#if i’m too tired to be nervous

[thegothamtimes]

So I wanted to see what would happen if I typed basic words into the tags and picked the most weirdly specific suggestions and here we are

#source: dirk gently's holistic detective agency #but they could also be a drug dealer #i’ll give him lil pats all the time #please stop i’m already self conscious #i have his entire bank account and all of his possessions to myself #we all see the gayness you’ve got for our boi leo di cap #shut up alex #all for the game #i am not a band kid #immediately followed by tadashi and suga #no but his eyelashes are so pretty #mp3 but not because it was the mainstream device then #if i’m too tired to be nervous #then i would get even more nervous and go full kiyoko #spencer that's not how death works baby #and my husband has absolutely no idea #because i’m a fucking nerd like that #and we live happily ever after with two cats and three dogs and several million in our shared bank account #and i was trying to decode something on #and tired #i’ll have to like correct myself when i read it like b when i’m reading fanfics #like look at her #wow i’m so quirky #be gay solve crimes #my heart can only take so much #it’s like he’s a short drug dealer who’s sensitive about the topic #it’s ok shawty #like bro are you wearing heels rn?? #well we’re doomed so #we’re gonna make a joke and fuck you up

[zeb-z]

leo leaving foolish a sign like all the others, leaving the most concrete out of all the messages, but no one comments on it. foolish, dead quiet after asking for a direct translation, as the others come in, take note of the sign, and then continue on to other topics. forever coming up, asking if this is anything new or “just another sign”. baghera and fit, the only ones asking if he’s okay, and he just brushes it off, because of course he would, it’s foolish, and it’s easy even though it’s entirely unconvincing and obviously a lie, because everyone else is talking over them anyway. etoiles not even checking in, just pulling him aside to accuse him of federation bullshit. everyone proceeding to talk about crimes in his tower, sitting right on the concrete trail. mouse in the cappy place, saying foolish doesn’t even care about leo, he doesn’t care that she’s gone, and foolish goes quiet for a full minute, until he can find some joke to latch onto and start deflecting again. I can’t take it anymore I’m at my limit.

did anyone other than foolish know the significance of the amethyst, and take note, like they did with the other eggs and their left behind items? or was it just him, alone later on, repeating always juntos to himself as he looks at the message again.

#jmgoing to be sick #everyone else gets condolences gets oh this is significant. he gets ‘just another sign’. just another sign just another sign just another s #does anyone else know what’s important to Leo? everyone else is like oh their beloved items I’m so sorry w Tallulah chayanne and Ramon but #with foolish and leo. god. foolish who is so severely misunderstood on the server. leo who was always so afraid she would just be brushed #aside not making friends. the odd egg out. what the fuck man #and Roier too. throw in the whole family. what’s up with this man I’m sick I’m tired #foolish going quiet when he’s upset. when he’s emotional. and everyone taking it as he doesn’t care. like what is this man #or nervous laughter before silence. like you’ve known him long enough to know it’s not because he’s actually amused!!! god!!!!!!!!!!!! #I’m just upset ok I’m upset I’m upset I’m upset #‘just another sign’ fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you #qsmp #mcyt #foolish gamers #q!foolish #q!leonarda #z speaks

[ebonytails]

Hey everyone! this is where the zebra is currently with the design.

It has knee braces!! I will most probably be drawing the zebra usually with them on, but it’s no requirement, for example if anyone else wants to draw the zebra :-]. I always like to make sure an animal design has official colors underneath any clothing and accessory anyway. I think this will be final! thank you everyone for your feedback!

As a reminder, aside from why the zebra was requested for this flag, this is also just a zebra with the disability pride flag on it. It’s just a deisgn to fit the flag, with input from other disabled people in our community. It doesn’t mean other animals can’t have designs with these colors, too! I don’t mean this design to be the only mascot for all disabled people. It’s just a silly series i do of pride animals, and at the time, during disability pride month, I wanted to see what everyone wanted me to start off with for this flag!

the goal with my pride animals is to take requests and make people feel happy and seen.. that’s all <:-)

#disability pride #pride animals #disability #disability pride flag #zebras #I’ve been a little stressed about this animal for the past week.. I will be honest with you #The zebra has many stripes and I wanted to try my best to make sure it wouldn’t cause issues like headaches or other things #also.. if]ve been working on this for a while now.. i want to call it done soon! #But now that this is finished #I will start designing stickers and pins to put on redbubble and also for me to print IRL! #thank you everyone! I’ve also learned more than whatbI already knew this week #Even if it was stressful it was fun to see everyone get so excited when I would show updates to the designs #Sorry for a long speech.. I am a very nervous person today #Excuse my typos! I’m a fast typer and tired from the day #ebonytailsart #Thank you yomcloud for giving me your feedback as well. I don’t have a lot of perspective on visual processing disorders and photensitivity #so it meant a lot to me #just like the other pride animals I am very open to making more animal designs for this flag! But I’d like to save it for the future instea #It’s a bit too soon at the moment. thank youuu

[0-twentyone]

PSG ain’t ready for the doggs 💪🏻

#Joao is always on his phone 😂 #who’s texting him I’m very nervous about that #Pedri better put that beard on the pitch because im tired #basically just cousins having a trip with their uncle #i miss you gavi 🤍 #nah fdj is way too old to be with this group 😂 #no matter what - we will always love those boys #gavi #pedri #joao felix #ronald araujo #robert lewandowski #fc barcelona

[suspiciouslackofclowns]

I’m trying to clear out my drafts, so have the alternate version of this <3

Even on quiet days where Eddie should, theoretically, be able to take time to himself, he finds that it’s nearly impossible.

The guys had pulled him aside early on and explained hey, they were mostly cool with Steve, as long as he didn’t talk too much when he was around. Billy was almost completely out of the question. It was kind of an ultimatum, made in the privacy of Gareth’s garage one afternoon.

It’s them or us, is what Eddie took away from it.

Try as he might, Eddie has come to find out the hard way that he can’t keep his two worlds separated. His partners are sure to discover that his friends don’t like them even if he doesn’t say anything, and his friends are stubborn enough to stop inviting him out because of it.

He eventually stops trying so hard to convince Gareth, Jeff, and Grant that his partners are okay dudes, and that turns out to be the right decision.

Because apparently this shit has to happen organically.

As the movie wraps up on screen, Gareth stretches where he sits in the recliner, pausing with his arms in the air like he just realized there’s a lion stalking him. Eddie quirks a brow, confused, until he realizes.

About halfway through the second movie in their marathon, Billy had wandered in soundlessly. Settled beside Eddie on the loveseat and leaned into his side, welcomed with an arm around his shoulders, and promptly dozed off. In all honesty, Eddie kind of forgot that he was there.

He’s been cradling Billy like it’s second nature. Threading his fingers through his hair and scratching softly at his scalp, keeping him humming happily and hugging Eddie like he’s a body pillow.

“Dude,” Gareth hisses.

He dawns a look of tired frustration, and Eddie rolls his eyes.

“What? He’s not bothering you,” he whispers.

Grant and Jeff seem just as caught off guard as Gareth was a moment ago, but Eddie keeps coddling his lover anyway. Even when Gareth narrows his eyes.

“But this is our movie night.”

“I promise you, he hasn’t been watching.”

There’s a moment where nothing is said. The credits are rolling on the screen, and Eddie and Gareth just stare at one another for a long beat. Eddie wants him to say it.

He’s ruining it just by being here.

“Guys, c’mon,” Jeff intervenes. “Let’s just put in the next one, yeah?”

Grant nods enthusiastically, but all efforts of distraction go ignored. Gareth crosses his arms.

“It’s like you don’t like hanging out with just us anymore, man,” he grumbles.

A wave of clarity washes over Eddie in an instant, and he bites back on a smile.

He’s fucking jealous.

“So that’s what this is, huh?” Eddie muses.

“What?” Gareth snaps.

“Y’know, if you actually gave him a chance, you’d probably get along with him. He’s super easy. Easier than Steve, even.”

Grant sits forward at Eddie’s other side, peering around him to get a look at the sleeping blond.

“Steve is more approachable,” he concludes.

Out of the few times that Steve has been around during a game night or a movie marathon, he’s always been awkward. Maybe the guys don’t see it the way that Eddie does, but he tends to talk to them like he talks to Dustin. Lots of things like what’s up, big man are said and nodding is done when he doesn’t understand a reference or joke.

Maybe they think that Steve is just naturally easygoing.

It’s especially funny, because he just so happens to be the most nervous person that Eddie has ever met in his life. He hates being around Eddie’s friends as much as they hate being around him, if for no other reason than he isn’t quite sure how to act around them.

But they don’t need to know that.

“Nah, he just looks a little intimidating, that’s all,” Eddie says, still carding his fingers through Billy’s hair. “He’s a total teddy bear.”

Gareth barks out a laugh, his face paling a bit when Billy stirs at the noise. Clutches onto the front of Eddie’s shirt with an unforgiving grip as he shoves his face further into the crook of his neck.

After he falls still again, his fist relaxing, Eddie gently guides his hand away and smooths out the front of his shirt.

“He’s an aggressive cuddler,” he dismisses.

“Right,” Gareth huffs. “I’m sure he’s sweet to you, Munson, but I don’t really plan on testing the waters with it.”

“Do you really think that little of me?”

“What?”

Eddie presses his lips into a line and sighs. Looks down at Billy’s sleeping face, studying the faint sprinkle of freckles on the bridge of his nose.

“You think my taste in men is so terrible that I’d date any old piece of shit.” Eddie makes pointed eye contact with Gareth, who swallows thickly. “It never occurred to you that maybe, considering I like him, he can’t be all that bad?”

Gareth opens and closes his mouth, and huffs irritatedly after a moment.

“I’m just wary of his type is all.”

Now Eddie laughs, and subsequently deals with Billy clutching at his shirt as if to say keep it down again.

“See, now you’re just doing what the vast majority of people do to us,” Eddie muses. “Kind of hypocritical, no?”

The tv screen goes blank as Jeff removes the tape. He doesn’t reach for the next movie just yet, probably waiting to see how this conversation plays out first.

“In his defense,” he begins. “It’s usually guys like Hargrove that rag on us for being different, so you can’t really blame us for being wary of him.”

Gareth and Grant both nod in agreement. Eddie sighs.

“Fair enough. I’m telling you, though, he’s a sweetheart.”

“I’m gonna need some proof.”

All three of his friends stare at him expectantly. Eddie feels the end of this interaction rapidly approaching until an idea blossoms in his head, and he stops petting Billy’s hair. Lifts his arm up and rests it on the back of the sofa, depriving the blond of contact, and smirking deviously as he begins to stir.

If for no other reason than the guys all look like they’re ready to bolt.

Billy cracks his eyes open, sitting up just enough to peer up at Eddie’s face as he splays a hand against his sternum.

“Was I snoring?” he asks, voice groggy.

Rubs at Eddie’s chest with a heavy hand, looking like he’s fighting to stay conscious as he waits for an answer.

“No,” Eddie says, and resists the urge to chuckle.

Billy sighs. His eyelids are heavy, palm rubbing in circles as he thinks for a moment. Then his eyebrows are furrowing.

“‘M I bothering you?” His movements halt for a moment. “Should I go to the room?”

“No, no, baby, you’re not a bother,” Eddie coos.

Billy nods, but his lips press into a frown as he pouts. Begins rubbing at Eddie’s chest again.

“Then why’d you stop lovin’ on me?”

The question is so earnest and he looks so betrayed while asking it that Eddie can’t help but smile and open his arm around him again. Coaxes Billy back into his side where he’d been pressed before.

Once his face is tucked into Eddie’s neck again, he melts instantly. Slumps into the brunet and hums a happy noise when fingers push into his hair once again.

“I’m sorry, Bills, I’ll keep loving on you.”

Billy drapes his arms around him. Gives him a squeeze before his muscles are all going limp, and Eddie is left scratching softly at his scalp as his breath evens out.

As if having proven his point, Eddie fixes Gareth with a look.

“Teddy bear,” he whispers.

Maybe he should’ve let Billy’s actions speak for themselves a long time ago, because the air of fear is no longer present in the room. Simply because Billy is all but purring and snuggling as hard as he can into Eddie’s side like a clingy cat.

“Dunno why, but I thought he’d be the type to get pissed about being woken up,” Grant says quietly.

Eddie hums amusedly. Tilts his head against Billy’s and noses a kiss into his hair.

“He’s normally a little moody in the mornings,” Eddie says. Keeps his nose buried in blond curls as he breathes a dreamy sigh. “It’s nothing that pancakes and coffee with extra creamer and sugar can’t fix, though.”

For once, when Eddie glances over, Gareth doesn’t look beyond pissed off. His expression is more neutral now, and it stays that way even when a door closes somewhere beyond the kitchen.

Steve pads into the living room, rubbing one of his eyes with the heel of his palm, and comes to stand beside the couch. Spreads a smile when he spies the couple on the sofa.

“I was wondering where he went,” he muses.

“Were you not cuddling him good enough or something? He’s been in here for a while,” Eddie chuckles.

Steve puts his hands on his hips and tilts his head to the side.

“I think he just missed you.” He sits on the armrest and reaches over, gently tucking Billy’s hair behind his ear. “Kept feeling your side of the bed and grumbling when you weren’t there.”

The information has a pang of sadness piercing Eddie’s chest. He holds Billy tighter and squeezes a surprised little grunt out of him, but the blond is quick to reciprocate. Nuzzles his face harder into Eddie’s neck and leans more heavily into his side.

“Did you come out here to take him back?” Eddie asks.

He flushes a bit red when he hears the shake in his own voice. Steve spreads a sympathetic smile.

“I figured, since…” he trails off, gesturing loosely around the living room. “You’d, y’know, want the room to yourselves.”

Eddie pouts at the thought of his sleepy boyfriend getting taken away. Momentarily considers calling it quits for the night so he can go snuggle Billy in the comfort of their bed, until Gareth clears his throat.

“It’s alright if he stays, or whatever.”

All eyes snap to him, and he crosses his arms over his chest nonchalantly. Eddie bites back on a grin, especially when he looks around and doesn’t see that either Grant or Jeff protest the claim.

Steve sighs and stands up.

“You okay if he stays?” he asks.

“Mhmm,” Eddie hums. Keeps his eyes on Steve as he rounds the sofa and leans over the back of it, draping his arms around Eddie’s neck. “You can stay too, if you want.”

Slender fingers tilt his chin up, and they meet in a soft kiss. Only parting when their smiles ruin it.

“You’re such a good boyfriend,” Steve coos.

“Yeah?”

“Uh-huh.” Another kiss is planted on Eddie’s lips, and he can’t help but melt a little. “I’m gonna pass, though. Pretty sure you guys wouldn’t appreciate me snoring over the movie.”

Steve chuckles when Eddie pouts, leaning down to smudge a few kisses in Billy’s hair before he turns to pad out of the room.

“Goodnight, Stevie,” Eddie calls. “Love you.”

“Mm, love you, Stevie,” Billy grumbles.

In an instant, Steve is leaning over the back of the couch again and smothering them both in more hastily-placed kisses. Billy spreads a lazy smile and Eddie giggles until their lover ceases the affectionate burst.

“Hurry up and finish your movie night so I can cuddle with my boys,” Steve says.

Eddie hums when he’s given a squeeze for emphasis from Billy.

“Yes sir.”

#harringroveson #metalsandwich #steddilly #rewrite? ish #fluff #mild angst #billy hargrove #eddie munson #steve harrington #background corroded coffin guys #I didn’t think I’d post this version but I’m tired of seeing it sit in my drafts #so here it is! the same-ish ficlet again minus chubby Billy bc I was too nervous to add him in #my writing #ficlet #god i’m so tired

[batwynn]

Ok maybe a weird question but maybe not because I’m stressing about it now but

Do I come off as aloof? Or something like that?

Feel free to answer on anon if you feel more comfortable. I’m just out here stressing over my general affect again. 🥲

#general vibes #question #autistic things #sorry if this is random I just uh #someone said a thing that sounded like they thought I was like #’popular’ or something and they said they were too nervous to talk to me #and now I’m like: 😰 #if I do give off that vibe I’m really sorry #I promise I don’t think I’m better than anyone 🥲 #I’m very tired and in a lot of pain and very sick #so I think my #tone maybe gets flat? #or maybe it’s how I talk? #I don’t know #but feel free to let me know #and I’ll work on it

[shadowslocked]

Thinking about that one post saying that Bad and Tubbo will have to take turns picking which green team player they want to take (like dodgeball)

Etoiles, Roier and Fit are prime targets given how good they are at PVP

Etoiles I could see being picked first by either, Tubbo having the extra weight of wanting to make it up to him

Roier is likely second, but I think Tubbo if given the opportunity wouldn’t go for Roier since he knows how much he means to Cellbit. This also applies to Philza picking Roier

Fit I could see ending up with Tubbo either way, unless Tubbo throws a curveball

Bagi and Forever are really dependant on who goes first. Philza is friends with Forever but he might be inclined to get Bagi for Cellbit given how much he puts his team forward and depending on how much he knows about their relationship. Tubbo also likes Forever and Bagi, tho I could see him letting Forever join the other team as a dig at Bad

I can see Philza going for Ironmouse, while Tubbo has to pick between Mike or Max

Both of them are fighting the entire time over who gets ElQuackity and begging the Eye to just yeet him off the island, before Philza decides it’s a fitting punishment for Soulfire

#qsmp #team soulfire #team bolas #qsmp theory #I probably missed some players but I’m too tired to check #will the teams be split? who knoooows #honestly I’d be kinda nervous about new members joining Blue #don’t really wanna watch Blue get attacked inside and out

[dumpsterfireofsubtext]

I know now what no angel knows - Epilogue: Easy On Your Own?

avatrice wings of desire/fallen angel au

Fandom: Warrior Nun

Ship: Ava Silva x Sister Beatrice

Rating: M

Word Count: 18k (sorry lmao)

Notes: The End!!!! No more!!!

#i am !!! so tired!!! so sleeeepy!!! #enjoy!!! #im nervous #warrior nun #avatrice #ava silva #sister beatrice #wings of desire au #ava x beatrice #warrior nun fanfic #avatrice fanfic #I’m too tired to fix the link just .. idk just find the epilogue I’m so TIRED #gnight #time to honk shoo mimimimimi

[squuote]

I think people should be allowed to share their distaste for certain headcanons n such without people making posts about how they’re ‘gatekeeping’. for as much as I’m a ‘do what you want’ kinda dude, I do think that includes allowing people to express why they don’t enjoy something. like most people are pretty civil bout it until you antagonize them by pointing and saying they’re ‘policing’ spaces.

#crow thoughts #sorry fandom stuff is like. kinda stressing me out a bit #and it’s kinda making me nervous to post opinions on things. #additionally I think people need to hear out minorities when it comes to things and not antagonize them #additionally if they aren’t going up to people and saying rude shit or actively posting rude shit in the tags #what does it matter if they don’t enjoy your headcanon? #like I’ve already seen four different posts all talking about fandom negativity and it’s like. just block them. #additionally maybe also don’t put those posts in the main tags? especially if the other person just posted it to their blog :-| #im not explaining this correctly. I just don’t have good experience with people who point and claim negativity #especially in the context of actual criticism about character design preferences and the treatment of certain designs #like you cannot deny that people treat fat designs very differently from skinny designs #ur not a bad dude for having a skinny design but you gotta allow people to discuss and critique things #idk I’m just tired as fuck seeing people in the main tags make longass posts about an opinion from a handful of people- #-who only posted it to their blog and not directly in the tags yknow? #if I get too anxious I’ll delete this but for now I’ll post this

[oldmemoria]

btw mentor!miguel is very important to me. In my heart.

#I would gladly read any mentor apprentice dynamic over any kind of romance but that’s just me #I just value mentors a lot ig?? #atsv #across the spiderverse #miguel o'hara #please I’d love to see more mentor Miguel stuff because with his personality I feel like he’d bounce off of other characters well enough #ESPECIALLY the dynamic between a character like him and an apprentice that’s super energetic and a little annoying #I would melt #also nervous apprentice h #Maybe I should start writing fanfic for myself but I’m too tired to I already have a warriors story in the works and I’m barely a chapter i #It’s been 6 months I need to get it over with smh

[widowkills]

📩

boop!!! <33

hope this starts off your day right 🍀✨ good luck!!

LOVE U TY I’LL TRY NOT TO DIE

#you know i’m fucked when i’m too tired to even feel nervous about the pres #riding on pure adrenaline today babyyyyy #rhae tag

[godblooded]

quick it’s 7 am push your enby-in-high-valyrian trans rhaegar agenda.

this explains it way better than me.

#headcanon. rhaegar targaryen. #headcanon. rhaegar targaryen. more god than man. #[it’s 650 am #and I have been awake since uhhhhhh 4 am and I am dying of a migraine. I pray the excedrin helps. I have my next after school today. I’m so #nervous. but I didn’t come here to whine about education I came here to be awake way too long because my dog doesn’t feel good. and I stayed #awake all night just holding her so she could sleep comfortably. her poor ear. it’s fine tbh I can nap when I’m done later. I got D&D later #with my brothers. #ANYHOW apply logic here as in: don’t. #if I remember correctly kryptonian lends itself strongly to neutral pronouns and also another gender binary entirely. #and I don’t recall it high Valyrian does the same but I believe it does. and if it doesn’t I’m gonna figure out how to conjugate it. #(ixian is a language kitty speaks it and I could even write it but I don’t want to follow my own conjugation rules) #(I’m lazy and tired it’s 6:54 am) #rhaegar favors high Valyrian sometimes for his singing as well because the commonfolk aren’t exactly fluent in high Valyrian and he can #be whatever he wants in that language and have it not be noticed. #high Valyrian isn’t explicitly neutral but I remember reading it works by solar and lunar genders (solar= male and lunar #=female) and it’s similar to Greek or Spanish where words are masculine or feminine. (the ocean is a lady in Greek and a dude in Spanish). #English doesn’t have that. English doesn’t possess a male or female pronoun system. #but like for example. in Greek if it ends in ‘o’ it’s masculine and ‘a’ it’s feminine. but what about other words??? #‘I’ is a plural at the end! so it is ‘masculine plural’. which means ‘skilo’ (dog) (masculine) becomes ‘skilì’ (dogs) #but the basic assumption default is often masculine. so in high Valyrian ‘prince’ (if you take the prince that was promised prophecy for #linguistic reference) ‘prince’ is not a ‘prince’ as in ‘masculine’ but a role. the gender is automatically assumed -in English-. in high #Valyrian however ‘prince’ in the prophecy is ‘gender neutral’ as in… basically a job. it’s a job. like ‘teacher’. you can be any gender #teacher. you can be any gender prince. okay. guess I just reconfigured high Valyrian how I wanted to. #(don’t come for me my old url was gelenkadarilaros and rhae rhae is my child) also I haven’t watched hotd or read anything that came out #after dance with dragons. I’m woefully unlearned but this ^^^ is called ‘it’s my blog I do what I want.’ and rhaegar gets described so #femininely that cersei uses 7000 ‘girly’ adjectives to describe him. rhae’s just -beautiful-. it’s his main trait other than sorrowful. I #adore him and would kill for him… except he’s dead so guess that’s off the table. THANKS FOR KILLING HIM BEFORE THE ACTUAL PLOT AND ONLY #GIVING ME VAGUE BITS TO GO WITH GEORGE I APPRECIATE IT. I’m so tired oh my god. #anyway rhae’s a ‘prince’ (neutral) and I’m not saying he Is The prince that was promised it’s just the example. I have ANOTHER hc explaining #my thoughts on that one. it’s over somewhere. okay I’m going back to sleep.]

[cherrysnax]

not to SYS! on main but like comics Miguel reads just like Robyn and older leo to me it’s soooo weird

#more rob than anything else tbh mostly because of the very blase way of reacting to things #ironically i haven’t read much dick so I wonder if his uh voice would remind me of rob too #Chevys doing most of the heavy lifting with writing SYS! but I am the co-writer and creator and I wanna make their job easier yknow #also I’m autisming #teehee one day seeing rob up theee with the other blue vigilantes #‘but silver/cheri Miguel’s costume is black’ SHUT THE FUCK UP ITS BLUE TO ME #oh miggy. I need to hit him with a brick #I feel bad for like longtime fans of Miguel because I’ve been a fan off and on for years and I’m #already #tired of the mischaracterization from fans #and oh my god I’m tired of seeing his cervix #his box is all up n down the tl so much I can smell it #I think #I’m going to hell for that last sentence but the way #i was talking abt SYS… I’m still rlly excited for it even if I’m nervous you know #I fee somewhat confident in my ability to DRAW people #but to tell a story? nooope. sequential art scares me but that’s what practice is for #and all the art books I uh acquired #man why do I type exactly the way I talk I’m so annoying #why do I get weirdly self loathing so late at night get a job

[motheyes]

things effect me alot

#i’m feeling a lot :( hurts to lay on the leg i did my shot #i feel very fragile and upset #i’m nervous to go see my dad. i love him a lot and it’s his birthday #and i haven’t been up in so long #but i’m scared he’s gunna act like he does sometimes #it’s like heartbreaking to me. it hurts so bad sometimes #it’s hard to explain. he’s just invalidating of my feelings #but in little ways. ways that make me feel crazy and sensitive #but like i am sensitive. and ge knows that #it just sucks. i wish people took time to really understand me and listen to me #especially like my own dad lol #and he would say he does because he does care about me and love me #and care about how i’m doing #there’s just some things that i feel strongly about and certain things that just upset me a lot #and he just doesn’t know how to not be a dick about it #and i feel insecure because no one rlly sees it like i do #god anyways i’m like getting tired #ik it’ll be fine. omg there are gunna be ppl there too it’s like a party #i hate that. i hate being around everyone #fuck anyways. ok. i gotta sleep

[morelikedoccock]

Discourse again

I’m done with this crap I stg

If you understand that I have every right to block you then why tf are you sending long messages to my fucking personal art blog that I only mentioned here once months ago (because I blocked you on my other blogs)

Take the L and move on bro, find better and more interesting people to follow

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: if we’re not close friends here I don’t owe you anything. We literally don’t know each other.

I will practice common decency as best I can but goddamn if you push me I’m not going to entertain bullshit for any longer than it takes me to press the block button. I know that sounds harsh but this is the internet. We are strangers to each other. And if I block you, just move on. I’m sick right now and depressed and burnt-out as all hell, I don’t have the time or energy to explain these things to someone who doesn’t even respect my boundaries.

#cerbin speaks #discourse #ffs people #I’m coughing so hard my ribs have started to bother me please for the love of god don’t block evade #it honestly makes me nervous when people do this shit #I’m sorry I haven’t been creating much lately but goddamn #once again I am a human being with life stuff to deal with #and I wrote SO MUCH in the past few months I need a long break #if a creator I liked blocked me sure I’d be upset but I also know that trying to block evade n ask them why literally accomplishes nothing #it’s happened before and I just had to accept it and move on #I’m too old for this shit #old and sick and cranky and tired #once again to those of you who are down to stick with me #I appreciate y’all endlessly #I’m sorry for being a crabby old man like this

[theaterism]

wakes up at 6:30 and then spends thirty minutes lying in bed accepting the fact i am Awake At 6:30

#|☆| ooc #(anyway. my first day of work is today agsgdgdg) #(hopefully it goes well aaaa) #(i’m both nervous and excited) #(but yeah i will not be here!) #(i will try to work on writing in the evening tho if i’m not too tired!) #(i hope u all have a nice day!)