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hello character who is desperate to be a good person; i want to play a game. in front of you is the one person you will never be able to save. you have the rest of your life to make peace with this. there are no defined repercussions if you fail, but we both know you're going to attempt to win regardless. your time starts now

#oh....... #but something something natori core as always #horrible exorcist number two

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Enikő Katalin Eged (Hungarian, b. 1992, Budapest, Hungary) - Cat BINGO, Paintings: Digital Art, Prints

#cats #art #love these!! look at the colorsss

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a difference between the experience of reading the natsuyuu manga and watching the anime which is only interesting to me is that there's no distinction between special chapters and regular ones in the anime. the reason i find that interesting is that the specials are, so far in my reread, the only chapters that spend any time completely outside of natsume's POV. when we see other characters' perspectives in regular chapters, it's typically part of an extended monologue or a memory being transmitted to natsume, so we're still not really leaving his perspective. the only times we leave his POV are when he's physically not present in a scene, and in those instances we usually don't get any narration or interior monologue from the other characters.

tanuma in "a suspicious visitor" is the only exception i can think of off the top of my head, though i'm sure there are others i'll get to and just don't remember at the moment. the scene between matoba and ban at the end of the homura arc, for example, is outside of natsume's POV by necessity but is pure dialogue with no interior narration because these are not characters to whom we have that kind of access! (for more on matoba's elusive subjectivity see sp15, says tumblr user worldunbent.)

the special chapters jump all over the place; so far i've gotten to chapters from the perspectives of little fox, an unnamed youkai, nyanko, tanuma, and hinoe (although hinoe's chapter is framed as a story she's telling natsume, so it could have fit in a regular chapter). they have a separate numbering system from the regular chapters, are much shorter, and almost always come at the end of volumes*. in the anime, however, there's absolutely nothing to distinguish the episodes adapting the specials from the ones adapting regular chapters other than the POV shifts, which gives anime-only viewers a very different impression of how the series approaches character interiority. i don't think there's anything wrong with this as an adaptation move and it's pretty much necessary, but it's just notable because in a series that's all about how people see the world differently, the choice to make such a distinction between chapters in the protagonist's POV and chapters from everyone else's POV is a significant one.

the reason i'm paying so much attention to POVs in this reread in the first place is because i've been listening to the podcast media club plus and jack, who is pretty new to anime, keeps pointing out the constant perspective shifts in hunter x hunter and the other hosts are like, "yeah, that's normal." this post from another listener expands on how and why it works as a genre norm in shonen battle anime/manga specifically. so now i'm just cursed to be hyperaware of POV shifts in anime/manga, and given that the three series i'm reading/watching at the moment are hxh, dungeon meshi, and natsuyuu, natsuyuu really stands out in how rarely it leaves natsume's head in the regular chapters. i guess i need to go read some more shoujo for a larger sample size lol

*i have a chapter spreadsheet 🤓 and the exceptions to this are sp18, which is just stuck in the middle of v22, sp20, which is the second-to-last chapter of v24, and sp21, which is the first chapter of v25. i understand the placement of sp20, which is "intermission detectives" and makes sense to have as an break between regular chapters, but i'll have to figure out what sp18&21 are doing when i get to them.

#thank u lane i love hearing about ur spreadsheets #and Perfect edit from nozaki-kun hehehehe #meta #long post #natsume yuujinchou #love the notes u made on the adaptation choices also!

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lmaooo Yes to all of this the matoba clan faq scroll..... XDD

question: why is natori shuuichi wandering around matoba clan property when he's not a clan member? isn't that a lapse in security?? answer: don't worry about it :)) -signed by the matoba head, sent from iphone

one scenario i like to imagine is like if there was some fancy exorcist shindig somewhere at one of the matoba manors and there were like these 2 matoba guard guys standing around the entrance

a masked visitor: *approaches the door* exorcist bouncer 1: where's your invite the visitor, in a tone of outrage: how dare you, don't you know who i am??

exorcist bouncer 2: no invite, no party. now go away

*visitor leaves* (1) natori shuuichi, not wearing a mask: *approaches the door* exorcist bouncer 2: excuse me sir where's your invite natori, laughing with sparkles: ✨✨ahahaha✨ an invite? well...i'm sure i had it in my sleeve around here somewhere but...

exorcist bouncer 1, elbowing exorcist bouncer 2 in the side: that's not necessary, natori-san. please do head on in exorcist bouncer 2, after natori goes in: what why exorcist bouncer 1: he's on the VIP list exorcist bouncer 2: what VIP list exorcist bouncer 1: the one drawn up by matoba-sama obviously, didn't you read the introductory scroll from nanase-san

exorcist bouncer 2: ??? but him????????

exorcist bouncer 1: don't question it, u don't need to know

#OR something alkdjflakjsdf #all ur replies are so good hahahaa #horrible exorcists #long post

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crack idea: jing yuan lying in the starfish position on his back while he takes a nap but the finches have crawled out of his hair and are chirping in unison as they dance in a circle around him like some sort of satanic ritual

POV you interrupted their chirping:

HSSJSJ here they are! Gave jingyuan a pillow bec he should have one

#ahhhhh CUTE #honkai star rail #video games #look at the...round birbs

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Kuroshitsuji / Black Butler returning is wild to me. It's from an era of my life that is so foreign to who I am today that it evokes something akin to nostalgia but feels closer to grief. Memories of writing and experiencing fandom and having such a silly little time in a world so different from what we experience now.

Sebastian is so beautiful, still.

The shipping will be grotesque, still. But watching this era of the internet drop their think pieces at a fandom that is simply built so fucking different is going to be hilarious. The unhinged young adults from way back are now essentially fandom elders who will laugh from afar as the puritanical weebs gnaw each other limb from limb. If any of my peers wade into the fire, good luck. That's not for me.

I was able to wade through the muck of the fandom because I loved the presentation of the Victorian Era and the supernatural mystery of it all. I fell off at some point, don't even know what arc or what was happening. I've forgotten more than I can even recall about the whole thing.

It's hard to put into words.

I don't know whether I'll check out the new anime or not, but I'll certainly admire it from afar and think about how far I've come since it held such a warm place in my heart.

Damn.

#they really did go off on the aesthetics and the Horror and the mysteries and the jack the ripper arc was Wild #meta #kuroshitsuji #that era sure was something different....there was also the angel incest manga i remember reading. which was also nuts. this was in one of #the manga magazines available in the library

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#oooh i love this #the cool colors #the glow of sage's eye!!! the TV screen #it's fun it's lovely to look at #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint

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Chapter 3 of “courage of stars” is finally up!

ch 3: Lu Tianbao

#ahhhh I NEED to sit down and read all these chapters properly when i have time to bask in them #but if YOU have time go and read this. u won't regret!!! #link click #fic rec

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someone i’ve been wanting to draw for a long time.

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#oooh wowww #cool cool cool the whole thing here!! #the composition and itachi's face!!! #naruto

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Naruto take where Sasuke chills out in a more reasonable time frame, but still can’t return to the village because he has committed All The Treason. The goals of the series then merge, as Naruto needs to become Hokage to have the rank to issue his rival a pardon.

#for the secretly good version of naruto that lives in our heads!!! #naruto

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so back when i was teaching, one of the things i learned to look for were the "mood makers", as i liked to call them, of the classes. there were always 2 or 3 per class, and it was easy to find them in the first few days. you got those kids on your side, and it was a ripple effect with the rest of the students - they would all follow. so winning those kids over was huge when it came to how the year would play out. and from time to time, whenever the class was sort of faltering - middle of winter, of a big project, burn-out high - i would lean back in on those mood makers again to turn things around.

one particular class, when we had a big multi-month group project happening, were just... really struggling with getting their shit together lol. they were supposed to be practicing their presentations (english speaking class) and they were doing pretty much anything but, and their presentations were supposed to start the next class day. they were also PANICKING as i started giving out some feedback - which was NOT GREAT - as they were running through the lines they were supposed to be remembering. after realizing all of them needed so much extra work, i decided we needed to have a turn-around, so i invited one of the mood makers up to the front. i held out a cup to him, with two papers inside.

"one of them," i said, "says tuesday, and if you draw that, presentations go as planned. but one of them says thursday, and if you choose that one, everyone gets extra time to practice."

everyone was like OH SHIT. OKAY. THIS IS IT. and this mood maker, he was a big personality (they usually are) so i knew he'd really ham this up, and he did. we made a huge deal, with drum-rolls and everything, of him picking one out of the cup. he opened it up the paper and announced THURSDAY to a round of huge cheers. he was the class hero. everyone had TONS of motivation to work super hard on this gifted extra day, and really put the time in. their presentations were great. morale SOARED.

the plot twist was that both papers said thursday, because they all needed the extra time. my forever teacher advice: find creative ways to make things happen so that you get the buy-in from the class.

#incredibleee #education #funny things

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#something something horrors of the panopticon etc but #welp #meta

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Happy valentine!! ................Wait?!

#oh lolll this is #very them #honkai star rail #video games #LOVE their faces in the last part ahahahah

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Can we have your opinions on the s class that I raised 🤲? Now im curious after you said you had a whole paragraph on it

Imagine this girl.

She's pretty average and struggles to get by, but around her are all these powerful hot guys. They're all obsessed with her - which sounds good, until you realize she has basically no way to defend herself or stand her ground against them. This wouldn't be a problem if they were say, decent, but even though they like her lots they have this big habit of disrespecting her wishes. I mean, they constantly put her on house arrest !!! And often threaten to keep her from ever leaving?? It's played for laughs but it's detrimental enough that she has to actively work to bypass them. She's not above playing cute or pretending to go along so she can sneak around them and actually do the things she needs.

You'd think this would lead to interesting conflict, but more often than not the manhandling just escalates - with guys thinking about kidnapping or killing her when they think things will not go their way with her. Even her younger brother bosses her around - and even when he crosses the line she's the one to comfort him for "worrying him" too much!!!

I thought things might improve if she finally got some powers of her own - but even when she gets some small upgrades she can never truly fight back. And it's all temporary anyways... So though I read all of the comic back in the day, it's been a while since I had any wish to catch up. I mean, you can only endure so much of an adult woman having to beg and lie for her own autonomy with seemingly little criticism of the story for the role her loved ones play in that!

You'd think this was just your average reverse harem shitty shoujo but this is what Yoojin reads like to me. The first man to ever be a victim of misogyny... For real....

#YELLLS!!! #ok this is. um accurate #but #the s classes that i raised #is Definitely something that will entertain u for a while when u read it for sure #but that second part lakjsdflkjsdf RIP han yoojin #meta

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nobody else did it so i had to

#friend drew this and i don't go here #but some of u might like it!! #dead plate #fanvid

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"He has me. Those evil, bloody deeds, I'll do them" and "This pain and crime, Prince Jing can't take it, so I will bear the burden" are totally normal and hinged things to say about your long-lost bestie who thinks you're dead, who you're actively deceiving and who openly despises the person he thinks you are even as he agrees to use you.

#most WILD PEAK LIONHEART ENERGY in an iNSANE DIRECTION!!!!! #nirvana in fire #cdrama

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(∩❛ڡ❛∩) may you be as loved as hualian with cornetto

🍦 new donghua content (???) thanks to the latest TGCF cornetto ad clip

*I LITERALLY CANNOT TAKE ALL THE DAMN CORNETTO PUNS AND CORNETTO GOING LIKE ALRIGHT TIME FOR 500% GAY

#this very cute ok #heaven's official blessing #food