#idk why you’re so worried

[serostuffsmh]

Glad you're fine after that bathroom adventure but.

#idk why you’re so worried #me ​accidentally creating mustard gas isn’t surprising #admin jen asks #thesmoothpudding

[numum]

Any Eda, Raine, or Reada in that beautiful sketchbook of yours? And sorry about the bots stressing you out.

not in my traditional sketchbook, but i do have this raeda piece i never got around to finishing 🥺 plus an owl beast doodle

#my art #myart #the owl house #raeda #toh #tysm btw!!!!! #as for the bots they actually stopped! #i was getting 100+ per day #which was like. not normal? most ppl get like 3? and i was worried my acct was getting targeted or something #i was worried my acct would be flagged for buying followers or smth idk #so i emailed support asking if they had any idea if/why my acct was being targeted #and if there was anything i could do #first they didn’t read the email and just sent me an automated response informing me that i could just block and report 100+ accts per day #and when i replied again i got a passive aggressive response from a real person that boiled down to ‘we don’t know why you’re #being targeted’ #which was rlly all i was asking?? 😭 #but anyway shortly after that i stopped getting any at all #i am free! #and i apologize to whichever staff member i annoyed by asking lmao #calamitycoyote-reblogs

[the-woman-upstairs]

It’s just…so painful to watch Armand readily submit in order to obtain the love he so desperately craves. And while it’s most assuredly a manipulative tactic, it’s still one borne out of fear and desperation. He cannot lose this person he’s come to love and so will become whatever they want, do whatever they want just so they’ll stay with him. But it won’t be enough. No matter how much he acquiesces or seeks to control (himself, others, the environment), he won’t be able to make Louis stay with him in the perfect life, perfect self he built in the hopes of finally being loved. It will all crumble with Armand left alone in the rubble of what he created, the author of his own abandonment.

#this unfortunately hits way too close to home for me #let’s not even get into Claudia’s anger at never being enough #iwtv spoilers #interview with the vampire #armand #this is just me speaking from personal experience…but there is definite manipulation at play here from Armand #and I don’t necessarily mean that pejoratively- when you’re desperate for people to like/love you you’ll become whatever they want #or whatever you think they’d want and you give it to them so they’ll want to keep you around #I’ve done it so often with the people in my life- and make no mistake it’s also a survival tactic #you give someone what they want they won’t hurt you #and when that’s how you survive for years and years it becomes the default method of interacting with others #even with normal people who genuinely mean you no harm you revert to that people pleasing mode #as a means of control both external and internal #this is what i see armand doing- his way of surviving that he’s never truly broken out of #armand ceding coven control to Louis and curating the Dubai penthouse for Louis are part of the same pattern of behavior #and even tho it’s ultimately harmful and will only end badly for armand and Louis’ relationship #idk if armand knows how to not exist that way with someone he loves/desires #all of this also ties into louis and daniel #because of course Armand will lose it over Louis finding connection and interest with someone else aside from him #someone HUMAN no less #and I can see Armand taking out his anger on Daniel as a way of expressing his own frustration at still not being enough for Louis #breaking daniel’s mind in a desperate attempt to understand why this human could reach Louis in ways he couldn’t #not saying any of this to excuse Armand and his behavior obviously (I’m very upset and worried over the trial looming on the horizon) #but I do understand this impulse and how you’ll throw ANYONE under the bus in order to preserve your place with loved ones #it’s all horrifying but unfortunately I empathize #like even if Louis is right to walk out on him when he learns/remembers the truth of what happened to Claudia #I’ll probably still find myself saddened by Armand’s fate because I’ve absolutely been there myself #it’s a tragedy of his own making- his fear and desperation birthing manipulative and controlling behaviors #that ultimately result in your own abandonment #god this fucking show

[pillowprinx]

if you’re following my main and/or art blog then you’ll already know I’m remaking blogs, I don’t know if I’ll be remaking this blog any time soon but if you’d like to know if/when that happens then you’ll have to follow my new blogs

#whimsy whispers #also remaking my discord account for the same reason as why I’m remaking blogs #as mentioned on my other blogs I’m not saying my new urls publicly so you’ll have to message me for the new urls #I don’t think the people I’m trying to prevent from finding my blogs knows of this blog cause I only gave this url to people through dms #but like I’m still paranoid about the possibility of certain people monitoring my blogs and somehow finding this one #I’m honestly a bit worried they’ll still find my new blogs despite all the effort I’m going through to make sure they don’t but idk #I’m not sure if that can be helped or not #but yeah farewell thanks for following this blog #I know I wasn’t very active here and i honestly don’t know if/when I’ll make another nsfw/suggestive art blog #it’s fun art to do just like as said on main and my art blog I’m burnt out uninspired and just don’t find much joy in art lately so #anyways yeah message my other blogs if you’re interesting in following me to my new accounts toodles

[ssreeder]

Chang: I killed Zhao

Sokka: *sokka.exe Has stopped working*

Heeeehhheheee,

Sorry, not sorry :)

I think these Nick Miller gifs describe Sokka’s current emotional state:

#Idk why but I had so much fun making this #dude Nick Miller GETS SOKKA #This last chapter Sokka really got going and hopefully the next one can help him process some of this #I love your ask haha #sorry not sorry #pffft I AM SORRY not SORRY lol #but you’re right Sokka is SPIRALING #hopefully for the last time. #he told Ara to fuck off #he knows Zhao is dead #Zuko is talking #he really has nothing to worry about lol #ok he does because Azula wants to make it rain fire but it’ll be FINE haha #thank for the ask it was fun #mrassassinscreedhimself #LIAB #ITF #ask

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

I think my funniest headcanon about TMA is the reason Jon lied about being 38 when he was 28 was not because everyone already assumed he’s older (honestly that sounds like a lie anyway), but because he heard that Martin was older then him and he didn’t like that. Also my headcanon for the age Martin lied about being was 21 when he was 16, making him 34 when he was actually 29.

Basically on Martin’s birthday someone asked how old he was turning and he was like “oh- uh, 34 😅” and Tim said “woah, really? Damn, you look so much younger then that. I mean, isn’t that even older than Jon?” And Jon coughed very loudly and interrupted, “I’m actually 38.”

#the magnus archives #tma #jonathan sims #jon sims #martin blackwood #Jon couldn’t handle being younger than Martin #Martin adds 5 years to his age and Jon decides hes 10 years older suddenly #it’s too bad he’s still younger than him without either of them lying about their ages #by a few months at most but still #Martin had his birthday first so #obviously Jon must be younger #anyway this has plagued my mind since I heard Jon’s birthday party #ngl I’ve written this post probably 5 times in different ways and then decided not to post them #idk why #probably because I’m worried about someone coming in and going #‘um actually that makes no sense. 21 is too young to get an archiving job you clearly don’t know what you’re talking about’ #which tbf is true I have no idea how old you have to be to get an archival job #I’m literally 16 with no intentions to go into that field #so sure if you wanna correct me go off I guess

[tariah23]

Well, I’m still glad that Gojo was always a character who was growing and learning at least. He’s literally one of my favorite characters of all time now. Like, he’s never been as perfect as how the fans would make him out to be despite canonically being viewed as an absolute nuisance to everyone around him (I don’t think his peers necessarily hate him but a lot of them probably hate to see him coming and the ones who’ve dealt with him long enough to consider him a friend, tolerate him and groan whenever he opens his mouth, too 😭… out of love. He’s extremely childish so there is only sm the other adults around him can take and to an extent, his students. I think the only characters in canon who adore him and their eye’s sparkle whenever he’s around, and being a silly teacher was Yuuji and Miwa (she asked him for his autograph (he’s the most famous sorcerer in the jjk world) and when she was alone, she did a little dance in the empty hallway 🥺…) from what we’ve seen even though the others still care about him, too. They just find him rather annoying, which he most definitely is. And he does it on purpose. He plays too much.)

#I’m also not usually one to get annoyed whenever ppl shit on the things I like #like I’m an adult sorry idc 😵‍💫 #but it’s always annoying seeing ppl who know nothing about the story complaining about it #even just as recently with the Gojo being racist shit 😭.. #like he’s a really great character despite all of that and even though Gege’s #execution of that could’ve been better or didn’t need to happen at all #because idk what gege was doing even though I do strongly believe that he used a moment like this to showcase Gojo’s ignorance and #that how he’s also human and makes mistakes since if you’re familiar with the series Gojo isn’t really treated like person at all #more like a deity and he doesn’t like that #but he’s never been one to voice his personal feelings and talk about his trauma ever #he gets treated like a god and because of this he’s never felt like he could truly connect with other people #so that’s why he puts on that whole act of being overly friendly/ playing with others and even rude to shut others out because of his #aversion to opening his traumatized self To other ppl like he’s so cool #and when he’s friendly he gives the others just enough of his affection so that he wouldn’t be worried about and not have others pry #but he’s incredibly flawed as well #I feel like gege could’ve showed Gojo being ‘humbled’ some other kind of way over the racism tho 😭. But it’s fine lmfao #I’m still so grateful that he had Gojo actually apologize instead of waving Miguel off like he didn’t matter because like I’ve said before #he literally never apologizes (this is probably the first time that I’ve ever seen gojo apologize to anyone in canon I’m so serious 🗿) #that’s literally not part of him #like he feels regret but he never apologies or shows that he actually cares about what others are expressing to him when they’re upset with #him. like this is crazy. but it shows that he did care about the mistake that he made which I appreciate…. like idk how I would’ve felt #about his character if he showed that he could care less when hurting someone like this🗿….. #I adore him so much sorry sorry for taking about anime I’m just 😭…. ❤️❤️❤️ #rambling #I’m glad that everyone is fucking with Miguel now because he is a really interesting character even though we haven’t seen much of him #he’s one of the few ppl who Gojo trusted enough to look after someone who he cared about despite the horrors #because he knew that Miguel would protect yuuta and do right by him #it’s very 😭❤️…

[grayintogreen]

Every chapter I’m like “this chapter probably won’t be half the length of an actual novel” and every chapter I’m proven wrong.

#people out here writing full 50k novels and I’m like that’s two chapters of YCDHN #for all of you who do not weep at the sight of my chapter lengths and run screaming #you’re the real ones #I’m always flashing back to people who are like if I read a chapter longer than 4k I get anxious #and I’m like oh okay #i can do that if I have to but it feels so dumb to me #YCDHN’s chapters are designed that way because of the outline #so it’s just I set it up to have this many chapters and for every arc to be contained to five chapters #that’s just the style #idk why I’m always so worried about it #who am I trying to appeal to? #the fic will be 1 million words no matter what #my writing #you can’t deny high noon

[neverbeforeandneversince]

my parents are toxic

#i told my mom i was concerned about my dad bc he said he’d get back to me but didn’t #which is sooo unlike him #and he hasn’t been texting me as much #again unlike him #and i asked my mom if he was okay and she said yes #and then my dad said he was starting to feel better … #and when i asked what it meant he didn’t reply #so i texted my mom and said hello? why wouldn’t you tell me dad wasn’t okay? #to which she said ‘i know you’re worrying and working’ #like them not being open with me is some joke #idk if this makes any sense #also it’s a valid reason to be worried #don’t gaslight me

[caramiaaddio]

I’m not against straight people as a concept but in practice…not the biggest fan

#we have this gay center in town and we had this little holiday decorating party #and I love going to this stuff cause like. okay the ultimate goal is to find new friends and or partner cause I’m NEW IN TOWN #but I really like when it’s just the older people too cause idk it’s just nice to know like. oh ok I can live a normal life like everyone #I can make it to 70 and be a grandma and ALSO be married to a woman #but for some fucking reason this straight woman showed up #and like. she said she was gonna bring her gay grandson which like cool! but he couldn’t come so why are you still here #and in order to like..prove her allyship? I guess? she just started talking about politics related to gay people #and it’s like man we’re lgbt and we’re here to make ornaments out of clay none of us want to talk about homophobia #we just want to be in a space comfortable for us where we can do silly little fun things and also just be ourselves #like the whole room was quiet it was clear everybody was uncomfortable with her talking about homophobia and transphobia #and she just kept going #like how do you go to an lgbt club and make it all about you #nobody cares if you’re straight you don’t need to prove that you’re woke just #stop subjecting us to our own trauma to prove yourself #we just want to make arts and crafts and not have to worry about censoring our small talk like we do in every other aspect of our lives

[vulgarcunt]

No one ever wants to talk about the persecutor alters who are ‘evil’.

#and by evil I mean have 0 empathy and no sense of morality and are that way because of trauma #and by evil I also mean the ones who are fucked up in the head on purpose ! #why do we have to exclude those persecutors from everything or tip toe around them and bring shame on people who have them #all the systems that are like ‘yeah this singlet is right persecutors should be one way and one way only!!!!’ #y’all are fucking so conditioned into wanting to fit into a box singlets made for us and idk why #they don’t see us as people they see us as freaks and you should be supporting fellow systems not appealing to these dumbass singlets #i just don’t get why it’s so forbidden to let systems have morally grey alters ! or just let systems exist with their ‘bad’ alters #endos do not interact #endos dni #persecutor #i mean i understand why because they just wanna kiss singlet ass so badly and be the perfect mentally ill person #and it needs to stop #systems like that need to learn that THEY do not care about you and will not understand ! #you have a system from trauma that is there to protect you basically why are you worrying about looking good it’s ur life #you aren’t a system for show you’re a system because you were traumatized and however ur brain sets that up is how it’s set up #and no it doesn’t add to the stigma because some systems are just like that! #what adds to the stigma is SINGLETS demonizing systems #systems can’t demonize themselves they’re just existing hello #traumagenic system

[aquarri]

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#i think the elounor bua just showed me again #that the gp doesn’t care about louis at all #(harsh but true imo) #and really how easy it could be for them to end bbg #silently and not make a big scene #idk just some thoughts #none of my irls have brought up louis conversationally #if people do see it they’ll take one look and forget about it if they do it right #the holivia bua was HUGE in the gp #and how many people came running trying to find out about a larry conspiracy #0 #it’s like??? #you’re sick in the head if you think it’s better for louis to live with a fake child for the rest of his life #why do you WANT louis to be the father of that child #im losing my mind in this fandom #they could literally end it by making him look straight if that’s what you’re so worried about

[onlythebravest]

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#tw sick parent figure + tw sick parent when i was younger (sick-sick) #seriously don't read this it's just me rambling #i just write it here bc i don't want to bother people by saying the same thing over and over and over #bc it's nothing new to be said. i just need to get it out yet another time #i hope this drowns in all the louis posts so i can just send this into the void 😂 #i've been home for less than 24 hours and i already don't want to be here. it already sucks #i guess in a way it's good bc now i can help but it really sucks and idk how to handle everything #and on top of that my therapist continues to be sick so i don't even have someone to talk to about all of this and it just sits in my head #he is already back at the hospital which makes me just remember all the times my mom went in and out of the hospital when i was younger #well good thing here is that they have something that they now can treat even if they don't know it that's actual cause of not #but doesn't help with all my thoughts about how bad shit is and how it reminds me of my mom and how i can't handle any of this #and am instead rambling in some tags in a tumblr post #i wish i could just shut down all the emotions until he's all better and we don't have to worry anymore and everything is fine again #bc this sucks #i don't want to do this anymore #and i'm sure it's barely begun #bc why would it be easily treatable? that would be a miracle and i don't believe in miracles #life sucks and i really wish it didn't #if you’re down here then that’s impressive bc I wouldn’t be able to read this since it’s just a block of text without any real sentences 😂 #and yeah this is just me screaming into the void #don't worry about it i'll be fine

[pepprs]

god my throat is raw from yelling / panicking. And part of me is wary wondering if it’ll happen again. omgggg

#purrs #i think i knew it was a false alarm it just didn’t feel real. but what fucked me up is that i couldn’t t honk of what to bring. i knew we #we’re close to an exit so we would be fine and i know you’re not supposed to delay getting out and that the stuff is just stuff. but my #journals and diaries.. like i brought them all here for some new years reflections and i couldn’t bring myself to bring any of them. or my #sketchbook. or my switch or ds with my animal crossing town. idk. i guess smth flashed through my head like so much of what matters to me #is digital now but that’s not fucking true at all. why did i have a hard time deciding and brought nothing when my sketchbook is the most #important thing i have i think bc it’s my scrapbook / diary. it just fucked me ip so bad. now im staring at the ceiling and my throat hurts #and im going to be so tired tomorrow. that was so scary #we didn’t even make it outside bc the alarm stopped before we left the room bc we were scrambling to find coats and masks (lol) and them my #mom called the front desk and they said it was a false alarm. so idk. for those 45 seconds it could’ve been life or death and that’s so much #to think about. everything important went out the window it was just like wtf is even happening rn and my dad said it was a fire and i was l #like how do you know. ugh. that was so scary #like what fucked me up was. all the pieces of me are spread so thin in so many journals and shit that idk which one to bring. i would have t #to take the complete collection. and i can’t do that so i have to leave all of them. that’s the choice i made in that primal moment. it #QUITE LITERALLY does not matter and is not the most important part of this to be worried abt / fucked up over but that really shook me

[rosicheeks]

Hi yes I will pay for a room and food for a night and help you fuck a girl for the first time. Let me help you. Money won’t be problem. How can we make it happen soon?

🫣😂

#I’m sorry idk why I don’t believe you hahah #it just sounds like a movie plot #also the phrase- *money won’t be a problem* #excuse me money is *always* a fucking problem #anywayyyyy #if you’re 100% serious #idk if I could even find a girl to fuck me? #like I know there’s plenty of guys who are lining up for the chance #but either I don’t have any or my girl followers are quiet and shy #cause I can only count 2 times that I’ve been hit on by a girl on here #so if I was able to find someone who even wanted to do it #I would have to get to know them and get a little comfy with them #oh yeah!!!! I think I got a long ask talking about this maybe I’ll have to check #not this specifically but I think it was a girl?!?!?! saying what they wanted to do to me????! #ok focus rosie #so I guess if any girl sees this and is interested let me know 😂 #oh but I feel like I should find someone irl so we don’t have to worry about the plane tickets and all that shit #but idk anyone irl #like #people are fucking scaryyyyyyyyyy #lol idk if this answers your question well enough but that’s what I have to say 😂 #ask #anon

[rockystar11]

having anxiety while also being self aware is so dumb lol. like i’m not actually concerned at all, but at the same time my body is shaking like a chihuahua and trying to dissolve itself

#context: i had to do a presentation for work lol #the most annoying part is that the presentation has been over FOR AN HOUR #and my brain is still like you’re gonna fail #oh yeah makes sense i’m gonna fail the thing…that i already did #i have been stupidly tense since last night which even though i wasn’t actually worried about presenting #like i knew it was gonna be fine but my body still had to go thru the whole rollercoaster #it went fine lol i did a great and everyone said they were really impressed with my work so idk why this is still happening 😂 #rocky.txt #anxiety tag