#idk why it just didn’t hit for me

[dontmindme2600]

I actually might attempt to start watching JJK again but only for a really dumbass reason. I want to see Satosugu bc I don’t know much abt their relationship but I’m a huge sucker for best friends to lovers AND angst- they just seem like they line up perfectly for my taste akehdjakahshd. Also JJK has gotten really big and I feel like like I’m missing out as an anime fan. The last time I tried to watch it I only made it like 4 episodes in though…

#idk why it just didn’t hit for me #at least not like other shonen I’ve watched did #but maybe I was just anime’d out bc that year #I literally just watched one show after the other #and then I literally couldn’t finish anything for like a couple of months lmaoooo #anyways I’m excited to start it again but I’m no longer on crunchyroll so idk where I’m gonna watch it #JJK #jujutsu kaisen #satosugu #jjk satosugu

[gracebethartacc]

soooo I had a lore idea earlier that ties into the rewrite really well,,,,,,

Poor unfortunate souls am I right :)

#The plothole of the citizens questioning him about the wishes and said questions never actually getting answered by the plot drives me nuts #And I was thinking about it and this idea hit me like a truck— #1: It explains why he makes them forget about their wishes 2: it explains why there’s only one per person 3: explains the emotional drain #And 4: helps play into the dark magic/lying stuff further #Plus is just a cool idea/twist I think :3€ #Literally just had the idea today tho so I’d love any ideas #I def think it’ll tie into the dark magic stuff like they give him power or something? Idk #I do know he can only do magic with his staff and not directly so maybe something to do with that ? Like the staff gets it’s magical energy #Or whatever from the energy of the souls? I’m not sure.. #like I said I’d love anyone to help brainstorm further with this concept :) #rewrite the stars au #Wish au #Excuse the book looking shitty lol I didn’t feel like writing out the text myself 😭

[sluttyten]

My afraid-of-romance ass has just been asked by another regular customer for my number and the stupid thing is that again I do think this guy is kinda cute and I really probably should say yes

#the fear tho lmao #what am I afraid of? I have no fucking clue #this is why I’m still questioning my sexuality lol like what am I? do I even actually like guys? do I like anyone? #in an existential spiral at the moment #but honestly why do they always ask for my number #like dude just give me yours and let me make the decision when you’re not right here in front of me #but I felt bad telling him no today just because the last time a customer asked and I said yes I almost immediately regretted it #and then that didn’t work out because I thought he was too young #young* and now he still sometimes comes by and I just feel awkward about it #maybe I should turn to Facebook and see if I can find him because I have set an age limit for myself and I really don’t want to entertain #anyone younger than that #but I’m……… I know I’m like never active in here anymore #but I just needed to talk about this somewhere #because any of my coworkers would probably tell me I’m being ridiculous or they’d just seriously keep questioning why I keep saying no to #customers that hit on me and my best friend would probably also not get it #idk y’all I just needed to rant about it/talk about it #anyway I’m definitely gonna stress over this until tomorrow #and I’m gonna feel really bad if he stops coming by

[lazzarella]

I can’t stop thinking about the Thai Cherry Magic and how much I love it and all the characters and ahhh it’s totally taken over my brain. Just can’t stop thinking about Achi and Karan and how perfectly matched they are and how brave Achi is and how lonely Karan must’ve been and I love how Achi constantly learns from the people around him and I love his kindness and how he’s so self reflective and how he keeps moving forward despite his anxieties and how overwhelmed he is because everything is new (and Karan is kind of a lot, or his thoughts are) and that he only really pulls back when he thinks he’s hurting and taking advantage of Karan and he only wants the best for Karan because he sees him like no one else does the same way Karan sees him and I could honestly flail about this show and these characters for days

#cherry magic th #cherry magic thailand #I know I wrote more about Achi but I feel like a lot of ppl write about how Karan is the perfect boyfriend #but so is achi!!! #that’s why I love them both 🥰 #and I adored the Japanese live action but idk this Thai one hit differently #not better!! just differently #I might get embarrassed and delete this later #but like I’m old. I’ve embarrassed myself many times in many ways. it didn’t kill me lol

[killstreak-kritzkrieg]

Every time I hear Kim talk about Fat Angus’ death, and pause to tell us that he took so many bullets to die, I just

#god…………………. poor guy man #poor poor dude #he really didn’t need so many bullets he already had asthma just a shot in the lungs should have done him in… #but they just… ripped him apart huh #every time i hear about a fat character getting shot multiple times to die idk why but it makes me feel something #angus is like… #an extremely Nothing character and exists to out his friends and be the target of fatphobia but i liked him a lot nonetheless #disco elysium spoilers #as an asthmatic fat person with an anxiety disorder #where both their fatness and anxiety being exacerbated by their asthma #it just really hits

[wheredidmycrowngo]

I BOUGHT MY MAN!!! IM SO EXCITED FOR THISSS !!

#I’m gonna carry him around #he’s gonna be my comfort Gojo #I love love love love Gojo #I have a 200 dollar figure of him #two prints of him (one of them is by CRANITY PLSSS SUPPORT THIER WORK. their art is soooo freaking good!! ) (I bought their vash print #and their charm of him and pin just bc I genuinely love their art sooo much #I do love vash but I’m not into his series as a whole. #I tend to like characters without really caring for their story(?) #anyways back to Gojo #I love him so much #I actually don’t know why or how I started liking him #when I was 16/17 watching JJK for the first time I HATED HIM #I genuinely was like why would anyone like him??? #I didn’t think he was cute or anything #I rlly liked itadori and sukuna at the time #but once I hit 19 something changed in me #maybe it was a fanfic that changed my view of him? idk #I think I’m gonna cosplay him next year since my friend said she’ll do sukuna!!

[tortellinigirl]

i love my mom so very much but something i truly Must say is that having an abuse victim for a parent fucking sucks ass. sorry to say. or at least it definitely sucks ass when everyone in the family, including the parent, is dealing with similar trauma from their shared abuser. like cool we are all perceiving everything as an attempt to manipulate or attack 👍 this will surely be healthy 👍 especially considering that the sole parent in the family is very unstable and has been victimized for so long that she doesn’t seem to fully comprehend that she holds all the power in the dynamic with her children and within that power lies the potential to become an abuser herself 👍 surely this will be fine and not bad at all and no matter what, in the future, we can always just portray all traumatizing situations as classic silly mother/teenager arguments 👍 because what else are u gonna do?? attack ur traumatized mother for reacting poorly to her trauma?? ur an adult, what do u even want her to do about it at this point?? shove ur own trauma down girlie !

#like whatever she wasn’t like. hitting me i guess #slapped me a couple times and like corned me and grabbed me and like yeah it hurt but didn’t like bruise so #it’s just one of those things that’s like. what is even the point of bringing it up anymore #i love my mom and i know why she was like thay #and she’s gotten much better #and it’s not like i live with her or something #and i love her and i want a relationship with her and also she’s the only parent i fucking have left #so yeah i guess it’s just one of those things that u just put deep inside ur soul and leave to rot #like bringing it up will never do anything except hurt my mom and i never ever wanna hurt her #but also idk what to do with these feelings #idk man. i guess i just have to feel them forever #my whole life i’ve always had some little memory to grieve #when does it END

[dreamerlynx]

did Not realize how badly I’d spiraled and made myself feel like I’d ruined this class and just needed to accept I’d fail and wouldn’t graduate this semester until I went to the meeting I arranged to talk to the teacher abt if I had any chance of passing still and she like. outlined a different thing I should do for the final project which already feels more approachable n manageable And suggested I try to talk to the dean abt getting a medical extension. and like I left feeling actually hopeful. like Oh I can actually do this and she wants to help me do this.

it’s not just dream ppl r good and lovely 💚 /joke

#idk I managed JUST barely not to cry #but she asked if I could share at all what was going on after a bit and I was like that’s what’s frustrating is there is no real reason #and she went ‘well depression is a reason’ rly seriously like leaning forward #and idk it really hit me bc I guess for so long I’ve been upset with myself bc I didn’t understand why this was happening #and her taking it so seriously made it feel real #anyway cooling down now bc I did in fact start crying a bit afterwards LOL #but. yeah #no tags just venting #(except yes tags bc I didn’t want to put it in the actual post it felt weird) #EDIT smh why do read more lines disappear on mobile browser sometimes Anyway sorry abt that

[sodacowboy]

the sunset today literally looked like a lava river and I am not exaggerating in the slightest

#I didn’t have my phone on me #so I didn’t get any pictures #but jesus christ man #it was gorgeous #just how the sun hit those clouds #and how those clouds flowed across the sky #fuck #like what could I possibly say to describe it #the rich orangey pink tones the sun made #and the blue grey of the clouds #I just sat there and watched it until it faded away #like the lava had cooled over #im tearing up just thinking about it #because my god what a thing to witness #I just….. #if I hadn’t decided to ride along to the store #I never would’ve seen it at all #just the way my window frame turned yellow and the blue sky contrasted against it #I get why people believe in higher powers #because how else could we have been gifted with sunsets like these #it seems too good to be a coincidence #but idk #the coincidence of it makes me appreciate it more

[katadastical]

I’ve fallen into a weird routine where every Tuesday or Wednesday I clean my room while watching the movie Goodfellas it’s been like 4 weeks of this

#idk why this is the movie I chose I just keep watching it #one week it was the godfather #but tbh it didn’t hit the same #goodfellas #movie #give me similar movie recommendations #movie recommendation #films

[peapod20001]

In my...✨ depression bed ✨ phase <3

#vent #oho five hours babeeee hungry AND hot AND depressed?? what is this?? my birthday? #hahaha yeaap. it’s cool it’s cool I’m chillin #just vibin. head feels. weird. but I don’t entirely know what up with that it could be a few things if I’m being honest lol #hmmgf when was the last time I just. laid here this often? #laid? layd? layed?? whatever lol #hmm I found a fuckin uhh. vent diagram thing that showed BPD ASHD and Autism and their specific traits and overlaps #is uh. uhm. too close!! like sir!! who gave you!! permission!!!! #oofy anyways uhmmmmmm. realized that I!! don’t interact with people!! as much as I did when I was younger!! #like I had my classmates. my friends. my family. the ppl on tumblr and stuff. yknow #I was talking to someone and shit like!! every day!! for multiple hours!! a day!!!! #now it’s like. wow boy howdy. what are the chances I y’all for more than an hour with LITERALLY ANYONE today :) #uhhghgh gross ew ew nasty. I totally. don’t care that I’m not getting my enrichment #I’ll jus read tags on my art and look through old messages in place of actually. talking to anyone #mmm. conversations hard. hate talking about myself. don’t know anything besides myself. hate certain topics (but won’t say anything bout it) #anndd yeaa!! I don’t understand ppl and their motives and why they like me specifically. I put on my best personality for youu #I’m playing off of you and mirroring how you act so you’ll be ok with me <3 but that’s ok I suppose. I don’t think anyone here is out for my #guys so I’m doing good at least somewhat lol. ahmm. you ever not care about being something special to someone else. and then they kindaa. #squash that idea? and in theory you shouldn’t care since you didn’t want it in the first place but. them saying it hits? different? like oou #oh and question I don’t expect anyone to answer. you ever cried cus. someone aid you were their friend? best friend specifically? idk man #2 ppl have said I’m their best friend an I had to literally force myself not to get emotional at the first one and then I legitimately cried #with the second one LMAO like. how ridiculous is that yea? yeah #it’s. yeah. I’ve called ppl my bffs or whatever before but. it’s different when someone says it to you first ig. before I think they only #gave me the label out of convenience. not that we weren’t actually friends (at least I hope we were DHHDV) but. idk!! I literally yearned #for like!! basic shiittt!! I got put in time out like beginning of kindergarten cus I cried over my 1st best friend partnering with a new #girl instead of me!!! 😭 woof. that was the ONLY time I ever cried in public EVER. didn’t matter how many time I got hurt physically or #emotionally or how stressed I got or how confused or embarrassed and humiliated I was!! I’m NEVER letting people look at me like I’m stupid #for caring EVER. AGAIN. woof ok getting off the rails here I was like at least sort of ok when I started writing this but now I’m very much #NOT lololol so uhhhhhhhhhhh. anyways. let you get back to scrolling or swiping or whatever. I’ll be finnee totally. just. here

[eyesopentv]

dumb rant incoming

#miles thots #i love my best friend but one time i told her i was feeling left out when she was hanging out a lot with a group without me and we hadn’t #even talked in weeks outside of work- and this was a group of mutual friends so i didn’t understand why i was never invited #and she told me they were her ‘adult friends.’ this convo happened a couple weeks after i turned 20. i said okay bc i understood she meant #like. drinking friends. but it’s not like i don’t enjoy drinking too- and one of the girls is a few months younger than me- i literally went #to school with her #but now i always feel like i have to let go of ‘childish’ things i like so i can fit in with her older friends and like i can’t share all my #interests with her. when she got married she said she has to be an adult now and i’m scared that that means not being friends with me bc i’m #not adult enough or the right kind of adult #idk. i’ve just always been the youngest in my friend group and it’s really hitting now

[beware-of-you-98]

reasons to watch criminal minds [and/or evolution]

• cool

• family fluff

• interesting plotlines

• reboot for nostalgia

• women pretty

#criminal minds evolution #criminal minds #i will not be taking criticism #but that’s it #that’s the only reason #women r pretty #and i’m just a lil lesbian #and okay maybe nostalgia #but for strictly lesbian reasons #i’m gonna actually weep if they make emily and the reject pringles can man a thing #like weep in the bad way #the way i only be watching because ✨women✨ #those are my emotional support fictional milfs officer i have an emotional dependency on all four of them #idk if there’s spoilers in the tags i didn’t watch and I’m scared to #shay shitposts #anyway deputy director bailey literally looks like the man on the pringles can just bald faced and that’s why i call him what i call him xx #can’t believe tumblr betrayed me and said i can’t appreciate milfs and divide my hate of that annoying ass man #wish he got hit by a bus

[philsmeatylegss]

Tw ed

#I didn’t think Charlie’s ed scene impacted me and I don’t think it did I think I’m on my period and have anxiety but idk I’ve just not been #in a good head today and I just feel really alone and lonely and I’m thinking more about my ED #even though it was written and portrayed beyond fantastic #think that’s why it might have hit a bit too close😭 #I’m usually not bad when I’m on my period idk #I really want to try to make friends this semester #rae’s rambles #tw ed

[trollbreak]

One of these days I’m gonna actually make beastly art in like his actual colors but um. I’m having fun returning to my comfy play scape lately <3

#doing shading studies on skulls for the funsies was such a tangible thing in how I do lineless art now #so like I somewhere got going drawing on index cards bc they’re less space to fill than a full page and thus less intimidating. that became #drawing silhouetted buildings and horizons against a gradient sky- I used roughly cut masking tape to have clean sun/moon and if I wanted #other clean lines. while I was staying w my grandma for a while I went oh shit I could do this digitally and that’s when I started getting #into digital art outside of just tracing photos exclusively. started playing with silly doodles digitally and somewhere along the line #wanted to draw teeth bc why not. struggled and didn’t like the result- tried again a few days in a row. liked how I’d improved but wasn’t #satisfied. so I saved an image of a skull lowered the opacity and originally was gonna trace the teeth but that got boring so like. I used #white to mark out the brightest points on the skull. a light grey for the next brightest. rinse and repeat until the whole thing is covered #and I’d do that for ages. like a year or two I think. I’d done other art too but the skulls and doing the same process with selfies was a #fun way to burn a lot of time and to just. have an ongoing project I could return to. a ways FURTHER down the line I was like ah damn. I’m #real happy with these but since I just grabbed images off whatever search engine idk if it’s ok for me to post these especially since I #wouldn’t even know who to credit anymore. so eventually I just sorta. stopped #but ummmm if u hit me up I can send u some of my skull study whatever’s and u can peek at how I mean they massively affected my process and #how I shade and stuff. that was like my whole learning process with shading outside of like. do line under the chin and the simplest things #that follow that train of thought. those skulls 🤝 buddy. rewired my brain and I’m vibin w it

[bo0zey]

manic mixed depressive episode on my bday is so fun especially when ur going on 2 days no sleep n have a 12hr shift starting at the asscrack of dawn in 6hrs

#idk if i want to sleep like i do but i don’t i just keep walking in circles n staring off blankly #also bursted into tears for no reason bc i missed my mom and remembered how much i hate my fucking birthday #was in the middle of a borderline argument w my family then just zoned out n glanced at the time and tears welled #6:13??? #then i pretended to go to the bathroom to hide my tears from my dad cuz he would’ve yelled at me if i went to my room w/o saying anything #so there i am crying like a pathetic loser on the toilet trying to suppress n swallow down ugly sobs #and there i am crying in my dumpster fire of a room on the floor #i literally go the entire year without crying abt her but every time december hits i always get into this weird funk #and idk why it’s still happening it’s been 7 years #i think my subconscious mind is influencing my body to release the trauma stored inside it bc i was never allowed to grieve her properly #so now in blips of time leading up to my birthday and the next day of her passing i’m 15 turning 16 again #i wish i didn’t have to work tomorrow so i could go visit her at her grave instead like i never go to the cemetery but i really want to #i guess i can go on her actual death day but i don’t want to go with my dad and brothers i just want to be alone #they don’t understand the feeling of losing your mom and best friend on your 16th bday #they don’t understand what it’s like carrying all this guilt and trauma and holding her hand and feeling her hand go limp at my words #i told her it was okay she could let go i would take care of my brothers and protect them from my father and i would be strong for everyone #meanwhile i’m listening to my dad n my aunt throwing all her clothes in trash bags upstairs #i didn’t even get to pick out what clothes i wanted to keep of hers im so angry my dad refused to let any of us miss her #“i miss mom-‘ ‘she’s dead get over it!’ #i got over it alright but then this time of year rolls around and i’m under it all again #i miss her so much i wonder if she’d be proud of me i wonder what it would be like to feel her hand in mine again #ooos im crying again lol #im so pathetic i’m literally 23 in less than 30 minutes why am i behaving like a crybaby child #23:33 when i was typing that btw n 333 is my angel/life path number lol #i wanna saw my arm off but i won’t #i debated staring an iv on myself instead but i’m too drained i just want lay down n cry lol #pathetic loser crybaby girl can’t function can’t shut up making everyone uncomfortable with her sadnes n tears stupid stupid stupid #drown in them and die nobody here loves you anymore nobody cares you’re the problem always the problem #i can’t remember if my mom loved me or not everyone says she did but i forgot what it feels like #i wish i never told her it was okay to let go i lied to her i said i’d be okay but here i am manic depressive