#idk i just want her to know i adored her

[pierregaslays]

:(

#i literally feel VIOLENTLY ill at the fact the hospital handled my mum’s passing so badly that her funeral is exactly ONE MONTH after it #i’ll forever be furious and angry and hurt and traumatised by the way they handled it #like A MONTH #it should not be happening this long after #and it’s her birthday on sunday so maybe i’m just feeling ten times worse because of that #but it’s not fair #it’s never gonna be fair #why the FUCK did she get taken from me like this #and then having to be the only one who knew about her funeral plans bc she only told me #and then everybody including my dad tells me how strong i am #IM NOT STRONG!!?!!?!??!? #i’m a girl who needs her mama. i’m just a girl who is so lost and confused and needs her mama #i literally want 2 die #tw death #i turned my tv off and immediately started crying bc i felt like the worst person in the world #did i not love her enough #should i have been better to get #*her #idk i just want her to know i adored her #and i need to hear her voice and get a hug #one of the last things she said to me was ‘i love you more’ well i love you most so how about that #tw grief #i am never getting over losing her #please . feel free to let me rant i just feel like i can’t talk to my dad or family bc like idk . #i always talked to my mum about my emotions and well! that can’t happen anymore lmfao 😭 #i just need a place to vent the HELL out of my feelings bc i am not going back to therapy

[dandelionandkrindle]

HARLEY and IVY | Harley Quinn: The Animated Series – ‘A Very Problematic Valentine’s Day Special ’

#harley x ivy #harlivy #harley quinn #poison ivy #harley quinn: the animated series #hqtas #hqtasedit #dcedit #hqtas spoilers #idk if i've ever mentioned this before but i adore how open ivy is with her affections and physical touch when it comes to harley #always cupping her cheek and holding her hand calling her pet names etc. #she knows how affectionate and touch starved harley is and it's just an excellent way of reassuring harley that she's wanted and loved

[wildstar25]

What physical part(s) of Arsay does her partners find the most attractive! Is it the same for all partners or does it differ between them?

(also optional bonus ask of what part(s) of/about Arsay generally do they love the most, physical or not!)

Meanwhile, if you were to ask the same of Arsay:

#ffxiv #wolship #g'raha tia #y'shtola rhul #wolgraha #wolshtola #y'shtola x wol #arsay nun #graharshtola #y'shtola calling arsay a pain in her side is very much an affectionate thing btw #and i couldnt pass up the joke of g'raha giving the sweet gentlemanly response only for yshtola to be like 'tits tbh' #her defaulting to an answer that would probably stop the conversation before she has to talk to much about her deeper feelings imo #i have. a lot of feelings about yshtola and arsay's friendship #someone who is constantly trying to build walls between herself and others vs someone who desperately wants to form real connections #its not a 'wearing that person down' type situation either #just one lonely person seeing another lonely person and hoping that they could be less lonely together #or that she could at least bring some cheer to #and idk yshtola strikes me as the type to have been like 'if they want to be my friend they have to work for it' #which arsay certainly did #i could ramble on and on how their friendship lines up so well with yshtolas character development but theres a limit to these tags #so just look at how cute shtola is with the slightest blush on her cheeks #graha is a much more complicated topic since he went from Extreme adoration to I want to be her friend but I dont think im good enough #to 100% Hero worship again to Shes my hero and I love her to Shes a person and I love her #to I love Arsay. Even the parts she can't love in herself. I will love all of her till my dying breath. #he thinks shes the most beautiful person in the world and the most important thing in his life #but he now knows how insane she's been about being everyone's hero and he really doesnt want to feed that beast #so hes trying to build her up in other ways #focusing more on the adventuring side than the saving the world side #and then there is arsay who loves so much about her partners and is in capable of narrowing it down to any one thing so its #'here let me list everything that comes to mind right now' with 0 shame or filter

[trees-to-meet-you]

Btw I’m actually a little behind on the pjo series so I’m only on like. Episode 5. But I’m getting to the end of it and I just wanna say I love Annabeth so much I love her and I love Leah Sava Jeffries they’re both incredible

#chatter #pjo tv show #pjo series #annabeth chase #riordanverse #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #leah sava jeffries #shes an adorable little girl and a pretty great actress!! #it’s just like. like wow. look at her go! look at her grow!! #kinda spoilers here so look away if you don’t want them but like. it’s only episode five. it’s the very first adventure they have together #we all know how annabeth and percy and grover grow throughout the whole series and everything but this is still the very first one. #the start of all their adventures and all their changes and all their growing #and it’s like. maybe more towards the middle of the quest now? i can’t remember fully #but they’ve only known each other such a short while and already he’s inspiring her #and shes outright saying it!! outright shes saying that his belief in fairness and belief in thinking they can and should be better #has made her realize the same!! that families shouldn’t treat each other so terribly! that parents shouldn’t be neglectful! #that the prices they’re forced to pay shouldn’t exist at all!! #idk how to word it really. but i love how even if percy is a pessimist. even if he’s cynical. it’s because he knows things SHOULD be better #and how he’s able to make everyone around him see how much better it can be too #and annabeth. who was one of athenas favorites. who ran away at such a little age that the way these things are is #the only thing shes ever really known. is able to hear what he says and realize he’s right. is able to say no. no more i agree with him. #like. shes sorta the golden child in a way because she gets attention and her little hat and everything. #shes one of the favorites. and shes willing to give it all away!! shes willing to say no!! #shes willing to give up that favored status for saying that it should be the standard! the bare minimum! #anyway. im sleepy and i wanted to say annabeth chase is such an amazing character. i love her.

[secondchoice-ragdoll]

#T's “what did u call me? do u think whatever that is is hot? okay then good” #i love the tour pic above K! #and i love how they r still plucked abt not being in Dune2 #K the avid winker... #its so cute how T is featured on this album of K's too😭😭😭 #T wants to be left alone (on the phone) on her bday and K wants attention... well... ((once again relating to K)) #T looked at Ks belly in a suprisingly like? soft way? idk i might have hallucinated that but who knows. #fuck whoever didnt visit K when she would have wanted them to. #its sweet how T visited her! (srsly cant u just communicate who wants what in this situation so its no suprise? ik its hard for them but😭) #T describing Ks party attending habits!!! they know each other soooo well🤭 #aaagh how they have to act like they cant easily spend 2 hrs together having fun when they literally cant wipe the smiles off of their faces #(lesbians..... lovesick idiots.......) #oh they r always facetiming! so adorable :( #T was so excited that they r linked! like girl u do not need more confirmation for that research do u?😭 #K watching the pod...... my heart...... #why dont they just sit closer if they will reach across a whole fucking room to touch eachother?? like it sounds easier for me but u do u! #i really get a kick out of K mentioning TRHPS anytime she does it bc ik it was such a big thing in Ts life and ugh😭 #constantly praising each other😭😭😭😭😭 what if i start sobbing huh #well maybe T is trying to get K to learn how to flirt so that she can practice on her? just an idea?😁 #K putting her leg up on T?????? hi what? jist sit in the other's lap u creatures... its okay we can all look away for a sec if u need it... #their art! i fucking love it! both of it! its art at its finest🛐 and id kill to see a collection of their drawings bc cmon they r amazing! #its cute how they r talking abt smth and then they go “oh wait we were there together!” #its almost as if they actually spend time hanging out😱 (dont let the police know!!4!4) #“if we were on DR now-” okay but why r u still dreaming of that miss T?🤭🤭🤭 (who could blame her) #them watching the movies the other one recommends is the closest we can get to them watching an actual thing together (outside of NF) #also im so happy T spent time w K on her bday :((( #trixie mattel #katya zamo #tbatb #the brians

[cinna-bunnie]

i love making pretty ppl giddy over really mundane stuff (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) don't giggle at me omg..

#i always think of something good to say 30 seconds later 😔😹 #i got complimented on my choke chain at the bubble tea spot and all i said was thank u i hope u have a good night aksjdj #and then she got real giddy about it‚ girl ur gonna make me want to come back looking extra hot just for u #i should've asked her if she wanted to give it a tug #thinking about u bubble tea girl that was adorable #a girls been making ppl giddy lately 🧐 idk if They Know but it is doing wonders for my already great self esteem #mentally kissing u on the forehead i love u

[hella1975]

sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off' #but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one' #and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

[guinevereslancelot]

most fucked up thing at my new job is there's only zero calorie sweeteners at the coffee station in the break room. three different kinds of zero calorie sweetener but no regular sugar because the assumption is that literally everyone is on a diet?

#is this because its a job dominated by women in particular??? idk #that's so weird #like sorry i can taste the difference and i prefer naturally occurring sugar from nature how is that not even an option #drinking nasty bitter af coffee bc i am So Sleepy but i refuse to use artificial sweeteners #they Do taste different and they're not even good for you im not doing that lol #also they got mad at me for telling one of the parents that we took one of the kids temperature and it was 99 and he threw up a little #when his dad came to get him yesterday and all of the other teachers were nowhere to be found #they were like tou shouldnhave had colleen do that #ma'am colleen went home before that and so did you #i should have left already too but waited bc the ratio on the playground was bad #anyway i did NOT say he had a fever i said it was 99 and to talk to the teacher inside #but the dad didnt yalk to her clearly then went home and scared the mom that he had a fever and threw up so she texted my boss freaking out #i literally just said he threw up a little and we took his temperature and it was 99 and to talk to the other teacher #which was all true and there was no one else there to tell him #anyway #apparently the person who had my job before me was a wacko who scared the parents with fake medical information or something #but that is not my fault and nobody told me that or not to tell the parents anything medical until this morning #ugh #also my supervisor is kind of a weirdo #she wanted to show everyone ~cute~ pictures of animals she has killed while hunting??? #and i said i didnt want to see #and she was like ~oh it's not dead yet in the picture~ #like okay but its dead now??? #she traps them first so its a cute little fox in a trap about to be killed 😭 #like wtfff #i know trappong predators is a reality but why take pictures like ohhh so cute then kill it #THEN show everyone the cute pictures like yeah isnt he adorable i killed him btw <3 #huh?????? #she has a bobcat tail on her keychain too she was giving it to the teachers and kids to pet like ohhh its so soft <3

[emile-hides]

I’m so obsessed with the Mario family and while I’m a very hard Uncle Tony stan I’m also insanely obsessed with Auntie Marie and her daughter. I want to know all about them.

#Mario Movie #I know I know she's called Mario and Luigi's 'Neice' but come on #This is a family of 9 we have two different full group scenes with them #there's no way there's a 10th family member we haven't seen who's this kid's parents #And she looks a LOT like Marie brown eyes and lighter reddish hair than everyone else's dark brown #She's their cousin but she's like 11 years younger than them so she's more like a niece do you understand #I've been calling her Louisianna in reference to their Super Show cousin Marianna #Because we already have too many Ma names in this family lets get another Lou #I would also be down for calling her Marilyn sense that's their Niece from the super Show #Whatever whatever I just adore them both to no end you don't understand #I'm also mental about the flower on the back of her hat is it a Daisy reference? Why?? #It's 4am I'm trying not to go too insane about this whole thing #I ALSO love Uncle Arthur btw don't get me wrong he's INCREDIBLE #I love the stupid lean he does at the beginning of the scene I want him to fall out of his chair #I love that he and Tony play off each other SO hard they're SO mean #idk how people thought Arthur and Pa Mario were twins when Tony and Arthur are Right There being clearly stupid close knit #This entire family is so funny never change and also tell me everything about you #Give me the Super Show reboot Nintendo I am BEGGING

[chartreuxcatz]

*blinks*

Bro, idk what I am.

#Meow. #idk what i want or what i like #am i ace? #idk man #Im queer #Even My parents knew that the ‘crushes’ i had on boys as a kid were forced #but did I ever… really Like a girl? #I guess I mightve had a crush on one of my sister’s friends. I picked her a flower #I definitely crushed on a teacher or two #But like idk #whenever i think of things as though it might actually go somewhere i just kinda #dont want that #i think i just love my friends a whole lot and thats enough #and i would be too jealous for polyamory so #i feel like having a partner would require a change in how affectionate i am with my friends and i dont want that #i adore my friends with all of my heart and i think they should know that #Would the difference just be… being able to hug and cuddle and smooch my partner in a way i cant do with friends? #Maybe i wanna cuddle and smooch my friends! Assuming they would be chill with it #maybe i’ll meet someone who changes my mind. I dunno #Bro i am just a cat. Feed me and pat my head thats all i ask

[niuxita21]

One day I’m gonna write a book. Can you imagine? A novel about everything that you and I have gone through? [Mariana laughs] It would be called “Ana and Mariana.” We’re going to be free soon, and we’ll be able to reinvent ourselves. So I’m sure you’re gonna write that book, and it’s gonna be awesome. We’ll see what happens. We have to let things flow, right? I think your novel is gonna be one of those that are pretty dark. Maybe one of those that are so romantic that you can’t put them down?

#madre solo hay dos #ana servín #mariana herrera #shitty screencap posts (TM) #I.... I don't even know what to say man #this is... A LOT truly can't wrap my head around it yet idk if I ever will #but I'm gonna try to be coherent because I don't want this post to have very few tags lol #um... so let's start with the adorable drunk faces #I love how somehow ana's is just *hearteyes intensify* and mariana is just *adorable sleepy drunk* hee #once again highlighting the different places they are at feelings-wise #I mean you don't just DECIDE to kiss your bff out of the blue one night just bc you're drunk like that shit has to have been festering #(exhibit A: Tender Brushing of Hair Behind the Ear: Fake Dating Edition) #I also love ana's rudimentary flirting omg girlfriend has it BAD and she doesn't even realize it #'I'm gonna write a novel about our story and it's gonna be suuuuper romantic' WHO SAYS THAT LMAOOOOO ily ana #also I adore how even at the beginning of the scene when ana's drunk brain hasn't crossed over into thinking about romance yet #and she's talking about the novel and looking at mariana her eyes keep darting to her lips #as effortlessly as when she was high on choco-shrooms right before she told mariana she loved her and kissed her for the first time #(GAWD that seems like forever ago and yet look... the consistency is ASTOUNDING) #most importantly though... I was truly surprised about how enthusiastic mariana was about the whole thing #she was like 'ferrán? who dat?' lmao thanks for that show #I'm fascinated by what this says about her like it's canon that she's in love with ferrán and she will say as much I think in the next ep? #but given the opportunity (and setting aside for a moment the fact that she was utterly hammered) #she was 100% down for banging ana enthusiastically and without being at all conflicted #I hope it speaks to the fact that the feelings she once had for ana are maybe not completely gone? #I can already see the next few episodes are gonna be rough so maybe that's why they gave us this episode lol #I only just finished watching and I've already lost count of how many times I've rewatched those last few minutes god truly god-tier tv #unrelated but please wallpaper my tombstone with the last two caps lord they are just so pretty

[speedydestinydream]

Tmf isnt very accurate in many ways but I like to think that one of the main accurate things rosy nailed was the fact that the jomies have been bullies for years and still haven't been (onscreen) punished and not even stopped. You'd think that after middle school to junior year of highschool the school would notice and stop them for good, but guess what! Nope!

#very accurate to the real school system #btw this isnt a serious or deep post about the shitty school system #im just making fun of it in both tmf and irl #tmf #the music freaks #the music freaks rosyclozy #tmf rosyclozy #oh and what i meant by the statement that tmf isnt very accurate is that like #i doubt that jake could be forgiven in a single month by drew and hailey #let alone fall in love with hailey while still trying to work out their friendship issues and friendship in general #and vice versa #and also them switching up the club mysic preformance plans last second #i feel like if milly really got into a lot of fights the school would probably just take her out of the music club already #and like (not a nitpick but something else) how the hell did henry and liam climb up to the bully rank??? theyre so fucking goofy #(in a good way) but they dont feel like serious bullies or they arent on the same level as drew #the rest of the music club knew about hailey and zanders bullies (im pretty sure) so why didnt they know about jake??? he literally was #with them all the time and was very persistent in.. idk being an asshole #theres a lot of plotholes in tmf and i could sit here and ramble and rant about them all i want but i wont cause that would be stupid #i still adore the series for what it has and is #plus sometimes you can fill in certain plotholes for yourself to make the story more enjoyable in your point of view #idk idk man i like rambling about tmf A LOT. #this is way too many tags #oops #EDIT: SORRY SORRY i meant i doubt jake could be forgiven in a single month by zander and hailey #*music #goddamned typos

[smol-tired-binch-blog]

Oh yeah, I have decided that in the Yuko Lives AU she ends up befriending a bunch of former Club Sunshine girlies, starting with Chizu because I love her.

I call them the Secondary Nishikiyama Family because, well, they're Yuko's trusty squad. They're not directly yakuza or anything dgmw, but I feel they not only have skillsets that could prove useful, it's also nice for her to just have a friend group/support network outside of her brother.

#smol makes art #yuko lives au #club sunshine #smol plays yakuza #yuko nishikiyama #she's not here but i want yall to meet the squad!! they're rainbow coloured :) #Chizu's is a more teal-ish/seafoam green but remember that green is Yuko's colour. Chizu is so cute I adore her #i for some reason find amusement in Yuko being the leader and yet by far the youngest. Chizu is Nishiki's age #and she's the youngest after Yuko. idk i just like it. i love these gals yall dont even KNOW

[aerithisms]

i think maybe i need to replay rebirth some time to look at this diplomatically because aerith is My Favourite and i might be biased but i think my biggest story critique of rebirth is that i wish they'd done a little more with her. given that this is the game she dies in i found it strange that they didn't push her into the foreground a little more since this is their last real chance to do that with her as a living member of the party (i'm sure she'll show up in some limited capacity in part 3 but dead lifestream!aerith is pretty different to alive!aerith i think).

i know that sounds like a weird thing to say when you consider stuff like them giving her the game's theme song to sing during loveless and the fact that the last chapter is basically The Aerith Movie but there is a strange lack of focus on her in moments where it feels like we should get more from her throughout the narrative. this game pushes tifa and cloud's relationship more in the mandatory story segments, and i LOVED what they did with that relationship in this game, but it felt odd that the same focus was not given to cloud's relationship with aerith throughout the story given that the ending hinges on him being so devastated by her death that he enters a delusional state of grief. and this isn't even a shipping thing bc as far as shipping goes i'm an aerti truther and i feel pretty equally neutral about both cloti and clerith as romances (if anything i prefer cloti!). it's about giving proper narrative buildup to the relationship that the game's tragic ending hinges on - a lot of aerith's most interesting scenes with cloud in the bulk of the game are optional, which i think is a weird thing to do given what the game is building to.

i also wish they did more with her being a cetra! again, the last couple chapters put focus on this but prior to that aerith is weirdly quiet about it. particularly in cosmo canyon, while we do get the lovely bonfire scene, aerith otherwise has a weird lack of dialogue when it comes to the lore dump scenes with the gi and bugenhagen. i expected her to feel some type of way about these revelations but any indication of that is at best subtext and she doesn't really say a lot about it. and for all that they emphasise aerith and nanaki's connection early on as beings closer to the planet, once you get to cosmo canyon there's a weird lack of payoff for it. same with tifa's dunk in the lifestream - i kinda thought aerith might have something to say about it as a cetra, and in fairness i think it's possible she did and the game is withholding some of aerith and tifa's offscreen interactions for part 3 (i swear this isn't even just an aerti cope lol i think the fact that they deliberately show them talking without us getting to hear it might be something they come back to), but i also wish we got to connect with this part of aerith's character more NOW, while she's still here, so it can inform our understanding of her choices and feelings at the end. i just find it kind of a bummer because aerith's complicated relationship to her heritage is a fascinating aspect of her character and her tragedy that i think goes a little untapped in this game, which means it's likely to go untapped in the story as a whole since she's. you know. dead.

#blahs #ff7 #rebirth spoilers #idk there are obviously a lot of character writing changes i love and adore in rebirth but i think they coulda done a little more with her #they put the focus on her bond with the party and her zest for life and that was fantastic #but imo they don't explore the other layers of her as well #and i know we will get more of her in part 3 but the effect of doing it in hindsight is different to doing it while she's alive #like when they go to icicle inn and learn about her parents there'll be a lot of focus on everyone's grief and the tragedy of her life #but what i wanted more of is how aerith feels about that tragic life as a living person. how she struggles with what it means to be a cetra #how does she feel about how disconnected she is from her heritage? angry? bitter? sorrowful? ashamed? #does she even like being a cetra? or does she resent the position it's put her in in life? #the game gestures at all of those in subtext but i want it explored i want her to talk about it!!! #ah well. i suspect if we do get flashbacks to those aerti scenes they'll all be about cloud but i'll still hope for something more from tha #that's my copium #or maybe an aerith and nanaki flashback where they talk about the burden they share of being the last of a people!! #i'd love that #anyway i still love rebirth's character work very much and on the whole what they did with it is very special. i am just an aerith girlie

[hella1975]

im being so serious besties i am not cut out for academia

#like yes i know ive had a very uniquely shit experience in doing a degree i actively not only hate but also am BAD AT #but also i just. cannot hack it #'but hella you go mental and pessimistic every single exam period' i know that but. im right also #like the other day i said to my mum how much ive just been enjoying my job recently #and how huge a deal that is bc i HATE my hometown and ive never ever considered my time here as possibly being good #and my 20s will hopefully be a lot of travelling but in between that to save easier im gonna live at home #so i dont have to worry about rent so alas that means when im saving up for my next trip I WILL BE IN MY HOMETOWN #and as excited as i am for my twenties that is one huge downside to me but i was really cheerfully saying to my mum #that literally for the first time ever ive considered it might not be too bad bc lately i have just enjoyed my job #like i enjoy the people and the work and the lifestyle of it and while it's never gonna be ideal as a means to an end it's actually good #and instead of focussing on that she went OFF on one about how she wants me to stay in education and keep getting qualifications #and she was like 'you could do an english degree you've always wanted to do english or how about open university-' #and i was just sat there blinking at her like girl.... no #like i could FEEL myself shutting down like the terror of having to return to this environment when ive got my sight so set #on that 'one more year and im done one more year and im done' mindset like that has been the only thing getting my through #is that im halfway through the course now so im closer to the other end than i am the beginning and if i can just push through #ill be free from it for the rest of my life. so the thought of immediately returning to academia even for a subject i adore? i felt ILL #and my mum apologised the next day without me even having to say anything bc she realised she kinda bulldozed me there #but i just know whether it's the adhd or ive actually been traumatised by this econ degree #(<- and im being serious there like ik 'traumatised' is a big loaded word but idk what else to use #and this degree has done so so much damage to me like it has convinced me that i am fundamentally a stupid person #to the point i refuse to add up bills when with friends or do answer any sort of intellectual question even if i KNOW i know the answer #bc ive just gone so so long of being bad at the only subject im studying like just SURROUNDED by it and being bad at it relentlessly #and i dont think people realise how damaging it is to very simply just... feel stupid all the time. but oh my god i used to be so confident #and bright and now i wont even do basic addition in front of people) #i really truly dont think i can do this again in any capacity. like the constant exams and studying and assignments #i just cant do it. maybe i just need a year or two away from it after this degree but my goddddd rn i cant see it #yes it's exam time for me can u tell. it always makes me existential and on the verge of vomiting at any given moment #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i dont care about iterated deletion of strictly dominated strategies shut the fuck up #hella goes to uni

[aro-aizawa]

seemingly the only way i can ever get into any new thing is if i spontaneously decide to watch/read it

#shut up danni's talking #in other news aloneintherain posted a welcome to demon school iruma-kun fanfic while i was sleeping #woke up the notification and thought huh well i don't wanna get up now so lemme boot up crunchyroll #i am now on season 2 ep 1 #so that's fun! #and i would die for iruma - him and azz are deffo gay #my angel clara is either lesbian or she's aro lesbian and i can't decide which i like better so shrug #but that girl eiko is ABSOLUTELY bi honestly she's like my fave side character #uh big buff and dumb blonde is also a favourite of mine #he's so passionate abt the demon king and stuff and i cackled when he found out the demon king club was full of nerds #and yet he IMMEDIATELY without a single second of hesitation joined and like MAD respect i adore him #ameri is also cool but she is absolutely demiromantic with a romantic soul and i ship her w eiko #but man the relationship between iruma and his grandpa is so sweet???;; #i wanted to melt at the festival and the other classmates were like oh man bet you're the pride of your family iruma and he was like #YEAH I LOVE GRANDPA AND OPERA #i wanted to cry #also the fact that iruma puts his hair up in a ponytail when exercising is my absolute favourite thing #and is definitely a key reason why i think he's one of my faves i'm always weak when a character can have a small ponytail #anyways just letting y'all know and when i finish watching the anime fingers crossed my dumbass brain will let me comprehend the manga #idk HOW i managed to comprehend the mha manga way back when but hopefully it'll work this time too #i have a feeling that a lot of the fandom is weighted towards the manga spoilers rather than the anime which is fair #also i THOUGHT crunchyroll had messed up bc i was sure i had three more episodes left of season one and i did #when i finished s2 ep1 it tried to make me watch s3 ep1 which like no thank you #so now im gonna have to go back and be confused rip