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mirrorballhughes · 6 months

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i miss you im sorry: luke hughes x adelaide hunter

hii i will be starting to write the actual fic soon! this is just gonna be a small portion of the fic on ade and luke going to UMich and meeting the hockey team :)

spring of 2021

the couple was at the hughes household with their college acceptance letters in hand. luke and adelaide were sitting at the table holding hands. adelaide was nervous, she gets good grades so she has nothing to worry about, but shes just scared of lukes reaction. the girls dream was to go to academy of arts university, that was allll way in new york. but she had some thoughts and over thought a bunch. quinn had helped ade with her decision.

fall of 2020 flashback

“academy of arts university is perfect for me q. but at the same time i think i would hate it. i just don’t think i could be away from luke.” the girl admitted, knowing quinn understands where she is coming from. the teenagers were always attached to the hip, unless they were both doing their own things. “adelaide thats totally understandable. you gotta go with your gut though. but to not be bias or anything i think you would fit in at UMich though.” quinn smiled, causing the brunette to shake her head. “they also have an arts program. a good fit for you.” ade smiled at the older boy, taking his thought into consideration, already having Umich right underneath AOAU. “thanks q. i appreciate it.” the girl hugged the boy as he rubbed circles on her back.

back to spring of 2021

“on three?” luke smiled looking at his girlfriend, then down at his letter. hughes & hunter family both counted down, “three!” the couple rushed into the envelopes going as quickly as possible. pulling the piece of paper out, reading their letters. “i got in!” they couple stood up looking at each other excitedly. “im going to UMich!” they both said at the same time, adelaide shot quinn a smile then brought her attention to luke, who didn’t comprehend what the brunette had said till it finally hit him.

“wait el, your also going to UMich? what about AOAU?” the boy questioned looking at his girlfriend. “new york is pretty far. also i feel like i wouldn’t like it. andd if i wear anything devils related i might get jumped.” she joked, causing everyone in the room to laugh, jack shaking his head at the younger girl. “i looked into it. they have a pretty awesome arts program. they were also interested in me because i used to be a field hockey player.” the girl said, causing luke to smile at el, pulling her in for a hug. “i'm excited ill be able to see you more! that means movie nights in dorms!” ade smiled, pulling her boyfriend in for a kiss on the lips, pulling away quickly as they were in front of family.

“well congratulations to you both! UMich will be honored to have you both!!” ellen pulled the couple in for a hug. they went around giving everyone a hug, ade whispered a quick thank you to quinn. “now whos hungry?”

august of 2021

summer came by fast and here the couple was now standing in the UMich campus going to find ades dorm first. the couple had found her dorm, walking in seeing her roommate wasn’t here yet. “okay let's get unpacking!” the girl cheered, looking at her boyfriend then to their fathers. quinn, jack and their moms were still at the car grabbing more of the girls' things. luke set down some boxes that he was carrying then started helping the girl set her side of the room up. they finished unpacking everything, their mothers did the last finishing touches and told them to go find lukes dorm.

adelaide found the curly haired boys dorm, “it’s down here!” she shouted waving her arms to get the group’s attention. their dorms weren’t that far from each others, lukes was on the same side as adelaide’s but in a different hallway. once the group caught up, adelaide opened the door and let luke walk in first. she followed behind him, seeing his roommate was unpacking as well. “oh hey! you must be luke, im dylan” the other brunette spoke, reaching his hand out for luke to shake it. “its nice to meet you. this is adelaide, my girlfriend.” luke pointed at the girl who waved. “its nice to meet you adelaide.” “its nice to meet you too dylan!” the pair smiled at each other then adelaide started moving lukes stuff in with the help of his brothers.

few weeks later

the couple was definitely enjoying UMich alot. they both met a ton of people and they were as happy as ever. luke wanted adelaide to come meet the hockey team, she was a bit nervous but not really. luke had met the girl at her dorm then headed to diner where the rest of the team was at. “don't be nervous love. they will love you.” luke grabbed the girls hand, noticing her shaking a little. he rubbed circles on the top of her hand to sooth her anxiety. “you got nothing to worry about. i'm here.” the girl smiled, kissing the boy's cheek as they headed down to the boy's car.

about 15 minutes later the couple was now at the diner. luke got out of the car, quickly making his way over to els side, opening the door for her as he took her hand. “if you wanna leave just squeeze my hand twice and we will go.” the boy kissed her forehead as she nodded, then they walked inside. “luke! over here!” a voice spoke causing adelaide to look up seeing a bunch of waving hands. luke smiled at his teammates then to the girl walking over there. “hey guys! this is adelaide.” the blonde smiled looking at the guys, there was about 4 people here. luke said there was 29 people on the team, counting him so the rest did not show. also by the looks of it, they are all freshmen and their faces look familiar ish.

“okay so el, this is ethan, mark, mackie and you already know duker.” she smiled at the four boys, “hi it’s nice to meet you guys. i have seen you guys around i think.” ethan smirked at the girl then to mark whose face was beat red. “what's up with estapa?” luke asked as the boy was usually hyper and talking. “well you see luke, mark was telling me about his hallway crush as he usually does right? he said she was wearing a devil's hoodie. so connecting the dots here, marks hallway crush is on your girlfriend.” mark glared at ethan, “dude!” the rest of the boys laughed, adelaide’s face got a slight tint of pink as she laughed along with them. the group got quiet realizing luke wasn’t laughing instead he was shooting daggers at mark. ethan grabbed luke and pulled him aside. “i can see the smoke exploding out of your ears right now hughesy. its just a hallway crush! nothing is gonna happen. look at the way she looks at you. she's madly in love with you.” the brunette boy reassured him as they made their way back over.

“you okay? it’s just a hallway crush. we all have them. i remember you had the biggest one on-“ adelaide stopped talking as she realized luke covered her mouth with his hand. “okay that's enough. let's eat i'm hungry.” he gently pushed his girlfriend into the booth sitting beside her. as the other 4 settled in with them, 3 on the other side and one more joining the couple. lukes hand rested on the girls thigh, watching her talk to his friends smiling to himself. luke was happy to see his friends and girlfriend get along so well. it just warmed his heart seeing his girlfriend smiling and laughing.

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adelaide becomes close with mark but she only sees him as a friend and so does he. that sparkle in her eye is literally only a luke thing. but the pair just got along so well once mark stopped being embarrassed about having a hallway crush on his friend's girlfriend.

addie is also close with duker, giving the fact luke goes on mini rants about the girl in a positive manner so he knows pretty much everything about her because of the hughes brother. the pair also does tend to hangout a lot when the girl is waiting for her boyfriend to come back to his dorm after classes. out of all of luke's friends duker definitely knows her the best.

addies roommate, storm they clicked instantly. they got along so well when storm saw adelaide was wearing a devils hoodie, which made storm laugh as she was a canes fan. the pair would always sit down and watch their teams games together and always enjoyed when they played against each other. storm could basically tell you everything about luke as well. she could listen to adelaide talk about him for hours because she knew that was pure genuine love. storm was an absolute blessing of a roommate and friend. the two girls just got along so well.

storm and duker being friends only because of their roommates, they usually go on debriefing starbucks talks about the couple. the debriefing starbucks runs were only when the pair was fighting, meaning they would try to get to the bottom of the whole thing seeing who was right, who was wrong, and how to fix it. they were the ones who basically got the couple back together, they came up with this whole mastermind plan.

as adelaide was going to umich with the arts program, she was taking a bunch of classes for photography. she needed a subject to shoot so she decided to use her boyfriend as one. so during their morning practices the blonde would take some action shots of her boyfriend. as she was taking pictures of luke, some of the others caught her eye so she took pictures of them as well. she handed in the pictures to get graded on, as that was happening luke had talked to the coach to see if el could be on the ice hockey's media team.

the coach needed to see the pictures to make his decision. once she got the grade A photos back let the coach take a look at them. he approved it and then made el the media girl. she would take pictures of the team and do all the video work for any social media. sometimes she would also get to post on the ice hockeys socials at times. this made el feel closer with luke. she already knew tons about hockey before but this just opened something more inside her. she also felt this helped her get closer with his teammates, and luke really adored that.

if you guys want any extras like, certain scenarios (ex. how both of the couple are when they are jealous, how adelaide’s relationship is with quinn and jack, what songs are about luke and why, the couples reaction when luke got drafted, them at parties, hiw they got together, angst of any kind. anything like that!) but i hope you guys are enjoying this!! im having fun writting this :)

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pbandjesse · 1 month

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To explain to you how tired I was today. I'm just going to let you know that I accidentally tried to unlock a different blue Subaru. One that was not mine. I was very confused why my car wasn't unlocking and then I looked up and said that there was not a bunch of little toys in the windshield and I felt very embarrassed and I hope to set the owner of that car did not see me.

Today was not a bad day I was just really tired. And kind of dreading my workshop. I don't know why this always happens. My workshops are always great and I always have a great time but the lead up to them makes me so stressed out. But James had moved everything that I needed for the workshop to the car before I was even awake. I let myself sleep in an extra 20 minutes and after my alarm went off James was kind of next to me on the ground holding my hand while I was half asleep. I remember this happening I'm very clear on that.

But when I was up for real James was downstairs and they would give me a big hug and we talked about breakfast and lunch and then I had to go.

Even though I left 15 minutes late it wasn't bad. Traffic I mean. And I didn't even get to camp much later than I normally do. So that was fine. When I got to camp I had my breakfast and I looked at some emails and then I just worked on printing everything I thought would be useful to have out and available for our meeting with the consultant John this afternoon. And once I was done that I was poking around online and doing some research. And eventually Heather would come in and she gave me the template that they want me to use for lesson plans this summer so I'm starting to move all of my information for lesson plans over there. And while I think the lesson format is nice it's not exactly step by step and I'm a little worried that people are not going to be clear. But I'm going to do my best to explain in the short format that they want it.

It was a nice morning. I felt like I had a good amount of stuff to do and around 11:30 I had my lunch which was just snacks because we didn't have anything I could just bring with me. And then at noon I went over to the lodge to get the table set up for the meeting. And I figured I would just sit over there and read and play on my phone until it was time.

And that ended up working out really nice. I got over there and I had some trouble finding one of the whiteboards so I texted Sarah and she let me know where it was and it was totally fine. And I got everything set up and John ended up being there early so I let Heather and them know and I read and I talked to him and it was just a nice time.

Right before the meeting started everyone decided that the projector wasn't working well on the wall that we had it on so we had to move all the tables I set up. But I was not emotionally committed to this so I don't really care. And then we got into the meeting and honestly I felt like it was pretty productive.

We went through all of the things that we were going to talk about today and then John had us play a team building game with figuring out what license plates say. Like vanity plates. And there was some funny ones. And I think we did pretty good. I got six of the nine I think he showed us. I got two wrong. But it was very fun and when we got into the actual meat of the meeting so to speak. I finally just spoke up and talked about some of the things I've worked on because Sarah and Elizabeth kept looking over at me when he would ask questions about programming and he's like why are you guys looking over there and I'm just like because I'm the one that made all of them. And I'm not saying that because I'm salty about it. I really am excited that I've been working on these programs cuz that's what I want to do. But it's been a little frustrating that the conversation just keeps being oh we might use it if if. And I'm like but when is the if. When are we going to talk about it. Because it seems like we only talk about it when the consultant is here. But I think he realized that and now we're pushing towards getting more work done that isn't just me. And I was able to kind of get a little praise about how good my schedule work has been and how thorough I've been with making sure that everything is getting all of the components that everybody wants. It's just the execution that I can't handle that's in the future. So I get to be proud of myself for all of my hard work and that feels really good.

The second half of the meeting was a lot of like strategic planning about the training of camp and I have some thoughts about it but in general I really only have concerns about specialty and making sure that they have enough time to set up and know what they're doing because every year especially staff doesn't know their specialty staff until the week of training and I think that's stupid because then they have no time to prepare. Thankfully this year I am preparing for them but they still should have some input and have some time to get the space set up so they're not constantly floundering. And hopefully that will be worked into the schedule. That would make me very happy.

I really had to leave at 4:00. Because I had to stop and get something to eat before I went home because I would only be home for a little bit before I had to run to my workshop. And I hate leaving the meeting before it's over because they wanted to play one more team building game like hey guys this is great John thank you so much but I got to go. What are you teaching and I'm like printmaking and it's going to be great. But I left. And walked across the field, stopped at the office, and grab my bag, and then I was off.

I drove to cockeysville and stopped at Taco Bell. I got two tacos to have now and wanted to have later. And they were fine. The one was a little spicy. I feel like I've been very spicy sensitive this weekend I don't know why. Like everything is too salty or too spicy and I'm just being a big baby about it I don't know what's going on with my taste buds. But I ate those quickly and I was able to get home right after 5:00.

Traffic wasn't terrible. And thankfully changing out the cord in the car fixed all the issues and so I didn't have my podcast drop at all the entire drive. And I got home and was not pleased to see that they did not take our trash again. I know we have the old trash cans but still take our trash. So that was annoying. But I was really happy to see James and Sweetp.

After I unpacked my bag we sat in the studio and sweet pea was being really cute on the new pillow I got him. He really likes the alpaca fur. And we all just talk and it's nice. I was home for less than an hour but it was really nice being together and then I had to leave again. I gave James a big hug and then I was on my way to Creative Alliance.

I got a great parking spot when I got there and went right inside. I set up and moving the tables and chairs always takes the longest but I got it in a nice u shape and then I put out all my materials. I had one table for materials and examples and one for my ink and printing stuff. And I think next time I might have two printing tables just because there was kind of a line getting built up a few times. But everyone was so nice when they showed up. I ended up having eight people and three of them were sets of two. And the other two ended up making friends and exchanging numbers at the end and I thought that was so sweet. And everyone was just super kind. I don't think it was my best intro ever. But I still think that we did amazing and we had some issues with the black ink not printing correctly. So I might stop at Michael's tomorrow to grab more because that will be very annoying to deal with on Saturday with the kids. But honestly seeing everyone's work was just really awesome.

I made a bunny as my example and went through the whole process with them using that and I had them on practice on a little piece of rubber and show them how to transfer off of tracing paper and it was just a really great. And just seeing everyone's different styles was awesome. One person insisted on doing words. Because someone always does. But they ended up doing a really good job and I think that the way they did it worked out really nice.

While we were having trouble with the black ink the red and the blue were working great and someone was like hey could we make purple so I ended up mixing up some ink to be purple and that was really fun and then I noticed that my lid on my green was shattered and that had to have happened in the last day because it was not like that when I put it in the box that I carried everything in yesterday so that's annoying so I taped that together to hopefully keep the ink from drying out. But I was really not happy. At least everything else was fine.

No one seemed to want to leave so we were all just kind of hanging out and talking about music and stuff to do in Baltimore because the one girl had just moved here and I even got some really good tips about stuff that I should definitely check out. Like I'm not much for clubs but some of the other stuff they were talking about founded about. And who knows about her actually do it but I'm still excited to kind of foster that little community in that moment and that was really great.

Everyone want to know about the next workshops I'd be doing I told them all about the adult home act program that's going to be starting and we talked about different things that I teach and different museums that we all like since a couple of us worked in museums. And it was really lovely. I just worked on cleaning up while we talked and around 8:45 everyone was gone.

I stayed to wash everything in the sink because I did not want to do that at our house. And then I packed up everything in the wagon and went to the car. And now I'm sitting outside our house. Finishing up my post so that when I go inside I can just focus on James. Because they're leaving tomorrow for the weekend to go to Paul's bachelor party in Las Vegas and I'm jealous because I've never been to Nevada. I don't care about Las Vegas but I hope they have a really good time and get me a cool souvenir.

I hope you guys all sleep well tonight. I have a field trip tomorrow and our groups are huge so I'm a little nervous but hopefully it will all work out really good. Sleep well everybody. Until next time.

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itlivesproject · 2 years

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could we get a peek at the writing process for ILW? like did you make character playlists? pinterest moodboards? storyboards about how scenes will play out that you then have to write or anything like that? are there any abandoned plotlines you initially wanted to add but they didnt make the final cut? and who was the first person to want to create this project? was anyone at all friends before or everyone was atrangers? when did the project start? did yall have zoom meetings or sorted everything out on tumblr through text? sorry for the amount of questions! its ok if you dont want to/cant give answers to everything, i just really admire the ILW team for coming up with this masterpiece a lot haha

Ooh this ask looks fun! I'm gonna add a read more because this is getting long.

So once upon a time in the summer of 2020, the choices fandom was getting more active (I think) because of COVID. A bunch of people were bored and lonely and playing choices. So I got involved in the fandom and replayed It Lives, and it got me thinking about a book 3. I became obsessed with the craft of telling a choice based story. I was analyzing choices books, noticing things I thought they could’ve done to make more impactful choices, trying to figure out how to go from novel writing to VN novel writing where there are multiple paths, etc. So I started talking to my sister who also plays choices and we came up with the basics of ILW. We created the bare bones - character sketches, basic lore, potential endings, etc. I then downloaded renpy and started to teach myself coding.

Cut to January 2021, when It Lives 3 was officially canceled. I made this post:

I got my original recruits from this post, including mod maggie and mod eri! Aside from my sister and me, none of us knew each other before the start of the project, aside from being vague acquaintances, though I think maggie and I were actually mutuals at that point because we'd bonded over noah x mc a couple of times. Once the project was further along, we ended up getting more writers/artists/programmers who are active on the team now, including mod sugar, mod m, mod evie, and other members who aren't mods on this blog.

Anyway, after I got some recruits, I made a discord server and shared google folder. The server has a million channels, channels for each writer, artist, for backgrounds, for music, for characters, for programming, for nonsense. In our drive folder, we have different folders for art, planning, writing, and each writer has their own folder where they put their scenes into. Once their scenes are finished, I copy the scenes into a compiled folder where I put everything together and we can freely edit the scenes.

When we first started, the most important part was planning and sequencing out the story. We didn't start writing until we had everything planned from beginning to end (mostly). We had the endings and figured out how everything would work, we planned out all the lore docs and complex background lore. The only thing we didn't fully plan out beforehand are scene details, but we had the general arc/main point of each chapter from the beginning. While planning, we used to talk basically nonstop every day. We had voice calls on discord once or twice a month on the weekends, and we made a chart with google sheets that had everyone's time zones so we could plan times that everyone could attend.

Anyway, once the planning stages were ready we made the outline. We took the different arcs and interspersed them through chapters. We try to make each chapter have a mostly cohesive arc as well. The outline has the short version, which is split by scene with a small description and an assignment of who's supposed to write it. Then we have a detailed outline that the writers refer to before starting their scenes. In the detailed outline, it has more information about what's going on in the scene. For example (ch 8 spoiler) the short outline scenes were:

Scene 1 - Linc shows up at Matthy's house/argument - Lindsay

Scene 1A - Lincoln diamond scene - Lindsay

Scene 1B - Abel diamond scene - Maggie

Scene 2 - Annie convo - M

Then if you go to the longer outline, there are more fleshed out descriptions. However, often times there's just a short paragraph explaining the scene, like "Linc shows up and gets mad that rowan is with matthias. you find out matthias is lincoln's dad, rowan can either side with him or not. they get back to the cabin, linc and abel get into an argument about matthias, and again you can either side with linc or abel or neither." So important plot points are mentioned in the scene description, but it's still up to the assigned writer to flesh out the scenes. Often times, in our personal writer channels, we'll ask other team members to help us come up with ideas, figure out how to make things happen, improve dialogue, etc.

In addition, we often have little writing parties on the weekends. We have a bot that does word sprints for us, and the winner of the writing retreat will sometimes get some kind of reward from yours truly. You know, to increase motivation and whatnot.

We don't really have pinterest boards, moodboards, or playlists. I just don't bother with that because it's not something that particularly interests me I guess, and I haven't seen anyone else do any of that either. Mostly we just talk a lot and when we finally sit down to write, we're constantly messaging each other in the channels haha.

There are some things we were thinking about including that have been cut or changed. But I feel like for the most part, we surprisingly have somehow managed to keep a lot of our original ideas. I guess a lot of them just evolved from one form to another, so even if it's not the same thing as the original idea, I feel like it is because I was there for the process of how it changed.

Anyway, hope this answered your question! It was fun to write up <3

#ask #anon #mod win #writing

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187days · 2 months

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Day One Hundred Thirteen

I had a lot of meetings today. Only one of them- the usual Thursday morning PLC meeting- was expected.

That one wasn't a particularly eventful meeting either; I just had a handful of things to go over with the department, and some of the guys had questions about course selection and the program of studies, and then we should have gone to do our curriculum work, but we spent an additional ten minutes or so joking about which one of us should apply to be the next superintendent (the current one is retiring at the end of this year), and what our leadership would mean for the district. While that was going on, The Principal asked to see me to follow-up on a conversation we'd had about leveling and differentiation, so we agreed to meet at 8:15.

When did I actually get to the meeting? 8:19.

I got sucked into answering emails and lost track of the time, then bolted out of my classroom when I realized it. Luckily, The Principal wasn't bothered; he and Dean 1 were still wrapping up a separate discussion anyhow. Once they were done, I stepped into the office, and we had a really productive meeting about our original topic as well as some other things involving my department. As we were wrapping up, he asked how I'm doing and how my teaching year's been going. I told him I'm fine- always am- but I appreciated the check-in.

When I returned to my classroom, I had a message from Mr. N asking if we could meet to discuss some future English and social studies interdisciplinary work, but by that time the block was almost over, so we ended up having a lunch meeting instead. We're going to apply for money to do summer work, but we also want to get the ball rolling during upcoming teacher workshop days, if possible. It's kind of fun that we've gone from being mentor and mentee to both being department heads, and getting to make these kinds of plans together.

And in between all these meetings, I taught my classes!

In APGOV, students smashed a vocab quiz, then some MCQ practice, and we wrapped up my multi-day lesson on the presidency and vice presidency by discussing relevant constitutional amendments (12th, 20th, 22nd, 25th). What's next? All about the bureaucracy; I teased this by asking them to hypothetically order a pizza (they told me all the toppings they wanted) and then guess how many federal agencies were involved in regulating that pizza (something like a dozen). That was amusing.

In Global Studies, students continued reading their books, and then I had them get into groups to share what they're reading, what interesting plot points they've gotten to so far, and what they learned from the background research they did last class. After that, we had a whole class discussion; I asked them to tell. me what their classmates had shared with them, what they'd shared themselves, or both. That went WAY better than I thought it was going to go. Like, I figured it would be decent, but it was actually really cool and some students who don't typically participate in class discussions put their hands up for this one. Hooray for that!

After school, I proctored the citizenship test for any seniors still needing to pass it. Every social studies teacher gives the test monthly during the school day, but it's good to give other opportunities, too, because some students are taking their social studies courses online, or they're not in one of our courses till next quarter, or they've failed previous attempts. It took longer than I'd thought it would because one of the test-takers was a former student, and we got to talking as I graded her test, so I missed track practice. I'd told The Head Coach that was a possibility, though.

The team will be at New England's on Saturday. One last meet for this indoor season!

#teaching #edublr #teachblr #education #high school #teacher #social studies #coaching #indoor track #the head coach #post season #the principal #the superintendent #Mr. N #meetings meetings meetings #department head #citizenship test #day one hundred thirteen

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sergeant-angels-trashcan · 3 years

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Are you a librarian? I saw that one post of yours and thought this person has probably studied library science.

aaahhh so technically, no. I do not have my MLS. I HAVE worked part time at the nearest branch of my local library system for...6 years? 5 years? what is time? (the only people our system requires to have an MLS are branch managers)

our system is pretty chill about the whole “you are NOT a librarian unless you have a masters of library science” thing. because “to the people who come in, you’re a librarian, so sure, call yourself a librarian”

so like...I am sort of a librarian? I know that that mindset isn’t typical outside of our little system enclave so I never really know how to answer that. usually I say I’m a part-time librarian

#you've got questions i've got answers #personal #tales of a part time librarian #i'm actually in a teams meeting about summer reading program #our kids librarian (also doesn't have an mls) just crammed so much information into 30 minutes #i love her but why #our system is very big on stuff like library bill of rights training #we're one of the biggest systems in the US so that might be the difference?#anyway i miss my gay teens :(#freeandclear3567

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knickknacksandallthat · 2 years

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Has flavors of fall been completely written? And is there a chance you'll post an early chapter just cuz 🥺👉🏻👈🏻

Also are there any other fics you're working on?

Love your work so much! You're probably my favourite author no exaggeration!

Hello Anon! To answer your question first, yes! It has been completely written! (Well...okay, okay...it's mostly written lol. I'm still having fun adding things into the epilogue chapter - but the MAIN plot and chapters have all been written 😉)

Will I post a chapter early? hmm...maybe not early this week BUT...you might get an extra chapter around Christmas. (But shhh...don't tell anyone!) Happy to partake in the tradition of giving this season! 😁 (And happy holidays to anyone who doesn't celebrate Christmas too! Whatever your reason for celebrating or not celebrating this season, I hope you have a wonderful time! ❤️)

And just because you asked so nicely, anon, here's a little sneak peek into works I have in my in-progress list!

1.) 12 Day Program for Courtship - So as promised to anyone who read the 12 Days to Woo a Minyard, this guy is my main work rn. I'm busy outlining and writing to see what shenanigans I can work up between Kevin & Aaron. (And oh man...so far...beautiful amounts of hysterical and cringe...can't wait lol!) The gist rn, though, is that Aaron is torn between going to some medical training program or the *lacrosse training camp the team does each year during the summer. He has 12 days before the deadline is due and has to pick one of them, so Kevin is determined to convince him of which option he should clearly choose. But things aren't as easy as they seem - because Kevin has a rival in Katelyn, who is just as determined to get Aaron to go to the medical training program instead. It's a fight to the finish, with the prize being...lacrosse, right? Because Kevin cares so much about the team and Aaron can't afford to be so far behind. Not because he'd miss Aaron and can't bear the thought of being without him this summer. Not because they've been getting closer lately and Kevin is suddenly feeling strangely attached. Not because his eye starts to twitch whenever he sees Katelyn and Aaron sitting close to one another in the campus coffee shop. Nope. Not at all...

*me forgetting that this au is a No Exy AU, LOL!

2.) The Stray (We'll see if this title sticks) - another Andreil fic set in a universe where Andrew/Neil meet for the first time in an apartment complex and rub each other the wrong way. (No, not that way, get your heads out of the gutters guys! 😉😉) Cue the slow getting to know one another, learning to trust, and a couple of secrets along the way. (And some annoying Riko appearances, booo). I've got some scenes written for this one but holding off so I can focus on #kevaaron. (Completely outlined though).

3.) To Win the Heart of a Prince (Title TBD) - fantasy AU for Andreil this time where Andrew is to be crowned King and must choose a prince for a husband from one of the neighboring kingdoms to form an alliance. Cue lots of angst, trouble from the Moriyamas & Wesninskis, secret identities, romance, and a little background jerejean. (Completely outlined in a fit of inspiration last week LOL)

4.) Roommate AU (Title TBD) - Andreil universe set in college where Neil is kicked out of his childhood home and starts living with Matt, Kevin, Allison, and Andrew. But Neil has never been out on his own before and feels the weight of college, his part-time jobs, and the frequent calls from his father and stepmother slowly crushing him. Good thing he isn't distracted by anything...like his mysterious and slightly odd roommate...who grows more and more interesting by the day. (I have plans for this to be a three-part series, actually, with it mostly outlined).

The above will all be multi-chapter fics, but I might throw in a oneshot here and there along the way. (Depends on how frustrated I'm feeling with my multi-fic at the moment lol!)

And aww, thank you so much as well!! Such a lovely compliment! I'm always so happy to hear someone is enjoying my work, so I so appreciate you reaching out and letting me know! Thank you, anon! 😘❤️🥰 (And I hope something piques your interest above!)

#lovely people #asks #my writing #andreil #kevaaron #in progress #writing updates

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softertoday · 3 years

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haven't been here in a long time.

no one is going to read this and that's okay i guess. i think i just need somewhere to vent.

i used to spend a lot of time on this website and then it fell off but i deleted all my other social media apps because i feel like shit when i'm scrolling through instagram or twitter or facebook. i have nothing else to do and no one to talk to.

i've been in and out of treatment for a year now. currently i'm coming up on 8 weeks in this residential treatment center for eating disorders. i haven't been home for more than a few hours in 3 months. i want to go home so badly. i miss my dog, riley, so much.

i have a meeting tomorrow afternoon, hopefully, where i'll be able to talk to my treatment team about how i feel like i'm ready to go home and they'll probably tell me that they want me to stay a little bit longer. i feel like each week i tell them i want to go and they say "just a little while longer."

honesty i'm not sure if i'm actually 100% ready to leave yet but i have to go home. i have to. i'm going to be 30 years old next month and i'd like to actually be home for that. i need to be with my dog. he deserves so much better than someone who continues to dip out every few weeks. thank god for my parents who have been taking care of him, but it's not fair to them either. idk if i'm really ready to go home and do PHP virtually but that's what i need to do. i am feeling better than how i was before i came here, for sure, but i'm obviously not cured. i won't be cured in another 2 or 3 weeks either so i would rather go home now. whether that means being discharged or i leave ACA... i'm ready to fucking go.

i've been here 8 fucking weeks. i feel so guilty. my parents are suffering, my friends don't talk to me anymore, i have no one else. i need to go back to my life and i really don't want anyone to try to talk me out of it.

my outpatient therapist is currently on maternity leave tho so i'm not sure if i'd need to see the therapist covering for her or if PHP will be good enough. i'm scared about that and i'm scared about doing PHP virtually. i know virtual programming is hard for anyone, but i've tried it in the past with the IOP program at the hospital and it didn't really work for me. this is totally different tho because it's for ed PHP and i've never done this before, i'm not sure what it'll be like or how i'll handle it all.

i was majorly restricting before coming here. fasting for at least 72 hours at a time and eating under 500 calories a day when i would eat. i was compulsively exercising and abusing laxatives, as well as the continued self harm. my sh was becoming very severe again and my parents were scared. i was really sick. in and out of the hospital literally every couple of weeks. i don't even remember most of the past 6 months due to being malnourished and unable to think or hold a conversation or remember literally anything. i didn't realize how ill i really was until i started eating again here at res.

it's scary to think how bad it was and for how long. i don't want to go back to that. when i tell my mom i'm ready to leave treatment, she always says i have to be able to keep myself safe at home and i feel like i can but what if i can't?

i think that's something i'll deal with when it comes up. i'm doing a bit better with asking for help.... kinda. i'm definitely eating (6x a day) and i haven't cut myself in like a month at least.

i need to leave res and go home. i can't stay here anymore. i wasn't planning on being here for 2 months. i spent my whole summer in treatment and i just really really want to leave now.

#diary #vent #treatment #eating disorder treatment #residential treatment #ed #ed recovery #eating disorder recovery #tw ed mention #tw sh mention

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popcultureconfessions · 2 years

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If a genie appeared out of fucking nowhere and told you that you have three wishes, what would you wish for? (And you can't wish for more wishes!)

I wish I was 5'10.

I wish I played volleyball throughout middle and high school.

I wish I attended either FiDM or LIM College straight after high school (and actually got a salary paying job of my desired career job title (whatever that is) prior to graduating).

There are quite a lot of wishes I have, but these are my top if I'm being totally honest. Now for some stories!

#2: I really don't know why I didn't do volleyball in middle school, especially since because I played it in 2nd grade through 5th grade. All you had to do was walk up to the coach and tell her that you wanted to be on the team, and you were (more than likely) automatically on - no tryouts or anything. I don't recall if volleyball was an option in 6th grade, but it was in 7th and 8th. You had to tryout for 9th grade and going forward, though. Anyways, get this: I attended freshman orientation during the summer and everything went fine. Pretty big school. Well, as I was heading out, I passed the gym, and there was a sign on the gym. Fast forward to the first day of school -> I had 'VOLLEYBALL' written on my schedule, which totally excited me, and it was first period. As I was sitting in the gym with my mates listening to the coach talk about how the class will go, she asked all of us to turn in our forms. A confused me looked around at the other girls handing her the forms, wondering where it came from. I told the coach that I didn't get one, and she said she handed them out at tryouts. Um . . . "... When were tryouts," I asked her with slight anxiety. During the damn freshman orientation. After being told, I then remembered what the sign on the gym door read: VOLLEYBALL TRYOUTS. I saw the sign as I was heading out to the car to leave. Nobody told me the tryouts were during freshman orientation! So, due to not trying out, I had to get my schedule changed and ended up getting put in P.E. . Dude, I was so fucking pissed. #3: I took fashion marketing my junior year and fashion design my senior year in high school. One of the admission counselors from FiDM lives in a nearby city of the state I live in, and she came to visit my fashion design class to talk about FiDM. I've always been interested in fashion, and after taking these two classes and meeting her, I knew I wanted to go there. I had everything I needed in order to apply as well as got a letter of recommendation from each fashion teacher, so all I needed to do was complete a few more steps and then I was set. Well, I brought up wanting to apply to the parents, and instead of being supportive and excited for me, they chose to argue and made it clear that they were against me attending. Aside from tuition (and everything else that came with it regarding expenses), they did not want me to live in California by myself. There are four locations in California, by the way, and the main one is in Los Angeles, which is where I was wanting to go. I ended up not applying, and it really pissed me off. I was super depressed the rest of 2012, because, unlike most everyone else, I was not going straight to college after high school. As for LIM College, which is in New York, in 2013, my mum told me about their one week summer camp program and asked if I wanted to attend (she knew damn well that I was interested in fashion), so I happily signed up. I loved the experience as a fashion student and the institute itself! At that time, I attended a community college prior to graduating high school since I was now unsure of what I wanted to major in and where I wanted to attend after being told that FiDM was unacceptable. So ... this is totally my fault and I still don't understand why I didn't think of it at the time, but applying to LIM to start in the fall 2014 did not occur to me, and I have no excuse as to why it did not. Unless I'm just making this up, I could have sworn that the parents asked me if I wanted to apply (and attend), and I responded that I wasn't because I was more interested in the creative aspect of fashion rather than business side. If that did happen, then I absolutely 100% regret saying that and hate myself. Including the summer camp, I've been to New York twice (first time was my senior graduation gift), so it's not like I would have been a complete stranger to the state. To this day, I still wonder if the parents would have been okay with me attending if I got accepted. I mean, I know how classes work at the institute and I've been to New York more than once, so I don't really see what other argument they could have used against me.

Soooo yeah... that's my three wishes. Great question!

#ask #answered #2021 #this is not pop culture related

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douchebagbrainwaves · 5 years

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WHY I'M SMARTER THAN EVERYONE

I worry that they not only teach students the wrong things about writing, but put them off writing entirely. So you get a regular job, you'll probably be done faster. I made for a panel discussion on programming language design at MIT on May 10,2001. In fact, worse than arrogant: since readers are used to essays that try to please someone, an essay that displeases one side in a dispute reads as an attempt to preserve some existing source of revenue, you're probably not doing anything new, and dignity is merely a sort of golden triangle involving doctors, Mercedes 450SLs, and tennis. Angels can take greater risks because they don't have any. An essay is supposed to be a company. It's obvious why: problems are irritating. What you don't often find are kids who react to challenges like adults. A in the first year. And acquirers tell me privately that revenue is not what they buy startups for, but their strategic value. Well, if you're troubled by uncertainty, I can answer that. So I inverted the 5 regrets, yielding a list of 5 commands Don't ignore your dreams; don't work too much; say what you think; cultivate friendships; be happy.

So all they're saying is that you're still at square 1. What this means for us, and better for the company to become valuable, and now it's not. Kate said that she could never pick out successful founders, she could recognize VCs, both by the way they dressed and the way they carried themselves. How far behind are you? The reason these conventions are more dangerous is that they have to be. It has nothing to do with class, as I was writing a talk for investors, and they know how much jobs suck. It was to pick a team, and many players who clearly shouldn't. Maybe things will be different a year from now, you'll be making $4. What, you invested $x million of our money in a pair of really smart 18 year olds—he couldn't be faulted, if it is true, is another question. It's getting more straightforward to get things manufactured. The games played by intellectuals are leaking into the real world, and this consumes less energy.

Everyone who's worked on difficult problems is probably familiar with the phenomenon of working hard to figure something out. But what you tell him doesn't matter, so long as there is no limit to the number of people who wish they'd gotten a regular job will stay close to 0%. They use different words, certainly. Immediately Alien Studies would become the most dynamic field of scholarship: instead of painstakingly discovering things for ourselves, we could simply suck up everything they'd discovered. There was no reason you couldn't have done that in the era of physical media. The way adults used the word good, it seemed to them, and another that will seem an anathema. Investors will often reject you for what seem to be afraid of looking bad. A good running back is not merely helpful in solving hard problems, but necessary. I have no illusions about how eagerly this suggestion will be adopted. In fact most aren't.

Like all rivers, it's rigorously following the laws of physics. Ok, so written and spoken language are different. By 1700, someone who doesn't will seem arrogant. Designing software that works on that scale. But I'm not prepared to cross moms. A typical VC fund is now hundreds of millions of dollars, a good idea, because we're now three steps removed from real work: the students are imitating English professors, who are imitating classical scholars, who are imitating classical scholars, who are merely the inheritors of a tradition growing out of what was, 700 years ago, software development meant ten programmers writing code in C. One reason it was profitable to carve up 1980s companies and sell them for parts was that they hadn't formally acknowledged their implicit debt to employees who had done good work and expected to be rewarded with high-paying executive jobs when their time came. I hear similar complaints from friends who are professors. The other reason parents may be mistaken is that, like speculating in securities.

This time founders may keep starting startups. Once a toll becomes painful, people start to find ways around it, and expand your ambitions when and if you make something cheaper you can sell more of them. These too are engaging in the wrong way: they tend to operate in secret. Right? Maybe it would be a mistake to attribute the decline of unions to some kind of decline in the people who think they don't need investors to start most companies; they can do to make programs shorter is good. Once you realize how little most people judging you are more like a fluid than individual objects. Eventually something would come up that required me to use it. They've lost most of their momentum. And if you just hang on, things will probably get better. Does that make written language worse? And in desktop software there is a second much more common type of judgement, the type where judging you is only a means to something else. They think creating a startup is an idea for a startup is an idea for a startup equals coming up with a cartoon idea of a very successful businessman in the cartoon it was always a man: a rapacious, cigar-smoking, table-thumping guy in his fifties who wins by exercising power, and isn't too fussy about how.

Imagine if people in 1700 saw their lives the way we'd been taught to write essays in school. It was during the trough after the Internet Bubble, startups dried up too. If you think someone judging you will work hard to judge you correctly, you can cry and say I can't do it half-heartedly. I'm sometimes accused of meandering. That should correct the problem. It's hard enough to overcome one's own misconceptions without having to think about this. A lot of the best ones were languages designed for their own authors to use, but that you should start startups when you're young and there are lots of them around. Make something people want is the destination, but Be relentlessly resourceful is the recipe for a lot of startups—probaby most startups funded by Y Combinator.

Now that we know what we're looking for, that leads to other questions. And you in turn will be guaranteed to be spared one of the first things they discovered was what we call the classics. Three months' funding is enough to get an edge, and don't start other projects. There's a kind of a battle of the byte codes at the moment. So about half the founders from that first summer, less than two years ago, are now rich, at least. You should only write about things you've thought about a lot. And in most of them were of competitors. If you make people with money love you, you can cry and say I can't do it, they'll let you run the company. But software companies don't hire students for the summer as a source of cheap labor. Force him to read it and write an essay about color or baseball.

For a while it annoyed me to hear myself described as some kind of authority. If the answer is yes, and you don't get told what to do by someone you had to acknowledge as a boss—someone who could call you into their office and say take a seat, and you'd sit! Instead he'll spend most of your time working on new stuff. But it's a mistake founders constantly make. But the more reliable route is to convince them to buy instead of them trying to convince them through your users: if you make something good. But they usually let the initial meetings stretch out over a couple weeks. VCs think. That generates almost as good returns as actually being able to pick winners. You may have as many as five or ten releases a day. I discovered that when a startup needed to talk to someone, I could usually get to the right person by at most one hop. The big disadvantage of the new skills you'll learn.

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ibmextremeblue · 6 years

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I'm here, and we engineer accomplishnience has here stayed.

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Okay, maybe computers aren’t a substitute for creativity – at least not yet. It looks like we have to write this ourselves. What you just read was generated by a recurrent neural network that learned to write by reading all the previous Extreme Blue blog posts.

Our team has been spending much of the summer so far creating deep learning models that can read and comprehend source code to give developers tips on improving it. We’ve dubbed our product Sourcerer and have high hopes for its opening act. Basically, we’re trying to program ourselves out of jobs.

It hasn’t been all heavy machine learning and math, though. Since we’re working on a completely new product, we’ve had to leverage our design skills to figure out how best to present the output of our machine learning model to users in an interpretable way. We’ve been conducting user interviews with developers to understand how Sourcerer would fit into their workflow, and fleshing out the business case for it.

Outside of work hours, we’ve been exploring Durham and the Research Triangle area, doing poorly at trivia night, and making new friends! Meet each of our team members:

From left to right: David, Eleanor, Isabella, Halley

Isabella Yamin

Isabella is the product manager sourceress intern on the team. She grew up in Jakarta and Singapore, and is now attending The Wharton School for her MBA in the City of Brotherly Love. In her free time, she likes to think about Sourcery puns and try out new keto recipes!

Eleanor Pence

Eleanor is going into her senior year at MIT, majoring in computer science. Her role in this team is that she is the person who tries to keep the number of Sourcery puns to a reasonable level. Her hobbies include rock climbing, digital art, and having very strong opinions about the sociology and economics of fictional empires.

David Wehr

David is getting a masters in Computer Science at Iowa State University and has been decently coping with the lack of nearby corn fields. He has several hobbies to appease his short attention span, but they mostly revolve around music, being outdoors, and building geeky things.

Halley Fede

Halley is a Math and Computer Science Major at Rensselaer Polytechnic Institute, who feels awkward talking about herself in the third person. She enjoys playing tennis, hiking, documentaries and learning about obscure conspiracy theories.

Some photos from Durham, the town nearest the RTP Extreme Blue lab. Above: a barbershop. Below: some of the ciders on tap at the ciderworks where we failed so completely at trivia.

Some photos we took this week around IBM’s RTP campus. Top and bottom left: posters. Top right: The Extreme Blue lab is, inexplicably, located in the middle of a forest. We exaggerate, but only slightly. Bottom right: an old-fashioned IBM logo, spotted around campus.

This week, we built a manual Kanban board to keep track of who’s doing what. Below: Isabella caught in the act of adding her tasks to the board.

This week, we also went to go see IBM CEO Ginni Rometty speak! Because of a scheduling mix-up, we had to wait for about an hour before the talk actually started, but it was an interesting talk, so we’ll forgive her :)

#ibm #ExtremeBlue #extreme blue #rtp #internship #deep learning

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