#if i dont like something for dumb reasons i think thats just as valid as liking soemthing for equally dumb reasons

[ganondoodle]

reminder that my totk rants are me just rambling about my thoughts, ideas and complaints, im not trying to analyze anything, be smart, be right, debate or convince anyone who likes it that its bad just bc i think its bad or simply dont like the choices made, im literally just spilling out my brain so it doesnt keep haunting me

if you think something makes sense that i think doesnt i, and forgive me for being so blunt about it, do not care why you think it works, my opinion of this game will not change and i am okay with that

you are free to disagree with anything i say of course but i really dont care why, sorry

(sth i said only in the tags before but added now in this edit bc i think its important: its not bc i dont want to hear other peoples opinions and live in ignorance or something, but bc im tired and i PROMISE you i have seen 99.9% of those arguments already)

im not trying to be mean, aggressive or dismissive, but again, these rants are just me rambling with no intention of arguing with anyone, the only reason im still posting whenever i think of something thats bothering me (even if it might be dumb or be disproven in game bc i am not all-knowing and might be possibly misremembering something), and letting those posts be rebloggable/interactable is bc i have been told by quite a few people that they like reading them or that they feel validated in their own disappointment

thats it.

#ganondoodles talks #i usually seek/like interacting with people on my posts but not really in the case for the rants #like if you also have stuff to complain about or agree yeah go right ahead #but if you are trying to take down every one of my thoughts with arguments as to why im wrong or being unfair #i dont care #and thats not bc i want to live in my own little world and never hear of other peoples opinions #but bc i PROMISE you i have seen those arguments already #alot even #too much even #and i dont care that you love the story #im sorry but i dont #i think its shit #so i will say why i think it sucks #and im not looking to be proven otherwise #bc people are biased and will always like different things #and thats okay #its okay to read soemthing you dont like and then move on and forget it ever happened #if i see a post i dont like i MIGHT go and ramble on my own without saying which one it was bc i just have thoughts that need to get out #but im not looking to argue nor bother OP with it #if i dont like something for dumb reasons i think thats just as valid as liking soemthing for equally dumb reasons

[snekdood]

People are SO fucking weird about vegans. Like yeah i get it theres the ones who care more about animals than humans, the ones who are literally eco fascist, the raw vegans, the militant vegans, the ones who say theres no excuse to eat meat- i get it dude but thats not what makes up veganism as an ideology. The very basis of veganism as an ideology (not as a diet) is animal welfare. People can take something simple like that and pull it in a million different directions for better or for worse, same with the idea of reincarnation, or the idea that "people need to be treated fairly", because it brings up a lot of questions like "do people who treat people unfairly deserve to be treated unfairly?" Or "if reincarnation is real then does that take away the seriousness of death?" Or "if animals are mistreated, shouldnt we do everything in our capacity to protect them (even if it hurts others?)" But obviously all of those things can go in an opposite direction thats purely positive, "everyone deserves to be treated fairly regardless", "believing in reincarnation is fine as long as you dont think its fine to kill someone to 'liberate' them or something", "animals should be protected insofar as it doesnt greatly impact certain humans who may need to rely on them", etc. Like. Why do we have to pretend everything is black and white to keep pushing away and ignoring vegans?

#veganism is NOT tethered to militant vegans or whatever. militant vegans are vegan but they dont make up the entirety of veganism. #veganism has a very basic ideology that people can build off of in a million different ways just like any other similar basic idea #thinking vertain vegans are cringe is not a good enough excuse to ignore all vegans. #yall arent even on the same level of vegan as im on rn like dusjdksnjwb im on an entirely different wavelength dawg #i understand how you see vegans but i think people can be vegan even if they eat meat sometimes so #like i have an entirely different understanding of it as an ideology. its about doing what you can without letting yourself suffer #if you have to eat meat for some reason so be it. that doesnt make you any less vegan so long as you try to avoid harming animals #thats the VERY BASIS of my understanding of vegan ideology. or at least. the healthiest version of it imo. #sometimes i hafta eat meat because im poor. i hate it for a myriad of reasons (how i feel abt eating an animal. how my digestive system #also feels about eating an animal. etc lol) but i dont think that takes away my veganism bc otherwise veganism would be incredibly #restricted to a very specific type of person who has a shit ton of money time and energy to buy vegan shit and cook it and everything #its not impossible to eat vegan without a lot of money also but thats besides my point. it would generally fall under something only #more privileged people can do and i think thats a dumb version or understanding of veganism. and to reduce it to that #whether ur the vegan reducing it to that or someone on the outside observing vegans #is also dumb. #theyre doing it for elitist reasons and you're doing it to validate or push your political ideals of vegans. #bc its easier to dismiss all vegans as just privileged out of touch skinny white women than it is to listen to ALL vegan perspectives.

[whumpshaped]

hey i’m really sorry if this is dumb but do you ever feel bad about enjoying whump? if so, how do you deal with it? i’m having a hard time with liking it. i love reading it but it occasionally makes me feel like a terrible person

its not dumb! i have some disorders that make it hard for me to feel bad abt stuff just for moral reasons alone, but i do get the terrible feeling sometimes when im afraid others will think im a terrible person lol if that makes any sense- so yeah i get the shame around it. i was lucky enough to be the quirky fun guy anyway so having slightly stranger interests wasnt a big deal for me.

this got very long bc i always have many thoughts on this

let me just start this by saying u totally dont have to feel bad for liking it. at all. everybody tends to like some form of whump, even if they dont call it that. the middle aged christian woman reading her 100th romance novel packed with fucking angst is an avid enjoyer of emotional whump in my book. and the guy who jokes about whump enjoyers being crazy and then turns around and watches marvel movies with blood and beat up heroes in it, well-

humans are just fascinated with pain. physical, emotional, all of it. it's just how we are, i think. we love to explore pain in fantasy, through characters separate from us, while we sit in our room comfortably (controlled danger! like rollercoasters). it can be cathartic. it can be how we find and understand ourselves. it can be comforting to know hey, this character went through something like that, that means the author must have some experience with it. there's at least one other human who gets me.

enjoying/reading/writing whump can be a perfect outlet, like hitting a punching bag repeatedly. it can be how someone digests their own trauma. it can just be a kink thing. it doesn't have to have deep moral things attached to it, sometimes seeing fictional characters hurt just tickles the brain and that's that. it doesn't matter, because it's all fictional, it doesn't hurt anyone. unless your preferred media is like, literal hate speech and propaganda against real life people, (in which case it DOES hurt ppl), there's literally nothing wrong with looking at a character being beaten and going "hey, thats cool".

also i will never not say this but even the fucken bible is straight whump and no one will ever change my mind. i tried to be a good christian and what did i find? whump.

also, there's like... a huge portion of people who read whump for the comfort of it. yes the character goes through shit, yes it's horrible, but guess what, they come out on the other side unquestionably changed but still worthy of recovery. they find peace, they heal, they find friends and family, they're comforted and listened to. that's something a lot of people read whump for. there's a reason it's called hurt/comfort. and there's also a very good post about how so many of us read it because the whumpees' trauma is always acknowledged. maybe not in the story, but we as readers understand that they went through some shit, and thus their trauma is always validated in some way. that can be a comfort as well, in a world where so many people's issues get brushed under the rug and ignored and overlooked and straight up invalidated.

but even if you're not into the comfort aspect (which i wasnt for a long time!!!!! i was strictly here for the hurt!!!!!!) you're not some sort of monster for it. i'd say quite the contrary. i'd say if you regularly engage with media like this, where the character's emotions are laid out so bare, and explored so deeply, you're more in tune with your own emotions too. i couldve punched holes in walls like some people i know (i have anger issues), but instead i grabbed my laptop and wrote about a character being beaten to a pulp. no damage to person or property. done. others read it and enjoyed it, and i even got serotonin from likes and reblogs, which lifted my mood, so that was a whole net positive.

seriously look at the most popular media too. it's whump. always has been. a good friend of mine whos a little weirded out by some of the gore i write is OBSESSED with game of thrones for example. and he recommended it to me because hey i love bloody stuff dont i? and i loved the torture scenes and he loved to hate and be enraged and a little grossed out by them. we enjoyed the series together. neither of us was terrible for it.

all this to say, you're not the odd one out. even if your interests count as more "taboo", like some of mine, unless you go out there and punch someone in the face, youre good in my books. and again, even punching someone in the face can be morally neutral or positive between consenting adults so. HUMANS JUST ENJOY EXPLORING PAIN. THATS MY HOT TAKE FOR TODAY.

thank u for coming to my ted talk

#asks #i hope u find peace in regards to ur interest in whump #because the thing is. if u had a good friend who has been nothing but kind and helpful to everyone around #but then it came out that they enjoy reading gorey horror stories #would u actually say they were then a bad person? #give urself some grace. im sure ur a good person. like. consciously. putting in effort to be good #and thats what matters

[voldejorts]

@rewritingcanon

adding onto this (long post, i didnt mean for this to turn into a rant)

very little of the anti marauders fandom is valid criticism. most of it is people trying to justify themselves disliking something by trying to find a moral failing in popular headcannons, when theres nothing wrong with just disliking when a character is written out of character.

i dont like the marauders fandom. i prefer to have characters be written as close as possible to their canon personalities. but i dont think writing characters out of character is some huge problematic thing.

today i deadass saw someone say that thinking "let people enjoy things" is "unhealthy" and that writing characters out of character is, like, objectively morally bad because it "makes outsiders not want to read the canon material" (??)

its not that hard to just say you dont like something! and these people spend SO much time and energy grasping at straws for valid reasons why people SHOULDN'T write these characters like this. i shit you not they try to make it into a whole "youre a terrible person and youre ruining this whole fandom for writing characters like this" thing and the mental gymnastics they do for this argument is fucking insane.

ive seen like, maybe one valid criticism of the marauders fandom thats basically just "you can write however you want but its dumb to renounce canon entirely because thats literally where the characters are from"

and yeah. a lot of people really show their homophobia in their anti marauders fandom takes.

and again, this is coming from someone who doesnt even like the marauders fandom. but id pick someone who writes an out of character fic over someone trying to police and control how other people write any day. its not thay hard to block and move on. not everything you dislike is problematic.

not to mention none of these characters are even real in the first place so investing this much time and energy into trying to control how others write them is fucking batshit.

#harry potter #marauders fandom #anti marauders fandom #long post

[imsociallyanxiousgetoverit]

Im finally watching The Owl House instead of just seeing spoilers on Tumblr so Im gonna live-post my reactions cuz Holy shit do I have some things to say right now-

1. Camila sounds nothing like I imagined

2. LUZ DONT THROW BOOKS AWAY WHAT THE FUCK

3. Eda sounds nothing like I thought????

4. Luz… baby… you didn’t see the door with a giant eye and- ya know what- not worth it

5. Why is Eda not sus about a human? I am definitely missing something

6. Is Alex Hirsch the voice for the guard?

7. Why hand come off?????

8. Luz is self aware. This is good.

9. HOOTY??????? THE FUCK????

10. Luz! Don’t just grab people and creatures!

11. Wait- have I been mispronouncing Luz’ name? I thought it was Luhz not Looz

12. Eda! Blackmail and manipulation isn’t cool!

13. by the way both Earth and Boiling Isles conforming places are so disgusting like the fuck

14. Luz I love you and im concerned by your lax reaction to this new world

15. the warden is disgusting

16. h- thats not how physics work??? how are the doors opening???

17. Eda you’re great for protecting the child first

18. Luz is so cool for rebellion tho

Done! I think Im gonna rewatch each episode again when I don’t pay attention enough so I can write these. Hard to remember my questions if I pay attention too hard but ya know I wanna express how I feel too

1. wait these people are overreacting sometimes. the snakes and spiders? yeah absolutely valid to run. The sausages and eyelids???? Y’all overreacting. I mean the wasted food sucks but like its obviously just sausages guys. The eyelid thing is just something at least one kid does every year and its gross but not scream and run worthy. These people are so rude. At least the principal and Camila are concerned about Luz cuz of her seemingly not recognizing what is and isnt real vs just being dicks about her hobbies. It could be much worse in that way. Also Camila worrying about Luz’ lack of friends is good, too. Some kids do fine alone, but most really do need a support system other than family.

(ugh why is the next line down here thats so annoying)

2. Boiling Isles is like- lawless??? Clearly the warden gets away with his crazy arrests (kinda like Warden from Danny Phantom) cuz he’s just a dick. Like how is the guy selling person-eating icecream allowed but a fanfic writer isnt???? Like this is all clearly a reference to queerness cuz like fanfic doesn’t bother anyone else unless you see it out whilst that icecream could absolutely hurt some random civilian. The shit queer people used to and still get in trouble for with no valid reason- this also could be referencing race as well cuz it is disgusting how many POC are arrested or hurt due to plain racism rather than justice by law.

3. oh my godex I have been saying Luz’ name wrong! I thought it was Luhz! Is it Looz cuz its short for Lucida? Also the fact Eda thinks she’s clever for a human makes me worry everyone in Boiling Isles will think Luz is dumb just because of her species which is hella speciest and yeah im worried

4. ): giraffes are cool. Eda why

5. I kinda hate Hooty not gonna lie. Also ??? Eda why you leave your stuff outside ???

6. I just realized that the Conformitorium may actually be a proper prison that just has too many lax laws. Also how tf did does Luz open and close the door????

7. Luz’ willingness to just trust Eda is concerning. Also the BK crown is funny. Eda is a softie

8. oh the doors are opened normally itd just hurt ouch. Is the scene of them falling done by that Baxter dude cuz its kinda smooth af

9. I really hope Luz’ speech means something to kids and teens. It feels cringely bad to me but im also literally 20 so its not meant for me

10. Luz… you cant just offer up your services for ANYTHING! Standards! Boundaries! Her age is showing here. (what is her age? is she like 12?)

11. That photo thing is absolutely real. Some people think its a dramatic movie thing but Ive done it genuinely. Who had the sleeping bag? Eda or Luz? Also love her phone case. Cannot imagine sleeping without a blanket.

Properly done this time! I think I’ll watch the next one once through then ask questions though cuz this took far too long. Ill remember the questions eventually.

#the owl house #first reaction #episode 1 #uh #tw conversion camp mention #tw racism mention #I guess #oops im a bit too into analyzing stuff heh

[bumblebaubles]

heartbreak high

definitive character ranking of worst to best characters [SPOILERS]

wow,,, this one really was a competition for whose at the bottom but we vibe

harper: I mean this one didnt take much deliberation. she had the most happen to her yes, but she was also the least accountable for her actions when they started having consequences. i.e. seeing amelia takes the fall for the map, getting with dusty, the threesome

sasha: sasha got on my nerves with her virtue signaling bs there wasnt a good enough reason to ditch amalie in my opinion especially for harper who wasnt acting normal in the slightest what kind of friend doesnt even try to talk about ykw nvm- and then she ditches harper for perving on malakai which would be valid coming from anyone but her sasha can dish criticism but she cant take it she was a bad friend and a worse girlfriend lets be honest here one of her first lines was something about how she hates when people dont take responsibility and then shes her the whole season

the bitch who was always with sasha: literally just sashas shadow she didnt do much sorry to her

dusty: dusty lying on that teacher was absolutely atrocious he was so aloof and dumb the whole season and then he also was in the threesome and then didnt even think of the fact they took advantage of a guy in a emotionally damaged state but hes still above sasha that bitch is dumb

spider: I cannot believe spider is above dusty he was consistently and asshole in the most conventional mundane ways. hes the insufferable white boy every body knows and has met at least one or two of these assholes not to mention he plotted on that teachers downfall

ca$h: honestly him being friends with the rapists is why hes lower than spider like he rlly couldve at least tried to plan a soft exit or something even if the guys knew where he lived and were violent like he rlly didnt even try but other than that hes one of the least fucked up people there

amelie: she spreads rumors is childish and a bit self absorbed but gosh shes one of the most normal people here. she gossiped like everyone else in the show. she was selfish like everyone else on the show, she was petty like everyone else on the show yet shes the awful one? literally everyone else’s bullshit was bringing her down and her friend - while ridiculously traumatized- basically emotionally terrorized her the whole season.(still glad they somehow made up tho) bitch just wanted to have a normal year

darren: at first i didnt think id like them much but when they had a change of heart i was like ok, theyre a good friend. a supportive friend. will make sacrifices for the people they trusts. wants to be accepted and loved, but it ends up harming themself more than others.

malakai: he ended up here on accident while i understand that damn threesome wasnt his fault goodness gracious i feel bad for amelie because shes the most mundane basic bitch there ur right her problems dont hold a candle to the others thats what makes the consequences of their actions falling onto her so unfair like it just doesnt end for her does it? anyways hes a good friend, ok boyfriend, should honestly just ditch dusty and spider and get help

quinni: see she was actually nice and supportive and was actually trying her BEST she didnt deserve any of the shit that happened to her she was just vibes.

#heartbreak high #idk how yall watch shows with characters this fucked up #i am never watching sex education or euphora these characters #they have their moments but they also get on my nerves omg

[angelic-loveerr]

Believe in yourself ☆& love yourself♡

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self love

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Self love is so important for manifestating and many other things, anything u do can cause it to go up or down at times. But learning to love and accept yourself can be hard at times but you literally need it. No one is gonna want someone whos always in self doubt or always complains about themselves but doesnt do anything to help themselves. Its pathetic in a manner , if your like that in not saying u need to change just, be ur better self and try better.

Self love helps you in many ways , when it comes to any types of relationships and even a relationship with yourself and the things you do.

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Relationships

With self love it can reflect on your relationships with people , like you might not think it but if you always feel bad for yourself and are constantly negative, you can and probably will drain the person you're talking with about it. People can drain you and you can drain people , being negative about a subject will most likely never be helpful in life and you will have no fun and not be fun at all.

Friendships, you have friends maybe , and you're friends are around you for many reasons of course. And if they notice you dont have alot of self love they'll probably compliment you or try to help you. But if you always reject that help and do not change they will outgrow you and leave you behind , no matter what, people will change and with change people might come or leave. You shouldn't stop them for whats doing best for them and what they need to do to better themselves. But if you have self love you can still grow out people, life happens but you see life differently and Friendships differently , you guys will probably have more fun or be more lively than a non self lover because you arent focused on hating yourself and bringing yourself down. You still can drain people, high energy people can use alot of energy but you still can boost people of course and thats awsome. And when your like that, you probably will have more friends and figure out whos actually your friends or not. Just overall it affects how people can see you and how people are around you.

Relationships/ Bfs & Gfs, those can be heavily affected by your self love and how you see yourself. As i said before you can easily drain them, as much as they would want to help you out and make you love yourself , it can take a toll on their mental health and make their mental health worse. Relationships work out how they do, you support them with their ups and downs and they do the same. Something i like to say is "You can be stuck on feeling for some time but dont make it forever" I say that because you need change , everyone needs change and always changes. You gf or bf will change as time comes and you guys can grow towards or apart and thats normal. Heartbreak is normal , every feeling you have is normal and valid , how you deal with it is you tho. And self love will help how? it wont be as draining or in a nicer way, your partner wont be as memtally tired when dealing with your issue. If you know you have issues that can affect the relationship tell them, if they cant take it let them leave , and dont make them feel bad , just because someone broke up with you doesnt mean its the end of the world. You need time to heal and do everything to rebuild yourself , it can happen you just need to believe in yourself and be your best self for you and other people you might want to.

Yourself Relationship, of course you have a relationship on how you see yourself and feel about yourself either negative or positive. But that can affect you, as such you call yourself dumb and things, you will believe you are dumb and behave that way. But if you tell yourself youre smart and stuff, you will behave that way and get good grades. Simply how ever you treat yourself and talk to yourself will relfect in everything you do , interactions with people , grades, social life and even family life. Treat yourself how you would expect someone else to treat you and you will manifest that, you buy yourself things? you will get someone to do that for you too. Everything thing you do has karma and consequences and how you deal with it is you. Be careful with your words love and always love you.

Conclusion: Dont be mentally draining to others and hate yourself , of course seek help if you need it and if a friend wants to listen they can help you, just dont depend on them for everything. You are respected for you, if you have self hatred you need to fix that within yourself and learn how to love and accept yourself and people can help but the only person that can help the most is you.

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Belive In Yourself

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believing in yourself is so important and self love has to do that with that, it causes you to believe more or less in you and either can make you or break you, always love and be proud of yourself cause no one can know you like you. impower yourself as much as you want to and can cause this is your dream reality and do whatever you wanna do.

Beileifs are what causes you to do things and how you act, your hold yourself a way because of your beileifs even ig you realize it or not. You believe you should get something and you'll go for it, you belive whatever you want and you will manifest that. So believe you desrve greatness and manifest it as much as you or how you want, no one is stopping you expect you love, so always live your truth and what you want to do.

(But remember love stay safe and dont go after anyway that doesn't want you or has moved on)

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Anyways have a good morning/afternoon/night loves!!♡♡

#affirmations #self love #manifesation #self concept #affirmyourreality #law of assumption #loa #self concept affirmations #self improvement #i love myself #i love me #i love myself so much #feed your mind and affirmations #affrim #affirming #affirm and persist #affirmdaily #manifesting #manifestyourreality #master manifestor #spirituality #spiritual

[kitom-kortil]

anti v proship discourse ring? can u elaborate I'm confused on. what that means. I can message off anon if that's better for you. I know there's a lot of ship discourse in this fandom so I get that part at least but the "v" and general wording is throwing me off (this is a genuine question I have no intentions of debating u!)

Youre perfectly fine, love! I really appreciate you being respectful in this ask, a lot of the time i just get ppl saying slurs and calling me a proshipper (despite the fact that i think both sides are dumb)

Anti v proship, aka antishipping versus proshipping. Essentially i was making fun of the fact that the loudest person making a million posts had begun their rant by making a massive post about all the ins and outs of why a fictional ship in emh was "bad", thus they would likely be considered an "anti-shipper", someone who is against more "problematic" ships. A lot of the time, ppl who are "anti-shippers" conflate proshipping (proshipping means pro...shipping, aka being pro do whatever, block what you dont like, NOT problematic shipping (shipping incest, rape, pedophilia etc), but anti shippers tend to say thats what it means, it doesnt) with problematic shipping and spend a lot of their time blustering and screaming about ships that they view as problematic or morally bad in some way. A lot of the time people who engage in the anti vs proshipping discourse have a very very bad habit (wink wonk) of discussing subjects they either know nothing about, lie about the situations/characters outright, or are legit just whining about an icky ship in their precious fandom. There is almost never ANY evidence or proof to back claims they might make. Im not saying all of this is what was in the post, this is just a general thing.

So when i said anti vs proship discourse ring, i was referring to them screaming about this ship and how bad it is and then all their mutuals being in their comments and reblogs encouraging and creating an echo chamber to validate them. It was mostly just me being petty and making fun of someone wasting time on something that is very unimportant and silly in the grand scheme of things, rather than actually engaging in an intelligent discussion about the very very VERY real problems of minor safety, inappropriate behavior from minors towards adults and vice versa, and pedophilia/grooming with REAL PEOPLE that is rampant in this fandom.

For some reason, i get called a proshipper a lot for this line of thinking, which is very odd to me but its whatever.

TLDR Shipping discourse is stupid and this whole echo chamber of shoddy claims is coming from one person that started ranting about a problematic ship they didnt like and it seems to have set them into a morality spiral, and i was being a dickhead and making fun of it because im a tired asshole who doesnt want to hear about shipping discourse anymore.

#im very sorry if this comes off rude or anything #im very burnt out about always seeing these trends of drama be preluded by shipping discourse #cuz it just ends up making the ENTIRE thing disbelievable and shady because its always comes back to some kind of bait or just general #bullshit #i hope this makes sense im very tired 😭 #skull talk #cw discourse #cw anti v proship discourse #cw antishipping #cw proshipping #and yes im vaguing #i dont think its needed to specify the person because im not going to start direct arguments with thsm its simply not needed #this person was also a mutual of mine on my old profile and its super uncomfortable to see them go down this spiral #so im not going to confirm or deny who it is or what the ship because we will NOT be having a discussion with them about it #ive already blocked the person so im flat out not going to discuss further if anyone attempts to ask who it is or engage in a discussion #about them directly #so just a fair warning there

[surgeratesfucko]

i think a lot of the reason why people think leftists don't do shit is because 1- they are only thinking of america (i agree white american leftists, with exceptions, generally don't do shit, read settlers by j sakai to find out more) and 2- because internet activism isn't really representative of real life activism. actual leftists doing praxis in real life (hopefully) don't wanna post about it too much because they don't want to be performative and risk doxxing. anyway that post about how hippie grandmas who volunteer at soup kitchens does more for ''the left'' than any communist is going around again and all the criticism in the notes is like really fucking dumb ''waaah what about me and my spesific reason not to go outside of my own house'' and not any actual critique of this imo very erroneous narrative. anyway both things can be true, internet activism is pretty much useless and 95% of it is completely performative, but also there are valid leftist critiques of charity and its so frustrating to watch people completely tune them out. yes, charity feeds people, but it also doesn't address the reason why people cant feed themselves. it is necessary to address the root cause of why people are starving, to do something about it not just acknowledge it. this is why parties like the black panthers both had a food program and also worked to undermine the imperialist system that keeps people starving.

also this whole bullshit about theory nerds who don't go outside is so fucking dumb too bc literally all the communist theory (like mao not deluze lol) beats you over the head with how much it wants you to do praxis lol. Like the point of theory is to guide praxis, it doesn't just exist for its own sake. but anyway theory nerds that dont go outside are real and they suck lol but they don't represent theory or like the left in general lol thats all

#also like calling any criticism of anything ever ''defeatist'' SHUT UP #there are defeatists out there but they aren't who you think and like also maybe if someone is offering constructive criticism maybe listen #like theory also hates the defeatists too dont get me wrong. bc like materialism the revolution is inevitable blah blah

[strawberryseeded]

every time i check that post someone on here made critizising a woman who posted abt how she took her daughter to her laser hair removal appt so she learns abt "self care" its even MORE of a mess.. truly truly frustrating. idk how op hasnt gone insane w so many ppl misinterpreting their words to the point theyre talking abt another thing entirely

a BUNCH of ppl are in the notes trying to explain why THEY shave and why is THAT reason is actually Valid bc its different.. "its not bc beauty industry ! no one ever told me i shud shave, it was an idea that suddenly occured 2 me out of thin air. my trans friend does it! so ops saying trans ppl are wrong for shaving???? thats transphobic. i have sensory issues!! (long description of how gross hair feels 2them) so even then are you saying I SHOULDNT SHAVE ??? even tho i need it??? ops clearly neurotypical :/"

wow i wonder WHYY trans ppl feel like they shud shave! cant link it to anything tbh. just something that comes from their heart i guess

believe it or not no one cares if u shave or not, truly (and if they do they are dumb). thats not what the post was about. its fine if you dont want any hair on ur body for whatever reason.

...but to think it has NOTHING to do with the beauty standars in our society?? that equating 'beauty' to 'self care', 'confort' and 'hygiene' is not a actually a deeply insidious rebranding by the beauty industry???? please be a bit more introspective and honest with yourself and to others. no one is immune to propaganda. especially if its abt things that we have been told since we are children, which is what the original post is ACTUALLY about.

#di4ry

[donotlookatmyface]

09 / 13 - 9 : 46 p.m.

i got my appendix removed last month. and i think i have a thing for my friend. ive slept with her before, in the time i was with bunny and he begged for a “sexy threesome” so i got drunk one day and just did it. i dont remember very much of it since it was years ago, it was before we both moved into the apartment but anyways, it was an okay experience. shes beautiful, and is always so nice to me. but when i have memories of her, us being together i felt wanted, i felt like i was the center of attention. but that was years ago, it happened once and its tainted with the pervert of my ex. 

after the break up, i set up an online profile, this was months after the break up and i was told by my ex that i should sleep with others other than him. so i did, and i found a couple. the same day i texted them i went over and had sex. when i first got there she let me shower and let me borrow a tshirt and shorts since i had just gotten off of work. i thought that was so polite of her, we had a conversation before anything, they smoked some weed, i didnt want to smoke since it triggers my hypomania. but it was a while, i was with a girl for the second time but this time i was sober. i wasnt really interested in the guy but she was nice. she was soft and i wanted to make her feel good. she was nervous because at the time i was about 85 - 90 pounds, besides that it was just something that happened. thinking back to these two instances i just felt lost. nothing i did was worth it, it didnt make me any more happier or less lonely. 

bat is pretty, she is high maintenance but so am i. that doesnt mean that she doesnt deserve someone good, even when we had our issues when we lived together for a very short month, she would clean the house when i was away, since i work 11 hrs a day, leave early in the morning, come back at night. she would do dishes or clean the restroom, she would even do the floors. and she would seek validation. 

anyways i just texted her about just feeling nervous talking to her and thinking about her, of course she told me that shes talking to someone else so shes not seeking a relationship with me but she is interested in having a fling. i told her i understand and that im interested in the fling too, but i do feel just awkward about it since its been about a year since ive had sex. 

its weird. im scared to be taken advantage of again, im scared of being in a relationship, ive forgotten what sex feels like, i crave attention, i want to go out and party, i want to drink, i want to do impulsive things, i think about having sex all the time, i want to clean my room but instead i rot in my bed or just play games all day and night, i get no sleep, i dont wash my hair, i let the water bottles accumulate by desk, my stimming is getting worse and i feel lonely. 

i wonder if i’ll be okay in a year from now, if i’ll find someone. if i’ll still be single, if i’ll be happier. 

i think i just have appearance issues. i cant seem to embrace my gender, ive stopped taking care of my skin and everything i wear seems like a costume no matter what i wear. theres not one day i dont get reminded of my weight gain, i weigh 117 now, and i am glad about it, everyone is. but i hate that once i wear something not baggy someone says “ oh youve gained weight” which i know they mean it in a “good for you” but it feels just awkward. one of my friends also made a very common comment/joke from high school to me and i let it get to me, but i just ignored it. 

i feel alone, i feel lost.

all i do is work and stay home. i do go out with friends, but thats just sometimes. like maybe once a month, since most of them are busy with school. which my friends want me to go back to, they tell me to get a couple classes in the collage that theyre going to and i want to i just dont know what i would do or study. i was thinking maybe business or marketing. i do want to want to take animation if i could again, since i dropped out for a DUMB ASS reason. also i need to keep drawing instead of playing splatoon or valorant haha. 

i dont think im depressed, just lost and with out purpose. ive tried to get back into homestuck but goddamn, its so damn long. but thats what made me happy, so maybe i just need something else to obsess over. in a healthy, normal way. 

i also want to write songs but once i start recording i remember how much i hate my voice, i mean i do like it its just weird 

[a-gay-little-ghost]

pls excuse the language in my previous rant post. im not sorry for what the general message at all tho if your anything like what i mentioned in it, get the fuck off this page and shut up. ppl are gonna attack me for being like "wE hAVe To fIgHt tO AsSeRT DOmInANcE aNd pRoTeCt oUrSeLvEs" ok what- number ONE: assert dominance against who- the other CHILDREN like me who literally did nothing to you? the fucking middle schoolers just trying to fucking live in 2022?! AND TWO, OK IF SOMEONE ATTACKS YOU OR IS BULLYING YOU GO THE HELL OFF, BUT IF THEY DID NOTHING TO YOU, THEN YOUR NOT PROTECTING YOURSELF WTF?! WHEN YOU GET Y O U R SHIT ROCKED JUST FOR WALKING DOWN THE GODDAMN HALLWAY, YOUR GONNA FUCKING CHANGE YOUR MIND ARENT YOU?! hell fucking no your not asserting dominance or any of that bullshit your just being an asshole. i dont give a fuck if your white,black,hispanic,etc or if they are, IT DOESNT FUCKING MATTER, IF THEY DIDNT DO ANYTHING TO YOU THEN DONT GO FUCKING BULLYING THEM BC OF RACE,SEXUALITY,GENDER IDENTITY, OR WHATEVER YOU ARE, THIS GOES FOR ALL OF YALL

LIKE YALL ARE WHAT?! 12 AND 11 ACTING LIKE THIS FOR WHAT?! DO OU THINK IT MAKES YOU "COOL" OR "MATURE" THE ONLY THING YOUR DOING IS MAKING SURE THAT YOUR NEVER GONNA GET A JOB, NEVER GONNA MAKE REAL FRIENDS, NEVER GOING TO ACTALLY BE ABLE TO DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR ADULT LIFE WTF AND SOME OF YOU GIRLS ARE USING THEIR "Im AN InDePenDANT WOmAN #giRlBoSs" THE FUCK UR NOT BRO YOUR PUTTING DOWN OTHER PEOPLE THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH BEING A GIRL THATS JUST BEING AN ASS!! BEING AN INDEPENDANT WOMAN OR A GIRLBOSS OR BOTH THATS TOTALLY AWESOME I LOVE YALL BUT DONT USE THAT TO BE A BULLY TO OTHER KIDS, AND BOYS STOP GOING AROUND BEATING UP WOMEN AND GIRLS THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!HELL WHY ARE YALL FIGHTING ANYONE IN THE FIRST PLACE?!?!?! D YOUR SCHOOL WORK BRO, GET AN EDUCATION DOING YOUR DUMB FIGHTING, FAKE FRIENDS SHIT ISNT HAT YOUR AT SCHOOL FOR, MY PARENTS USED TO SAY THAT ALL THE TIME AND I FINALLY REALIZE WHY LIKE YALL GONNA BE DUMB AS HELL WHEN YOUR OLDER AND THE ONLY THING YOULL ACTUALLY BE ABLE TO DO IS TALK SHIT ABOUT PEOPLE WHILE YOUR SITTING ON A SIDEWALK WITH YOUR FUCKING HELP SIGN. SERIOUSLY GROW UP ITS NOT FUNNY,QUIRKY, AND ITS DEF NOT COOL if yall have a valid reason for acting like this please let me know because its confusing the shit out of me.

[scarsmood]

Why are you pro endo?

Why? Because I think it’s not my place to judge someone elses life. I used to be anti-endo actually about 3 years ago. I was doing intense trauma therapy and I was livid. I always thought “how dare these people share ‘the same space’” as me. They don’t know how I’ve suffered. They don’t know how many doctors have rejected me. They don’t know how many times I’ve almost committed suicide because of alters fighting for control. Ripping someone out of front before they can end us all.

And you know Something after awhile clicked. At the time I was 100% sure my trauma was some light physical abuse. I was totally sure my trauma came from emotional abuse and light physical abuse and a broken home. I knew my trauma in and out. I was rising through the ranks. I was healing. I was totally confident.

Then I kept remembering more. Then I stopped being sure. Then i started listening to my alters more. Still am. Im still terrible with listening to them. They say “scar your just an arm you cant expect to handle everything as if your an entire body. You need all of us” i still try anyways. The point is. I started realizing the 100+ hours i put into research, advocacy, and education not to mention 4k in therapy and climbing.

It wasn’t everything. I didn’t know myself. At all. Now. If i can fumble myself that bad I don’t even want to think about other people. My favorite way to judge exactly how to take a stance on is talk to both sides. So I talked to endogenic people with the mindset of “i cannot understand fully but that doesnt mean I cant listen”

Overall i find endogenic systems to be so rad. They are fucking everywhere by the way. Plurality is very common most people just aren’t clinical about it. My therapist is even steering me more towards being less clinical. Shes a system herself and she recommends i stop putting those labels up.

You can learn a lot from endogenic systems. They have good communication at least the ones I meet. Mixed orgins are also very cool systems. Tulpas, having others in your life that make you plural. Daemonism is a really fun and theraputic entry into plurality. I quite liked playing with daemonism for a bit just to get that old feeling of when we were kids as a system and we had little buddies.

It’s triggering though. I listen to endogenic systems and i snarl reflexively. That isnt their problem though. Thats mine. Thats me wanting to be that functional, that peaceful, that confident. I can blow smoke up my own ass all i want but i still haven’t accepted most of my truths. Seeing someone who can hurts because i want that so bad.

So you learn to walk away. Take tome for yourself. Give myself the space to calm down before engaging. Because it straight up isn’t their issue at all. They are just living. They aren’t hurting anyone. Plurality isn’t even considered disordered. Its accepted to be natrual and just normal. Some people are plural some people aren’t. Its whatever.

So who am I to say “i know you better than you do” speaking over someone is really disrespectful. Not listening to them more so. Rejecting an entire lifestyle just because I get jealous and hurt is not an excuse. We have to control ourselves through better or worse. We have to make the call to not control someone else.

It’s Espically important from me since I do have prosectory parts me included. I try my best to harm none or only when i have to defend myself. Hot take Telling someone else they aren’t valid is kind of a power trip. Its a way to control the situation to tell them they are inferior in the conversation. It’s to make them feel shameful or pain.

Not here for that. If i dont agree with something I will state my case but Im never going to say the other person invalid. You can make some nice connections and conversations that way to. My favorite dumb reason to not give into negative actions is to say “but this conversation is more interesting than if i just shamed someone”

So yes i full support my endo brethren. They are a needed aspect to the plural community. They deserve a seat just as much as I do. Maybe they can give my system some pointers on communication lol.

#syscourse #ya boi wrote a fucking essay #im sorry anon #didnt feel like being clinical with this #or very education oriented #ask

[safebubblebycyg]

things draco malfoy probably said to pansy:

"why are his eyes so green?"

"hey, what would happen if voldywart gave himself another dark mark on the other arm?"

"do i look good in green or like a bag of spinach?"

"my dad probably hides secrets in his hair"

"its monday right? great, mental breakdown monday."

"if i drank amortentia that i brewed, would i just find myself unbelievably hot?"

"i think id be a good healer...id like to patch up the wounds that have been caused by evil. in spite of my dad"

"you think potter knows how to do pottery?"

"my mom once made mashed potatoes for dinner and my dad took one bite and told her he could taste the wizard magic as opposed to elf"

"what do you think would happen if i drank amortentia and felix felicis at the same time?"

"have you ever seen a thestral? they're only visible to those who have witnessed death. yes, pansy, ive watched people die. it happens when your father is a fan of moldymort"

"fuck the ministry, i want a pet dragon"

"weasley's family isnt actually that bad, once you think about it. they're actually rather pleasant once you get past the freakishly kind nature of them all"

"are parents supposed to hug you goodbye?"

"harry's cute, no homo"

"I GOT A HIGHER SCORE THAN HERMIONE IN POTIONS, HELL YEAH"

"what if we kissed? no hetero, but what if?"

"i think im accidentally in love with potter"

"i watched grease drip off of snapes hair and into a potion once"

"did you know that im related to sirius black? yeah, hes kinda my icon now"

"have you ever seen a muggle sports car? i want one."

"boys are hot, girls are not, and im just a thot"

"pansy, darling, please, im a raging homosexual"

"IM SO GAY FOR POTTER, IM NOT OKAY WITH THIS"

"this isnt fair, give me three valid reasons why i cant jump off the astronomy tower"

"blaise caught me singing in the shower and now im more insecure than usual"

"i want to dance around in the dark with someone"

"want to try swimming with the giant squid?"

"i wish i was a merman"

"what do you mean by 'he clearly likes you back, you pouf'? hOw loNg hAs hE liKeD mE bAcK?"

"so, after a solid shag in the astronomy tower, we're now boyfriends"

"ew, pansy, im not wearing yellow! itll completely clash with my complexion!"

"girl weasley wont stop glaring at me, should i turn her toes into mice or her boobs into parrots?"

"i can't, im gay"

"what if our knees and elbows switched?"

"what the flying fuck is pokemon?!?!??!??"

"HARRY BOUGHT ME LINGERIE AS A JOKE BUT IT FITS AND IM NOT SURE IF I LOOK DUMB OR CUTE AS SHIT"

"so, in theory, if crabbe and goyle suddenly turned into ducks that chase gryffindors around the school, who do you think would suspect it was me?"

"i wanna cuddle with harry but hes at quidditch practice, guess ill avada kedavra myself"

"ew, heteros"

"you're such a lesbian for granger, just go talk to her"

"PANSY, PANSY!!! HE HAS A SIX PACK, I REPEAT, HE HAS A SIX PACK"

"have you ever seen a muggle movie? youd like Mean Girls"

"im literally so fucking angry about nothing, wanna go set something on fire?"

"what do you mean you made a swear jar-"

"i should become a teacher so i can tell kids that my husband is the chosen one and that he'll send moldevorts wrath upon them if they dont complete their homework"

"i hate being rich, blaise asked me to buy him a life size statue of him made of chocolate because i should 'spend my money on something worth looking at'"

"harry gavE ME A HICKEY AND SNAPE SAW AND NOW IM IN FULL GAY PANIC MODE"

"ugh, i hate defense, im not answering on what my boggart is"

"what if i joined a band?"

"how many galleons do you wanna bet that blaise will admit to ron that he has a crush on him?"

"I HATE IT HERE, MCGONAGALL CAUGHT HARRY AND I SNOGGING AND LET US OFF BECAUSE SHE WON A BET ABOUT WHO WOULD FIND US SNOGGING FIRST"

OKAY THATS ALL, JUST THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE DRACOS CHAOTIC GAY CONVOS

#harry x draco #yer a wizard harry #hogwarts #harry potter #draco is baby #boyfriend #drarry #gay #gryffindor #slytherin

[arabella111]

hi arabella im sorry for this whole rant but im so pissed of at everything and i feel like ur the only one i can talk to.

i am on verge of crying every time that i look myself in the mirror or opening my camera.. literally i cant anymore with my looks everytime i see a pretty girl i want to cry and im sooo jealous and ik thats shitty of me and i dont want to be like that but its like i have become one of those girls that constantly look for validation for their looks.. the fact that other ppl have also experienced this ( the other anons ) made me feel a bit better abt me bc im literally the same.

when i was young but when i say young ppl would tell me how pretty i am, what a nice body i have, ppl would tell my mok to get me to model, strangers would say how pretty i am then suddenly all this stopped and i dont know what to do.. the fact that as u said to another anon that my assumptions changed thats why makes me feel better bc its not that i am actually ugly but sometimes when im wondering and i think that i wasnt all that when i was little and i might have gotten the compliments bc i was little which is worse bc that means i always have been ugly and i dont like that bc i want to have my own thing and beauty since i was born not go through a whole ass manifesting journey for get a few compliments yk? like rn i feel so average and nothing compared to some other pretty girls like i dont get ANY male attention like nothing and im not ever kver exadeginf and when i say something good abt myself or yk like do jokes atleast im hot and stuff my 'friends' are like 😬.. and if i like a guy im considered iut of his league.. and if i rlly am pretty which im def nkt all that like close to megan fox and all these beautiful women im just there and i get sooo disgusted looking at my pictures and im the mirror..

and what annoys me THE MOST is that i wasnt born already all that and thats what i want not just manifest it and i dont want to revise either and another problem is like i have a few good traits like small nose,clear skin but im still..that.. and ik i have to work on sc and shit but yeah..

and i dont feel guilty abt manifesting other things like intelligence which i always was considered by others dumb but i always thought that beauty was the only thing rhat i had and it proving me wrong is a bid deal to me.. and i dont want tk be called pretty just to feel better yk?.

and the same thing also goes for my body like i had rhis hourglass figure and now i have ir 'sometimes' and i have literally the flatest ass loll and yeah thats it ig im sorry for all this lol :/

it's ok baby, see all you need to do is change your assumptions about yourself that's it. it's okay if you don't believe those assumptions. just persist in them and know they are already yours. you might think it's hard, but trust me, it isn't. you don't have to work your ass off anyways. just call yourself pretty everyday. think of yourself as a goddess. you know your thoughts create your reality right? main reason why you have been living a shitty life is because you assumed so. so why not change your assumptions? what you want is already yours. acknowledge your power. you can change your life in seconds if you want to. all you need is belief in your power.

[phoneybeatlemania-bit-the-dust]

I’d disagree with the anon that Paul was “incapable” of love, but I do agree he was very distanced, and pretty cruel (to women) when he was younger. (It was unfortunate they bought into the love at first sight myth, but he was also a charmer, and dropped affection and got colder after fucking them.)

But I just can’t see romantic interest on Paul’s end. I’m sure he loved John, but a lot of the “sexual/Romantic evidence” really can just be as construed as platonic love. I feel there may be some confirmation bias looking for “clues”. (Not an attack on anyone, but some of the analysises seem to try too hard, really).

He does make references, with the whole “calling him babe during concerts”, and “in bed” but that could just mean he’s not uncomfortable with coming off “gay”. He has a quote about it somewhere I think. He’s supportive of the community at any rate.

This is kind of my own bias, but at times I think he…plays it up a little during the present day? Again, I’m positive he did love John a lot, but with how he is, a charmer, good at manipulating his image, he knows there is a benefit to building up the “magical” Lennon McCartney dynamic. John’s dead, and the old conflicts have faded, so he has no reason not to. I don’t think he’s anti-social, or a psycho or anything, but he certainly does put a lot of thought into his image, especially now, with how he wants to leave his legacy.

I’m less knowledgeable about John, and the speculation about his mental illnesses, but on his end, I can certainly see it. Maybe he’s just blind, but the looks are very much…yeah. He does seem to rely Paul a lot, and hold him in very high regard (REGARDLESS of what those old male biographers might make of him). You just know he was suffering over Paul, poor bastard.

Not sure if anything happened. I think Paul knew though, and either ignored it, or was kind, knowing John wouldn’t act on it. OR he didn’t notice! With the whole “we shared beds A LOT. you would think he’d make a pass at me, darling~”

I guess that’s how I see it. I don’t really have strong feelings on the nature of their relationship, or want them to be “confirmed”, so I try to be as objective as possible! Not a shipper, but not a male biographer. In fact, I was very put off learning the ship was a thing at first! With every fan base “having to” ship the main male leads, that’s what I thought this was. But after three years, reading actual books, primary stuff, I’ve began to change my mind on its legitimacy, and this was my conclusion. But new information can always change!

(Sorry for the long long analysis, god! I just took my adderall and I should go eat! Feel free to block me for spam/harassment.)

Yeah, this is basically my big mclennon dilemma: did Paul love John?

Of course he loved him, but I mean did he harbour any homosexual feelings towards John - and I just go back and fourth on that a lot.

In my last response to an anon I wasn’t necessarily trying to argue that Paul was romantically/sexually attached to John, because all in all, I don’t believe he did - but it probably came off that way because I didn’t particularly like the way the anon had phrased some stuff (like calling him “a master manipulator” and “incapable of love”) and so I just sort of wanted to show that the relationship was more nuanced then just “john was simping for paul”. My overall point with that response was more so that whilst I think Paul struggles in showing real affection and emotions, I don’t think he was incapable of love prior to Linda. I think he did really love John (in whichever form of love you want to take it: romantically, platonically etc.)

And so my point I guess wasnt so much that Paul was always capable of love (because I think he did at least love his family, his close-friends, probably Jane etc.), but maybe more so that he was always capable of intimacy with another person, though he struggled with it.

But yeah, he was quite cruel to a lot of the girls he slept with in the 60s, but I wouldn’t say that suggests he was incapable of love (i know thats not what you’re saying but other people might interpret it through that lens) I would just say he was young, dumb, ridiculously rich and famous and not emotionally mature enough yet to really empathise with most of those girls. Not trying to completely excuse him, but like, i dunno, i always just try to view people from the most human perspective. Everyones an twat sometimes yknow

I also really struggle to see romance on Pauls behalf towards John - the only times I think “wait but maybe he did fancy john back” is when I read some of his lyrics (like in ‘Coming Up’, ‘Yvonne’s The One’, and to some extent ‘Here Today’ - though I think interpreting Here Today as strictly platonic love is still a valid interpretation). I mentioned this in a different post though, that analysing his lyrics just isnt particularly convincing for me, because it feels more like speculation - and also as someone who does write songs, I know that a lot of lyrics just arent as deep as we wish they were. It is really difficult to be truly introspective and honest in a song, without exaggerating or hyperbolising or fictionalising any autobiographical aspects.

I do see your point with Paul possibly playing up the “Lennon/McCartney m a g i c” - im not entirely sure how much I agree, but I do agree to some extent. I think he’s always been very image conscious, and being in what is probably the all-time most famous pop band definitely wouldve heightened that. Even as a teenager I think he’s always just had this natural charm about him, and that tends to stem I guess from a need to be liked; I think you can see it in every interview he’s ever done to be honest. Its not necessarily a bad thing, (because id take a charmer over a rude knobhead any day) but I guess it sort of just shows that Paul is flawed like everybody else. Also, just read @mothernatures-sons tags and I agree with her - Paul just knows when to be a nice person! Nothing wrong with that! It isnt manipulative like the last anon suggested, its just how most people are: polite :) Ive heard a lot of anecdotes from people who have worked with or met Paul and the majority of them say he was a just a nice guy. Not saying he was never an arsehole (cause yeah he was pretty cruel to those girls in the 60s) but I think overall, hes a pretty good guy 👍

On the other hand though, you could also say that superficial journalists are looking for superficial answers - and Paul knows what the people want to hear. But occasionally ill hear an interview that does seem more intimate then most - I havent listened to it in awhile, but the interview he did with Sean I remember felt more honest to me then most. And when he said he’d like to spend the day “in bed” with John, to me that felt like a genuine and fitting response. Because, whilst it has sexual connotations, it also just feels like he’s saying he’d just like to sit around, chat, dont chat, just whatever with John for a day. Like he would just like another moment of intimacy with him.

I think we are pretty much in agreement on most of this though! At first I was also like “nah, mclennon isnt real, teenage girls just love shipping guys!” (I am a teenaged girl and I can confirm this lol) but then it just sort of became apparent to me through reading more and more about their relationship that there probably was something more on Johns behalf. If John wasnt in love with Paul, then it feels as though a lot of things he said and did just dont add up (the big one for me is him marrying Yoko so soon after Paul married Linda - like I really cannot come up with a heterosexual explanation for that!)

But when it comes to Paul, though ill have moments of doubt, I dont think he was in love with John (homosexually) and I do think a lot of the evidence on Pauls behalf seems like a stretch (but like you, im not having a go at anyone, because I understand that it is easy to carried away, plus its fun - but realistically, most of Pauls evidence just is not convincing to me). He’s comfortable with his sexuality, and I really do try to respect that and not force a gay interpretation of quotes or songs from him, unless it is genuinely making me question his sexuality and mclennon.

PS dont worry, I didn’t take this is spam at all!! And also, I would never block someone just for disagreeing with me! I enjoy discussion and I think its good to engage with people who disagree with you! To be honest, id only block someone if they were purposely being a real arsehole <3

#mclennon #discussion