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ace-of-hearts-and-spades · 2 months

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YOU THERE!!!!!! TUMBLR USER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are YOU tired of how Tumblr treats trans people, particularly transwomen and transfemmes? Are YOU tired of how Tumblr treats people of color, particularly black folks? Are YOU tired of fandom trying to police the madeup bullshit you like to draw, write, or read about? Are YOU tired of all this fucking AI bullshit? Are YOU looking for a new online home to settle in?

Consider Pillowfort.social!

I’m not going to go into the nitty-gritty of how Pillowfort functions, because others have talked about that and explained it much better than I can (I recommend reading @/vergesm’s post here for a more general Pillowfort overview). What I’m going to do is explain what I, personally, get out of Pillowfort and why I enjoy it.

To preface, I’m not being paid to make this post or promote Pillowfort or anything. I wouldn’t think that needs to be said, but people make things up sometimes so idk. I’m writing pro-Pillowfort propaganda because I genuinely like the place and want to see it thrive. If you want to take a look at my own fort and get a feel for the place, you can do so here.

So with that out of the way – let’s talk about it!

Pillowfort is quite a bit like Tumblr, in that it’s a blogging platform, but it’s got a few things that make it better than this hellsite imo. For one thing, you can post NSFW content there. Although I don’t draw much explicit stuff, it’s nice to be able to post art there without worrying I’ll get shadowbanned for a picture that’s just a lil too suggestive. It's nice to know that the option is there. Honestly, it’s freeing not to have to worry about that shit. And it’s also really cool that there’s a built-in system for marking certain posts as NSFW, because as well as being able to mark your own posts as NSFW, you can choose whether you want to see other people's posts marked as NSFW. And for minors, the ability to see NSFW content is automatically turned off. Pillowfort’s got a really good system for both allowing NSFW content and keeping it away from people who don’t want to see it. I really like that flexibility, and how that flexibility isn't detrimental to the users.

And speaking of being able to see or not see certain content, the content filtering is pretty solid. You’re able to block tags and even words in the body of a post, and like I said, you can control whether you want to see posts marked as NSFW. You can even control who sees your own posts! There’s blocking users, of course, but you can limit who sees your own posts even further than that. You can make them visible to anyone, visible only to logged in Pillowfort users, visible only to your followers or mutuals, or hell, even visible to you alone!! It’s cool to have that level of control, and I find it reassuring to know I have those options.

Another big appeal of Pillowfort, for me, is the userbase’s strong “don’t like don’t read” policy. A lot of the people there operate under the mindset of “as long as it’s fictional, whatever dude. I don’t have to like it, but you do you." There are still dipshits, of course, but it’s WAY better than the insane purity culture that’s developed here. I don’t have to worry about some wannabe-conservatives telling me I’m just as bad as Ted Bundy for [checks notes] sexualizing Michael Myers or some shit. Plus, this general userbase mindset is backed up by actual site policy! I’ve heard that Pillowfort is very swift in responding to reports of harassment – whether it’s fandom-based harassment or bigotry. I haven’t had any experience with this personally (and hopefully it’ll stay that way), but I’ve heard good things about it, and it makes me feel more comfortable being there.

Also, did I mention Pillowfort has an explicit anti-AI policy? AI generated images and writing are banned on the website, and staff made this decision once its userbase and community made it clear that they wouldn’t welcome that sort of shit. And GOD, does it make me feel so fucking good as a writer and artist to know that.

And that’s another thing – Pillowfort staff actually fucking listens to its userbase. The website is crowd-funded and relies on subscriptions and monthly donations to keep things running. And because it relies on its community, it relies on keeping the community happy. So complaints, bug reports, suggestions and alterations and things the users would like to see on the site – it’s all taken pretty seriously. And again, it’s just really nice to know that the staff of the place actually give a shit and are looking out for its community rather than trying to suck the dick of the biggest investor.

Really, the only problem I have with Pillowfort is the fact that it’s a bit small. Which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, because the people there are lovely. But since a lot of people aren’t happy with Tumblr, and haven’t been happy with Tumblr for some time, I thought I’d just ask you guys – maybe consider it. Consider making a Pillowfort account. Consider making your own little fort, stringing up some colored lights and cool art and making yourself cozy. Consider offering some money, if you can spare it, because it’s genuinely a really cool place that I want to spend more time in and see prosper.

So far, I’ve had a lovely time there. It’s cozy and friendly and it feels like one of the few places where a queer artist like me is actually welcome. And I think a lot of Tumblr users might really like it too.

I hope to see you there! 💜

#ace rambles #pillowfort #tumblr alternative #will this actually convince anyone? idk #i hope i can at least convince some of my moots/buddies lol #might as well shoot my shot

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iminhiraeth · 6 months

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Limoreau Fic Ideas

because I have a terrible case of brainrot, I’m going to be listing all my fic ideas that I may or may not one day do. Who knows! But I figured I could share the brain thoughts in case somebody else needs a spark of inspiration :]

And Lmk if I should do more!! I’d absolutely be down to, but this is just a lil test of interest for neow. (Would also 100% be open with getting asks for blurbs like this on certain AU’s or concepts :])

Supernatural AU

Instead of 2 brothers on the road hunting the supernatural it’s Marie and Jordan, who are legacies of their monster hunter parents and are having to work together after their parents gave them an assignment before suddenly disappearing. Bonus points if Marie is actually a vampire and has to keep it under wraps, or Marie was turned into a vampire the same night Jordan was turned into a werewolf because the two of them were way too brave and confident they could handle a hunt on their own at the age of like. 8 or 9. Caused a lot of tension ofc because their families are HUNTERS !! Could be with super powers still except those with powers are all hunters and it’s like. A semi underground society that’s like idk. Men in black type of deal.

AU with boxer!Jordan

This one I imagine less as professional boxing and more as a sort of fight club. Everyone meets at a location that’s given only a day prior so they don’t get caught bc this shit is illegal, and Marie is dragged out to one by Emma bc Sam sometimes participates to blow off some steam. Marie ends up being the one who makes sure Jordan is alright after fights bc! I also think they’re only allowed to be in their fem form for the fights. (Due to make form being invulnerable to attacks.) Also sort of secret society but majority students in God U find out about it if the circles your in deem you worthy. (Aka you won’t snitch.) Jordan probably really gets a kick out of it too because they don’t have to be perfect in that space, and fighting just gives them some time to not have to think about anything else. Their parents were likely very strict and although God U does have public training n shit for crime fighting students, it could be that there’s just a lot less rules for these fights n’ nobody is nitpicking their form so they don’t have to worry about looking hero worthy. Just some college kids fighting underground, and maybe there’s a thing about there being an after party that usually turn out to be the best parties on campus. 100% just an excuse to have Marie patching up Jordan n being all hot n bothered over how they look in a fight. Bonus points if Jordan starts training Marie too and she starts signing up for fights.

Camp Counselors AU

This one explains itself honestly. Limoreau being rival camp counselors and always putting their teams against each other or some shit. They have a tally of their wins and have some sort of bet going on. After like their first year every other counselor was like why don’t you two just fuck already we’re tired of watching you flirt. Bonus points if it’s them reuniting after having gone to that camp when they were kids n even then we’re like. SERIOUS rivals. They could not get along for the life of them, but maybe one of them moved n they stood in the parking lot that year wanting to hug but not knowing if they were even friendly enough for that. They miss each other, much to their surprise, but then like idk 4-5 years later they coincidentally (Jordan for nostalgia?? Or bc their friends were like we should do something random for the summer… N maybe Marie because Annabeth wanted to go to the same camp for the summer.) both chose to come back to be counselors n when their friends try to introduce them they’re like we know each other already. (Likely Cate, Andre, Luke with Jordan and Marie with Emma and Sam??) Their homies then bear witness to the most sexually charged banter they have ever seen n are like you two… hate each other?? Are you sure?

Pirate/Siren AU

Pirate Jordan….. Siren Marie….. Froths at the mouth. That’s it, that’s the AU. I have no further thoughts other than Jordan washing up on fantasy island n Marie is laying there sunbathing next to them all oh ur awake!! Jordan short existential crisis of being attracted to a fish n then being relieved when Marie can change into a purely human form with small differences. (Sharper teeth and nails, a pointed tongue, a little more cat-like pupils, and a sort of strange gait to the way she walks.)

Alternatively, for Pirate/Siren, it could also be Pirate/Succubus

Marie ending up separated from her family after landing in human territory, Eek! Maybe b/c they’re like.. fantasy land royalty and we’re trying to strike a deal with this part of human land but then BAM betrayal, and as they’re fleeing Marie somehow gets pulled apart from them n their like find ur way back!! We’ll send Emma to come help you!! Jordan on the other hand is in search for a treasure that’s located in fantasy creature territory, and is in search of another crewmate after one jumped board. Marie gets rejected at first, since Jordan does not recognize her to be a succubus at first bc maybe… she has some magical amulet from her parents that blocks that perception of her for her own safety. Nor do they recognize her as royalty b/c I think it’d be fun if Marie was sort of? A veiled princess, nobody truly knows what she looks like but they’ve heard stories of what power she inherited. (Thinking that royal lineages are the ones who are supes.) Anyways, maybe that areas guards see her n recognize something she’s wearing so she’s like fuck it I’m jumping on board anyways Idc if you rejected me, n maybe it’s Cate who’s like ur in, I don’t know why Jordan was being an ass. Fairy!Emma joins them too either right after seeing Marie get on board or she was the one to be like FUCK WE HAVE NO OTHER OPTION JUST HOP IN !!

Bonus points if Jordan and Marie save each other at least once, and there’s cute moments of Marie showing Jordan places that are off their map (magic areas with like, cute little fantasy animals n just beautiful scenery bc I love that shit.) Marie basically on the run with Emma, maybe there’s also a part of the plot line where Marie has to deliver something to some magical beast or she was just tired! Of being holed up in that kingdoms castle just bc of her powers. Honestly could end with them reaching the place n Marie n Jordan are like strange that this is the same place I was going. N then they keep walking on the same path n their like are we… going to the same place right now. Edit: Forgot to add that Jordan would also probably come from a royal line, along with Cate, Andre, Luke and Sam! (Luke probably abandoning his position as king for some reason that could be adjacent to the whole situation with The Woods where instead of a virus being created it was just. An experimentation on Sam to try and see if they could come up with what essentially would be Compound V)

Post-Apocalypse AU

You can guess how majority of this goes. Could be that Compound V was made a lot earlier but somehow mutated and not only infected Supes, but also infected humans, which made them into zombies. Supes powers are dwindled down exponentially but they’re still a lot more enhanced in comparison to human zombies. Maybe Marie is on her own and finally thinking she’s reached the end of her line but then Andre comes in n is like hey!! Come with me lol I have a group n you seem cool. Andre explains to her that they’ve been on the search for a safe-haven they’ve been hearing about, and Marie is absolutely wowed bc she didn’t know any talk of that. Jordan is obviously irritated bc they’re like Marie is just body to protect and another mouth to feed W’s he’ll just slow them down blah blah blah. The usual Jordan looking out for themself first and foremost, but veiling it as a group thing. (Thinking it could be because they lost Luke n Brink n they just. Can’t take another loss like that, n it sort of feels like they’re just trying to fill a gap if they let Marie in. And they’d rather not stick their neck out for some stranger.)

Journey is long, Marie and Jordan have their moments of bickering and absolutely not getting along at first but after they find each other awake at night, both awoken by nightmares, they have a conversation and make a truce. They still snap at each other a little because they’re learning how to navigate one another but they’re noticeably a lot more friendly n are able to make jokes with one another. The group is like DAMN FINALLY !! Got sick n tired of hearing them constantly arguing. (Can especially see this situation bringing out the differences in Marie and Jordan’s moral compass. I feel like when in this setting, Jordan is a lot more willing to let others die if it means keeping loved ones safe. A lot more violent and unhinged and generally just a little bit scary, whereas Marie is the one who tries to see the good in people first instead of second even now. She’s more empathetic to the fact these zombies were humans once too, which could attribute to maybe Marie losing Annabeth to the virus. (Thinking that in this AU, bc compound V was made earlier that Marie’s powers didn’t show up until the apocalypse had already begun and possibly her parents were just in the line of fire when she freaked on a group of zombies, n Annabeth ended up bit but didn’t say anything. Except she was extremely irritable, slowly grew more sick, and eventually Marie had to lock Annie up n tried so hard to keep her alive until she realized forcing Annabeth to live like this was just cruel.) Marie probably ends up learning her lesson after a group they encounter stabs them in the back after Marie had JUST advocated for them. Jordan initially is rlly mad n is all up in arms about it bc they told her! They fucking told her! But quickly comes around when they realize Marie is genuinely having a whole factory reset bc of this n it just. Changes her perception completely, n Jordan almost mourns the fact that Marie had to learn things the hard away n they can’t just. Protect her from everything all the time.

#limoreau #mariejordan #gen v #marie x jordan #jordan li #marie moreau #gen v fanfiction #alternate universe #fic ideas

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daydream-cement · 1 year

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Insomniac Student reader request pleeeease!!! I love your writing!

Student has been missing classes due to sleeping late. They have insomnia and fall asleep late, sometimes 1 hr before they have to be up.

Principal Weems goes to their room to talk about missing classes to find the reader sleeping. She wakes them up and they talk about what’s been going on.

She offers to help with night time tea and other ways to keep them calm and grow tired earlier.

Maybe walks before bed with her then tea and then sending them off to bed? Idk, whatever you think is good! Please and thank you!

Time for Bed

Larissa Weems x Student!Reader

Authors Note: This is a cute lil oneshot. It may not be what you asked for tho?

You had always struggled with sleeping and now that you were at Nevermore, your sleep schedule became even more erratic causing you to sleep in much later than normal. Principal Weems wasn't having it, however. She wanted you in your seat at each one of your classes, bright eyed and ready to learn.

Together you formed a solution. Almost each night before bed, she brought you a small cup of herbal tea and then you enjoyed a small stroll around the school grounds and corridors to help you get tired. As you walked and talked, you became closer to one another. You would talk to Principal Weems about home and your friends there while she shared stories of her time at Nevermore.

Tonight was one of those nights that you were sharing a walk before she sent you to bed.

“How were classes today? I hear you started a new project in literature.” Principal Weems asked as she shortened her strides so you could walk side by side.

“Classes were good. Yes, we get to research a different author. I’m choosing Mary Shelley.” You explain, drawing the cup of tea to your lips.

“Frankenstein… Very nice.”

"What were your favorite topics in literature class?" You walk in tandem with Principal Weems, taking a turn down the corridor that leads back to your dormitory.

"Well I used to teach literature before I was the principal, so I have many favorites. But I would always have my students read Carmilla by Sheridan Le Fanu. She was one of the first vampires in literature." Principal Weems seemed to glow as she revealed a new aspect of her interests and personality.

"I thought Dracula was one of the firsts." You respond quickly enjoying the bit of knew knowledge.

"Certainly a great story, but no Carmilla predates Dracula." Principal Weems smiled triumphantly as she now stood in front of your door. Gingerly, her hand came up rest on your arm, her expression turning gentle once more, "Time for bed, dear."

"Good night, Principal Weems."

"Good night, Mx. L/n."

#larissa weems x reader #larissa weems #student!reader #fanfic #oneshot #wednesday netflix #platonic #gwendoline christie

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boxwinebaddie · 2 months

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STAN HAS THAT K CHOKER RIGHT? DOES THAT MEAN KYLE HAS AN S NECKLACE? like he could totally stack his s necklace with his star of david one

aaaaaaaaa

you know i love a lil matchy-matchy moment~

and actually, i accumulated a lot of different asks actually, mostly, interestingly enough asking me about the same roundabout thing: if jersey wears rings, how he feels about jewelry, if he has any tattoos or other piercings, stuff of the like, etc.

but i never got around to answering those because i'm kind of a perfectionist and i get all worked up in my head about how i'm going to answer things because i want them to be perfect ( i keep trying to structure nsfw ask like it's a nine page research essay, smh ) buuut

basically, as we all know well, jersey is…Particular.

particularly abt himself and what is done to him/on him.

( okay, fair warning: the rest of this answer is very long and i just talk a lot about the former question about jersey/his attachments to material things and also physical-emotional things — people — you do not have to read all that...the short answer is yes, kyle does stack a stan 's' necklace with the star of david, i talk about it more at the end, but this intro part is a lot of exposition and information. so if your curiosity does not end there...perhaps i can further it below xx )

a lot of it ties into his ocd and this need to control every aspect of his life, not being able to put it in anyone elses hands but his own because he's scared of that improbability...that margin of error.

it keeps him up at night.

for that reason, even though he has a ton of health issues, diabetes, etc. he is extremely Defiant and Volatile in doctors offices. like, he will start throwing shit, rip ivs out of his arms, ask you to explain what you are giving him In Detail and will probably still refuse to take it.

tbh, the only reason he's taking any medication at all is because he really loves sheila and she is extremely worried about losing him </3

( jersey is a mommas boy, i said what i said! )

but he takes his own blood sugar, pricks his own fingers, runs all his own tests...he really does not trust anyone else w/ that kind of thing. which ties into piercings because he does...think that they're…lowkey, highkey *jersey vc* Hawt, i’m sorry; it's true.

i do think it's his...Thing.

the man really just wants a little hot topic emo boy accessory display for a boyfriend and he is right for that. cute, shiny, edgy. i respect it.

eye candy, arm candy, if you will?

( jersey is extremely partial to candy, ofc <3 )

and idk, maybe it's just a me thing, but to me, jerseykyle, specifically, is very conceptual and is intrigued by fashion and stuff, but because when he was overweight growing up, he was sort of just shoe-horned into all this oblong, ugly clothing, whatever would fit or they could afford. so he never really got to be able to wear things he wanted to, until about right now and it's been really liberating for him? idk? aaa

i love sleek, chic, dark academia, tired 1940s evil classics professor, thrift store couture jersey in his dollar store blazers and italian loafers. like my man is an off duty model, forreal. i am obsessed with him.

and actually he really Likes tattoos and piercings and dyed hair and thinks all the little rings are cool because you're like this living art form, this distinct individual, there's a uniqueness, a cool rebellion there he can’t create have within himself, so he combats/masks it as disgust and disinterest because he doesn't like to process his complicated feelings and also doesn't like forming attachments...especially...

...to things he's inexplicably Drawn to.

which is why, initially, upon even just bearing witness to raven of crimson dawn, kyle freaked out because he was like immediately Extremely Attracted to him because he checks all these little boxes in his brain, but his brain, of course, is corroded by mental illness and trauma, so he immediately projects extreme amounts of hostility in raven's direction because he is like you're all chaos and disorder, you're a mess, you throw caution to the wind, You’re Unpredictable.

when he’s actually obsessed w/ that capricious energy?

like he makes fun of stan for all his punk rock boy 'hood ornaments' and 'anarchical embellishments', but his heart starts racing every time stan winks at him and his little eyebrow piecing winks back, or he runs his tongue over that lip ring kyle got hyperfixated on, partially because it's pretty, which...rip, not even joking…

if stan comes out in the support rock, fuck a rockstar tank top, the tiny pants and sports that little lip ring chain thing that connects to the cuff on his ear...it does something seriously ( down ) bad to kyle's brain and stan is immediately getting Railed. soz if you were waiting for stan's autograph, hes gettin ky's all over his body. woops.

but!!! it's mostly bc stan had the courage and hedonism to put something through his lip and live with it. that he could get other piercings, get tattoos, let people handle him, put his life into someone else's hands, let them have control for a second, knowing they are executing the thing you want/need without you doing it...

it's literally All a control thing.

or rather, an inability to lose it.

because he's very particular, yeah, about what he likes and doesn't like, he won't wear any fabrics that itch or bother him, he won't buy something if the hem pisses him off, if he has to wear something he doesn't like, he will bitch and moan the entire day about it. and while it's good to have that level of self-assuredness, it's also kind of a self-preservation and self destructive coping mechanism for jerseykyle.

because he pushes everything out...

but doesn't let anything else in.

and a lot of that changes when raven/stan comes back into the picture, because when they were growing up, stan was this beautiful, glowing fixture of nonconformity, this pillar of strength that was twice as strong as he was, even though kyle was the fighter. because stan fought for self-acceptance and kyle fought for self-loathing.

and really...the reason why his ed developed in the first place was because gerald and society as a whole brainwashed him into hating himself and that people would only digest him if he was in small enough, beautiful, palatable enough pieces to eat so even though he acts out or throws punches: It’s All Within The Lines.

or the confines, rather.

of the person he thinks people want him to be.

but, idk, i'm talking too much. basically, gist is, kyle has a hard time handing over control to other people/being vulnerable and the final piece to that is...permanence.

a piercing...a tattoo...is Permanent.

i mean, sure, they close up and you can get them removed, but you are irreconcilably changed and altered. you are different now.

anddddd sigh, the jersey can't say i love you ask strikes again! because jersey can't say i love you because it's handing over control, because it's vulnerable because it's...permanent and he has extremely deep-seated commitment issues because of all of that.

which means he rarely, if ever, makes said commitments.

so when he Does...

it's a very special thing indeed.

because jersey has no tattoos or piercings on his body.

save for the sun/moon one he got on his ring finger for stan ( i can never decide if i want jersey to have the sun tattoo because he is the sun or if he has the moon one so he can wear rae around with him )

*** ( i also think it's possible he might get little hebrew things for his mom or idk, something very important later...i'll think about it more )

and...One ear piercing.

i was going to go at this in more comical and dramatic way in an old post, but basically, i think kenny/bebe/craig someone basically joked about there being reduced earring piercings at claire's and they should take kyle because he's the only one without pierced ears and jersey gets really defensive about it and everyone's like ooooh! kyle's scared to get his ears pierced, so the competitive and aggressive side of him that hates to lose briefly outweighs the neurotic side and is like "fuck you!!! let's go right now! i'm not scared of anything!"

and he gets there, stan's with him, and he is...freaking out in the little plastic chair with some eight year old girl next to him ecstatically getting her ears pierced for her birthday, bc he's going to have to let someone...do something to him/inflict something on him.

( which actually, i think, is what is really beautiful about j.k and r.s' relationship and dynamic, is that jersey teaches raven that you can't just let people do things you don't want them to do to you just because you feel like you should ft. his sexual trauma and stan teaches kyle that it is okay to let other people in, to do reckless things, to allow yourself to feel and enjoy simple pleasures w/o fear. ft. his ocd

lmao, is there a branch in my eye again? y is it Watering )

and ravenstan is like, mi amor, they are just your ears, you will be okay, i will hold your hand…

everything will be fine, i swear. :’) <3

and he gets hyped up, ready to go, the 16 y/o piercing his ears tells him she'll count to three and pierce on one.

...and she pierces on Three.

i'm not sure if it's bc she pressed too soon or because she thought that if she surprised him, it might make him less nervous, but it does not!!!! kyle FREAKS out!!!! his ocd goes haywire and basically has a nervous breakdown at freaking /claires/ bc she pierced his ear before she SAID she would and destroys the confidence that he built up to let himself be vulnerable.

it seems like a Silly thing...but i think it says a lot, yknow?

and though it was a serious blow to his ego, kyle only has...one ear pierced because he panicked and could not get the second one done. and it, to this day, is one of the only asymmetrical things abt him. which, i actually think is important to him coping w/ his ocd

( similar to how kyle, sorry slight nsfw, having stan have to ask for things if he wants them, helps him, in a seemingly innocuous way, build confidence in himself/not let things just 'happen' to him without his consent ) because having only one ear pierced means he has to deal with being lopsided and that, everyday the earth doesn't crash into the sun...means that he's okay.

also a cute thing about the one ear piercing is that i think kyle wears like this cute little gold sun dangly one that has a similar ambiance to the sun and moon glasses chain charms? it's his signature.

and other than showering, sleeping, etc. he only really ever takes it out when raven is going off somewhere far away :( and he switches it with a little stan silver earring ( idk kyle feels very gold jewelry bc of his orange hair and stan feels v silver bc of his blue eyes and stuff ) and stan sometimes takes kyle's with him on tour...AAAAA i'm sad

on the subject of rings, since someone else asked me, kyle does not wear rings even though he does like them/they're pretty because they're heavy, they clank against his pen when he's writing, the sound pisses him off...but he wears stan's lil silver emo boy rings when he's away and gaslit himself into liking the sound because the sound it makes against his pen reminds him of the sound it makes when stan is excitedly scribbling song lyrics and singing to him aaaaa IM :(

WHERE WAS I GOING WITH THIS AGAIN?

oh, yeah.

extreme mental illness.

so jersey never makes adjustments or accommodations for anyone, and when he does it's a big deal...but really...

it's because Stan is a big deal to him.

stan is EVERYTHING to him.

and kyle thinks it's cute that at every show and every concert, stan always wears the little spicy k charm on his emo boy choker ( and got the little even spicier inner thigh tattoo w kyle's name on it...anyways )

so, he starts wearing a little s around his neck for stan.

which, initially, i'm sure you're like...oh God.

jersey making an adjustment to his very specific cartoon character outfit alignment of things he wears every day, things he wears at home, things he wears specifically when going out depending on the environment...this sounds like a recipe for disaster. this is a big change for him. he's gonna spin out or short circuit his brain.

but...really? it feels as easy as Breathing.

because for one of the first times in his life, kyle got something that he didn't just get for him, w/ selfish intentions or bc he needs to be in control...he got it...

to make stan happy. :)

and it does make him very, Very happy, indeed.

which is really funny to me because jersey is super annoying and just starts wearing it and pretends like he doesn't know what's going on bc he's bad at ~gestures~. so stan comes home, sees it and immediately is like *big stan eyes* 'what are you wearing??'

and kyle is like, ‘oh, this? i've had it forever, it's was just in the back of the closet. why? is it wrinkled or—‘ and stan is like 'no, dummy. the NECKLACE' and kyle, playing dumb, trying to act nonchalant because he's kind of embarrassed abt having emotions is like 'oh, that. y'know. just something i'm trying out...' and stan is like

'kyle broflovski, are you wearing a necklace with my initial on it????' and kyle is like 'alright, woah there, mr. celebrity. but not eeeeverything is about you, okay? that s could stand for anything.'

and stan is like *genuine heart eyes wowza because kyle is being annoying but stan loves dumb annoying kyle that's why he wears his lil possessive emo boy k charm on his choker everywhere* 'okay, well the k on mine stands for kiss me or kiss me kyle or whatever you want just, come and kiss me please' kshdlkshd <333 eWW

anyways...they're Gay. they're in love. they having matching tattoos and earrings and wear eachother's intials around their neck. nbd.

but...in a very longwinded format, i hope this answers your question baby and hopefully some other questions you have abt jersey. i'm sorry that was a lot but i literally could talk about jersey forever, like he is so fascinating and bc he's our narrator and he's such an unreliable one, it's hard to understand how his brain works.

hope this helps. <3

uncle nina, keeper of the cryptid jersey whore-lore

#okay i am sorry #i know this barely answers your question #but i got a lot of similar questions #and i wanted to answer them in one big ask while i was feeling inspired so here is a bunch of jersey trauma lore #i hope it's fascinating i find it all super fascinating #because he presents like this perfectly in control orderly well maintained militant self-satisfying self gratified thing #but it's just a front for the fact that he's scared of change and is scared of not being in control or making mistakes #like he is put together but a breath away from falling apart #stan teaches him to sit down kyle teaches him to stand up #also sorry kyle having a fascination with edgy boy things and piercings and stuff in particular is kinda spicy to me #i luv him like he really is like that man is a satanic abomination and i want to do terrible horrible depraved things to him #like he really saw raven of crimson dawn and was like oy gevault i have never wanted to cut my lip open on anything #more than on that mans lip ring holy hell oh my god he is so shiny and ripped up and his makeup is so cool #he is a celebrity he has no original thought he doesnt think abt anything thats why he has all those tattoos and piercings #but also y do i want to trace my fingers down them every time i look at him he reveals himself more to me i want to learn more #kinsey scale gay 6 jerseykyle everyone but specifically for dramatic crybaby bisexual punk rock boys w/ piercings #which...i think is incredible bc i do not think people would expect that from kyle...but people also thinks he cannot feel #BUT HIM ADJUSTING HIS WELL REGIMENTED LIFE TO INCOPORATE STAN INTO IT I WANT TO SCREAM #HIM LEARNING TO LET OTHER PEOPLE DO STUFF FOR HIM AND BE OKAY WITH THEM HELPING HIM #I WANT TO START FUCKING SCREAMING I COULD TALK ABOUT THIS ALL DAY I LOVE JERSEYS CHAR DEV #ok final thot is he does sometimes do a gold jewelry ring moment or somethin if he's feeling like its important to the look #but they are very insignificant things for aesthetics easily taken off or removed...its the important stuff he has trouble w #and makes it all the more rewarding i think <3 #ily jers #okay last last small thing as far as like getting little piercings and random fun tattoos goes i just think he doesnt want any #boring king ik minus the ocd and stuff he just likes all his stuff to be very a-line and crisp doesnt like massive statements #like my man Is the statement like he has beautiful luxiourous curly red hair and green eyes and his nose a modern art piece #its too busy for him its distracting and u know thats what u have a hot rockstar bf for so u can pretend 2 read ur book #but the plot of the book is tracing ur sbfs sexc hip tattoos and helping him decide what belly button ring hes gonna wear #you know!!! The Plot!!! which kyles eidetic mem comes back but he does get distracted looking at stan a lot help

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hopelessrromantix · 2 years

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hullo!! i saw your post about mlm fic requests and if you still have the knife i have an idea.

m!reader has some sleeping issues, a lot like insomnia, and he's sitting by the fish tank, watching the two fish swirl around, moping a little bit because he wants to sleep but he just can't. occasionally looking at the clock tick by.

honestly when he's a little close to tears, Steven (who's at front) comes behind him and asks what's up, reader gets to explain what's happening and Steven's like "oh we have that happen sometimes! i can try to help :)" (because he's a lil sweetheart) maybe just some sweet comforts from Steven & the system in general, idk idk.

as the author, it's up to you to how it ends!! but i've read some of your fics and im in looove <333

laters gators! -💫

i always have the knife <3 short but enjoy some fluff comfort cause im an insomniac who loves these boys

tw: existential thoughts, enjoy <3

It was so easy for everyone else. It came naturally. They’d slump into bed and fall asleep minutes later.

Yet here you were at 2 am, watching Gus 2 and 3 swim around in their tanks. Even they seemed to be doing better than you.

It was like this most nights. Even sleeping with Marc, Jake, or Steven only helped so much. You still found yourself up far later than you should be, wishing you could sleep as well as they did.

Everything was so difficult. So impossible.

It felt like you couldn’t do the smallest thing right. Something every person was supposed to be capable of. And here you sat, tired but unable to sleep, wishing you could just go to bed and be done with the day.

Your mind drifted more than you wanted it to. You didn’t want to spend every night like this. The idea of doing this every night for the rest of your life? All of that was too much.

You didn’t even notice yourself tearing up until your eyes stung. You weren’t one to cry, especially not around the boys. They had each been through a lot, you tried not to burden them with more.

But when you were alone at night, everything seemed so much more overwhelming.

A hand on your shoulder startled you out of your thoughts, directing you to the person behind you.

“Oh, sorry love. Didn’t mean to startle you, promise,” Steven apologized, his voice low. You knew he’d just woken up, and now you regretted not just staying in bed. Now they would be up too and just as tired as you the following day.

“Don’t be sorry,” You said, shaking your head. “I didn’t mean to wake you up.”

Steven waved you off. He sat down on the couch next to you, looking over your shoulder to the fish tank.

“You didn’t, I was gonna grab water anyway.” You weren’t sure how true that was, but you were glad he wasn’t upset. You smiled, looking over to him. He looked tired, but calm. The moon light reflected in his eyes, illuminating the soft brown color.

“You alright?” He questioned, his expression growing concerned. He reached a hand up to your cheek, wiping away a stray tear. You hadn’t even realized you let it fall. “Have you been up this whole night?”

“I wasn’t tired, nothing to worry about,” You reassured. Judging by Steven’s furrowed brows, he didn’t believe you.

“Why didn’t you wake me up?” He sounded so hurt, it made your chest sting. You hadn’t meant to upset him. He needed the sleep too.

“It’s just insomnia, Steven,” You confided. “It happens a lot and you need sleep.” You reached up to his hand, gripping it on your own. You wrapped an arm around his shoulder, pulling him into you. He followed, but kept the worried expression.

“I used to have trouble sleeping too,” He muttered, sounding tired. “It’s a lot easier now that you’re here.”

He smiled, resting your head on top of his.

“We could try music. Or earplugs. Rewatch a movie you like, read a book. I have plenty of things to try, we just need to find one that works.”

“It’s not your problem, Steven,” You said softly. His kindness was sweet, but he didn’t have to worry.

“Yea, it is. You think I’m gonna sleep now that I know you’re sitting awake, all alone?” He asked. “You think Marc and Jake would either?”

You didn’t say anything, reaching your free hand to take one of Steven’s. You traced the back of his hand slowly, drawing random shapes.

“I love you. We love you. If that means staying up a little late and talking, then that’s fine with me.” He glanced over to the fish tank, looking into the glass for a minute. “It’s fine with Marc and Jake too.” He buried himself further into your chest, wrapping his hands around your torso.

Finally, you let yourself cry.

“I love you too.”

#letters to moon knight #male reader #dom male reader #top male reader #steven grant #marc spector #jake lockley #jake lockley x male reader #jake lockley x reader #steven grant x male reader #steven grant x reader #marc spector x reader #marc spector x male reader

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1dkwhat2name · 2 months

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Really really really long post

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Alright this is a really long chain of thoughts that’s not a vent but I really wanna explain to myself, and since I’ll be mentioning a lot of different people I’m gonna letter them

PERSON A: is the person who’s really really cool and I LOVE them /p and I always try n go outta my was to stand next to them or smth cuz yeah I love them (they’re also the person who has my tumblr acc so hello :D)

PERSON B: is another really really cool person (they’re moving really soon :[ ) who’s in most of my classes unlike person A, and person B really goes out of their way to stand next to ME and they clearly really like me and I’m really happy about that cuz yea :]

PERSON C: is someone who I’ve known since childhood, they’re really really funny and I wanna keep my relationship with them but I feel like it’s fading, so I’m always going out of MY way to speak to them and just try to laugh a lil so she doesn’t hate me

AND PERSON D: is someone who I’ve knows for just as long as person A, they’re my friend but they also make me feel like shit A LOT n then make me feel guilty for drifting away when I do, but they’re still really cool and they’ve been through a lot and I wanna be their friend but it’s incredibly exhausting in the NICEST way possible. K let’s get started

Right. Person B and person D are dating, and while this might not be true, I feel like person B doesn’t actually like person D like that. Like based on how person B acts around D, they were sort of roped into this relationship, and they also told me that they’re not really sure how to respond when D does the playful bullying thing they do, and doesn’t really like it either. It also seems like BOTH of them hang out with ME more than EACHOTHER, which I wouldn’t expect from a couple. I’ve also noticed person D is always playfully telling person B off when B wants to hold my hand instead on theirs, even though it’s playful, it seems clear to me that person B doesn’t go with it in a playful way. Moving onto person C. I’m tying my best to be their friend, because we have been since childhood, but the problem between us isn’t ME, it’s PERSON D. C GETS ALONG WITH PEOPLE OK?? Idk how but they do. But when I introduced C to D, nothing worked. Person D would always playfully, not just bully, but actually physically HURT person C, and person C CLEARLY dislikes this, and I have a LOT of problems with it to, that I haven’t been able to voice yet. Person C has kinda stopped hanging out with me when I’m around person D, and instead goes to play netball with her other friends, which I’ve decided to let her since I know she wants to, but I want to hang out with her as much as she does and I don’t know what till this is taking on our friendship. Onto person A. Person A is SUPER COOL and I try to spend most of my time with her, person B and when I can, person C. I mentioned I’m always trying to stand next to person A right? This isn’t really a big deal, but person D is always, literally, coming in-between us, idk if I’m the only one who notices bc maybe I’m too desperate, but still. I feel like person D is becoming somewhat attached to me, despite their GIRLFRIEND, and like I said, or like I might’ve been saying this whole time, I don’t like person D all that much. I want to be their friend, but I can’t keep up with them AT ALL, and I’m also tired to getting blamed for it too. I would probably be able to tolerate this for the next 5 years or so, BUT if my friendship with person C is at risk, I’m choosing C in a heartbeat, not to mention person A. Person D is, like I said, that friend who will PLAYFULLY insult you n stuff, right? That’s fine and I have no problem with it, USUALLY, but with person D, it’s ALL THEY DO, and it feels like SHIT. I don’t wanna leave though, for two reasons- one being I still want to be their friend, and I know half of this has valid reasons to do with them, and I should put up with it. The second being if I were to leave them, I’d also have to leave their girlfriend (person B) and my FAVOURITE person here, person A. How about a bonus reason? Even when I do leave, even for a little bit, they always find me and accuse me of running away, and forcing me back. In reality, I don’t wanna be their friend the same way I used to, but now that I’m here I kind of HAVE to, and I also don’t have anything left to say and idk how to end this super long chain of thoughts so that’s it lmao

bye :3

#shitpost #/nav #person A >>>>>>>#idk how to tag this

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moron-hassaikai-and-more · 10 months

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another duo meme ask: pops and kai. i want all the thoughts

*screams*

Ok so here’s the bingo:

And here’s my brain rot:

I love them. So much. I would give my entire life for both of them. I’m personally of the opinion that Pops did his best to be a good father to chisaki, and depending on universe, this did or didn’t work.

I’d have to explain at lot about the brotherhood au and this is pops and chisaki centric, so we’re gonna go with the bizarre quotes au i have going on on the blog for this:

Typically, I like to give them a similar relationship to me and my own mum: Pops has fucked up. Chisaki knows that, pops knows that, he hasn’t always been perfect, he still isn’t, adopting chisaki was a sudden impulse decision, he should have thought it through better, and at the start, he should have been more considerate to the trauma he’d just been through. But he wasn’t. And he can admit now that that was wrong of him. Kai’s early years in the hassiakai with pops were…bumpy, to say the least. Both were undiagnosed with autism, kai was traumatised and untrusting of everyone, and it was made worse by pops’ mentality of ‘I deal with the same issues he has without support, he can too.’ However, once he saw how bad Kai was actually struggling, a couple of years into him living with pops, and how different he was compared to pops’ biological child(ren), pops took it into his own hands and found that everything kai was exhibiting that his other kids weren’t, were symptoms of autism, he also found he had many of the same traits and got them both tested. Once they both knew what was going on, and pops had explained everything, things slowly started to get better. Kai was taken out of school and homeschooled, which allowed him more free time to work on being able to relax, and more time to explore his passions and hobbies, such as bio chem. he also started to spend more time with people other than Chrono, and started to become…a little more sociable (not by much, mind you, all that happened is his conversational skills went from ‘who are you? What are your motives?’ To ‘able to infodump about science for a few minutes without dying of anxiety’)

As time passed, the two grew closer, and became able to laugh and joke together. Their relationship stopped feeling forced, or like they were work partners, but more like father and son. They’ve both done things to upset one another, they’ve both made mistakes, they both regret things they’ve done and said, but they learned to forgive each other and now have a bond stronger than ever.

Idk how good of a rant this was, I’m tired and not really all here (hahah dissociation-) but yeah- in short. I love these two lil guys and want to hug them and gently kiss their foreheads.

#mha #post office #pops mha #kai chisaki #mha overhaul #can’t be bothered with more tags

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lovvelorrn · 2 years

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okay so i finished greywaren last night (super late and now i’m tired but oh well) and here is what i enjoyed the most (SPOILERS AHEAD OFC):

declan. just that man being at his limit. he got shot, somehow lived and he said ‘fuck me. i gotta keep living???? this is exhausting’. i love that man with my entire heart.

mor and niall’s story. i’m sorry i’m a sucker for that kind of plot twist. are you telling me NIALL LOVED DECLAN after ALL THIS TIME? he literally decided to keep ronan (to try to learn how to love such a thing) BECAUSE of his love for declan and declan (and subsequently us) spent the better part of 7 books (his entire adolescence and adulthood) thinking niall was the motherfucker that hated his sons??? wow. just wow.

carmen + hennessy. they were HOT okay. it was a good time reading them. also felt a deep connection with carmen’s way of expressing her feelings.

MATTHEW . the moment he punched declan and went on his self discovery journey (aka going to see bryde) was chef’s kiss.

adam my son my lover my wife my babygirl … i’ve missed you so much.

okay and now things i didn’t like so much:

ronan is barely on here. he feels like a secondary character (declan is faaar more interesting here than him). like he has chapters but he’s out of it for 90% of the book and he has little to no dialogue (he has monologues but they aren’t the same). his character felt a lil reduced by the end but i guess the plot was as important this time around . i just missed him as i was reading and that was a weird feeling considering this was his book and story.

the end? it felt rushed. not saying anything new here but yeah.. matthew was dead and it was like.. no search party not anything to find him/his body? like they literally gave up on him lmao

the way we got to see important scenes through the eyes of other characters??? like the ronan/adam reunion, or when they rejoined in the sweetmetal and they ‘talked and apologized” but we didn’t get to see it?? why??? that was sooo important idk idk. it all derives from ronan not having like - scenes.

jordan was so absent on this book? i missed her a lot. yeah

why did no one shoot nathan farooq lane BEFORE he went to sleep like what the fuck????? the moment they stepped foot in that house he should’ve been dead . it’s not like he was keeping jordan or adam alive? ALSO a way to make him relevant to stay alive could’ve been if carmen was somehow a dream of nathan, and killing him meant killing carmen. that would’ve sort of explained it but??? it didn’t make any sense that he was kept alive for so long.

so yeah those are my first thoughts on greywaren. at the end of the day i still loved it but it has some flaws that make me sad bc of this being the last book ever etc etc

#greywaren #greywaren spoilers

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tddyhyck · 6 days

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*cartwheels into ur askbox* BLUEEEEEE HOW ARE UUUUU!!!!!

clearly u are talking to urself because u (🫵 YOU!!!) are precious.

u are so right, every song is beautiful and has a different vibe. i didn’t expect to like smoothie in its entirety at first, i liked the vocal parts but the smoothie, smoothie, smoothie chanting in the chorus was unexpected and i was NOT put on this planet to maintain eye contact with lee jeno (or anyone actually…) while he looks into the camera and i was CERTAINLY NOT put on this planet to have na jaemin talk in my ear jkhksjsa but it grew on me afterwards. i cried when i listened to icantfeelanything and unknown on 2 separate nights so maybe i’ll pick those 2 for my favourites… i rlly liked breathing too, but unknown kinda wiped my mind clean. how about u?? i’m not even talking about the performances because they’re *insane*. i just think jaemin would look nice leaning over someone on a table u know… 😞 i remember being so lost when i first saw him holding a sword like jaemin honey why do u have a sword in a song with fruits. then i saw him fighting the fruits and suddenly it all made sense 🙇 (can i just say i found the bubbling sound at the start of second verse so weird on the first listen, before it grew on me? it’s such a funny lil sound, it adds so much character to the song 🫶)

what u said abt jeno is so sweet i will simply cry till the end of time. “he’s very yes to me” such a valid assessment.

ajhdehjgajha ok well u see i don’t remember much about the day… just that i was living life and suddenly had renjun on the mind. specifically dom renjun staring someone down when they’re bratting, and i had a moment like oh, that’s a Thought. (i’m not even much of a brat, where did that come from?) coupled with dumbification 😅 n u’re right the purple looks so pretty on him!!!

all these renjun thoughts of urs ended all of MY thoughts ever. i am WEAK. please always keep getting carried away because i don’t know how to tell u how much i liked everything u said here omfg. (i might take another 100 words to express my feelings and that would be such a shame…) i think i recently stumbled across something to do with rope play (the past couple days have been tiring and i can’t remember much of anything) nd omgg i was gonna bring it up with u cus,, u know how they sometimes tie it in a way that there’s a knot right over,,, anyway 😵‍💫 so glad to see that u mentioned rope here because now i’m going to Think. hah, time to stop thinking.

panty stuffing is that one insane guilty pleasure that i never see enough of and i’m ALWAYS blindsided whenever it comes up anywhere. (is it cursed if i’m thinking of that with our precious kink because of which we started talking…? i promise i don’t have a one track mind 🫶)

gah, how many times do i tell u, U’RE THE SWEET ONE 😭🥺💞🥳 i’m glad u’ve been good 🥰 small font because i didn’t want to clog up ur (or anyone else’s) screen, let me know if u’d rather it stay big haha. i always talk too much but i don’t quite wish to stop 😔 (unless of course u ask me to 😂❤️) sending u another ask wait—

~🪄

OMG did u see the recording video for smoothie 😵‍💫😵‍💫 jaemin all up in my ear and i’m okay with it 🤭 all the songs are so good i can’t stop listening i have unknown and icantfeelanything on my heavy rotation playlist they’re TOO GOOD (chefs kiss) LMFAO jaemin needs to lean over you at the table just saying ¯\_(ツ)_/ jaemin is our fruity fighter protecting us all and making us get our vitamins

renjun + dumbification oh i am SO here for that,, that would change my mind real quick,,, i feel like he would be so good at that too like just fucking you into oblivion,, no thoughts head empty and he’s just taunting and teasing the entire time like “are you sure you can take it?” “you were begging for this earlier” 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

i think renjun is def tying ropes over ur cunt like sry he is ,,, i think he would tie it like idk how to explain this but two pieces on your cunt and then tie the ropes so your legs are spread,,, and he’d talk about how pretty the ropes look against your skin but he can’t wait to see the pattern afterwards 😵‍💫😵‍💫

i think panty stuffing should be the norm i don’t make the rules but i will enforce them 🤭🤭 ALSO AGREE

omg you changed the font size how do u even do that LOL i’m good either way and ALWAYS chat with me i love it 🤭🤭

#tddyhyck ask #🪄<3 #now i’m thinking about renjun with a rope bunny #bye

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seaah · 6 months

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omg diwali this year

(spoiler alert: SUPER LONG POST!! read if you have the time)

in case you didn't know, I celebrate diwali, which is a Hindu festival where you light diyas (oil lamps), make rangolis (patterns with colorful powder outside your house) and burst firecrackers! (which many don't do due to the pollution of it, but I still do :P) the backstory of which is a long story so if ya wanna know more bout it just ask me :)

ANYWAYS this years diwali in particular was super exhausting :’D it was on sunday, and i woke up at fudging 6 AM because my father wanted to take us (my sis and I) on a mountain climb -.- to be fair, it did have steps. But it was SO tiring!! Im not a morning person, so climbing 670 steps up a mountain at 8 AM was definitely not the best way to start of my day >:(

when we got back down through the pathway back to our parking spot, we were ofc SUPER hungry, and there was a lil snack shack near where we parked, so we went to get some food. There were pictures of burgers on a chart hanging from the shack, so we asked for some, but they only served grilled chicken. now, I’m NOT vegetarian or vegan, but on diwali, you’re only supposed to eat vegetarian food. so we just got some cup noodles. but MAN i coulda killed for a chicken burger :(

we got back in the car, and went to buy some shoes, because my father INSISTS that we jog every morning at 6:30 AM, EVEN THOUGH we exercise every evening, and we need jogging shoes for it. again, NOT a morning person, so this is awful :( but if there’s one thing you gotta know my father, is that he’s stubborn as FUDGE so i just hafta do it -.- anyways, we get the shoes, and on the way back i hit my head on a sign. instead of asking if i was okay my father yells at me for being an incompetent person and points out every flaw about me -.- i hear this all the time but it still hurts each time :(

we go back home and by the time we reach its 2 PM. i was like “FUDGE” because we had guests coming over at 12, so we’re like two hours late! but luckily, they’re not here yet, so we have time to get ready :D

like i said, we literally went up a mountain so we just rested for half an hour. Idk what my sis did but i read lackadaisy. Anyways its 2:30 PM and my sis went for a shower. and not 5 MINS later, the guests show up. I mean, we are close with these people, and their son is a great friend of ours, so of course i was happy, but i hadn’t even showered yet TwT anyways, i play uno with this guy while my sis showers and at 3 she’s ready, so i go to shampoo my hair. i ‘m done by 3:30 PM tryna pull myself together and then i find out they’re all done eating TwT so i just eat by myself (my mom makes KILLER veg biriyani so its not like the food was bad or anything)

when i’m done, the three of us are assigned to make a rangoli (two actually, i'll explain) since we moved last year and the front space of our new flat isn’t too big, our friend and my sis make the main rangoli INSIDE our house, while i made essentially a mini rangoli outside our flat BY MYSELF WITH NO HELP. it was really exhausting but i managed to finish it by 6 PM which was my mothers given deadline (the reason no one else helped was because my mother genuinely did the most work out of us and the rest of the adults were sleeping -.-) so after we’re done, my sis and i wear our ghagras (traditional dress) and basically get ready for the upcoming PHOTOSHOOT (my mother LOVES taking photos and usually takes multiple so this is how i like to term it) when we’re done, we perform the puja (another tradition of diwali) and then we go outside to burst the firecrackers! all by 7 PM B)

we didn’t have as many crackers as last year so it only lasted about an hour, but it was sooooo much fun! there were SO many people outside also bursting crackers, and it was really cool to see! I lit “bomb” like crackers for the first time this year, while also lighting crackers like sparklers, rockets, flower pots, pili crackers, pop-pops, and others too! Legitimately so much fun :D but i couldn’t help thinking about last year, where i got to celebrate with many of my friends, and celebrations lasting well into 9:30 PM. laughing and joking while lighting crackers is the main reason why this holiday remains my favourite, nothing can top that. still had a good time regardless :)

we’re done by 8 PM and we head home. we play games like uno and astro party with our friend again till dinnertime (same thing as lunch, along with vadas and subji) another uncle also had come along while we were bursting firecrackers and gifted us a box of cream buns (which, btw, were SUPER DELISH and made me really fancy XD) we enjoy some more till its 10 PM and our friend’s gotta go :( we say goodbye to them and go back home (its common to go outside with guests to see them off) we change into nightclothes and IMMEDIATELY start using our devices till 11:30 PM XD GOD did i need that tho. then we brush our teeth and go to bed at 12 AM (dw, i woke up at like 8 AM the next day so i got sufficient sleep :>)

and that was my diwali! Despite all the stress, i enjoyed very much and continues to be my no 1 holiday :D i hope ya’ll enjoyed reading and maybe even learned a lil something about different cultures along the way :) thx for reading, and have a nice day/night! love ya’ll <3

#diwali #diwali 2023 #so tired

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sanchoyo · 6 months

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today on my lunch break I was trying to clean up my old bookmarks on my browser and started getting all nostalgic looking at how much RV stuff I had bookmarked a few years ago. Like …I don’t know if I’d realistically want to live in one at this point (or rather if I COULD even prices and cost of living allowing, given my …anxieties…to put it mildly) but having fantasies abt it got me thru a whole lot of shit in 2019-2020… its still a cute concept even given my . um. apprehensions after thinking abt it more lmao

then for funsies I looked up apartment costs and got real depressed lol. Like I know my job isn’t livable wages (part time and all) but living w parents can be hell sometimes. And the kicker is, the area I’m in is one of the cheaper ones in the country!!! Like it’s NOT a big city!! My mom complained our landlady raised the rent a few years ago and now the rent is ~almost 500$~ for a three bedroom house and I’m like. You are so out of touch (respectfully) if you saw the prices of studio apartments that are like 250 sq ft being 800-1000$ u would faint. (Granted our house sucks and has a ton of problems that are kinda Bad but…LIKE…) when our landlady kicks it I just know her son is gonna match our rent to the standard too and idk how my parentsll deal w that 😭

idk. Just made myself kinda depressed bc I do want to move out. I do wanna be independent. But with this job (that’s already kinda…not steady or dependable on hours or even just firing ppl at random lol) I def could not afford it if I consider vehicle payments and food and stuff. I just. Agh… watching cute living alone vlogs on my lunch break didn’t help either 😥 the longing is real today 💔 I’ll never be a grindset work all the time person and ik I prob can’t do too much without burning out severely, but I really do want to try to up my income thru-out the next year… (and like, ik im not in a BAD position rn, not everyone even CAN live with their parents up to this age and most ppl have to pay their own bills, etc, where im only paying part of that, so maybe I should try being grateful yk. I Try To Be)

& I know roommates are a Thing but that also makes me nervous 4 a lot of reasons too. I just. Want to live alone to see if I can!! I want to decorate my own space and listen to music and not be told when to do things or worry someone will let my cat out!! I want to be able to go places without having to ask permission to use someone’s car or explain where and have time limits!! I’m almost!! 27!! Next year!!! I shouldn’t have to do all that im Tired of it!! And Sad a lil bit. Idk. At least my job is offering overtime this week again so that’s kinda nice…(also the reason I havent been on a lot lol, trying to make Money and feeling a ll drained) I think I’ll get myself a lil treat at the end of the week to make myself feel better and as a reward for being Good and actually Working. Like. A donut or smth… 🧍🏻

#under a readmoré on account of this being a lil long ramble. it’s not too bad it’s just seasonal sadness probably #the very day of daylights savings and im like. oooh I’ve never been so sad LOL #sanchoyorambles

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queerwhohatesithere · 8 months

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okay in my knowledge of shows here’s a summary of how i think blockbuster season two would go. (ended up being long sorry)

obviously timmy and eliza get together but there’s going to be a lot of build up to that. he just gave up on the store, eliza knows it’s not the right time to tell him. i’m sure eliza also tries to keep the fact that timmy gave up on the store from the other employees, but eventually it gets out and everyone is mad at her for that and she’s forced to explain that she was only trying to help him. tyler and kayla especially would be like, maybe you shouldn’t try to help bc you just make things worse and connie would say something mean that’s meant to be funny, maybe along the lines of implying she’s doing this bc she’s in love with him. ofc she’d deny it, i think at this point everyone would have given up on the store except for eliza. she would try to rally the troops and say it’s not that bad, even though the store is a disaster and the looting continues because of the power outage.

i’m sure she’d put her foot down and make sure people rent things the way they’re supposed to.

i think timmy would either try to, or would close blockbuster and it would be a huge deal and eliza would tell him not to give up and he’d ask why she cared so much and maybe she’d confess love then and he be like oh. maybe he’d be less willing to give up then.

a more dramatic way would be that aaron goes to confront timmy, and is like, i know you’ve been sneaking off on dates with my girlfriend, maybe mention special guy day and timmy would be like, look man, you don’t know what you’re talking about. possibly aaron would punch him and eliza would try to intervene.

no matter what happens, blockbuster obviously wouldn’t close and all the employees would have to rally together. maybe they hold a big celebration or something, i think percy would be a big part of helping since he wants to be closer to timmy and show that he can be a good friend. he also wants to impress kayla.

tyler would be encouraged by lil stevie’s words and wouldn’t give up on film school. he would keep doing his accounting classes for a little bit maybe, until he could tell his parents. i think there would be some drama there where they ask if he even got in and he’s forced to admit he didn’t and they say this is proof he shouldn’t. that would break him and he would give up for a bit and kayla would have to encourage him. i do think seeing how kayla taped the proposal would make him critique it and get back into it, and maybe they’d meddle a bit knowing that eliza likes timmy. i don’t think they’d be the sole reason they get together tho.

kayla will obviously go to community college, i think she’ll take night classes and it’ll affect her performance at work. she’ll be tired and timmy won’t want to say anything, but something will happen that would force him to.

i’m not sure how the show would end. it’s showing a lot of people want to move on, eliza wants a better job, tyler wants film school, kayla wants a job after community college, and idk maybe connie will spend more time with her friends since she mostly worked there to be less lonely. i’m not sure what timmy would do, but i think he’d realize everyone needed to move on and he did too. maybe he and eliza would take that step together. maybe they’d close the store, and it would be symbolic of him saying goodbye to his past. i think that would make sense.

or maybe he’ll hand it off to someone else, although i can’t think of who and that doesn’t seem to make sense thematically. if the store closes, it has to be on his terms.

#blockbuster #chatters #speculation #headcanon #hate saying that in 2023

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