#i'm saying this shit so i don't get too sappy on main

[weebsinstash]

Yandere romantic Alastor Vs Yandere platonic Lucifer and Charlie??? 🥺

I just wanna say the first thing that popped into my head was, Charlie and Lucifer are having an emergency "oh my fucking gosh we can't let them date alastor" meeting

Charlie: ok... ok... I love all of my friends and, and I trust them, and they're good people!! But... I don't want ALASTOR OF ALL PEOPLE, D A T I N G MY-

Lucifer: I don't even want to THINK about what kind of, PERVERTED DEPRAVED SEXUAL ACTS that creepy black toothed hack will want to do!!

Alastor, poking his head through the doorway, ascending slide whistle noise: oh I don't believe you'd have to worry about anything like that *exits room, slide whistle descending*

*resounding 'oh yeah, that's right' from both Morningstars before they call after him that he's STILL not allowed to date you*

No but actually, I started thinking about platonic yandere Alastor vs romantic yandere Lucifer because... just picture it

I am absolutely convinced Lucifer could get a Sinner pregnant if he TRULY wanted to and just, I'm picturing Lucifer looking all around the Hotel for you, not being able to find you, and he calls Charlie who says that you're with her and Alastor in the Cannibal District and, Lucifer is walking up to join you guys and you're talking to a cannibal woman, holding her baby, "aww, yeah, I was kinda starting to think about kids and stuff when i was alive, but uh, guess it's too late for that now, huh?" and you're looking kind of sad and, looking down cooing at the chubby little hellborn baby you're holding and Alastor just *record scratch noise* as he realizes Lucifer is looking at you holding that baby with the most sappy, sentimental, LONGING look in his eyes, Alastor catches this man YEARNING, he is slipping up on main, and Alastor CAN'T STAND THIS SHIT

Like picture from Alastor's perspective, whether you're picturing him as ace or sex repulsed or otherwise, he's platonic for you and someone he considers an enemy not only wants you for themselves, not only wants to stick their gross dick in you, but he wants to IMPREGNATE YOU? Alastor will hide your ass away before he lets that kind of shit happen. Bull SHIT will he let Lucifer put some sort of blonde rosy cheeked hellspawn in your belly!

Charlie just wants everyone to get along but both of these men are ready to have angry straight up fucking musical numbers fighting over you, 🎵"wouldn't you rather have your deer-est friend?" "wouldn't you rather have the king of the end?"🎵 like for real everyone is so fucking overdramatic here, you're being twirled around and pulled between everyone and goddamn if this is how it's gonna be, maybe you'll run off to the Vees or even HEAVEN to get away from this. I'm sure ADAM would appreciate the chance to steal LUCIFER'S woman for once

#yandere hellaverse #yandere hazbin hotel #hh #yandere x reader #yandere stuff #sinprompts

[no-psi-nan]

🥺🥺🥺 not 2 be sappy on main but omg I actually started off in Deviantart ages ago, that was the closest thing to social media for me until the tumblr migration lol. But I never really interacted with people on there, and even upon moving to tumblr, never really interacted with people here too often either. At first I had my main blog which was meant to be more professional since I was selling art to get a little college income, so I didn't really make too many irrelevant posts. Then I decided that I wanted to be able to reblog art and support other artists, so I made a side blog where I carefully curated and tagged the posts I reblogged. I made a few original posts but no one ever interacted, and eventually I realized that people only ever sent me asks there if I tagged anything wrong. Also I found out that adding stuff like series and character tags to a reblog on tumblr is basically useless because the op will pretty much always tag those things which makes it searchable on your own blog even if you don't tag it yourself. And if op DIDN'T tag it those things, your tags will make the post searchable on your blog but NOT in the general search, so it doesn't give op any more of a boost than just reblogging it tagless. So I made another sideblog, which I still have today, and I just rapidfire reblog literally anything I find shareworthy lol. Not any interaction there but at least I'm not wasting my time meticulously tagging strangers posts hsfjdlshfks. Since I was best friends with a big name fan in my main fandom (we became friends when I left a long emotional comment on their fanfic btw <3), I helped run some small fandom events and met more people as well. When I switched fandoms, it was a fandom event that gave me a new friend too, my posts never got any traction. Large fandom discords didn't really work for me either. But on this blog I was lucky, and for the first time people started like actually responding to my comments and posts, and get conversations going! And genuinely that's what's kept my brain rot so powerful I think, because bouncing ideas off each other and joking around and shitposting is genuinely the most fun I've ever had online!! I have to thank desta and oatmeal for the fun times especially, and hillbilly---man left really nice comments on my first few fics that really encouraged me, and I always have fun trading ideas with alienn, saikikthoughts, and crookedlyinnernightmare, plus everyone else who's on here, that's too many people to type out. AND I TYPED UP A BUNCH MORE STUFF BUT TUMBLR FUCKING DELETED IT!! Are you shitting me.... Well I think I remember saying that even if it's been getting kinda quiet and boring lately so my attention is starting to wander (I've pretty much posted all of the meta that's not deep fanfic hc at this point and my drawings take me a long time to make), I'll never delete this blog and I'll still be putzing around online until the day I die probably. And I'll always remember these days fondly and hope to find another great community like this one. And also I highly encourage everyone to post, reply, interact, and play with fellow fans! I've made lifelong friendships over blorbos and even if we don't have the same blorbos any more, we're still friends. Obviously stay safe online, never send money to strangers, probably wait like a year to start shipping each other stuff but still, reach out because you never know who you might meet! I've been lonely irl for most of my life for various reasons, and my online friends have been a lifeline honestly, they're all really important to me. Two of my best friends today come from fanfic comment sections!! Also I need to get around to archiving my meta on AO3 lol (yup, it's for meta too!) but that's gonna be a lot of work so -_-U).

#notes to nopsi #🥺thank u for making an old blogger like me emotional at 7 am #even if tumblr fucking pissed me off by deleting half the post #Also I appreciate the 'hate' anons because even though it must have been super embarrassing for them #it was fun to do some more analysis on a topic I usually don't think about <3

[star-quill]

ok but rockstar!peter getting one of his groupies aka the one he says is his favorite because they fuck so hard-core even when she proclaims she hates him (obviously he's snorted coke off her) pregnant

mmHmMHMHMHMMM!!!!!

you say you hate him but you're special to him. you're the one cheering him on the most, sitting with him at the back of the bus, sharing popcorn when the band sticks a movie on. you're practically dating at this point but neither of you want to put a label on it.

that's one of the reasons why you're so scared to tell him you're pregnant. you call your closest friend and tell her but you don't realise he can overhear you. he's just come back onto the bus and he walks in, the colour on his face just draining when he sees you.

"are you?"

"i uhm.. i have to go.." you hang up and look at him, nodding.

"god fuckin'.. shit.. fuck.."

"peter.. please.. don't be mad—"

"how the hell did this happen? you're on the fuckin' pill and i don't fuckin' go anywhere without a condom.."

"it probably broke.. just.. we can fix this.."

"i just.. i can't do this right now.."

he storms off the bus, you're parked up at the back of the hotel and he just heads inside and up to his room. he runs himself a cold shower, trying to shake it off but he can't get it out of his head. he can't be a dad right now, plus you weren't even together so what's that gonna be like for his image. him knocking up some groupie? he can't have that. he turns the shower off and wraps a towel round his waist, coming back into the main room. he jumps a little when he sees you sitting on the bed but he sighs and sits next to you.

"i.. if.. if you don't want the baby, i won't have it.."

"hey.. no, look.. you do what you want to do, ok?"

"peter.."

"i'm with you, ok? i never fuckin' said it before but.. you're important to me.. i've had multiple girls before but none of them treat me the way you treat me.. you care, you're way too good for me.."

you felt tears at your eyes when he spoke.

"i guess.. i kinda like you.. and i want us to be serious with each other.. like, i want to be with you.."

"you.. you do?"

"yeah.. yeah, i do.. and i'm not just sayin' all this 'cause you're pregnant.. i'm just.. i guess i was afraid of commitment while being on tour and in a band but then you were just with me all the time and i liked having you around.."

you were supposed to hate him but god, he made you feel so sappy and soft. you moved to sit on his lap and wrap your arms around his neck, kissing his cheek before cuddling into him.

"do you think it's a boy or a girl?"

"i think you'd be a great girl dad.."

"you think?"

"mmhm.. and she'd have a pretty badass mom.."

"mmhm.. yeah she would.."

#girl dad rockstar!peter u are so important to me #anon i love u i swear i was gonna make this angsty but i couldnt #peter quill #peter quill drabble #peter quill x reader #peter quill fluff #peter quill angst #guardians of the galaxy #gotg #✎ peter quill #answered #anon

[startingfires]

you're actually a huge inspiration to me hdhjghghjh. like I think of you as an example that things will be okay idk how to explain it like you've been through so much shit and you still have the warmest sunniest vibes yk? i think of you as my cool baddie internet older sister who used to have social anxiety as bad as me and also grew up on the internet but moved to a whole ass other continent to study something she didn't even like and still figured it out and finds so much joy in everything?? and I admire that so much you're my adulting role model tbh and also especially when it comes to social stuff because i feel like you're so chill about that (in a way that is actually realistic for someone like me because i will never relate to people who have only ever lived in one place their whole life and have never struggled with social anxiety and have their best friends where they live) and i aspire to get there. anyway love you bestie 💛

hello??????? kavya it's too early to make me cry 😭

this is the sweetest and loveliest message 🥺 i can't even begin to express how much this means to me.

the fact that you view me like that is so mind boggling to me. not to get deep and sappy on main but you opened the floodgates so now you must deal with the consequences.

i never viewed myself as someone who has "warm and sunny vibes" or who "finds joy in everything". that was definitely not me for a long long time. i never thought that that was someone i was able to be.

i was extremely sad, anxious, stressed, self-loathing and depressed for a very long time. i did not think i would ever be able to be where i am now. we met at the end of that phase of my life. i suppose things got better after i finished high school, then a bit better after i moved, then a bit better after meeting certain people and then a bit better after leaving physics behind (with therapy and medication being a big help through it all). i'm saying this because it takes time. it sucks to hear but it's true. i am not the same person i was at 12, 14, 17 or 19.

i feel like now that i've dealt with my baggage, i've reverted to my child self. i have never felt more connected to her actually. i used to be very happy, sunny, active, caring and kind as a young child. then shit happened and i had to find ways to cope. this led to me closing myself off, isolating and shielding myself from everything and everyone. my only comfort came from books and the internet. i did not have any friends, sometimes i felt like i was barely even alive.

now after leaving all of that behind and starting to live the life i actually want to live, i still don't have many friends and the internet is still my safe space. but the friends i do have are the best people i could ever ask for. they remind me of my worth and that i am loved. despite the distance that separates us, they prove to my younger self that she is not alone and that people who understand her and accept her for who she is exist. and they're pretty fucking cool.

i suppose the being "chill" about social stuff comes from maturing (and therapy lol). in the last couple of years i decided that the right people will find me, i do not need to settle for whoever is around just because. i can be me and if they don't like it then it's their loss. i don't need to mold myself into what i think they expect me to be or into what i think will make me be liked. i'm tired of doing that. i don't need to do that. i know that people that like me for me and that accept all of me with all of my flaws exist. and i don't need to try with them. they don't drain me. they fuel me to be more myself.

yes, it is lonely. and that does not mean that my social anxiety is gone, far from it. but it does make things easier. not settling also goes for all areas of life. you do not need to be in a situation that is not bringing you joy or fulfillment. you don't have to stick to it just because that's what you think people expect from you. the people who really care about you just want you to be happy. you are allowed to change your mind and make mistakes. it's scary but i promise you that it is so so worth it.

it is hard to relate to people who have lived in one place for their entire life and have had the same friends since they were little. it does make you wish that that could have been you. it makes you feel displaced and alone. especially if you have had to deal with that from a young age. sadly, i do not have the answer to that specific issue. but it is nice and comforting to find people who have had similar experiences, even if they're not geographically close to you.

i've been writing this for way too long so it's time to wrap it up.

kavya, you are wonderful. i admire your passion, your drive, your openness and how you are unapologetically you. thank you for being in my life for all of these years. it has been a joy to see you grow. you will forever be my tumblr younger sister 💛💛💛 thank you for being in my life, i love you.

#i say all of this from a place of privilege and everyone's circumstances are different etc etc you know the drill #this is way too long i'm sorry akjdsfdaslja #kavya #ask

[can-ya-guess-my-curent-obsession]

Y- Year: /Do they remember anniversarys or important things like that/

WRITERS NOTES: Requests are open so feel free to put in a request- This is a bit short cuz my head is being weird.

Edited: nooooot yet

All art on this post is mine

This is apart of my Crack alphabet

TW: Curssing, drinking, alcoholism, gaslighting, implied trama, Murdoc's hc get's weirdly angsty, I think it's toxic, mean voices in head, smoking, neglect, uhhh I think thats it if not tell me and I'll add it

(Update: Murdocs shity behavior is not ok, its's abuse, I am nto tryingto indorse it!)

Characters:

/Gorillaz/

Russel

- y e s

-It's not like Russel's over the top, its just he has it marked on a calendar, which he did that from the beginning unlike the others

-There's usually a lot on his mind so he will forget- but like I said Russel uses a calendar as a reminder

-And the day of the anniversary/special occasion so the day of he will remember

-And he usually clears out his schedule and tell the others before hand, so the others won't bother him and his S/O nor will his work get in the way

-But if Russel forgets something every once in a while cut this poor boi some slack he has a lot on his plate

-And due to his work or just him not haveing the energy to go out- anniversarys are often more chill, less fancy

-But they are more sentimental as Rus is just that kind of person, he values memories and all that sappy crap despite him not showing it often

-All of this applies to all phases but phase 7 Russel, because he becomes to atched to that TV and the idea of the promise land that he neglects his relationship with his S/O a loooot.... he doesn't even mean to do it on purpose half the time

Noodle

- s o m e t i m e s ?

-It's complicated ok...

-Noodle has an impeccable memory, but if she gets distracted by somthing- it's easy for things to slip her mind

-Noodle is the kind of person to have a anniversary for everything

-And she tries to remember them and did the first couple of times

-But over time she just forgets

-Also older Noodle(phase 7) doesn't try to remember the other anniversaries anymore, just the main one, lifes just too all over the place for that

-But when she was a young adult she was all over that shit

-But much like Russel, work and the others in the band can get in the way

-So she does tend to start preparations/plans for it but gets wraped up in something else

-And from there its a 25% - 75% chance of remembering, and the percentage in which she remembers and forgets switchs almost every time

-If/When she forgets, and when she eventually remembers the anniversary she gets very disappointed in herself

-But you two still enjoy a lovely together- because Noodle is a queen who knows how to organize the best dates

-But if its not a anniversary or something relevant to her- she will most likely forget them-

Murdoc

- n o . . . k i n d a

-In earlier phases Murdoc just drank way to much to remember and really didn't care for sentimental things he just wasn't raised like that

-And if you don't say anything, he'll just go about his day like any other till Noodle says "Hey- Murdoc I'm surprised to see you still in the house... considering its yours and S/O's anniversary"... he spat out his his drink so fast he almost choked as he yells "FUCK" poor 2D was started so bad

-He ran to his S/O so fast

-If his S/O is fine with him forgetting or his S/O forgot too- he'll sigh in relief- and you two decide to just chill in Murdoc's love shack on wheels Winnebago and chill cuddle with each other and watch movies

-Buuuuut if his S/O is genuinely not happy Murdoc will get pissy for a while then start drinking- because he can't stand when his S/O is genuinely upset with him- then he druckenly begs for forgiveness

-And he may even try and gaslight his S/O saying it's all their fault- and he's innocent because his S/O didn't tell him or remind him(even if they did remind him a coupleof days prior) , so it's all on them- but if that hurts his S/O, he just kind walks away hoping it will all go away

-And if you sit him down and tell Murdoc that he upset you but still love him it's really awkward... then the night can go on relatively well

-But if not ah... it will either lead to a fight or you two pretend it didn't happen

-In later phases and earlier in the relationship he'll forget because he's not as invested in that kind of stuff

-But the longer he's with his S/O the more he is likely to remember AKA he gets a alarm or something to remind him

-He can do something fancy- but he's not gonna have any manners so its best if you stick to something simple

-Murdoc always remembered his and his S/O's anniversary when he was on plastic beach, and would even talk/mention it on pirate radio

2D

- y e s - i s h

-Listen- as much as I love 2D... he couldn't find his way out of a paper bag

-But he is also very determined

-Determind to remember his and his S/O's anniversary

-This counts in any phase

-He really wants to remember soooo bad

-He has reminders every where- and I mean EVERY WHERE

-But in the end he still forgot

-And 2D gets really depressed when he does, especially if he's been in a relationship with his S/O for a while

-Even if his S/O says its ok and comforts him, in the back of his head, a little voice is lampooning him

-The day before the anniversary he gets really giddy, like he can't stop smiling, I mean he even smokes a bit less

-Though before the couple of days before the anniversary he smokes more because he's anxious he's gonna forget

-And the day of and a few day's after the anniversary he smokes more due to his feeling like shit for forgetting

-He's also upset because he had a whole day pland and now his plans ruined because he only remembered/got reminded of the anniversary half way through the day

-With any other special event 2D will try to remember it- emphasis on the try

-He's not as determined as he is with anniversaries but he tries his best

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Tree- I spent 30 minutes trying to confirm that Russel was looking for that promise land and not some other shit- and i ended up goinng down a fucking rabbit hole and got completely distracted, and in the end all I had to do is watch that fucking murdoc talks about some crap and recaps lore and shit which took me like 2 minutes- Fucking ADHD how you pain my writing flow

#2d x reader #gorillaz x reader #noodle x reader #stuart pot x reader #russel hobbs x reader #russel x reader #murdoc x reader

[breitzbachbea]

I'm curious. i might have already asked and forgot but

what made you ship Ireland x Sicily?

Short answer: I had an Ireland OC and my friend had a Sicily OC and we obviously had to mash 'em together.

Long answer: I did a little bit of research back then and Ireland and Sicily have a lot of superficial similiarities. Both predominantly Catholic, both predominantly rural for most of their existence, both having a strong sense of identity (be it something that only emerged in the last few centuries, because the (ethnic) Nationstate is a very young concept) and both having a long history of foreign rule. They're used as examples of backwardness and barbarism of neighbour elites, often ones they are politically/economically tied to.

I also, way back when, started a little AU story that was supposed to be a simple Art Trade for my friend whose Sicily OC it originally was. This has since spiralled wildly out of control and writing that AU has become my main hobby ten years later. During which that Sicily OC became mine, since my friend moved on from the fandom.

And I just ... I am very specifically in love with my Ireland and my Sicily, but you can imagine canon Ireland and Romano for all you want, if you want to get it. They're just so made for each other - loving, kind, and warm, embracing the whole world. Take no shit but do no harm. They also share a certain dark and fatalistic sense of humor, love to lament but ah well, in the end you make do.

I just love how Ireland and Sicily fit together like puzzle pieces. Sicily, shunted from the world stage in Hetalia, no longer even a prized crown jewel, a caged bird, just seen as a burden who happens to have a pretty house. And then Ireland comes along and says "I see you". Sicily doesn't even have to explain the years of hardship, the degradation, the loss of yourself as you see your people drift away because there's nothing left for them here. Ireland knows, but they don't have much of a shared past so there isn't baggage of millennia of sharing history. And Sicily understands too, understands how hard the price for freedom is and how desperate one is for it after being kicked down on. They work without words. They are each other's safe haven, gladly finding solace in their mirror image. Ireland has someone who looks up to him without being bitterly disappointed; without obscuring the man behind the myth.

And oagh, in LFLS. Harry and Michele see themselves as someone who's hard to love, who's too flawed to genuinely keep anyone around, and they effortlessly take each other's hands and don't let go. They're charmed by how stubborn they are in their own ways, they see how hard they work and how much they love their family and friends. They see someone who's beaming with pride, who knows their own worth, but also isn't so far up their own ass that they can't laugh about themselves. SicIre are just old men at heart. They are the perfect ship for sitting on the porch together and bickering about the neighbours and expressing their love in little sappy, gestures. They're just ... they're just so alike and yet different enough in how they express themselves that it never gets boring.

Also, also, just looook at them.

(Pictures respectively by @/modernday-jay, @/lieutkenny and @/c0ffinated)

#beareplies #maryeve #is this coherent? probably not #but I have no good answer other than I saw two characters similiar to each other and then blacked out #and woke up with them being tied together with the red string of fate in every universe. they just make sense to me. #aph #hetalia #hws #aph ireland #hws ireland #hetalia oc #aph sicily #hws sicily #sicire #aph sicire #hws sicire #storie nostre #harry #miche

[actuallycassidyiambusy]

You have become one of my favorite blogs. For several reasons.

Your art is fantastic.

Your writing is so good. Like really. Never stop.

You're a funny motherfucker.

But the main reason?

You don't give a SHIT.

I'll elaborate lmao

There are so many antis out there. So many petty people who feel the need to drag others for anything they don't agree with. There are Bluffy shippers that get attacked on Twitter, on here and just about anywhere else they decide to reveal themselves. They get shit on and called names for literally NOTHING. Hypocritical assholes who just can't stand when someone is happy with something they don't like. People who act like you're the antichrist for something as stupid as an age gap or something that isn't technically "canon"

I have been a target myself for some of my Bluffy art and it always upsets me. I get my shit screenshot and then I get blasted for something fictional 😕

But you? It doesn't faze you. You couldn't give a fuck less what people have to say, and I envy that so much. You dust off your shoulders and keep creating some of the best Bluffy content I've ever seen. Seriously, I love when you post and you post with zero regrets. I wish I was like you. I wish the antis didn't bother me.

I'm always showing my friends your work and several of us are currently reading your fic. Please don't ever stop creating. You may not know it, but you make me feel seen. That sounds really sappy, but it's true. A lot of people love what you do and we love your don't give a fuck attitude. It's refreshing for the people who are too shy or too afraid to post their work.

It always pisses me off when I find out someone is bullied into silence or anonymity. There is no reason to hate on something that hurts absolutely no one. No one should be afraid to post their art or share their favorite pair.

You shouldn't be afraid. There are fuckers on this site shipping people with animals for fuck's sake. People who draw monster porn, furry porn and fuck knows what else. And you're feeling scared to post a ship that has an age gap? Fuck, that just doesn't sit right with me. They're literally both adults. Didn't Damon and Stefan Salvatore flirt with a literal high school girl? The age gaps in Supernatural are wild as fuck. (And just to be clear, I'm not hating on those fandoms. I love me some vampires and demons🥴)

Not to mention the people the same fucking age as Luffy shipping themselves with Buggy? Everyone seems okay with that. It's hypocrisy at it's finest, kid.

Fandoms can be extremely toxic and I'm so sorry you got treated so horribly. My blog will always be a safe space and I will never stop posting or answering my asks. I do hope at some point, you feel confident enough to post again. Antis will never go away and they'll never stop being complete assholes. There's no reason for them to screenshot your shit and blast it. A block button is a beautiful thing. They have options, and every time, they choose to act holier than thou. There are times it does bother me. It really just pisses me off more than anything else, but it's not gonna stop me. I'm not hurting a single damn person and neither are you.

I'm flattered that you love my work so much and that you share it with whoever you can. Fuck what they say. Keep making whatever art you like and shove it down their throats. Eventually, they'll see that their behavior has no effect on you and they'll back off. And if they don't? Fuck it. Keep drawing anyway.

Idc who you are. I'm someone you can come to if you need to talk. I'll listen and let you get it all out. Life is hard enough and I'll never understand the people out there who want to make it worse. That's not me.

#one piece #anon ask #answered #buggy the clown #monkey d. luffy #buggy x luffy #buggy #luffy #one piece netflix #bluffy #im so fucking tired of antis #buncha idiots crying over a fictional fucking couple #get over yourselves and let people be fucking happy #ffs

[stupid-sloot-headcanons]

Had this elaborate weird GoW dream where I was arranged to marry Týr, then helped him in his plans but had to erase my memories of it all to keep me safe in case Odin managed to capture me.

Imagine Týr working with one of the Giants to use a combination of Aesir, Vanir, and Giant magic to prevent Odin from easily figuring out how to unravel the spell. But this goes VERY wrong, maybe due to Odin or his allies/minions interrupting the spell. Týr's s/o now has no memories at all, with just vague intuition and flashes here and there when she sees or hears something or someone familiar. Týr is kidnapped but manages to send his beloved somewhere secret while they're unconscious.

They don't know where they are or who they are, but they manage to remember little bits over time after coming across the Giant prophecies and statues of the gods. They knew Týr, and they think they were very close with each other. And when Odin finds them years later, they're still not entirely all there. But with Týr imprisoned, Odin takes on his form and--once Kratos and Atreus "rescue" him--he insists on finding his beloved so they can't fall into Odin's clutches.

Kratos and Atreus manage to find Týr's amnesiac s/o, and when they all return to Sindri's home, s/o can't help but feel strange about reuniting with their husband. They hoped they'd get their memories back entirely after seeing him again, and while some DO come back it isn't that clear. He's very kind and warm to them, but whenever he talks to them or touches them...something feels off about it. Would the Týr in their scattered memories really say or do something like this?

Tyr admits he'd changed drastically due to the trauma he endured as Odin's prisoner. But he's so happy to finally be with them again. He spent so many years worrying about his beloved, hoping he was able to keep them safe and far from Odin. And now, they're together again! With his and his allies' help, their memories (and secrets) can definitely be restored somehow.

I'm just imagining the fucked up aspect of Odin disguised as Týr using his son's wife to try and find out what Týr's been hiding. And at first it's just a strategy to get what he wants, but a part of him (a part he would call "soft" and "sentimental") would enjoy having a wife again. And this one's much more compliant and trusting thanks to their amnesia and dependence on him to get their memories back; plus, they're a good fighter, and knowledgable of some magic and other things not even he knew about. Týr must've inherited his father's attraction to intelligence, among other things. Odin has no doubt that Týr's s/o taught things to Týr the same way his Frigg taught him, but unlike Frigg, Týr's wife couldn't betray him.

Hm. His main priority is getting the mask, but enjoying a happy marriage/do-over courtship for the first time in years is a nice bonus. He keeps finding ways that they remind him of his great love Fjörgyn. Despite his hatred for the Giants, he loved her more than anyone in the Realms; and despite how much he hates Týr for betraying him worse than a son ever should betray his family, his wife is so loyal. That kind of love is a precious thing, and if the real Týr can't experience it, then Odin is happy to do so in his place. It's an extra punishment to his traitorous son on top of everything else.

Also: Brok finds all the affection and cutesy glances and all form of romantic shit on Tyr's part to be vomitous and overly sappy. The fuckin god of war better not bang up him and Sindri's broom closet too bad, but it's not like there's any other place Tyr and his memoryless wife can get up to anything alone. Hell, how d'you give a lady some of your branch when you're the size of a whole fuckin' tree? Freya better know some spells on how to heal a broken pelvis, assuming Tyr isn't as cowardly and peckerless as he acts around the others. Brok just reckons he's lucky most of HIS lady friends were always taller than him, as opposed to the other way round.

#like on a scale of 1-10 of fucked up shit odin's done #where do you put 'assumed his sons identity and seduces his amnesiac daughter in law' #and 'is partially attracted to how (among other things) theyre reliant on him due to their memory loss' #.god of war #yandere god of war #.odin #yandere odin #tw: dubcon #.myshit

[d--dandelions]

tagged by @chaos-monkeyy and @cordeliaperry for what i didn't initially realise were two separate ask memes 😂 thank you 💛

i'm gonna merge them both into one big list so this is going to be enormous, sorry in advance 😂🙈🙈 edit: it's horrifyingly big, i had to hide it behind the cut for everyone's good

1. when did you post your first ever fanfic?

july of 2020

2. first character you wrote for:

jaskier XD who i have since written. lots. for. 🙈

3. main character(s) you’re currently writing for:

i feel very unequipped to answer this one XD

4. character(s) you haven’t written about before but plan on writing about soon:

....same with this one XD i have a couple of thronebreaker wips and haven't written for that before so let's go with that

5. fandom(s) you’re currently writing for:

picture me looking awkwardly between my quiet ao3 and my tangled jungle of google docs in bafflement

6. platonic pairing(s) you currently write for:

i simply Have Not done that XDD 🙈 i don't tend to read/watch a lot of romance-heavy stuff outside of fanfic and so fic is basically my one outrageously sappy outlet and i take full advantage of that

7. romantic pairing(s) you currently write for:

...see previous fandom question 🙈

8. your top 3 tags on AO3 (if you post your works on AO3):

watersports

omorashi

wetting

can we all just pretend we're shocked? XD

9. your current platform where you post your works

'tis i

10. snippet of the wip you’re currently working on:

oh no, the thing i'm bad at 🙈 have a unpolished bit of radskier from right at the beginning of that free-use fic

He felt loose and liquid. Something in the wine, maybe. Or, more likely, in the time spent beforehand, with Radovid laying him down on the cushioned table and readying him. Loops of soft rope, wrapped to display rather than confine and, finally, a band of thin leather wrapped around the base of his cock, enchanted so his own pleasure didn’t get the better of him too early.

meme the second:

How many works do you have on AO3?

i've got 15

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

47,634

3. What fandoms do you write for?

so far i've only written for the witcher and sga but who knows what the future holds 👀

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

poached, reunion, got you on my mind, hold that thought, distractions

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

oh absolutely every time!! putting fic out there is vulnerable and terrifying and it means the world to me when someone takes the time to comment 💛 and, having been on the other side of it, i know how nerve-racking it can be to leave a comment 🙈 so even if it takes me ages, i like to say something back and let them know they're appreciated

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

oh god XD maybe this one? i'm a sappy fuck

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

....pretty much all the others XDD due to aforementioned sappy fuckiness

8. Do you get hate on fics?

i don't think so, at least, no one's ever put any where i could see it. i think i tend to fly pretty under the radar in fandom spaces and i normally stay in my nice damp niche

9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?

fuck yeah 😏😏 although i often lean more into kink than outright smut 🤔 it's all horny shit, which is what counts XD

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

i haven't yet!! maybe someday, although i think i lean more fusion than crossover (disclaimer: i have written neither XD)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not as far as i know

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

that's another no

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

i have not, i'm not sure i'd be any good at that XD

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

i have never and could never be able to choose 🙈

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

hmmm, i try to leave my options open and never fully count out a fic 🤔 but there's more than one i kind of lost confidence in and am now too scared to open the google doc for 🙈 sigh

16. What are your writing strengths?

i don't think i can answer that

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i sort of mentioned this before but i think a lack of confidence? sometimes, often, i talk myself out of a fic before i've really given it a try, or i get too bogged down in self-doubt and end up struggling to get any of the actual writing done. double sigh

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

hmm, it's never really come up for me. i would say, unless it's a fictional language or a super common, easily translatable phrase i'd probably avoid outright writing in another language unless i could check it with a native speaker. just in case 🙈

19. First fandom you wrote for?

the witcher <3

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

i think i'm a little biased towards my first published fic? just because it was huge for me to finish and post something and i'm still amazed i pulled it off XD🙈🙈

#whoof that's a lot of dd thoughts #thanks for tagging <333

[anxietywriter]

romantic things

because i'm hopeless i'm a sap, this is significantly more rambly than my other lists because i am in fact using it to wax poetic. i change the pronouns randomly sometimes my bad

taking so long to respond when they say they're more into kisses and cuddles because you're just crying in relief. so so much relief because they had asked how much affection was okay (such a green flag) and you had mentioned that sex was off the table (aspecs rise up) because you know that they knew but you were still scared. (it's a bit controversial from what i hear, but i'm of the thought that your partner should know if you're asexual asap)

it's the dreams of picnics and little hikes and aquarium dates and warmth. warmth because of dreams where you're given their jacket and still leaning into them for more warmth and spooning them in your arms. of sunsets and sweet words.

speaking of hoodies, constantly wondering if some of your clothing would fit them because hey you don't actually don't know?? and buying oversized clothes or accessories that can fit most sizes just to share something with them.

having a list of songs that reminds you of them and also of your own complicated feelings towards love? of being afraid of getting hurt but still wanting that feeling anyways? of hesitant confessions and fear of rejection? but also of calling them your lover so long as said love is true?

the fact that i write poetry despite having a love-hate relationship with poetry and even hating some of my own poems. but adoring a lot of the ones that i wrote about him when i was particularly sappy. the fact that i tagged them with a heart. the fact that i'm mildly embarrassed and don't know if i'll ever even show him, but still make them addressed to him.

even in the middle of an artblock, i dragged myself out to then create drawings of one poem and even some doodles that i thought he'd enjoy. including some with two subjects rather than one because yeah i am that corny. the fact that i'm considering recreating the doodles with more details and making it a series of drawings.

being a relatively frugal person. that will absolutely not stop you from buying them shit. nothing big or too committal, just a little treat. just to live in their head for a little bit rent free.

it's the hope that flutters in my chest with every little meme captioned with "us" and the comparisons of main couples from his newest favorite movie

the immediate and multiple apologies for late replies and messages. the fact that they want to talk to you and are letting you know by saying they're sorry. and you forgiving them instantly.

the casual mentions of a future of "oh later we should go do that" or "i'll take you there one day" or "we should watch it together." it's the implied want for longetivity. how they want to keep you in their life.

#writing prompts #story prompts #prompt list

[virtue-and-beneviolence]

*ehem*

im gonna start this off by saying this year will mark 4 years of me with this bitch as not just an f/o, but my main f/o

Keigo Takami, better known by his hero name, Wing Hero: Hawks ! from My Hero Academia. where do I even start with this asshole. being the number 2 pro hero of japan, he is cocky beyond belief in the best most infuriating way. i couldnt even begin to explain how much or for all the reasons I love and adore this stupid birdman, so instead I offer whatever this word vomit is

now I have *checks doc* 4.6k of just basic information about us written out so I'll try to give you the cliff notes version. I was originally going to school to become a search and rescue focused hero, but a villain incident during my 3rd year left me unable to continue with that plan. ending up in a low paying desk job, to get some extra income I signed up for one of the sugar daddy finding websites. and what do you know it just so happened to be keigo that was interested in being my sugar daddy. *insert devloping relationship, angst, and a time skip* wham bam a loving committed relationship is born. neither of us are the best at taking care of ourselves, but gods know we take care of each other

now enjoy some stupid random things pulled straight from my google doc;

He coos back at pigeons and will talk about "the pigeon tea". He talks about it so seriously that no ones knows if he actually can talk to the pidgeons or not

*puts on a sheet with slits for his wings for halloween* im a poultry-geist

late night slap happy holding his face v seriously asks “keigo can you talk to pigeons” “....coo” “tHATS NOT AN ANSWER???” v serious whisper “i am the pigeon whisperer”

obligatory picrew

and a few more photos bc hes pretty and I want to show him off

I don't have a ship playlist but I do have one for keigo that has a lot of love songs thrown in bc I'm a lovesick bitch so

I don't have a ship playlist for us but I do have one for keigo that has sappy songs in it bc I'm a lovesick bastard and of course that bled into his character playlist are you kidding me. so have that

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◇─◇──◇── @mimic-of-hysy  x Hawks! ──◇──◇─◇

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□ I wanna start with just how badly I think Hawks needed you in his life. Someone who can know him and love his every eccentricity, give him a reason care for himself by caring for you.

□ Something tells me he was never ashamed of having fallen in love with a non-famous hero. That he was so fully supportive of you in everyway and only annoyed by busybodies who asked when he'd grow out of this phase with you. His reaction, his publicist reminds him, could have messed with his ranking. He couldn't care less.

□ I think the public grows to love you too, for the record.

□ Why do I see him trying so hard to bake cookies for you as a surprise??

□ He has 100% "taught" you some bird speak. Jury is out on whether it was just to give himself a giggle or not. The mystery of does he REALLY speak PIGEON??? continues.

□ You love to tease him about the one time he walked into your balcony door, because holy shit, he turned himself into the silliest fucking stereotype. You occasionally bid him goodbye with a kiss and an affectionate, "don't fly into any windows today, birdbrain."

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did I assume wrong?? yall are publicly together now,, right?

I'd love to hear more about the early days. The sneaking around and how quickly you both felt the connection hehe

ALSO ARE THE WINGS SOFT I NEED TO KNOW HOW SOFT THE WINGS ARE IM SORRY.

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Come make my day, tell me about your self ship, and get some hcs of your own.

#SelfVi's Event #i hope you like this T.T #im shook that you trusted me to try for your main main main mans <3 <3 <3 #my HEART DUdE #love your backstory

[d-amore]

💌 - What would a love letter from your f/o look like?

🐱 - Would you adopt a pet together? If so, what pet would you get?

🎟 - What would a movie date with your f/o look like?

With Leon 👀

🐱: tbh, no!! nor me or him like having pets :') i like cats and dogs from a distance and he's ok with dogs though!

🎟: we usually stick to hero and action movies! he likes a lot and hero movies are my guilty pleasure kjdjgjdfj sometimes we watch romcoms too (he complains but i know he enjoys it)

💌: OK SO THIS MIGHT BE OOC BUT I'LL TRY‼️

Dear Hello Mari Hey Mari! It's probably must be weird to be getting a card like, on this day and age, but!...

tbh taka and chihiro told me it'd be cute. and it'd help! that's the main reason i'm writing tbh. idk why i'm so nervous writing this! i just hope you never read it. i'll burn it after i finish this. yeah, i'm doing that

it's just. idk how to explain this. i mean i know but it's probably not what you'd expect. actually, you'd expect it from me. i'm not a prince on a white horse, y'know? i'm far away from that. i'm more like a 80s rockstar with an intense relationship, the type of relationship where he writes cool songs that go down on history

and ig that's just how you make me feel, y'know? like i could write an amazing song that i'd show you and say "i wrote this for you babe". like, you know i don't like baseball, but everytime ik you're watching, i feel like i need to score perfectly, just to... show off

fuck that sounds horrible. everyone knows i do that with any girl. but you're not any girl. not that i mean you're not like others girls or whatever, i mean maybe you're a little bit, but you're... fuck i should have been writing this with a pencil

IT'S JUST THAT... i care what you think of me. i want you to think of me with love, if you get me, and not like "ugh that annoying boy" like i think you're thinking sometimes. i want you to think of me and smile just like i do when i think of you. or search for me in a room just like i search for you. or want to show off but get fucking nervous when you see me, just like i get nervous when i see you

but i always think i'm not good enough for you. that i'll always be viewed as the lady's man and not.... a boyfriend. an actual boyfriend. the one that shows up with flowers, takes care of his image and that can meet your parents. i fear i'm not any of these things. i fear that you'll reject me

so... yeah. i think that's all. i'll pretend that you'll read this, giggle and say how much you love me too. but instead i'll burn this sappy shit. God i'm stupid

#SPOILER IT ENDED ON HER HANDS AND SHE READ IT #discostick 🎶 #answered! #honestly idk why i got so personal wlth this card

[radioactive-earthshine]

Ok I have. A fix it fic plot in my head. And I'm ALREADY WORKING ON SOMETHING ELSE, and I don't have the energy to write all of it (it's also like. Extended. So I might just run out of steam halfway) But I can tell you my synopsis. So, Lobo does some time travel bc he has time travel abilities on his bike, like, canonically. But oopsie!, something went screwy with the capabilities, and he got shot right next to Slobo in the statue. However, Lobo is much larger than Slobo, so the statue breaks open. Lobo is like "damn that's crazy, anyway have fun dying I'm going home" but then he finds that the bike is broken. Slobo says "hey if you can find something that can fix me, I'll fix your bike." so they have a deal now. Slobo fixes it and Lobo brings him back to the past, and Slobo starts getting worse, fast. Lobo needs to find a safe house, and the closest one is Crush's apartment. This leads to a very clear scene where they break into Crush's apartment and Lobo gets his nose broken by a flying travel mug. They reach an agreement and Lobo leaves to find some shit he needs to help stop Slobo's cell death. This leads him to Larfleezle's hoard, where he finds what he needs, and as he leaves he accidentally breaks Bruno out. They start to fight, but then Larfleezle is like "bitch don't steal from me I'll kill you" so they have to team up to survive. They make it back to earth together after some Space Bonding™ and finally start Slobo on the treatment. Lobo decides to stay to make sure he's ok and Bruno doesn't have anywhere else to go so he stays too. A few weeks later, right as Slobo is managing to be closer to healthy, Larfleezle is back. They fight as a family, they win, sappy hallmark family finale.

So. There was that. What do you think?

This is a wild ride from start to finish and I can see it blocked out in comic format easily. I will admit that I did not get a chance to read much of the N52 Lobo run and my main exposure is when he showed up in other comics so it's hard for me to really give a solid opinion on how to work him into the Lobo family but I'd be down for this. I feel like Crush would be very suspicious about Lobo's 'helping' Slobo, despite the fact that Lobo did give him his word he would help him and he NEVER goes back on his word she knows he can monkey-paw the shit out of it. I feel like she would reach out to the OG YJ and say "Hey your old teammate is in my apartment puking blood, Lobo is trying to fix him but you know how he is."

It leads into them of course reaching out to him and Slobo getting PISSED about it because he reads it as pity and Anita needs to put him in his place. They bond together, share memories, and offer to try to get him help from somewhere else but Slobo refuses and Lobo comes back etc. etc. etc.

There's so many ways he could come back, whether as a nuclear Lobofam 'bonding' moment or as something wild and crazy like Jenni Ognats stumbling across him and freeing him and him becoming a member of LOSH.

#slobo #slo-bo #great conversations

[dark-muse-iris]

It's National Suicide Prevention Month and I've just got to say a few words of honesty as a seasonally suicidal gal:

The first thing I won't do is post hotline numbers. Some I personally know called and didn't get any help from them. A lot of the helplines can do intake and emergencies, sure, but the referral process and long-term preventative care are so hard to get, especially in the United States where insurance companies often put hard limits on the number of times you can reach out for any help. It has gotten worse in recent years, as you may expect. The waiting list can be several months. What then? So if you're trying to help, don't throw that hotline number at a random person thinking that's going to solve anything for them. You're better off giving cash. Money can solve a lot of problems that lead to suicide. Nothing made me think "Maybe I CAN make it!" harder than a pay raise, tax refund, or found money buried in a depression pile of laundry.

I'm also not going to share a lot of soft and sappy performative BS like "check in with your friends who you normally don't talk to." As one who has been chronically ill with suicidal ideations for nearly a decade, I don't want people to only reach out in September to check if I'm dead or not. In my view, finality has both logic and closure and no one should look down on you for trying to find meaning at your lowest point while marinating in a sea of chaos with no answers and no help.

"Friends" who only reach out every September to say "I was just thinking about you, how are you" and never reach out any other time of the year while you're publicly announcing all the warning signs can fuck right off. That approach to "support" can make coping with this struggle worse. Pretend-supporters do not belong in your immediate circle--ever. I've met many who pretended to care about suicide and depression then did everything to never talk about how I got there. Suicidal people get told every year, every crisis, to ask for help when they're hurting, but so many are not equipped for that shit whatsoever or, worse, they don't care to learn. Friends/family who are only there for the good times and run at any discomforting talk of the human experience are worthless as supporters. Again, they're better off giving money.

I'm definitely not going to say "don't be selfish, suicide is selfish" because I've lived years where I was so broken and sick I had to have a caretaker. I thought a lot about how selfless death would be for that person who helped get me out of bed and fed me when that didn't make sense. I thought about how it would give them their life back. The only "selfish" part of that thinking was that I didn't ask how they felt at the time. I was too mired in my own hurt to see anyone else.

I have always believed that suicide occurs where the resources don't meet the needs. In the mind of the one who suffers, the cost of living is too great to endure. And that cost could be one we personally pay or our family pays when they try to reach us. Despite all the insane challenges we've faced in recent years, I still see a lot of people saying they hope things get better and then not do a damn thing to meet any of those needs for people they love.

We all need to consider that perhaps a whole lot of people talk a lot of shit to make themselves feel good enough to sleep at night, and do little else. When I see a half-hearted message from someone who I know doesn't care enough to have a real conversation, I imagine them taking a "I'm a good person, really" vitamin before bedtime. Performative charity is a soma we should have stamped out years ago and haven't. That's why I'm making this post.

So I'm gonna share the two main reasons why I haven't killed myself yet, in the hopes this will be a greenlight or shared camaraderie moment for someone else:

One more day. I always plan something for the next day that I want to do alone. Therapists, including mine, emphasize the importance of keeping peers around who will tether you to living, but I think people are fickle and often unreliable in crisis. Can I count on them when I'm at my worst? Ehhhh, I don't always like those odds honestly. Many of my pals are suicidal at the same time and those chats are interesting. So I plan fun solo shit that's just for me, that I would enjoy doing even if I'm completely abandoned by everyone who ever claimed to love me. That can be art, a TV series, video game, a new passion, hobbies--ANYTHING. It can be strange or niche or wasteful looking to outside eyes too. Outside eyes who haven't been in your shoes don't matter. They. Don't. Matter. The only thing that matters is that you'll get to enjoy that thing if you hang for one more day. If you ignore someone to get that itch scratched and it pisses them off, see #1.

Spite. That's right, pure spite, bitch! Did I gamify my life and turn it into the hardest quest ever? Yes. In some fucked way, it's working better than therapy. What gets me out of the bed is knowing that somewhere I've outlived an enemy, perhaps an asshole who thinks bi people are closeted gays who just dress this way for attention. I think about how some of the evangelical cultists who made my life hell years ago died during COVID. I smile knowing I got to hear the birds sing another season than they did. I chuckle thinking about how I earned a bigger paycheck than the judgy bat in my office who looked down on me for not having any kids. Trust me, there's always going to be a reason to celebrate making it another day if you're petty enough and got the loot. Live another day, level your gear, build a better raid party, and then who knows? You could be a villain with great hair who writes these posts and didn't sleep on it first. What are your enemies gonna do, tell you to drop dead? I'd rather watch one get so angered by me they pop a blood vessel in their eye. Then I'll paint a watercolor of it.

I spent the last 2 years throwing myself into these approaches and you know what happened? The people around me thought I was actually getting better and not still casually suicidal at my work desk LOL! I buried more family than anyone else I know, lost thousands of dollars, got more ill trying to weather all that. Where's the off-switch? The ground has never looked more fertile for a gravestone, so I stopped thinking about the long-term hope that was always unattainable. I'm not rich or connected enough to think past a few years lol. Inflation made sure of that, so I lived for the next hour like I was fifteen and regressed back to a mouthy little shit again. Surprisingly, I lost depression weight, smiled more, slept better, etc. all because I thought, "Man, I can't wait to outlive these fuckers. If another senator who voted against fair housing gets COVID, I'm buying myself a milkshake."

Anyways, I may regret rambling this hard but I hope it reaches someone who also hates September online. My algo started showing all the aesthetics posts urging suicidal people to somehow bootstrap dystopian conditions and live for a better future like we're in the post-war era again. You know, the one: "Just call the hotline from this monetized diagram I made in Canva, bestieeeeeee." *bats eyelashes* It just--it reeks of Lifetime exceptionalism that's out of reach for many incomes and not a single one of us with depression or chronic conditions plan on shouldering "hope," that ever elusive bitch. If I see a bedazzled hotline list again this year, I'm gonna barf--and maybe make a watercolor of it.

#cursed night thoughts #iris rambles

[laceghost]

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I'm so late but ty for the ask!! <33 1. Song of the year? That's so fucking hard to answer?? I think it's a tie between Spillways and Griftwood

2. Album of the year? Legally obligated to say Impera. cmon

3. Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year? Very end of the year find but House of Harm is becoming a favorite of mine really quickly

8. Game of the year? I barely played anything this year tbh :/ I'll say Omori bc I finally finished it and it was super good!!

9. Best month for you this year? So glad that I had such a good year that it's hard to choose lol my whole summer of july to september were the absolute best, I got to spend a lot of time with my best friends, traveled to visit some amazing places and saw some really cool bands! I can't just choose one bc these three months felt like a whole year to themselves

11. Something you want to do again next year? I went to a very cool underground bar/venue in my town for the first time and I really hope I get to go more often!! I really want to see more little shows this year basically

12. Talk about a new friend you made this year HI HIIIIII @niimuue !! Ok so technically we've known each other since before this year. BUT. I didn't meet anyone new and I feel like we really got to know each other this year!! I'm so glad we started talking more,, not to be sappy but you're a literal ray of sunshine in my days when I talk to you. ok i love you

13. How was your birthday this year? Pretty fun! We had a picinc at the park with my friends and I got to eat some good cake :) Didn't cry this year wich is an achievement (yipee)

14. Favorite book you read this year? Oh Gideon The Ninth hands down. I jumped head first into tlt and I don't regret anything (currently working on a Harrow cosplay too!!)

18. A memorable meal this year? Oh I got a real stupid one for this. My bf and I went on a trip to Italy this summer and on our last day we were eating outside and we had?? a french youtuber stumble and almost fall RIGHT beside our table it was such a weird moment of recognition I was stunned because?? is this who I think it is that almost ate shit right beside me?? in Italy of all places???? And when I asked my bf if he recognized the guy bc I wanted to be sure of who I saw, he didn't even know him.

19. What’re you excited about for next year? Seeing Ghost again lmao. Also getting more tattoos!

20. What’s something you learned this year? Kinda learned to set better boundaries! It's helped a lot to be able to protect myself and not let people walk all over me, and being able to communicate in a healthier way when ppl I care about are hurting me and not realizing it

21. What’s something new about your place of residence (room, home, or general location) now vs the start of the year? Umm acquired more trinkets and Miku figures lmao,, Oh I also reorganized my print wall but other than that not much has changed!

22. Favorite place you visited this year? Edinburgh for suuuure I really fell in love with the whole city but the castle was especially beautiful

25. Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one Yeah I made a few new characters for my graduation portfolio :^) I don't want to spoil too much so I'll briefly talk abt Josué! He's a member of my main cast of monsters and he's a cool guy with 4 arms ans that's all you'll get for now!! I'll post about them all when I make full illustrations hehe

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3, 4, and 1 for Les Mis AND for Black Sails?:D

Ah! Thank you so much frand!!<3

1. which character do you relate to the most from your fandom?

1 is hard to answer because if relate means which character I am like the most, none of them at all, if I was I would instantly stop liking them and also it would be very boring, I don't want to read about people like me. I've never been able to identify with characters in terms of thinking that this character is exactly like me. I think of them as their own people, whereas I'm me. It's also more intriguing for me to then figure out what they are like in their own specific socio-political context and how they would behave in a situation. XD

So if I interpret it as which character I would love to spent more time with, I think, Prouvaire was the one I had a lot of initial idea about even though that was helped immensely knowing and reading about his real life inspiration whomst I love a lot. I have known people like Prouvaire (queer weirdo leftist poet-writer(s) irl) so he's always easier to write and understand for me and also a joy to write.

Currently, we have talked about it as well, I am relating to Bahorel's anger being a motivating factor and the constant heartbreak of political goings on and its like, I need it, everyday, every single day is just like that when you're deeply involved in politics from my experience, lol. I don't have his bravery or his extroversion, or the way he so readily makes connections or all the many many things I love him dearly for: his thoughtfulness, his Romantic sappiness/gentleness, but I admire him so, so much for always being ready to fight on the barricades and I think that stance is the one I relate to the most right now.

Last but not least Cosette, I love her bug adventures, her thoughts on ghosts not wearing round hats, and her wildness and bravery and relate to the endless patriarchal shit she has to navigate through. I would love to spend a lot of time with her. Also we are both perky goths, so we have that in common.

For Black Sails-- hands down Madi. I suspect it is also the case of I admire her so much, than I am like her. I am not like her, I wish I was. But I love her so much, I admire her and want to spend time with her and I want her to win in her fight against the British Colonial Empire.

3. what is your favorite ship?

Bahorel/Prouvaire. My favourite is definitely poetry smash and their hijinks and how they are both Romantic weirdos whomst I love very very much. There is so much to explore there that I never get tired of reading about them in many different iterations from werewolf Bahorel to reincarnation, to poetic spells, etc. Also it lets me indulge in my other main fandom of four people and a shoelace, and liberally blur the lines between fiction and reality when writing about them. I also really love how they give each other space in whatever relationship they have with each other: there is no pressure on them to stay in a romantic relationship, Bahorel understands Prouvaire's need to wander off for a while in his moods and then suddenly reappear again when he wants to. They do things separately too, yet still remain Romantic friends through it all. I love these kinds of relationships where the boundaries between friends and lovers are not very clear and they move between them.

For Black Sails:

Walrus, I cried when she went down. No other ship will ever come as close in my affections.

Lol, I don't know that I like Madi/Silver very much, I will never forgive Silver for betraying Madi, I get why she liked him and got together with him, but I'm not very keen on them as a couple. I like Anne/Max/Jack for what they are, though I'm not sure if they are my favourite ship. My disaster garbage on fire ship is Flint/Silver and the way that Silver keeps saying he will betray Flint and Flint doesn't take that seriously and then Silver betrays him. I am very invested, not in the romantic nature of this ship, not at all, but more in the mutual destructiveness of it, if that makes sense? They are bad for each other. Silver, the more he becomes like Flint, the less likeable he is, but it's still fascinating to watch.

4. what is your favorite CANON ship?

Is Bahorel/Prouvaire not canon? Bini definitely, I will always love them being together, they are uncomplicated in terms of how much it feels like they don't have petty misunderstandings/fights/breakup drama in their relationship. I also love bini a lot for how much they have worldly concerns but also are committed revolutionaries together and one without the other is the most evil timeline, and I don't want to think about that.

For Black Sails my answer is still Walrus, y'all, y'all I love that ship so much. She was so pretty and it broke my heart so much when she went down.

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