCK. i just remembered i have a new office space now to decorate. fuck i need to hang up pictures and stuff #what would b the funniest way to put narut0 on my deskspace? idk ill have to think abt it. oh god im not ready #my head is like a handbell. one of the big ones when u ring it and it hits soft and u can feel the vibrations. someones wrung my head lol #unrelated

[technicalknockout]

IT'S TKO'S BIRTHDAY TODAY ❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️❗️ *EXPLODES*

!!!!!!!!! THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT HAPPY TKO DAY TUMBLR🎉🎉

#it's already september 5th in my timezone but IDC I STILL NEEDED TO SAY THIS #happy birthday tko!! he should get to wreck as much stuff as he wants someone get him a pinata #schoolwork is MURDERING me i really wanted to post that thing ive been drawing but i guess ill have to finish it later #incoherent ramblings

[throwaway-yandere]

You ever wonder how short human lives are? They have the average life span of maybe a pet to most elves, won't they? Or even less. Looking back, isn't it hard to imagine how hard it must be to move on from someone who only lives for a sliver of your own lifespan?

😋 anon

😋 if this is your attempt to making Elf!Haitham the theme of the blog I ain't doing it HAHAHAHAHAHA

#if you want MY serious answer- then of course. #I've always known how short people's lives are- and for a long time- I was unaffected when loved ones die. There was an “eeasy #step by step process for me before. I was and kind of still am welcoming of death. #and when that one person I cared for was ill- I was also quick to acknowledge that it's probably their time #throughout their last remaining days I just waited that maybe when it happens- they can stopped being tubed- #stop suffering. #When my grandfather passed away- I was more grimly reminded that life is truly short #but instead of that quiet “I told you so. I knew he would pass soon.”— what I felt was pure anguish #To pat your grandfather's head one last time- devoid of life as he laid still #That midnight remains clear as day to me. Life is short. I knew that since the beginning. #I didn't shed as much tears as I had when a friend my age had passed on— because I was comforted with the thought that #they had passed months before the pandemic began— and Covid was seemingly a more painful fate #So yes. #I know how hard it is like to move on from someone who does not share your life span. Who had lived longer than you have and will leave #faster than you— despite your neverending comments about ending it all once you've finished your tertiary education #that you spout since childhood. #So. Well. Yeah!!! I know what it's like HAHAHAH. it's S H I T.