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gammagoop · 10 months
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buttercups aka 60s psychedelic band aka docm torture group
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drawing these 3 is basically an infinite clout glitch but i promise i do it because i love it
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baby-xemnas · 2 months
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Hello! I've already told you, but I love your style, the way you draw Bepo and Law is beautiful and unique :D I have a few questions, but I don't know if you've already answered them, if so, sorry!
How long you've been drawing ? Do you have any advice for new artists (anatomy, practice..) ? What kind of tablet do you use? Do you draw on paper too?
Thank you, have a nice day! ♡
thank you very much, i appreciate it♥️
ive been drawing "seriously" (aka actually studying, copying styles etc) since college so for like 14 years? I don't like this question because it feels like i should be more impressive 😂 i wont pretend that i spent all those years studying, i mostly was fucking around
there are so many resources out there but best at explaining most basic basics is proko on yt (its most accessible) I'm sorry i wont take responsibility and give you a concrete advice because you ask any self taught artist most of them will tell you "idk just do what makes sense and do it A Lot"
which is yeah, not a speedrun strat for getting good and youll inevitably wish you did some things differently and feel like you "wasted time"
im not good at giving advice tbh its always "just do" lol
study on the regular and things will stick, find a resource that you enjoy and that makes sense to you and study and draw what you love in between
my tablet had been a small gifted wacom bamboo for like 12 years, i recently bought a small intuous (and scratched a hole in it thats almost as bad as my bamboo one so im mad af abt that but thats a dif story)
i dont draw on paper as much as i used to when i had a regular job (which ironically was my first OP/ ginsanji era ♥️) but i do studies on paper, they are nothing to write home about, just working on better volume understanding and line control (speaking of volume understanding, you need to understand how to think in 3Dwhen drawing, no i cant give you a concrete link to a source for that idk it myself)
this is a big unfocused ramble i just woke up
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silent-dragon · 4 months
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...so reeeee this all get out of me for this cause silly nonsense but heres Hinata's 15secs of fame i guess..
Idol au stuff for Hinata
Amor & the Leaves
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Vocalist
Real Name - Hinata Lockheart
Stage name - Bearverly Amor
TransMale - 20 - Single
Singing genre - R&B,Soul,Pop
Vocal style(link to song that would be like what he sings)
Studied & trained under the group W.W.W. as a backup singer and was mentored by Lycra personally who wanted him to find the love from his voice to his looks and show it unashamedly.
Known for his old era mixed with modern style paired with the colors of love or most reds/pinks. Big hair don't care he rocks it best he can. Still not as big as the ones who taught him he prefers small clubs or luxury bars where the crowds are lower and chill as thats what he wants his voice to do make people relax.
Band
Esca,Lucas,and Bumble are "the Leaves" they dont sing just play instruments though Bumble may sing sometimes.
Esca Damián Delgado - Drums/Keyboard
Male - ?? - Single
Lucas Gold - Saxophone/Trumpet
Male - 20 - Single
Bumble Frogart - Guitar/Banjo
Male - 20 - Single
The way these three stick together to support Hinata is very wholesome they just want to ensure he always safe and feels well enough to sing. Each wears same outfit that matches some part of Hinata's. Always can guarantee one of them will be carrying him after a set to get food,water,some rest,or just for comfort.
The group as a whole are just 4 great friends who want to bring some chill soul vibes to people who need it. Each have a issue with actually finding love from another they just so friendly they tend to not notice people seriously flirting with them. Direct actions would be needed.
Also enjoy this quick awful doodle of Hinata i cant draw him as i wanted but did my best idk be like his 1st album cover...
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boxwinebaddie · 5 months
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your au stans feel like the type to ask questions like "would you love me if i was a worm" or "do you think we're best friends/dating in every universe?" only to get answers like "why would you be a worm" or "the multiverse theory means theres infinite possibilities 🤓☝" from kyle. slash very positive.
no stop!!!! too real like 100%
like the easiest way i can explain the ncu style dynamics are like kyle trying to study for calculus, trying to clean his room, finish his homework, read his book, do his chores, be PRODUCTIVE
and its just stan in his room lying upside down on his bed or like poking him in the cheek sixteen thousand times blowing air at his glasses and fogging them up trying to get his attention like kylekylekylekylekYLE and hes like wHAT STAN WHAT????
and stans like...do u think the stars have feelings shdlksahdsakl
its so unserious hes so annoyinG!!! kyle never gets any work done when stans around bc hes literally so distracting one bc hes beautiful and two because his golden retriever adhd boy brain go brr 25/8
will call kyle at 3am when drunk like i lub you :* also i stepped on sparkys tail do u think he knows im sorry how do u know:( sakhdsa
ok hang on im doing the worm one also the boys are always dating when i do this so here we go pepstyle i guess lmaooo
ok 100% stan is like ok babe!!!! would u love me if i was a worm? :D
kyle is like dude what are u talking abt??
and stans like worms!!! me and u!!! if i was a worm would u love me!!
kyle *smart vc* ....ur a person .....ur not a worm ?
stan but if i wAS a WoRM would u love me???
kyle...i mean wouldnt that be complicated since we arent the same species? like how would we talk?
stan but were Soul Mates!!! we could make a system!!! a little language like we do with the signing!!! a Worm language!!! <33 :')
and kyle is like...stan that would be a highly irregular and irrational relationship to pursue & creating a language that we could both--
stan * lowkey getting mad* ....ok where would u put me.... :/
kyle huh???
stan ....if i were a worm, where would u put me kyle....answer :////
kyle *logical* idk in the dirt???????
stAN GASPING LIKE!!! YOU'D PUT ME OUTSIDE?????!!!! >:OOO
kyle like wORMS LIKE OUTSIDE ID SET YOU BY SOME DIRT AND STUFF NOT ON THE PAVEMENT??? WHY ARE U YELLING??!?!
stan like SO YOUD JUST GIVE ME AWAY LIKE THAT!!!! >:000 JUST BECAUSE IM A WORM!!!! YOUD GIVE UP ON ME!!!! sET ME FREE?!?
kyle stan????? you're literally a WORM!!! i dont know what you expect me to do!!! Keep You??? *sweats in autism*
stan obviousLY!!!! i mean!!!!!! iTS STILL ME!!!! kyle!!!!!! IM the worm!!!! i just got turned inTo a worm
kyle ok but stan why?? are you a WORM in the first place??? how did that even happen....like....
stan *voice cracking* i dont know sCIENCE!!! i made a bad deal w a WITCH!!! she got really mad and is teaching me a lesson ANYWAYS!!!
stan wHAT if you set me free in your yard and a big BIRD gets me and i get eaten so i DIE!!! but--but then!!! Science comes up w a cURE
kyle ...or the witch lady forgives you right ;) *dying laughing*
stan *actually crying* kYLE THIS IS SERIOUS I DIED!!!!! and then they find a way to reverse the worm thing!!!! BUT ITS TOO LATE BECAUSE I dIED BECAUSE YOU SET ME OUTSIDE AND NOW WE CANT BE SOULMATES FOREVER!!!! :(((((( ;-;;;;; AND ID DIE ALONE!!!!!! AND COLD AS A WOR--
kyle ....oh my god babe...babe why are you crying :( oh my god its okay!! you're not a worm!! and thats very good news!! i like u as you <3
stan bUT NOT AS A WORM YOU WOULDNT LOVE ME AS A WORm
kyle asjlsjda for FUCKS!!!! ok stan!!! if I was a worm??? IF. I. WAS. A. WORM. would you still love me?!
stan *no hesitation* ABSOLUTELY!!!!! i would love you FOREVER even if you were a worm!!!! ;-; i would save you from the sidewalk when its raining and make you a nice worm terrarium with lots of dirt! i already eat lots of fruits and vegetables so you'd have lots of compost to eat!!!! i would sing to you every single morning and talk to you even if you couldnt talk back. id tell you to wiggle twice for yes and once for no!!! if worms could wear clothes id learn how to make you a sweater!!! id make you a green hat out of leaf incase you miss your ushanka or you get cold!!! id keep you updated on who kenny is sleeping with and put t&p on for you! id blow you so many kisses! i would hold you and tell you i love you every day! id take you on dates with me even if people think it looks weird I ! DONT! CARE! because youre my super best worm bf and the loml! and even if they never change you back id just be happy to spend my life with you and--"
kyle.......oh...my god that was so cute....youre soooo fucking Cute...dude that was like the sweetest thing ive ever heard, i...ok get over here...put your lips on my lips worm boy....nonnegotiable :*
stan okay YES i mean nO!!!!
*stan frustrated annoyed sad noise*
stan KYLE WOULD YOU REALLY NOT LOVE ME IF I WAS A WORM
;-; </3
*stan abt to cry again oh my god hes so baby*
kyle *sighs and holds both stans baby hands and squeeze smh*
in....this hypothetical vaguely dystopian scifi universe slash high fantasy depending on whether or not a witch or unexplained science phenomenon turns you into a worm...even though i would be very confused and not sure how to communicate with you...i would not....i would NOT put you outside...i'd make you a worm appropriate enclosure, check the climate, make sure your diet is balanced and
stan WOULDYOUSTILLREADTOMEIFIWAS
kyle oH my GOD! i wasnt DONE! yes i would still read to you, annoying boy, Relax!!! speaking of, it would be very peaceful in my home without you distracting me and making a mess and poking me with your mechanical pencil, i would get a lot done but i would miss you annoying me very much because i love you. so i would do a lot of research, try to figure out how to de-wormify you, work with the cdc, i don't know, go to the white house if i have to. or trade my life for yours if that frees you from the witches curse but you better do all that shit you SAID youd do stan!!!! if you dump me outside, istg!!!
kyle but...uhh...if that didnt work and you were a worm forever. i would still love you very very much...please do not ask me anymore weird questions my face is....Warm and i do not like it >.>
*robot kyle* *cue stan going MWAHMWAMHWAMWAHMWAH <3* *and kyle flinching away like a feral cat sdkhsd*
anyways...thats canon to me
-uncle nina, worm uncle
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royal-they · 4 months
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hi so i kinda happened to fall in love with your art.....and i wanted to ask a few things!!! (if its ok!)
uhmm first of all how long did it take you to get that art style and perfection it etc etc?
also do you have any tips for anatomy? not big complex full body anatomy, just like...idrk honestly, some tips related to anatomy or hands or just the body that helped/help you?
and uh yeah if you just have any general tips on whatever to improve my art/art style i'll take litterally anything 😭
again, i love your art, i love what you make! keep doing what you do, you're awesome!!!! sending love and support <3
ah!! tysm <333!! thats so cool to hear!!!!!!!!!/gen
ive been drawing forever honestly. i've always been really into it. im fifteen so thatd be like 12 years. and obviously i wasnt always studying it super seriously or anything. idk. my art isnt perfect by any means. i just dont really post the shitty pieces lmao. i struggle with sm stuff and will be continuing to study probably till the day i cant hold a pencil anymore lol. (i draw too much, my hand hurts ;w;) its a never ending process and honestly thats why i love it sm.
as for anatomy i think the main thing to keep in mind is that anatomy and just drawing people in general is really hard. i heard this in this old video about how pixar used to do 3d animation is that the reason they didnt do animations of humans for so long is because we ourselves have very specefic ideas of what a human looks like. i think this also applies to art. which is a really long way of saying, trust the process.
i use photos personally! you can find a lot on pinterest but there are a couple things id keep in mind when it comes to photos people edit their bodies sometimes so their proportions so be careful, it will defeat the purpose of the study if the bodies inaccurate.
idk here are some that might be good for starting off. dancers and people like that are super helpful. remember to not to focus too much on the lines but more copying down the shapes,
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for hands i would just look at your own hands and try to capture them quickly. i say quickly mainly bc i shake a lot lmao, maybe youre different. or you could just be smart and take a picture of your hand but im very lazy and dont like getting up to grab my phone.
for art style id just save stuff that inspire you. could be animations, comics, album covers, cool photos, just stuff that gives you like vibes. literally ANYTHING.
like, omg this is making me think of a cool idea rn!! save it! even if you cant execute it now you can always execute it in the future when your skills are more developed :)
style studies are also helpful! try copying art you like, seeing different peoples techniques however some things to keep in mind with this are
you might accidently copy down an artists mistakes or bad habits without realizing it so try to have some variety in your artists
dont post the art. some people are okay with tracing but the vast majority of artists dont like it and it makes them uncomfortable. so id just like keep it in your sketchbook or whatever :) better safe than sorry.
anyway ah this is so longgggg! sry im so bad at being concise lol. theres probably a lot of youtube videos that could help you with this stuff if you want more explanation. the channel ive been watching a lot in since this summer is sketches of shay. she makes a variety of stuff but her art studies and resources are also very helpful :)
Sketches of Shay - YouTube
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dromaeo-sauridae · 11 months
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hey roach, i've been fiddling w/ one of my specbio species and, if its cool w/ you, i need your opinion on smth
for one of my species, the one thats similar to a gorgonopsid, i'm debating on whether or not to keep the enlarged canines OR potentially go with split jaws/mandibles as lower jaw instead (maybe adjusting the tongue in turn but idk-)
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(closest animal that has the 'jaw style' i might be thinking of is goblin shark, but i dont think thats quite it disofsdf)
OOOOO fuck yes, with something like this id consider what the animal would be using this hardware for. with long saber teeth the animal would be using those to quickly stab and kill prey, going for the throat and punturing vital organs. this is something you see in cats, who have long and thin fangs (i believe either the clouded leopard or the snow leopard has the longest fangs relative to its size). whereas something like a split jaw, which you dont really see in mammals but you do see in things like snakes, would be used to grab onto very large areas but might not be able to hold on as tightly. (also, the goblin shark type slingshot jaws are seen VERY often in fish, as well as doing things like sucking up prey, cuz fish can only really use their mouths to grab onto things and having jaws you can shoot out of your face and snatch prey out of the air is VERY beneficial in something as thick as water. also dragonfly nymphs have FUCKING CRAZY JAWS. GO LOOK THEM UP)
SO kind of a word vomit, but studying what type of animals have that kind of jaw and what they use it for is the most helpful thing you can do. and also, saber teeth are fairly easy to evolve. its not something crazy and highly specific like making wings out of hands. and a split jaw would probably be something inherited from a distant ancestor, which begs the question of why did the ancestor have a split jaw?
i like both options and i think if you got weird enough with it, you could even manage to mash em together and have some crazy ass fold out fang tri jaw nonsense that has no business even existing. but its your playground, go crazy, go stupid aaaaa. im actually also in the process of making the mouths of some of my animals weird and fucked up funny enough (not the hexapods, but marine animals :)). for weird unique jaw structures id highly recommend researching arthropods, especially for mouths with multiple different parts.
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heyeyyyyyy scarletttt!!
O- Name four bands/solo artists you wish would stop playing music
addison rae. i don't know her music status as of rn but JESUS FUCK. PICK A FIELD AND GET GOOD AT IT. DON'T BE A TIK TOK GIRL, BE IN ONE HALF ASSED MOVIE, MAKE ONE SHIT SONG, AND THEN LEAVE. COMMIT!!! also obsessed made me want to tear my eyes out /neg <3
kanye west. i'm sorry i just. this one feels like it should be self explanatory, and i kinda feel about him the same way as i feel about jkr. like, you've told us about your political beliefs, good job, thats one reason to hate you, but i never liked your content anyway, bubyyeyeyeye.
doja cat. i actually haven't listened to any of her music, but i think she should stop releasing 'music' and her next album should just be cat sounds like she did all night at the met. why? because it would be really, really, really funny.
harry styles. im sorry i cant. i just. i hate this man so much. i dont know what it fucking is. but i cant. stand. him.
Q- Name one band/solo artist that you think is VERY underrated
i feel like the ones i think are underrated are kind of mainstream or talked about a lot, like verified artists on spotify or whatnot, so i don't think any of my favs can count as underrated.
buuut im going to say girl in red (even though they're talked about all the time) i think girl in red is kind of written of as like 'hahah lezzbiennss,' and yeah there's a lot of wlw kind of themed (??) songs, but there's also some that are really introspective and stuff (like serotonin)
so not underrated, but kind of... pideonholed wrong? maybe? like how mcr is like 'haha emos' but anyone that's into mcr will tell you. no. not hahah emos haha black parade.
R- Name one band/solo artist that you think is VERY overrated
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okay this one's going to put me in hot water in the byler tag especially buuuut
taylor swift.
i just... don't see the appeal? like she has a handful of really really really good songs, idk, seven, invisible string, cruel summer maybe, and i do think midnights is a good album. but like. it's good. her music has never made me like feel. deeply feel. i don't see why she had such a cultural impact, like her music is so middle tier to me.
ps. i saw a girl in my legal studies class playing taylor swift 2048 the other day sooo that is what i mean by overrated. i think her music is playable, but i like her in the way that i'll put one song on one playlist and call it a day.
pps. no hate at all to people who love taylor swift, she's their favourite ever, etc etc. this is not a criticism of people liking 'basic' things or whatever, whenever i see people specifically hating on taylor swift fans i get so fed up, just let people like what they fucking like. i personally just don't get what's so special about her music. there's a reason i put her in here and not in 'please stop making music'
S- Favorite music “fest” (Warped, Mayhem, Bamboozle, Lolapalooza, etc)
uh. idk. i've never been to one? i feel like i can't really say the difference or anything. sorry, thats such a bs answer but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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actualbird · 2 years
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good day po fave online kuya kong si kuya zak 🫶🏽🫶🏽
feel free to delete this from ur inbox if u don wanna answer i genyuweenly won't mind <33 pero how did u decide on a senior high school?? a strand?? A COLLEGE???? a career too doot doot doot
idk school and the future has been stressing me out :pain: also any debate tips cause in my head ur a very good speaker...... my first debate is graded so it's taking a toll on my grp 😓😓😓😓 AND labag sa kalooban namen ung topic AHAHHAHAHHA so namamlastik lang kami
thank u sm ule kuya kahit na idelete mo to, typing it out made me calmer ng onti seryoso ueuueue
>hopefully friendly neighborhood (marikenyo) grade 10 student
ps; ur luke cos is so cos goals the luke stan in me is screaming crying cause im curious if im taller than u /j im only 5'2" lawl UR WIG IS SO NICE TOO LIKE GENUINELY !!!! the styling is mwa chefs kiss
hi hi anon!! omg first off can i just say i got a nice boost of happy chemical from being called kuya zak like,,,,oh das me :'D
and it's alright, i dont mind this at all!! i really understand how the future can be stressful huhu, especially when ur in high school, so helping out in any way wld be my pleasure
i'll go thru this one by one (and under a readmore) cuz it seems uve been following here for a while so siguro by this point, siguro alam mo na na madaldal ako esp sa mga ask responses JHVKAJHSFVJKAHS
how did i decide a senior high school strand/college degree/career?:
unfortunately, i cannot help on on the High School Strand kasi 'di ko naabutan yung strand system in high school VSJHFVKSJDHGSD. my batch graduated right when they started doing strands, so i never got to experience it, huhu, nor do i understand the process (even after my younger sibling has tried many times to explain it to me, minsan bobo ako jVKJSHF)
but maybe my next stuffs can help out :D
in choosing a college course i.....really kinda just picked what i wanted to do. and this was a huge privilege i'll always be grateful to my family for, whatever i wanted to study, they'd support me. the courses i applied for in diff schools were the following, in order of first to last choice: Creative Writing, English/Comparative Literature, and BA Psychology (tho disclaimer: i only put this last one on application forms cuz it was needed, i didnt actually want to study that very much HAHA, it was writing or lit for me all the way)
on why i wanted those courses is....idk it's another thing that i think is also a privilege. ive always known that ive wanted to write, to study writing, and to pursue it later on. ive been writing and reading ever since i was a kid and i was pretty deadset on it from an early age.
i know that a lot of people dont have a similar experience tho sometimes, but i guess my advice for how to pick a college course is: what can you see yourself enjoying learning more and more and more about?
ofc, this gets a bit more complicated if ur family is strict and will only allow u to take certain degrees huhu. but if uve got the freedom to choose, i'd say dont just think about what you like, but what you'd like to learn about.
cuz college is work. it's a LOT of work. and while liking something can help, that Like can fall flat when youve gotta be doing all the requirements. it helps if, whatever u choose, it's something uve got a craving for knowledge for.
and honestly, if you dont know what to get or if you choose something and realize it isnt for you, thats okay too! you can shift courses in college! or if you want to learn more, you can take a minor degree! sometimes your first choice wont work, and thats okay. you can choose again and see what fits.
how i chose my career was a bit different from this cuz....the ph job market is in shambles JHVASFVASKJFHASVKFJAH
i currently work as a copywriter and despite the stresses, i really enjoy my job! but this wasnt my first job (my first job fucking sucked so bad that i resigned within a month) and i didnt land it straight out of college (i was out of college for over a year before landing my current gig). i got lucky with my current job, bc when it comes to careers, it's a lot harder to have a choice.
of course, all the jobs i was looking into were writing related: content writer, SEO writer, scriptwriter, etc etc. but theres a lot of companies out there that treat writers like absolute shit, a lot of companies who wont get back to you after an interview, a lot of companies who wont take you. i didnt choose my career so much as get lucky in the job market gacha (lol), but my advice here is that like...search within the industries you think you'd, at best, enjoy working in or, at minimum, can endure being in
which is a very depressing statement, i know.....life is tough, but there are good jobs out there with ppl who wont treat u like crud. if i got lucky, i can only hope more ppl can get this kind of experience too
and like i said in the college bit, if u find urself in a job u dont vibe with and u have the privilege/stability to be able to quit it:.....just quit it
a lot of these life choices are made to be really Big by schools and teachers and everybody really, but you dont have to get it right the first time. you can start over, it's alright, youve got your whole life ahead of you. if your life allows u the privilege and freedom to choose and discover new things, dont hold yourself back
i hope this could help somehow. i realize that a lot of this is medj philosophical jHVJHSFKJSD but back when i was in college, i wish somebody told me that it's not the end of the world if i didnt get it right the first time. so thats what i'll tell you, cuz it's true :'D
and as for debate tips HAHA, okay heres where i can give some more concrete advice because i LOVE DEBATING. I LOVE PUBLIC SPEAKING AND PRESENTING OMG OMG. it's a dream come true for me, people HAVE to listen to what ive got to say, it's a huge power trip JVSKJHFVAJS
ANYWAY, DEBATE TIPS:
i am so sorry that the topic that got assign to u and ur grp isnt something u like huhu. but my overall tip for debate (and any public speaking tbh) is. fake it
like, legit, just fake it. the delivery portion of debate, to me, is basically theatre and acting HVKJHVFKJAHFAS
imagine the most confident speaker uve ever seen urself, maybe somebody so confident na nainis ka sa kaniya, and do exactly that:
get that good posture, make motions with your hands because this helps get people's attention. if eye contact makes u nervous (it makes me so nervous huhu) u can blur/unfocus ur eyes, U Do Not See It
maintain a good rhythm with your speaking too. speak with moderate loudness and emphases for the less important, and then idiin mo in the bits na gusto mo parang mic drop moment ahfjshfa (which is usually saved best for the latter portion of an argument, but good to pepper it in as well thru the whole thing with ur most important pieces of info)
tho ofc thats all only on the public speaking bit. if im remembering correctly, high school debate does also rely heavily on the research/outline stuffs u have to do prior to the debate, and for that, i have less advice huhu. im not all that great of a researcher, but as long as uve got ur reputable sources all arranged well, oks na yan!
i feel like at this point i shld tell u that in high school, medj patapon ako na estudyante, basta pumasa ako, ok na yan sakin JHVJSHFVKDSJHFKS
that being said, pls take all my advice w a grain of salt, ha! because what works for me might not work for you. everybodys got different methods of speaking, researching, choosing degrees and careers. but even if what i said doesnt match what wld work for u, i hope ur main takeaway na lang is that u can do whatever u want in whichever way works best for you
anyway, thats all ive got to say for now! i hope smthng here could be of use and that you have a great week, anon :'D
(P.S. WAAHH, THANK U FOR UR KIND WORDS ON MY LUKE COSPLAY :DDD!! i got the wig secondhand for a steal price HAHA and......yes, you are taller than me, im 5'1" JHVJSHDFVKSDJHFVDSKJHFDSKJJKHVKJH)
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undeadhorse · 1 year
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next time i go to sleep i hope i wake up as a tiny sapient ungulate.
i remember seeing some of the TSU art six months ago and being like, vaguely creeped out by the faces. but since then ive fallen down a personal rabbithole of studying horse anatomy and working hard on my art, and also tangling my gender identity up with my deep seated loving fixation on mlpfim. now all i can see is like, beautiful little horses that are almost perfectly what i have been trying to construct in my head as like, what a my little pony would look like irl. bc if you know anything about the show you know that just having them be irl ponies wouldnt work. these horses can play instruments, you cant do that with normal hooves.
ugh. im not sure what to do. the like, feeling inside of wanting to be a my little pony is like, almost too much sometimes. its like the same feeling as being closeted and trans again. but i cant actually like, transmogrify into a mlp or a tsu. i need to like, chill. before this turns into some kind of body dysmorphia or something. idk maybe thats not gonna happen. i just worry. i dont want to start looking in the mirror at the body i have and hating it like i did when i was a teenager. bc i cant turn into a horse. as much as i want to, as much as i can like, style myself subtly to be horsier. i cant be a horse. and i dont want to set myself up for pain by leaning too hard on this to cope. and giving myself body dysmorphia or something similar. its okay that im human.
its so complicated to be told my whole life im not welcome in any group. and then as an adult lose a lot of my connection to the trans and queer communities thru trauma and like, accidental feedback from my peers telling me again that im not welcome bc im disabled and have trauma. or bc im not comfortable with words like f****y. i have been told over and over again that im not welcome by so much of society that im like. i dont feel like im human. i feel like im a monster. not in a horrible i hate myself way. just like. if humans keep telling me im not welcome then maybe ill embrace it and be a monster, and thats something thats been bubbling in me for years and years.
but now this mlp thing. ive rediscovered mlp. it has filled a hole in me. it has buoyed me and become my muse and allowed me to start the process of reclaiming my life and building things for myself. its this font of great things for me. but im worried im leaning too much on it to cope with the new stresses in my life.
im hurting and overwhelmed and that is turning into an intense yearning to be a my little pony in equestria. so bad some days it actually hurts. which makes me think maybe the coping mechanism is breaking down and i need to re-evaluate things.
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talk to me about toh what are your thoughts on everything
HI!!!!! Phantom is literally going to go kerblooey if there is any more studying done tonight so I'm gonna talk about toh for a lil bit.
UHHHHH I don't really have many thoughts nor are they coherent but I will do what I do best and talk. Under the cut bc its probably gonna be spoilers
Ok so this has turned into me ranting about world building and character design more than the actual plot of the story itself. Sorry I'm a writer.
anyhoo my first order of business is one of my favorite favorite things about the animation in the owl house is the fact that there is a lot of variety in the way the characters blush. Like this was such an innocuous thing to notice that I somehow did. And I realize I don't think I've EVER seen that in another animated show.
like Hunter blushes to his ears (which was the main reason I noticed that bc I realized that no other character's ears get all red like his does)
Amity blushes with her entire face and Luz blushes just the bridge of her nose and cheeks. Like that's such a small detail but I am so obsessed with it because it's so cool and it's something I've never seen before.
ironically enough, I think that the first thing that dissuaded me from watching the Owl house before I watched it was that I wasn't a big of a fan of the surface level animation style but I do really really like the animation now that I've watched it, and the designs for creatures are so so so SO cool like I kjhkb,mxbn UGH.
Belos' monster design thingy idk that's just so cool just the way he looks and how he's animated is so intimidating and I think it's crazy cool. And I think it's also really creative which is a thing that I love a lot about this type of casual slightly modern fantasy is just the way that things are translated from modern real life into the world which is something that can often be done really awkwardly.
The ravens and the scrolls things are really cool and I like that, I also like the added thing of social media which isn't usually something I like in shows and stuff but I thought that was really neat.
SORRY THE THOUGHT TRAIN SWERVED THE WHOLE WORLD BUILDING THAT THEY'RE LIVING ON THE DEAD BODY OF A TITAN IS SO COOL I LOVE THAT. In the world of one of my new stories that I've just started working on, it's sort of similar to that in the way that people on the surface live off of the bodies of dead gods like living inside them and feasting on the flesh and stuff like using the dead gods all the way through (in a way that people from the floating islands would think is sacrilegious). I didn't really get that from the owl house because I just noticed that connection right now but GOD THATS SO COOL. I hhh *fans face*
The way magic works is also super cool and like honestly, I think the coven system is also really cool, not the whole having to only chose one magic track part of it but the different sections of magic that you can do. Like all the different types is really cool to me and I don't really consume much fantasy media of this type with heavy reliance on magic systems but this is one of my favorite magic systems.
I think the bard magic is really cool and GOD THE GLYPHS THATS SO COOL THE WAY THAT WORKS. Like it's such a wonderful mix of just hjkljhflkjhjbnvclkjhlskufg. I think it's very cleaver the way that they did that, especially with the glyphs and stuff being hidden around in nature. That's something that's very very cool and also very smart. Like in my mind, in the way my mind works that makes incredible sense. Like enough sense that you could tell me that in real life and I'd be like (yeah sure). It's like molecule shapes and stuff idfk.
Also the harpy Eda (is that what they called it I remember them calling it that) in season 2 was GOD so cool, just the way she looked in that form was so awesomely designed. Also just the whole Owl Lady thing, listen I am a sucker for wings and bird like characters (I would have more feathered winged OCs if feathered wings weren't a pain in my behind to draw). Eda is feathery and sharp with claws and teeth and by god is she so incredibly cool.
Ok I'm going back to hunter because I've been thinking about him all day, I think the fact that he has a tooth gap is really neat, I don't recall seeing that often in characters and I think it's really neat. He looks very disheveled all the time, especially in the later episodes of the season where he is literally one inconvenience away from a panic attack at every moment. But he really just LOOKS like a mussed up kid.
Also I believe that witch ears, they are pointy, they can flick and move and you can pry those headcanons out of my cold dead hands for all I care. I think they deserve to move like that. (I assume you know how I write Gillion, I love those kind of small motions like ears flicking and stuff like that)
also x2 I really like King's design as well, the whole skull for head thing is so cool to me and it's something that I really really like in design. I've had characters like that and I've had characters that wear skull masks and I don't think I will ever tire of characters like that. Even the titan hunters who even though it was just a costume I thought their outfits looked really cool and also really awesome how all the skulls and stuff were different and unique. It's just so charming to me and so cute how King looks with his skull and his horns, it's just one of those character design things that I really really love.
Ok I'm done for now I need to stop before this goes on for like way longer than it needs to. I don't think I have said a word about any of the plot or lore that happened. I have been rambling about world building and character design for a good half an hour that it's taken me to type out this response. Oops.
Does any of this even contain spoilers? I do not know and I will not be reading over anything that I just typed, it's going out into the world of my tumblr blog.
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delcakoo · 1 year
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lovey emss,💙 i'm back I'm sorry I haven't updated you in a while. I forgot the last time I updated you, did I ask how you are feeling now?😭 (like if ur cold is gone I hope it is) anyway I'm not updated cause I'm so busy with school its draining. but on the bright side, on the end of this week we might go to an amusement park on thurs. idk whether to get my hopes up cause it doesn't happen or it doesn't really go as according to plan and it ends up disappointing me
but uh anyway um i have an update abt my hair getting cut I just couldn't tell you because I've been so busy these past few weeks😭 I got my haircut like at the start of nov and yeah I like it the bangs are a bit too thicc tho😔😍 so it's always tied up cause it gets annoying cause it gets on my eyes. but other than that I like it
oh and guess what. i've been getting motivation a lot because of a special someone ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) so yeah I feel much more alive studying cause they're there. we had A LOT of interactions as well. holding hands (🤭), hugging, were matching bracelets, and guess what they're Sunoo biased DJWBDJWKJDBKS. so we have matching pcs on the back of our id if that make sense. we went to go buy ice cream as well today hsdshd. I plan to borrow their hoodie tmrw 😙 I feel real guilty tho cause my unloyal ass said I'll only like Jungwon and nobody else and bs like "no one can fit my standards, unless you are Jungwon" like I'm so untruthful to myself. I feel guilty cause I've been loyal to Jungwon for a while (except that one time I told you abt my other crush if u still remember.. the one I moved on from) but I'm happy really happy with her. we don't really do anything besides (the skinship) and I'm contented with that. I want it to stay that way. I'm sorry Jungwon😔 (watch me go back to Jungwon after I get my heartbroken for the 239239229th time)
how are you? how's school? I hope you are well mentally and physically. i'm not updated so idk if your cold is gone now😭😭 what subjects do u find hard? for me its math, i need more focus on it. i'm bad at it😭 can you recommend a song you like for me to listen to? I'm wondering what type of songs you are into :DDD
(sorry for the long paragraph😭 forgive me this is the only time i've been appreciated that way)
-m💙
MOONIE DEAR HII! ive been busy w school too so dwdw i understand <3
YEP THATS THE LIFE WIRH BANGS SHJDHDN IT GETS SUPER ANNOYINF 😭 im glad u like it tho :000 it’s fun to style right?? (when it cooperates 🧍🧍)
OH MY GODDDD SHE SOUNDS AMAZING AISHJSNS AND SHES SUNOO BIASED ????? absolutely immediate yes THATS SO CUTE SHE LOVES ENHA TOO WTFFFF 😭 U GUYS NEEDS GET ALBUMS TOGETHER EJHDDKNEJEM IM JESLOUS RN OMG???? and its ojay if jungwon found out theyre sunoo biased he would definitely approve as well LMAO <33
ive been good ! YES I AM BETTER FROM MY COLD NOW MSHSJSN lifes been pretty bland for now but IM SO DAMN EXCITED FOR CHRISTMAS N DECEMBER SJHDJDBAH I HOPE IT SNOWS SOON <333 and omg same, math AND SCIENCE BRUH UGH ITS SO HARD 😭😭 i reccomend watching vids on whatever u find hard, it can be rkly helpful sometimes :0
SONG RECCS AJHSSNSJSK OF CORUSE <333 i will listen to literallt anything but country and rock tbh,, I RECOMMEND EMAILS I CANT SEND BY SABRINA CARPENTER AND LIFE IS STILL GOING ON BY NCT DREAM :D LMK IF U ENJOY TSJHSJK
and aw :( dw ab it! im glad i can make u feel appreciated love 🥹🥹🥹 MWAH MWAHHH
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mewwon · 2 years
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i wish i could better articulate my own personal obsession and connection to rothko but its insaaane. i tried to replicate his style and started painting with no training just so I could make pieces like his and i would study his colors and forms and obsess over them and I did that for years during some of the most mental illness parts of my life whilst dealing with hard drug abuse and homelessness and during some of the most formative times of my life and through all of it I had this connection with rothko and a lot of mid 20th century abstract expressionists and mysticists that helped me understand what I was going through in deeply human ways .. but I’m relapsing tonight so thats why im getting sentimental I literally might’ve made this exact post word for word last relapse but i digress.. i got a free beer at work and stopped to get a nice bottle of sav blanc (15$ [from new zealand of course]) i only got it bcuz my bf is doing work at a farm for a couple of days but Im trying to get better at being sober when im alone bcuz hes such a crutch for my sobriety omg idk.. my relapses are getting less extreme which I think is a good sign I’ve worn past that point where drinking any alcohol at all with spiral me into self hate and binge drinking for a week or whatever but i still that know complete abstinence is the only way forward and im working on that ..
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hshouse · 2 years
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Hi. Im wondering if you mind sharing some study tips? Or routines? I have SO MUCH travel with study. And I really wanna learn and have a degree but sometimes it's just so difficult to pay attention or like set goals. I wanna know how, for example, can I get 100 pages read by idk 3hs? But i just feel so lost now. So unproductive and stupid 😞
Hi bby,
HEYY ABSOLUTELY NO CALLING YOURSELF STUPID ON MY WATCH. Absolutely fucking not. Struggling is not being stupid. Not knowing is not being stupid. Let’s change that internal dialogue. “I struggle with studying” is okay. “I feel embarrassed that I can’t do this” is okay. Giving yourself a negative ultimatum about who you are is not.
Okay, now to the tips!!!
So, I wouldn’t go about pages/hour. There are a million factors that influence how fast you can do a reading. Some that are related to the reading (is it dense? Do you have to take notes?) and some to who you are (I read much faster than my mom but she is just as smart). So, I’d go by pages and take whatever time you need to take.
I have a little to do list for every day I study. Thats all I will do. I try to make it balanced but if it takes me less time then great! Go home earlier. If it takes me more then thats the deal. I usually alternate classes every 2 cycles (see below) so I am not bored. This helps you not slack off too.
For paying attention, you gotta figure out your attention span window. Here is how I did it. I started with 1h alarms. Then I’d take note of when I had the urge to go on my phone. I noticed that my attention window without breaks is around 45 mins. So thats the cycle I study in. 45 min, w 15 min breaks. It’s a deal I make with myself: it’s a long break because the other 45 mins are non stop work. You can start with 30 mins alarms if you think you have a shorter span.
For setting goals, I think thats a really personal style think that I am not much help. My entire brain is wired like a video game. Plan task. Do task. Get reward. Reset. Thats just my default so I don’t really get the struggle w creating goals. Creating goals is all I do lmao. But I think one thing to remember is that nothing that is cool in life happens without some planning. Like Harry talking to me (which was luck) only happened because I planned months in advance to get a job to stay in the city during the summer but one that I could travel around, picked exactly what concert I was going to buy the expensive ticket, figured how early I would get there, what I would wear, and what my poster would say. I only have the job I have because 5.5 years (!!!) before my full time starting date I started a long term plan to make that happen. Thats just how my life has always been. If I want something to happen, I start very early. Then people call me lucky (which I am too) without really looking behind the curtain at the years of effort something took.
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boxwinebaddie · 6 months
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"but stan has drunkenly texted kyle abt his ass so many times that i literally do not know how they did not enter into some sort of fwb situation" nINNNNNNNNNNNNNAAAA!!!!
LISTEN!!!! LISTEN!!!! I KNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW
its so unserious like they are SO FRUITY!!!! like just as super best friends the amount of arm linking and hand holding and touching they do is like...DENIAL IS A RIVER IN EGYPT! and kyle is extrmeely touch repulsed so the fact that he lets stan be that close to him and actively enjoys it is....i was gonna call it nice...but lets call it what is is...tru LOVE baby!
i swear to god if i had no idea stan and kyle were just best friends and i saw them walking on the side walk linking pinkies, kyle fussing with stans clothes, stan playing with kyles hair, giglging and whispering shit in eachothers ear, wearing eachothers clothes i would be like...
wow...look at those lil gay boys go...they must really b in love
FRUIT SALAD YUMMY YUMMY!
like okay so i am writing this flashback for peppermint 12...also yes i know ive been retty radio silent on all my socials, my asks are piling up and my comms arent done but im in nanowrimo girl hell trying to put out two updates...also im on vacation and dealing with family stuff so im sorry if im lacking
BUT ANYWAYS...the flashback is cute here is a dialogue snippet
( idk if u guys like when i post unfinished spoiler alert dialogue or excerpts im working on...lmk if i do its my favorite thing )
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LIKE???? HELLO???? theyre so dorky its literally painful for me like after i get my updates out ( maybe before idk ) im working on an ask with my favorite style hcs in it...AND LIKE ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS IS THAT THEY HAVE ALL THESE SECRET CODES AND INSIDE JOKES AND LANGUAGES AND SHIT NO ONE ELSE UNDERSTANDS!!! like the bad joke jar, hope you heal, stan calling kyle kp, doing that skin signing thing....gay......GAY!
but what i was getting at by bringing that up was that in the pep flashback, i was worried they were being too touchy bc i was so used to writing them Dating or in rm, but like...they really just...are that touchy and codependent even as best friends....unreal
like doing that hc meme i was eating an oreo and i was like....huh...u know i wonder how style feels abt oreos. which! style is pro-oreo!
oreos are actually VEGAN so thats!!!! very exciting for stan. headstannon is that stan believes food is the best chaser....insane. jail. like he just does a shot of vodka and eats an oreo...kyle is repulsed. also stan totally just pops oreos in his mouth and shit but kyle....everyone say hi to kyles high functioning autism...only likes the middle part of the oreo and does not like the mess of the cookie so...
sigh...guess what they do when they hang out
stan literally twists the cookie part off the top of the oreo and carefully scoops the middle part of the oreo into kyles mouth and...feeds it to him....and then eats the cookie part....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK LIKE I NEED STANLEY MARSH STUDIED UNDER A MICROSCOPE BC HOW IS IT AT ALL PLATONIC TO LOVE UR FRIEND SO MUCH THAT U GIVE UP THE BEST PART OF THE OREO AND THEN LITERALLY FEED IT TO HIM LIKE HES LITERALLY ROYALTY???? LIKE STOP IT???
i just know kenny and cartman were like pack it UP gay boys!!!!!
ok...i had a point somewhere.
my point was that they were so flirty that im surprised they didnt end up in a fwb situation...
and honestly...chapter two of pep...haunts me everyday.
BECAUSE hooooo my god they were like oh no just a platonic tongue kiss with my friend...AT FIRST!!!! but like stan pUSHED HIM DOWN???? WHAT???? THE FUCK???? kyle was making the MMM sound??? like they just learned how to kiss with tongue but i swear to god if they did not get interrupted they were abt to learn A LOT ABT EACH OTHER WHEEW
like god bless wendy she is my girl but i swear if she fought the stanley marsh comphet a little harder ( i get it hes sensitive and pretty i would have comphet for stan ) and was just like actually stan i dont want to meet up and talk. i think we should stay friends...
AND DIDNT RING THE DOORBELL????
THERE WOULD BE FILFTHY NASTY DIRTY NASTY NASTY BOY THINGS HAPPENING IN STANS ROOM ON THAT DAY I GUARENTEEEEEEE IT OH MY GOD!
that would have probably led to a fwb tbh but i did not want to write the immense pain of them snekaing around and being like What Are We while stan ran back to wendy idk that sounded depressing so i just put them in peppermint hell instead
but also??? they were sixteen in that fb and i think while it would have been awkward if they hooked up and messy and they might have fought...STILL THEY WOULD PROBABLY BE DATING BY NOW SO WE KIND OF LOST!!! WHERE IS THE AU PEP WHERE THEY SMASHED IM TRYNA SEE THAT UNREALITY BABY!!!
okay im done but i seriously need a super cut of all the times stan has stared at kyles ass bc it would be the longest movie in the world...he be looking and like NOT RESPECTFULLY AT ALL...jail...jail
-uncle nina, ceo of style fruit salad
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wildwestdean · 16 days
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hii, ur honestly one of my favorite pages ever, seriously i analyze your work sm cause idk u give this tone thats just so perfect? i have 2 questions, if i may. one, when did u start writing? like was it a hobby or did u do classes so it got u into it or what was it? two, do u take requests? hope this finds u well and feel free to not answer💕
stop it
are you sure this was sent to the right account?? this is so cute i'm blushin'
to answer your questions: (even if u wanted to send this to someone else lol):
i did take some free-style writing classes in high school, and i studied english literature for a little during university, but i never pursued that educationally or professionally. so, in short, it's just a hobby that i started years ago and got more into as i got older
i absolutely take requests! it may take some time for me to get around to them, but my inbox is always open for them!!
thank you so much for this, lovely. i hope this also finds you well 💛
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woozi · 2 months
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my yza! hello! it has been a while again, i hope you're well? your header is SO cute 🐯
i missed you too! we r penpals... oh i do love that image. i will seal my letters with a kiss every time. MUAH
dolo (dino solo) really did reunite us! perhaps this can be our always. speaking of dolo - he SLAYED with that. ate it the fuck up, wait slaps SO hard i'm obsessed w her!!! what are your thoughts 👀 i'm dying to know
thank you! i get my first results in jan, around the time i'm sitting my second batch of exams. eek. uni applications are around the same time and i'm still working on my personal statement; i'm terrified it won't be good enough <//3
this freshteen comeback was SO good. you're so right abt it being a refresher to why we originally fell in love w their sound </333
back 2 back is my GIRRLLLLL she slaps!!! i mentioned this but perf u songs are always killer for me i LOVE their sound. but monster omg! she is cunty but i do get you. as for sos. what can i say. the lyrics just rub me the wrong way idk the phrasing just seems a bit... odd, and insensitive, perhaps. but like you say, english is not their first language, so i will give them the benefit of the doubt. what are your thoughts, though?
minghao discovered the mullet and then discovered a million different ways to slay it, and i love that for him. most versatile mullet ever!
we DO need more jun appreciation did you catch him in the diamond days vid! my guy! he was so good!
also omg... dr ms yza? perhaps? you'd be utterly incredible. i feel you on life being a little crazy; i hope things have calmed down for you since, though. i've not been up to much! i work at a school now, did i mention? i'm a teaching assistant for year 1 (5-6yos) so i do that mostly, and i'm also studying for all my exam retakes. i'm 1/3 of the way done currently and it is so fucking bad.
i hope your days have been treating you well! sending you hugs and kisses xxx i really am happy to be penpalling with you again. take care, love you, MWAH <3333333
your beloved wife 💍,
honey <3
MY HONEY, HIIIIIIIII 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
thank u sm for being so so kind 🥺 AND YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm v glad to say that life has been treating me better, or at least i've learned to handle everything better hehe <33 HOW R UUUUUUUUUUU I MISSED U SO MUCH!!
PLS U ARE SO SO CUTE 😭 also so real abt dolo <3 I LIKED IT!!!!!!!! i'm glad he took that direction music and style wise tbh, i was NERVOUS it'd sound like... (not to be a hater but i didnt really enjoy last order 😭) love the bridge it's my favorite part <33
HOW WERE UR RESULTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS im so so eager to hear from u, every time we talk it's like you're hitting new milestones <33
YK WHAT THE FUNNIEST THING JUST HAPPENED JJKFDJKFD BACK 2 BACK LITERALLY STARTED PLAYING THE MOMENT I STARTED ANSWERING UR ASK 😭 and ure sOOO so correct abt perf u songs!! more people should recognize the powerhouse that perf u is imo 😋 ALSO AGREED ON SOS 😭 honestly my least favorite song from the album. aside from what u just mentioned, it just sounds (lyric-wise) very clunky to me
I SAWWWWWW!! also glad jun's getting more recognition nowadays <33 i think thats the BeTS effect
well, as life turns out, i'm now in corporate and not in med school FDKJJDKFJKFD but it's fun!! and a little crazy, but that's just perfect for my personality tbh jsjkdjds ALSO IT'S MY FIRST TIME HEARING ABT THAT!! that's so so cute and i'm so happy for u 🥺 sending u sm strength in whatever endeavor you're taking rn!! hope the exams turned out well <33
AND I COULD LITERALLY SAY THE SAME!!!!!!!! i lov u so much, thank u for being such a constant friend <333 u make my stay here much much more enjoyable <3 LOV U MWAH
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