#if i only knew it was worth it

[mondschrat]

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#god its getting really bad again #im scared #its been bad for some time now #but there just comes one thing after another #and i dont know how to handle it anymore #how am i to get past the next week? #month? #year? #there is no light at the end of the tunnel #everyone is sick and im sick of it #if i only knew it was worth it #or i could get better #but i thought i did #get better #and now im back where i start3ed #being held is not enough anymore #there is noone out to save me #and i am to tired to try

[damconcha]

One of my favorite things about the ASL Brothers is the fact that Ace was the one brought out the sake and proposed becoming brothers.

Not Luffy or Sabo but Ace.

Ace, who believes he is unlovable, Ace who believes that his blood is dirty, Ace who believes that he didn’t deserve to be born, Ace who thinks that his life is worthless, Ace who believes that his mere existence is a crime.

And yet Ace saw these two boys and approached them without apprehension or fear of rejection even though he was proposing something as irrevocable, something as bonding as brotherhood

#not to mention ace had these thoughts bc this is how the WORLD sees him #that world put these thoughts into his head and made him believe that #but sabo and luffy only see him. not gol d. or even portgas d. but just ace. #the way ace knew that they wanted this just as much as he did #like he is theirs and they are his and he knew that #i remember learning that ace proposed it and being *so surprised* #cause we had just seen that ace had no self worth and hated himself #but he knew that they accepted him and that they wanted him in their lives #and he decided to make it permanent #they are his family. they are his safe place. they love him unconditionally. #DO YOU GUYS GET WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY #goddd these brothers make me so ill #it’s 2am so if this doesn’t make sense that’s why #i am thinking so many thoughts #i’ll probably delete this later #portgas d. ace #asl brothers #one piece #concha speaks #asl rambles #concha posts

[lexosaurus]

Okay, the "Youtube blocking everyone who uses adblocks from viewing their videos" thing was the final straw that made me finally switch to Firefox. And...I get it now. I get why I should have done this ages ago.

Thank you, Tumblr peer pressure, for helping me to better my online experience and safety.

#firefox #internet safety #i was using chrome #and knew i needed to switch anyway cuz the amount of CPU that stupid browser used was kind of ridiculous #but i was just being lazy cuz i didn't want to lose all my passwords #i have a lot of them written down but not ALL of them #but considering i use basically the same 5 websites on the daily #it's actually not so bad #and firefox is deffs worth the hassle anyway #BTW youtube can detect SOME adblocks from firefox too #so you just have to experiment and only have certain ones on #so far it can't detect Ublock #and i've heard it also can't detect Ad Nauseum

[aethersflood]

Wild and impetuous. I expected more of the boy who bested my lord commander. Yet I see why my master covets you so. The power within you, Mythos. The potential.

#ffxviedit #ffedit #clive rosfield #barnabas tharmr #barnaclive #if they have another ship name pls lmk! #i knew this was homoerotic but now i'm seeing the details #like in the third gif with the way barnabas smirks at clive #he loves toying with him and seeing him give his all only to be bested #and you can tell Barnabas *wants* to be outmatched by Clive #he wants Clive to prove his strength and his supremacy #this is' so fuckn gay #and i'm v attracted to the way that barnabas just shoves clive with his shoulder and it's so forceful #also the details of how bloodstained and gritty clive is vs. how pristine and clean barnabas is #& how barnabas fights with one arm behind his back #anyway ok #i stayed up entirely too long making this last night #it was worth it but omg i underestimated how much time i would sink into this #mine

[atomicengineerdetective]

I've been watching Hazbin Hotel in prime. Just watched episode 5 and I gotta ask

Why, oh, WHY DON'T I SEE MORE PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT "MORE THAN ANYTHING" WHEN TALKING ABOUT THE HAZBIN HOTEL MUSIC???

Like I get it, the song before it "Hell's Greatest Dad" Is a bop reminiscent of other music from the era its parodying. I loved it.

BUT why are you only putting clips of that song when this MASTERPIECE comes a few minutes after

I honestly don't even know where to begin with this song. The visuals are beautiful, especially when we get moments like this where you can just see the absolute LOVE this man has for her daughter is so sweet and Heartwarming I just-

The voices are fenomenal but what else can you expect from the broadway talents of Erika Henningsen and Jeremy Jordan.

There is also the whole Symbolism with passing the baton to the next generation and stuff. I- I can't even get into the specifics right now Im too emotional.

But above all else THE LYRICS

ESPECIALLY THAT LAST ONE

"I'M GRATEFUL YOU ARE MY DAUGHTER/FATHER MORE THAN ANYTHING"

DO YOU WANT ME TO CRY?? CAUSE I AM. I AM BAWLING MY EYES OUT RIGHT NOW.

It's just so fucking beautiful man. Probably the best song I will hear all year. Obviously my favorite from Hazbin.

#Call me Sir Pentious cause Im crying like a baby over here. #WHY HAVE YOU BEEN HIDING THIS GEM FROM ME. THIS ABSOLUTE DIAMOND #I didnt even mention lyrics like “I've been dying to find out who you are. looks like the apple doesnt fall far.” #“You are a part of who I am” “you are the only thing worth fighting for” that just BREAK ME #but oh well #BTW of course I was gonna watch and become obsessed with Hazbin Hotel. I am a theater kid that loves animation. It was like meant for me #could do with a little less obsenities but thats alright its a staple of the show #On another note I almost went insane when I found out lucifer was Jeremy Jordan. #Like its insane how that man always ends up in my obsessions. Newsies. Tangled the series. The Death Note Musical #(Im team L btw in death note but GOD Jeremy's singing made me reconsider for a milisecond in Where's the justice he is just THAT GOOD) #Erika I knew from the mean girls musical which I also deeply enjoy #its Insane the Talent this show brought in. my theater kid heart is ELATED #Last thing is I gotta say I LOVED Lucifer #Like I thought I was gonna hate him because everyone was talking about charlie's daddy issues #I thought he was gonna be neglectful and manipulative #BUT NO. He is a silly (little) father who just loves his daughter but doesnt know how to show it #And had DREAMS and AMBITION and fate in humanity. And he is just such a fun character to follow I had such a riot with this episode #Hazbin Hotel #charlie morningstar #lucifer morningstar #charlotte morningstar

[rosepompadour]

When Carole Lombard tackled anything it was with all her heart and soul — and that's the way she fell for Clark Gable, in a way that could have been worked only by the miracle that makes hearts beat faster on Valentine's Day. Everyone who knew Carole loved her; everyone loved Gable, too — and when they loved each other it was a romance fit for the gods. - Hedda Hopper, "Three Loves That Thrilled the World" (Modern Screen, February 1949)

#i will never be a huge gable fan but since i care about carole (don't you know?) i can only see him through the prism of this relationship #and i don't know any other couple from this era that was so crazy in love but in such a normal healthy domestic way #it's why vivien and what's-his-name do absolutely nothing for me #i don't want pornographic 'love' letters and constant drama and a queen being delulu over a complete dud of a guy who isn't worth her time #i don't get gable's appeal but i think carole knew exactly who he was and she loved him for it anyway #and of course i trust her judgment entirely so yes! i can still get on board with this love story #carole lombard #clark gable #no man of her own #the silver screen #*

[thelostgirl21]

Are you trying to hurt my feelings?

#Jaskier #Geralt #Radovid #Radskier #The Witcher #I've finally figured out why that scene hit me so hard... #That's part of the reason at least... #Because Jaskier is always at his most emotionally open sincere and vulnerable when he sings... #His only “mask” when he's singing is the fact that he can pretend to be singing about “universal matters” that “could be about anything #or anyone"... #But that's usually when he reveals the most about who he is what he needs and what he years for... #And Geralt essentially told him that the reason the Countess of Stael abandoned him... #is because he let her see inside him and she found nothing of value or worth loving there... #And then he goes and essentially tells Radovid the same fucking thing! #He knew exactly how much it hurt and he still went straight for it! #Jaskier I love you but you don't need to repeat Geralt's mistakes sweetheart... #My Posts #My Stuff

[seraphicalsuccubus]

omg guys I just found my beautiful, hardcover, illustrated, deluxe 30th anniversary edition of The Princess Bride and I forgot how fucking stunning this fucking book is 😭😭😭

I thought it was so gorgeous when it was gifted to me for Christmas several years ago from my mother that I never even opened it up long enough to read any of it because I fucking cherished this copy of one of my all time favorite book and film adaptions so so so much, I didn’t want to mar the book at all by reading it because it’s just so beautiful that I packed it away, in a separate box, cushioned by my own shirts since I don’t have a bookcase anymore, and just kept it safe there and, UGH !!! it still looks pristine now that I’ve taken it back out !!! 🥺🥺🥺

but now I have the urge to actually open it and read it, because I haven’t read the book in like 20 years now and it was one of my favorites the first time my mom let me borrow her copy when I was 7-8 years old. and then when I bought my own hand me down falling apart ass paperback version I found at the library for like $2 during one of their like book sale things when I was 10, and read it over and over again until it was missing pages. like, that’s how much I love this book. I read it to DEATH. like. that book was so loved that I read it until it couldn’t be pieced back together anymore. and even though it was in rough shape when I got it, I didn’t care. I loved it because it was finally MY copy. and now I have this just absolutely gorgeous copy to replace that old falling apart book I had lost ages ago and was devastated about, and it’s one of my most prized possessions.

I’m going to be much more careful when reading this version, seeing as it is a deluxe anniversary edition that was gifted to me, and has quite a lot of beautifully illustrated pages and even some extra chapters. and because, eventually, I want to pass it down to my kids so they can read their mother’s favorite book, from her own copy of it (if I ever have any kids, that is), like my mother did by letting me read her copy and just fall in love with the story. which is a big part what instilled my love for this book/film at a very young age, that connection over it that I had with my mother, because her and I have never really connected on much so this book holds a lot of sentimental value to me. and I want to one day pass that down to my children for them to read (not keep, just read and decide if they want their own copy so I can go buy them an edition of it, like my mother did by gifting me this edition when it released even though it was years and years after I’d first read the book and fell in love with it, she just remembered how enamored I was with the story and the characters that she wanted to surprise me with a brand new, beautiful copy of my own). so I’ve def gotta keep it in really good condition. that’s my drive to not ruin this book and read it to death like my poor old paperback version I had, lol 🥺🖤

#yeah the book was only like 35-40 bucks but shut up I love this thing and I literally hold it dear to me because it is my all time favorite #she got herself and both my sisters the same edition as well in case they ever wanted to read it or showed an interest in it #I was the most excited when I opened mine lol the girls were like ‘oh a book okay’ and I was like ‘HOLD UP WAIT A FKN MINUTE’ and cried lol #because she remembered. she remembered how much I loved it enough to find wait many years until they released a deluxe anniversary copy #so she could get it for me and I could have my own beautiful copy of my favorite book #honestly one of the most thoughtful things she’s ever done bc she said ‘I could’ve got you your own ages ago but like I knew the anniversary #edition would be worth the wait and I wanted to surprise you with that. even if it was over after you first read it. because I knew you’d #genuinely appreciate it more than anything. so I really do hope you love it.’ and I fucking BAWLED #over a decade since you first read it* #full on fucking SOBBED while everyone was opening Christmas presents dude like #I can’t believe she remembered that … and it just … I felt less forgotten as a child of hers than I usually do at that Christmas at least #mine

[hyliareborn]

thinking long and hard about serizawa telling reigen that he’s in love with him unplanned with no expectation of his feelings being requited bc something makes him realize that reigen needs to know that he’s loved. like, seri makes the decision to say it fully prepared to ruin the partnership they built bc he can’t bear thinking about reigen not being certain that he’s treasured and wanted.

#i think seri would know that reigen would never fire him for that and he’d say that nothing had to change but it just. would #the easy intimacy that they slowly built together would end and be covered up by pretending that nothing happened at all #but it would be worth it to him bc he could love reigen from farther away if it meant that reigen KNEW he was valued #even by someone he could never want #(only in seri’s head of course. reigen reciprocates the fuck out of those feelings.) #serirei

[not-the-blue]

world's greatest archer

#my art #clint barton #hawkeye #marvel #i missed drawing him!! he's my little guy #uh so i wanted to make a whole post about this but i guess i'll just ramble in the tags #my new year's resolution in 2022 was to draw every day #i think all in all i missed about a week's worth of days #which i knew was gonna happen and was ready to forgive myself for #when i met david aja at thought bubble i told him he's the reason i'm studying art now but that's only partly true #if there wasn't a whole fan community around his work i don't think i would've been this motivated to be better #i've said it before and i'll say it again. each and every one of you is an inspiration #idk what i want to say here #god i miss being a part of an honest to god fan community. like talking to people on tumblr and shit #could that be another 2023 resolution? talk to people on tumblr? be cringe? #anyway. i'm still planning on getting better at art so watch out for that #in the meantime here's a clint

[corancoranthemagicalman]

“I’ll bet. Dormi benne, Bowser.” Experimenting with style and illustrating one of my FAVORITE scenes in  The Best Man by herpatoidAcephalist . If you haven’t read it yet, cannot recommend it enough.

#bowuigi #fan fic illustration #fan comic #i guess? #i had the ENTIRE convo drafted but KNEW i would have lost the willpower #so i only did this page #the entire convo from how do you know to the good night was EIGHT PAGEs jjbkfs #worth it tho to get the pacing i wanted for this page alone #The Best Man by herpatoidAcephalist #bowser junior #luigi #super mario bros

[priyemma]

Priya is so blinded by her focus on the game that she shows little to no empathy for Emma feeling betrayed (after being lied to!) because she thinks it’s for the good of the game. Literally forcing her to answer and not showing any guilt or remorse. This isn’t Priya hate btw it’s angst because ugh! I love her! And she was wrong!

#sort text #sort image #priyemma #the yuri is tragic guys #Emma caring too much about people and friendships #therefore losing the game because she wants to prove herself as useful #even though she’s strong physically it actually hasn’t helped her in any of the challenges #the second was the only one where she played a significant role and it was only because she knew Chase #and she wants to prove that she knows PEOPLE not just him #Priya caring too much about the game and mistreating the people she values because of their worth #it. doesn’t really track with the rest of the season and the priyaleb plot #but I try to ignore that part #her not being able to show she cares about people through any way other than “training them to win” or using them to win the game #because that’s how her parents have treated her all her life #telling her that her passions and feelings don’t matter #just winning #ARG #td emma #td priya #original post #total drama #total drama 2023 #total drama reboot #total drama island #oh my god is she showing that she cares about Emma by pushing her to participate in the game. that’s so messed up. #we need more Priya angst #she doesn’t think she did anything wrong because she thinks Emma should be grateful.. and sees her mistake at the end as just that. #a mistake. and then everything overwhelms her because she can’t lose. she has to win. #okay I’m done!

[restinpeacesensei]

bath

(hello!!! please be polite and respectful; im very sensitive and i am not comfortable with comments like 'hot/sexy' or anything objectifying 😭😭 but something like 'he's pretty' etc is welcome! thank you so much!! 🥺💖💖)

#boueibu #binan koukou chikyuu bouei bu love! #cute high earth defense club love #akoya gero #gero akoya #my art #this is from 2015 from like the first two months i was in this fandom #it was made for a 1draw prompt on twitter #and ive never posted it here all this time #bc i KNOW if i'd posted it at the fandom's peak i would have gotten comments i was uncomfortable with #i know i probably robbed myself of hundreds of notes by not posting it then.. but if i'd been uncomfortable it wouldn't have been worth it #all the years that i spent feeling miserably uncomfortable all the time bc the only way i knew how to interact with the world was #'throw yourself out there and let everyone else say whatever they want' #which was actually traumatizing honestly. like trying to have a semi-intimate personal relationship with countless strangers #but i didn't know how to express my feelings or wishes and as a result they had no reason to think of them #discovering my right to state my wishes and boundaries has been life-changing #and with that i finally post this #thank you so much to everyone who's listened and treated me with respect and understanding 🥺 im so grateful for your kindness!! \;;////;;/

[larkiethings]

Jo has been listening to ancillary justice and I've been thinking about awn and one esk as I tend to do but. Justice of Toren/one esk saving the unit that awn held in her arms is the tragic romance version of "omg I got to shake famous person's hand, I'm never gonna wash it again!"

#imperial radch #ancillary justice #like obvs justice of Toren didn't think she was gonna fucking die but she knew it was a possibility #and I'm sure there were other qualities of that one unit that she thought were worth saving #probably a particularly stubborn personality #but also. probably the only unit that Awn held and cradled and soothed and I don't think that's a coincidence

[hojiteaversion]

I'd like to think Mehmed is thinking the same with regards to her, in this scene.

He gave her the sword. He controls his temper around her. She stabbed him and his response was to admire and kiss her. He promised to not hurt her friends. He kissed her in this scene because otherwise he would probably tell her everything, which he supposedly can't do yet. He's far from perfect but she is his one "weakness".

Lale was undoubtedly under his power in an unbalanced/dangerous way‚ but he is absolutely under her power as well‚ especially now, and I think he's known it for a long long time.

#i think their love story is beautiful. there‚ i said it #for as much power as he had over her‚ Lale genuinely cherished him‚ because Lale is genuine and loving #and he refused to appreciate or understand how much that was worth‚ because for him‚ love was a game of power. love was not a given #and so the way he saw it‚ Lale had power over him and could thus destroy him. he could be in her mercy‚ and he refused that #he probably forced her to get married and ignored her concerns/doubts‚ because he needed to prove himself/conquer constantinople #so he put her in second place‚ he forced her hand‚ and she died. #and now‚ 600 years later‚ he absolutely understands and cherishes the gift that was her love #he returns that love in kind‚ and worships her because he understands how special she has always been #he comes to terms not only with the fact that he put her through hell‚ but that it was someone who never ever ever deserved it #someone who knew and suffered the worst of him and who *loved* him even when he didn't ''deserve'' it #he gets and values what he couldn't back then‚ and her love is finally respected and returned like she (and they) deserve #their power play is about *serving* her‚ not controlling her #it's satisfying and a bit soft‚ and i love it #romance club #mehmed x mc #rc mehmed #dracula a love story #dracula: a love story #dals spoilers

[cheddar-baby]

Pirating is wrong! You should NEVER pirate!

#this is why i only play maplestory private servers and indie games #i haven't paid for a big game since elden ring and i only bought that because i saw other people play some of it and knew #that it was both not buggy and was actually worth the money with the amount of effort that went into it